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I knew today was going to be a bad day.
#we were just so fucking busy and stressed. esp bc one girl didnt even show up today so we were understaffed#and over an hour ago this old bitch did SOMETHING in the bathroom and it overfilled and clogged the toilet#and my fucking fatass dumb coworker Flushes the toilet and literall#i am NOT fucking exaggerating when i say old man feces went ALL OVER THE FUCKING FLOOR.#LITERALLY FLOODED OUT OF THE TOILET BOWL AND ALL OVER.#you could dedass smell it from wayy on the other end of the store#it took over an hour of clean up and febreeze and bleach and just#good fucking lord#i helped out but it was mostly my manager/pal who had to clean it#and bc he was out of commission and my fatass coworker didnt have any food to make or anything#it was JUST me and one other girl doing EVERYTHING ELSE#fucking scrambling#and shit kept breaking down and some stuff kinda exploded in the middle of the rush#and the stupid bastard just stood there and watched#AND HE WAS STILL THE FIRST TO BE ABLE TO FUCKING LEAVE#im so. fucking upset rn im actually in tears from stress#if i see him again tomorrow yo im Literally gonna beat some ass if he fucking dares try to talk to me#im NOT gonna put up with his bull fucking shit anymore im literally fuckign done#one word motherfucker. say one fucking word to me and im gonna cuss you the fuck out#dont think for a goddamn fucking second that i fucking wont
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god im so excited for the Barbie movie today. I might be a bit tense while seeing my triggers on screen but honestly I’ve been doing so so so well handling my ptsd the last few weeks and I'm very proud of myself!!!!!
there’s a few triggers I’ve been actively working on reclaiming and I KNOW I’m going to be okay watching the movie bc I am not letting anybody take this from me. I know I’m gonna wanna see it more than once. I even bought myself a cute pink skirt for it ;w;
#I’m gonna wear pink glitter in my hair too for opening night#woof#like i know im gonna be rly tense but i have been doing SO much better than i was just a month ago#if anything ill just be incredibly tense at first. but i genuinely think ill relax more as the movie progresses#bc ive been using grounding techniques for months and ive been working so goddamn hard to reclaim pink#WHICH IS SUCH HUGE PROGRESS FOR ME to think back to january when i couldnt look at pink at ALL#and i think seeing pink literally every single second for 2 hours straight in the barbie movie#is gonna also help my brain be like 'oh hey everything is fine' help it to become desensitized#bc ive been doing exposure therapy and im doing so much better than i was even just one month ago!!!!!!!#barbie is my girlfriend. and ken is my boyfriend. and i have two hands they can hold#god!!! you know how many barbies im gonna kiss!!!!! SO MANY#this is MY movie i have been so fucking excited to see!! its my number one favorite thing ive been looking forward to!!!!#i have wanted to see this! so! fucking! badly! and fuck anybody who tried to ruin that for me#i dont want ptsd to control my life#i feel like im riding a bull and gripping it by the horns while its trying to kick me off while im yelling Not Today Bitch#thats what trying to reclaim triggers feels like#but i can fucking feel it working i can feel myself getting better with some of these triggers i cant believe it#and i think just a year from now most of these triggers wont be severe anymore#which is my goal. i dont even need them to be cured completely i just want to function normally#cannot tell u how fucking unreal it is to have so many triggers that are like. normal everyday stuff#colors. clothes. phrases. transformers. im taking ALL of that shit back#STARTING WITH PINK ONE OF MY FAVORITE GODDAMN COLORS 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖#THE EMOJI LOOKS RED ON DESKTOP BUT THAT IS OKAY.
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my head hurts abd im tired and i want to fall asleep so bad but i hate the idea of waking up because then ill have to go to school and for some reason the though of even seeing another human being makes me wanna curl up and die
#oh wait. wait a minite.#fuck#genuinely i think i need to see a doctor theres no goddamn way its normal to feel this hopless every goddamn month#MY PERIOD SHOULD NOT FUCK WOTH MY EMOTIONS THIS BAD IT DIDN'T USED TO BE LIKE THIS WHY DO I SUDDENLY FEEL#LIKE I WANNA KMS EVERY MONTH LIKE CLOCKWORK FUCK OFFFFDF#i cant even like. like i know i have no reason to feel like this i know its just bc of my period but that doesn't fucking help#i still feel exhausted all the time i still feel hopless every moment of happiness if fleeting i still wanna cry wvery second im awake#i still fucking wanna kill anyone who even looks at me i still feel like a goddamn desperate failure and like nothing good will even happen#to mr again#and i know its not true i Know its not true but its like rhis fucking constant. weight in my chest that wont go away#im constantly on the verge of tears and logic doesnt matter its like my brain is normal but everything other part of me is dying#something something i dont want to feel this way forever something something#genuinely would like. birth control or something help?? something to regulate my hormones??? i cannot keep fucking doing this i hate it sm
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oh, you think YOUR fandom's lore is obscure and hard to find? bitch 90% of kirby lore is only revealed in pause screens and character/item descriptions, and a frustrating amount of it is buried in fucking miiverse posts. and i'm not even going to dig into the fact that hal just straight up refuses to clarify certain major details about games that came out over twenty fucking years ago.
#kirby#listen i love kirby but i Do Not Fault ANYONE who makes mistakes with the lore#for instance: theres never been official confirmation as to what zero and zero-two's relation is#half of the titled bosses are IMPLIED to be alternate forms of dark matter but again. no official confirmation of these#the series has been around for 30 goddamn years and we still dont know shit or fuck about meta knights uncanny resemblance to kirby#was he a failed doppelganger made by nightmare for the purpose of infiltration?#is he an offshoot of void?#what the FUCK IS HE HAL.#like. okay. i know kirby isnt meant to be this overly complex overarching story#but there IS continuity#and hal has been blueballing us for YEARS about certain things#its not even about not saying anything#but the fact that they DELIBERATELY state that certain things 'arent known'#like if zero two is just zero back for revenge#LIKE BITCH HIS NAME IS LITERALLY ZERO TWO!!!! ZERO THE SECOND!!!!!! THE SECOND ITERATION OF ZERO!!!!#HE LITERALLY HAS A BANDAID ON HIS HEAD FROM WHERE HE PRESUMABLY SHOT HIS EYEBALL OUT OF LAST TIME#ok. alright. i think i got it all out lmao#well not really i could go on but i wont
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I saw someone having a post mentioning if a character from one piece would be certain about age gaps so here i am in a silly goffy mood.
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Idea: Waking up/Walking around not realising youre wearing a shirt saying "Dilf patrol" and going out on the ship/certain places causing some interesting conversations.
Raighley, Shanks, Mihawk, Law, Kid, Doflamingo
Special addition: Bepo for cuteness
I know kid and law arent dilfs but theyre fun to write
Kid
Way too busy to notice it at first until someone points it out.
Hes flabbergasted.
"Into experianced men huh?" he comments brows furrowed in question.
It took you a while to register.
"I know i dont qualify as one but give me a few years."
You couldnt be more embarrassed, not to say anytime he asks you to stand on lookout he'll yell "DILF PARTROL" full blast embarrassing you each time.
If hes into you he'll paint over one of his shirts the words "certified dilf" while working on his gagets. If you catch him in the act give him a sly smirk and run for your goddamn life.
However if you both happen to wear it at the same time again its now your turn to shout over the entire ship "DILF SPOTTED" the moment you see him. You'll distract him so horredusly he wont be able to unhear it for the next week.
At some point you both take a picture, altough the main focus is you zooming in on his tits where the label he drew on was.
"Let me see the photo."
You show it to him proudly and prepare for self defense.
"You little shit." hed scoff ,however his ego was lifted that hed certified dilf material.
Doflamingo
This pink flamingo has been walking around you all morning trying to be subtle.
It was getting on your nerves.
"Can you ATLEAST pretend that your subtle, Youre like 10 meters tall dude you wear a PINK FEATHER COAT."
"So?" He picks his teeth with a toothpick.
"Why are you following me?"
"Your shirt."
"What about it?" you get more annoyed by the second.
"Not your dresscode madamoiselle?" you give him a fake smile with your eyes.
"Ha..Hahaha..HAHAHAHA, i must send this to the navy." He takes a photo.
"Fuck do you mean send it to the navy?!"
"Look, i can already hear "it's the dilf parol woman" with your face plastered all over it."
Oh he really was pushing it huh.
With a loud FWAP the shirt lands flat on his face right on the centered plastered with the writing.
"I think they'd like this one better."
You show him the picutre. There he is this wooden shelf for a man in his pink ridicilous coat with his face covered in a shirt thats says "Dilf patrol" boldly.
"My ass im gonna let you have your way with it."
Onsues a battle between two idiots.
Nearing your defeat you splur out "Y'know if you had a kid you'd qualify for it."
"Huh- Yeah right."
"Im dead serious."
"..."
"Time to take one for the team." He said confidently.
Raighley
Usually you stay over at Shakky's rip-off bar having known the owners well half owner Raighley. You never managed to catch his wife on time however, she was always out so one good day you treated yourself to a hands on barman experiance pouring yourself a drink, mind you its late so its okay.
Whilst mixing your drink you hear the front door open Raigley in sight he catches a seat.
"One whiskey on the rocks ma'am." he gets cozy until seeing you prepare your drink. You shake the mixture the tshirt you wore frurrowing all sorts of ways.
"?" He sees something written on it.. not fully tho, so he'll take a another peek in a bit.
Your drink made, you start his grabbing some ice and whiskey for the foxy man.
"Here ya go~" you happily chirped at him offering his drink.
It wasnt until you were mid drink he said "Say would i qualify as a dilf?"
ah the burning sensation of choking on alcohol.
"What?" you ask him barely able to breathe.
"You know, I mean not to shoot myself in the foot i do happen to look good for my age." he takes a swig of his drink calmly.
"F-First off, where is this coming from? Second off what!?" You stutter, Raighley barely dared being so cocky, and now all of a sudden this!? Did he hit his head?
He doubles the K.O pointing to your shirt at which you stare down, immidiatley embarrased for showing your interest in older men un such a dumb way.
Cheeks blazing you admit defeat, giving him a thumb up weakly.
"You're overqualifed.."
"That so?" He smirks hand on his beard in question.
Now confidently you humm altough your legs were giving out.
