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ateezyuri · 4 months

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is it over now? [may 2020]

summary — after months apart, yuri and yuqi finally reunite. but it doesn’t end in the way they hope.

warnings — mentions of depressive episode, argument

tags — @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer @newjeansmax [send an ask to be included or removed]

notes — this seem familiar? cuz it is. my 2024 twist on love of my life 🥰

Yuri sighed, curling deeper into her bed, sinking further into the soft mattress below her. She had woken up not too long ago, but she couldn’t find it within herself to roll out of bed just yet. She found it frustrating that she couldn’t find any motivation for anything, because she had so much she wanted to do and so much she had in mind, but all of the tasks just seemed overwhelming, and Yuri kept pushing everything back, telling herself that she could do it later, just not now.

She had tried her best not to beat herself up about everything that she couldn’t get done, but it was a learning process. She still felt guilty, no matter the reassurances she got from her therapist and her members.

It wasn’t until her door had creaked open that Yuri had looked away from the corner of the room she had been staring at, turning around to see a smiling Jiwoo at the door. Jiwoo was her personal manager, and she had always made Yuri feel less alone. She had been staying in the apartment with her during her hiatus, and Yuri had been thankful that she wasn’t completely by herself, even if that’s what she said she wanted.

“I’m going to the store, will you be okay by yourself?” Jiwoo questioned, entering the room and gently stroking Yuri’s hair, smiling when the girl nodded in confirmation. “Call me if you need anything.”

“Okay, I will.” Yuri smiled, waving goodbye to Jiwoo as she left the room, turning back to her previous spot in her bed after she had left. Yuri had reached for her phone, smiling when she had seen a few text messages from her members.

[hwa] good morning love bug, text me when you see this <3 we can call later if you want! i’m free whenever :)

[minki🥰] san had tried to steal a few of your plushies, but don’t worry i hid them all in my room!

[ jjongie] *song link*

Yuri hummed, replying to all three of the boys a simple thank you, turning off her phone after the text messages had been sent.

Although she didn’t reply as often as she used to, the boys had still texted her throughout the week whenever they could, something that Yuri had looked forward to, even if she didn’t have the energy to talk to them. And the boys had always understood, they never held it against her, which touched Yuri to no end.

Yuri played the song that Jongho had recommended to her in the background softly, curling back into her bed and pulling the blankets closer, slowly trailing off into a slumber.

“Yuri, someone is here to see you.” Jiwoo’s soft voice caused Yuri to awaken, slowly opening her eyes and squinting over at Jiwoo, widening her eyes once they had adjusted. Who would it be? If it was one of the members she would have just let them in….

“It’s Yuqi...I can ask her to come another time if you want?” Jiwoo added, seeming to read Yuri’s confused expression. Jiwoo didn’t know that Yuri and Yuqi had dated, but she figured that something had happened between them, since Yuri had never mentioned her anymore.

“No...it’s okay. Tell her I’ll be there in a few minutes.” Yuri whispered, shock still going through her veins, and she swore she had never gotten out of bed faster, she probably had gotten ready in record time as well.

She didn’t change out of her sweatpants and oversized hoodie, but she had taken care of her hygiene, she didn’t really mind on how she looked at the moment, because Yuqi had seen her bare-faced and with heavier eye-bags before.

She slightly hesitated before grabbing the door’s handle, cringing at the slight squeal the door made, biting her lip to hold back the smile when Yuqi’s face was revealed.

Yuqi and her hadn’t seen each other since February, and no matter how many times Yuri had sworn she was over Yuqi, all of the butterflies and love that she had for Yuqi came rushing back when she saw the small smile that Yuqi had adored on her face.

“Is it alright if we go into your room?” Yuqi quietly mumbled, smiling when Yuri had nodded and let the girl in, and guided her into her bedroom.

“Sorry, it’s a bit of a mess.” Yuri chuckled sheepishly, moving the piles of the clothes that were littered around her floor to a single corner in her room, gently smiling at Yuqi once she had finished.

“I’m sure my room is messier.” Yuqi nervously laughed, hesitantly sitting on the edge of the bed, smiling when Yuri joined her.

“You are probably wondering why I’m here…” Yuqi mumbled, looking over at Yuri and quickly looking away when they had made eye contact.

“I well...I want to tell you something.” Yuqi whispered, and Yuri had barely heard her, but she still nodded nevertheless, urging the girl to continue.

A pit of nervousness had begun to form in Yuri’s stomach, the uncertainty of what Yuqi was about to say had made her head spin. She had definitely not expected the next words to flow out of Yuqi’s mouth.

