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imthatqueerkid · 2 months

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#tw emetophobia #i think im gonna throw up #i haye her so much its unreal #just reading her name in a text makes me start to panix #her presence is ruining my life. its ruining my relationship. its ruining my eating habits.#its ruining my sleep quality. everything is ruined because of the extreme distress she puts me under #something must be wrong with me mother/something must be wrong #i feel terrible #guilt guilt guilt #its easier to fear never seeing her again than it is to fear seeing her #i feel terrified #shes just going to keep me like this forever #its not fair #i just want my lover #i just want to go home #im so tired of this.#someone hold me love me save me please please please #its starting to show on my facw #everyone can tell that im suffering #i cant sleep i cant eat i cant think shes all i know #im afraid im going to lose the good thing that i have #i miss him so much. where is he????? why isnt he on the other end of the phone????#why is someone else answering my texts????#aughhhh #i just..... i just i just i just #i just need it to be over #from the couch #Spotify

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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God. The thing abt the uchiha is that. Yes. It was fucked up that no one trusted them and they got pushed further and further from the village center. However. They were also a clan of ninja cops with fucked up magical eyes that they supercharge by getting horrifically traumatized. So like. I also would not fucking trust them.

#like maybe its just that ive been too influenced my senju propaganda but i just think the uchiha as a clan kinda fucking suck #at least by the time we get to sasuke's dad leading things. they seemed fine when madara joined with the village #so its just that the resentment at feeling pushed out has risin by then. and maybe im not remembering things right but like Tobirama #made them the cops right? and they got pissed that they weren't given any political power but like u get so much fucking power as the polic #? and also it just seems like the worst fucking idea to put that all on one clan. like THE WORST job u could give to 1 clan of fucked up #eyeball freaks. and i can never tell if they r legitimately being prejudiced against but like they kida have good reason not to trust them #bc they were legit gonna overthrow the government. so like where did it start? i just kinda feel like they think theyre entitled to power #but r also intentionally standoffish to outsiders. but again maybe im just biased bc i dont like Sasukes dad and the nameless uchiha so muc #ugh. its too messy and its all built on the back of what may or may not have been a slight against them. and the rift just kept getting #wider. i mean knowing Tobirama it was probably a slight... but idk im not power hungry enough to understand y they got so mad abt it #konoha. the village in which everyone sucks and the children suffer.#naruto ramblings #naruto

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baby5fanclub · 1 month

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THE SILLIESSSSS‼️❄️🏳️‍🌈❕

#the freezing cold silliesss #im loving punk hazard anime edition btw i was so happy when law showed up yippee jumping up and clicking my heels with glee #i love their squads in the earlier part of this arc too i love luffy + zoro + robin + usopp's long suffering ass #so good #and i love smoker and tash and i love everyone meeting law it rules #and i LOVE BABY 5 AND I LOVE MONET I LOVE SEEING THEM #can you tell i like punk hazard soooo much except it also scares me (im a horror fan and the gas stuff makes me genuinely uncomfortable)#enjoy my screencaps boy #my posts #punk hazard #one piece

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roseverdict · 2 months

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"my adult children are lazy and have no dreams and are perfectly content to leech off of me their entire lives!" no!!! you dipshit!!!!! they're several diagnosed types of mentally ill each, unmedicated for all of them through no choices of their own, unable to go anywhere outside the house without parental permission or assistance*, and have repeatedly been outright mocked by you for expressing joy at things they like and jobs they want to have while you claim to always support them!!!!!!! you cannot treat them as failures of completely fine and fully-autonomous adults when you never even finished teaching them the things you think every teenager should learn!!!!!!!!!

*: and even then they're chafing badly enough that they are pushing for ways to work around you! to escape you!!! once they can pedal a bicycle for further than a mile without going into Goddamn cardiac arrest it's fucking over for you!!!!!

(EDIT BECAUSE I WANT TO HAVE THIS HERE BUT ALSO UM: yall ever feel like you're engaged in a cold war that's never actually been declared? bc the increased aggression in the passive-aggressive texts over the past 24 hours (DESPITE the fact that most stuff from the last batch was in fact addressed in a timely fashion) has me like 👁️👁️. mom, dad, if you're reading this, you know you can talk to me like the 24-year-old human person i am, right? not treat me like an impudent teenager who doesn't deserve to make their own choices and should be grateful to even be living with you, then get frustrated when i'm making angry vent-like posts online?)