Who woulda thought you had one of the hottest man, not to mention the most humble one around teasing you like this when youre compleatley unprepared.
[continuation awaits (￣^￣)ゞ]
Law
Poor guy was hoping to eat his meal in peace when you come in theough blazing the words dilf patrol on your shirt.
He literrally chokes.
"You alright capitan?" you ask him.
He swallows dryly, "Yeah..." he stares at you, then at the writing, then at you,the writing and at you for the last time.
"Y/n-ya, You know our crew mostly has guys around the age of 20, right?"
"Riight.. , point being?" you curiously ask.
"Point is WHO ARE YOU PATROLING FOR?!" Not gonna lie he was determined to know.
"!!?" Shocks sets in as you realize what youre wearing.
"Haha oh this thing, well you know give it a few years everyone will be aprooved, even you Law." you chuckle lips pointing in a whistle like manner.
He mentally stopped until he lowered his cow-print hat lower over his face, continuing eating without furter comments.
Hoo... Oh my.
"C-Capitans blushing!" Bepo alerts everyone in the dining hall. Startling you and Law himself.
"Was not, shut up!"
"I'm sorry!" he bows apologizing.
"Well in anycase we have time dont we?" You chuckle pouring yourself some tea.
Few meters behind you you hear more bickering about "Dont joke about this!" et cetera.
Mihawk
The silent man was trying to enjoy a morning newspaper till perona started babling to him about you.
"Whats the issue?" the blandly replies.
"Have you seen what shes wearing its not cute at all!" she pouts pointing to you , a pastry in your mouth the shirt revealing the writing.
Lightning stuck in his head.
"We all have preferances.."
He didnt want to even think about it.
"Thats right, we all have preferances" you pouted back disagreeing with her.
"Of all things you choose old hot guys seriously!? Pick something cuter next time!"
Bwaaa~ You drop your pastry.
"Who says i like old hot guys?"
"Your shirt says.." He nonchalantly interrupted.
"Ah so it does, WHAT?!" You strech out your shirt noticing the writing 'Dilf patrol'
"As long as she can handle it, i see no issue." He adds in.
Your jaw dropping, how can he be so relaxed about this.
"Stop embarrasing her old man-"
The bell dings in everyones head striking a nerve.
Everyone locks eyes.
Silence follows.
It was the tensest breakfast youve ever had with the two of them.
After breakfast you chose to clean the dishes upon hearing a knock.
"Not my buisness, but good choise." And he leaves just like that.
No dishes were washed for the next 30 minutes out of sheer incapability to understand his approval.
Shanks
All bark all bite he doesnt hold back.
He digs the shirt, calls it trendy,odd but trendy, hes seen worse.
"Y/n, i qualify."
"For what?"
"You can count me as a dilf, no?"
Your brain shortcircuts.
"Well.." You eye him up and down making him wait impatiently.
"I mean sorta? Youre not really the hot DAD material are you? "
"I can be though." he shoots you a grin.
"Caaan you?" you hiss back at him.
"Wanna seee for yourselllf?"
[Continuation awaits (￣^￣)ゞ]
Bepo!
You had just woken up having no actual shirt to wear from your regulars you scramped one from the dryer. You didnt even bother to check which one it was you had agreed to train with bepo.
"Goodmornin'. " Hes as polite as ever.
"Mornin' bepo, lets start some warm ups?"
You both proceed to train along eachother however the longer it lasted the more people gathered around you two.
"Whats this about?" You question wiping the sweat off your forehead with your shirt.
"Mm Maybe because youre wearing that today?" ,his fluffy paw points to your shirt.
Every guy in a 10 meter radius was giving you thumbs up making you red as a raindeers nose.
"Y/n, whats a dilf anyways? Some new monester out there?" He innocently asks
"Haha y-no?, Do you wanna know?"
He nodds.
"Well its a preferance for older attractive looking men that have kids or had kids who grew up."
"So.. Do you like ..." he was deep in thought..
He didnt know what to ask.
"Ah mabye Vice capitan Ben?"
Pffttjfjfhdha
"Dont think hes got kids, but hes attractive so i approve." You wipe ur nose at the thought.
Next day Bepo shows around with a shirt labeled
"Shaved ice patrol."
What an innocent creature..
#perona#perona one piece#shanks x reader#one piece shanks#onepiece x reader#onepiece#dracule mihawk#mihawk x y/n#mihawk x reader#one piece mihawk#one piece doflamingo#doffy x reader#doflamingo smut#doflamingo x y/n#doflamingo fluff#donquixote doflamingo#raighley x reader#raighley x you#raighley x y/n#onepiece raighley#onepieceraighley#eustass kid#eustasscaptainkid#eustass kid x reader#eustass kid x y/n#bepo one piece#bepofluff#trafalgar law#trafalgar law x reader#trafalgar law fluff
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ro... why do you always seem to speak my mind because i was just thinking how simon takes care of his little partner whos a virgin... oh so pure and so innocent that he wants to protect with his whole life but corrupt at the same time... like youre no one to corrupt but his. only his. only him can and is allowed to corrupt you.
youre his innocent little lamb that doesnt know why it feels good when youre sitting on his lap and feel something nudging from beneath which is simons bulge growing harder by each second since you cant stop squirming and shifting to find more comfy position but at the same time to feel that delicious friction again and again... when he intentionally bucks his hip and you whimper, hands flying to your mouth since you dont know why such sound slips out your mouth while simon is watching you with an amused look. ever since that day he just likes to tease you, asking you to sit on his lap with his large hand slowly sliding up and down your thigh, squeezing the soft flesh and it sometimes slip inside his shirt youre wearing, crawling on your back and playing with your nipples and you complaining of the weird feeling thats starting to form inside you, completely oblivious at how simon can feel the dampness through your underwear on his lap.
simon who finally introduces you to sex but refuses to take away your virginity and prefers to fuck you with his fingers and tongue, letting you dry humping him each time you ask for his cock but he says youre not ready and instead making you ride his thick thigh...
simon always jerks himself off each time you look at him with that pleading innocent look when youre begging for his cock... because goddamn you dont know what youre asking for
i think hes a blend of sweet and slightly mean ... like he wants to tease you so bad and edge you to see where your limits are but youre too sweet for him to do that and most of the time he gives in and lets you cum...
and when the time is right he will finally give you his cock... and it takes all his willpower not to cum right away when he bottoms out because you feel even better than he thought of so tight so warm and wet for him... simon vows that hes gonna fuck you so good as your first time that you wont be able to think of anyone else but him when it comes to sex
and afterwards youve literally become so attached with his cock and insatiable that you cant go on for a day wo his cock that you get whiny and needy that tingles something in simon.. that he has corrupted his little virgin that didnt even know how to kiss but now are begging for his cock daily...
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Pro-gamer!Gojo, Geto, Sukuna, and Toji
Writing this on my phone because life been putting me thru a meat grinder and i dont have the time to write an actual fic so i'mma ramble about the fic i been writing in my head when i dissociated
Imagine e-sport AU JJK
Youre a girl that's joining a 5 members first person shooter esport team call Curse Technique (CTQ) cuz women respresantation in esport fucking damn it
Your teammates are Gojo (Sixeyes), Geto (spiriteater), Sukuna (malevolent), and Toji (topji)
Theyre all streamers turn pro-gamers and are the most cocky bastard alive. The have never lose a single tournament ever since the game launched.
They got scouted by CTQ organizations from their stream when the game first launch
They fight each other for the second position on the leader board.
Note how i say second
Because someone with the in-game name KandyCat have the top position. Undefeated. Many have tried. But they cant even come close to thag ranking score
And goddamn did the 4 of them tried. They did a 1 week subathon with the sole purpose of tryna take the number 1 spot. They got their ass handed to them by said KandyCat in their solo rank games. So they temporarily gave up.
They always curios who this KandyCat is tho, becaude they are not a streamer, there are nothing about them on the internet beside the fact that theyre number one on the game leaderboard.
Over times, their curiosity and completitiveness against KandyCat before some sort of admiration and obsession. They really want to know who this person is and learn from them.
Now let's talk about when the team manager introduced you to them.
They thought you were their new assistant. They were expecting their last teamate would be another well known streamer or pro-player
The disbelief on their face when your manager said "this is y/n, she's your 5th member and also will be your in-game leader"
You almost let out a snicker
They threw a tantrum. That's for sure. Not cuz youre a girl. It's cuz theyre prideful as fuck
They cant fathom how a literal no body, someone they never heard of before, be their leader?!? Theyre literally the top 5 players of the game. Impossible. No. If leader is one of them, the rest will be bitter but they still relinquish. But their leader is someone they have never heard of before??? They wont stand for this
No. They refused "she can be our leader if she can beat all 4 of us in 1v1s" sukuna scoff and for the first time theyre all in agreement about something.
"Sure!" You said "let's make it more fun by placing a bet, whoever win get a wish from the loser"
Your manager, nanami, just sigh a long sigh and let yall duke it out on the game.
You logged into your account (y/n0nt0p) and gojo immediate poke fun of you "after this you should chsnge it to y/nthebottom"
They were all so confident. Already thinking of what their wish gonna be.
LOL MAN DID THEY GOT THEIR ASS HANDED TO THEM
They could not even land a shot on you
For the first time in their career they went negative on their Kill Death ratio. It was tragic. You were abusing mechanic they have never seen before. Taking angle they didnt know exist. Shooting through wall they didnt know were made out of paper.
They were floored
Complete. Utter. Defeated.
"How?" Toji, the last one to went against you, ask in disbelief.
" You surely dont think this is my main account right? I dont even have any cosmetic on here" you said with a smirk, hinting to them that this isnt the account you will be competing under.
Nanami let out another sign, he need painkiller after this "if you would let me finish introduced her before throwing a tantrum, you coulda save your pride." He said while shaking his head "y/n will be competing under an alias "KandyCat" or Cat, she specifically put in the contract that she does not want her identity to be out in the public including her appearance so----"
"KANDYCAT?!" Gojo shouted cutting nanami off once again.
"The. KandyCat??? Number one player on the leader board. That KandyCat?" Getou said, not believing his ears
Poor men.... theyre going thru so many shocking things in one day. It's like their word just got turned upside down.
