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unlady-like-12-25-36 · 2 years

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Romanoff's Delight

_Chapter 1_ Natasha Romanoff x f!reader

Warning: Mentions and descriptions of abuse, and eating disorder. I think that's it. If there are any more, I should add that's also a trigger warning, lmk. I do not control what you consume online. You have been warned!

A/n: If any of the content is triggering for you, do not read or skip the y/n pov part since that is the only part of this fic that I put a warning for. If you chose to read this fic and have been triggered, please seek help and do not send any hate to me or any other amazing mutual writers out there just b/c you chose to ignore warnings! I will come after you if any of you do! You have been warned!

A/sn: age gap relationship. Nat is 33 and r is 20. Sry if i failed to put this up earlier 😅

A/sn 2: This fic was heavily inspired by Bazzi's new album Infinite dream. If y'all are interested plz go listen to it on Spotify or apple music or anywhere it's available. Also, I found it interesting that there is a dessert out there called Strawberry Romanoff and its origin is really interesting. so I was inspired to name it after our fav Tasha Bear.

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Word count: 3,906 🤷‍♀️ If any of that matters. Also sry if it's very long for a first chapter 😅

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"Does it hurt?" Asked the rabbit. "Sometimes," said the skin horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are real, you don't mind being hurt." - Margery Williams Bianco, The Velveteen Rabbit

_Earth 616 Norway_ 2016_

As Natasha arrived back at her safehouse from the store, she finished the rest of her coffee and briefly prepared herself before leaving the car for anything that could be secretly waiting for her inside. With a careful step, she entered her trailer house as quietly as possible while holding her gun in front as a safe way to take point of the area if it ever was unsafe. When Natasha had come across her bedroom, she had let her guard down when she had heard her friend snoring away on her bed. Just then, as she kept her movements as quiet as possible, a look of mischief bore her face as she got closer to see if her friend, Mason, was still asleep before lightly kicking him awake, causing him to gasp in surprise.

"You're in my bed."

"I'm.. I'm not under the covers," he says to justify his reason for sleeping on her bed, even if he wasn't under the covers. Yet, that didn't mean she wasn't unhappy about it.

"Got everything on my list?"

"Got passports, entry visas, a couple of local driver's licenses. Mix and match; you should be able to stretch it to 20 or so identities."

"Fanny Longbottom?"

"What?"

"What, are you 12?"

"That's a legitimate name," he says, chuckling. "We got a generator outside. It's petrol-powered, and septic tank will flush in a couple of weeks. But you know, I have a guy coming for that. You have to haul your rubbish into town. It's just a 20-minute drive. And I've got your basic hardware kit stashed under the stairs."

"Nice," she says as gratefully as she can without giving away how distraught she is at how easy it was for the Avengers to break apart and take sides over a political deal multiple countries had signed. However, that quickly fails as Mason immediately senses that not everything is ok. Or so he thinks, as Natasha had only ever called him when she needed something, nothing more. Though she longed for a family she's never had, the Avengers she strove so hard to keep together make it as though it wasn't as it seemed or something she hoped it would be.

As Natasha deflected Mason's attempts to get her to open up a little about how she felt about the situation, Mason soon realised that maybe he should stop trying as she's only kept him at arm's length—making him walk away disapprovingly. That night as she's settled in, she cracks a beer and heats a can of soup. At the same time, she watches one of her favourite James Bond movies on her laptop to comfort her as her concerns about her life begin to come to the forefront of her mind in the hopes of straying off any nightmares she might have tonight. With the stress of her situation and the mail brought from the Budapest safe house, the last thing she needs is a nightmare to deal with when she's spent the past few days staying out of Secretary Ross's radar.

_Earth 01 New York_2016_

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When I returned to the house from school and settled in, my mind began drifting over to the many binders that contained photographs of our so-called family since I had lost all interest in finishing any of my homework. As I picked one off my bookshelf in my bedroom, I began to look through all the pictures of my very early years from the day they took me in. When I reached the end of my early years, especially my first picture in the whole album, I always found it strange that there was nothing written or even an image of how I was found or why I was left at their doorstep, leaving me to die potentially. However, as tempting as it is to think about all possible scenarios of why they chose not to tell me or leave anything regarding my origins, my feelings about my longing for a home, better life and relationships with other people that I could never have become increasingly evident. Let alone accept that I would never be accepted because I wasn't normal like everyone else. Especially the fact that I have eyes that are two completely different colours already says a lot. My right eye is green, while my left eye is brown. Heterochromia is what they call it. However, mine was complete rather than the normal variation of partial or split, leaving me to wonder which eye colour I was supposed to be born with since my body clearly couldn't choose one.

That night as I lay restless, I pulled out a picture of my beloved grandfather from underneath my pillow, savouring all the stories I'd heard about how close I was with him. And not to get too philosophically profound, but from observing families afar from my times outside, I'd like to think that from the time we were born, the world would feel it was in our hands. Something we can grasp within our hands, new, exciting, and worth exploring. Something I think we once had, our first experiences of the world take the form of love, some of its joy, and may even warmth. Others' first experiences, however, are of the less fortunate. They may not even know that feeling of love, joy or warmth until they become adults. However, at only five years old, nobody once told me to savour that sliver of a taste of love and happiness while it lasted.

Because once it's gone, you can never get it back. Since the day of my grandfather's funeral, I realised my childhood had ended, and so did a piece of my heart. From that day on, my family was never the same. Or should I say my "foster parents?" Ever since they had mysteriously taken me in, I've never really known what to call them since they've never felt like family to me, let alone be anything but parental figures in my life. I've known them to constantly fight while going on a spree of breaking anything they can get their hands on and treating me like I wasn't their own. That didn't mean I wasn't at least grateful for giving me some of my basic needs, no matter how much of that was out of pity. Since the funeral, they began to fight more often, my father's family started getting into each other's throats, and lastly, his family began targeting my mother again as if she were the cause of my loving grandfather's passing. And soon enough, I was also thrown into the deep end.

Little did I know, that would also mean that I would lose every piece of who I was or what it felt like was happening. Though that would be the first of many funerals, what struck me at the time was how I could never wrap my mind around others' perspectives of how or why people love to say and believe that children do not understand and have the concept of death. Still, to this day, I can't understand those others' perspectives of how children understand death. I've always seen it as a naive frame of thinking of how children see and understand the world. And quite frankly, I find that to be insulting. However, I am not a child anymore, and I find the feeling to be mutual regarding children. Nevertheless, that doesn't excuse them for condescending behaviour to outright call a child stupid for a concept they may or may not have. Yet, I may be biased to my own experience at that age, whereas I think children at five years old can somewhat grasp the concept of death just as much as they can understand love and joy.

In the year or two that followed, I began to have unhealthy feelings of self-consciousness, frequent thoughts of suicide and contemplated self-harm in many ways. At the time, I could not define the meaning of these feelings that were happening simultaneously. That is until I vocalised the word depressed to myself by asking myself if I was depressed. Yet, I was still in the process of understanding all those feelings and why I was always in a distressed state that caused me to cry myself to sleep, no matter how terrified I was to sleep alone at night. I even began weighing myself every week to see if I had met my mother's expected weight she wanted me to be causing my relationship with food to be compromised. Gradually, I started reducing the amount I ate every day. That's until I only ate half of what my small plate could contain, just like what my mother hoped I would. Yet the more guilty I felt about it as I craved more and ate more in secret.

As I grew older, those feelings of depression and its friend anxiety grew more unbearable, causing me not ever to eat whenever those feelings started to spiral inside my head and eventually led me to skip school altogether. I would also have days where I only ate two meals a day or did not even have a proper meal. I would even go on for days on meals consisting of peanut butter sandwiches or sandwiches containing only butter and sugar, only to briefly switch to appropriate meals as I was told by my mother to avoid any added blame or abuse.

To add to the pain I got through daily, my mother would even say the most demeaning things about me since the funeral, leaving me to feel like they were true even after all those years. And when I started to believe those lies, I began looking at myself in the mirror and seeing myself as the monster she saw in me. When I turned twelve, that's when I started to realise how twisted my mother's ways were. Then before I fully understood what was happening to me, I was found in an expected predicament of being forced to psychologically convince myself that I was romantically and sexually attracted to boys, not girls, when I was seen blushing one day at school over some boy I never even liked. In reality, I've always been romantically and sexually attracted to girls long before I was even aware that homosexuality was highly frowned upon. I even once cursed whoever had given me powers when they occasionally flared up. I never knew where they came from, much less who my birth parents were. Even at that moment, I questioned what it meant to be home or even to be a family. As the reality of the moment crashed down on me, that's when I knew the answer I'd been looking for lay within my heart. This torn-apart family, this house, and this life are none of those things I was made to believe. Hell, even this reality I was living in didn't feel real. Not when I spent most of my life without knowing what it's like to have feelings and be separated from the outside world.