“I’m in love with you.” Yuqi uttered out in a rush, and Yuri had quickly raised her eyebrows, Yuqi...loved her? Yuri could feel excitement bubbling in her stomach, she had craved to hear those three words from her previous lover for so long, but the longer she stared at Yuqi, the heavier her chest felt - her heart remembering all of the pain from the night she kissed the girl of her dreams goodbye.

This was what she wanted, right? So why isn’t she happy hearing this?

Yuri watched Yuqi’s face slowly drop from her reaction - which was clearly not the one she anticipated, and Yuri wanted nothing more than to reach out, to feel the smooth lines on the girl’s palm, to embrace her into her arms, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it. The air was too stiff, too tense to allow for Yuri to move any muscles in her body.

“After you said ‘I love you’ when we broke up...I can’t stop thinking about it. That had been the first time you said it. And it could have been the last. But I don’t want it to be the last, I'm not ready to give you up.” Yuqi whispered, tears starting to pool in her eyes. The hurt im Yuri’s chest started to turn into anger, seeing the girl who broke her heart, begging to be let back in. How could Yuqi, show up out of the blue, after months of no contact? Claiming she was in love?

“You hurt me.” Yuri whispered, looking down at her hands, the sight of Yuqi crying infront of her becoming unbearable. Even if she was angry, she still cared. She couldn’t let her weakness betray her, and allow her to take Yuqi back without a thought, because that would only end up with her heart broken again.

“You broke your promise.” Yuri continued, after a moment of silence. “You told me you wouldn’t let anything get in the way of us, but as soon as thing started getting scary, you left me.” Yuri couldn’t help it, she knew that she was being irrational, that Yuqi was hurting too, but she couldn’t swallow everything that happened and pretend it was fine, because it was very far from fine.

“I had to, Yuri! Don’t you understand? We- I could have lost my job!” Yuqi exclaimed, frowning when Yuri only shook her head and scoffed. “What, do you not care if I got kicked out of my group?”

“I care just as much as you care for my well-being, Yuqi.” Yuri said, and as soon as she said it, she wished she could take it back. She knew it was harsh - but she couldn’t stop herself. “I texted you, every single night, begging for you to just send me something, anything. You told me that I could call you when I felt like everything was falling apart. You told me you would be there for me - but were you?” Yuri asked, nodding when Yuqi slowly shook her head, too stunned to speak.

“I love you Yuqi, and I want to be with you, but it hurts to be with someone who breaks their promises.” Yuri finally said. Yuri had thought this for a long, long, time - but she never could bring herself to say it, fearing that Yuqi wouldn’t haven’t wanted to talk it out. Now that she told Yuqi how she hurt her - it felt like weight was leaving Yuri’s chest. Like she could breath again.

“What did you want me to do? Tell my company I was in love with you? Drop everything just to be with you?”

“I wanted you to fight for me, for us. That’s what I would have done. I would have found a way for it work. I always put you first, whenever you needed me, I was there. But you never put me first, Yuqi. I’m not telling you to quit your job - i’m asking you to at least to pretend you care about me.” Yuri pleaded, tears finally escaping her eyes. She couldn’t let Yuqi walk all over her anymore, she needed to stand her ground. Even if that meant loosing her.

“I do care about you! I’m here, aren’t I?” Yuri couldn’t believe the ignorance of the girl she though so much of - is this how she really thought? Did she really think this small amount of care was enough? Yuri felt completely blindsided. She felt this feeling before, many times, but with other people. She never expected Yuqi to make her feel this way, which only added to the pain.

“After three months! After three months of avoiding me! Am I too much of a burden?” Yuri asked, a sob escaping her lips when Yuqi didn’t say anything - confirming her worst nightmare. Fear of being a burden was the reason why it was so hard for her to open up for Yuri. She could feel her chest begin to close in on herself again, the reality of the situation starting to come clear to her.

The girls didn’t say anything for awhile, letting the bitter silence overtake them while Yuri cried. She couldn’t believe it. Yuqi’s true colors were finally starting to show - and every word that Yuqi spoke was like a knife piercing through her heart, and to make it worse, it didn’t even seem like the girl cared.

“You don’t love me. You can’t love me.” Yuri finally breathed out, breathing in sharply before continuing. “You don’t know how to love someone like me. And i’m not going to sit here and watch you force yourself to love me.” She finally looked up, sighing when she saw Yuqi’s puffy eyes, her lip quivering.

“Is it over?” Yuqi asked, but she didn’t need an answer. She already knew. Without a word, without a goodbye, or a hug, she left. Again. She left Yuri all alone, crying and distraught.

When she heard the front door shut, she let all of her locks on her emotions free, allowing herself to sink to the floor, freeing all of the tears and all of the sobs - letting out all of the heart wrenching screams her throat trapped inside her for so long until it went dry. She let everything go, until two pairs of strong arms lifted her up from the floor, rocking her back and forth until her breathing slowed down.