Honestly, i havent thoughts about it after this but it would be fun to be like a choose your own adventure fic. Where they all fell head over heel for you over the course of the competitive season.
#gojo satoru#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#geto suguru#prairie's rambling#geto#gojo#ryomen sukuna#jjk sukuna#sukuna x reader#gojo x reader#suguru geto x reader#jjk headcanons#toji#toji x reader#gojo headcanons#geto headcanons#sukuna headcanons#toji headcanons#jujutsu kaisen fanfic#jujutsu sukuna#gojo jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu geto#jujutsu gojo#jujutsu ryomen#jujustsu kaisen x reader
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If you're still taking requests maybe how vergil and dante's s/os react to them coming back from hell eventually after the end of 5? :) I don't know how long they spend there but I know I'd go crazy if it was more than a few months... Love your writing! ❤
The Return
(post-DMC5, by roughly ten months)
Vergil's S/O-
you've been outwardly calm, and internally screaming
you were actually V's S/O
V told you about the whole situation just after he told Trish
the qliphoth was the first time you met Vergil, but he looked at you adoringly, just like V did
he softly assured you they'd be back, and leapt into the underworld within seconds of ending his bout with nero, leaving you scrambling to understand what was happening
you've been working to distract yourself from the fact that he's gone, and the fear he may not come back
you never really got to meet him, and he might be gone for good
it hurts
you hate it
the crew have noticed
you dont sleep well, you wont eat much, you're irritable and distracted
10 months later you are very close to giving up hope
youre on a job and suddenly both twins are just... there?
it throws you off balance and if it weren't for them covering you, things would've gone very poorly
you finish destroying the portal and the stragglers
you stop and actually see him for the first time
you don't remember moving, but you blink and you're across the room, crying, face shoved into his chest, clinging to him for dear life
he stiffens and then slowly returns the embrace
it takes a minute for you to get your breath back
you recognize pieces of the poet you knew, enough to gently tease him
"You're late, and in a lot of trouble," he winces apologetically
"but goddamn did I miss you."
that earns a small smile
("And I, you, my dove.")
Dante's S/O-
you're pissed, at first. mainly because before the Vergil fight you told him not to do anything ridiculously stupid.
mans had 1 job: he failed
after about 5 weeks, you start getting a little worried
the tree is mostly gone, so they must have succeeded in taking out the roots
the longer that goes by the more you think about something Nero said when he told the crew what happened
that they never said they had a plan to get back, in fact he seemed to think they may not be able to get back out of the underworld
the whole arcane research thing is not typically your go to for dealing with demons
why bother when hitting them with a sword is more effective
but without yamato, portals are hard to create, and even harder to control
you spend months running down any option you can think of to at least get to or from the demon world
it takes another 8 1/2 months to finally find something that you think might work
it doesn't
then after passing out, upset and exhausted, you startle awake at the sounds of the doors flying open
you must still be dreaming, because that looks like your devil
who's trapped in hell
right?
cue a dante patented stupid joke to diffuse tension
you quite literally vault over the desk into his arms and just feel that hes back
*hug*"I'm so happy you're back!"
and exactly 4 seconds later
*hitting him repeatedly* "Never fucking do that again!"
Bonus Nero's Reaction-
he's super fucking pissed off
ah yes lets leave the kid (with severe familial abandonment issues) suddenly without his family
remains fairly angry when the topic of either twin is brought up
but the longer that goes by, the more anger becomes distress, and eventually resignation
concerned, but unsure how to help Vergil's S/O
very bothered by the 'empty look' when he does jobs with VS/O
confused, exasperated, but not surprised at Dante's S/O's actions
a little tiny bit scared of the non-stop manic energy DS/O is embodying
first time seeing the twins back, he has way to many emotions to deal with so defaults to anger
likely throws down with either/both
the rage burns hot and fast this time, so the fight is messy and short
basically ends in him storming off and giving them the cold shoulder until someone makes the first move
(probably nero or dante lets be honest here)
*this is the headcannon version, there may end up being fully written one shots later
#devil may cry#vergil#dante#devil may cry 5#dmc#vergil x reader#dante x reader#bonus nero#writing requests#request fill#my writing#dmc x reader#devil may cry headcanons
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lust, not hatred || pt. 2
pairings dealer!ellie williams x fem!oc/reader
summary what happens after ellie and aime, enimies over the years at a college, hook up?
warnings NSFW, fingering (r receiving), dry scissoring?, dry humping, pet names (princess, babe, good girl), kinda kinky ellie?, slight choking, semi public sex?? (fingering while people r in the room), drinking, zaza, and WHIMPERING ELLIE.
a/n so nobody asked for a second part.. but i felt like it, so heres the last part, read part 1 if you havent already! sorry in advance this is super long, and PLEASE send me ellie requests!
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part 1
the sound of banging at the door caused me to wake up.
my eyes squinted at the light coming out of my curtains, the loud noise at the door, and the pounding headache i had
once i fully gain consciousness, i looked around to see that i was in bed, naked, the white blankets sticking to my skin, and the feeling of my skin sticking to someone elses skin..
i scrunched my eyebrows confused, lifting up my head, only to shot up from where i was, "what the fuck?" i grumbled, causing the girl in my bed to stir awake
"tell whoevers at the door to shut up" ellie mumbled, shoving her head to the pillows more and squeezing her eyes shut harder, i ignored the tickley feeling i got in my stomach as she spoke with her grouchy and raspy morning voice
i went to speak up, but the voice behind the door beat me to it, "aime! wake the fuck up! i left my key and you were supposed to keep the door unlocked!"
i recognized the voice immediately, it was dina, and ellie did too, with scrunched eyebrows pulling her head from the comfort, only to make eye contact with me
i probably looked like shit, smeared makeup, crazy hair, sweaty and gross.. i dont even remember what happened last night, and i didnt have time to think, but as panic shot through me as i tried to figure out what to do, i stilled stopped to just admire for a quick moment how beautiful ellie looked.
ellies eyes trailed down, causing me to look down too, i quickly grabbed the blanket and brought it to cover my chest, fuck i literally just had my goddamn tits out and she fucking saw.
ellie looked over to her body, probably relieved that she was still in her bra and underwear, but her cheeks blushed red slightly as she realized that we, very obviously, fucked, well, she was definitely the one doing the fucking..
the banging on the door only got harsher, bringing us both back to reality, "fuck- i- can you- fuck!" i whisper-rambled, trying to figure out how to go about this
"uh- just- go get dressed, ill hide somewhere" ellie whispered, getting out of the bed, i could feel my face on fire from seeing ellie in her underwear, how could i not? she wore a pair of white boxer briefs and a grey calvin klein sports bra, i could see her cleavage pouring out slightly at the top as she bent over grabbing clothes from the ground-
ellie tossed me my underwear, i only blushed harder once i remembered i chose to wear girly floral lace underwear with a bow.
i didnt have time to go somewhere to change, i stood up, completely naked, and slipped on my underwear, i noticed brusing marks all down my body and all in my inner thighs by my heat, i felt myself grow wetter- ellie came around, only in her jeans and with one sock on, with a shirt in hand, shit, i can't believe im getting this fucking wet from this- but the thought of us doing it- and the sight of her like this..
"arms up" she mumbled, and at that i could have melted, i did what i was told, and she put my shirt on for me- she put my shirt on for me. god, i was on fire.
"it covers most the marks- and you normally sleep like that so she wont think anything of it, im gonna hide in your closet, okay?" she whispered, hands on my shoulders, i nodded my head, but her eyes went behind me, "oh fuck" she mumbled, and walked behind me, i watched her confused as she opened my cabinet, but it made sense once she took the shot glasses and vodka, we had shared from last night, and shoved them in to hide it
she then hurriedly grabbed her shoes, shirt, and sock, and slid into my closet, i shut it behind her and took a deep breath before unlocking my door and opening it
"jesus goddamn christ! took you fucking ages! i was starting to think you died!" she said loudly, pushing past me to get inside our room, i shut the door behind her and turned around to face her as she set her purse down and slid off her shoes, rambling about something like 'i never answered my phone last night' i dont really know, i had a pounding headache and all i was thinking about was trying to remember how me and ellie ended up tangled together both naked like that- i mean, ellie? of all people? how is that possible? the last thing-
"aime!" dina yelled loudly, "jesus christ, could you speak any louder?" i groaned, rubbing my temple, "did you hear anything i just said?" she asked, i shrugged, "didnt answer my phone?" i replied, but in a questioning tone as i wasnt really sure
"oh my god, you really are hung over! is it true? did you actually get along with her?" she asked coming closer to me
"huh? who?" i hummed, "you and ellie? i heard those rumors that you guys were dancing together and then disappeared together, and- holy fucky! are those love bites from her-"
what?! rumors of us like that spread that fucking fast? i sort of remember us dancing together but disappear-
fuck.. when we went to smoke..
i remember it now, slight graphic scenes of the memory came through, how i got these marks.. but after that, it was completely blank, i guess we just went back here and kept going at it-
"hello? aime! are you not listening again?" dina called, "oh, sorry, i dont know whats up with those rumors, you know we despise each other, and obviously this shit isnt from ellie! what kinda of animal do you think i am! but what was the last thing you said?"
"have you seen her? shes not answering her phone, and shes not at her dorm, i thought she was gonna be here but i guess not- and who are they from then?" dina asked
"oh no, last ive seen her was about a half hour after i got home from my last class, she was already here on your bed but i made her leave, and.. theyre from jason.." i lied
"oh? didnt know you guys were gonna do it, looks like he went hard.. anyways did she say if she was gonna go somewhere?"
"i dont know, maybe, i was ignoring her" i shrugged, not knowing what else to say, "weird.. wait, so did you end up going to the party? you look pretty fucked up and everyone i ask said they saw you"
"uh, yeah, i stopped by, i was looking for you and jesse, but i couldnt find you and went home"
"you stopped by? and you're sleeping in to 1pm? and why were you looking for us?"