#rosie rambles #rosie rants #'hurr durr im a good parent bc my kids never ran off to live under a bridge for a winter rather than deal with me'#THE BAR IS IN THE OCEAN. DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF. DO YOU FUCKING HEAR YOURSELF.#and this isn't even getting into. you know. the garbage fire of endless fake job advertisements.#i think that if i can figure out a way to get employed at home. i will tell my brothers. but not my parents. and just suffer the shame #until i have enough saved to move somewhere and support myself while i get driving lessons and hopefully get a dinky lil smartcar or smth #the dream is having mom and dad dial back the constant passive-aggression but the realistic dream is eventual no-contact #idk. might delete later. might not. i'm just very tired all the time #i just. it feels like they want live-in housecleaners obligated to do as told while also shaming us for going along w/ that.#and also shaming us for not wanting to do that? araraararrrgh (derogatory)#(ADDING W/THE EDIT: i THOUGHT there was a mutual understanding of #'yeah this is my online username but its necessary for everyone to have a space away from their parents sometimes'#connecting unrelated dots or paranoia? fuck if i know)

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brobotsbro · 2 years

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post tfp movie where the Autobots are trying to rebuild Cybertron when some new bullshit arises they need to beat and then, unexpectedly, Megatron shows up from wherever he fucked off to at the end of the film and starts like, helping them out but he's like SUPER obviously begrudging about it and they're like.

Autobots: Why are you doing this. Why the fuck do you care.

Megatron: I am being haunted.

Autobots: ....by ..your sins....??

Megatron, through gritted teeth: no.

Ghost Optimus, who has recently graduated from Annoying Talking Ghost to Annoying Rock Throwing Ghost:

#i just personally love the idea of ghost optimus bullying megatron into cleaning up the mess he helped make #I AINT GET NO PEACE CAUSE OF Y'ALL. YALL NOT GONNA GET NO PEACE CAUSE OF ME.#also judging by the tv show i have also not watched where op is actually a ghost. bumblebee can see ghosts #so im also imagining everyone being like ok megatron has finally cracked his crock but hes not like attacking us so we will accept his help #albeit with one eye open and never turning their backs #except then bee gets back from Wherever he was for plot reasons and is like.#should i tell anyone hes telling the truth or let him suffer #optimus to bee: let him suffer

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nobodyimportantdaily · 3 months

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I can't wait to leave this place. I'm going to prove them all wrong.

#kill my thoughts #actually bpd #suffering #bpd thoughts #sadquote #telling everyone that im fine #screw you #sexism #i can do this #prove them wrong

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neonbuck · 2 months

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got cut off my health insurance with no warning but i dont have the energy to ask for help anymore. im just gonna deal and try to draw faster and better so i can afford to get back on it/pay premiums

#.txt #too many people need help most of my friends are also suffering #people are dying people are starving and everyone who has the power to stop it doesnt care or enjoys killing people #theres zero fucking hope in this damn earth and im just alive to pathetically attempt to care for my loved ones #and anyone else i can possibly help in any way #its so over lol its so BEYOND fucking over #just look at the last thing i reblogged #can you look me in the eye and tell me with a straight face that things wont just keep spiraling into hell #can you look me in the eye and tell me you truly believe that 'voting' does anything or that there will be a 'revolution'#its NOT happening and you know it. convince me otherwise i dare you. you wont.#everyone is either too tired or too selfish and cowardly #and its too fucking late. the cruelty and pain and injustice has torn a mortal wound in the earth itself #its OVER. and everyone with a heart is slowly bleeding out.

