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galbadiaedeakramer-blog · 1 year

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“Wesker loves Claire.”

Starting off our Clesker evidence is none other than Richard Waugh, who graced the RE fandom with his sexy, cunning, and honey voice laced with deception, Albert Wesker. Providing his voice from 2000 to 2005, Waugh captured the essence of Wesker perfectly and became a fan favorite. Having no prior knowledge of the character, his "Shere Khan" Wesker, to which some of the fans joked about it sounding like Bowie. The RE fanbase was giddy for anything close to Wesker, Richard Waugh took part in a few fan events and interviews. One, in particular, took place in 2011 by Project Umbrella, years after Capcom replaced him as Wesker. https://www.projectumbrella.net/richard-waugh-interview-project-umbrella.html

With an interesting question below.

RW: "I'm afraid I am a little biased. Claire is a favorite."

In 2017, on the Crimson Head Elder podcast, which interviewed Alyson Court (Claire) and Leila Johnson (Alexia) was suddenly interrupted by a special guest. Which was none other than Richard Waugh.

https://youtu.be/zJaD5cNrqLg

Shocking the podcast hosts, and it eventually became an Alexia/Claire/Wesker interview lol. (@31:46) The interview goes on, and they questioned Waugh about his performance as Albert Wesker, with Alyson fangirling in the background. All this leads to Waugh being asked about Wesker's obsession with Chris, and Claire being mentioned (smirk) (39:54)

RW: "Yeah, his obsession with Chris is really odd to me, but I'm obsessed with Claire just because of Alyson. I don't understand the obsession with Chris."

Host 2: "I think Wesker's infatuation with Claire is that he really likes her."

Rw: "Yes, absolutely. I think he's in love with her, that's what I decided.

Queen Alyson: "That's what I decided too. I am so cool to go with this fanfiction. It's sort of like a Hannibal Lecter/ Clarice Starling pairing. Yeah, I always wanted to explore that aspect, but then I guess with what they did with the Wesker character, it went in a VERY DIFFERENT direction. But I'm just saying there could be some fan spinoff."

So we have Hannibal Lecter/Clarice Starling and another dynamic being mentioned, starting at 47:12.

RW: I was going with Shere Khan from Jungle Book with a kind of Bowie from Labyrinth thing as a side thing. Then it suddenly became, "Well, he's doing David Bowie." Well, I sound nothing like David Bowie. I wasn't doing David Bowie. I was doing George Sanders, and it was to me a risk when I first presented it to Susan. It was just me taking a shot at ultimate evil. All I knew was the name of the guy, that the thing was called Resident Evil or Biohazard in Japan. That's all I knew, so there was a freedom to that, and I took my shot. With Susan and the people from Capcom liked it, and it went from there.

After the interviewer sums up and agrees with Waugh on him sounding like Shere Khan, Queen Alyson adds to that. (LOVE HER)

QAC: Oh it totally makes sense, like you're blowing my mind here because it makes so much sense. I get the dynamic even more so with the Labyrinth comparison, and not so much the voice. Because again, you're right, you don't end up sounding like Bowie, but that dynamic between Claire and Wesker. It has several aspects of the playfulness where he's sort of teasing her. "Oh, you silly little girl." And she's kinda this plaything he's intrigued by, and that makes so much sense. With the Shere Khan thing, when you first said that it was instantly, that's brilliant and also now I want to hear you play Shere Khan."

For those not familiar with Labyrinth, its a movie about a magical prince name Jareth who kidnaps the brother of a young girl named Sarah. Who wishes for her younger brother to disappear forever. Jareth becomes obsessed with Sarah and this person summed it up perfectly.

https://screenrant.com/labyrinth-things-no-sense-jareth-david-bowie-character/

“For a guy so obsessed with a girl, Jareth has a funny way of showing it. He tosses a snake at her, he mocks her, and he does everything to demonstrate how little faith he has in her abilities. It's almost as if he's grooming her for a lifelong career as his subservient bride, creating a need for his approval in every deed she does.

Even if that's too dark an assessment for some, it still doesn't make sense to torment someone that you're simultaneously wooing. In the novelization, Jareth pursues Sarah even harder, and even attempts to kiss her at one point.”

In the end Sarah gains her own strength and walks away from the goblin king. Defeating him in the end, its a total 80′s movie if you decide to watch it.

Now with that out of the way, our dear Waugh took part in another interview by Crimson Head Elder.

https://youtu.be/IGuRnVcBdRs

The interview is hilarious and seemed Waugh had a lot of fun. We learn a few things about Waugh and how he created one of the best voices for Wesker. I hope they bring him back for Remake 4, because he's just perfect.

Enough fangirling, the interview goes on and eventually leads to one podcaster mentioning how Chris told Wesker he was acting like a comic book villain (lol). Which leads to this wonderful and funny exchange. (@54:23)

Host 2: "Well, Chris did say that Wesker was acting like a comic book villain at the final battle.(Re5)

RW: Yeah well, Chris is a dick. Wesker loves Claire. Yep.

Host 2: You heard it here folks, he confirmed it.

RW: Have you ever dated a girl who got a brother, and she goes on and on about how great her brother is? I have, and I hated her brother. I initially liked her brother, but when I finished dating her, I couldn't stand her brother. She was always like, "My brother would never say that. My brother will pick us up. My brother would, etc etc". (fanart idea)

Host 1: Well, that's the thing. If you and Claire ever get together, the subject of Chris would have to be a topic.

RW: Yeah, a hot topic, he only comes over for thanksgiving, and that's it.

Host 1: Is he going to get an invitation to the wedding?

RW: No he can be at the wedding, but as the relationship continues, he gets one dinner a year. Let's say Thanksgiving, and not even a good one.

Host 2: I can just imagine Chris all tied up and gagged (smirk). So Chris can just stay there and shut up, and with Wesker like “Uh huh, that's your place boy. Be quiet!!!"

Host 1: Well Richard, we won't put him at the main table with you and Claire we-

RW: We can put him at the kid's table!! Yeah.

Hilarious and the final dose for Waugh backing the pairing. (at 59:35)

Host 1: Biohazard Valkyrie and she asks, "When Capcom didn't cast you in RE5 and ultimately killed the character at the end of the game. The series really lost a part of itself and Capcom slowly has been trying to recapture that since. You were Wesker! How would you like for Wesker's fate to have played out? World Domination, death by rocket, or settling down with Claire?

Host 2: Ohhhhh we know this answer.

