Golden Age
(Written as @seasaltmemories @nagamas gift. Happy Nagamas and happy holidays! I hope you enjoy the fic I've written for you!)
A tale of Micaiah and how she adjusts to her role as queen.
(Tags: Post-Canon, Reconstruction, The Hardships of Ruling, Micaiah-centri, cHopeful Ending, Minor Micaiah/Sothe, Past Character Death (it's Pelleas), Vignettes)
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Micaiah had believed that defeating the Goddess was going to be the hardest part of her life, but it was a naïve thought on her part: the true hardest part was yet to come...
She was officially crowned queen, with a grand ceremony that made it hard for her to mask the uneasiness behind her smile, but she managed, because her people deserved to see her at her best, even when all she wanted was to close herself in her chambers and be alone until the heaviness in her heart would disappear.
Her saving grace, during the celebrations, was Rafiel, to whom Micaiah remained stuck as long as she could. He was a soothing presence for her, and of course she quite enjoyed Nailah’s company as well; they were the people she was more familiar with, out of the immense sea of nobles and royalty, so for the sake of her peace of mind, she didn’t let them leave her sight.
Unfortunately for her, this peace of mind wouldn’t last long, as queen Elincia approached her to engage in conversation.
"I remember when this happened to me," she mused. "All those eyes on me... It wasn't easy."
It was her attempt to offer Micaiah a shoulder, some support. Out of everyone present, excluding Rafiel and Nailah whom she already knew well, she was the one Micaiah felt more at ease with - she had a natural charm about her, and she could feel her pure nature - but... There was history between Daein and Crimea, a very recent history; as much as Micaiah saw in Elincia a kindred spirit, she still felt the weight of what Daein had done to her nation, even if she hadn't been the one reigning at the time.
She might've not been the one who ordered for Crimea to be invaded, but what she was forced to do during this last war had been horrible nonetheless, maybe even worse than what Ashnard had done.
She still forced herself to smile. "Thank you, queen Elincia. You're right, it's hard. Lots of pressure," she admitted. "I wasn't born for this..."
At that, Elincia's expression softened, sympathetic. "I understand. I wasn't born to rule as well."
That confession surprised Micaiah. To tell the truth, she wasn't well versed in the political scene of Tellius - her priorities, until recently, had been vastly different - so she rarely paid it any mind.
It wasn't just curiosity that was moving her: she dreaded the idea of having to speak with the other royals - too much history between them as well - and even though she knew that, eventually, she would've had to do it - she had to save appearances - she could’ve gained some time by talking with Elincia. "You weren't?"
She shook her head. "No, my fath-- King Ramon, had made a pact with my uncle, Lord Renning, to keep the succession line unchanged after my birth, in order to avoid conflict, but then, with Daein's invasion..."
Micaiah swallowed the lump in her throat. Yes, she knew how the story went afterwards; even though she didn't get any direct news about it, it was easy to guess what happened to Lord Renning.
"I'm so sorry for your uncle..." she began, but Elincia shook her head, smiling.
"You have nothing to apologize for: you weren’t the one who ordered the invasion," she began, her smile growing warmer as she proceeded. "Besides, in light of recent events, I'm just happy my uncle is fine."
"Oh, I thought..."
"So did I," Elincia interjects, "But as we were marching to the Tower of Guidance, I found out that he was actually alive."
Just for a moment, her gaze moved away from Micaiah; she followed it, and she saw a tall man in black ceremonial armor, with slicked dark green hair, and facial traits that bore resemblance to Elincia's. He was obviously Lord Renning, that much Micaiah could gather on her own. He looked imposing, almost intimidating, but there was something more behind the surface, something that Micaiah could feel, if she concentrated: he was tired, incredibly tired, but there was even more, screams and pain and fury, and...
She was forced to withdraw from his mind, unable to hold back a flinch as she did so. Just what did she...
"You're alright?" Elincia asked, worry evident on her face.