Meanwhile, my older brother had it easy—way too easy for my taste, at least for me. I know it's shocking to me, too, to see that I'm not the only child. In fact, my brother, Dominic, is their only biological child. He's everything every parent wants in a child, even more so for a boy. Although I'd like to disagree, I'd admit I love him as much as they do. Both of us had our fair share of sibling rivalry and heartfelt moments. However, I can never agree on or bear at any given moment how easy it is for all of our family and extended family to argue and defend him as if he were their lord and saviour for the family's good reputation. Yet, I somehow put a bad name simply by breathing. That isn't to say that I despise him for being the golden child. It wasn't because of this toxic concept of family that made me love him, but what he did for me, or at least tried for my sake, as he was the only one in my dysfunctional family that saw me as his family whom he loved.

Since then, my days have felt like nothing but a constant mind-numbing nightmare. Though, the universe occasionally likes to sprinkle in bittersweet moments to mess with my mind to make it seem like I'm invertedly going insane. But if I were, I wouldn't be surprised if it was caused by the kind of life I have. Although lately, these days have felt a lot more gruelling than usual. You frustratedly sighed as you put your grandfather's photo underneath your pillow and got out of bed, knowing you wouldn't be able to go back to sleep anytime soon and that it's been hours since being woken up by your parents fighting again. As you rummaged around your room to find something to distract you, there was only so much you could do to make your life a little better.

Sure, listening to music does help cope with the noise, but not enough to make it better by any means truly. For drawing, it's nice but not enough to give you some substance to occupy your time and mind before wondering when it's safe to go back to sleep. Then there's writing. Many of us use a powerful tool that some take for granted. At the same time, writing can give us pleasure. Yet, people don't know that writers such as myself write and create these imaginary worlds because we crave to be able to not only have a better life but also to wish to live in a different world without any setbacks. However, this hour wouldn't be great to do as well since, you know, it requires peace and being able to hear yourself think. As your parents' fights got a bit louder as the night dragged on, you resorted to listening to music, daydreaming of what it would be like to live in the Marvel Cinematic Universe, with a few changes, and absentmindedly making paper stars.

Little did you know that your and Natasha's life would change that night as you added more green stars into your jar while she wrote in her journal. --- >

After Natasha had written in her journal for the night after watching two James bond movies, the power in her trailer home faded out just as she was about to start another film. "oh great.." she grumbles while her cat, Liho, briefly looks at her as if asking what she's complaining about before going back to sleep on the couch.

She gets up and changes out her pants for cargo joggers, a light jacket, and light-up gloves that wrap around her hands so that she doesn't need to bring anything else before putting on her boots to assess the issue or if she begrudgingly needs to get more gas for the rest of the night. As she stepped out, she was met with a gush of cold wind that immediately made her shiver, and she wished that the power to her safe house didn't go out until morning. Yet, like all adults, she puts up with it and grabs the hardware kit from under the stairs. After assessing the issue, Natasha begrudgingly cursed Mason for getting her a crappy generator that's said to last for 12 hours when it only lasted for five hours when the tank was full. She detached the generator link, put her empty gas container into the passenger seat of her car, and drove into town for more gas.

When Natasha came back, Liho eagerly greeted her once she opened the door, causing Natasha to always pick her up so that she could even step inside the house. And just like always, she fondly smiles at Liho's antics every time she comes and greets her. Even if Natasha wasn't gone that long, she has a small reminder that she has someone always waiting for her at home, furry companion or not; it's one of the small things she cherishes. Once she has gotten herself comfortable on the couch again, this time with Liho in her lap, she unexpectedly let out a yawn before clicking on a popular series on Netflix, Stranger Things, to watch just until she falls asleep.

Meanwhile, y/n finished making another green paper star and dumped it into a jar containing other paper stars she had made. Deciding that it was enough stars for the evening, Y/n securely screwed the lid back on and decided to return to bed. However, after she got up and stretched, she let out a big yawn before taking off her headphones, hoping that her parents had finally gone to their bedrooms for the night. As Y/n ensured they were asleep, she sighed in relief before peeking at the clock to see what time it was.

3:00 A.M.

It read in bold red, making it mock Y/n for even being awake at this hour, just like it did to Spongebob. With that thought, Y/n let out a deep breath as a subtle gesture to remind herself that she'll be ok. Worries and stress still plagued Y/n, even in the back of her mind, so Y/n grabbed Ryan, her stuffed lion, into her arms and finally went back to sleep.

As Natasha decided to opt for her bed instead of the couch that night, she finally lays peacefully asleep with Liho curled up at the foot of her bed. As both women drifted deeper to sleep, Y/n and Natasha found themselves at two different ends of the same ethereal dreamscape.

"Woah… Where am I?" Y/n says, astonished at how ethereal everything looks. As a feather falls near her eye, she looks up and sees flower petals of all different colours and white feathers rain from the sky.

Not too soon after, she's greeted by her stuffed lion that Y/n loves to hug at night, only to take the shape of an actual lion not too soon. Puzzled by what was happening, Y/n got on the lion's back and took her to a waterfall that lay within a bushy groove well beyond the luscious flower field. When she gets off the lion's back, she pets its head before hesitantly walking into the body of water, where the waterfall fills a large pond. Y/n becomes perplexed at seeing her opposite reflection in the water as she stands in front of the waterfall. Her reflection showed the same raven hair she had. Yet, her skin was soft and fair, with greenish blue eyes and freckles littered across her face's sinuses, unlike Y/n's mismatched coloured eyes and smooth olive skin.

Then, as if on cue, the sun shone brighter, revealing a mysterious figure standing in the cave's shadows behind the waterfall. When trying to get a better view of the person, Y/n felt like they were compelling her to get closer. However, as she got closer to the mysterious person, the farther they were, making it seem as though it was impossible to get to them. Almost as if it was the definitive embodiment of chasing a shadow. Finally, as Y/n had stopped putting effort into catching up with the person, she found she had been able to get close enough to reach out to them. As she did, they began to fade away just before she could get a glimpse of them.

However, she felt at a loss before Y/n could process what had happened. At the same time, Y/n found herself at the end of the cave with a door embedded into the wall. She felt a sense of familiarity as she took in the door's regal yet indigenous design. Yet, she couldn't place where she may have seen it before. The door had a wonderfully crafted natural walnut-coloured frame, a gold border that laid flush underneath the natural walnut frame and added to the gold frame was black steel moulded into swirled designs. Next, the doors themselves had a beautiful smooth espresso oak wood finish, and on it was a big heart-swirled design at the top made out of the same black steel on the gold border. Finally, the handles were made out of gold with a curve towards the end. With open-minded curiosity, Y/n approached it and gently opened the door. Behind it was a bright passage that resembled something similar to what Tony Stark would design. Then without hesitation, she walked through the door while her lion walked along with her as moral support.

On the other hand, Natasha was in the middle of a debilitating nightmare. During the point of the agonising part of her nightmare, she was abruptly relieved of her pain and entered an ethereal-like dream. It was so abrupt that it took her a bit more time than usual to adjust to the natural bright light of the sun, only to realise that white feathers and flower petals of every colour fell from the sky. As Natasha takes in the beauty of the luscious flower fields, a marbled-coloured pig with a collar appears to greet Natasha with an eager oink. But then, the pig began rooting at Natasha's calf as if telling her to walk in the direction to her right. At first, her reaction was to shoo away the creature. Doing so only encouraged the pig even more. After much-rooted insistence from the pig, Natasha gave in and followed the pig into a forest just after the field of flowers and into a clearing within the forest's heart.

In the clearing, there were boulders; some covered in moss surrounded the edges of the clearing in a particular order. And on those boulders were engraved symbols, except for the one directly in front of Natasha. On that large boulder were a door that was embedded into it and the only one that was heavily covered in moss and a few mushrooms and cosmo flowers. To her discontent, the door had the same design as the ones from her time in the Red Room, making her quite hesitant to approach it to see what was on the other side.

Similarly, Natasha also felt compelled. Only when she was in front of it did the door open itself. There, as she stood in front of the open door, it showed nothing but a bright passage waiting to see what awaited her. At that moment, she closed her eyes and exhaled deeply before going through the door. Yet, because of the amount of blinding light at the end of the passage, she kept her eyes closed only to realise that the blinding light turned out to be the sunlight coming from her window, that she forgot to draw in the blinds last night. However, as Natasha was about to pull in the blinds to get more sleep, she quickly realised she was not alone. On instinct, she reached for her gun to quietly assess if the girl sleeping next to her was hostile. Still, Natasha doubted that the girl was hostile when she saw her hugging a quirky orange bear in her sleep.