"what! its 1pm?" i said with my eyes going wide, dina took a quick second to look at her phone, "its 1:12"
"fuck"
"yeah, so can you please explain to me why you randomly decided to go out get fucked up drunk and probably high, get fucked by jason, crash asleep with the door locked knowing i wasnt home, and skip all your morning classes?" she had her hands on her hips
"uh.." i stuttered rubbing my eyes, "you know.." i mumbled, "what? speak up" she said, i shrugged, "you know" i repeated, not daring to make eye contact, "no, i dont know, please inform me"
"just cause" i said, voice barley above whisper, "just cause what?" she repeated, "jesus christ, dina, could you just leave me the fuck alone and stop asking me a shit ton of fucking questions first thing i wake up, i have a pounding ass headache and i had important classes that i missed, i dont even know how none of my alarms went off, and im literally about to kill
myself!" i yelled angerly, more stressed then anger
"im not gonna leave you alone, im fucking concerned, sure you party once a week give or take, but getting this fucked up on a wednesday night after you were so adamant of not going from being so tired? what happened?"
"oh my god, dude, i barley remember, i just, i had a shit day, and when i got home i decided to have a fun night and release stress, so i drank some and smoke some, not that big a deal, i dont know why the door was locked, i probably was paranoid from the weed, nothing to be concerned, can you just- fetch me pain killers, and water?"
i ranted, and in the middle of my rant, i heard something fall from my closet, obviously i knew it was ellie, but it wasnt too loud, and i just kept on going, praying dina didnt hear
"did you hear that?"
fuck.
"hear what?"
"there was something moving in your closet"
"dina, i dont have time for this, can you please just be a good roomie and help me get over this hangover?" i tried to change the subject
"no, i swear to god i heard something like, in there, like-" dina began to walk to my closet,
"dina!" i exclaimed, causing her to turn, "why werent you here anyways, and why didnt i find you at the party?"
"oh, me and jesse left early, we went to his"
i nodded, "hey can i give you money for you to go buy me breakfast at the cafeteria?" i asked, already walking over to my wallet, hoping she forgot about the whole closet thing
"yeah, thats cool, for some reason everyone at that party either got shit faced drunk or left super early, so there shouldnt be much people there since theyre all still asleep"
"you're a life saver, thanks deen" i said with a smile, handing her money, "mhm, just drink water, take ibuprofen, and lay in bed"
"yeah, yeah, i know, thank you again" i said with a smile
she opened the door to leave, but turned around, "oh, aime?" she called, my heart raced, scared of what she had to say, i hummed for her to continue, "what do you want me to get you?" she said, gesturing to the money, i sighed, loud enough for her to hear the sigh, i didnt mean to, but it just came out, "oh, uh, just pancakes and sausage please" she nodded, shutting the door
i sighed again, running up to the door, looking through the peep hole, she was already gone, turning the corner, i locked the door again, before going over to the closet door, sliding it open
"what was that?" i exclaimed, watching as she, now fully clothed and with her shoes on, got up with the smuggest look ever, "what was what?" she questioned with a yawn
my eyes squinted in disbelief, why is she acting so casual? like nothing happen? like we didnt wake up arms squeezing each together, her half naked and me fully-
"the noise! she almost caught us!" i slightly shouted, ellie brought her hands up defending herself, "woah, woah, calm down, she didn't, so it doesnt matter"
"doesnt matter? could you imagine explaining that to her- or- or how humiliating it would have been for me? for us?"
ellie stared back at me blankly as i freaked out, "so what was the noise? what'd you break?" i crossed my arms waiting a response
"oh, right, my phone fell out of my pocket" she shrugged, the mention of phones caused me to look around the room, "looking for this?" she said, shoving my phone to my face, "what? how did yo- why do you have it?" i asked, looking up to her
"oh, i dunno, i guess you asked me to hold to it last night, it was in my pocket" she shrugged, licking her teeth with a small clicking noise after, to fill the awkward tension and silence
i stared blankly at her, trying to figure her out, why is she acting so normal? is this a common thing for her?
ellie dangles the phone in front of me, "so you gonna take it.. orrr?"
i slowly lifted my hand up and grabbed it from her, i broke the eye contact to look down at my phone, "its dead" she simple stated, i pressed the on button snd sure enough- the empty battery popped up, signaling for me to charge it
as i looked at the dead phone, my mind trained thoights, trying to figure out how to go about this and what to say next, i felt her eyes peircing me, the silence was painful, you would be able to hear an ant crawl.
"just gonna stare at your dead phone? cant even look at me?" her voice was just above a whisper, and god why was her voice so perfect- so soothing- her words went down to my core, i tried to ignore it, but instead ended up focusing on how close she was to me- which wasnt helping
as i still stared at the black screen- really i was looking out the corner of my eye to her- ellie brought her hand up, i didnt know what she was doing, my breathing got heavier as her hand went to my neck, forcefully pulling me closer to her, out of suprise, i low whimper slipped out my throat
i was immediately embarrassed, i tried to stay calm, but i knew my face was bright red, and i knew she noticed the way my chest rose up and down
her hand on my throat tightened, as she looked down at me, my head was pointed to her but my eyes were still to the ground, "look at me princess" she whispered, voice deep, my eyes slowly trailed up her body, and to her eyes, my eyebrows were furred from being so turned on- but also fear.
"good.." she whispered, her grip loosened, rubbing her thunb on my jawline, her head was tilted up, as she bit her buttom lip watching me- she knew i felt small, scared- but she also knew i wanted more.
"repeat after me-" she started, i felt my eyes water from lack of blinking, i didn't want to look away from her scared of what she would do.
"last night never happened" she said with a ruff voice, pressing her lips together in a line, waiting for me to repeat, i gulped, praying silently that when i spoke no moans came out.
"l-last night.." i stuttered, stopping myself to take a breath and contain myself, "never, happened" i felt proud that no noises came out, especially after ellie praised me— "good girl"
i stared at ellie as she still held me by the throat, i hummed a whine as her gripped went super tight on my neck- pulling me even closer to her, leaving about an inch in between us
ellie leaned in to my ear, her hot breath tickled, "i should probably get going" she whispered so quietly, but it was right in my ear drum that i heard every edge and crisp of her sentance
ellie slowly pulled away, a lopsided smirk on her face, knowing what she had just caused, as she let go of my neck, and walked to my door, not even glancing over her shoulder as she left, leaving me completely frozen- leaving me high and dry.
i had been trying my best to avoid ellie, it had been about 3 weeks since everything happened, and i still think about it every night.
it was super hard avoiding her, considering she was always in my dorm, so ive been camping out inside my friends dorm, her name was adriana, we've been close friends for awhile now and so ive just been sleeping over basically every night.
anytime i caught a glimpse of ellie, i prayed she didnt see me, and ran the other way
we also had a class together, history, and ive been skipping it everyday, but i needed to go to it monday, we had a test that day and i couldnt miss it, ive been trying to mentally prepare myself, its friday so i still had a few days
i layed next to adriana, in her bed, the walking dead playing in the background, when i got a call from dina
i picked up, obviously, "hey"
"hey aimeeeee" she stretched out my name, high pitched voice, i immediately knew she was gonna ask something
"oh god, what do you want?"
"well, its just, i know you said you aren't avoiding me, but it really feels like you are, i mean you've been glued to adriana for weeks! i never see you"
"just get the point please" i sighed
"can you come with me to a movie night at davies? its just gonna be the gang! and you can pick a movie, even if we have to pay for it, just pleaseeeee, i miss you so much, we all do!"
davey was jesses close friend, and 'the gang' usually meant, dina, jesse, me... and ellie.
i sighed, i felt super bad, guilty, i cant tell dina why i was being weird, so she assumed it was her.
"is-" i started, but stopped myself, should i ask? i hope she doesnt think anything of it, but i need to make sure so im prepared
"is?" dina questioned, pushing me to continue, "is ellie gonna be there?"
"uhh, yeah, i said the gang, did i not?" dina questioned herself
"yeah.. no, you did.."
"is there something going up with you two?"
"what? no! i just, wanted to make sure who was gonna be there! and- can i bring adri?" i asked, trying to change the subject
"yeah, of course, are you gonna come here to get ready or should i meet you at my car?"
"i have everything i need here, just meet at the car, what time?" i asked, everything poured out of my lips, i couldnt back down now
"is an hour good?"
"yeah, thats good"
"okay! thanks, i love you! see you soon!"
dinas bright voice cheered, and hung up before i could back down
i sighed, tossing my phone on the bed, looking over to adri, "so why are you avoiding dina? you ever gonna tell me?" she asked, "im not avoiding her! i just- shut up, and get ready"
"okay, weirdo, dont even ask me if i wanna go just force me" she mumbled jokingly, turning off the TV.
i know it was just a movie night, but i was silently stressing over what to wear. i had just gotten done with my light makeup and straightened hair, and was shuffling through my bag
i had already changed into a thin laced black thong..
"are you good?" adri asked, noticing my stress, "im fine" i said in a stern voice, "you sure?" she asked, i didnt answer, obviously i wasnt doing fine but she was annoying me by asking, "you know if you dont wanna go that badly, you dont have to" she said, concern laced her voice
"i would be a shit friend if i canceled! im fine!"
i yelled, quickly after, sighing, realizing i was being a shit friend from bursting out like that when she literally did nothing wrong, "im sorry adri, im just really stressed right now" i said quietly
"its okay, what are you stressed from?" she asked gently, "what should i wear?" i asked shyly, adri let out a small laugh, "wear? why are you worried about that, its just the gang, we're only watching movies in the dark, nobodies gonna see"
i looked up from the ground to her face with a 'seriously?' look displayed, "sorry, just uh, just wear something comfy and cozy, like pajama pants and any top, or pajama shorts and a hoodie, im gonna wear this" she said, looking down at her outfit, she wore leggings and a pink tied die shirt, adri had black leggings and a floral tanktop on, she was wearing the most basic outfit ever, but she looked so good. she was so effortlessly pretty. i bet ellies gonna want her over me.
i decided on black short shorts, they had hellokitty on the side with pink ties, i chose them because they're comfy.. definitely not because you can see my ass whenever i walk.. and i just wore a pink nike hoodie, adri helped me pick the outfit
i brushed my teeth, sprayed extra prefume and triple checked myself in the mirror, before we were out the door
we found dinas car in the parking lot, her headlights were on and in the same spot as always
once we got to the car, i realized ellie wasnt there, i smiled, relived, but quickly became concerned
"hey, wheres ellie?" i asked as dina started driving, "jeez, what's actually up with you guys" jesse laughed from the passenger seat, "i know thats what i was saying" dina mumbled
"what are both of you talking about? nothings changed, i just wanted to know if she was gonna be there, its not that deep" i said annoyed
"wheres aime? have you seen aime?" dina mocked in a lower pitch voice, "wheres ellie? is ellie gonna be there?" jesse mocked in a higher pitched voice
"you two are constantly asking about one another, you never did that before, and now you basically moved to adriannas dorm, and ellie said you dont show up for history? the only class you two share. somethings up, i mean i thought you were avoiding me, but now im starting to think youre avoiding her" dina explained
"im not avoiding her! i dont care about her enough to do that, im not avoiding anyone, i just, enjoy sleeping over adri's and the change of scenery was nice" i tried my best to come up with a lie, but they hummed "mhmm" clearly not believing it
"ugh, whatever, are you even gonna answer my question?"
