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doctorgerth · 2 years
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hello !!! i'm new to the blog wiggle wiggle i have yet to go through every asks but i love what i've read so far <3 would it be possible to have buggy, smoker and sanji catching their s/o staring at them from afar looking like they're /melting/ with a lovestruck look ? i don't know i just think it's so cute when you see one character looking at the others looking like they're just. melting with love. thanks ! i hope you vibe with the request haha but don't force yourself if you don't <:) -B☆
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a/n: I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS IDEA DONT WORRY!! I’m a sucker for the longing stares and actually had some HCs in mind for this already so it was perfect to be able to write something for it!! Thank you for this wonderful request and I hope it’s okay they turned into lil blurbs instead of headcanons! Oh and welcome to my blog, happy to have you!! 🥰
featuring: Buggy, Smoker, Sanji x GN!Reader
warnings: none
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CATCHING LOVESTRUCK STARE FROM S/O
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BUGGY —
Call it what you want, but Buggy’s eyes always seem to find you even in a crowd. Perhaps his eyes are always on you, ensuring your safety and presence. He’s usually the one to keep a brief stare, but this time, his eyes find yours already looking his way across the sea of people, making him stop in his tracks as he catches the look in your eyes; soft and full of tenderness. He’s amazed at your capability to make time stop, gravity seemingly nonexistent with just a look from you. How much time has passed? Are his feet even on the ground? He feels like he’s floating, swimming in your irises even from this distance, right through the countless people separating the two of you. They all seem to disappear, because you look at him like he’s the only person in this world, like he’s the only person for you. His body is buzzing, mind melting and heart thumping to beat right out of his chest because he can feel and see the love you have for him. A dizzying combination of exhilaration and terror overtakes him because he knows this is the same look he offers you when you catch him staring. All at once he knows, he’s helplessly in love with you and he can’t believe you feel the same.
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SMOKER —
Smoker has a certain intuition when it comes to you, so he knows who the pair of eyes burning into his side belong to. What he isn’t expecting upon turning around to meet your gaze is the endearing look in your eyes and dopey smile on your face, head in your hands like staring off in a day dream. That look remains for a fraction of a second, long enough to embed in his mind, a permanent mental image of your eyes reflecting an unspeakable adoration that reveals love enough for a lifetime. You’re quick to turn away in embarrassment, trying your hardest to play it cool as you occupy yourself with something else, but little do you know, Smoker is struggling just as bad to regain his composure; feeling his neck, cheeks, and the tips of his ears burning red hot from the brief exchange. How can he possibly focus on his task now that his heart is racing, mind flooded with images of you looking at him like he holds your entire world? Are you aware that you hold his? A small smile tugs at his lips, and when he looks up, not missing your side-eyed glance, he hopes you can feel him look at you with just as much devotion.
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SANJI —
Sanji is notorious for offering you longing, lovestruck stares, so being the one to catch you looking at him this time leaves him a bit disoriented. It’s nothing new for you to join Sanji in the kitchen, sitting at the table or along the counter as you watch him prepare breakfast for the crew in the early hours of the morning. What is new, is the way he can feel you staring, not at his hands as they chop at the ingredients, or the sizzling food in the pan; no, he feels your eyes on his side profile. Does he have something on his face? Looking across his shoulder to meet your stare, he feels his breath catch in his throat when he witnesses the look in your eyes, the look you don’t even try to hide. Eyes glimmering with endearment, like staring right into Sanji’s soul and loving what you see there; each twinkle of your eyes planting parts of you within him that make home so easily, as if these pieces of you were always meant to be with him. The heat in his cheeks only burns brighter when you smile, your eyes doing the same as you whisper a confession of love that’s both new and familiar, something he’ll never get used to nor get tired of hearing: “I just really love you, Sanji.”
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hithisartexists · 1 year
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this is about light pollution
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I wish I could experience the world like you did,
With a pitch-black horizon in the dead of night
but the sky is flooded with life so sordid,
Light that never beamed for our heart.
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The view upwards is blistered and bruised--
Beaten blue at the tick of midnight
But still, the moon will not be refused
So why do we try to project so much light
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The only reminder of our innocent stars
is the clock's arms, pointing to the sky
Saying look, there should be Mars!
Only for street lamps to wave goodbye
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YO CHECK OUT MY FIC
What's left of childhood
Librarymyboi
Summary:
Ratchet grew up not knowing his carrier had enemies until he had to fight one. Now he has to deal with trauma he thought was already dealt with during times of civil war. Very fun.
I have three chapters out now.
Oh and here is Opal
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I can't get her on Ao3 so she's here.
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docholligay · 1 year
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Palentine’s: Haruka and Mina, eating from each other’s plates
“So what I’m saying is,” Mina stuffed her mouth full, “I think we should broaden our borders and horizons and all that.” 
“So, like, go to America?” Haruka thought for a moment, and then smiled as she picked up her fork, “I mean, I like America. If there’s whatever the hell they call senshi over there, why not?” 
Mina shook her head. ‘I don’t know if there is, anywhere else. I mean, it seems stupid that the entire globe exists and the Moon only dropped us on an island country of less than 400,000 square kilometers, but maybe there’s a homing beacon, I don’t know. Anyway,” she plucked a tater tot off Haruka’s plate, “I don’t just mean soldiers like us. There’s people who can fight all over, and with things going how they are, it might not be a bad idea. I’ve always wanted to go back to London.” 
Haruka leaned back and took a drink of her beer. “I don’t like London.”
Mina rolled her eyes. “That’s because Squidward--”
“Don’t call her that, Mina.” 
“Oh excuse the hell out of me,” She took another tater tot, “Miss Kaioh, there, you happy? Only takes you to places with the absolute worst people the entire country has to offer. I promise there’s plenty of normal-ass people in London.” 
Haruka scratched her head. “I guess we have to talk it over with Usagi.” 
Another tater tot, and Haruka lightly smacked Mina’s hand. “Those are mine!” 
“Oh what, are we not friends now?” Mina put an aggrieved hand on her chest. “I didn’t know that you were so in need of some deep fried food, you deprived creature.” 
Haruka reached over for one of Mina’s fries, and Mina dove at it like a very determined seagull, biting it out of Haruka’s hand. 
“Oh okay, so--”
“Haruka,” she swallowed the fry, “You have an unimaginably rich wife. I, on the other hand, am a  struggling working girl, who makes her own way in the world, ekeing out an--”
“I’m paying for dinner!” Haruka laughed. “I always pay for dinner!” 
Mina flagged down the waitress. “I don’t see what that has to do with anything. I’m getting another pitcher.” 
It was strange, sometimes, for Mina to think about when they’d first met. Even more than that, when they’d truly been thrown together. How she couldn’t stand Haruka, how she thought she was a self-pitying, dramatic, mess of a human being who was just trying to trip into her own destruction. 
And, okay, that wasn’t wrong, exactly. Mina was a good read of people, even without the Gift, and Haruka wasn’t exactly hard to figure out. The trick was that Haruka could be other things as well: Generous, brave, tender when she let herself be. It was a good reminder to Mina that though stripping people down to their base elements helped for snap decisions, the real tricks lived in the complication. 
“Can we get a plate of kaarage too?” Haruka tossed the menu back down on the table. 
“Ruka?” Mina leaned back for a moment, “What’d you think of me when we were first living together?” 
Haruka shrugged. ‘I didn’t, really. I had a lot going on. It was a place to sleep.” 
Mina took a fry off her own plate, swirled it in mayyo and contemplatively bit into it. “You broke up with your girlfriend, Haruka, you didn’t have a lot going on.” 
“C’mon,” Haruka looked at the table, and then took a swig of her beer, “You know it was more than that.” 
Well, maybe. Haruka was more things than Mina had taken her for initially, but resilient was never one of them. Still wasn’t, honestly. She put all her eggs in Michiru’s basket and never learned how to eat scrambled, so she’d ended up starving. It didn’t have to be more than that, but it was, and that was part of the bargain with Haruka. Everything took on as much meaning as she could carry. 
“I thought you hated me.” She still didn’t look at Mina, poking at her burger, but she chuckled, “because you did.” 
“I didn’t HATE--”
“Oh come on!” Haruka shook her head, but she smiled, “You only let me stay in your apartment because you needed a roommate and Usagi threw me at you. You couldn’t fucking stand me.” 
Mina thought for a moment. What would be the point in lying to her? She hadn’t exactly hidden the fact. 
“Well, I didn’t really know you, I guess. And, uh, by the way, you were being supremely annoying. So, jot that down. I’m taking another tater tot, even the memory fills me with horror.” 
The pitcher and chicken were dropped, and Haruka poured another. 
“I’m glad we’re friends now. I guess.” 
“As long as you keep buying beer, bud.” 
“Okay, you know what?” Haruka reached over and took the burger off her plate, smiled broadly, and took a big bite as Mina watched. 
“Ugh!” her face pulled into a grimace. “I hate avocado.” 
“Have we learned something today?” Mina grabbed Haruka’s burger and took a bite, “By the way, this bacon is great. Anyway, so as I was saying before you interrupted, I DO think you’d like London. If you went with me instead.” 
“Well Michiru speaks English.” 
“I speak English! I speak fucking amazing English! People mistake me for a native speaker! I did a summer exchange in London! Why does no one ever remember this? I don’t expect my actual life to lack narrative continuity.” 
Haruka grinned, and took another fry.
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thedoctor91011 · 9 months
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Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: One Piece (Anime & Manga) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Monkey D. Luffy & Trafalgar D. Water Law, Monkey D. Luffy & Mugiwara Kaizoku | Strawhat Pirates, to a lesser extant Characters: Trafalgar D. Water Law, Monkey D. Luffy Additional Tags: other characters appear but they’re the focus, Trafalgar D. Water Law-centric, Gear 5, Wano Arc (One Piece) Spoilers, One Piece Chapter 1044, One Piece Episode 1077, it goes past those but, Body Horror, but it’s pretty mild Summary:
Law in Wano, and a study of faith in Luffy.
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It's a bit of a rush job, with spoilers for late Wano, but my first One Piece fic is up to celebrate August 6! It's also written for the
Banquet of the Sun
event that
@tatertotcosmonaut
is running! I hope you all enjoy :)
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docwritesshit · 9 months
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Ahhhhh fuck it
YUIJIN RAMBLE
For those of you who are new here, this is Yujin Wei, also known as Ash, my Lego Movie Kid Oc
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I have plagued my bestie of her so now I shall plague you all! Mwahahahaha!