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thegreatestheaver · 1 month

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i love my friends thank you to everyone who is patient and kind to me whenever im busy or weird or having an episode or whatever. i love you

#i think about it sometimess..#naturally. ive met so many people in my life #and not everyone is for me.. but sometimes i think they are when they arent. and i feel bad about losing someone i loved. but then i remebe #that .. i am surrounded by poeple who care! people who stay!!!! people who love me!!!! people who wait for me #i understand it is hard.. it can be hard when i dont respond or im weird or i freak out. but thank you for staying with me #because some people havent !! some people show . thier true colors i guess. when that happens #and i realize that they dont actually care. or love me. even when they say they do. and its devastating #but what is so amazing is that not everyone is like this. the people i love dont need to be like this #i dont have to surround myself with people who only want me for what i can do or give. i can surround myself with people who love ME #i do not need to suffer any longer !!!#i will build a life that i dont have to be afraid to live!!!!!!!#wahhh can u tell im thinking about my friends tonight.. i really love my friends. more than anything #hollowspeak

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fortheloveofexy · 9 months

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I am desperately and delusionally hoping that the fairytale will come true and all the couples can live together even tho I know it won't happen and you'll rip out hearts out in some amazing way yet again

:-) I suppose you'll just have to read and find out what creative ways I've devised to inflict heartbreak this time!

#maybe this time itll be a happy ending!#or maybe it wont and everyone will suffer #could go either way really #can you tell im thriving on the ambiguity lol #asks #ask crow

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tortademaracuya · 29 days

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I want everything to be over

#im tired of this neverending sadness and emptiness #im undeserving of such misery. and yet i still suffer #even if others tell me to share that im sad what can they do? it will onlyfrustrate them #hoy frequently i get sad. how its never a clear cause. how its not even enough sadness to justify calling it depression #i thought when someone finally recognized i actually had something wrong. that i had major untreated depression #i would feel like atleast my feelings were valid and true. but they arent #im not even good at being a depressed person. and yet it feels like the biggest shadow over my person #i hope everyone elses day are going alright #haunted.txt

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listen-to-the-inner-walrus · 2 months

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#i figured it would be nice if usamericans could not make posts about how jk rowlings transphobia is an online white person thing #because okay look i dont expect people in your country to know about it #but over here she is using her wealth and status to actively harm trans people #trans people in the uk are suffering due to her #she is a fucking threat to us #to our lives #to our existence #maybe not everyone in the uk knows about it but that doesnt fucking matter #what matters is the fact that joanne rowling is one of the wealthiest people in the country and is held in high regard and has actual sway #in politics and has been using all of that to actively harm us #and im sorry but you can fuck off with your ''bestie its not that deep''#it is that deep #our priminister felt comfortable making a transphobic joke in the house of commons when the mother of a recently murdered trans child was #spectating and despite being given multiple chances to apologise he didnt #i regularly have to avoid the news as a trans person in this country because its so fucking depressing that i worry for my mental health #im not gonna start arguing with whoever made that post because i just dont have the energy #but jesus fucking christ #maybe for you it is a chronically online white queer thing #because YOU DONT LIVE HERE #YOU DONT LIVE IN THIS COUNTRY #so idk maybe dont fucking tell us to calm down about it #maybe recognise that a post isn't about you and just scroll past #dont invalidate the genuine threat that woman poses to us #i dont care how jk rowling is seen in your country to be honest because it really doesnt matter at this fucking point #not every thing is about your fucking country #vent post #delete later

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hauntingblue · 2 months

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LUFFY!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN CONVERTED!!!! LUFFY BELIEVER FULL TIME!!!!! LET US WORSHIP THE SUN!!!!