"you arent answering ours truthfully! but what was your question?" dina peaked over her shoulder for a moment
i bit my lip, of course i have to repeat it. "where is she"
"where is who?" dina smirked, "you know who" i mumbled, "whats it to you anyway? if you dont care enough to avoid her why do you care enough to constantly ask about her?"
"just wanna know if this is gonna be a fun night, or a really annoying one!" i exclaimed, dina sighed, "shes already at davies"
"fuck" i whisper-mumbled, i didnt mean to say it out loud, but it slipped out, i felt everyone turn to look at me, "what?" i said annoyed, causing everyone to look away
i just wanna be home- well adrianas dorm, not home
the rest the ride was silent with light music playing in the back, "we're here"dina said, pulling into the driveway
jesse knocked at the door, a few seconds later, davey opened up, we all greeted him and he greeted us with quick hugs
"ellies already in the living room" davey said, pointing his thumb behind him, he lead us to the living room, me and adri were the last people to follow in line, there were two couches, dina, jesse, and davey sat at the big one.. leaving one more seat open, and ellie sat at the small one that only had one seat on that, leaving me and adri to look at eachother
ellie seemed to not pay any attention, smoking a blunt and scrolling on her phone, her legs spread, she wore a grey wife beater, and dark navy blue pajama plants, her boxers poking out.. and god did she look hot
"aime, can i please sit next to davey?" adri whispered with puppy eyes, "i mean, you said nothing was up with you and ellie, its not that bad" she added, i sighed, i literally have been such an ass lately, and have been sleeping over her dorm every single day, and she had a crush on davey, i couldnt just tell her no
"yeah its fine, i dont really care" i said with a nod, "oh, are you sure?" she asked "go ahead, im sure" i nodded, with a small smile she jumped up a little bit in excitement, joining on the big couch with davey
i suddenly felt cold, wishing i wore sweatpants, i grabbed blanket and sat down next to ellie
the room was filled with everyone talking and laughing, catching up, and trying to figure out what to watch, while me and ellie were silent, i was silent because i didnt really wanna be here, and was uncomfortable, ellie was silent since she wasnt paying attention, she didnt even notice me sit down next to her
i peaked over at her phone, i felt myself form a frown at the sight of her on text messages, texting some girl named 'cat' i didnt have time to read everything, but one of the texts cat said was, "i miss u" and "when can u come over again baby" but i quickly compose myself with a deep breath and spreading the blanket around my legs, theres nothing to be sad about. it was a hudge drunken mistake.
but they way ellie said i was hers? the way she acted during it? the marks i still had from her?
i guess the sigh caught ellies attention, i saw in the corner of my eye, her peak up to me slightly, looking back at her phone, but very quickly after looking back up to me, now realizing who sat next to her, hell she's probably only seen me once or twice within these 3 weeks, and thats just me walking past her in halls, but here i was sitting down inches away from her
i didnt realize when i sat down, but i actually sat pretty close to her, also considering she manspreading, our legs almost touched.
"oh shit" ellie laughed, eyes pouring to my skull as i stared straight ahead at the TV, "i thought you died"
it was silent between me and her for a moment, "whats the matter? cant speak to me anymore princess?" ellies hand went to tuck hair behind my ear, but i got up, walking out, "aime" dina called, "hm?" i turned around, "where you going?"
"the bathroom" i replied, quickly exiting. i made my way to davies bathroom, i went to splash water on my face but remembered i had makeup on, so i just double checked how i looked in the mirror and took a few deep breaths
"hey aimees, is the return of the living dead alright for our first movie?" davey asked, i noticed his arm around adrianas shoulders, i made a mental note to fuck with her about that later, "yeah of course, i love 80s horror" i nodded
i made my way to the couch ellie was at, she was still smoking her blunt, legs still open wide, but her eyes were on me, on my theighs, and she jad the blanket i brought over on her
"seriously? that was my blanket" i mumbled sitting down, making sure to sit far this time, "what, you cant share?" she smirked, her right hand was also drapped over the back of the couch, so now her arm was around me.
"c'mon, come closer" ellie said, lifting the blanket, i was really cold. i had goosebumps. so i sighed and scooted closer, but i accidentally scooted too close, our legs were touching, and it was too late to move back, and ellie spreaded out the blanket, as it rested on both our laps
"i love the shorts you're wearing, i can see your ass perfectly, i know you did that on purpose" she whispered, i felt myself blush, trying to get comfortable and ignore her as the movie started
"stop being so tense, just relax and get comfy, here" ellie whispered, passing the blunt, i looked up to her before taking it, taking deep puffs, ellies arm fell from the back of the couch to my shoulders, wrapping around me and pulling me closer, i scrunched my brows, pushing her hand off me, "what are you doing?" i whispered, she shrugged, "its comfy" she brought her hand back around my shoulder, pulling me even closer so that my back was half on her chest
i only stayed there because the room was too dark and everyone was invested in the movie so they didnt know
we were about 20 minutes into the movie when one of the girls decided to get completely nude, showing off her tits and pussy
ellies hand moved off of my shoulder, i was confused of why she took it off but then her hand went under the blanket and gripped my thigh.
i decided to just ignore it, not giving in, ignoring the wetness that grew
only a few minutes past when i felt her move her hand higher up and more on my inner thigh.
i turned to her and whispered, "what are you doing ellie?"
ellie smirked, "you know what im doing princess" she whispered back, i looked back to everyone else, theyre eyes were glued to the screen, exepct for jesse as he seemed to be falling asleep on dina
"theyre not gonna see, just keep it down, can you do that for me?" ellie whispered to my ear, fuck, i cant say no
ellie didnt wait for a response, she started pressing kisses underneath my ear, rubbing her thumb on my warm thigh, "fuck" she grunted in my ear lowly, i felt myself soaking
ellies hand trailed up more, her hand went under my loose shorts and her fingertips brushed against my slit every so slightly.
i let out a heavy but quiet breath, "shit, you're already soaking, i didnt even do anything, you want me that bad?" she whispered, i pressed my thighs together to get any type of friction
"all you have to do is ask baby" her mouth was right at my ear, i turned to her looking up, "mm'pleasee ellie, i need you so bad" i moaned in a whisper- i was thankful that the TV was turned up super high and everyone practically forgot me and ellie were even here
"yeah? its okay baby, i got you, just be quiet, can you do that?" her voice made me 10x more turned on. "mhm" i nodded
ellie rubbed her middle finger up my pussy until it reached my clothed clit and rubbed in circles, i bit my tongue to stop noises as my breathing got heavy
"you're doing so good" ellie whispered, pressing more kisses to my neck, "m' need more ellie.. please" i whimpered quietly, "fuck, i love it when you say my name" ellies voice was higher pitched, she was obviously very turned on too, which made me even more turned on, she pulled my thong to the side, collecting all the slick in her fingers letting out a grunt
"ready princess? no noises okay?" ellie whispered, i nodded, biting my lip as her finger slid into me, i gripped onto ellies sweatpants under the blanket
"good girl" ellie whimpered, as she started to pump her finger in and out, i started to move my hips slightly, trying to get more, ellie added another finger, pumping faster, i felt myself growing closer- when ellie pulled out, i breathed out heavily at the loss, turning to her with a confused look, ellie moved my panties back to cover my slick, brought her hand out, and sucked on her two fingers that were covered, i heard her let out a grunt as she sucked
once she licked her fingers clean, she pulled out, her lips were plumped, face was pink, and she looked so goddamn hot, "lets get a room" she whispered, "what? are you crazy? theyre gonna see us both gone"
ellie slowly got up and lightly stepped to the hallway, nobody noticed, and she made hand movements for me to follow, i sneaked around and made it to her, she grabbed my hand in hers and dragged me to the spare bedroom davey had, she pushed me against the door aggressively as she connected our lips, i moaned as i tasted myself in her mouth, ellie grabbed my theighs as i jumped onto her, my legs wrapping around her waist
i moved my hips, grinding against ellies lower abdomen, "so goddamn needy" ellie grunted in between our kisses, "i need you ellie" i moaned
we continued are very sloppy kisses, i could feel drool dripping onto my chin as her tongue was down my throat, as she brought me to the bed, her hands squeezing my ass in the process, dropping me down onto the bed i watched as she untied her pants and dropped them down, i could cum from just that.
ellie crawled back over me, shoving off my shorts her hands gripping my neck as she pressed sloppy kisses over the marks she left last time
ellie pulled me to sit up, as she took off my hoodie, "no bra?" she laughed, before darkening the previous hickies she made
ellies hand began to rub my clothed clit again, i was a moaning mess. something about her.
ellie was in between my legs as my legs wrapped back around her waist as she rubbed me and we kissed
once i started grinding onto her, she moved her hands to grip my hips helping me grind her
i grinded harder as i heard a whimper fall from ellies mouth, i felt her grinding with me too
our foreheads were rested agaisnt eachother as we both grinded fast, my nails digging into ellies back, our breaths both heavy
ellie stopped, she lifted her left leg over my right, and bent my left leg to her chest, moving my panties over and started grinding our clits together, she still had her boxers on, but it still felt like i was in heaven, and judging by her whimpers, she felt that way too.
she gripped onto my breats, grinding harder into my pussy, "fuck, feels' so good" she had her eyebrows scrunched and her voice was high pitched, i never thought i'd see this side of her, compared to the last time we fucked, she was being so much different
i threw my head back and started arch my back, "ellie!" i repeatedly moaned, "m' gonna cum ellie"
"fuck! aime, i fucking love.." ellie moaned, i moaned with my eyes rolling back as i came undone, ellie whimpered as she also came undone also, "..you" she breathed, finishing her sentance, still grinding a bit, and it wasnt till i opened up my eyes and saw her face when i realized what she had just said.
