this is so horrible

This isn't even new for him. Gabriel did basically this same exact thing in Collector three seasons ago, faked a breakdown in his office and made Adrien believe it was all his fault. This is so consistent with Gabriel's methods of abuse/manipulation, and I already knew Gabriel did this shit, but seeing it again like this and with the dialogue really drives home how absolutely despicable and purposeful this all is.

Gabriel isn't just talking about the friends pushing food on him. He could've chose to say "why don't children respect me!" or "this suit cost so much!" or "i was so embarrassed in front of all the other parents!", but he didn't. He chose instead to talk about Adrien's conversation with him in the kitchen that morning, the one where Adrien very reasonably mentioned that he was uncomfortable being a virtual personal assistant. Adrien didn't even push it. He just mentioned that he was uncomfortable and then kind of moved on from it.... and this is what Gabriel saw as a fitting punishment for Adrien asking a question. To fill Adrien with such intense guilt and shame while shouting things like "Maybe I wasn't meant to be a father!"

Like, this is traumatizing, right? Adrien is witnessing this, and Gabriel knows that Adrien is witnessing it, in fact, Gabriel is only doing it because Adrien is witnessing it. Literally no excuse. This is just pure 100% emotional abuse, flat out, with zero way to sugarcoat it.

Imagine if Machete was Muslim instead of Catholic. His name would be something like Saif سيف, and Vasco would probably be something like Dhahabi ذَهَبِيّ

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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

as I wait for artms to feed us crumbs, I guess it’s gonna be a ‘sweet crazy love’ on repeat until I pass out kind of writing session 😔🙄💅🏻

Being raised on conservative news and talk radio is so funny because i have like all the crazy hidden lore on all the conservative news pundits people who weren’t raised like that are only really familiar with second hand

mutuals, a proposition. what if i went off the grid and blinked out of existence and cartwheeled into a pool of lava also. i am thinking this may be my best option given the stakes and the circumstances

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Guilt tripping me for being busy and tired and disabled will not make me less busy and tired and disabled nor will it make me want to carve out time for u any sooner lol

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anybody remember gwen gearloose. wasnt that just the absolute stupidest

ooc

do your emotions ever overwhelm you that its hard to focus? its rather annoying

the ONLY reason i have not written a william wisp fic yet is because he activates such a specific emotion within me that i cannot accurately put into words without exposing all of my own mental health issues

even aside from things happening directly to me in my own personal bubble that have left me with so much stress that it has destroyed me and altered my physiology to negatively impact my physical health and well being,

on TOP of that, for the past 708 days, every single day, has been an additional stress that while not happening directly to me, is all the more distressing because there is only so much I can actively do, an the stuff that has been happening directly to me has left me without the energetic resources to do much of those things. Which creates an additional draining stress for the utter sense of guilt about that. and this is on top of the fact that while not happening directly to me, is still incredibly personal, and personally affecting and stimulating of transgenerational trauma.

and people in my life, who know who I am and what my make up is, don't understand why i am so stressed (for various reason), but it never even fucking occurs to them the daily toll the past 708 days (and fucking longer than that too) have had, because it fucking faded to the background for so many fucking people in the world, which then brings a complicated kind of resentment into things

it's complicated and extremely painful and there's so much other pain going about

and i'm just trying to patch the fucking hole in my cup before it can even hold anything much less pour anything from it, because God knows I want to but I just fucking can't when there is such a gaping hole

i think vegans would find people would hate them less if 1. their movement wasn't overrun with ecofascists and 2. if they all didnt have such a cult like mentality.

My toxic trait is coming out of nowhere after long periods of silence when someone mentions something I’m interested in or have experience with and going, “Oh, did you know/ Fun fact —“ and when I’m done I feel the need to say something funny before slinking back in my dark hole in shame to be silent for another un described unit of time, telling myself I will not interrupt or speak at all if I hear someone mentioning something I’m interested in or have knowledge about I will not speak I will not respond I will stay normal and silent I will —