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alavenderleaf · 8 months

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Tagged by @gilliebee <3

Name: Lavender and Leaf interchangeably

Pronouns: he/him and she/her interchangeably (but genuinely okay with whatever, I’m genderfluid c: )

Where do u call home? Dubai, UAE. Even tho it was meant to be a temporary arrangement I’ve lived here my whole life and now any other emirate feels off lol

Favorite animals: goats. You ever jumped around with a baby goat??? Peace and love on planet earth 🥺💕💞💝💘💖💗💓💓💘💝💞💕

When it comes to birds: chickens and pigeons. Everytime I see one I’m like that’s so me. I’m them. They’re me. We are one.

Cereal of choice: anything with chocolate bc I’m still 5 years old

are you visual, auditory or kinesthetic learner? visual for sure, my ears don’t work right and I freaking love diagrams.

First pet: I’ve never named a pet except my current cat (xiexie!!) so my first pet did not have a name. It was a smol baby chick that grew up to be a mean ass spoiled ass fucking rooster who’d peck everyone except me <3

he was raised as a girl bc whoever gave me the chick told me it’s a chicken not a rooster and my dumbass did not recognize the signs of him being male and would argue with everyone who tried convincing me otherwise 🤠 denial is one hell of a drug bc how could I see the tail and mohawk (?? Tf u call that thing on its head) and be like “yes this is a chicken :) I see nothing wrong about this” anyway trans king. He’s just like mommy <3

I did have to give him away eventually :( he was taken to some uncle’s farm and got a chicken harem like the high value alpha male I knew he always had the capacity to be 😌 (ofc until another rooster was brought over and he lost the fight. He was plucked naked and shunned and he passed away featherless and bitchless. But we don’t talk about that)

Favorite scent: ………… lavend-*gun shots*

do you believe in astrology? Not really? But it’s so much fun !! :) I am a Capricorn sun Taurus moon and Leo rising, so do with that as you will <3

how many playlists do you have in apple music/spotify? I don’t use Apple Music. Spotify is purely for my friends so we can send playlists back and forth but I hate that everything is paywalled and it decides to choose shit for me. Like bitch. I did not add any of these songs to the playlist get tf away from me. Also why can’t I listen to my music offline???? I hate u. Anyway I just checked I have 87 playlists ???? 🤠🤠 When. How. Who are all these people I literally don’t know any of them?????

Sharpies or highlighters? Sharpies!!!! I love markers in general but sharpies always fire up my creative neurons

song that makes you cry: I’ve never cried to music but Fourth of July by Sufjan Stevens makes me so. :(

song that makes you happy: not to be a stereotype but Bastans by Miami band. (It’s a staple wedding song lmao)

and finally: do you draw/write/create?: YES!! My artistic skills are. Fine. But I do write a lot! My ao3 is lavender_petal and I’ve been learning how to create gifs over on my hockey side acc @gaybroons Also! I started making little braided bracelets lately :) they’re not perfect but they are fun!! I do try my hand at some Arabic/English translations from time to time but I’m not the best at it lol

I’m tagging: @loulucifer , @lindholmline , @earth-to-sway , and anyone else who wants to do this, but no pressure <3

#tag game #I miss a lot of these sorry guys

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ateezyuri · 2 years

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ATEEZ’S YURI COMES OUT AS LESBIAN WITH VOICE NOTE IN HER SINGLE ALBUM, “BOYFRIEND” — SAYS SHES “HAPPY TO FINALLY BE FREE.”

POSTED: FEBRUARY 15TH, 2022

On February 14th, 2022, Kim Yuri of Ateez released her 2nd single — Boyfriend, and the release had shocked fans to no end! Like her last solo release, Games, the track was completely in english — and received worldwide support after its release. The track reached #1 on Billboard’s Hot 100 after it’s release, #1 on Spotify and Apple Music, and Yuri made her first radio debut with the track!

The song “Boyfriend”, focuses on a girl who knows she could be a better boyfriend than another girl’s current boyfriend — and is attempting to persuade the girl to fall for herself instead. The lyrics shocked many fans of Yuri — while others suspected that Yuri was interested in girls. The single album included a voice note — and that only confirmed everyone’s suspicions on Yuri’s sexuality. You can read the voice note below.

“When I first wrote “Boyfriend”, I had no plans on releasing it, like ever. I was just going to keep the lyrics in my draft — I didn’t even make a track for it. That was until I received a call from Dan Nigro — and he was like “Hey, I really liked Games, I would love to work with you!” And he asked me if I was going to come to California anytime soon, which I wasn’t, but I would be in a few months to go on tour, so we decided to work together via Zoom for the time being.”

“So, I sent him a few of my tracks I was working on, as well as some drafted lyrics. Boyfriend was included in it — but I left a note that I didn’t plan on releasing it. I only sent him it so he could see my writing style, and I didn’t have that many english songs to send — since I’ve been focusing on writing songs for Ateez instead. But he loved it...he was like “You can’t throw this away, this is amazing, you just have to release it.” Which resulted in me just giving him all the reasons why I thought I couldn’t release it for an hour straight, and he just was like “That’s bullshit.”

And he was right. I was scared of the public response, I was scared on how people would respond to me being apart of the LGBTQ+ community, but I was mainly scared on how that would affect Ateez. I didn’t want to damage the success Ateez is having currently because of this, we already receive so much hate due to us having one girl with 8 boys in a group, and I just didn’t want to add to the fire. Which was a extremely coward move from me — and that was not the message I was wanting to send to my fans, my friends, and myself.”

During that time I felt like such a burden — and I just felt unsure of what to do. I’ve worked through how the hate makes me feel and I know that it’s not my fault — but sometimes it’s hard to not listen to the voice in your head that is just screaming at you, telling you everything is your fault. My members helped me a lot through this time, and their reassurance that they love me no matter what really drove me to agree to releasing this song.”

“I’m not ashamed of who I am and I am not ashamed of who I love — and i’m not scared to let the world know that i’m lesbian. If I could — I would scream it on the rooftops. Like yes! I love women, non-men, I just love them! I’m not sorry! And i’m not afraid of everyone hating me for who I really am. Not anymore.”

So to whoever is closeted, questioning, or out, I just want you to know that I am incredibly proud of you, no matter if you decide to come out or not. You don’t have to come out to be valid, and you don’t have to be closeted to be valid. You are valid no matter what, and you are so loved, and you are so important. I wanted to come out because I wanted to be a person that the LGBTQ+ community can look up to and be proud of — I wanted to show everyone that it is possible to be gay and be famous at the same time, and I want people to know that you shouldn’t be ashamed of who you are just because people may hate or shame you for it. Being apart of the LGBTQ+ community is not wrong, and if you you think not supporting someone who is different than you is okay, please open your mind. We are people, too. We are not a disease, we are here and we will fill up space. I will not change because people don’t agree with who I am — I will only be louder in response. I am proud to say I am lesbian, and nothing anyone says will change that.

To those who are struggling with their identity — just know it takes time. Be patient and be kind to yourself — and whatever you are feeling right now is completely okay. Discovering yourself is a hard and long journey, but it is so rewarding and so worth it in the end. I am still learning about myself to this day, and I am much happier now that I listen to my emotions and my thoughts. I love you all with all my heart, and if things get hard and overwhelming, you can always turn to me. I will always be here for you. Thank you for listening and thank you for supporting me. This has been Kim Yuri of Ateez.”

There is both an English and Korean version of the voice note — and KQ Entertainment has released written statements in other languages, such as Chinese, Spanish, Japanese, and many more. Atiny have also helped with translating her message, in hopes to spread it as much as possible.

The reactions to Yuri coming out have been mixed — but the positivity has seemed to drown out the negative. Many K-fans support her and praise her for being so brave — especially since South Korea is not the most accepting of LGBTQ+ individuals.

KQ Entertainment has also supported Yuri in her decision of coming out, and released a statement this morning, a day after the release of Boyfriend.

Hello, This is KQ Entertainment.

We support our artist, Kim Yuri, in her decision to come out as lesbian. She has been wanting to do this for a long time, and the company saw no reason to prevent her from being her true self. We will protect our artist, and any malicious comments can and will face legal action. Threats towards our artists will not be tolerated. Please be respectful and kind. Thank you.

Their statement was released after Yuri was sent multiple threats on social media and websites — but fans and KQ Entertainment were quick to shut them down.

After the release of both Boyfriend and the voice note, Yuri hosted an instagram live on her personal instagram to celebrate the release. She was practically glowing in the live, and she had rainbow eyeshadow on her eyes to celebrate her news! She talked about how happy she was to finally be out to the world during this live, and fans couldn’t help but be filled with joy after seeing Yuri be so happy, especially since she has been suffering with her mental health all throughout her life.

“Yes! You all heard the voice note, correct? I’m so happy to come out, I couldn’t be happier. I’m finally free! I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders...thank you all for supporting me so much! I love you all with all of my heart, I couldn’t ask for better fans!”