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aimes diary!!
dont fucking open!
its the next friday, i moved back into my dorm, everythings kinda the same, ellie and i still ‘hated eachother’ we still bickered and she still made me irritated any chance she got
we also hooked up tuesday, she slept over my dorm (in dinas bed) like how she always does, but when dina fell asleep, she fucked me in the bathroom
i cant get enough of her, sex with her is the best sex i’ve ever had in my whole entire life. ive also only really had plain ass sex untill her. she knows what i like, she knew what i liked before i even knew it.
i hope us sneaking around continues, im starting to think i dont actually hate her.. i mean, yeah, ive come to the conclusion shes hot as fuck snd could do anything to me and i’d probably get wet as she does it- but she still pisses me off. she gets on my nerves. but also, i like her getting on my nerves because when we fuck, its like we’re getting rid of all that stress, and shes been flirting a lot lately. she gets me so flustered, its embarrassing
i think she’s supposed to come ove
HOLY FUCK!! ELLIES HE
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“what are you writing in your- is that a fucking diary?” ellie said as she came in the door, dina following behind, “no? im not 10! what are you doing here?” i shot back, knowing damn well it is a diary, “so if it isnt a diary, let me see it”
“what? no!”
“if its not a diary, then why cant i?”
“because i write private shit, asshole” i said, okay maybe i do hate her, i shut my book and opened my bedside tables cabinet, tossing it in, “its definitely a diary” ellie whispered to dina
“okay guys, chill out it hasnt even been one minute since you two are in the same room and you’re already fighting”
“cause shes being a bitch”
i answered, “as always” i added
dina sighed as we continued arguing, “shut up, you like when im a bitch to you and you know it” ellie said sitting down onto dinas bed next to her
“why the fuck would i?” i definitely do like it but i would never admit
“because you like the attention from me” yes, i definitely do
“yeah, sure” i mumbled
“yo, aimees, you’re going to a party with us, bring adri” dina said, going over to her desk to do her makeup
“i dont even get to say yes or no?” i asked
“nope, get ready!” dina smiled
“and be quick, you always take 20 hours for no reason” ellie added, i looked over to her and she was on her phone, she seemed to be texting someone, i wonder if she was texting cat..
“stop staring and move your ass” ellie deadpanned, “what? fuck off, i was not staring” i said, i definitely was, and got up to get ready
i didnt do much makeup, just my eyes and some nose contour since ellie said i was taking forever (even though dina was still getting ready too)
“what should i wear?” i asked after i did my hair, i looked to dina for an answer but ellie replied, “why do you always have to ask, who are you trying to impress? its a damn college party, the same people are there every time”
“fuck you, i wasnt even talking to you” i flipped her off, looking to dina, “hmm, you got that new dress, right?” she asked nicely
“oh yeah, but you know how they didnt have dressing rooms?” i asked, she gave a nod, “yeah when you were in class i tried it on, it was cute but super tight at the top and really showy, i might return it”
“no! you cant return it, you got it on sale! go try it on for me” dina shooed
i tried on the dress, it was a black silk dress, the top had lace and it was sleeveless, and the back was opened so i couldnt wear a bra with it
i got changed, for the first time i felt super insecure changing with ellie watching me..
“okay, should i wear it?”
“yes, it’s perfect, now lets get adriana and leave” ellie said getting up, before i could respond, she shoved me out the dorm and we were on our way.
just like how we were a month ago, we were on opposite sides of the room, her manspreading on the couch selling drugs, me and adri on the dance floor having fun
it had been about an hour and a half since we had gotten here, i kept on stealing glances at ellie, every single time, she was already looking at me
i was dancing, i wasnt that drunk, only a few drinks since i didnt wanna deal with a hangover tomorrow, when i glanced behind me and saw ellie biting her lip watching my ass, she didnt notice i saw her, so i started shaking my ass to the beat for her, once the song ended, i saw davey making his way to adri, “hey adri,” he smiled, “hey aime, do you care if i steal adri from you a few songs?” he asked shyly, “go ahead” i laughed, “you gonna be okay aimees?” adri asked, “yeah in gonna go to the bathroom, have fun, wear a condom” i said before walking away
i purposely walked past ellie, making eye contact with her, before going to the bathroom
i waited until she opened the door, finding me waiting infront
i went to speak but she cut me off with her lips, pushing me against the sink, gripping my hips at my dress, “been teasing me all night” ellie hummed in between our kiss, once i started grinding onto her, my dress started riding up to my hips, she gripped at my upper thighs, her fingertips right at my lips, “fuck- ellie, i cant stop thinking about you” i breathed, “poor baby, i havent touched you in days” ellie whispered, kissing my cheek, rubbing circles to my theigh
“how are you always this wet when we barley done anything?” she whispered, a banging knock came to the door, “hurry up im literally gonna piss myself!” a girl yelled, “fuck off! im busy” ellie yelled, bringing her lips to mine, the girl kept on knocking but we ignored her
ellie pulled my dress down, sucking her lips to my nipples, teasting them in between her fingers, ellie pulled the dress up more, in scrunched in the middle of my body, she bent over a bit, and spit down to my pussy, she definitely didnt need to, i was already soaking, but god how did she make spitting hot?
ellie rubbed her spit along my slit, before she pressed both her fingers in, i gripped onto her hair with my right hand, my left hand being gripped to the sink, i pulled ellie down to kiss me as she moved her fingers in me painfully slow
“ellie.. please” i begged, and begged, until, she started actually moving, her fingers slammed in and out, as i grinded my hips, onto her, she had her mouth to my boobs sucking on them as she fingered me
“fuck, ellie- im gonna-” i whimpered, she moved off my tits to speak, “not till i say so princess”
i focused on not cumming, but she made it near impossible as she moved her other hand, rubbing my clit it circles, i mumbled her name and begs over and over, “just a little longer, do it for me” she grunted, before she pushed me closer to her, my pussy hanging off the edge, and she got on her knees and mumbled a quick now, bringing her opened mouth to my pussy pulling her fingers out, with my tighten stomach, i let go and felt myself release into her mouth, i watched as she sucked on all the cum that fell into her mouth, before bringing her tongue up to lick me clean, sucking on her fingers too
i was left panting as she pulled back up my underwear, and fixed my dress to cover me again, pulling me down off the sink
she pulled my hips in and started kissing me so more, she always kissed me after she had a taste of me, “you’re my favorite dessert babe, you taste so fucking good” she said in a low voice pulling away
SHE CALLED ME BABE!!!
i blushed, looking down, we stood there for a few moment, until the sound of banging came again, a girl humming for ‘whoevers in there to get out’
“we should probably go” ellie whispered, moving away from me to the door, but i grabbed her hand and turned her around, “wait ellie?”
“yea?” she asked, “uhm..”
“what is it?” she came close to me, her hand on my jaw, “i.. what are we doing?” i asked looking up to her
“what do you mean?” she asked, “you know what i mean” i shook my head, but she just stared confused, i sighed, “i mean, what are we? what does us sneaking around fucking mean? are we just.. fuck buddies? or..”
“oh..”
i looked up to her, i really dont wanna be just that
“i dont wanna make things weird between us, but, as much as you get on my nerves, i.. actually..” i started
i cant believe im admitting this..
“i actually, really.. really like you, and you’re like really fucking hot- and you’re super cool, and way out of my league, and you remember small things about me, actually i think you know me better then i know myself and you definitely have fucked me the best anyone else ever has, and i dont even bat an eye at the people i used to find hot, i only have eyes for you- and i know you probably dont want me to bring it up but the thing you said last friday- i know that was like in the heat of the moment and you dont actually- but that ma-”
ellie cut off my confession and whole thought processes as she shoved her lips to my face
but this kiss was different.
the other ones was just full of anger, lust, jealousy
this one was full of something i dont know. it wasnt agressive, it wasnt rushed, it wasnt sloppy, it was passionate, but slow, very sweet
ellie slowly pulled away resting her forehead agianst mine, hands on my hips, both our mouths were slightly opened, both our faces were flushes read, and both our hearts were beating crazy fast
“i meant it.. i didn’t mean to say it.. but all the time that ive been an asshole to you, ive liked you, everything i say i hate about you, is what i love the most.. you are the most perfect girl ever, and i’ve never felt that strongly towards anyone, and.. i was scared.. and i didnt know how to react, so i pushed my feelings away, and started being a bitch, i dont really know why, i guess just cause that way if i entered a room, you knew i was there, and that way you never would have guessed i liked you, cause if we were friends this whole time i would have been so obvious, plus i liked your attention, and i was also always jealous like no matter what, if i saw you walk down the hall with anyone, i wanted to punch them till they passed out, if i walked into you and dina in the same bed i would always shove you off cause i didnt want you near another person, when i found out you were sleeping over adriana’s all those days, god i was pissed- fuck, im so embarrassing i dont know why im telling you all this, i only had 2 beers- but im sorry ive been such a dick all these years..
i want you to be mine, i need you to be mine, i love so much you aime”
#ellie williams#ellie williams smut#ellie williams tlou#ellie williams tlou2#ellie williams x female reader#ellie williams x oc#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams x reader smut#ellie williams x you#the last of us
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end of the year fic asks! give us a behind-the-scenes look at "for want (for nothing)"; why did you include a scene, when and where did you figure out that one tricky sentence, which part wrote itself, things like that!