"I'm fine, I'm fine," Micaiah lied, hoping that would reassure Elincia enough to let it go. She decided it would be best to go back to the previous subject. "I'm happy you managed to find your uncle again. Not everyone is so lucky."
"Yes, I'm aware."
How many people had lost their family, their loved ones, because of the war? How many had been directly Micaiah's fault? Her heart grew heavy just thinking about it.
"You've met Izuka, haven't you? He was the late king's advisor..."
A pang of guilt hit her at the mention of Pelleas, but Micaiah knew she couldn't dwell on it for too long. "Izuka? Yes. I've had the misfortune of meeting him."
She wouldn't usually be this judgmental, but he had been truly a despicable man; he deserved it.
"Then you'd know..." A pause. "No, this isn't the right time."
Given the subject, it wasn’t hard for Micaiah to guess what Elincia would want to talk about, though of course she didn’t know the specifics: obviously, that man must’ve done something to her, or better, to Lord Renning - that would explain what she saw when she looked into his mind.
Yet another evil she had to answer for. She wondered if she had been more firm and had convinced Pelleas to send him away earlier, would things have been better? No, she figured: not even that would’ve been enough to cancel what he had done, his wicked studies.
Elincia deserved answers, she knew it, and she was going to do everything in her power to make it so that she would’ve had them; Izuka must’ve left an archive behind, she just had to find it and she would’ve surely found what she needed. Of course, the mere thought of doing that sickened her, but she owed it to Elincia; if she wanted Daein to keep good relations with the other nations, then she’d have to do this.
In the end, it was all for the good of her people...
“Oh, my apologies, queen Micaiah, I didn’t mean to ruin the mood,” Elincia said, then. “This is a joyous occasion, after all.”
That was debatable, but Micaiah wasn’t in a position to contradict her: appearances, she had to save appearances. “It’s fine...”
In an unexpected move, Elincia offered her arm to her. “Come,” she said, a smile on her face. “I’ve already taken much of your time. Let’s rejoin with the others, yes?”
Micaiah didn’t hesitate in taking her arm, letting her guide their steps. It seemed that the much feared time of having to speak with the rest of the guests had arrived, but she could’ve found solace in the thought that she wasn’t alone.
The celebrations were about to run their course, or at least Micaiah hoped so - how she desired to be alone... - when she was approached by Sanaki. She had last seen her right after leaving the Tower, when she came forth with the claim that they were sisters, a claim that, to her surprise, made sense.
She had very conflicting feelings about her: on one hand, as head of Begnion she was going to answer for what her nation did to Daein after the end of the Mad King’s war, but on the other, what fault did she have? She had been victim of a larger conspiracy, taken away from the throne while the Senate ruled in her stead; still, Micaiah was going to be firm on her stance: Daein was going to be free from Begnion’s dominion, no matter what. She wasn’t going to put her people through what they had already suffered a second time.
She didn’t know how she was supposed to act around her, however: they were family, yes, but they’d known each other for such a short amount of time! It was weird for her to think of Sanaki as her sister anyway: for her, family was Sothe, the Dawn Brigade, not her. Still, she wouldn’t have been averse to getting to know her in a more “informal” setting, so to speak; they might’ve not been family then, but that didn’t mean that they couldn’t have become one.
She studied Sanaki’s face; even without looking into her mind, she could’ve told that she was tense.
"Micaiah," she addressed her. "Could we speak? In private?"
She had put enough emphasis behind her words that Micaiah could immediately tell this was something important, something that was meant only for her ears.
“Yes, follow me.”
The castle’s garden wasn’t probably as big, or as well-kept, as the other royal palaces’ – it was hard to keep one in good shape when it was constantly cold - but it was still a good enough place for their conversation to keep place.