The Ateez members have also voiced support for their member — promoting her single and leaving kind messages for her on their Fan cafe and Universe chat rooms! Other idols have also voice their support for Yuri, such as Core4, Sapphire, The Lucidz, Seventeen, Somi, and many more!

We are so proud of Yuri for coming out and letting the world know her true self — and for always trying to be her best. We love her so much!

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messier-47 · 10 months

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It's Tag Game Tuesday

I got tagged by @pachu09 and @fiyasgideon

Name: Messy! but Kyle is my irl nickname

Pronouns: They/She - hate being referred to as "she" online cause why? what's the point? I'm a genderless blob on the internet so why am I "she"? but I do have a pair of tits which I don't mind irl, just online I'm a "they"

where you call home: California, USA!

Favorite animal: I...don't have a favorite animal? I like animals but I don't have a favorite. Unless you count plants cause then I have a whole bunch of plants I could prattel on about forever.

Favorite Ceral: Honey Nut Cheerios!

Are you a visual, audio, or kinesthetic learner: ...all 3? idk, might be the ND part where I need to read facts, but also cement the idea by needing to listen to sentence phonics and then really implement what I learned through either writing notes or knitting/crocheting in class.

First pet: A calico cat named "Kitty" only because i was really young going "Here kitty, kitty, kitty!" to call my fur baby and then she only responded to Kitty.

Favorite Scent: Chai! I don't know if it's the cardamon, star anise, or something else but the scent of warm spice I could bathe in.

Do you believe in astrology: Nah, but its fun to read! especially if they're funny horoscopes like @normal-horoscopes

How many playlists do you have on Spotify/apple music: none, pretty dang techno-phobic. i still rip off music from youtube-to-mp3 sites for my MP3

sharpies or highlighters: sharpies. highlighters make me look away from information.

A song that makes you cry: "Snap" by Rosa Lynn. the lyrics "Where are you? You're still in my heart" gets me everytime

A song that makes you happy: "Little Talks" by Monsters and Men, yes i know it's technically a sad song never have I not sang along.

Do you write/draw/create: I write! currently trying to find time to actually start F2:EB cause pretty dang finished with plotting.

I'm callin' out @haigidal @creamy-jam @madbuns @doeinstinct @kiokesu @fennign @blackonthepiano @owari26 @vikishus

Have fun!

#my content #anon speaks #tagged

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the-annotated-antichrist · 1 year

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Act III, Track 12 - Seeds of Time

Song links: Spotify - YT Music - Apple - Tidal

Johanna and Seth are dying side by side. Surrounded by silence and dead bodies, with the all-deciding battle both won and lost, they contemplate their actions and for the first time see things from the perspective of the other.

The instrumental last 40 seconds of the preceding track are probably supposed to already set the mood for this song and give the characters time to think about their situation, because they start expressing their thoughts the moment this track starts. So picture them lying in silence for a while first.

Seth "regrets letting vanity curse his mind" when he could have been the greatest leader the world has ever known. Maybe paying lip service to Jesus would not have been such a big sacrifice if in return he could have had the utopia he had created instead of a horrible war that killed nearly all his adult citizens? And seeing how everything has fallen to ruins now, was he really better than Jesus? He had planned to unite humanity instead of dividing them, but the opposite has happened. Perhaps he even realizes how his "vanity" caused his relationship with Helena to be void of real mutuality.

Johanna is able to admit to herself that Seth really did make a lot of things better, even if he was the Antichrist. For the first time in her life she questions her faith and realizes that abstract notions of piety and lawfulness aren't all that matters. Was it really worth it? Johanna, who along with her friends pointed out to Seth that results aren't all that matters just before he showed himself to be the Antichrist, is now beginning to understand the opposite perspective as she sees the disastrous effects that her insistence on abstract virtues and God's non-negotiable law is partially responsible for.

"Attraction arises between them." Really, that's what the scene description says. Is this the most dramatic enemies-to-lovers ever? Is it more of a spiritual attraction? I'd say that's open to interpretation.

Johanna takes Seth's hand as they bleed out side by side.

[Seth:] Everything we held so close is lost A lonely world has long since gone to dust A weightless word, a rain of light A silver tear will fall on fields of gold [Seth:] If you touch my hand you'll seize the dark And reach the sadness of a woken heart [Johanna:] In the earth I dig to feel you near Your soil is black but I no longer fear [Seth:] A place that we can call our home... [Seth & Johanna:] ...will rise within a star and lead us there [Johanna:] Your hand in mine. [Seth & Johanna:] You and me. Who are we? Who is God? [Seth:] War of man is over [Seth & Johanna:] No one has the answers Of who will keep and Sow the seeds of time

Maybe it is at this point that both realize for the first time that the other one meant well. Their mutual hate has dissolved into understanding, self-reflection, and a kind of gentleness. They realize that in a way they wanted the same thing, were trying to answer the same questions. Johanna says that she does not fear Seth's "darkness" anymore and likens it to the black soil, which not only fits the titular "seeds" concept but also has far more positive connotations than the dark things she likened him to in the past. It's also an interesting parallel to how Seth likened his heart to a garden into which the seeds of time had been sown in "The Wasteland of my Heart". One could say that Satan sowed a seed in Seth and Helena, the gardener, tended to it until the world could eat its fruit - until she died, the garden fell to ruin and humanity was banished from its bliss. There are clear parallels to the story of the Garden of Eden as well of course.

The earlier version of this song called "Sad End", which has completely different lyrics but very similar content, is also interesting to watch once or twice - and then another time just for Thomas' and Lori's wonderful stage chemistry. Keep in mind though that Lori plays Helena in the recorded version (afaik there is no live version of this song with Chiara) and personally I think the live video shows very well why this role suits her. Caring and love seems to speak from every movement and glance while she sings.

The only line that both versions have in common is "Who is God?" A good question, since God does not appear at all in this work while Satan plays a very active role.

#tracks #act 3 #seth thanos #johanna orsini #symphonic metal #therion #taaposts #opera #metal #musical #musicals

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ddeonudepressions · 1 year

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get to know me game!

tagged by: @dearhee 🙏 💕

no pressure tags!! @redm4ri @haknom @blossomnct @sunoksunny @delcakoo @taejays @hannikz @mazeinthemiroh @soov and anyone else who wants ofc!!

birthday: oct 3rd skz chan is my bday twin and loml 🙏 (fr i miss him sm 🙁)

favourite colour: sage green but i really like all colors if they don't blind me 💀

do you have pets? no 💔 i used to have a parrot but we gave him away 😭😭

how tall are you? um i will get bullied but im 5'4 last time i checked 💀

how many pairs of shoes do you own?

like....4-5?? idk i haven't bought any in a while

favourite song: ditto, devil by the window, mixed up, attention please, opening sequence, muddy water, all in, beside you, and many more just stalk my Spotify to know 💔

favourite movie: train to busan 😭😭

who would be your ideal partner?

hmm.... idk tbh but probably someone who's like me but no yk? i really like the familiarity but ik i wouldn't handle another me💀 maybe someone like beomgyu yk or junhan or jay or hongjoong or hyunjin or seungmin. i think me and hongjoong r soulmates fr we would be are happily married ❤️.

do you want children? tbh yes? kinda? i think it would be nice but idk i dont mind it.

have you gotten in trouble with the law?

no I am a good child come on now

what colour socks are you wearing? blue and black

favourite type of music: all of it i will listen amd vibe to everything fr. i wouldn't say i hate a song yk id say i wouldn't look it up but if it was playing ill do a lil dancey dance

how many pillows do you sleep with? 2 and 2 tiny plushies and 1 decorative one

what position do you sleep in? idk what it's called but i basically become a tiny ball of sleep and drown in the covers 💀

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: probably when someone wakes me up when i just started to drift off. like?!??? helour leave me alone??!?? and probably when my feet r too cold the rest of my body.

what do you have for breakfast: depends sometimes a savor yomy sandwich sometimes a sweet yomy cereal. sometimes black coffee sometimes a latte sometimes a cup of tea of u will.

have you ever tried archery? once at gym hurt myself bad didn't like it 👎👎

favourite fruit: strawberries apples and oranges (i miss eating oranges 💔)

are you a good liar? not to self diagnose but i might be a psychological lair 😂😂🤥

what’s your personality type? it was enfp i think but ill have to redo the test soon lol.

innie or outie? im gonna say this is about being introverted or extroverted 💀💀 I am a bit of both tbh.

left handed or right handed? a leftiee

favourite food: pasta or fries 🙏

favourite foreign food: kushary idk if anyone knows it but it's Egyptian and its just 💔💔

am i clean or messy? id say clean i try to keep my surroundings tidy as i can yk

most used phrase: (all memes from Walmart enha) hello?? ayo?? huh?? oh. slayyy - fr - ong- 🙏- naurrr - NO. - die. - el oh el - kys. - el em ay oh - (person) (last negative thing they did) era - LMAO. - ok.