RW: Well, he's going to settle down with Claire eventually, but the world domination can work in there. That can be, you know, "World domination..... then settle down."

Host 1: That's like his to-do list on his fridge.

RW: Yes, exactly.

One of the best answers from Waugh and the hosts lol (someone draw that lol)

With that being said, we come to the end of Waugh's approval of the pairings (so far). If there is more that's hidden, I will gladly add it to the folder. Right now I'm trying to find all of Alyson's mentions and approval of the pairing. Until the CVX remake, we have to make do with this. I know it's early, and the tags might be empty. But some of us are setting up the party early for the floodgates of new content with the remake.

#clesker #Claire Redfield #Albert Wesker #Thank you Mr. Waugh #Wesker x Claire just setting up early #bring the cookies #and the liquor

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br1ghtestlight · 11 months

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i know you didn’t rb it, but i wanted to send you some fanfic writer asks anyway (if you want to do them!!) how about - 3, 4, 18, 19? 💖

AWWW this is so sweet thank you!! of course!!! <3

3. what’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?

i feel like it would be a lie to say anything other than my genderfluid gene fanfiction just bcuz i spent a ridiculous amount of time on it and still reread it somewhat frequently lol but other than that im also proud of the fanfiction i wrote abt bob's mom and her death :) very interesting themes to explore and i liked writing the childhood flashbacks

4. how many wips do you have right now?

there are so many i couldn't even count them all probably at least 30+ but for fanfictions im actively working on or TRYING to work on uhh maybe like 5 or 6 depends on the day. always starting new ideas

18. what’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?

i definitely dont remember every line of dialogue ive ever written so i might be forgetting something but i really like linda talking to louise abt consent as a toddler ("Louise, I promise that we will NEVER try to steal your bunny ears, or tell you to take them off and not give them back to you afterwards. Not ever. We know that you love your bunny ears, and I made 'em special for you. Even if you're the baddest, meanest girl in the whole world, those bunny ears belong to you. They'll always be yours. Nobody is ever allowed to take them off without your permission, except for you. Not even Mommy or Daddy is allowed to do that.") and tina telling zeke that she'll always be there for him ("I'll be here for you no matter how scary it gets," Tina whispered.)

19. give us a small teaser from one of your wips

not sure if this counts as small but it doesn't make sense without the full context i dont think?? not even sure if im ever going to finish this one but its cute. it isnt from my tina x jimmy jr childhood friends to lovers fanfic btw this is just a silly sleepover fic i was writing

Jimmy Junior looked at Tina as she talked. She was wearing purple horse pajamas and he thought that they looked cool. "Do you want me to paint your nails?"

He had to have zoned out of their conversation, because he had no idea what was going on but Zeke was looking at Tina like everything she was saying made perfect sense. He had a goofy smile.

"Hell yeah! I want you use black for mine, and give 'em red and orange flames comin' off my fingers. That'll look cool as hell."

"What about you, Jimmy Junior?" Tina asked.

Tina was never cruel to him. She'd never teased him for his lisp or said that his dancing was stupid and annoying, even when they were fighting and she had every reason to be insulting to him. He wasn't always an amazing friend to her and he hadn't said enough how much he appreciated that she'd been there for him since preschool. They'd grown up together. Tina had been around when his younger brothers were born, and when his parents got their divorce finalized and he couldn't stop crying during school. They'd played together on the playground and shared their first kiss at her thirteenth birthday party, and through everything Jimmy Junior always knew that Tina loved him and had a good heart. Better than his.

He still couldn't help but pause for a second and try to figure out if she was trying to embarrass him or make a mockery of him somehow. Nobody had ever asked to paint his nails before, and he'd honestly considered makeup something that was completely forbidden. It was condemned only to his mother's bathroom cabinet and taken out when she was going on a date with somebody she wanted to impress. He wasn't ALLOWED to wear makeup.

#idk if i can fully take credit for that tina dialogue bcuz it was partly inspired by something else lol #ask #bob's burgers

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nightofnyx8 · 10 months

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🎁 and 📗 for the asks? :)

🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?

Lying was easy.

Being second nature by this point, Agent Twilight barely even thought about the words being said before they passed through his lips. Most people didn’t even care about his encrypted pleasantry as long as they felt secure in his presence. A loyal colleague, a devoted lover, even someone with the right amount of money was somehow worthy of becoming a trusted confidante.

Married women, especially, seemed to be the most guilty of this particular kind of trust. Often neglected and swept aside for a younger counterpart, it really wasn’t all that difficult to draw her in with a drink or two. Half past ten she’d be clinging to his suit lapels in the backseat of the car. Midnight kissed the soft swell of her curves as he deposited her onto the bed of whatever hotel happened to be the closest. And once one o’clock slipped past her stupor of drunken exhilaration, her tongue would finally loosen....... (spoilers here lol)

When she finally does whisper the name into his ear, he has one minute left to spare. He runs through every fragment of information he has on the name, connecting the pieces of the puzzle together in his mind. Twilight’s only vaguely aware of the pure fantasy he’s currently giving to the married wife of the general. It’s bothersome that he has to stay an extra hour just to leave her satisfied, but it’s much more optimal that she falls asleep blissfully unaware.

For he’ll be gone long before she wakes up. Lionel will cease to exist, and Agent Twilight will be on the next train to Hungaria for an entirely new identity. Perhaps he should feel a little more guilty for the fate of Mrs. Paulus, cast aside like the many dozens before her. But she’ll be forgotten soon enough. It’s hard to remember the presence of someone he hardly even bothered to look at.

Twilight doesn’t get back to his designated safe house until the very early hours of the morning. Lionel’s crumpled uniform lies carelessly on the bathroom floor, and Twilight spends the better part of an hour underneath a scalding hot shower. He scrubs his skin raw until it turns bright red, but still he cannot seem to rid himself of her unwanted touch. The soap suds disappear down the drain, as do the rest of his turbulent emotions he doesn’t dare even begin to name.

-from a Twilight demisexual-centered piece I've been playing with

📗 Do you want to write something outside of fanfiction? If so, what about?