Micaiah wasn’t foolish enough to really believe they were going to be completely alone: she knew Sothe would’ve shadowed their steps, keeping watch in case anyone would want to try anything; it was all to keep her safe, she reminded herself, even though, sometimes, his overprotectiveness brought her much annoyance, but this time, it was useful: with him on their tails, Micaiah was sure nobody would’ve been eavesdropping.
“What was that you wanted to say, Empress?” It felt too weird to call her by her name; she even thought, at first, to call her “sister”, but that too didn’t feel natural. Maybe with time she would’ve become able to do so.
“I wanted to ask you something: I was convinced that you were going to reveal to your people that you were branded, but you didn’t. Why?”
There were many questions brewing inside Micaiah’s mind because of her words, but she figured that she could’ve waited for those. “I wanted to, but... I feared it was too soon.”
With Sanaki, they had come to the agreement to not reveal their familial bond, in order to avoid useless wars of succession in the future, but when it came to the rest of her heritage, to tell the truth, she wasn’t even sure she wanted to make it a public affair: on one hand, she was tired of hiding who she was, but on the other, she couldn’t help but to be afraid that the reveal would’ve had disastrous consequences.
She didn’t want any conflict to arise, not so soon after the previous one, but according to what king Deghinsea had revealed them, the branded persecution was based on lies. Didn’t they deserve peace as well? And what better way to incite change than to reveal that she was one of them? The people already loved her to a sometimes worrying degree, how much would the news have tarnished that love?
It was a lot to think about...
Sanaki nodded, deep in thought as well.
For a while, they just walked in complete, and tense, silence. It almost made Micaiah miss all the chaos and voices inside the halls - at least those were joyful, and not... whatever that was supposed to be.
Eventually, at least, Sanaki spoke again. “Of course, it is not my place to tell you what to do, but I don’t think you should hide it... though I understand your fear.”
Micaiah turned towards her, meeting her eyes; her gaze looked less tense than before - it reminded her of the fact that, despite being such an eminent political figure, she was just a child.
“After being the Apostle of the Goddess all this time, revealing that I intend to continue not as an Apostle, but as an Empress, has caused quite the stir.”
Oh, Micaiah had heard of that. She hadn’t been present for it, of course, having too much to do in Daein, but she had heard news of Sanaki’s resolution to the people of Begnion.
“Ashera had just frozen the world over, of course they would accept to get rid of her,” she mused. “I don’t know if our situations are comparable...”
Sanaki stopped, forcing Micaiah to stop with her. “You were the only one able to channel Yune, you defeated Ashera, everyone knows it. Does your being branded change those things? No, it doesn’t. They won’t think less of you because of it, not when you’re already a hero in their eyes.”
That only confirmed how much of a child she still was, if she thought that things were that simple. Still, there was something about the conviction in her words, her determined gaze, that was almost enough to change Micaiah’s mind; the world wasn’t as black and white, she knew that, but maybe Sanaki was right, maybe she should’ve...
“I’ll keep your words in consideration.”
It was a childish thought, but maybe, just this once, it wouldn’t have hurt to be a little childish, knowing that if she were to truly do it, she could’ve at least counted on some support, and that was more than she could’ve hoped for if she had tried to do it before.
It wasn’t all easy, unfortunately, especially in court, and especially when one particular person was present.
Almedha didn’t like Micaiah, she never did, but since she had been made queen she did everything in her power to antagonize her: she openly criticized her, not only in private but in front of the rest of the court - she was the only one to do so - but it did make Micaiah’s position unsteady nonetheless.
At first, she had figured that she would’ve come around, that it was just a transitory period, but at some point, it was time to confront her and get to the bottom of this - she couldn’t have afforded to keep such a constant thorn in her side.
She approached her in private, not wanting to make a public spectacle out of this - it would've felt disingenuous to do so, even though she might’ve deserved it.
She felt herself grow tenser and tenser as she approached her chambers, but she was determined to get through this, so she didn't stop and turn away; she was going to face it head on.