#luffy deflating like a balloon..... be serious 😭😭#MOMO NOT BEING ABLE TO HEAR LUFFY!!! oh kaido going for the others now..... law could hear his voice too???#NAMI BEING THE FIRST TO STEP UP!!! CHILLS!!! THIS TIME STEPPING UP TO WITNESS THE HORRORS!!! YEAH!!!#yamato really does carry the spirit of oden straight up.... motivating his son and everything...#i feel like i am going insane... I CAN HEAR THE DRUMS!!! nami telling luffy to not die and fulfill his promise WHO ELSE HAD A PROMISE????#is this why his fruit awakened.... because nami reminded him of the promise... omg..... THE DRUMS!!! CHILLS!!!! THE SMILE!!!!! IM SO HYPE!!#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1070 #i am smiling so hard rn. contagious #also the cp0 that died for this ajdja.... suffering from success....#THE BOUNCING SOUNDS!!!! THE DRUMS!!!! THE SMILE!!! SANJI JUST VOLTING AWAKE??? see the clouds over his shoulders remain.... as i was saying #you know this has me realising maybe shanks isn't all that bad and stole the fruit from the gov so they couldnt get hold of it #hiyori saying how oden kept hia promise but also how he wanted to keep the promise of opening wano for joyboy #THE KANJURO THING!!! HIYORI WATCH OUT!!! oh its gonna burn orichi by accident YEAAHHH!!!!!!! FUCK YEAHH!!!!#the animation is so fun.. luffy just junping around and shit while hia destruction power is MASSIVE #this is so!!!! kaido complaining about being bored and having fun thru fighting AND HERE COMES LUFFY WITH HIS LOONEY TOONS GOOFY FIGHT!!!!#they knocked this shit out of the park!!! also END CREDITS????!#episode 1071 #momo saying kaido got fat 😭 actually kaido got pregnant <3 yamato you're going to be a big brother congrats!!!#the eyes 😭😭 damn luffy flew away and exploded... 😞😞 skipping rope with kaido omg.... everyone should go outside and see this...#we are welcoming here in the luffy believers... barto is gonna enlist hundreds of new members #law is luffy believer number 1 damn the speech he is giving kid... omg kaido bonked him ajshaksjak that was so good he needed witnesses..#nami worried abojt luffy being dead and when he appears she is just like WTF IS THAT!!!!!! HUH???!!#wait a second ooohhhh kaido is goong down too fuck yes akdjaksj momo and yamato peeking over the island jahdksk #THE DRUMS BEING HIS HEART I CANNOT GET OVER IT!!! Kaido shoukd be puking up his insides by now but alas this is so fun BOIOIOIOIOING #FIRST TIME SOMEONE ASKS LUFFY WHO HE IS AND HE DOESN'T SAY MONKEY D LUFFY FUTURE KING OF THE PIRATES. HE SAYS ITS HIM. STRAIGHT UP!!!!#NVM HE SAID IT!!!!! GOD IS THAT YOU????!!!!#episode 1072

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crescentfool · 10 months

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never in my life did i think i need to makeout with a piece of software so badly but here we are i guess

#lizzy speaks #OK IM BEING OVERDRAMATIC AND I WOULD ELABORATE BUT I NEED TO SLEEP BUT #DO YOU EVER JUST #FUCK !!!!!!#IVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO COME ACROSS A PIEC EOF SOFTWARE #i need to fiddle around with it some more but everything ive seen about it is MIND BLOWING to me #ive been waiting my entire life for this moment i think #i feel like it's funnier if i don't say what the software is. i wanna be mysterious so bad but i cannot shut the fuck up #literally been suffering through notetaking and organization softwares and im like ohh i think i finally found the one #this is the minecraft of sex i think its like wowza i can finally do all those writing projects i want to do #boys (me) don't want girls they want an organized database of notes that they can easily reference at anytime #sorry for being unhinged but like its like past midnight lol im sure i'll wake up in the morning and be like 'what the FUCK were you doing'#BUT!!! i think ill come back to this post to reblog it with like actual shit about the software when i figure out how i want to use it #i think everyone should experience joys in life. and sometimes that joy is having organized notes #bonus points if anyone can figure out what im talking about just from the tags alone i think this software will change my life #it has fucking tag functionality i literally love tags #sorry about the vocabulary but this rivals like. my love of spreadsheets. which are like. a wonderful thing i think but ANYWAY IM RAMBLING #anyways goodnight i wish you all on the dash a very lovely evening i just needed to share this because im so overjoyed right now o7 #if you have a software that you really like thats changed you feel free to tell me in the tags or something :) i like learning new things

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faultsofyouth · 5 months

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It's fucked up that the sober population straight up ignores how a huge portion of addicts have chronic illnesses