how long does it take for you to get ready: usually like 15-25 minutes including makeup outfit hijab and packing my handbag / bag yk

do you talk to yourself? all the time!

do you sing to yourself? if im not singing sleeping it's all i do. no family member has complained about my signing so I think it's a sign to start my career 😂😂🤘🤘

are you a good singer? i hope i am 😕 i think i have a decent voice i quite like any runs i do when signing sum LMAO 💀

biggest fear? cockroaches, confrontations and god 🙏

are you a gossip? i am THE gossip

do you like long or short hair? short hair. my hair is medium length rn but i like short hair more long hair has bad memories.

favourite school subject: I've always liked science general but idk anymore grade 9 wss brutal 💀💀

extrovert or introvert: id say both (again) cuz I enjoy talking and going out but also staying in w someone sounds so comforting

what makes you nervous: everything. my teachers. people staring too long at me. people laughing at me. (i cant tell if it's w me or at me most of the time :/)

who was your first real crush? grade 2 his name was assi i think that's how u spell it. he was also Syrian had blonde hair blue eyes and had my heart fr 💔

how many piercings? 2 one in each ear

how many tattoos? 0 (i am a minor and haram bro)

how fast can you run? i think i could run a good distance ye im not the athletic type but it's fun sometimes

what colour is your hair? chocolate brown with blonde streaks. very new look my hair was always been dark brown 💀

what colour are your eyes? brown 💔

what makes you angry: many many things having anger issues every little thing annoys me. im just gonna say top 5 lol

1.people who don't listen

2.people who look down on others

3. people who r literally nothing being jealous of others and making their lives hell( who wants a story time 😂😂)

4. getting blamed for something i had nothing to do with

5. having to be the mom of the house when i am a literal child.

do you like your name? ye I've learned to accept it 💪

do you want a boy or a girl as a child?

idm tbh but let just say if i have kids they both will be a mommy's girl/boy. cuz ye

what are your strengths? hm... im gonna say im honest ill tell people shit to their face no hesitation sometimes 💀. im strong?? idk. ima good manipulator 😂😂. id say im pretty understanding and comforting (at least i hope so) ig das it? idk not used to thinking about myself positively yk

what are your weaknesses? probably myself? like i do one small tiny mistake and suddenly i have no self worth, i deserve death, i mean nothing to anybody, everyone hates me snd is using me and i deserve it. and etc etc yk.

what is the colour of your bedspread? yellow 😕

colour of your room: yellow 😐 i need my own room fr

DONE THIS TOOK FOREVER BUT WAS MUCH FUN TY ELA SM FOR THIS LMAO 🙏🙏🙏💞💞❤️❤️

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welcome home celine & kamile ! we’re so excited to have you here at sunset hills ! before we give you the keys to your new place , make sure you go over this checklist to make sure everything’s all squared away — we’ll give you 24 hours to come by the leasing office , please let us know if you you need anything at all !

✿ * · ( moon gayoung , cis woman , she/her ) a little birdy told me CELINE BAEK just moved to sunset hills . have you met them yet ? they look somewhere around 26 , if i had to guess ! pretty sure i heard them driving down the street playing CONTROL by HALSEY , they sounded a little pitchy but they had the spirit ! must be their favorite or something . hey … it looks like they just moved into AURORA LANE . have you heard about what they do for a living ? someone told me they’re a CLOTHING BOUTIQUE OWNER , but who knows if that’s even true . guess we’re just gonna have to wait and see . nervous ? maybe you should be . sunset speaks just posted about them … apparently they're RESIDENT ID 04 ? between you and me , i think that might spark some things in the community … but what do i know ! you guys might get along just fine ! ( cherry , she/her , 29 , est . )

please answer at least TWO of the following in character :

what was the LAST song you listened to on spotify ?

“what do you gain from asking these questions? they seem to be a bit invasive... but i’ll humor you by answering. first of all, i use apple music not spotify. don’t give me that look, i’ve had it since high school and really don’t feel like remaking playlists with thousands of songs. but i believe the last song i listened to was monster by kanye west and a few other artists. but lets be honest, we all listen to that for nicki’s verse anyways.”

who’s a celebrity you HATE ?

“just one? i can’t list just one. lets start with the most obvious. kim kardashian. well, all the kardashian / jenners really. for some reason these women think that they’re not perpetuating a horrible image for young girls and other women their own age. the photoshop, unhealthy habits and diets, all of it is toxic. plus kim’s crying face is not cute. also, gwenyth fucking paltrow. i don’t know, her face just bugs me. and she thinks sunscreen is toxic. it’s ridiculous. please wear sunscreen.”

what is something you LOVE about yourself and something you wish you could CHANGE about yourself ?

this is kind of a loaded question for celine, because while she likes to pretend she’s the best, most of the time she feels like she’s the worst. things she likes about herself have nothing to do with her personality, and more about her physical appearance which she puts a lot of time and effort into. her hair, her style and her clear skin are probably the only things she really likes about herself. when it comes to something she could change, she would say something like her family. it’s the one thing she will never be able to change, so of course its what she would like to most change.

tell us TWO TRUTHS and a LIE !

“i haven’t played this game since high school, but why not. it could be interesting. here we go. when i was a teenager i won a talent search and modeled for h&m for a hot minute but never pursued modeling after that, i’ve never been to a live concert because i have very sensitive ears, and my dog only understands korean.”

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add an alternative faceclaim here , this is mandatory ! ( in case we get apps with the same fc at the same time ) lee jieun / IU ( age would be changed to 28 )

please add any edits / pinterest boards / playlists for your muse here if you have any to share ! PINTEREST BOARD.

✿ * · ( cemre baysel , cis woman , she/her ) a little birdy told me KAMILE “KAM” AKSAKAL just moved to sunset hills . have you met them yet ? they look somewhere around 24 , if i had to guess ! pretty sure i heard them driving down the street playing I LIKE YOU (A HAPPIER SONG) by POST MALONE ( ft. DOJA CAT ) , they sounded a little pitchy but they had the spirit ! must be their favorite or something . hey … it looks like they just moved into MIDNIGHT PARK . have you heard about what they do for a living ? someone told me they’re a VET TECH , but who knows if that’s even true . guess we’re just gonna have to wait and see . nervous ? maybe you should be . sunset speaks just posted about them … apparently they're RESIDENT ID 018 ? between you and me , i think that might spark some things in the community … but what do i know ! you guys might get along just fine ! ( cherry , she/her , 29 , est . )

please answer at least TWO of the following in character :

what was the LAST song you listened to on spotify ?

“that’s a hard question. don’t give me that look! i can’t remember what i had for breakfast let alone what i last listened to. i had a late shift last night. let me check...oh! that new one by doja and post malone! that new one on the radio! ‘i like yooou i dooo!’ love it. post malone is so endearing and he’s kinda cute. and doja hasn’t released anything but hits in a minute.”

who’s a celebrity you HATE ?

“hate? i don’t know, i really don’t hate anybody. i try not to read about celebrities, ya know? i don’t have the time or energy. but if i had to say someone... i guess the guy who tried to buy twitter is kind of a douche bag most of the time, but it’s not like i know him personally, so who knows? what's his name? elon something.”

what is something you LOVE about yourself and something you wish you could CHANGE about yourself ?

kam would probably say that she loves how compassionate and generous she is, if you ever caught her on a good day where she felt like bragging. any other day she would have a hardtime coming up with an answer due to her lack of confidence. which is exactly what she would most like to change about herself. the only place she’s really confidant in herself is at work. she didn’t graduate at the top of her class for nothing, being a vet tech is what she was born to do.

tell us TWO TRUTHS and a LIE !

“i freakin’ love this game! you really put me on the spot! okay, okay... okay i got ‘em! i moved here from london when i was three years old, i still work at my first job once a month purely for the discount, and i got bullied in elementary school so badly that i was taken out and was home schooled until middle school.”

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add an alternative faceclaim here , this is mandatory ! ( in case we get apps with the same fc at the same time ) N / A.

please add any edits / pinterest boards / playlists for your muse here if you have any to share ! PINTEREST BOARD

#accepted .