Despite her determination, she hesitated, hand hovering over the door, before gently knocking. “Lady Almedha? Are you in there?”
There was no verbal answer, only the faint sound of steps, until the door opened, revealing Almedha in a black nightgown; she looked different from her perfect appearance in court, more disheveled. She was obviously preparing for bed, not expecting any visit that late.
She looked Micaiah up and down, resentment visible on her face, before asking: “What do you want?”
The venom in her voice! Micaiah tried her best to ignore it, however, and pressed forward. “I need to speak with you... May I come in?”
Her question was met with silence, until Almedha - without saying anything yet - stepped aside, allowing her to enter; she was almost afraid as she did so, but she did her best not to show it - she didn't want to give her an advantage - taking her time - perhaps more than it was acceptable - to have a look around, figuring that she would’ve never gotten another chance like this. The room was somber, much more so than she had expected: everything was so dark, so oppressing, it made her struggle to breathe just by looks alone - the window was open, she could see it, so how come did the space feel so closed?
Almedha barely paid her any attention, as she let herself fall on the bed, sighing as she did so. Micaiah should've said something, but she was frozen on the spot, observing the other woman while being observed in return.
“Well? Aren't you going to do it?”
Almedha's words - she sounded almost bored - were enough to shake Micaiah from the trance-like state she had fallen into. She shook her head, trying to regain her composure. “Excuse me, what do you mean?”
She scoffed. “Please. You think I don't know why you're here? You're here to kill me too, aren't you?”
The way Micaiah did a double-take at that insinuation was very unfit for a queen. Did Almedha really think her able of something like that? What motive would she even have in the first place? “L-Lady Almedha, I just want to talk, I swear! Why would I even want to kill you?”
“The same reason you killed my son...” she replied, contempt overflowing in her voice. “You killed him to take the throne, and now you want to get rid of me as well, I can tell...”
What surprised Micaiah, in an already surprising situation, was that despite her words, she still looked bored. A quick look in her mind was enough to reveal that it wasn't boredom at all, but resignation; it was like she knew she couldn’t have escaped her fate.
That wasn't the first time Micaiah had felt in such a way, but she couldn't help but to feel pity towards her, a woman that had been, and was still, haunted by her mistakes.
She had lost everything, and in a way, Micaiah couldn't help but to feel in part responsible for it: after all, she had been the one who killed Pelleas, the only thing that was left to her.
She had lost her family, she had lost her lover, and Micaiah had taken her son as well.
It hadn't been easy, to sink the knife’s blade in his chest, watching the life leave his relived eyes - he was happy to die, while she was in despair - but she had done it nonetheless, for Pelleas himself, for Daein, because at the time it was their only choice.
If she had known that doing so would've been useless, she would've happily spared his life. There were still moments in which she lost herself in what-if scenarios where she had stood her ground more steadily, where she had been able to say no, where Pelleas was still be alive and kept ruling as king; no matter how much she wanted it, however, she couldn't have changed reality: what was done was done, and she had to live with that, so how dared Almedha even just imply that the reason she did was for the throne?
She wasn't one to be easily enraged, but those words had left her reeling.
She took a deep breath, knowing that giving into the rage she was feeling wasn’t going to help. This was supposed to be a productive conversation, after all; she wasn't going to lower herself to her level.
“Lady Almedha, I understand that you're in pain. I can't imagine how painful it must be for you, but the only reason I did it was because we thought it was the only way to put an end to the Blood Pact, not because I wanted the throne.”
“And how am I supposed to believe that?” Almedha retorted. “The way I see it, you and your... guard dog have stolen the throne from its legitimate heir.”
Micaiah let the comment about Sothe slide, even though she would've loved to say something about that - he was family, not a pet.
The thing was that she understood Almedha's point of view, but if only she could try to understand...