So background
First off, she is like 4,000 years old
She comes from a noble celestial family who were once demons but gained the favor of the Jade Emperor by helping him through their Far Sight.
Far Sight is their ability to see everything all at once, from the heavens to the underworld. No one can escape their vision. And they can document everything they have seen and even use a ritual to make recordings of what they have seen and stash it away for later reference. And with this, they became the official family used for guard posts all around the world.
For Yujin here, she was kinda an outcast the moment she was born. Over the centuries, her family was ashamed of their demonic ancestry, building an image of holiness and total loyalty to the Emperor since the beginning. And with that, Yujin was more like her demonic ancestors, with her blue skin, snaggle tooth, and hug frame (she's like 7'6). It also didn't help that her silver hair would fade to a red for some inexplicable reason (workshopping that).
So she has been under their thumb since the beginning, her family trying to push her to be a more studious person focusing on researching her past relatives like her cousin. But she wanted adventure, and wanted to prove how strong she was.
After a tiff with the Princess Iron Fan (they got into an argument and it went to the fists flying stage), the Jade Emperor took notice of her and pushed her parents to let her get a job. They relented, and now she guards the Samadhi Temple.
Through this, she met Redson and essentially is an older sister to him and his companion Sol (a friends OC which I will include in her story a fair bit)
"but what about Season 3? How will the gang get things done if she's there?"
Ah, now that's where the story really starts my friend
Abilities/ Weapons:
Weapon: she has a weapon called the Ever Changing Wind which has 72 transformations to whatever she desired that she got from a friend a few millennial ago. She mostly uses it in its whip form as seen here
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(yes ik this looks weird, old drawing + I cut off a bit to not show spoilers in story)
Abilities: She has fast healing, Far Sight, can glamor herself to an extent, change her height at will, and because of her lineage, she has some dormant powers that have not awakened yet that she doesn't even know about. Also she is super strong as well, lifting boulders like they are pebbles.
Relationships:
Basically a surrogate daughter to the DBK family as she has been in their employment since Redson birth, and is an older sister to Reds and Sol
She doesn't show in the main gangs stori until season 3, cause duh. So no relation there
"But does she have a partner?"
Nope! But she does have some feelings for people. On the old friends that gifted her the Ever Changing Wind in the first place actually! But she hasn't been in contact with either of them for a long time.....
Personality:
Oh the best big sis anyone can get. Shes a little alcoholic when it comes to social events or with her parents, her preferred drink of choice is diluted peach wine ;), and she is described as a badass by many
She does have a nasty side as well though, she had been known to throw the Jade Emperors personal guards around when they got a little too comfortable with their words.
But she is also a tease as well, picking on Reds in that older sister fashion. And she extremely over protective over Redson and the DBK family s a whole, which is often looked down upon by her parents because they see no need for her to be so protective over them, they gave so much more power! How could they need her when she's so weak compared to them???
(oh the irony)
She doesn't enjoy the company of her family members all that much except for her cousin Jiayin. But she's been a good guard so far, so her parents stay off her case. But her 500 year anniversary of her job is coming up, which means a new era for her to... Be pushed into essentially.
So she's very protective over her position as well, it being the only reason she's allowed out of her familys temple in the first place.
Also she's very closed off to new people a lot of the time, and not opening up until she gets to know you and your motives, which you will see why later. But if her little bro trusts them, then hell, they must be the next Messiah or smth
And that's Yujin! Let me know if you want to know more! My inbox is always open!!
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lgbtlunaverse · 3 months
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There's a version of the "don't go grocery shopping while hungry" rule specifically for writers where you should never under any circumstances be allowed to touch your draft within 3 hours of reading a really good story. Because sometimes when you read something great your head goes "fuck this is so much better than my stuff I should make that more like THIS instead!" Look at me. That's the devil talking and you should close the document NOW.
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movedtodykedvonte · 10 months
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*Spidey and the Sinister Six having their usual fight*
Doc Ock, landing a hit: You’re getting slow Spider-Man! Age finally catching up to you?
Spider-Man: You wish! I haven’t even hit my 30s! From those costumes I can already tell I failed to save you guys from those midlife crises! Sorry by the way.
Vulture: Watch it wallcr- wait… Did you just say your not in your thirties yet?
Spider-Man: Surprised that this spiders so young and spry? Well-
Electro: Dude I’ve been fighting you for at least 5 fucking years! How old even are you?
Shocker, joking cause he’s the only one who picked up no grown adult acts likes Spidey: Don’t swear in-front of the boy you don’t want him to pick it up.
Rhino: Christ! You’re tellin me I almost crushed some 12-year-olds skull all those years ago?
Spider-Man, regretting his quipping: I was not that young! Like just starting freshman year but-
Sandman, horrified as he’s the only one with a kid and dad instincts(as of my iteration): I could’ve killed a kid…
Shocker, genuinely curious: Are you even old enough to drink? Cruel to kill a man who ain’t had his first drink yet.
Electro: Please tell us you’re at least over 25 as of this fight. Hell, I’ll take over 21!
Spider-Man:….
Sandman, realizing just how young he really is: Oh my god.
Spider-Man: My birthday’s coming up soon so I guess it counts?
Doc Ock, exacerbated: It. Does. Not!
Vulture: What would your mother think if she knew her son was out here risking his life telling poorly constructed jokes?
Spider-Man, offended cause it quips slap: 1. My jokes are great 2. She and my dad are dead so-
Sandman, hysterical cause holy shit he almost killed a kid orphan: OH MY GOD!
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ao3-crack · 4 months
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doctorgerth · 2 years
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Not me actually being awake for one of your box openings 😭 my horrid sleep schedule hadn't cursed me today.
I'm terrible with request ideas so please feel free to yeet this if it's not good Coop, but could I please request a scenario (if hcs are easier with this don't hesitate to change this ♡) for Sanji or Zoro taking a bubble bath with their fem!s/o? Just being with each other in the warm bath, washing each other's hair or something? Maybe it can escalate into something...spicier? 👀
I hope this is okay, and thank you so much for your time and amazing work Coop! I'm always excited to see what you write ♡♡ and don't forget how incredible you are!
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a/n: Emmmm always so happy to write for you!! Glad you were able to get a request in. 😋 Thanks for always being such a wonderful friend to me. Hope this turned out okay! x
featuring: Sanji, Zoro x F!Reader
warning: ns.fw, 18+ content, bathing together, sexual tension, fondling/groping, brief handjob, allusions to sex
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TAKING A BATH TOGETHER
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SANJI —
You instinctively sink further under the water as someone barges into the bathroom, readying to warn them of your presence, but you instead smile warmly upon seeing your boyfriend at the door with a towel draped over his shoulder.
“Oh! Sorry, darling, I didn’t realize you were —” he’s covering his eyes and stumbling backwards towards the door, making you laugh out loud.
“Don’t act as if you haven’t seen me naked before.”
A warm blush dusts along his cheeks, “Well, I still want to protect your privacy.”
Truthfully, seeing you naked still has a nearly fatal effect on him. The two of you have been intimate for months, and he knows every inch of your skin by heart now, but he still can’t control the dizzying adoration that makes his heart want to beat right out of his chest when he sees you bare, looking so unbearably perfect he still wonders if he’s stuck in a dream.
His hand is fumbling with the knob, lips trembling through hurried apologies, but there’s a pout evident in your voice when you call out to him, making him stop in his tracks, “Don’t leave, Sanji. Join me?”
How could he possibly ever say no to you?
You smile to yourself as he quickly discards his clothes then eases into the warm water, sighing heavily as he relaxes against the end of the tub opposite to you. You can tell he’s trying hard to be modest as he keeps to his space, careful to not invade into yours. Little does he know, the harder he tries to avoid the skin of your legs against his, has you longing all the more for his touch.
“This feels great.” He huffs, sinking further into the water and resting his head along the edge of the tub. Sanji looks undeniably attractive like this; knees above the water with legs spread wide, arms draped over the tub’s edges, head thrown back, neck vulnerable and bobbing to open air. You find yourself sneaking over to him, water gently sloshing around you as you slot yourself between his legs and plant a tender kiss against his Adam's apple, making his head jerk in response. His chin just barely misses a collision with your head.
“Sorry, honey,” you apologize, but he catches the mischievous twinkle in your eyes, “Could you help me wash up? I can’t reach my back.”
He swallows hard and nods, reaching for the loofa as you twist around, putting your bare back on full display for him unabashedly. There’s a shift in the water below that neither of you miss. He rubs the loofa in small circles starting at the top of your back, then slowly cascading down. You close your eyes, arching your back as he travels lower and lower, small sighs of pleasure puffing past your lips because his touch against you is electrifying, the tension in the stifling bathroom air making the both of you lightheaded. His touch starts gentle at first, innocent as he helps reach the parts of your back you’re unable to, but soon, the loofa is long forgotten, replaced by his hands smoothing along your waistline. Keeping his hands to himself when you’re in his presence is a battle he’s too often lost at, and the way you’re leaning into his caresses with soft hums of pleasure has him waving his white flag.
“You feel so nice,” He whispers against your wet hair, soapy hands coming up to cup your breasts. He takes a peak over your shoulder, struggling to contain himself at the sight of your tits covered in iridescent suds, fitting perfectly within his large hands. He squeezes lovingly, making you lean further into him. He places a few kisses along your neck, ignoring the pungent taste of soap that coats his tongue because he actually might die if he doesn’t put his lips on you.
You can feel his cock prodding at your backside, begging for a little attention from you. You’re eager to help him out, turning around and melting at the intense passion burning in the love cook’s eyes as he stares at you. You rise to climb into his lap and Sanji’s hands instinctively grip at your hips as you straddle him. There’s no doubt in his mind that you were created to fit within his embrace.
“You’re so beautiful,” he praises with sincerity, “I need you.”
“I’m all yours,” you smile as your lips crash against his.
The two of you always swear your intentions are innocent when offering to bathe together, but the two of you also can’t fight the impulses that seem to continuously have bath time leading into something much more sensual.
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ZORO —
Trying to change someone you love in most cases is incredibly wrong, but when your boyfriend only bathes once a week, change is simply necessary. It’s taken quite some time, and a little bit of forced bathing, but the two of you have compromised on a bathing routine set for every other day. Zoro’s terms? You have to bathe with him.