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demadogs · 10 months

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#i think this only applies to apple music users bc you dont really have your own library with spotify its just liked songs #which is one of the many reasons why i hate spotify #taylor swift #AAAAAAAAAND YOU CALL ME UP AGAIN JUST TO BREAK ME LIKE A PROMISE

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Sitting in the kitchen right now in the dark with Jayden and Jazz (and Tobi, who came in halfway through to eat bread) and we’re listening to Phoebe Bridgers and talking about Spotify/Apple Music Wrapped. Sam and Shay dropped in a bit. And earlier I was eating enchiladas and ramen with all of the above and also Ben and Mell and James and Tukaan, and then me and Jazz and Jayden made fries and went over the Olivia Rodrigo Sour album drama. Earlier still I showed up late to SB meeting and laughed through it. Then James and I read some of the Myth of Sisyphus by Camus. And now all the lights are off and we’re listening to music on Jayden’s speakers and I feel actually a deep sense of joy. To Sun, I texted:

the goodness came! as did the loneliness and jealousy and hate and pain and sadness. but so did the goodness

Outside I know there’s the Sitka Spruce forest and it’s dark and I have this feeling I get very rarely that the dark outside is comforting and I can’t see the forest and its trees other than their dark silhouettes, but I’m imagining it to be warm and green.

I’m feeling happy here. I’ve been having a few good days, a good week - I feel like I have made peace by the people here and I feel comfortable with them now, even if I won’t talk to them forever every day. But I’m thinking fondly of Outer Coast right now. And I’m almost - ALMOST - sad I won’t be coming back. In a sense I actually really quite am. But I also called home today and missed home tremendously. Dad said that grandma is as always and grandpa’s body is getting weak because of old age, and he is much more hunchbacked than before. That made me deeply sad. I wrote in the discord:

people i love are getting old… how do i deal with that and the fact that i’m always away from them and humans don’t live forever and i don’t understand grief or life or afterlives and waughhh [melts into small pile of little guy]

I’ve resolved that when I return home I will sit down with them and ask them about their lives. I might ask Matthew how to do this, this oral biography work. Or someone else that knows. It means deeply to me. I love them, and I want to connect with them more, I want my language, I want them to know how deeply they are loved and how much faith I have that we will always be together in all our lives and with all our spirits.

It is good that I like both places I am between now. I am glad. It is a good place to be.

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fahrni · 5 months

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Saturday Morning Coffee

Good morning from Charlottesville, Virginia! ☕️

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I know I did! It’s a time for family and wonderful food at the Fahrni household, especially the pies! Kim’s pumpkin and Haileigh’s Pecan pie are amazing and I always eat a little too much of each. 😋

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Ruth Ben-Ghiat

Some have wondered why the Trump campaign is being so open about the repressive policies they intend to implement. This “transparency” is in line with authoritarian history: Autocrats often tell you who they are and what they intend to do to you before they take office. They do this as a challenge to norms, and they do this as a threat.

If TFG is elected again and destroys our Democracy we will deserve everything we get and I hate the thought of it happening.

Where will people immigrate to if our democracy comes to an end in favor of an autocracy? Canada? Germany? Some other European nation not caught up in this current authoritarian wave?

Anita Chabria • Los Angeles Times

A unicorn costume, a hammer and a belief that pedophiles are using public schools to destroy democracy: The trial of David DePape for attacking Paul Pelosi was strange and disturbing.

It’s frightening how folks can go down these rabbit holes so quickly and turn into complete, frothing at the mouth, lunatics. 😳

Adi Robertson • The Verge

Music streaming service Spotify struck a seemingly unique and highly generous deal with Google for Android-based payments, according to new testimony in the Epic v. Google trial.

Well, well, well, good for Spotify. I’m sure any indie app maker would take a deal like that but it’s always the “big guys” that get preferable treatment.

It can’t hurt that Spotify is a direct competitor to Apple Music and puts a dent in Apple’s bottom line because of it. Not that it’s hurting Apple. 🤣

Law Dork

Monday was a day that crystallized on just how many levels our democracy and its promises stand on a precarious perch.

So a Colorado judge found that his Orangeness is in fact responsible for the insurrection. She also said he’s still eligible to run for President because the 14 Amendment doesn’t apply to the President because he was not “an officer of the United States” that could be disqualified under the amendment.

What?! That makes no sense. 😳

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James Boyd and Dianna Russini • The Athletic

Former Colts LB Shaquille Leonard goes unclaimed on waivers: How injuries derailed his stellar run in Indy

Hearing this bummed me out. I like Shaq Leonard. He’s a true leader on and off the field and he has a motor that won’t stop.

Here’s hoping he finds a new team soon and is able to get fully healthy and back on the field.

Heck, even if things are over for him prematurely, due to injury, he’s had a great career.🏈

Hixie

I do think the clock is ticking, though. The deterioration of Google’s culture will eventually become irreversible, because the kinds of people whom you need to act as moral compass are the same kinds of people who don’t join an organisation without a moral compass.

Interesting read from an 18-year employee of Google. Companies change as they grow. It’s just a fact. WillowTree has changed tremendously since I joined in 2019, especially after the Telus International acquisition. It happens as companies get bigger. ❤️

Oliver Darcy • CNN

NFL denounces hate speech, says it has expressed concerns to Elon Musk’s X

Sure, like Space Karen is going to listen to the puny NFL.

Some advice for the NFL. Get off of X, start a Mastodon instance called nfl.social, and start doing whatever it is you use X for on your Mastodon instance. Problem solved. You’re welcome.

KRISTEN RADTKE • The Verge

Adobe has been issued with a formal antitrust complaint by EU regulators regarding its $20 billion bid for cloud-based product design platform Figma.

I wonder what kind of deal Adobe will have to strike to make this work? It’s obvious Figma is winning the hearts and minds of designers. I feel really bad for the likes of Sketch who are a native Mac only shop. Their work is beautiful and extremely useful but can it survive? I hope so!

Also, please stop using Figma for EVERYTHING in the company. I’ve seen folks make presentations with it and make project plans with it and both of those uses really sucked.

Andrew Wallenstein • Variety

You might as well hitch your wagon to Musk with Krazy Glue at this point, Linda, because despite what your deluded pals on Madison Avenue might think, there’s no going back now. Stacking the events of the past week on top of the mound of insanity that’s already piled high over the course of your short reign has seen to that.

Good luck, Linda. I hope the man is at the very least paying you crap tons of money to destroy your good name and reputation.

Maybe it’s all worth it to her for that CEO title? 🤔

Rodrigo Mesquita

First part of an in-depth guide into developing a native macOS application using Haskell with Swift and SwiftUI. This part covers the set-up required to call Haskell functions from Swift in an XCode project using SwiftUI.

I love seeing other languages integrated into applications! VBA on Windows apps was a huge benefit to app users and gave them the ability to create specialized scripts to help automate their workflows. Even with all of the security implications and exploits it is the best implementation of a scripting environment to date.

I’ve also seen folks integrate Lua with great success and look at how the integration of JavaScript into native iOS and Android apps — ala React Native — has changed the app landscape.

The Eclectic Light Company

Following on from the previous memory leak I have demonstrated in the Finder in macOS 14.1.1, here’s a second, discovered by Kate, which might have a common root cause.

I have questions. Is this a leak or is it memory consumption? Those are two different things. One is not freeing resources because of a coding error, the other is not freeing resources intentionally. An intentional case would be caching things in memory to improve performance.

Also, if the system needs memory at some point and can’t find enough does the Finder relinquish this memory back to the OS?

Either way I suppose it can be seen as a leak. At the very least it could be a performance problem if system performance degrades because of it.

Jason Snell • MacWorld

What I’m saying is that Apple sometimes takes its failures and learns important lessons that inform its future attempts… but sometimes, it seems to just give up.

Apple is a company of people and people make mistakes.

I feel like the Vision Pro could be a mistake. Maybe mistake is too harsh a word? Maybe it’s just a product that’s too immature at the moment? I’m sure they’ll sell a hojillion of them on day one but will there be a great app ecosystem to support it?

My guess is highly specialized applications will drive sales but what do I know? Not much. 😂

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Lauren Goode • WIRED

Harvey’s urgency, even 12 hours later, is a reflex: This is exactly what she did for 13 years as the head of Twitter’s trust and safety team.

It must have been almost impossible to squelch all the crazy and hate on Twitter. Now X just doesn’t care and allows all the crazy and hate to blossom.

Get out, now. ☢️

Ben Wolford • protonvpn.com

Last month, Google launched a new feature for Chrome called IP Protection that makes it easier for the company to spy on you. No surprise, since this is Google’s business model. But what’s concerning is that Google is marketing this as a privacy feature.

I don’t know much about this but it seems like something I need to better understand.

I’m a Safari user and I mix Firefox in there.

I had to install Chrome at work because a client has some Chrome friendly tools we need to use. 😮

Nilay Patel and Alex Heath • The Verge

After an attempted coup by OpenAI’s board that lasted five days, Altman is returning alongside co-founder Greg Brockman.

Dizzying. I hope Altman keeps a good set of ethicists around him to keep him in check.

We don’t want the robots to take over the world, do we. 🤖

Colin Walker

It is this type of definition, however, that holds RSS back. Why does it just have to be updates to a website? RSS can be used to distribute all sorts of information. Once you start adding custom namespaces the possibilities are amazing.