Oh, I would love to write some original fiction someday :) Yes, it's cliche, but holding a book in my hand that I wrote is something I've always dreamt about. I have a couple ideas in my head, I have a special fondness for historical fiction, especially romances that fight to stay together when the world falls apart around them. Maybe someday when my obsession for twiyor and royai spurs me to write something of my own.

from the fanfic asks

#thank you for the ask my friend!#speaking of writers that change lives #eri influenced 99% of my writing style #so read her poetry and fall asleep to her songs :)

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shiroxichigo · 2 years

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I'm gonna get a little personal so if you're not into that feel free to skip this post but--

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I really love my online friends who I've made because of this fandom, and I love having mutuals here on tumblr to yell at about Bleach, and I simply adore all the silent people who like my posts all the time even if we don't chat, I appreciate you all

Because it gets so hard sometimes irl when I want to gush about Bleach but my friends or family either politely turn the topic of conversation somewhere else or flat out tell me to shut the fuck up

And it gets really annoying when I sit and listen to them go on and on and on about whatever dating sim they're currently playing, or about how Jojo is top tier anime, or how Attack on Titan is peak writing, or they brag about how they know every detail of the Harry Potter books, how they can't wait for the next Pokemon game, etc

And listen, all of those things are great (I'm serious, whatever you like is valid and I'm not here to judge it, and ofc I'm a Potterhead too lol), and I'm so happy that my friends are passionate about those things, but they won't let me talk about Bleach. Or they won't even pretend to be interested. And I've spent hours listening to them talk about their special interests but they won't even give me 5 minutes to talk about how awesome the first anime episode in 10 years was

So honestly, I'm super grateful for sites like tumblr that let fans meet. You have no idea how much a silly little edit of the Karakura Gang makes me smile, or how badly I gush over any fanart of Hollow Ichigo.

Because this fandom means a lot to me. It inspired me to write, and now I'm a published author. Waiting for the next episode or chapter gave me something to look forward to when it felt like my life was falling apart. When I was depressed, it gave me an escape. And now, when my anxiety is at an all-time high, it gives me somewhere to vent in the form of fanfiction.

So yeah, when I say "I love Bleach" I mean I love everything about it: the story, the characters, the fandom, the inspiration it gives me, the hope that things would get better when I was younger (and things did)! And when someone can't give me 5 minutes to talk about why I love it so much, it just hurts

So thank you guys for being here. Thanks for reading my stories and liking my silly little headcanons and my not-terrible but definitely room-for-imrovement drawings haha

It really does mean the world to me

#vent #rant #personal #bleach #bleach fanfiction #bleach fandom #ichigo kurosaki #hollow ichigo #fanfiction #fandom #bleach anime #bleach manga

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morganofthewildfire · 2 years

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saw u were having a bad day, and honestly, so I am, and I think we've both discovered headcanons are the way to cure them. so here they are

STT aelin, rowan, and elia, in my mind, absolutly have matching tattoos that they get on Elias 18ths birthday, where she says it doesn't even sting, rowan just shrugs it off, and aelin says it's more painful than childbirth. they probably get the kingsflame flower or something the three of them love

Elias younger siblings argue that they should get a tattoo with mom and dad too, rowan tells them to wait until their 18th birthday, and aelin whacks him for promising more tattoo pains on her body lol

and speaking of Elias younger siblings, I think that she is absolutly fascinated with them when they are born... to say she loves babies is probably an understatement, I feel like with her gentle soul, she would love the innocence of her baby siblings

this prob has to do with the fact that rowan and aelin definitly include her in all of the pregnancy, and I get the feeling that elia is the "that's my baby" type of kid

I think when elia is like,, 15 or 16 she tries to dye her hair blonde. and it doesn't go great for mannnnyyyy reasons. the first being that it doesn't even turn out that blonde, the second being that she insists that she just wanted to try something "different" to everyone, and that aelin never stopped them from expressing themselves before- I can hear it now

"you didn't stop Elliott from dyeing her hair pink this summer!"

"those were highlights so that she could look like a mermaid!"

her and aelin really get into it about this whole blonde thing. rowan keeps trying to be mediator- he normally is between his daughters and his wife- but he can't get a straight answer out of either of them. why elia actually did it, why aelin cares so much

it comes to the shock of everyone that elia actually tells Elliott why she went blonde. I can see them sitting in Elliotts room and elia finally telling her that she really did want a change. but that she probably should have picked something a bit more fun, that she actually would have preferred being mermaids together. that she did it because she was sick of wondering if her red hair made her look like him, that she wondered if when aelin saw her with that red hair, she sometimes thought of him. that she wanted to see if she would look more like aelin, more like a Whitethorn, if she were blonde.

Elliott, all things considered, was very nice about it. and she said being mermaids would be way more fun than overthinking hair. elia was comforted.

until she finds out Elliott told rowan about their whole conversation and elia threatens to kill her

after rowan and aelin talk to elia about it, and everyone is understanding about it all, the parents are actually happy to hear their two pink and purple headed daughters scream at each other across the hall of their bedrooms... because that meant everything was back to normal

Morgan, every time I do one of theses i get more and more obsessed with the STT children. I would read (or write, that's right, and fanfiction for fanfiction, how very meta) anything about these girls, i love them so much, i want a whole Elia novella I swear

have I told you how much I love you 😭

I swear, i wrote the fic but your headcanons are better than anything I could come up with, they're just so accurate! And so amazing and so special to me ❤️

I love the idea of them getting matching tattoos, I feel like Elia would seek any connection possible to Aelin and Rowan, especially Rowan, so she would definitely push for them doing this.

The connection between Elia and her hair is definitely something I feel like is a recurring issue for her. Her hair marks her as something separate, as something apart from her siblings and her parents, so it would add to some sort of identity crisis, and I could totally see her trying to dye her hair.

I also love how you write Elia and Eliott's relationship 🥺 because they'd definitely be super close, and I do think Elia would turn to her sometimes when she has those emotions about things she doesn't want to share with Aelin and Rowan. But of course Eliott would be concerned about her sister, so she'd go tell their parents, just to make sure she's okay. ❤️

you are absolutely spot on with everything, and now I really want to be good at art so i can draw fanart of them with matching tattoos 😂 🥺

#stt #ask

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byliever · 2 years

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Tbh, I kinda want you to answer all 20 questions 🤪 fellow writer always fascinate me

This has been sitting in my inbox for a while lmao

TJ, I love you, but there is no way in hell I'm answering every question. That's a LOT.

So, here's how I'll do this: I'll use an online random number generator to choose seven (cuz Byler) at random.

Let's begin.

What's a fic that took you to an emotional/dark/hard place? (#2)

I've had a couple. I've already talked about Snapshots in another ask. Desiderium was another. I wrote it and posted it on my dad's birthday, and so a lot of Mike's feelings and struggles with grieving Ted in that fic was self-projection (as are most of my fics lol). I even gave Ted the same birthday as him.