#was thinking about my stepdad and his plethora of health issues and how they shape his life #and then i thought about sewercentipede and Then i thought about the huge population of bipolar people who are alcoholics #and then after all that i thought about a convo i had with a straight edge friend who was like 'using illegal drugs Should result in jail #time because they could just Not do those drugs. they do it just for fun'#like i understand where he is coming from but i literally think he is wrong af.#i think the people who do drugs (esp hard drugs) recreationally are outnumbered 2 to 1 by people who #are self medicating with illegal drugs. i think most people totally ignore how chronic illnesses #and severe mental illnesses can hurt you on a profound level and because they dont know about that suffering #they do not understand the urge to numb that pain. and people have no sympathy for what they dont understand #lately im so bothered by people who share their opinions with me about complicated issues but clearly havent ever done any research on them #everyone thinks their opinion is so smart and special and no one is studying #especially not studying human behavior. most people think that socialization and political topics are a fucking joke #with 0 relevance to their personal lives. like no one is ever going to be truly informed about All the things #and i know i certainly am not but it is so annoying to speak with people who make no effort at all to learn about a subject #before they try and tell people the business about it. like that guy. his only understanding of drug use #comes from his own relationship to alcohol. but he was not an alcoholic he was just a perv who decided to go christian #like its so egotistical to assume that your experience and emotions can apply to everyone and yet he is not the only guy i know #who has no interest in any perspective other than his own but thinks his perspective is well informed #im sure women piss me off with this behavior too its just that atm i can only think of examples of men acting like this

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melissa-titanium · 8 months

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GOD therseomuch shit to do i thought id have time today to DO stuff. its the fucking weekend why do ihave to do 2 classes and go outside and literally do something for school . the weekDAYS are always busy i havent had a free moment since i fucking joined

#mel roars #and i forgot to clean cicis fucking litter #like forgot as in for nearly a week #everyone always asks why im never getting another fucking pet THAT is why #because if i cant take care of it then all thats gonna happen is its going to suffer under my care #i have so much fucking due art SO many people messaging me i was LITERALLY going to delete my toyhouse account 2 days ago just to fucking #have a moment of relief #ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD ACTUALLY. this ius normal for so many people to balance their social lives and school and work and shit but i CANT #i cant adhere to a schedule ill lose my fucking mind #i was miserable at my dads but god if it wasnt awesome to Have Free Time #i guess not talking to human beings or going outside for 2 straight years had its Perks #im so fucking sorry to everyone who has to deal with me i am SINCERELY so fucking sorry #i want to do so much stuff with so many people but its always Oh sorry i had to do something :( Sorry i cant do it today Sorry im not free #Sorry sorry sorry SORRY FUCKKKKKKK FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK WHY CANT I ACTUALLY JUST DO SOMETHING WORTHWHILE #ITS ALWAYS APOLOGIES AND YET??? NOTHING EVER CHANGES???????#and everyone knows this. every single person i have ever spoken to knos im a fucking shit at keeping promises or apologies and it SUCKS it #fucking sucks. can some one take me into their garage and put me down Please #pleas eplease pleasePLEAePLEASAE PLEASE i cant take it anymore fucking help me #i just need SOME one to tell me Directly that i am doing things wrong that im UPSETTING them because i KNOW I AM but i also DONT #unless i recieve it directly from them. god . pleasae. can someone just tell me to shut the fuck up alreasdy

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ilikeyoshi · 8 months

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another day another annoying modern greek goddess per3phone girlboss take

#sorry i'm sorry her whole story is about how mothers of the time had their daughters taken by death and men #how they had no power to stop this #so it drives me a little crazy when ppl completely trash that for a “girl escapes her dumb mom for a punk boyfriend” sORRY YOURE BORING #IT IS SUCH A MEANINGFUL STORY ABOUT WOMEN'S SUFFERING AND AUTONOMY THROUGHOUT THE HISTORY OF MANKIND #IT'S ABOUT HOW NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU LOVE SOMEONE DEATH WILL ROB YOU OF HER #AND THE HORRIFYING WAY MEN OF ERAS PAST AND PRESENT ARE SO SIMILAR TO DEATH #HOW MUCH OF HISTORY HAVE MEN HAD THE POWER TO REMOVE A DAUGHTER FROM HER FAMILY FOREVER? HOW TRAGIC IS THAT #WHETHER SHE LIVES OR DIES YOU WILL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN. YOU CAN NEVER TELL HER YOU LOVE HER AGAIN #but everyone wants to turn the god who kidnapped and assaulted her into a hot goth wifeguy. whatever #sorry i saw someone say “hades 'kidnaps' persephone” in air quotes and i almost lost my shit #im not trying to say this is Problematic or Cancellable or whatever btw i'm just mad that a story about women's love and grief #became another stupid romeo and juliet ass love story. congratulations you missed the ENTIRE point #greek mythos have such heartbreaking and beautiful stories and u ppl wanna turn it into some twilight shit fuck off #yoshi talks

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