I agree with Colin. RSS can be used for many things and why not? It’s extensible and there are gobs of tooling for it.

Just think of what it did for Podcasting.

I know at one someone maintained an RSS feed of hospitals with extra drugs other hospitals could ask for. You’d be surprised how many hospitals run out of certain drugs and how many have a surplus. It was a nice way to connect folks. Yet another niche served by RSS.

I’ve had the thought of just publishing my blog as RSS only. Sure, discovery would suck, but feed readers are just another type of web browser, only the web comes to the feed reader.😃

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Happy Birthday President Biden! 🥳🎂🔥🚒

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lookinggood-livingbetter · 2 years

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Podes responder a todas ?

1. cereal for sure

2. jupiter

3. compliments about my work

4. spotify, tumblr, watching videos on youtube, series

5. mint

6. sunsets way prettier

7. tripas idk how to translate that

8. oh im obsessed with board games, i love them all but maybe monopoly, scrabble and quizzes

9. hibiscus and green tea

10. oh god they were light green and im the one that chose them, that was my fav color at the time

11. biology/science and history

12. amsterdam

13. keyboard and mouse, i like typing

14. backpack maybe

15. shrink

16. going to a cinema for the first time

17. any pretty island

18. "be happy" x3 whatever happiness stands for, this has been my wish in every ocasion as new year's wishes or birthday's wishes since i can remember

19. maybe Tris from divergent cause i see myself pretty fearless and always up to try new things and im also very stubborn and always go through whatever to reach my goals, i also have this toxic trait where i have to be the best in everything and every situation in my life and i can see this in her too

20. acting maybe, i've never done it in my life but i can express my emotions pretty well and i can feel other's pain too so i think i would be able to relate with my character and do an amazing job, or not guess we'll never know

21. when i was young i was a huge fan of one direction. my second name is Filipa. im a huge fan of linkin park.

22. i dont have enough knowledge on this topic but please choose one and do it

22. a7x

23. park maybe

24. really dont feel like sharing this one

25. if it all goes wrong, darling just hold on

26. chester

27. at the moment lilac but i also love neutral colors in general

28. the one i appreciate the most is heavy mental but i enjoy literally every type of music

29. oh god too much, i would say 45 min

30. i dont do fiction, it was probably an education book on cardiac echocardiogram

31. sexy bitch

32. pretty little liars (rewatched) / purple hearts

33. @my-0wn-feel1ngs

34. pasta all the wayyyy

35. europe interrail

36. so many, i wanna travel the world baby

37. vigo, spain

38. spain

39. buzz junior on playstation 2

40. i enjoy all sports to be honest so, acrobatic gymnastics, volleyball and basket may be my top 3

41. the sims, is also the only one that i play so

42. now you see me 1

43. snickers and kinder bueno

44. i love em all but french toast

45. her soup is the best and white rice, i usually dont eat white rice i dont appreciate it but her's i do eat

46. i would say january, i like fresh starts

47. fall for sure, i love rainy days and the wind since i was a little kid

48. frost

49. im so a dresses girl, i think its my brand

50. its depends, high heels 35 and sneakers 36

51. dylan o'brien / nina dobrev

52. Favorite artist

53. im ok, thank you

54. halloween and christmas, cant decide

55. june

56. inês

57. gotta go with spiders cause they dont bother me

58. be in the picture even tho im pretty good at taking

59. cats and butterflies

60. i was dancing (working)

61. check my phone

62. lettuce and avocato (im not sure if it counts as a vegetable)

63. strawberries

64. savory always

65. in a parade dressed as a ledlight butterfly

66. im not committed to any one in particular but i always give something when someone ask me, just cant say no

67. all family together

68. chicken, lettuce, avocato, fried egg and just a little bit of mustard

69. not really

70. pizza caprese

71. i was really afraid when i was young but nowadays im more comfortable with it

72. no

73. i really like my lips, my hair, my waist and my ass, thats my top 4

74. water

75. white

76. bitter

77. salty

78. spicy

79. water

80. apple but only the green ones

81. cat for sure, i have a terrible dog phobia

82. skiing, id love to try that

83. coat

84. hood

85. car

86. Bus or on foot?

87. yes a calendar that its also a diary

88. @my-0wn-feel1ngs

89. cards, i love playing cards and im actually good at it

90. board game always

91. pen

92. i hate it

93. by hand

94. through speakers in home

95. pasta obviously

96. alcoholic: gin; non alcoholic: lemonade

97. no coffee at all for me

98. without sugar

99. the vampire diaries will always have my heart

100. i really dont like jeans so im gonna say tracksuits even tho i dont wear them outside my house

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13uswntimagines · 3 years

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Chanukah party (USWNT x Baby!Reader)

This isn’t a request but @literaryhedgehog and I thought it would be fun. The basic premise is that reader is at camp during Chanukah, and the team feels bad (especially Lindsey) so they throw her a party. (thank you @notmia101 for betaing this for us).

You smiled at Alyssa as she described her winter plans after training camp. How she was going to visit her sister and her family for Christmas. How they were hoping for snow and how they were going to kill an innocent tree and desecrate its body with lights for their amusement. Her words, not yours. It was a game she and the other girls played every year, trying to make their Christmas plans sound as horror-movie-ish as possible. It was a way of trying to make fun of themselves so you could share the amusement and join in laughing at them.

But despite their efforts, a little piece of you always felt left out because you couldn’t (wouldn’t?) participate. See, you were one of the few who didn’t celebrate Christmas. You were proud of your Jewish heritage, even if your family wasn’t the most ~religious~. But you were proud of the culture you had been raised in. You held its traditions very near to your heart and weren’t AT ALL bitter that the rest of the team had time designated to visit their family during their winter holidays while you still had training camp through the third week of December.

You were kinda zoning out because you could only take so much of their cookie baking, their stalkerish man that watched kids while they slept, and their hiding of a stupid stuffed toy you were sure would give you nightmares (who the fuck thought having an ‘elf’ stalk your family all month was cute?!?!? Capitalism was a weird man). (Though you may or may not have paid attention to Lindsey’s plan to dress Ferguson like a little elf…)

“What about you kid?” Tobin asked, nudging you out of your daydream.

“What?” You shook your head, making everyone around you laugh.

“Do you have plans for the holidays?” Lindsey repeated, her smile showing off her dimples.

“Oh, um. Chanukah started a few days ago. It’s cool, they have an app with a menorah and everything. My family has been face timing me most days, but it will be over before training ends.” You shrugged, hoping they couldn’t see how much being away from your family during this time of year sucked (though you were glad to be included on the camp roster).

Most of the veteran's jaws dropped, how had they not known that you were missing something so important to you? How had US Soccer overlooked a holiday (and inadvertently given you an ultimatum- celebrate or make the national team).

“Then why did they schedule training camp this week?” Tobin mumbled. Again you shrugged.

“There’s 23 of you and only one of me… it’s really not that big of a deal,” you smiled briefly and gave the same speech you had given since middle school, “It’s not like the ‘Jewish Christmas’ even though it happens around the same time some years, my family doesn’t even exchange presents, so I’m really just missing the party they’re throwing on the 18th.”

“That still isn’t fair though. I mean, we get Christmas off automatically, even if we don’t celebrate it!” Christen huffed, throwing her hands up.

“I mean, this isn’t like a new thing. We’re always at camp during this time. And next year the holiday starts in November, so it’s not something that can consistently be scheduled around. I guess it’s just a sacrifice I have to make to be the best right?” You said earnestly, shaking your head. You knew all of the arguments, you had heard them for all of your life.

“But-“ Emily started to protest, but before she could get the words out you cut her off. “Don’t make a big deal guys, it’s fine. Really,”

The team stared at you for a few seconds, several women opening and closing their mouths several times. You shifted uncomfortably under their gaze, breathing a sigh of relief when your phone rang, glad to have an excuse to get out of this situation.

“Ok so we’re totally going to make a big deal out of this,” Lindsey said turning back around to face the team the second you were out the door.

“I’m guessing you have a plan to woo your girl?” Emily smirked, wiggling her eyebrows.

“It’s not to. No. We are doing this as a team to be supportive of our teammate who is part of a traditionally marginalized culture that we need to be more supportive of,” Lindsey grumbled sternly, smiling when Christen nodded in return. “I’m googling “Chanukah for Dummies” right now.

They were going to make this camp different from the others (and if she got to impress you that was just a bonus).

…..

“Umm, why does it smell like something is burning?” Becky asked, walking through the hotel corridor towards the dining room.

“Because Latkes are apparently more difficult to make than I expected,” Kelley said, tossing what looked like a stack of burned hockey pucks into the trash. “I didn’t realize the whole room was going to smell like fried food- do you think they’re going to fine me when we check out?”