What fic are you emotionally attached to? (#3)

That's like asking a parent to choose their favorite child lmao. When you create something, you leave a piece of yourself behind in it. That's why there's so much you can tell about a person based on their creations.

Choosing one is physically painful lol

But if I had to choose one...

Orientation. It's the fic I wrote for Mike's birthday (which is also mine. How cool is that?!), so it's very Mike-focused. It's also marked by two significant (to me) "firsts."

It's the first time I included an appearance by Hopper, my favorite of the adult characters. I was so anxious to write him. What if I messed it up??!! But I seemed to have done an okay job, based on peoples' reactions.

It was also the first time I fully acknowledged to myself that if I wanted to continue telling the stories I wanted to tell, I had to alter canon. Up until Orientation, I had always had the thought in my mind that, in order for this to continue, I had to make a decision when it came to how I dealt with the ramifications of Season 3, namely the Byers moving and Hopper's "death".

So I just decided to say, "to hell with that." So, Hopper didn't "die" and the Byers didn't move. The Battle of Starcourt is still a pivotal event, trust me, without having the effect of essentially tearing the group asunder.

Orientation was the first time I dived into the directly post-Season 3 era, and I'm happy with it.

What fic of your own won't you read? (#5)

Ghosts. It's my second story and it's an absolute piece of shit. If I could delete one of my stories, it would be that one. I keep it up to remind myself of what happens when I try to work myself past burnout.

If you feel like suffering through an absolute literary abomination, give it a glance over.

What’s the best engagement/interaction/feedback you’ve received from someone who’s read your work? (#17)

I love and adore and want to frame every comment I ever get on a story. Every time someone goes out of their way to say that they liked a certain part or that reading a fic brightened up their day, I feel extremely happy.

I received an anonymous ask a while back from someone who told me that they were in a dark place and were feeling down that night, so they decided to read a couple of my stories, which made them feel a lot better.

That's the type of interactions I love. Writing my fics have gotten me through some really bad times, so if reading stuff I made helps someone through a struggle, that's the highest compliment.

Does anyone in your personal life know you write fics? if not, would you tell anyone? (#8)

Outside my family, nobody knows I write fics. By family, I mean my younger sister and my mother. Of the two of them, only my sister knows that it's specifically Byler fanfiction that I write, and neither of them have read any of my stories (and if I have anything to say about it, they never will lol).

What fic of your own do you read for comfort? (#4)

Rainbows and Revelations. That fic is pretty much pure fluff from start to finish, and it holds a very special place in my heart.

If you could write an ideal fic, what would it include? (#19)

See, this is an interesting question for me, but at the same time, I feel like it doesn't really apply to me.

All of the stories I've written are "ideal fics" for me.

That being said, there are two criteria that every fic I've written (and will write) must fit.

1.) It must have a happy ending. Call me a sissy, a sap, whatever. I don't care. I write married Byler. Part of that package is that you're acknowledging that, despite all the shit the characters have gone through or are going through at the moment, eventually, it ends. Eventually, there is peace. These characters do someday get to live out their lives undisturbed by supernatural bullshit. And so I always end on a happy note. I feel like lots of people (myself included) forget it too often, despite the fact that history (which is a collection of stories that remind us who we are) is always reminding us, but I want my stories to illustrate that basic truth: in the end, light/good always triumphs over darkness/evil. It may take a while to get there, but it will happen eventually.

2.) People need to learn something. If nobody is learning something and changing, there's no point to the fic at all. Whether that's Jonas and Maia learning how to word the ideal apology, or Max learning how to open up to and rely on people, somebody has to be learning and changing and growing. There has to be growth.

Whew! That was a lot of typing!

Thanks for the ask, TJ! You're the best!

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kweebtrash · 2 years

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Literally forget the fact that i havent been active for like 2 years or whatever i was in my feelings and wanted to write about this.

Im not into kpop anymore, i mean not as hardcore as i used to be; constantly keeping up with comebacks, spending hundreds of dollars on traveling and concerts and hi-touch, buying albums and furiously hoping for my bias’ PC,etc.

I was already on the tail end of getting out of kpop but when i got with my partner i just fell out of it completely (they listen to kpop occasionally even before they met me.) But kind of the terrible mistakes i made on here and me working so hard on stories and them falling flat made me dip out completely.

BUT lately i’ve been wanting to listen to kpop just casually. I’m actually listening to my faves playlist now and “Shine” came on and it’s like my whole body stopped and i really wanted to cry?? Pentagon means a lot to me. They’re one of my ult groups and i legitimately almost threw up at the concert because i was so excited. I cried when Dawnie got kicked out, i was there watching the youngest three grow up, listening to Jinho being talented Jinho, all that stuff. But Shine was what got me back into Kpop in 2017.

I’m a second gen stan so i started in 2011 or so, all the way back to when BigBang was nice and wholesome and amazing and the music videos were way weirder and cringey-er. I fell out of it and Shine just grabbed me by the hair and was like COME BACK BITCH. And that song makes me so incredibly happy? It flooded back all these memories of going to KCon 2018, back when i didn’t even KNOW the member’s names but i was like I LOVE YOU ALL. It led me to stray kids and of course i had my obsessive BTS phase (and the NCT one after that. Hello Johnny) I made so many friends and genuinely enjoyed it so much, not only as a hobby but as a way to meet people. I miss talking to the people i’ve made friends with on here, the people who enjoyed my work, and not necessarily the people i made mistakes with lol but it was still a learning experience. All of those memories came back at once and i was suddenly just so fckn sad that i dont have that same feeling of happiness or those friends anymore. That i CANT write anymore because i just havent been able to create ANYTHING that i like. No fanfiction, no DND stuff, no worldbuilding. Just a few OC’s here and there that i’ve just thrown out because nothing seems right.

Kpop used to be so special. Back in 2011 when i was in high school, kpop was weird. It was all like “Why are you listening to music when you don’t even understand it??”. It felt unique and so fresh and for the weird emo kid that i was i was like a kpop hipster. That sounds terrible but that’s what it felt like. It used to be impossible for me to get ANY kpop merch and ever since BTS took over America and all the other groups after and we have merch left and right and kpop stores in the states it doesnt feel as special anymore. Not to mention the fanbases are younger and it weirds be out when like some teenager is over here calling Felix daddy when that child doesn’t even know the first thing about being dominate. Also my birthday is at the end of the month and im old now, lol. The groups keep getting younger and it’s kinda like in anime. I can enjoy it as a whole but it feels strange to have the children sexualized and not very many older members. A lot of them are older now in the groups that i like but it still feels strange to be almost 30 and fawning over people younger than me. My partner is 3 years younger than me and i still feel like i’ve robbed a cradle.