Yuri didn’t have to even look up to know who it was, there was only one person who Jiwoo would call when Yuri started loosing control of everything - Mingi. The boy who knew Yuri like no other.

“What did I do Mingi? What did I do to be so unloveable?” Yuri asked in between her sobbing fits, her entire body shaking as more tears rolled down her cheeks.

“You didn’t do a thing to deserve this. You are loveable, Yuri. I love you - she just wasn’t the right person. And that’s not your fault.” Mingi whispered, frowning when his words made Yuri cry harder.

“I wanted her to be the right person. I don’t think I can ever stop loving her.” Yuri didn’t think that any of this pain would go away. How could it? How could any of it go away, when Yuqi was the only person Yuri ever dreamed of loving for the rest of her life? How could she just move on?

Mingi didn’t say anything, knowing that Yuri needed this silence to gather herself, gently running his fingers through her hair until she fell asleep. Mingi lifted the girl up, wincing when she felt lighter than normal, placing both her and himself in her bed, throwing the covers over the both of them. Mingi sighed as he looked over at his best friend, who was in so much pain to begin with - and now has an added heartbreak into the mix.

“You never deserved any of this,” Mingi whispered into the cold air, pulling Yuri closer to him and closed his eyes, wishing to the stars above him that Yuri would be able to heal all of her wounds before he fell asleep.

Maybe this time - the universe would be on her side. Yuri would later find out that closing the door on Yuqi, would open so many other precious doors.

#AHHH I MISSED U SM!!!!#thank you so much for reading!!! and yesss it’s been a long time 😭😭#HOW MANY TIMES IS YURI GONNA GET HER HEART BROKE IM SO SORRY 💔💔#good things are coming 🥰

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ateezyuri · 4 months

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yuri’s relationship with ateez :: mingi + san addition

MINGI

BESTIES BESTIES BESTIES. THE ULTIMATE DUO. yuri and mingi ARE THE DUO. literally icons, LEGENDS. whenever the two of them are together, yk you’re about to have a good time.

they are both so chaotic and their vibes ALWAYS match. they will never fail to make eachother and you laugh. they are literally inseparable. they always joke and say that their souls and emotions are connected, and there are countless of compilations of the two of them being on the same brain wavelength.

mingi is the lalala and yuri is the okay okay okay. there was one youtube video of mingi and yuri, and mingi DESPERATELY wanting to do the intro but he didn’t even know what the video was about, so yuri was holding papers up telling him what to say behind the camera, and it was SO OBVIOUS. yuri kept yelling at him because he kept messing up 😭. it’s so funny whenever yuri and mingi are teamed up together because yuri always blames everything on mingi and he’s like WHAT DID I DO???

even if they tease eachother a lot, they are always there for eachother. mingi and yuri facetimed pretty much every night when they both had their hiatus. and when ateez was known as kq fellaz, yuri went home with mingi for every holiday, and mingi’s family (as well as all of ateez’s family) adopted yuri as their own daughter :(. mingi complains that his mom calls yuri more that him 😭

they love each other with everything in their being <3 their friendship is just so pure and special <3

SAN

san helped yuri get out of her shell so so much during pre-debut! before yuri transferred to KQ, she considered herself an extrovert. after having a few waves of anxiety, she found herself being able to make friends to ease, in fact, she had so so many friends at JYP. but once yuri left the busy environment of JYP and transferred to a smaller company, yuri found herself struggling to connect to the boys. she adored them, she really did, but she was so used to being surrounded by people she knew since age 15, she wasn’t used to being in a room full of strangers every day.

san had noticed that she was often by herself during breaks or during stretches, and he always made an effort to make sure yuri felt included. whether that asking her questions to get her in the conversation, or simply walking over and sitting next to her, san had done it, until eventually, yuri didn’t have to be coaxed out of her own bubble.

now, yuri and san can be seen CONSTANTLY sitting in their own world. they can be so oblivious to their surroundings when their together - they can either be sitting in comfortable silence (rarely, only happens when they are really tired), gossiping (most likely), or giggling over memes (most likely of each other 🥰). san never fails to bring her soft side out!!

the two of them dancing together? 4 + 4 = ATE!!! san just makes her dancing so much powerful, it’s the VIBES!!!

tags — @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer @newjeansmax [send an ask to be included or removed]

#ateez 9th member #ateez added member #ateez addition #ateez extra member #ateez female addition #kpop oc #ateez female member #ateez female oc #ateez ninth member #ateez fluff #san fluff #mingi fluff #ateez addition au #ateez oc #ateez au #ateez blurbs

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ateezyuri · 4 months

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how to appeal to the future in-laws: a guide by woosanhwa (✿◡‿◡)

#hello i am delulu

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