“If they fine you, they better fine Em too. The stench from such a little jar is kind of amazing,” Lindsey huffed.

“What did she do, get her sardines or something?” Becky asked, shaking her head, remembering the smell that she couldn’t quite place.

“No. Something called ‘Gefilte fish’”.

“But isn’t that usually for Passover?” Kelley asked, looking up from where she was trying to scrape burned potatoes off her pan.

“They said it was traditional, isn’t that what we’re going for?” Emily huffed, pouting. Lindsey rolled her eyes at her best friend.

“I’ve got music!” Chrystal called, walking through the door in a star-patterned sweater. “It turns out there are not a whole lot of Chanukah songs. There’s a Spotify playlist that’s only 3 hours long, or so, so I supplemented it with a lot of Leonard Cohen and Paul Simon.”

“And I brought the sour cream and applesauce as requested!” Sam called, walking in after her, “also some apple juice and honey bourbon. I know apples and honey are a thing for Rosh Hashana, so I thought maybe we could make some cocktails?”

“I won’t tell coach if you don’t,” Kelley said taking the bottle and pouring herself a shot. “Someone else needs to take over the latke making. My attempts have all either looked like lefse, hashbrowns or just burned.”

“Lefse?”

“I had an ex-girlfriend from Minnesota. It was a potato tortilla thing her family sent her at thanksgiving. The point here is that someone else needs to cook or we are just going to be eating sour cream and applesauce on their own.”

“We could make french fries?” Rose suggested tentatively.

“With bacon and cheese! Those are the best,” Emily exclaimed, only to have Lindsey (gently) slap the back of her head.

“No, Sonnett. She can’t have bacon and I don’t think she’s allowed to have cheese and meat on the same plate…”

“I think if we just batter potato pieces in egg and flour and fry them it would taste nice with the apple sauce and sour cream. And we’ve made french fries before so it won’t be so much of a… learning curve. Though you did a great try, Kelley!” Rose said, patting Kelley’s arm.

“You guys are useless. Did you even look at a recipe?” Megan shook her head.

“If you think it’s so easy you try it.” Kelley scoffed. Megan raised her eyebrow at the woman, stealing the spatula from the defender's hand.

“Tasty made here we come,”

*****

“Happy Chanukah!” came from all around as you walked in. Lindsey was very proud. Not only had she gotten the team on track and ensured that they had all of the stuff google said would make the perfect Chanukah celebration; she had also kept you off their trail until this moment. The shock on your face made all the work on their day off entirely worth it.

The room was decorated in tinsel with a shiny plastic menorah in the center of the table. Several people were wearing ugly sweaters with different “decorations” taped on. A sign on the back wall said “We survived, let’s eat!” Lindsey had decided against hanging up the posters Rose and Mal made saying “Stick it to the (ro)Man!” and “MaccaBEe mine.” The first one because she wasn’t sure it was appropriate, the second one because she knew it wasn’t.

“Ooo who brought the hotdog of the sea?” You asked, biting your lip to suppress a giggle as you walked over to the table to see the food on display.

“What?” Lindsey’s eyes tried to follow yours, utterly confused. They didn’t get hotdogs. They most certainly weren’t on the list that Chanukah for dummies had given her.

You smiled softly and shook your head, pointing to the tan balls that Emily had provided.

“That’s what my siblings and I call it during Passover. Gefilte fish is kinda a love it or hate it thing…” you trailed off, scrunching your nose just slightly.

“And you’re not a fan?” Lindsey smirked, wrapping an arm around your shoulder.

“Umm, I plead the fifth,” You mumbled, shaking your head slightly. It wasn’t your favorite item in the world.

“That was all Emily,” Kelley snorted, clapping you on the back, and you grinned devilishly back at her.

“Well, it was very nice of her to be so thoughtful. She can try a piece with me,”

Emily cringed at the idea, but nodded nonetheless. It was your party and if eating the smelly thing out of a jar made you happy, then that’s exactly what she would do. (She also stealthily shot Lindsey the middle finger while you were surveying the rest of the items on the tables).

“Honestly the sufganiyot is my favorite,” you said, taking a step towards the platter, your lips ticking up at Lindsey’s adorable confused face. “sorry, the donuts,” you clarified, picking up one of the many powdered sugar-covered donuts in the stack, inspecting it to see what kind it was. The Jelly ones were particularly important for the celebration.

Lindsey blushed a little. “We didn’t know if you wanted jelly or custard,” She said hesitantly, watching as your eyes got impossibly brighter.

“Both are amazing, thank you,” You smiled softly at the midfielder, brushing a stay bit of powdered sugar off her pink cheeks. You held her gaze for a moment before seeming realizing you had an audience, and turning towards the rest of the team. “thank all of you,”

It wasn’t the traditional Chanukah you usually shared with your family, but the friends who had become your family made it special nonetheless.

#uswnt imagine #uswnt imagines #uswnt x reader #literalhedgehog

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medicine-and-molly · 2 years

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happy 1 year! to celebrate, here’s my (maybe unpopular idk) evermore ranking. everything listed here is just my personal opinion, dont take it to seriously.

foreward: some songs i cant rank because my opinion on them fluxuates too much- includes closure, evermore, and coney island.

now onto the ranking:

14. tis the damn season

im sorry i like the song but the instrumentation reallt isnt for me. the story is incredible but the lyrics just dont resonate with me.

13. cowboy like me

i dont like the melody on this one. cant explain it, theres nothing specifically wrong with it, but i just dont vibe with it. that being said, i still listen to it regularly, just less than the others.

12. willow

I used to like this song a lottttt but more recently its kinda dropped. i think i finally wore it out after listening to it on loop for like. literal days. its definitely a solid song that i still really enjoy though. the fact that its kinda low is mostly my fault lmaoo.

11. happiness

something about this song makes me cry, and out of all of taylor’s “sad” songs, this one is up there. i love it so much, but I cant listen to it if im not in the right mood, so it sometimes ends up getting skipped if im emotionally fragile or whatever.

10. champagne problems

now were getting to the problem i experience in every single album ranking i have of taylor swift’s, where there are farrr too many good songs. champagne problems is one of my favorite songs, but it took a while to grow on me. even now, its not at the top of my list, maybe because im still young and dont really relate to a lot of the singer’s experiences. music wise it slaps though

9. marjorie

i hated this song the first time i heard it. and the second time. and third and fourth and fifth and sixth. but eventually something just clicked and it gets stuck in my head at just the sound of the name. its such a good song omg idk how me from last december disliked it aaaaaaa

8. tolerate it

this was actually my number one song when evermore first released, and my love for it has not decreased. its so filled with pain and resentment and frustration, but theres so much sweet liberation in it that is so so so magical. the reason its dropped in ranking is not because my opinion on it changed, but rather because i finally stopped listening to it almost exclusively and gave other songs a chance and realized “oh shit this whole album is impeccable”.

7. Gold Rush

its just so catchy. like idk i love it theres something about it that just makes me go “oooaoaoaoaoa”. like idontlikeslowmotiondoublevisioninroseblush. fndmdndnd. it turns me into a gremlin of the best variety. (also this was the fav song of a guy i thought i liked who is now a good friend so theres a lot of nice memories attached).

6. no body, no crime

this is just. omg. i love this song. i cant like say anything about it other than “go listen to it right now”. its good. no one better disagree with me because i will cry.

5. long story short

now were getting to the ones that make me dance around my bedroom. long story short is a bop. plain and simple. good song. i have no analysis other than “wow this song is really good, top 5”.

4. its time to go

this song is so emotional and passionate, and a little existentially terrifying. but the poeticism involved is just sooooo unbelievable and the musicality is great and the lyrics and- i cant stop raving about. why are the bonus tracks always so good?

3. right where you left me

even though this is only at number three, this is my most listened to song of evermore. i have both apple music through my family and spotify, so i dont think rwylm showed up on my wrapped, but if you combined them it would probably make my top 5 most listened to songs. its incredible in its melody, lyrics, instrumentation, imagery, and every other aspect. not to mention how catchy it is, like goddamn!

2. ivy

speaking of goddamn! this is song is underappreciated everywhere, i feel like. (this may or not be true but it feels true, y’know?) The story it tells is a beautiful one, and the figurative language is multilayered and very complex. i love every moment of this song, and i absolutely cannot pick a favorite part.

And for number 1, i present: dorothea!

this took the number 1 slot fairly recently after doing a lot of climbing in the past year. it started our mid-tier for me, but the more i listened to it the more i loved it. now, it stands out as one of the cutest, most passionate songs on the album that i also feel gord underrecognized. congrats to taylor for making something so incredible!

so thats my list, obviously its just my opinion and very heavily influenced by my own experiences and taste. im curious to hear other opinions as well! happy birthday, evermore!

#taylor swift #evermore #song ranking

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