Her gift, sometimes, was a source of great frustration: it provided her insight into other people's minds, but it didn't allow the reverse. Almedha was moody, even childish sometimes, but Micaiah was sure that, if she were able to see the truth inside her mind, she would've understood that this entire plot was all in her head: neither she, nor Sothe, had ever desired to be in a position of command, they just wanted what was best for Daein, and if Daein needed them on the throne, they couldn't have refused their people.
She covered the distance between her and Almedha with long steps, settling right on her side. She even took her hands, holding them tightly.
“If I could take away my life to give Pelleas back to you, I would happily do it,” she said, looking at her straight in the eyes. “But alas, I cannot. What I can do, however, is to give Daein the guidance it desperately needs, for him as well.”
It was subtle, but Micaiah didn't fail to notice the way Almedha was trembling; it was then that she was hit by the fear that she was going to start crying: she didn't know how to act, if that were truly to happen.
Thankfully, she was held back by her pride - she would've sooner died than to have shown weakness in front of Micaiah - so she just asked: “Then, if you’re speaking the truth, what do you want?”
Right, she was there for a reason, not to comfort a mourning mother. How should she have gone about this, without it ending in tragedy? She wasn't sure, but she knew that she had to be as diplomatic as possible.
“Lady Almedha, I need your help.”
The surprise effect was immediate: Almedha's eyebrows shot up to the sky, and for a moment, she was locked in a state of bewilderment; she couldn't have believed her ears.
“A-And why would you need my help?”
“You don't like me, I know, and I'm not exactly fond of you either, I'll admit, but I recognize that you know more than I do about this... queenly business.” Almedha huffed a small chuckle at those words, but while Micaiah expected to receive words of mockery from her, she remained silent, which encouraged her to continue. “I wasn't born to rule, I wasn't educated for it. I'm doing all I can to do what's best for Daein, but I know nothing of politcs...”
She had been made very aware of this weakness of hers when meeting with other royals: she was clumsy, she didn't know the right words to say and when to say them. Even Elincia, who Micaiah knew hadn't been educated for it as well, knew what to do, what to say, in a way that Micaiah didn't.
When she had to take over during the war, things were, ironically, easier: she needed to give orders, make plans, but that was nothing compared to diplomacy, where one wrong word could destroy the peace they had fought so hard to obtain. Even in the small things, like table manners, she was lacking.
If anyone there would’ve known how to act in a proper, regal way, that was Almedha: she knew what to say, when to be softer or when to be harsher. Having her on her side would've been a great aid, as reluctant as Micaiah was to admit it. After all, Almedha must've cared for Daein, or else she would've returned to her family, right? Was the need to antagonize her so strong to force her to stay in a place she cared nothing about? She didn't think so. Pelleas had loved Daein, which meant that Almedha loved Daein as well - for his son.
Speaking of her, she still hadn't spoken since Micaiah had finished, which was satisfying - who knew she would've ever been capable of making her shut up? - and worrying at the same time.
Then, she sighed, looking at Micaiah with the softest gaze she had ever reserved her - only a slight improvement from the usual, but it was still something.
“... Fine, since you’ve asked, I will help you,” she said. “But! You’ll have to listen to me, alright? These things are tricky: sometimes you’ll have to make unpopular choices and you will have to wait a long time before being able to reap their benefits.”
Of course, Micaiah was prepared. She knew from the start that it was something that, sooner or later, was bound to happen, even though she didn’t think herself capable of doing something like that; Almedha, on the other hand, would’ve been able to advise her. She was going to be harsh, she was already able to tell, but that was exactly what she needed: someone who would tell her how things really were, instead of what they thought she wanted to hear.
The fact that she had been able to convince her to cooperate was still hard to believe, but a victory was a victory, and that day she had won.
Being queen, Micaiah had found out, led to a lonely existence. As much as she was constantly surrounded by people, in fact, she was finding it very hard even to just organize a small meeting with her family, a bit because she was extremely busy - Daein needed her constant attention - a bit because, after defeating the Goddess, everyone had taken their own paths: some had remained in Daein, but others had gone back to their home countries. Even out of those who were left, Micaiah only saw a few of them regularly, while the others had preferred to either return to their hometowns, or to wander and offer their help to whoever was in need.