thats a fucking thing? well lucky for YOU i LOVE talking about my own writing and that fic DEFINITELY has quite a few "bts" things i could talk about lmao
first thing to start off with is that i actually rewatched and studied that corruption scene in canon quite a bit while i wrote this. i needed the refresher and Man did i realize i forgotten a bunch of major plot points (most of which werent actually relevant to the fic) lol. but anyways the structure of my fic is pretty strongly based on its canon counterpart and theres a lot of little things i took inspiration from and just injected more flavor to it. like kai uses lightning a lot??? which make sense production wise bc thats like. probably easiest element to show off and make it look cool. so yay! excuse to use my jay bias and favor using his powers lol
in general that fic was a means for me to write a character study for kais character which i love a lot. he is my second fav blorbo. i have a huge weakness for older siblings in media. and kais shift in character is so interesting even if it was never done with conscious intention. ninjago Definitely uses every single one of their characters as pawns to advance the plot of whatever rather than you know. treating them like characters who are people. so theyre inconsistent with or contradicting themselves. characters are used however the writers seem fit with the situation at hand. i think the corruption scene is a fair example of it. kai was over it right? the whole green ninja thing? and yet. anyways my fic was an attempt at reframing and adding context and depth to kais character bc man did think about these fucking legos a lot for some goddamn reason when its a bad show!!! maybe some of yall will hate me for saying it. but man. ninjago sucks more often or not. not Entirely BUT A LOT OF IT IS NOT OF THE HIGHEST QUALITY.
and that sorta gives me an awkward segue into lloyd. haha. you know the line "A brat who had everything handed to him by destiny. It wasn’t because he deserved it. It was simply because he was born special."? well. it makes sense in the context of the fic that kai feels this way bc thats the natural conclusion the fic flowed into. But Also. i wont lie. that is my own genuine thoughts about lloyds development as a character. lloyds writing fucking BLOOOOOWSSS. and none of it is his fault. its the writers fault. but MAN its the LAZIEST DESTINED HERO/LEADERSHIP CHARACTER ARC I EVER SEEN. IT COULDVE BEEN INTERESTING. but no it was too simple too forced too Cheap. too shallow. its like they picked his little minifig and decided he Must be the prophesied hero no matter what :) and they forced his little lego feets into the studs of Destiny above everyone else and made it happen in the easiest way possible. by simply declaring it. forcing him into the role unnaturally. and because hes the Chosen One that means hes very very very important right? so NATURALLY hes the leader also! HELLO HES A FUCKING BABY??? NO SENIORITY?? any leadership skills he gained is because he was Forced to develop them, not because hes a natural leader. i could talk shit about his treatment all day but all in all i hate the flagrant favoritism the show gives lloyd when its meant to be a show with a team dynamic. i dont hate lloyd but i sure do hate the way his character "developed". this fucking baby was fed too many rare candies and some evolutionary stone on top of it. hes not the best he could be as a character because none of it naturally happened. no care put into developing his characters. i could accept lloyd being the green ninja or being a leader. if it were written well at least. ANYWAYS. kai is a subtle projection of me. or closer, a messenger. he was corrupted by me in way considering i was the writer lol. but it works because theres a bit of truth in there isnt there?
also that fic also happen bc i wanted to writer fun elemental power stuff along with fucked corruption. i love fantasy power things. and i LOVE rancid rotting feelings
#i dont think you couldve anticipated such an answer from me but lol i hope this doesnt make anyone too mad#i hope it gives interesting insight into that fic lol#asks#anonymous#ninjago talk
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lmao i am highkey stressed.
everything has happened all at once over the past couple of days.
two days ago: my dad suffered several mini strokes because someone he was doing work for refused to be patient, continued to play the pain olympics, and kept making threats despite him being obviously very ill to the point of being blind and on a walking stick (yes, i still think he's the most annoying person in the world, but y'know... that lady is going to hell)
the day after, my dog decides to be the biggest idiot known to man, and get into a fight with the other dog. who is bigger and older than her.
she now has two holes in her leg. superficial, but hey, holes. not good. i dont think he meant to bite her hence it being shallow and not at all worrying to the vets.
then, to make matters worse, because i had to work, i had to leave her in the kitchen separate from him because y'know. holes.
this actual idiot somehow in her attempt to get out of the kitchen while i was at work, ripped her whole goddamn dew claw off. like it is completely gone.
two vet trips in two days ladies and gents!!
i am poor and stressed.
not to mention, because of the strokes my dad has suffered, the hospital are saying they'll need to do a home visit before they can release him, to make sure the house is safe for him. it's not. it's absolutely not. it's not even remotely fit to house someone in need of that kind of support and i'm not even remotely suitable to PROVIDE the support he needs. First of all: it's a HOUSE. it has two storeys, it has stairs and not enough room on those stairs to install a stairlift.
second: yeah i cant provide that care, i have a job.
so if they try and put him into somewhere else: i wont be able to afford this house. and i cant afford any other house either. or any other flat, or a studio appartment, i was looking last night
how the fuck can you charge someone £800 per month for a SINGLE room and actually sleep at night, like what kind of person do you have to be to charge that much for so little?
An i wouldnt be able to take the dogs with me. idk wtf im gonna do! guess i might wind up homeless.
awesome.
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My gastroparesis driving me up a wall. And by that i mean ive been barely eating for over a week now and my symptoms still arent improving and im really not havin a great time im exhausted my bodys in pain trying to get me to Rest but i gotta work full time and my abdomen absolutely hurts but painkillers slow digestion even More so ive been laying down on heatpad as much as possible and i really dont wanna go back to an All Liquid diet (but even if i did im at the nausea and vomiting point of a gastroparesis flare which means even liquid only im likely to throw up either way) and like. I just wanna comfort eat bread cause i feel miserable exhausted in pain and it would be a small joy. But bread is absolutely not something i can eat during a flare. I can only eat it when doing good if i take benedryl. Im so angry and tired and id like to sleep for days. And i gotta still Make myself eat chips and protein shakes even tho i got nausea cause my gi meds dont work unless i eat Something. Even if i got nausea and tons of pain wooh
Anyway im getting flack from family for being so tired the last week and i love em and all but its awful feeling guilty for not calling Enough when its like goddamn eating (something humans gotta do at least once a day) hurts phenomenally and i barely can but i obviously desire to like any human then i eat and Ouch my body didnt fucking like that and punished me for it and im so mad. I feel awful and yeah im mad i dont got energy to hide how much pain im in and chat false enthusiastically for 20 minutes after already doing it all thru work. I had 1 teaspoon of peanut butter today and my remaining options are soup broth (but it had beans cooked in it and my body cant take fiber today so idk if its worth the risk of any accidental beans) and salad (which is of course raw vegetables fiber very hard on stomach rn so i can probably just eat a handful size portion and hopefully ill chew enough its mush and my body will tolerate it). And a protein shake (but its got fiber and is made of chickpeas i think for the protein so idk if my body is tolerating it or not im just drinking it so i dont have no calories). I had chips yesterday but i think my body considered it too solid or large to digest idk cause im eveb worse today. I also had toast yesterday cause i was so angry and hungry and wanted comfort food. So of course that messed me up. Which means i should take more benedryl. But then i wont just be hungry and pain tired, ill also be drug tired. And im so sick of being miserablr all day at work just to pass out the second its over cause allergy meds knocked me out then ive lost all day. But without allergy meds i can eat hardly anything i like. I mean i cant eat rn but like. Right before this fuckjng flare and hopefully once its over. Im just sick of it. Im tired and when i go to therapy next week shell probs ask oh what do you do to stress relief and its like... i get it but are u fucking kidding me. Im knocked unconcious from benedryl. And tired anyway cayse no food, and pain nonstop from gi tract. So im barely doing anything. I cant really get outta bed cause i need the 4 sq feet heatpad or ill be in agony over my abdomen. Dont have tv in room so i can use phone i guess. So tired i can barely keep eyes open or think so im not writing reading or watching shows on phone. I can idk listen to a reaction or lets play since if i fall asleep and wake up i dont need to follow a plot. But like im not in a state to be going for a fucking walk (i wish! I wanna dance and walk but my abdomen and back feel awful and im so tired im dizzy when i stand) or hang out w friend, which im sure idk shed prefer to hear some productive ass activity like god im just trying to keep myself employed and out of the ER until the flare rights itself. Please
And i know jts not that bad. Ive been worse. I couldnt eat solid food for 6 months once. I was in the ER weekly it was so bad i blocked most of it outta memory. This is only a couple weeks. And i havent thrown up much! I was throwing up 5 times daily back then. And i have had chips and peanut butter! I recognizr thats nice, i got some solid food and held it down! I know my gastroparesis is EONS LESS severe than it was when it started.
Its just like. It still sucks barely eating for weeks and any eating hurting immensely and nonstop nausea for days and pain not lowering. Like a normal healthy person might snap from anger if they try to go 20 hours without eating, or crash and need to eat to keep going, or just be run down as fuck and justifiable if they barely do anything that day. But i go days like that and im expected to just appear fine and live life normally like im not worn down af and just desperate to not feel nausea and pain and i just really wanna eat again. Normally.
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gonna just ramble my thoughts for a bit
i was talking about how ive been asked to be evaluated for bpd in the past and got told by the doctor that i “dont want that stigma” and shut down before i could decide for myself if its worth it, and the person i was telling this to said they think i dont have it and like.
im kind of mad.
because im still getting to know this person and the more i think on it the more i know i at least have things that mimic the symptoms
and being told “i can tell you dont have it” feels like its diminishing the fact that i worry i do
and dont get me wrong i know the symptoms can be caused by other things but i would still like to know
and like the reason im thinking this is just… dirk strider from homestuck. ive been seeing people say hes textbook DID and i GET IT, i do, but i also really see bpd in him more. and i also see myself in him, though i dont have DID
i see his splinters and lil hal specifically as like. i can see how hal would be an alter, but lets not focus on that. hal is the epitome of a version of dirks self that he gets aggravated with, probably even hates because it reminds him of who he used to be, and to some extent whi he currently is.
if you look at the symptoms of bpd on mayo clinic, i could argue for all of them in dirk - and myself
and like. ive fucked up so many relationships because a flip switches in my head and im convinced they hate me or dont care, and people dont see that BECAUSE I FUCKING HIDE IT
I HID MY AUTISM FROM MYSELF AND OTHERS FOR 19 YEARS. MY PSYCHOSIS FOR 27. whos to say i havent been hiding bpd from people?
i already have dependent personality disorder but if you have one personality disorder youre more likely to have more
the reason people dont believe my struggles is i mask automatically and suffer inside because i dont know how to talk about how im suffering or even explain whats a mask and whats not
i keep going back to the time i was told “youre incapable of being mean” and the visceral reaction of wrongness i felt because i shut myself down so fucking much because the idea of upsetting others is so goddamn terrifying yet until i was 19 i would purposely make lists in my head of actual ways to ruin my friendships of i wanted to. like i would make full lists. just cataloguing all their insecurities so i could weaponize them. i never did because when i admitted to doing this when i felt safe i was told that was a dick move. and theyre right but it still fucking hurt because i dont do it on purpose. i dont.