Anyway, i’m just in my feelings and stressed because i have life things going on but i basically only talk to 2 people that i’ve met from kpop and while i love them dearly it was nice talking to a lot of people online. But now i wonder if i could find other friends who will talk to me about shit outside of kpop. I know everyone has other hobbies besides this but i’ve never gotten to know that side of the people i talked with. Like, i never really got any writer friends and i DESPERATELY need some, i’m not that up to date on anime but like i’m shoving down 1000 year war and chainsaw man and Tuca and Bertie (that’s not an anime but an in general animation). I know everyone and their mom like’s DND now but let me see how you play it, the worlds you created, your OC’s. it’s kinda sad that i’m almost 30 and cant actually make friends lmao. I guess i might feel a little sad bc my partner has like a billion online friends and i would just like other people to talk to again about our interest, even if it’s still kpop from time to time.

Shine just made me think of some happier times in my life and all the good feelings i had and it’s kinda gone now and i just spent like 30 minutes at work writing this because my playlist made me sad. Let me leave now lol

But wait quick embarrassing PS: yesterday while i was stoned i realized that my partner is messy Johnny (minus the fuckboi). Like bad at expressing emotion, looks cold but is an actual baby, actually really sensitive, a mama’s boy, a stoner, constantly trying to make straight A’s and working hard and stressing. I really wrote about my dream guy lmao

ok, now bye. im embarrassed i wrote this

#i need to eat my gummy because im on a fckn roller coaster rn

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[PART 1] [MM4F] [M4F] Dancing with the prince’s knight [Love triangle] [Knight VA x Listener] [Prince VA x Listener] [Romantic] [Fantasy] [Slightly mentioning spicy things] [You can switch genders] [Works both as solo and collab!] [Main role in this script: Knight]

Author's note: Hi everyone! This one is a series that you can dub both with another VA or on your own: in this case you can cut off the parts with two roles (the story should work anyway!) or you can dub both roles on your own. It also works if you decide it to be a “Princess and dame” instead of “Prince and knight”, but feel free to mix that up too if you want! This series will have both SFW and NSFW contents in future parts, and the explicit NSFW parts will also be avoidable, if you feel uncomfortable in dubbing them. Also, I’m sticking to the original genders for the script (MM4F), so the NSFW content will be written as 4F too, but you can of course edit anything to make it a 4M if you want. The series is inspired by the song “Chou to hana to kumo” by HitoshizukuXYama, the speaker will represent the butterfly, the knight/dame will represent the flower and the prince/princess will represent the spider. Since this is a love triangle, there will be two endings, one for the prince/princess and one for the knight/dame. It was once a fanfiction written in my native language a few years ago that was unfortunately (or luckily lol) deleted by mistake, but why stop there? So… yeah, enjoy the first part!

Summary (for listener): It’s the prince birthday and, since he’s old enough now, for the occasion a ball is being organized to allow him to find the woman he will choose as his wife. You have received the invitation to the ball and, after many years, you return to the castle. You cherish the memories of when you were younger, when, following a butterfly, you sneaked into the royal garden and met the knight who would take care of it. You don’t remember his face, nor his voice, but you know you exchanged a promise with him and, after ten years, you wonder if you will see him again...

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[Action/things happening] *Moods* Emphasis on a specific word/Thinking

//---//Two roles intro

[Background people chatting, ball music played]

Knight: Well, it’s been a while since we last had a ball this... sumptuous. *Mockingly* We really had to wait your birthday, your highness, didn’t we? *Chuckle*

Prince: *Annoyed* Oh, come on, you know I hate this events. There’s so much chaos, so many people, ugh… I just want it to be over as soon as possible. *Frustrated* What a nice gift my father gave me, by forcing me to attend this party.

Knight: I know you don’t like this, but what kind of birthday party would it be without the guest of honor? Plus… remember that this is not just some “big ball event”, it’s the ball. Your ball. That ball whose goal is to, you know, finding you a wife. Remember?

Prince: *Long sigh* Who cares about that! I’m pretty sure: there’s no one over there that will make my heart flutter. I mean, look at those ladies. Come on, look at them. They’re just… ugh, they make eye contact with me for one second and they are already drooling. I won’t even get the chance to have a normal conversation with them like this. Sigh. Can’t say if they want a noble title, or if they just want to fuck me to boost their pride. Might as well find a wife through arranged marriage like all of the other royal people out there.

Knight: *Chuckle* Oh, your highness, may I remind you that you were supposed to be in an arranged marriage, but all of the ladies just… run away from you?

Prince: *Frustrated chuckle* Hey, it’s not my fault they have bad taste in bed. What’s the fun without some rope? I mean… sigh. *Annoyed* It wasn’t fun with them. They were all boring. They didn’t have nothing special. And I’m talking about everything, not just in the bedroom. I’m actually lucky they run away on their own, saving me from a dull marriage.

Knight: *Comforting* Yes, yes, I bet. But, well, this is what happens when you need to get married and you don’t have anyone to get married to: balls. So… I’m sorry, your highness, just deal with it. Maybe if you chat with some of those ladies, you will find the right one. The one that will make you fall in love.

Prince: *Sad* I’m not that hopeful. Grandpa.

Knight: *Pretending to be offended* Hey, don’t call me like that! I’m not that much older than you. It’s just seven years difference!

Prince: *Jokingly* Old enough to earn the “grandpa” title, if you don’t stop calling me “your highness”. It’s so weird coming from you. *Calm/bored* Anyway… how many people are we still waiting?

Knight: Judging by the crowd we have now, I’d say… the guest are almost all here. Do you… want to go around and ask someone to dance with you?

Prince: No, thanks. I’ll just wait here and get bored to death until all guest arrive and then… I guess, I shall do my duty and at least try to find a person to talk to. Hopefully, a wife. Why don’t you join the crowd and have some fun until then? Maybe you’ll find a wife too. *Flirty, in a mocking way* Unless you prefer me, as your husband.

Knight: *sarcastic laugh* Ah-ah-ah. Maybe in your dreams I’ll ask you to dance and marry me.

Prince: Ew, you mean nightmares? *Laugh*

Knight: Can’t be a worse nightmare than the one you gave to all of your exes! *Chukle*

Prince: Oh, come on, not that again!