And boy, does he love bath time now. He won’t admit it out loud, but he does get tired of crew members and a certain jealous cook always trying to steal your attention. He’s good about distracting himself with training or naps when you are preoccupied but you are his girlfriend, so surely it’s not a crime to want to spend time with you. He takes advantage of any private moment he can get with you, most especially bath time, which is ultimately a win for you, because that means he’s bathing much more regularly. He gets a little pouty on the days you bathe without him, but that’s a confession you won’t hear anytime soon either.
Zoro is the one to slot himself between your legs, his back flush against your soft chest despite being considerably broader than you. You can reach the spots he always misses, and after one too many comments from you on how he doesn’t bathe properly, he settles for letting you take care of him. You don’t mind of course as it’s rather amusing to have your burly swordsman of a boyfriend relaxed against you as you work the shampoo through his green locks and scrub at those hard to reach spots at the middle of his back. He takes plenty care of you, so it’s nice to return the favor.
And Zoro loves the way you take care of him. Your gentle fingers carding through his hair, tender hands dragging a warm rag along his skin. It’s so intimate, bathing with you, relaxing underneath your fingertips, letting go of the day’s stressors as the warm water and your loving caresses envelop him.
But you also enjoy witnessing this side of Zoro. Your otherwise stoic and stern boyfriend who’s near melting underneath your fingertips, humming contentedly to himself as you wash him, listening intently as you go on about your day — it’s truly a sight to behold. Being perhaps the only person to ever see Zoro so relaxed, so loving as he tries his hardest to be gentle when it’s his turn to wash you, sporting a bright blush when you sigh at his rugged fingertips at your scalp, or squeak when he helps wash your more intimate areas. There’s a tangible growth to the bond you two share when you get to enjoy moments like this, speaking a combined love language of quality time and acts of service that Zoro has become fluent in thanks to your relationship.
The two of you (mostly Zoro) can’t help but wonder why you hadn’t formed this habit earlier on. Especially as a private bath together proves beneficial for other things. Your hands traverse along his torso, washing along his chest. He feels your fingers teasingly scrape against his pert and sensitive nipples, making him shudder in the wake. A low growl reverberates in his chest when your hand creeps lower, pretending to meticulously wash at his V line.
“Don’t start something you can’t finish, sweetheart.”
He feels you giggle behind him, breath hitching in his throat when you grab hold of his hardening cock. You feel it come to life in your hand as it throbs and the flushed red tip peeks just above the water. You pump him for good measure, his knuckles turning white as he’s now gripping at the lip of the tub. The comfort of the warm water seems to heighten his senses, making him extra sensitive to your every touch.
“I’m just helping you wash up,” you admit sweetly in his ear. He releases a guttural groan when you start fisting his cock. His hips can’t help but to buck into your touch; you’re simply too good for him.
Water crashes in waves against the tub, splashing onto the floor below as Zoro maneuvers the two of you until you’re on top of him. Now your back is pressed against his chest, legs spread open by his thighs pulling yours in opposite directions, leaving you vulnerable to his every touch. One hand reaches up to squeeze at your breast, the other trailing down to tease the heat between your thighs as he litters your shoulder with sharp kisses.
“Seems like you’re the one who needs help washing up. Let me help you with that.”  
As Zoro gets the pleasure of a peaceful bath and having his way with you, he can’t help but be thankful for oversized crew members needing an oversized tub.
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hithisartexists · 2 months
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03/08/2024 I am Alive
I am alive
I hear birds chirping
and try to mimic their song
I feel the wind dragging
and let it carry me along
I feel warm and full
of delight and appreciation
I love my friends
and all of their creative innovations
I turn small and afraid
when I remember the world
I fear it will all cascade
and I'll see it all unfold
I am all of flesh and bone
there is holy shame in my heart
I am in my head never alone
found forever in my art
I am alive
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anto-pops · 4 months
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Cheirophilia - Sebastian Sallow x Female!Reader
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Summary: Following the summer leading up to your seventh year, you return to Hogwarts to discover that Sebastian has undergone changes that greatly appeal to the eye. Your eye, to be specific. There’s no easy way to tell the man you’ve been dating for two years that your attention has been fixed on a part of him otherwise deemed normal, but after a while, you’re forced to face the truth of the matter. 
Alternatively summarized as you have a hand kink and Sebastian Sallow has extremely nice hands.
Word Count: 10.7k
Warnings: 18+, aged up characters, explicit sexual content, hand kink, size difference
Full fic can be found here on Ao3 (with more diverse tags)
You had to be losing your mind. That was the only plausible explanation for the wild, unrestrained thoughts that had been plaguing your brain for the last week every time you so much as glanced at Sebastian. Yes, he was attractive. He was charming and confident, and quite frankly he was the epitome of male perfection as far as you were concerned. Not a day went by where you didn’t consider yourself lucky to be able to call him yours, and you knew he was just as enamored with you.
But your newfound infatuation with his hands had started relatively recently, and you had no clue what to make of it. 
Sebastian was touchy to begin with, and he always had been. From casually brushing shoulders with you in the Great Hall during mealtimes, to tucking your hair behind your ears at night– the man was constantly finding ways to be closer to you, and your appreciation for his efforts knew no bounds. It made you feel treasured, wanted, revered, and a slew of other things that made your heart swell with affection. Maybe you could attribute your blatant ogling of his appendages to that, or maybe you had just finally started to notice after your Divination class last week. 
Professor Onai, for all her outlandish preachings on clairvoyance, had taken a more mundane approach in teaching her students ‘fortune telling’ a few days ago. “Palm reading,” she had said, “is a delicate and fixed art. It can be as vague as it can be accurate, and it takes an expertly trained eye to decipher the true meaning behind the grooves in one’s hand.” 
You were far from an expert in anything relating to Divination, but you did have an eye for nice things, and Merlin– were Sebastian’s hands exquisite. They were nearly twice the size of yours and covered in calluses, a lingering sign of the grueling physical labor he’d done over the summer in Feldcroft. His fingers weren’t as dainty as Ominis’, but they were long, thick, and lined with pulsing veins that stretched across the backs of his hands and coiled around his toned forearms. As you’d traced the lines on his palm with your fingers, he’d shivered at the featherlight feeling and chuckled at the deferential way you seemed to commit every part of the appendage to memory. 
You didn’t even want to begin to recount the way your heart had hammered in your chest when it had been his turn to read your palm. Maintaining your composure had taken every ounce of willpower in your body.
Since then, your mind had wandered an unhealthy amount.
By some miracle, Sebastian hadn’t noticed your unwavering eye contact with his hands yet. The two of you had been kept preoccupied with the mountains of classwork that came with the start of the new school year, and as a result, your only opportunities to spend time with him had been during mealtimes. Today was different, however, because Lucan had finally set up the first Crossed Wands match of the season. You and Sebastian were both participating, and your boyfriend was all too eager to jump back into dueling after the summer months spent away. 
Your eyes scanned him dutifully from across the room, watching with rapt interest as he chatted with Brattleby about the upcoming fight. Sebastian had grown considerably since your fifth-year, virtually towering over Lucan as he looked down at the curly haired Gryffindor. The latter had gone through a growth spurt of his own, but it was easy to overlook him when he was standing next to your boyfriend. Sebastian was big; broad shouldered with long, powerful legs and thick wrists that complimented his massive, mouthwatering hands. 
Said hands were fidgeting with the cuffs of his shirt as he rolled them up, nodding down at Lucan as he replied to something the younger boy had said. You didn’t know what they were discussing, and quite frankly, you didn’t care. His deft fingers adjusted his uniform as he prepared for your duo’s duel, and instead of following suit, you were unabashedly studying his every move. That is, until a voice from your left drew your attention. 
“Did something happen over summer?” 
You startled easily, warranting an eye roll from Imelda as she crossed her arms over her chest and leaned back against the wall. It was a rarity to find her in the Crossed Wands courtyard, but you knew she had been hounding members of the Quidditch team to prepare for trial runs and scrimmages, and Sebastian factored into that assortment of people. Schooling your nerves the best you could, you started to shed your robe in an effort to simultaneously get ready for the duel and distract from the metaphorical eye candy across the room. 
“What do you mean,” you asked vaguely, keeping your eyes pointed at the floor as you moved. 
Imelda was having none of it– clearly smarter than you deigned to give her credit for. “Don’t play coy with me. You’re always checking Sallow out, but since we’ve been back it’s ten times worse. Did he sprout a second cock or something?” 
You damn near choked on your own tongue as you whipped around to glare at her. “Do you have to be so crass all the time?” 
She waved you off, “Yes, I do. Who else would rile you up this way if not myself? Now answer the question.” 
Heaving a deep sigh, you draped your robe over a stack of crates and began to gather your hair back into a loose braid as you muttered, “No, nothing happened over summer.”
“But something is going on. Come on,” she implored with a taunting tone, her brown eyes glimmering with amusement. “At least tell me if it’s something bad.” 
“It’s not bad,” you relented. “It’s– I’m not sure what it is, to be honest. We haven’t even done anything since we’ve been back, we’ve been too busy. But…”
You trailed off, staring at the wall behind Imelda as you brought your hair over your shoulder to finish off the plait. She waited patiently, however, all too eager to get the inside scoop on your love life. “But?”
“I don’t know– have you ever found yourself focused on other body parts? Like, really random parts of another person?” 
The Quidditch captain’s face shifted into a confused expression as she chanced a look at Sebastian, evidently trying to figure out what on Godric’s green Earth you were referring to. “Uh, no? If you’re talking about his feet though then I’m going to ask that you forget I even brought this up–”
“No!” You blurted loudly, drawing the attention of a handful of students in the courtyard, Sebastian included. He cocked a brow at you from across the room, and you flashed him a bashful smile in silent reply before mouthing a timid ‘sorry’. Imelda snickered under her breath when you turned back to her, a deep scowl settling on your face. “Dammit, not his fucking feet. I’m talking about his hands. He has really nice hands– I never noticed before.” 
“You’re telling me you’ve had your knickers in a twist for the last week and a half because of Sallow’s hands?” 
To say Imelda looked dumbstruck would be an understatement, and you suddenly felt incredibly stupid for having said anything at all. You kept your eyes downcast as you tossed your braided hair over your shoulder and slid your wand free from its holster, doing your best to ignore the woman’s burning stare. “Nevermind– forget I mentioned it.” 
“I doubt I could even if I wanted to, but for the sake of your dignity I’ll go grab a seat and let you get your head in the game.” You felt your cheeks heat up instantly in response to her snide comment, and you lifted your eyes in time to watch Imelda turn towards the far corner of the room with a smile on her face. She paused before taking off, murmuring over her shoulder, “Make sure you’re paying attention to your opponents and not Sallow’s hands.”