She missed them, terribly, but alas there was very little she could’ve done about it, except hoping that, sooner or later, there would’ve been time for all of them to meet again.
The occasion came faster than she expected, and not because of her doing - it was all Sothe’s.
She simply woke up, one morning, with Sothe already up and about. When she demanded an explanation as to what he was planning, he said that he had planned a one-day vacation for her, which was absurd: a queen wasn’t supposed take vacations from running a country!
“There are no pressing matters today, and Almedha can handle the rest,” Sothe replied, when she tried to object. To tell the truth, she wouldn’t have minded spending at least one day - she couldn’t have hoped for more - without the entire weight of the nation of Daein on her shoulders, but what if something happened while she was gone? What then?
Anticipating her response, Sothe put both his hands on her shoulders, looking at her straight in the eyes. “Micaiah, you look worse and worse each day,” to which she slightly scoffed, but she couldn’t exactly deny it. “I know you love Daein, I do too, but keeping this up is killing you.”
He wasn’t wrong: in the hurry to catch up with the other royals, who had been doing this for longer than her, she had been attending meetings, signing treaties, and having audiences with the public, which she didn’t mind doing, really, but it was all pretty exhausting, so yes, maybe a very small vacation from those duties would’ve helped her - he did say that Almedha would’ve taken the reins from her just this time, and she had come to trust her not to ruin everything at the first occasion she would’ve got.
She sighed. “Alright, fine. What did you have in mind?”
At those words, a smile appeared on his face.
“You’ll see.”
They had to smuggle Micaiah out of Daein’s palace without being noticed, which meant getting dressed in commoners garb - a far cry from what had become Micaiah’s usual attires, but she felt way more comfortable like that - and sneak out, like they used to do while they were still considered criminals.
It was the most fun she had in a while; it made her go back in time, when things were surely harder, but also simpler; did it make her sound bad, if she had said she missed those times?
Sothe brought her to a tavern, one on the outskirts of the city. It wasn’t the kind of place a queen would’ve - or should’ve - frequented, but it was one Micaiah was familiar with, as she had often sought refuge in an establishment such as that one - it was all she could’ve afforded.
As they stepped inside, she was met by a sight that warmed her heart: the Dawn Brigade, her friends, her family, was there, waiting for her. Even Meg was present - she looked all grown-up - with the only absent being Volug; she supposed that had been too hard to arrange, though according to the news she had heard, she was going to meet him soon, as the preparations for Hatari’s nation to cross the border and establish itself in Tellius were ready, and of course the queen of Daein wasn’t going to be absent during such an occasion.
Seeing their happy faces would’ve been enough to make Micaiah cry, but she managed not to - she didn’t want to ruin the mood - but that didn’t mean that she wasn’t overjoyed to see them all, and to have them be reunited under the same roof.
“I...” she didn’t even know what to say. She turned to Sothe, who was looking at her with such an adoring expression that she almost looked away, but she couldn’t. “Thank you.”
Before she could’ve even noticed it, it was night; she had been so enthralled by everyone else’s stories that she hadn’t been paying attention to the passage of time.
She had learned that Laura was about to open an orphanage - one that would’ve surely gotten the blessing of the queen once the building process was finished - while Edward had become a hero to the common folk - songs written about him were soon to reach her ears. Leonardo was one of the few she saw more regularly, being the army’s chief, but she was still happy to meet him in less formal circumstances - there was no trace of tension on his face, nor in his heart.