Knight: [Laugh] Okay, okay. Truce. *Calm* All right, I’ll just go down there and see if everything is going as it should. Maybe I’ll ask a lady to dance. And you… at least try to see if there’s someone that catches your interest. I’m not saying this ball is your last chance of finding a wife, but… it’s the first time you actually have the chance to choose. Don’t throw that away, all right?

Prince: Sigh… Yes, yes. Now go, eat something, kiss someone, fuck someone, have some fun.

Knight: *Chuckle* Well, with your permission then...

[Footsteps]

//Solo part (Knight/Dame)

*Charming* Hello, ladies, I hope you’re having fun tonight. Yes, the prince… he will join us in a while, he’s waiting for all guests to arrive. Yes, I’m sure he can’t wait to get to know you. Well then, enjoy the ball.

[Footsteps]

*Happy, but still composed* Oh! Sir, it’s so good to see you again! I see you got married. I’m so glad you’re doing fine. The prince, too, is supposed to get married, hopefully as soon as possible. I’m sure he will be happy to see you here too! He will be here in a minute, be sure to greet him. Oh, have you tried our tarts? They used the marigolds from the royal garden. And I assure you, they give it an awesome sweet aftertaste, with a hint of citrus. They’re delicious! ...I’m not saying this because I’ve personally cultivated them, of course… Just, try them and let me know! Great, have fun. It was nice meeting you and your wife.

[Footsteps]

*Charming again* Good evening dear, how… *surprised* huh?

[Music ends, but not the chattering]

*Still surprised, hint of excitement and happiness* Is… is it really you?

*Happy* Of course I remember! How could I forget? You’re the little girl that sneaked in the royal garden, while following a butterfly. It’s been so long… nine, maybe ten years, I think? Look at you, how much you’ve grown since then!

*Chukle* I didn’t? Well, if I remember correctly, you must be the same age as the prince, so… I guess, it’s pretty normal that you changed much more than I did. You were just a child back then, but now you’re… a woman. As for me, I think I just gained a few inches in height.

Oh, so that’s the truth? Well, even if you say you didn’t remember my face, based on your reaction, you still recognized me as soon as we talked. So, maybe you still had some memories of that day. Huh? *Confused/surprised*Wait, is that…

*Amazed* Yes, that’s rose I gave you that time...! The red rose that shall not perish. Does that mean… *hopeful, slightly unsure* You also remember that promise, right? The promise to walk through the royal garden together. I swore that one day, when you were grown up, coming back here I would have personally shown to you around the entire garden, and not just some colorful roses like we did on that day. So you remember… *happy sigh* Of course I meant that and I was telling the truth, but, I… didn’t think you would have hold onto this promise. *Gentle* I must say, I’m surprised. And… happy.

*Slightly disappointed/sad* Unfortunately, today isn’t the best day to do that, because, you know… we need to attend this ball. I don’t want to break our promise, really… I would love to walk with you through the garden and show you all of those flowers I take care of, but it will have to wait.

*Trying to console* Hey, don’t make that face. I think… you were invited for the same reason as all of the other young ladies here, right? The prince might choose you… *hint of sadness* as his wife. Isn’t that much more important than looking at flowers? *Gentle* Still… why don’t we-

[Music starts playing again]

Oh, the music started again. Uhm…

*Throat clearing* *Charming, very sweet* Milady, would you do me the honor of joining me… for a dance?

Thank you for accepting. This is one of my favorites. *Reassuring* Oh, don’t worry. You don’t have to know how to dance, just follow my lead and you’ll be fine. *Gentle, charming* Hold my hand, and put the other one on my shoulder. Now… right food, left foot, and right again. You’re doing great, milady.

[Pause, music playing, dancing for a few seconds]

*Calm* Oh, I forgot to ask you, did you come here alone or are you with someone else?

With a friend, huh? I didn’t seem to notice her. Where is she? I hope she just didn’t leave you here on your own.

*Laugh* Aw, really? She wanted to hit on the court crier? And here I thought that everyone here just wanted a chance with the prince. So she wasn’t that interested in him, huh? And… *Unsure* what about you? Are you... interested in him?

*Slightly relaxed* Well, yes, you’re right. You don’t know him yet, so it’s hard to say. There are lots of ladies who are drawn to him because of his look though, you know? *Chuckle* That’s his problem with women. He can’t stand those who only want him for his looks or his nobility title. But, maybe, who knows… you could be the… *hint of sadness* right one, for him.

*Gentle* I mean, you grew up of course, but my memories of you depict you as a kind, tranquil, gentle person... perhaps a bit clumsy, but nonetheless as a good-hearted lady. And… you’re gorgeous, too. I mean it. *Chuckle* And when you blush, you’re even more beautiful.

You’re welcome, milady. Oh, me too? Thank you, really. But I’m just a normal guy, I’ve got nothing special.

*Slightly surprised, happy* You.. really think so? Well… I’m glad.

[Small pause]

*Calm* Oh, no, I’m not here with a dame. Me, and some of the other royal knights, are here to ensure everyone’s safety. But personally… being close friend to the prince, I kind of have the permission to have some fun myself. You know, he doesn’t really like this sort of things, and it doesn’t happen that often to have this kind of event here, so… I’m glad I can enjoy it a little bit. *Sweet* And if I have to be honest, I’m actually really happy you’ve come. It was so unexpected and… I’m not going to lie, this made my evening.

*Charming* And just to let you know, for someone who “can’t dance”, you dance gracefully. You’re movements are so delicate, just like a butterfly. Oh, is it because of my lead? *Chuckle* I’m not going to get all the credit here, you deserve some too. I’m glad you’re having fun, though.

Hm? You really want to go there? Hmm… You know… after all, I don’t think there’s a problem in going to the royal garden now. I mean, the guests are all here now, and the prince might want to find a lady to dance with, so… if he’s busy doing something else, maybe he won’t notice we sneaked out. So… *slightly upset* no, no, I’m sorry, never mind. I… really shouldn’t be saying this. As much as I would love to, I have my duty here and… I can’t leave the ball.

*Gentle* Trust me, Milady, if circumstance had been different, I would have gladly danced with you to the royal garden tonight.

[Music ends]

Thank you for dancing with me, milady. Do you want to go to see if your friend is back? I don’t want to… you know, hold you back if you have other plans for tonight. Oh, wait… is that her? *Chukle* I guess, she succeeded. It looks like they’re both having fun over there.