Sweet Merlin… you should have kept your big mouth shut.
***
As it turned out, your head was so far out of the game that it became collateral in the midst of your duo’s duel. 
It was your own fault, really. Despite doing your best to focus on the task at hand, your eyes had continually wandered over to Sebastian, tracking his movements as he fired spell after spell in retaliation against your opponents. He had always been exceptionally graceful while fighting– be it in Crossed Wands or in the Highlands at your side– and his sudden growth spurt over summer had only added to his preexisting agility. It was all too easy for you to get absorbed in his fluid movements as he ducked and rolled, then blocked and countered every attack with astonishing finesse. 
Unfortunately, that meant you were left wholly unprepared for the Depulso charm that sent you careening across the room into a stack of crates. Your head had been positively spinning as you pushed yourself up onto your elbows, but your vision cleared in time to watch as Sebastian abandoned the duel entirely to hurry over to where you lay prone against the broken wood. Lucan had shouted something about the match being called off, but you could hardly pay any attention to his words with Sebastian fretting over you, mere inches from your face. 
“Merlin’s bloody balls, what the hell happened?” The brunet hadn’t even given you ample time to reply before he had hoisted you up in his strong, capable arms to carry you to the Hospital Wing. 
That was how you’d ended up where you were now; laid out in an uncomfortable hospital bed with Nurse Blainey hovering too close for comfort while your boyfriend sat beside you with his arms crossed stiffly over his chest. His expression was virtually unreadable, but you weren’t able to focus on him for long without your head pounding in silent protest. 
“Drink this,” Nurse Blainey dutifully instructed, thrusting a vial of Wiggenweld in front of you as she scanned your bandaged temple. “It will help with the swelling and the gods-awful headache I’m sure you’re sporting. My diagnostic spells came back negative for any internal injuries, but that doesn’t mean you can rush back to your foolhardy dueling club. A concussion is a concussion, no matter how small.” 
Your tongue felt like lead in your mouth so you nodded in response instead of speaking– only to instantly regret the movement. Sharp, concentrated pain shot through your head, and you took it as a sign to carefully knock back the contents of the potion she’d given you. A soothing warmth overtook you in a split second, and the throbbing in your skull lessened considerably, prompting you to relax against the pillows situated behind you as your eyelids fluttered. Evidently pleased with your subdued demeanor, Nurse Blainey jotted something down on the clipboard that had been tucked under her arm before turning to Sebastian. 
“I trust that you’ll ensure she actually takes it easy for the next few days, Mr. Sallow?” 
Your eyes cracked open in time to watch Sebastian’s gaze flicker to yours, and the muscle in his jaw ticked as his attention zero’d in on the thick bandage that now adorned your head. “Of course. She’ll be a model patient for as long as needed.” 
Satisfied with his agreement, Nurse Blainey pivoted on her heel and strode to the back end of the room, leaving you and Sebastian alone in a tense silence. 
Heaving a heavy sigh, you gathered your hands in your lap and let your head tip back against the bed frame, wanting nothing more than for the ground to open up and swallow you whole. All of this because you couldn’t stop ogling your boyfriend for a measly twenty minutes when it mattered most… it was an embarrassing and stupid mistake to acknowledge. Moreover, you’d basically ruined the first Crossed Wands duel of the season– something you knew had to be bothering Sebastian, given his competitive nature. 
“I’m sorry,” you mumbled half-heartedly. “I should have been paying closer attention.”
Sebastian scoffed to your left, and when you peered at him through the corner of your eye, his head looked like it was on the verge of imploding. “Are you seriously apologizing for getting a concussion right now?” 
There was no stopping the frown that spread across your face, and you nervously started picking at your cuticles as your mouth opened, shut, then opened again. “Yes– I mean– no. I’m sorry that the match got canceled because of me. You were probably excited to get back into Crossed Wands and I just… messed it up. I wasn’t thinking clearly out there.” 
“Obviously,” Sebastian countered easily, the amused glimmer in his eyes vanishing before you could take proper note of it. “You’re never one to let your mind wander when you fight, but you have to know I’m not mad about the duel. I was worried about you– I don’t think you realize how terrifying it is to see you of all people bleeding.” 
You gaze fell to your lap as you pursed your lips and lifted your hand to the bandage taped to your temple, trying and failing to recall if you’d actually bled at all. It was all something of a blur if you were being honest. When you looked up at Sebastian once more, he had sat forward in his seat and was reaching towards you, wearing an expression that was equal parts concerned and curious. With your brain still muddled, all you could really do was stare wide-eyed at the nearing culprit of your misfortune; his Merlin-be-damned hands. Those long, flexing digits came to gently stroke the side of your cheek, turning your head to the side briefly to allow him a good look at your patched up face, and as Sebastian tsk’d disapprovingly, you were fighting back a slew of unholy thoughts that had no business arising in the midst of such a tender moment. 
The side of his mouth quirked up as he thought back to your debacle in the clock tower courtyard. “Did your inability to ‘think clearly’ have anything to do with whatever you and Imelda were talking about earlier?” 
Being reminded of your discussion with the Slytherin woman at such an inopportune time caused your face to flush a deep red, and you nervously clasped your boyfriend’s larger hand in your notably smaller one and drew it into your lap. You gently thumbed over the veins on the back of his hand, taking note of the constellation of freckles that ran up his wrist and forearm, and you saw Sebastian tilt his head to the side as he let you fondle the limb. 
“Maybe…” you drawled lazily. Perhaps you would chalk it up to your concussion later on, or perhaps you just wanted to get your insane obsession off your chest. Regardless of the why, you steeled your nerves and swallowed thickly before muttering, “You have really nice hands.” 
Silence. Sebastian said nothing– and that was considerably worse than him saying something– anything. Your brows slammed down just as you lifted your head to gauge his reaction, only to discover a bewildered smile plastered on his smarmy face. 
“…I think you hit your head harder than I thought. Should I call Nurse Blainey back over here?”
Ah. He thought you were delusional. Brilliant. 
Letting go of him as though his skin were heated metal, you sighed and sat forward to swing your legs over the edge of the bed, shivering slightly when Sebastian placed his hand on your hip to steady you. His face conveyed genuine apprehension as he asked, “Are you sure you should be trying to move right now?” 
Part of you was thankful he hadn’t taken your confession seriously, but another stronger part of you was annoyed that you had said anything to begin with. Here was Sebastian, acting chivalrous and doting on you in the wake of you flying face first into a crate, and all you cared to think about was having his hands on you. On your bare skin, between your legs, around your neck…
Something was definitely wrong with you. 
“I’m alright– stop worrying. I promise I won’t overdo it. At this point I just want to eat and go to sleep.” Thankfully he made no move to stop you when you stood yourself up on shaky legs, instead placing that damnable hand on the small of your back to help you keep your balance. You closed your eyes momentarily to will away the vile, uncouth thoughts that seemed to run rampant in your concussed skull, but if the way his fingers tensed against you was any indication, Sebastian clearly thought your brief pause was due to your injury.
“Fine,” he bit out, sounding all too displeased with your stubbornness. “Food, then straight to your dorm. But if I think for even a second you can’t manage, I’m carrying you to bed myself.” 
It hurt to do it, but your eye roll was heavily warranted. “Thanks for the vote of confidence, dad.” 
As the two of you walked from the Hospital Wing to the Great Hall, you realized just how serious Sebastian was about his promise to Nurse Blainey. His hands were constantly hovering at your side, ready to catch you at a moment's notice in the event you required the help, which you fortunately weren’t in need of. You didn’t think you could take any more coddling– or any more… hands-on-torment, so to speak. 
Ominis joined the two of you for lunch shortly after you’d arrived, and you were unsurprised to discover that he was very much aware of your blunder in Crossed Wands earlier. He made sure you were in good spirits and feeling alright before he began nagging you in typical Ominis fashion. 
“Honestly, a Depulso charm?” He chastised you further, resting his chin on his palm as his other hand came to tap absentmindedly against the surface of the table. “I would have expected something like Bombarda to finally end your win-streak, not a paltry Force spell.” 
“That’s what happens when you get complacent,” Sebastian added helpfully, skewering yet another sausage from the platter in front of you. He had to have inhaled four of the blasted things already. Those deep brown eyes of his darkened as they shifted to the injury on your temple, and if he deposited his food on his plate a little more aggressively than normal, you certainly didn’t say anything about it. “She’s just lucky things didn’t end up worse.” 
Ominis hummed in agreement and looked in your direction. “Yes, do make sure you’re not breaking your fall with your face anymore. I would like to think the three of us will graduate in one piece together, but between the two of you and your extracurriculars, my hopes are lessening by the day.”
“Ha ha, very funny,” came your monotonous reply. “Thanks for the words of encouragement, guys. You really know how to make a girl feel better about getting launched into a bunch of boxes.” 
“Well it was quite the spectacle. I’m sure you’ll be the talk of the school for at least a few days, so get used to it.” 
You didn’t even need to turn around to know Imelda stood directly behind you, presumably with her hands on her hips and a wicked smile stretching from ear to ear. She was exactly who you didn’t want to deal with right about now– especially considering she was the only living soul privy to your innermost thoughts regarding Sebastian– but she had no qualms about sidling up beside you and making herself comfortable at the table. Her face swam into your peripheral vision as she inquisitively scanned the side of your head now decked out in thick gauze and tape. “So, what’s the verdict? Brain hemorrhage? Cracked skull? Memory loss?” 
“Concussion,” Sebastian answered around a mouthful of food. He fixed you with a stern look as though to remind you, “She’s been instructed to take it easy for a few days which means no broom trials, Reyes. Don’t even think about dragging her off the castle grounds.” 
The Quidditch captain’s hands shot up in mock surrender, her expression the picture of innocence as she shifted back a little in her seat. “Wouldn’t dream of it. I take it that means you’ll be out of class for the foreseeable future?” 
You answered swiftly this time around, lest your boyfriend deign to speak on your behalf once again. You’d hurt your head, not your mouth. “For today at least, yeah. I doubt I’d be much good in Transfiguration with a splitting headache.” 
If you were only allowed one word to describe the look that overtook Imelda’s face, that word would be trouble. Her tawny eyes crinkled at their corners as a mischievous glint twinkled within them, and you could practically see her gearing up to say something you knew would piss you off. She folded her hands neatly over one another atop the table and leaned sideways on her elbow to shoot you a conniving look, and you couldn’t help but stiffen as a wave of apprehension crept up your spine. 