Nolan looked a bit more rugged than usual, but that was because he had been traveling a lot, lately: unfortunately, banditry hadn’t been completely eradicated, even during such a moment of peace, and although the army had a vast reach, there were still places - small villages up in the mountains - that needed the help of people like him, who would stand and fight for the common folk. Of course, Micaiah - with Leonardo’s help - was working on making sure this wouldn’t be necessary again, but as she had found out, it took time - and lots of effort - before things actually changed for the better, so she was glad that she could’ve counted on the help of people like Nolan to cover the weak spots.
Aran spoke little, as it was usual for him - he never was fond of speaking more than it was needed - but from what he said, he was living life as usual, being his hometown’s lookout again. He was the one who had been changed the less, out of all of them, but Micaiah didn’t find it to be a negative thing: stability was a good thing. He blushed a little, when Edward made a comment about him and Laura, which made everyone burst into laughter, but he didn’t comment further, so Micaiah guessed they would all have to wait and see what happened next under that front.
After being contacted by Sothe, Meg had agreed to take some time off the farm to come visit, which Micaiah appreciated deeply: she knew how important her farm was to her. For now, she had returned to his father’s home, wanting to enjoy a simple life, but she intended to leave again in a year or two, to seek more adventure and maybe - if she could - find her other half; she still hadn’t given up on that! Micaiah was sure that she would’ve succeeded in her endeavors: she was great, surely someone was going to fall for her.
At first, it had been hard for Micaiah to let go of the façade she had carefully constructed for the court, but as the tension vanished, she managed to let herself go.
As queen, she was supposed to carry herself in a certain way: she couldn’t have acted like she would’ve normally done. There, however, she wasn’t the queen of Daein, she was just Micaiah.
She could’ve just been herself, and she did.
Sothe had been right. She had really been in need of a break.
After much time of careful consideration, and heated arguments with Sothe, who thought it was too risky, Micaiah had made a decision: the people deserved to know the truth about her heritage.
Branded people deserved to be treated by respect, and what better chance to pave the way than this? Sanaki’s words, the ones she pronounced during her coronation, had echoed in her mind: no matter the result, she had people - powerful and less powerful - on her side. She wasn’t going to be alone, which made her feel much better about the whole deal.
Sothe hadn’t been too hard to convince. Even if he was worried about her safety, he wasn’t an idiot, he could see how much keeping such an important part of herself hidden hurt her - she was used to it, after so many years, but she always felt there was something missing.
“Not everyone will be as accepting as you hope,” he said, but after a sigh, he continued. “But we’ll deal with them.”
He gently took Micaiah’s face between his hands, leaning in to kiss her forehead. “I love you.”
“And I you,” she replied, dragging him closer for an actual kiss. No matter what, she could’ve always counted on him.
The day had finally arrived: Micaiah was going to give a public speech to the masses, and reveal to the whole world that she was branded.
She had been waiting for this moment, but now that she was about to actually do it, she almost wished to go back in time and make a different decision. She was nervous, she couldn’t deny that, but she knew she had to push through.
As she was pacing back and forth behind the huge balcony where she was going to give her speech, she was soon joined by Sothe, who noticed immediately that there was something wrong.
“Having second thoughts?” he asked immediately, in fact, as he closed his arms around her, hoping it would’ve given her support.
She let herself melt into his hug. Was she really having second thoughts? No, she was just afraid, but she wasn’t going to run away, not anymore, so she shook her head. She reminded herself that she wasn’t alone, and that thought gave her courage.
Daein had a controversial past with other races - that was an understatement - but if nobody was ever going to apply themselves, things were never going to get better. Besides, she had faith in her people, in the fact that now more than ever they were ready to embrace change.
It was scary, she couldn’t deny that, but it was a step that she had to take, for a better future.
She took a deep breath, before pulling away from Sothe.
“Ready?” she asked, making him chuckle.
“Shouldn’t I be the one asking you that?” he replied, only to then add, “But yes, I’m ready. You?”
“Me too,” she said, smiling, then she took Sothe’s hand, guiding him towards the balcony. “Let’s go.”