You’re happy for her? Aw, you two are really close, aren’t you? Yes, I can see that. Well then… I guess, would you like to try something from the banquet? For tonight, we also have a special red wine flavored with hibiscus. Yes, it comes from the garden, and it’s one grafted with a special potion made with the sap of an orange tree. Mind if I pour you a glass?

[Wine pouring, another music starts playing]

You like it? I’m glad to hear that!

*Soft, dreamy tone* Yes, I still love taking care of the garden, just like ten years ago. Being a knight doesn’t exactly leave me with lots of free time, but you can say that being close friend to the prince, has its advantages. He lets me take care of it, and I can’t be more grateful for that. I don’t want to sound pompous or something, but I have a feeling that without me, that garden wouldn’t be the same. And it’s honestly a pity that I’m one of the few that really cares about it. Even the prince himself doesn’t appreciate it as much as he should. You, on the other hand… *Gentle, happy* your love for flowers it’s so genuine that… it makes me really happy. I feel like you’re one of the few that truly appreciate what I do for the garden. And the fact that you also kept the rose for all of these years… it just shows how much you care about it.

*Dreamy again* I must say… ten years ago, I didn’t think I’d actually would have had the chance to see you again, but now that you’re in front of me, now that we have both grown up since that day, and… the dance we had together, it makes me feel somehow… as if you’ve always been here. As if… all of those butterflies flying in the garden, resting their wings on my flowers, were all signs that you never really left that day. It’s… *apologetic* sorry I must be saying things that don’t really make sense… But what I’m trying to say is… *gentle* it’s like that day we connected in some way, and that connection never disappeared. It may have been buried, but… it has always been there, and now that you’re here again, grown up… I can’t help but feel it even stronger. I’m… *sigh* *sad* I’m sorry, just… forget everything I’ve said.

*Trying to sound happy* Oh, your friend is back! I… uhm, I really need to go now. The guests are all here now and… I need to go back to the prince. I’m really happy I had the chance to talk to you again, and thank you for dancing with me. *Hopeful* I… hope we’ll have the chance to see the garden together, someday.

*Gentle* Have a nice evening.

[Footsteps, heartbeats]

*Frustrated* What was I thinking? Why did I say all of those things? Urgh… memories and wine don’t go so well together. But really… she changed so much and… she is so beautiful, just like a butterfly. But… it’s the butterfly’s choice where to land. *sad* The flower’s role is to just be there for her when she wants to rest her wings. And… that’s what I’m supposed to do. That’s my role. I… can’t hold her back.

//---//Two roles outro

Prince: *Bored* So, everyone’s here now?

Knight: *Calm* Yes, the guest should have all been arrived.

Prince: I see. I wonder… *curious* who was the girl you were dancing with? You two chatted quite a bit over there, but I don’t think I’ve ever seen her before. Did you know her?

Knight: She’s… *slightly sad* no, I’ve never met her before. Did she caught your interest…?

Prince: While you were going away, our eyes met for a brief moment. Aside from her friend who made out with the court crier until a few minutes ago hidden behind the curtains thinking no one would notice, she’s the only one who quickly turned her head away. No smirks, no funny expression. She’s stunning, too.

Knight: Yes… she is. She seems like a really good person, too. She’s kind, her smile takes your breath away, and...

Prince: *Dark* Do you like her?

Knight: Me? I… uhm...

Prince: I’m asking because up until now, she’s the only one I’m interested in. And I’m confident she will be the only one. *Dreamy, but more in a darker shade* She looks so different from all of the other ladies who don’t care about who I am, but just about how I look. It would be a pity if I had to take her from you, and I don’t really want to deal with guilt feelings when asking you to not dance with her again.

Knight: *Apathetic* You don’t need to worry. I… don’t have feelings for her.

Prince: Good. Then, since you’re my close friend, and my favorite knight, *Darker, almost creepy* I’m sure you won’t betray me. Right?

Knight: Yes, your highness. I won’t dance with her anymore. It’s… my duty and pleasure to be loyal to you. And that girl… I’m sure she will make your heart flutter.

Prince: *Cheerful again* I’m glad I can always count on you. And again, don’t call me “your highness”. We’re still friends, aren’t we? Or do you want to be called grandpa? *Chuckle*

Knight: *Forcing a cheerful tone too* Of course we’re friends, prince.

Prince: That’s better. Now… *Charming* I think it’s time to ask this lady to dance with me. I can’t wait to look into her eyes once again. *Darker again, kind of thinking out loud* I really hope… she will be the one. Because I can’t think of anyone else. She’s truly enchanting, just like a butterfly. I… can’t let her fly away. When she’ll land on my web, she shall never leave again.

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i love rereading fics from when i was a teen... often they're not as good as i remember. this fic in particular, lemme type out my thoughts (note: this fic contains graphic depictions of CSA and death, that trauma is the core of the fic)

There's some really compelling and interesting moments in this fic, which i think are valuable. But the overarching story itself is extremely limited in how it deals with these things. Like, the whole story is a power fantasy, and I think power fantasies are a very specific type of story that's really bad at nuance. in this story kirk is deeply traumatized and abused and his history of abuse leads to him suffering as he grows up, but nothing actually sticks. he went to juvie several times, he was homeless, hes an alcoholic, he's had multiple concussions.... and yet once in a structured, academic environment he's basically superfunctional. like, he takes a quantum mechanics class despite apparently never having any kind of formal math training past the age of 15. he does double the work of anyone else in the program. he is absurdly high functioning depressed, but he never burns out, either.

to be clear I'm not saying this fic is terrible. it's just interesting to reread a trope i liked when i was a teenager, where the main guy is in a lot of pain but ultimately he's totally competent and badass and everyone is forced to admit how undeniably special he is. it feels good to read, power fantasies are fun for a reason. (i used to read this type of power fantasy about Edward elric specifically lol)

this story is most compelling when he's younger. the question of how to 'resolve' his trauma is unanswered, and I think that ambiguity is a lot more interesting and emotionally difficult than the conclusion the story comes to. the beginning is when he's allowed to truly be self destructive and have ugly feelings that come out and hurt people. kirk does remain basically morally unimpeachable throughout this fic which isn't a problem exactly but I found it a lot more interesting when he was getting in arguments with his mother about his dead brother and father, and she was saying some unspeakably cruel things to him, and he was lashing out in return (the mom in this fic is an unforgivably bad parent which, again, is more interesting in the beginning than the end of the fic)

honestly endings are really really hard to write well 😕 unfortunately.