“Well let me know if you need a hand getting notes for the day. Though I’m sure Sallow would be more than happy to assist. Isn’t that right, Sebastian?” 
The emphasis she placed on the word didn’t escape you, and judging by the confused expressions on both Ominis’ and Sebastian’s faces, they didn’t miss it either. It took unwavering focus to maintain your composure and not react, and you prayed to whatever higher power existed that your cheeks weren’t as rouge as they felt. You sighed softly and glanced at the brunet through your lashes, all too aware of the puzzled look he now bore. “How about it?” You opted to simply play along for the time being in a bid to hide the true meaning behind Imelda’s telling comment. “Can you bring me the notes later?”
Sebastian nodded slowly, his gaze shifting between you and Imelda for a long moment before he set his fork down and ran his long, dexterous fingers through his hair. Your eyes tracked the movement against your will, which only seemed to intensify the curious glimmer in his dark eyes, and when he flashed you that sinful Sallow smirk you were all too familiar with, you swallowed nervously. 
Surely Imelda hadn’t just helped him put two and two together, right? 
“Am I missing something here?” Ominis chimed in from across the table, a scowl tugging at the corners of his lips. 
“No, no,” Imelda said, the words dripping with false dismissal. The urge to throttle her was intense. “I was just implying that our dear friend here is bound to be a handful for the next few days, so she’ll need help. Let me know if I can do anything, although I’m sure you’d much rather have Sebastian be the one to–”
She was cut off by the booming slap of your hands against the tabletop as you clambered to your feet, desperate to escape her pointed comments and Sebastian’s prying stare. “Will do!” you exclaimed with too much bite. You lowered your voice and did your best to keep your tone even, “I’m sure I’ll manage, but I can’t be bothered to figure it all out right now. I’ll just– I’ll see you guys later.” 
You didn’t dare look back as you swung your legs over the bench and took off towards the massive double doors. At this point, you were wishing that your collision with the crates had put you in a coma. Maybe then you could have avoided Imelda’s inevitable pestering, but even then you were positive your nuisance of a friend would have found a way to taunt you in your dreams. This was something you were going to have to acknowledge with Sebastian sooner or later, but until that day came you would do everything in your power to avoid any more awkward run-ins with Imelda. At least when Sebastian was with you, you reasoned. For now, you needed to get away from the general public and sleep on your deranged thoughts before anything else embarrassing could happen.
Apparently the universe had other plans for you, however. You recognized Sebastian’s heavy footsteps running up behind you without even checking to be certain, and even though you wanted nothing more than to fall into bed and sleep the remainder of the day away, when his large hand came to coil around your bicep to halt you in your tracks, you let him. 
“Hey, are you alright?” His eyes softened as they took in your miserable appearance, but all you could pay attention to was the feeling of his thumb caressing the back of your arm as he held you in place. “I’m sorry if I upset you– I didn’t realize Imelda was trying to poke bruises, otherwise I would have told her to leave as soon as she came over.” 
Shaking your head absently, you stared over Sebastian’s shoulder and directed your next words towards the wall, because that was infinitely easier than eye contact at the present moment. “I’m not upset, you don’t have to apologize. She’s just… a lot to handle right now.”
“I’ll say,” he concurred easily, moving his head so it was in your line of sight– only to furrow his brow when you ducked your chin to avoid looking at him. His jaw clenched and his hand around your arm tightened, if only briefly, and then he was tugging you along after him. “Come on, I’ll walk you to your dorm.” 
***
He knew. 
He had to know. 
It was the only plausible explanation you could come up with to give reason to Sebastian’s over-exaggerated use of his hands for the last three days. At first you hadn’t thought much of it; you still had a staring problem and Sebastian still had really nice hands, but the difference in the last seventy-two hours was apparent. It was as though your boyfriend was modeling his hands for you, constantly finding ways to dangle the appendages right under your nose and simultaneously letting his touch linger against your skin for far longer than normal. It was driving you insane, and you were positive he was doing it intentionally. 
Realistically it had started the day after your botched Crossed Wands duel. You, Ominis, and Sebastian had been sitting in the Library to study and work on assignments, your motley trio focused intently on your individual work for the bulk of the afternoon. Ominis was using his dictation quill to take notes, his foggy blue eyes narrowed in concentration while he muttered softly under his breath. Sebastian skimmed his own Herbology textbook with hooded eyes, the book propped against the knee he had crossed over his other leg, and his laid back posture coupled with the way his fingers idly played with the hair around his temples was enough to leave you entranced. Once he had taken notice of your staring, however, he’d smirked to himself and made a show of licking his finger to turn the page over, maintaining eye contact with you the entire time. 
You didn’t need a mirror to know you’d flushed beet red at the suggestive act. 
The day after that, the two of you had been in Defense Against the Dark Arts class. Sebastian had been asked to demonstrate the proper wand movement for Confringo by Professor Hecat, and shortly thereafter she had asked another student, Hector Jenkins, to take point across from your boyfriend for a friendly duel. Naturally you were prohibited from participating without Nurse Blainey’s go-ahead, so you’d stood at the back of the crowd and looked on ahead with rapt interest, eager to watch Sebastian make short work of his opponent, because of course he would. Chocolate brown eyes had met yours from across the room, and the movement that followed was subtle but obvious– at least, to you it was. 
As Professor Hecat droned on and reminded her students of the rules that went hand-in-hand with dueling in class, Sebastian fondled his wand. Quite literally. His nimble fingers had run along the wood, stroking the handle with such a light touch that his pinky had remained elevated the entire time. His thumb and index finger came to pinch at the tip softly before skimming down towards the checkered handle, and he made a dramatic show of wrapping each one of his fingers around the base before deftly angling the thin wood at you. 
Your breath had caught in your throat at the brazen motion, and Sebastian shamelessly winked at you before settling into the usual, confident persona he embodied while fighting. 
To say you’d become a ball of nerves afterwards would be a monumental understatement. You wound up leaning back against the wall with your ankles crossed to ease the rampant ache that had settled between your legs, doing your best to not look like you were going into an animalistic heat, which was easier said than done. 
Later on during dinner in the Great Hall, you found yourself seated next to Sebastian and across from Ominis, as per usual. The evening had started out much the same as always; with the three of you discussing the events of the day and planning for the upcoming weekend. The only difference was your boyfriend had seemingly taken it upon himself to distract you from the conversation entirely, covertly placing his hand on your thigh beneath the table to run the damn thing up and down your leg. Every time he reached your knee, he would steadily drag his palm higher up, teasing you with an occasional squeeze the closer he got to your center. Since you didn’t want to clue Ominis in on his best friend’s antics you were forced to keep your lips firmly sealed– left with no choice but to silently endure your boyfriend’s unique form of torture. 
As Ominis idly discussed wanting to escape to The Three Broomsticks on Saturday, Sebastian’s grip on your leg tightened while he sat forward to spoon a serving of the night’s dessert onto his plate; a colorful fruit tart with a healthy dollop of whipped cream slapped on top. You swallowed thickly as he delicately skewered a strawberry with his fork and brought it to his lips, pausing to reply to Ominis before popping it in his mouth. 
“I’m game, better to go now before Quidditch practice starts again. Merlin only knows how many trials Imelda intends on cramming into my weekends before long.” 
Ominis snorted and set his cutlery down on his plate, “You say that as though she’s doing it to spite you and you alone. In case you’ve forgotten, there’s six other people to account for on the team, and not all of them were blessed with the free time to practice over summer like you.” 
Sebastian side-eyed you briefly, and the corner of his mouth quirked up into a condescending grin. “That has a whole lot of nothing to do with me and everything to do with them being lazy. But my point still stands– that woman lives to invade my free time, so butterbeers this weekend sounds like a solid plan. What do you say, darling?” 
The brunet chose that exact moment to sensually take the strawberry between his teeth and pull it free from the fork prongs, smiling wickedly at you all the while. A tiny bit of the whipped cream had stayed behind on his bottom lip, but before you could point it out to him or wipe it away yourself, Sebastian did exactly that, drawing his finger into his mouth to suck deviously at the remnants. Your eyes were wider than saucers as you watched his tongue lave over the pad of his thumb and forefinger, and the telling squeeze he bestowed upon your thigh immediately afterwards all but confirmed your fears. 
He absolutely fucking knew. 
***
“I think there’s something on your mind,” Sebastian said from beside you. “Something that’s been on your mind for a while now. Care to share?” 
The two of you were on your way to the Room of Requirement, having just left the Hospital Wing after Nurse Blainey had summoned you there to evaluate your recovery progress following your mentally arduous week. She’d been all too pleased when Sebastian told her you had adhered to her guidelines to the letter– minimizing your physical activity and resting at every opportune moment, much to your boyfriend’s credit. After a few diagnostic scans, mobility trials, and a never ending list of questions designed to test your memory, she had deemed you fit to return to your usual activities– though not before making you swear to stay out of her sight for the rest of the year. 
Affectionately, of course. 
Sebastian’s comment reeled you back to the present moment, however, and you shot him a stern look out of the corner of your eye as you ascended the spiral staircase within the Astronomy Tower. “Unless you’re referring to how stunned I’ve been thanks to your obscene behavior this week, I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
He skipped ahead of you until he reached the top landing, spinning on his heel to face you as you breezed past him without so much as a second glance. “Oh, but I think you do. Surely you know why I’ve been behaving so ‘obscenely’. You’re the one who gave me the idea after all.” 
Keeping your expression schooled was difficult, but you managed. As the wall concealing the door to the Room of Requirement began to shift and change, you were all too aware of Sebastian sidling up next to you so he could run the tips of his fingers up your arm and over your shoulder, sending shiver-inducing chills down your spine. The gesture was intimate and suggestive, and you sighed softly as you stepped out of his reach to make for the fully formed entryway in front of you– not particularly keen on putting on a show for any students that potentially milled about the tower. 
You made it three steps inside the room before Sebastian grabbed you by your shoulder and spun you sideways, swiftly and effortlessly guiding you backwards until your back collided with the wall, and the startled gasp that ripped from your chest seemed to ignite a spark of interest in your boyfriend’s eyes. The hand he had on you traveled up along the smooth skin of your neck until he had a loose grip on your chin, and the sinful way his thumb trailed over your bottom lip spoke volumes about his intentions. 