im currently losing two of my best friends because my brain wont let me fucking talk to them because im simultaneously afraid theyre mad, and mad at them myself, and im sabotaging myself by not talking to them at all
i literally swing from thinking im worthless to thinking im a literal celestial being. i dissociate all the god damn time. im so fucking angry every second of my life
i would go into more detail about other symptoms but im making myself sad.
i dont care about the stigma i want validation for these symptoms and acknowledgement that i am extremely mentally ill at times and i just
i know they meant well but being told im not bpd by a newer friend who im still opening up to is frustrating. youre not my doctor, youre not me. how would you know? my doctor doesnt even know all my experiences because i dont know how to talk about them
im not sure if its the 4am talking or the stress from the roommate situation but like im thinking about bpd again. i think its worth looking into
anyway i cant believe im turning into a dirk kinnie but im not complaining
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Inky you introduce me to new franchises every day. Never played a silent hill game, never watched any of the movies, but since you mentioned it.. I might as well right? Got to see if my brain can also make this horror game horny 🤝
OKAY OKAY OKAY LEMME JUST
so, okay, so while silent hill 2 is my favourite by far, you cannot lewd james sunderland. he's truly a depressy stressy. he's someone you wanna get wine drunk with except he's quit drinking. dont fuck him please, he'll feel guilty for thinking about mary during it
Now, please fuck pyramid head and the nurses. Pyramid head is so fucking sexual, mans WONT STOP humping shit in EVERY GODDAMN CUTSCENE. the second time you see him, HE'S MOANING and theres this wet fucking pull out sound when he throws a mannequin to the side. please... please, I KNOW he symbolizes James' guilt but goddamn, mister guilt can have this ass.
With the nurses? I am no better than a pervert. Boobies. Also there's something about the way they walk? Idk I just wanna write a noncon scene with a nurse finding a "patient".
OKAY, HENRY TOWNSEND. I like silent hill 4 so much, and henry is a quiet withdrawn lad. I know its meant to be that you're feeling more alone in the game but it just makes me think of Henry as a withdrawn quiet lad. Who has a fucking peephole in on his goddamn neighbour. I KNOW, its meant to check on her because YOU KNOW THERES WEIRD SHIT GOING ON, but i like to think about henry using that to justify it, being a nasty voyeur. Silent hill 4 has SO MANY MOMENTS where its just... fucking nasty.
SPEAKING OFF, THE BIG BAD OF SILENT HILL 4!
Walter Sullivan. He did kill two kids but dw he also killed 19 adults, so its not a freddy kreuger thing. ALSO HE JUST HAPPENED TO BE EXACTLY HOW I IMAGINED EDEN, MINUS THE BLOND HAIR.
He thinks a room is his mother because he was abandoned in it, he's got some UTTER mommy issues.
NOW HARRY MASON
So, Silent Hill 1 and Shattered Memory Icon. He's very polygonal in the first game but he's... Yeah, in Shattered Memories, he can have one ending where he's legit a manwhore. Like, HE'S SEEN HAVING A SEXTAPE OF HIS THREESOME. Cheating on his wife, being a whore and THE GAME CAN FULLY CALL YOU A PERVERT IN YOUR PSYCH PROFILE. This is the main reason I wanna play the game ngl. Also, during Cheryl's therapy session the therapist fully just tells you that ?? you have weird sexual views around your father no matter what?.. anyway.
Claudia and Vincent from Silent Hill 3 are fun, and you have a romantic stalker ghost thats obsessed with you called Stanley in the hospital.
Homecoming does not exist to me. Downpour is kinda fun but i dont really... end up thinking about it and Im about to play through origins.
SO PLEASE, PLEASE.
Silent Hill 2 is my favourite, its low on the jumpscares but its so high on the creepiness I WAS LEGIT JUST A BIG OLE DEER IN THE SPOTLIGHT THE ENTIRE GAME. But once youve played through it once, its downright... a comfort game? like im playing it when im taking breaks from silent hill 3. im trying to get through it in record time and im at the prison segment right now at 1 hour and 50 minutes. legit, i love it. Im on such a silent hill kick im down bad.
#ask#silent hill#please i love it#and i dont trust bloober with silent hill 2 remake#they're the idiots behind the blair witch game and the medium and like...?#their total moronic takes on mental health is probably going to impact the actual game yknow#which is about trauma#and i feel in my heart#theyre gonna mess it up#so legit just emulate the game
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2, 7, 21, 24? :]
oooh thank uuu okay im gonna do destiny b/c thats the main one we have in common w/ a large enough fandom for these to be relevant so:
2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom
okay so this is an unpopular opinion i think however imo sjur&mara are stone butch/femme & mara exclusively receives!!! i wont die on that hill but i AM correct.
also this is on the d/s side which is separate obvs but i also think they would be into, and imo mara is absolutely not a dom, goddamn that girl has the weight of the entire fucking human race on her scrawny little caffeine-fueled shoulders, i doubt she'd actually want to be in charge during sex too (at least w/ sjur), though im sure she'd pretend she was lol. brat extraordinaire.
7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?
asher... im sorry but i simply don't care about that man. only interesting to me as he is in canon which is a horribly bitchy twink who has a great wlw/mlm solidarity bond w/ eris. that post about how every dyke has a fag they are fated to be besties with? that's them. to me. everybody seems to want him to be a sad elf prince or whatever tho.
i thought abt answering cayde or crow but tbh that nathan fillion character archetype activates my fight-or-flight and the Nice-Guy-ification of crow in canon has made me hate him lol.
21. part of canon you think is overhyped
is it cheating to say cayde. im happy we'll see him again but ONLY for ikora's sake that girl deserves closure finally.
also the witness... i simply dont care. this is also bc i am a seth dickinson fan first and destiny fan second but. i Do Not Trust what they are doing with the Light & Dark saga without SD and when the Gardener and Winnower were mentioned in the seasonal cutscene i wanted to fucking bite someone.
24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse
god u already know what im going to say but god forbid women do anything. *takes mara away from everyone and puts her back on a shelf only SD can reach* i know its not unique to d2 like this happens with any morally gray female character but the stuff about mara is truly some of the most stupid.
and the worst part is it makes it way into shit like destinypedia!!! look at this fucking line from the uldren page it makes me want to kill someone:
"Despite this, Crow is more perceptive than he appears as he was able to see that Mara Sov was attempting to manipulate him just like she would when he was Uldren. As his memory wipe freed him from Mara's psychological conditioning, he sees her for what she really is and thwarts her attempts to regain control of him, and the tunneling device Mara planned to use to groom Crow further becomes infinitely more useful as one of the Young Wolf's many weapons."
tell me you havent read a single fucking lore book without telling me that jesus fucking christ. biting and killing biting and killing biting and killing. oh yeah "wanting to prove yourself to your older* sibling" is the same thing as being groomed. shut the FUCK up.
*i know they are twins. they are not treated like it.
#asks#planet4546b#thank uuu#this wont show up in the tags will it. god i hope not. if so. *lobs a grenade into the main tag and ducks for cover*#god. honestly at this point i hope sjur stays lore-only given bungie's recent penchant for massacring (sp?) every complex woman#as gwen says. disneyfication.
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Rewatching Ninjago:
(With no context other than the episode)
Rebooted episode 4–5
Ninjagos so real for understanding that yes, if everyone no longer had technology they would absolutely get into roleplay unknowingly out of boredom
Cole: watch out Nya, these steps are unstable 😄
Jay: WHY DONT YOU WATCH WHERE YOUR STEPPING—
Jay was so on edge. And for what.
Ik Lloyd was forcefully aged and its so evident in this season that he still holds that ‘childlike’ mindset which isn’t his fault and completely natural. What isn’t natural is him being forced to grow up which is sad to see.
I have an urge to draw scales jr in his lil cool bomber jacket :)
Omfg I forgot they have a whole legend with the ninja as the bad guys I remember that pissing me off sm
Nickname 1: Minnows (Darreth to his students)
The serpentines ‘lair’ is such good world building. To read this setting as a scene in a book would be incredible.
I KNEW IT WOULD BE PYTHOR
Also that's embarrassing
Being Pythor
Imagine having beef with a 14 year old
Like dude let it go. You screwed him over when he was 8 don't you think that's enough.
GIVE LLOYD A BREAK GODDAMN
Thank god Garmadons alive but Lloyd doesnt know that wtf
Oh. I guess the serpentine were kinda right about the golden master.
Thats so weird in a philosophical and prophetic sense.
Nickname 2: Airhead (Kai)
They’re already entering the digiverse? It seems a bit early in the season. Im wondering if the rest of the season will be them just surviving in the ‘game’
Kai: are you sure this wont disintegrate us or something?
Cyrus borg: hm 🤔 im not sure! Lets see 😀
Jay was so cool in the digiverse
I feel like out of all the ninja, Jay’s imagination is probably the most expansive and creative
He thinks the most ‘outside the box’ and I find that neat
Kai is such an old man
Kai: Your the one who called me an airhead!!! (directing at Jay)
Cole: uhhh, no, that was me actually.
Jay: stop being so self-conscious and jump 🙄
How about you worry about your fucking self 💀
This is so stressful literally everyone is having a bad time
LETS GO PIXAL
SAMURAI X!!! Nya is so cool.
Garmadon throwing his evil brother out the window in a nindroid costume is the best entrance ever
Lloyd repeating “I am not alone” as he's getting his golden power extracted from him is such a raw line since his whole life all he's been was ‘alone’
I fully believe all he wants is to just have his loved ones by his side peacefully.
Sweetly ironic how Zane is probably the connection and most in touch with family while he himself, being a robot and losing his father, can be seen as the most ‘family-less’.
Those few seconds where Kai couldn't believe in himself must have been so hard. The fear of being the reason they fail.
Confetti!!! Everyone celebrating!!! They defeated the overlord!!!
Lloyd: crippled in a burning self-destructive airship.
GIVE THIS BOY A BREAK
Overlord escaping from his casket: I... Am freeeee.
Ah, so that's why we still have half a season to go.
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