i do find it charming how this fic has the most fanfiction-y prose I've ever read. I'm not sure if fanfic sounds exactly like this anymore, so it's kind of a perfect 2015ish millennial-author time capsule. it literally uses the word *derp* (which is yet more evidence for my theory that you should never include memes in writing)

anyway! why am i talking about a star trek fic that came out 8 years ago? because i can. clearly the fic speaks to a lot of people bc it's very popular. it used to speak to me, and i think it's interesting to go back over how and why. if it's novel length why shouldn't I analyze it like a novel ykwim

#fic rec #kinda

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hmm i haven't really listened to dynamite and tbt i don't really want to bc butter was v disappointing djkfhgf i had only been in book fandoms since the beginning bc i got a yt/gmail acc only after i turned 12. i gave western music a ‘serious’ listen from then and after that i got into the wild place that is k-pop. ngl i don’t regret it bc the insanity >>> but oml there was a time when i used to read like 2/3 books in a week and now it’s regressed to like 1 in 6 months i genuinely feel bad for not being able to make the time to read 😭😭 (are we counting fanfiction tho hmmm). it was fun reading all those ya dystopian fiction with crazy amts of angst lol. are you into any specific book/author these days?

omg do you play the flute ?? and noooo sticker is nuts but I really like roadtrip from the album it’s so pretty as a song dkfjgd

FDSDGH so i’m pretty sure yangyang said the same ab cat food so bye bye #bar and renjun soulmate agenda hihi #bar and yangyang childhood rivals to complicated relationship with messy feelings (enemies ?? ) bc you’re both grown up now but he’s still a p(r)etty, overthinking idiot [affectionate] to friends of weird sort to smth more wink wink??

YESSS GIVE EXO A TRY their group music is so good literally all of them are bops i can’t stress enough on how good they are 🤧 omg i love their solo stuff too kyungsoo’s solo songs literally have me shedding tears haven’t still recovered from empathy. love shot ikfjgd it's one of those songs which makes loving exo so damn easy it’s the song which got me into them, that and overdose <3 and the choreo🧎🏾‍♀️love how we all collectively went batshit crazy over love shot oh gods i absolutely loved watching other idols trying that iconic love shot move the feeling of unitedly obsessing over them is unparalleled. here’s the exo playlist hope you like it omg had to use up all of my self control from adding entire discographies.

I LOVE BAEKHYUN’S VOICE even when the man’s screaming which is like always lol <3 that compilation video of byun baekhyun screaming in youtube my beloved. cry for love is beautiful and un village was the first baekhyun solo i listened to so it’s special <3

the worst part is how superm won’t be active in the next few years bc of the enlistments we’re losing god tiered music makers to the war </3 kjdgf ALL OF THEIR VIDEOS ARE HILARIOUS YESS those vids where they quiz each other is sm chaos lmaoo. jfgsdf have you watched this video where they react to their as we wish scenarios?? sheesh that amt of clowning and slandering is >>> ohhh fave superm song hmm hard to choose but i’ll go w dangerous woman (ten’s ‘what’s wrong with you part’ is just too cute) wish you were here, infinity and tiger inside.

ALSO LOVED THE PARX PLAYLIST haven’t listened to it fully tho but for now my faves are easy to hate and i felt younger when we met omg i love most of the songs from fandom <33

and oml tysm i really needed to see that 😭 i’m literally so scared bc lord it’s my last year in school and my last year as a minor ahhhhh 🤧 stem is extremely hard and puts me through sm pain <3. the only reason i’m sticking w it is bc i like learning it <3 getting the opportunity to study what you like is actually such a rare thing + almost the entirety of my country’s population is obsessed w getting their kids major in stem subjects (bc of the asian stereotypes surrounding those fields) but we don’t have that many good unis so the competition is really tiring </3

p.s. i haven’t really used tiktok so idk 💀 and the yangyang brainrot is doing a little too bc of your fic 😵 feeling sm things after reading i’m not angry anymore (well, sometimes i am) bc yangyang's character <33 need a few weeks to recover from that tyvm

oof i get you w butter it was so disappointing🤧🤧but oh well. everyone has different taste🤷‍♀️ i dont really get solo armies but i guess im not the one to judge.

i get you with book fandoms!!! i wasnt in many book fandoms, since i didnt really know they existed 💀💀 but i am a massive bookworm! i too used to read like 3 books a week once and now im happy if i do 1 every three months😭 but im busier now and also have other hobbies, so i guess that's why i dont read as much anymore! what are some of your favorite books? 🥰 im a big fan of john green books (dont judge. i copy his writing style /j) and j.d. sallinger! i love me some good YA and dystopian books hhh. im currently reading this crime book i stole from my grandma but im too lazy to look up the english name 😭😭😭 are you reading anything atm?

SJSJSJ i dont play the recorder 😭 i mean,, i have it at home and i can play when i look up the simplified version of notes with the drawings,,, like the sheet music they do for elementary school children 💀💀 i knew how to play the titanic song lmaoo i play the guitar tho! do you play any instruments?

your yangyang childhood rivals to complicated relationship with messy feelings (enemies??) bc you're both grown up now but he's still a p(r)etty overthinking idiot [affectionate] to friends of some sort to smth more wink wink is so specific i might just take some inspo from this wink wink

OVERDOSE >>>>>>> I FUCKING LOOOVE THAT SONG@!!! also i listened to the playlist and found out that i knew more than half of the songs you added 😭😭 i loved the ones that were new to me tho!!!! espeCIALLY going crazy! i think that one was my fav out of the new ones! i might just need you to help me stan them or something bc the playlist slAPS

dont remind me of superm military hiatus when i miss them the most :(( also no i havent seen these!!! gotta catch up sjsjsn

FANDOM IS MY FAV PARX ALBUM!! its very dear to my heart!! also our fav songs match🥺 i felt younger when we met is probably my most played song of this year smh 🤧

oh so youre 17?? enjoy it i romanticize that age so much i feel like the last time when i was truly happy was when i was 17 💀 but no trust me its all gonna be good! i know it seems scary but as your self proclaimed older sister figure, i promise its less difficult than it seems and you'll do great. you can always come to me and vent whenever things get hard! i am glad you are fortunate enough to study what you want to, its truly a privilage some of us tend to overlook

p.s. the yy brainrot is still going in me as well i listened to miracle today on repeat and i swear his parts make me feel a different type of way😭 also make sure to tell me more abt your thoughts and feelings on that fic if you want to!

#💌ask #ni 🌱

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