“Do I need to coax the truth out of you, or can you be a good girl and say what it is you want?” His other hand slipped beneath the fabric of your blouse, his touch blazing and leaving you hot with want the higher up your torso it traveled. The tantalizing feeling of his blunt nails scraping along the plane of your stomach had your muscles clenching and your breath hitching, and Sebastian dipped his head lower so he was directly in your line of sight. You knew he saw your rampant need for him reflected in your eyes when his pupils dilated, and he moved his thumb away from your lip to caress your cheekbone as you stared wide-eyed up at him. He cocked his head to the side as he goaded you further, “Come on, darling. You’ve never had a problem with saying what’s on your mind before, why switch up on me now?” 
“Because it–” you started to say, cutting off mid-explanation when Sebastian curled his long fingers around your waist to press against your ribs in a way that nullified all coherent thought. His domineering presence over you left you nearly breathless. 
He smirked, all too aware of the effect he currently had on you. “It what?” 
Merlin, he was doing you in with barely any effort. Reducing you to nothing at the hands of his… well, hands. You were pathetic. He waited for your response though, his fingers dancing up your side promisingly while you worked to formulate a sentence. “I-It’s ridiculous,” you stammered out. “It’s embarrassing…”
The hand he’d tenderly ghosted across your cheek slipped behind your head, and his fingers tangled in your hair at the back of your skull to tug gently. The motion forced you to crane your chin up to follow Sebastian’s unwavering gaze, and his lips were close enough to yours that you felt his airy chuckle fan across your nose. “I already know what it is and I can tell you this much; you and I have very different definitions of what qualifies as ‘embarrassing’, darling.” His head dipped into the crook of your neck so he could better bestow wet, open mouthed kisses against your thundering pulse, and your stomach flipped at the sordid sounds he made as he went. “Come on, say it,” he implored you, his voice like velvet. “It’s only us here– tell me what you want.” 
“I…” you began, shuddering immediately after when Sebastian nipped at the spit-slick skin of your throat. Finding the words was only going to get increasingly difficult from here on out, you wagered. “I want your hands on me. I haven’t been able to get the thought out of my mind since school started.”
As though to punctuate his retort, Sebastian’s hold on your hair and your waist intensified, and a barely there squeak weaseled its way past your lips as he pulled away from your throat to fix you with a heated look. “My hands are already on you, sweetheart. Tell me why, use your big girl voice.”
Bastard. Your eyes sharpened in response to his quip, and your palms came to rest flat against the larger man’s chest before you dug your nails into the fabric of his shirt. “Because you really do have very nice hands. Because the mere idea of having them on me does things to me that I can’t begin to describe. And because I’m asking you nicely,” you purred the last bit to the best of your ability, relishing in the insatiable, hungry look that crossed Sebastian’s face at your tone. “Touch me, Sebastian. I want you– all of you. Please?”
As soon as Sebastian’s lips captured yours, your inhibitions ceased to exist. All you could taste, smell, feel, and hear was him, and judging by the demanding way he pulled you flush against him by your waist, that was exactly what he was going for. You keened needily as his nails dug into your sensitive skin and the fingers buried in your hair wound tight around the strands, and your boyfriend eagerly bit at your lips before backing away just enough to stare at you through his hooded, lust-dark eyes. 
“Keep talking to me like that and I’ll do anything you want,” he groaned, utterly captivated by the sight of you so wound up. You caved to his ministrations completely then, your stomach flipping over on itself when his chest pressed against yours and sealed you more firmly to the wall. His groin followed soon after– the long, hard length of him tangible through his trousers as he leaned into your spread legs further– and your own hands finally came to grasp at his shoulders when he rolled his hips against yours fervently. 
“Touch me,” you implored him, the request practically a whisper as it fell from your lips. “Your hands– please, Sebastian.” 
A pleased sound snaked its way through Sebastian’s clenched teeth as he obliged you instantly, releasing your waist and hair to run his hands down your torso before delving beneath your shirt. The rough, chill-inducing feeling of his calloused palms trailing against the bare skin of your stomach had you moaning in earnest, and your head tipped back against the wall with a thunk as he cupped your breasts in those heavenly hands you’d grown to adore so much. Sebastian took full advantage of your submissive position and buried his head in the exposed crook of your neck, his warm breath fanning across your skin as he murmured, “You sound incredible when you beg, darling. So fucking perfect– gods.” 
No words came to you to formulate a reply, especially when your boyfriend’s tongue darted out of his mouth to lave down the slender column of your throat, the biting sting of his teeth on your shoulder following soon after. Your next breath caught in your chest when Sebastian ground his stiffening cock against you once more, and his airy chuckle against you was seductive and ripe with promise. Those nimble fingers of his clawed gently over the rounded tops of your breasts before pinching your hardened nipples, and that was what finally pulled coherent English from your lips. 
“Fuck,” you groaned, unaware of just how much the brunet adored the needy timbre to your voice. 
Sebastian’s hands left your body for the briefest of moments to push himself off the wall, then took you by the hand to guide you towards the small bedroom tucked away in the back of the Room of Requirement. Between the two of you, your combined excitement was palpable– thick enough to cut with a knife– and as soon as you made it through the threshold of the door, he was back on you in a heartbeat. It was all a flurry of lips, teeth, and tongue as he steered you backwards towards the spacious bed, those magnificent hands of his holding your hips steady with firm reassurance. 
Once the backs of your calves connected with the mattress, Sebastian pulled away from your mouth with a wicked smirk, giving you a playful shove that sent you sprawling back on the bed with a startled yelp. It hardly mattered, though. Not when the man before you began undoing the buttons on his own shirt, exposing the tanned, freckled expanse of his toned chest. Not when he shrugged the attire off his sculpted shoulders and lowered himself to his knees so he could peer at you over your bent knees. Nothing else mattered aside from him.
“You know,” he started to say as his hands reappeared on your hips, tugging at the waistline of your trousers so they started to slide over your hip bones. “You’ve inadvertently given me lots of new ideas.” 
A shiver coursed its way down your spine at the suggestive tone he spoke the words with, amplified tenfold by the unrepentant fantasies that flickered through your mind. “Oh really?” 
“Really,” he agreed simply. The corner of his mouth twitched upwards and he gestured wordlessly for you to lift your hips so he could slide your pants down your outstretched legs. You obeyed, if only to get a move on with things so you could see the new ‘ideas’ Sebastian had apparently come up with. Dark, eager eyes met yours as he dropped your clothing to the floor, and then Sebastian asked, “Do you trust me?” 
Without missing a beat, you murmured, “Always.” 
Not another word was uttered, and you watched through hooded eyes as Sebastian prowled up the edge of the mattress to crawl over your prone form. Amusement seemingly glimmered in his lust-laden gaze as he set to expertly unbuttoning your shirt with his adroit digits, revealing inch after inch of your flushed torso, and goosebumps broke out over your stomach in the wake of Sebastian’s knuckles brushing against your heated flesh. 
He didn’t bother removing your blouse fully, opting to instead flick the sides of the undone top outward to let them hang disheveled against your sides. The shallow, anticipatory breaths you let loose was the only sound you made as the freckled man above you gathered your wrists in one of his larger hands to pin them above your head, and the entire time he worked to restrain your arms, his eye contact with you remained unwavering. Warriness and excitement alike pooled in the lower pit of your gut, mixing with the telltale ache between your legs that fueled the heat that slithered through your veins. 
Sebastian’s free hand came to touch you then, starting at the swell of your breasts before he gently thumbed over the peak of one of your nipples. The sensation had you sucking in a breath loud enough to make your boyfriend pause– only for him to repeat the motion a second time. “You’re rather pent up, aren’t you?” 
Despite yourself, you narrowed your eyes in response to his taunting and rolled your head to the side in an attempt to hide the blush you knew spread across your cheeks. “Shut up…”
The hand on your breast flew to your face, gripping your chin and turning your head back so you were forced to meet his penetrating stare. “Come on, be honest,” he goaded you further. “You missed me. Say it.” 
“Of course I missed you,” you relented quickly. “I didn’t see you for two months.”
That damnable smirk of his made its grand reappearance, and you hated how much you loved the sight of it. “You managed well enough last summer. Or were you lying through your teeth about handling the distance ‘easily’ on your travels?” 
Your fingers twitched in his unrelenting hold, the urge to crane your neck away again taking over, but you were forced to keep your eyes trained on his. “I wasn’t lying then, but I still missed you.”
The way his head tilted to the side curiously reminded you of an animal attempting to get a better look at their prey. “So why the sudden change?”
Chewing your lip thoughtfully for a moment, you decided to voice your inner thoughts regardless of how bashful the idea made you feel. “Because you changed. You’re… bigger.”
Your drab attempt at an explanation didn’t escape Sebastian, but that amusement still glinted in his eyes as he released your chin and trailed his hand down your torso towards your aching center. “Bigger, huh? Care to elaborate?” 
Skillful fingers slipped under the cotton of your undergarments, already damp with arousal, and you mewled softly when one of his digits slid through your wet folds before pressing down on your clit with delectable pressure. It nearly derailed your train of thought entirely, but Sebastian helpfully pulled away and snickered when your disappointed sigh slipped through your clenched teeth. “Dammit–”
“You talk,” he fucking purred down at you, looking far too smug for your liking, “and I work. Sound like a fair trade?” 
His offer was emphasized by one of his fingers probing at your slick entrance, further enticing you to oblige his request. When you angled your hips to meet the feeling, he pulled back swiftly, quirking a brow at you with a knowing look. 
Bastard, you thought. 
Fine. 
“Y-You’re bigger,” you started to say. “More muscular than before, and I think you grew a couple inches.” 
Sebastian’s hand resumed its teasing exploration of your center once more, gingerly inserting his middle finger inside of you as his thumb took to rubbing titillating circles against your clit. The flutter of your eyelids brought a coy smile to the brunet’s face, and his hold on your wrists tightened a fraction as he increased the intensity of his movements. He mockingly said, “You like having a big, strong boyfriend or something? The scandal.” 
You barely registered the gibe– not with his thumb slowly working over your clit in time with his finger. It damn near voided all of your brain’s function. All you cared to focus on was the bliss that came with finally having his hands on you. “Yes,” you groaned with blatant need. “I love it– I love it so much– you’re perfect, Sebastian.” 
Spurred on by your praise, Sebastian leaned down to mouth wetly at your throat, biting and sucking at whatever smooth skin he found as he pumped his finger in and out of your wet heat steadily. Your head rolled to the side to allow him easier access as he presumably worked a bruise into your flesh, and you relished in the knowledge that he was rebranding you as his after the summer months spent apart. A guttural moan spilled from your mouth as he laved his tongue over the mark and covertly slipped a second finger inside your cunt, crooking the digits up to reach a depth you could never hope to when you were pleasuring yourself. 