She didn’t know what was going to happen, but as she stepped into the warm light of the sun, all the nervousness and worry she was feeling mere moments ago completely vanished: for once, she had faith.
It had been years - how many, five already? - since Micaiah had given her speech, and things were still going well; Daein hadn’t fallen into irreparable chaos after finding out she was branded. Of course, there were those who didn’t take well to the news - it would’ve been naïve to think that nobody would’ve - but there hadn’t been any attempts on her life, which everyone had considered a victory.
After all the extraordinary feats she had accomplished, it had been easier to accept her heritage, and to accept that branded people in general weren’t to be hunted down, that they were people just like them, even though Micaiah found it bittersweet: had she been just an ordinary person, would everyone have been this eager in their acceptance? She doubted it, but... In the end, it didn’t matter. It all went well, and that was already a huge success, she shouldn’t have had diminished it, even if her suppositions were likely to be true.
It was still hard to believe that it was all true, but she couldn’t deny reality: under her rule, Daein was flourishing, and her attempts to change its mentality with cultural reforms were bearing fruit, even if not everyone was being as receptive as she had hoped, but she could’ve told that the people were trying.
It almost felt like a dream, and as much as Micaiah was always very careful when making considerations on her rule - things could’ve always gone wrong at any moment - she felt like, despite the initial hiccups, she wasn’t doing a bad job at all.
What really cemented this idea was when, during a public hearing, she was approached by a woman carrying a child in her arms.
It wasn’t the first time something similar had happened: many parents wished for her to bless their children, much to her confusion sometimes - it felt like something so outside her area of expertise - but she never refused them, not if even such a simple gesture would’ve been enough to give them hope; she had asked Sanaki once, during one of their meetings where they tried not to bring politics too much into the conversation and to act like sisters instead, if this had happened to her too, and she had replied with a roll of her eyes, saying that unfortunately it did - she obviously wasn’t fond of the practice, even though she too never said no to anyone.
As the woman got closer, and Micaiah took a peek inside her mind, she noticed that, among other emotions, she was afraid, though of what she couldn’t tell - she never looked in people’s souls more than what was needed for her to anticipate what she was going to have to deal with - though she hoped she wasn’t the cause of such feelings - it was still hard for her to consider that, for the average person, she was intimidating.
“My queen,” the woman began, taking a deep bow, to which Micaiah immediately responded with what she hoped was a calming tone.
“Please, there’s no need...” she said, getting up from her throne - she never liked how it felt - to reach the woman, helping her up herself. She smiled. “Is there anything I can do for you?”
The woman stood. It seemed that Micaiah had been successful in calming her nerves. “Oh, my queen, I only ask but a boon,” she replied, presenting her child to her. “Could you bless my daughter?”
So it was a blessing, Micaiah had been right. “Of course,” she agreed, lowering her gaze to the child and...
She couldn’t have believed her eyes.
The child was... She was branded; there was no mistaking the dark red mark on her cheek.
She was just like her.
“... Her father?” she couldn’t have helped but to ask, before she could’ve stopped herself - it was none of her business, after all - but she wanted to make sure this little family was safe.
The woman looked away, flustered - but the smile on her face didn’t disappear. “He’s in Gallia, but... He’s planning to come and live here, permanently.”
That news filled Micaiah with absolute joy: to think that a laguz would’ve deemed Daein safe enough for him to live in, to raise a family with a beorc woman and a branded child. It would’ve never happened years ago.
“I see... And the child’s name?”
This time, the woman outright blushed. Her voice was but a whisper, barely audible, but she was still able to hear what she said.
“... Micaiah.”
For a moment, she believed she must’ve heard wrong - there was simply no way... - but no, the child’s name was really the same as hers. It made her feel incredibly undeserving of such an honor - surely, there were better suited candidates - but also extremely proud of herself and her work: no matter the hardships, progress was really being made.
She looked down at the child, this child who had such a promising future in front of her, and she gave her blessing.
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