He took it slow, half for your sake and half for his own, but as Sebastian scissored his fingers and upped his tempo, he could see how you fell apart for him. You struggled to breathe, your every exhale colored with a panted, needy little sound while your thighs twitched and tensed on either side of his arm. When he shifted his fingers up just slightly, your entire body shuddered as your back arched off the bed and you choked on a breathy whine. You were so sensitive, so incredibly vocal, and it was driving him crazy. 
Sebastian’s size allowed him to stretch over the majority of your upper body easily, his hold on your arms still firm as he dipped his head lower to lick his way down to your breasts. Ever so gently, he took one of your nipples between his teeth and clamped down with a cautious amount of pressure, increasing the pace of his fingers when he heard your breath hitch in your throat. You could feel his lips stretch into a smile against your chest as your heart rate sped up and your hips involuntarily bucked up into his hand in search of more friction– more of him. 
“Merlin–” you writhed atop the sheets as that familiar ache took root in your gut, your finish approaching dangerously fast as Sebastian pressed the palm of his hand against your clit and somehow managed to pump his digits deeper inside of you. “Fuck, fuck!” 
He pulled away from your torso to watch you with rapt interest, a flicker of something primal flashing in his brown eyes as he observed your features pinching together with obvious focus as you chased the euphoria he bestowed upon you. “You’re close, aren’t you? I can feel it… I never thought just my hands could do it for you like this, sweetheart. Consider me pleasantly surprised.” 
His words meant nothing to you– not right now. Your climax was so close, so painfully close that all you cared to focus on was the steady rhythm of Sebastian’s fingers and his strength holding your wrists down to the bed. Brainlessly, you rolled your head to the side as Sebastian worked you towards the edge, only to blink blearily up at him when he released your wrists to grab the underside of your jaw and force your eyes back on him. 
“Look at me while you come on my fingers. I want to see every second of it.” 
Who were you to say no? 
Your release was akin to a tidal wave– crashing over you violently and stealing your breath as you tried your hardest to keep your eyes open and glued to Sebastian. Mouth falling open around an airy moan, your boyfriend continued to finger-fuck you through your orgasm as he captured your lips in a desperate, lethal kiss. “That’s it,” he groaned into your parted lips. “Good girl.” 
The brunet had the good grace to slide his fingers out slowly while he pulled away, laughing softly at the slight jolt your body gave when his palm grazed over your bundle of nerves once more. Dazed and twitching beneath him, you didn’t notice he’d brought his hand to his mouth until it was inches from your face, and the stars clouding your vision cleared just in time to watch him take the two fingers that had previously been inside of you between his lips. 
“I– what are you doing?” Your incredulous tone didn’t deter Sebastian in the slightest, and he smirked around his fingers before pulling them out of his mouth with an audible wet sound. 
“Tasting you,” he said casually, as if it were the most normal thing in the world. Then with a wink he added, “You’re very sweet.” Nearly all the blood in your body rushed to your cheeks in that instant, warming your face as your mouth fell open in silent shock. It was balmy– completely and utterly bewildering. Yet you couldn’t help but find the brazen move equally… arousing. 
You’d officially lost your mind. 
In a flash, he lowered his hand closer to your own open mouth, shoving the fingers past your lips and grinning when you squealed with indignant surprise. There was nowhere for you to go– nowhere for you to turn your head to escape the taste of yourself on his digits– and so you were left with no choice but to allow Sebastian to run his fingers along your tongue. The added knowledge that you found his hands so alluring only made the whole spectacle more intimate, and before you could stop yourself, you found yourself sucking shamelessly at his skin, working your tongue over his knuckles as you stared up at him with unrestrained desire. 
“Gods,” he muttered, swallowing thickly before pulling his fingers free from your mouth. His voice was shaky, and you dimly registered that your eager submission had gotten to him. 
You licked the remnants of yourself from your lips as Sebastian shuffled back to the edge of the bed, standing straight to hastily undo his trousers and shove the material down his long, toned legs. Numbly, you followed suit, sitting up shakily to shrug off your now wrinkled blouse and toss it aside to join the growing pile of clothing at your boyfriend’s feet. 
Nude as the day he was born, Sebastian confidently stared down at you and took in the full picture of you before him with an animalistic hunger shining in his eyes. His chestnut hair was unruly and curled wildly in every direction, the breaths he hurriedly sucked down causing his shapely chest to rise and fall in a way that dragged your attention to his strong, capable body. You drank in the sight of his tan, freckled skin, your wide eyes roving lower and lower until they landed on his hard cock arching proudly against his taut stomach. 
Maybe you were imagining things, but you could have sworn that was bigger too. 
When your eyes jumped back to Sebastian’s, you were positive he knew exactly what you’d been thinking, if his wolfish grin was anything to go by. “See something you like?” 
“Please fuck me,” you groaned, too turned on by the sight of him alone to be embarassed about how desperate you sounded. 
Sebastian effortlessly crawled back onto the bed and settled over you, pulling you into another intoxicating kiss as he slipped between your spread thighs and rolled his hips, grinding his achingly hard cock against your slit with a dizzying sort of precision. You couldn’t help but moan into the kiss, your eyes squeezing closed before you tilted your head back and arched up against him. “F-Fuck, you’re so hard,” you gasped, loosely hooking your legs around Sebastian’s hips. 
Groaning his agreement, Sebastian nipped at the side of your jaw and murmured, “You have no idea… want you bad.” He nuzzled your ear for a moment, humming at the way you shivered under him, then mouthed his way down your throat with hot, wet kisses that pulled a slew of tiny noises out of you as he rocked his hips again. 
Before you could wrap your arms around his shoulders like you’d planned, Sebastian was sitting back on his heels to manhandle you exactly where he wanted you. Those big hands of his grabbed you by your waist, hauling you down the bed like you weighed nothing so your rear was balanced over the tops of his knees and he was perfectly aligned with your slick entrance. The way he easily moved you around spoke volumes of the physical labor he’d done over the summer, slaving away the muggle way to restore his Uncle’s former home for the two of you to use after graduation. Every stone moved, every log chopped, and every wheelbarrow trundled was cataloged within the corded muscles that lined his body. 
If you weren’t already head over heels for the man, you were certain you would be deemed grossly smitten.
Sebastian’s hands slid from your waist to your thighs to better hold you in place as he bumped the tip of his cock against you, and your breath stuttered in your chest at the first steady roll of his hips, the head sliding home easily into your slick, tight, and warm heat. Your name fell from your lover’s lips in the form of a ragged moan, fingers digging into your legs as he rocked his hips slowly, feeling for any tension or resistance. Everything he’d done to soothe you, however, had paid off, and he found that once he pressed in more firmly, you took him perfectly, letting him slide deeper with every short thrust. 
He really had gotten bigger.
“I could tell you thought so,” Sebastian said around a laugh. Had you said that out loud? “Your eyes just about bugged out of your head when you looked earlier.” 
Embarrassed for the nth time in the last week, you looked away from him and quietly grumbled under your breath, “Whatever… don’t let it get to your head. Your ego is big enough as it is.” 
“It’s not the only thing that’s big apparently,” he countered easily. As though to punctuate the statement, Sebastian pulled his hips back once more before spearing into you with brutal efficiency, and the gasp that ripped from your throat then was followed by a breathless sound that bordered on a wail. 
It was so thick– Sebastian’s cock– and it filled you up and spread you open so incredibly, but it was the angle that was really rendering you incapable of thought. With your hips elevated, the blunt head brushed past your sweet spot with every dragging thrust, re-lighting that fire in your blood that threatened to set you ablaze. You wanted more, but you were almost afraid of how good it would feel, how high it would take you. Sebastian was all around you, with his hands gripping your thighs, deep inside you, stirring you up and coaxing brainless whimpers out of you, not bothering to hold back for your sake– and thank the gods for that. 
A meek keening sound arose from your throat as you gasped Sebastian’s name, and the brunet responded with a rough growl, stroking your thighs tenderly before abandoning one of them to place his hand on the lower part of your stomach. He pressed down with his fingers splayed against your skin, thrusting into you deeper so you could really feel every long, delectable inch of him within you, and the added pressure made your head spin and your walls clamp down on him. 
“Oh, fuck–” you moaned wantonly, arching your spine as much as you were able in a bid to feel as much as possible. Sebastian responded by moving his grip on your thigh to your waist, fucking into you harder until all you were capable of doing was whining for more with your eyes unfocused. Rational thought was gone– you were losing your mind with the way Sebastian was pounding into you now, that fire spreading through you– but you had quickly stopped being afraid of the feeling. The hotter you got, the more Sebastian’s perfect aim drove you higher until you were arching and pleading, noisy and half-coherent as overwhelmed tears filled your eyes. 
When you finally caught hold of words beyond brainless, wavering cries, you threw your head back with a gasping whine to loudly beg, “Sebastian, please, please–” 
“F-Fuck,” he stuttered out, moaning desperately into the empty air before he rasped, “You like it that much, darling? Want more?” 
“Yes!” You clawed mindlessly at the hand he had clamped against your waist, urging him to use the damn thing in the way you had dreamt of every night since returning to school. Ever the fast learner, Sebastian obliged you mercifully and let go of your waist, leaving you to hook your legs around his hips as he brought his hands to your throat to pull you onto his cock harder and faster, the sound of skin slapping against skin filling the room and muddling your brain further. 
“You look so perfect with my hands around your neck, darling.” Sebastian growled out in-between bestial grunts. “So pretty, so eager. Is it good?” 
He wasn’t choking the life out of you by any means, but the pressure he applied on either side of your neck added a sort of high that left your tongue useless in your mouth. You could hardly formulate words, much less a full sentence, but you still managed to stammer out a raspy, “Y-Yes, fuck–”
You were fairly certain you were drooling all over yourself, but you couldn’t find the willpower to care. There were too many sensations to keep track of, and through the haze of it all, your climax came into sight. Your hand came to grasp at one of the ones Sebastian had secured around your throat while the other fisted in the sheets, squeezing as hard as you could as you rutted back against his hips the best you could. It wasn’t doing much as far as you were concerned, but Sebastian evidently appreciated your attempt as he groaned roughly, letting his head hang between his shoulders as he began pumping his hips faster. 
“Shit– I’m close, I’m so close–”
Beyond your moans of encouragement, there wasn’t much else you could say. Sebastian took your motivating sounds in stride though, keeping one hand clamped around your neck securely as the other flew down to your clit, instantaneously rubbing urgent little circles around the nub in a bid to take you with him over the edge. Your voice was already raspy but so much louder and needier than Sebastian’s short moans of your name, and his half-baked praises and pleas intermingled with the distant banging of the headboard against the stone wall. Even through all that– through the spiking volume of your pleasure and the blinding need devouring you both– all Sebastian saw was you, and all you saw was ecstasy. 
When you finally came you wailed, long and loud as your hands clung to the sheets beneath you and Sebastian’s thick wrist alike, the latter of which knew better than to stop now. Your muscles tensed dangerously tight, your toes curling hard and your nails scraping fresh tracks down Sebastian’s forearm hard enough to leave welts, and your boyfriend was already holding on by a thread by the time your cunt clamped down tight around him. It was almost too hard to move, but there was just enough give that your climax peaked impossibly further and Sebastian fell right after you, crying your name over and over with the rough, faltering tempo of his hips. 
The two of you were hardly aware of anything as you both slowed down and came off of that high, but you eventually blinked the fog from your mind and came to realize Sebastian had long since abandoned his hold on your throat in favor of laying across your prone form, lightly peppering kisses against your collarbone as he sucked down breaths to catch his breath. The stinging twitch of uncoiling muscles and the swelling bites and scratches only served to bring you both back to reality in slow, leisurely time with one another, and at the end of it all it was Sebastian who found his voice first, murmuring yet another snide comment into the crook of your shoulder. 
“Should I start wearing gloves now?” 
Still breathless and spent from the last hour– hell, the entirety of the last week– your delirious laughter was uncontrollable as you realized and quickly accepted that the truth was now out there, and your boyfriend was more than ready to take full advantage of that. “I don’t think gloves will help, honestly.” 
The remainder of the school year would end up being a testament to just how true that claim actually was, you guessed. Your boyfriend, on the other hand, would most certainly enjoy every second of it. 
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Palentine’s: Rei and michiru “I find a belief in heaven rather cowardly, not to mention naive”
It had taken Rei a moment to find the right church to step into, Tokyo not having all that many choices, and some of them far afield, but she had managed. Now she sat in a pew, staring at the altar in the front. She should light a candle, maybe. Wasn’t that what her mother would have done? She had died so long ago, and for so many years Rei had held onto the little Catholic teaching she had for the sheer memory that her mother had cherished it. 
But at core, she was her grandfather’s child (Even so many years after his death, she could not consider herself her father’s, even if she saw more similarities on the page than she liked) and so she had little knowledge of how to grieve in a Catholic way, now that Shinto was proving no comfort. Any prayer she might have known at one time was as blurred and misty as the altar in her scarred sight, merely a sense of color and shape, impossible to define. 
A priest had stopped to ask if she needed anything, but then had mercifully left her. What could she have said? My wife died, she would say, and I don’t know what to do. She nearly spat at the thought of saying it. He would give some thin, pithy platitude and maybe assign a prayer she didn’t know and give her a card she couldn’t read. It would hardly be different from the thin, pithy platitudes other people were giving her. 
Mina left me, she would want to say, as her hands twisted around her cane. We have been together so long, and she just left me without a word one night. She didn’t say goodbye. She didn’t arrange things. Mina made a mess of everything and I had to fix it, again, just like I always do. She’s so irresponsible. 
“I supposed I might find you here.” 
Rei would never have needed to see to know who it was, her cool voice slicing through the silence of the church, her handbuilt heels clicking up the stone until they alighted on the aisle carpet. 
“I didn’t realize you pined so for the Catholic school of your youth.” 
“Michiru,” Rei sat in the pew, arms crossed, “Whatever you want to say just--shut up. I’m tired of hearing everyone give me advice, and tell me ‘oh it’s how she would have wanted to go,’ and ‘well at least you had love’ and all that stupid shit, and I can feel it, I can FEEL that you want to say something to me about you and Haruka and the nature of love and try and be that disconnected,” she was staring at her feet now, unable to keep her head raised for fear of showing the tears, “calm, poetic thing, and I don’t--” 
Her voice broke, then, shattered against the stone walls as if it were stained glass itself. 
“I was going to say, “ Michiru’s voice echoed in the emptiness, “That love is a gift; love is also a chain with a manacle at both ends.” she laughed softly, “Which is I suppose the sort of disconnected and cold poetry you accused me of, but we are what we are, at the close of business.” 
Rei wiped her face. “Thanks for the verse. Leave me alone.” 
“What I mean by that,” Michiru sat next to her and shook her head, “Have I ever been able to state something plainly? What I mean is, I very much understand what it is to be in the cold sea of life with someone, and suddenly realize that they are no longer alongside you, and you must keep swimming, but they are still tied to you, and the weight of their memory so heavy you might drown of it. I understand what it is to know that even a chest of gold can drag you to the bottom of the sea.” 
“Yeah, you know it so well it took you less than a year to be out with some woman every weekend.” 
“Because you love her, and you are in immense pain, I will forgive you for saying that.” her voice steeled. “Once. Say it again, so much as suggest it again, and we shall see which between us has kept her battle skills polished.” 
Rei opened her mouth. She wanted to fight. She wanted the argument, someone to yell at and hate. The feeling of combat, clean and clear and easy. All objectives known. She wanted to take this place and make it into her battlefield, to fight with Michiru, and fate, and God, whoever came first. Michiru would let her. Michiru would fight her, and truly resist her, because Michiru would know she needed it. 
Somehow, knowing Michiru loved her enough to do so made it less appealing. 
“How did you know I was here?”
Michiru crossed her ankles and leaned against the back of the pew. “Oh, Rei, I am well aware you see yourself as a great mystery, but I have known you lo these many years, and the most picturesque and quasi-European Catholic church in the broader Tokyo area, resplendent with carved wood and stained glass, seemed like a fairly reasonable place to start.”
Rei grabbed at her cane, but stayed seated. Where would she go?
“You’ve chosen a lovely place to mourn, however. The altar is carved entirely of dark wood, with two angels kneeling on either side, perhaps in grief, perhaps in reverence--what is the difference, really, when it comes to it? To grieve is only to accept the superiority of death--and against the white of the apse, it gives a nearly silhouetted effect. The stained glass, in parts, seems almost inspired by the likes of Chagall, in color and form, though i suppose we could argue Chagall himself had many inspirations. Though of course even in a more modern style one still has the usual suspects of Jesus and Mary and the like.”
She did this when they went new places together, pretending she was talking to herself, describing things Rei could no longer see. 
“Shame today is so sunny, I think, given the decor this place could truly encapsulate the moodiness you crave. If you’d ever like to go to Europe with me, it abounds with desolate and dank little chapels in which one can simmer as a stew, if one wishes. None of this garish white plaster to make the place cheerful. Who would want such a thing? One does not attend a mass to feel good about oneself, though I suppose it could be argued having nothing in the way of religion myself, I merely don’t understand.” 
Michiru,” Rei looked at the altar again. She could see the peaks that must be the top of the angels’ wings, and it began to come together in her mind, “Do you think there’s anything? Anything at all?” She rubbed the end of her cane. “Usagi told me Mina is in heaven. I just can’t--”
“Oh,” Michiru looked back at the altar, she and Rei in perfect paralell. “I find a belief in heaven rather cowardly, not to mention naive. I can accept the darkness. The nothing.” 
Rei gave a chuff. “You really know how to comfort someone.” 
“Rei, I happen to know you are perfectly capable of believing ridiculous things even with my express disagreement, otherwise you would cease bringing bargain wines to dinner. But,” she carefully, as if touching a wounded animal, took Rei’s hand, ‘We know I am no optimist. Perhaps there is, some sort of monistic thing, where all things are one, and in that sense perhaps they are still with us. If I believe anything, I believe that Haruka is with me when I see my daughter brush back her hair, or cut a sandwich into triangles.” 
“I want there to be something.” 
“So do we all.” 
“No,” her grip on Michiru tightened, “I want there to be something, so I can tell her how angry I am. Why wasn’t she wearing a helmet? Why was she driving it at night, in the rain? Why wasn’t she more careful? She was too old to be riding a motorcycle, and she just went out, and did it, without thinking, and I am so angry with her. I want her to know! I want her to know I will be mad at her forever!” 
Michiru laid her other hand on Rei’s. “Forever is a long time. Perhaps that is why I could never countenance the idea of heaven. But be angry now, at least. Come home with me.” 
Michiru rose to her feet, keeping hold of Rei’s hand with her strong one. 
“Why?” 
“Well, I cannot promise God, or Minako, will listen, but I can assure you that I shall. In any case, my apartment is private and well-stocked with your suitably terrible wine, and I am also happy to say nothing at all. I will not require your calm, or your acceptance, or your healing. Be hysterical. Be in fierce denial. Be wounded and enraged. Come as you are, but come with me.” 
Rei nodded and grabbed her cane, rising to her feet. 
She could see the angels now.
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thedoctor91011 · 2 years
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For the WIP tag game, "tangled webs"
It's a Spiderman!Izuku fic I'm working on 👀 I'm planning some stuff out for it right now but I can't wait to write in earnest once I have the time (which will be soon!)
Synopsis:
When the doctor tells Izuku that he's quirkless, he does not give up. He spends the night crying, and then picks himself up. He moves forward.
If he won't have a quirk to support him, he'll need other skills to fall back on. He trains his body and his mind. He learns to fight. He hones his skill with analysis. He learns about tactics, weapons, and computers. He learns how to find information before a fight and during it, and he learns how to put it to use.
Midoriya Izuku will be a hero.
And then, when he has finally, stubbornly forced his way onto the path, everything changes.
He has powers, but it's not a quirk. He is strong, and fast, and flexible--more than he could be from training alone. He finally has everything that has been denied him, and now that he has it, everything has changed.
He has powers, but it's not a quirk, and that puts him and his mom at risk. If they find him, if anyone finds him, she'll be in danger. And that's one risk he will never take.
For the first time, he believes what everyone has always said, even if it's for the opposite reason. But he was stubborn. He wouldn't give up. Even if it couldn't be as a hero, he would save people.
If he couldn't be a hero, he'd just have to be a vigilante instead.
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docwritesshit · 10 months
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Uhhhh... Does anyone have a request? I can do a oneshot or head cannon until people are ready for OC content and I fixed up the story.
Or... You can ask me about my OC if you want
I don't mind questions
Reference for her under the cut
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Name is Yujin Wei, but her nickname is Ash!
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tubbytarchia · 2 months
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Missed drawing these two too
Bonuses
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