house and wilson seeing each other for the first time in months in s08e02

all of heartstopper season 2 was incredible, but joe’s acting of charlie freezing up and going silent every time he was around ben, his abuser, was especially phenomenal. it really does feel exactly like that. like you have so much you want to say and fight back with but you just can’t.

and i’m happy charlie got to stand up for himself and say what he wanted to towards the end.

this small, tiny moment actually makes me want to slam my head into a concrete wall there’s so much expression and emotion and heaviness packed into these 5 seconds of animation it’s insane (or maybe im insane? but does it matter?)

Hey, I came from your post about Night. I’ve been wanting to read it for a while now, but I’ve heard that the English version is very watered down and stripped of the original emotions that are in the Yiddish version. Do you know if there are any more accurate English translations, or if the Hebrew one is more like the original? Sorry if you’re not the right person to ask about this, you just seem quite knowledgeable

(also coming from my vent account so I don’t get any hate on main for being a Jew lol)

No worries at all, @nonbinary-vents:

I want to be clear about something: My post was aimed at goyim.

You are a Jewish person, and reading this book (especially if you haven't read any other accounts of experiences in concentration camps) may be an important thing for you to do. And I'd cautiously encourage you to do so if you feel emotionally stable. But you do not need to worry about the experience of this book feeling watered down.

If you are Jewish and not in a very stable emotional state, do not read this book. Do not cause yourself harm.

(If you are goyiscshe, you should challenge yourself and force yourself to read this book. Obviously if you are in an actual emotional/psychological crisis or dealing with the death or illness of a loved one, then you are the only goyim who has an excuse not to read this book. No matter who you are, do not read this book if it will cause you actual mental harm or drive you to somehow cause yourself physical harm. But if it will make you upset, depressed, panicked at your own failings, or other extremely unpleasant but ultimately human discomfort, then you should read this book. Jews don't get a choice about knowing this shit, because knowing this shit is how we survive. And you NOT knowing this shit is what makes it so easy for you to dismiss and target us over and over and over again. You should be uncomfortable. You should feel guilty. Because unless you're actively learning how to disentangle yourself from the antisemitism that led to The Holocaust, then you are actively participating in thee fomentation of another. And that should horrify you.)

Sure, I bet this book is even more haunting and visceral in the original Yiddish. I've spoken recently about how hard Jewish language is to translate to English.

But there is no world in which this book will feel watered down to you.

@nonbinary-vents This book will haunt you. This book will change you. This book will challenge your faith and your ability to trust people.

Remember going in that Judaism asks us not to separate ourselves from our community--not just our Jewish community, but any community in which we find ourselves. Resist the urge this book may stir within you to become insular and fearful of goyim. That is not our way. We are a part of the communities and cultures and nations in which we find ourselves. And we must do good for those communities, because that is what we are called to do. The lesson of this book for Jews is different than the lesson of this book for goyim.

The lesson of this book for Jews -- in fact, the lesson of "Never Again" for Jews -- is that we cannot ever allow this to happen to ourselves again. No, of course, I am not blaming Jews for the Holocaust and if anyone thinks that's what I'm arguing here, then they can fuck off.

The lesson of this book for Jews is that we must never again let fear hold us back from fighting for ourselves. If he world calls upon us to die, we must refuse. Refuse to put ourselves on a list. Refuse to follow our oppressors' directions to the ghetto. Refusal to get on the train or to enter the gas chamber. And we must refuse to be silent for other people's comfort. While it is a Jewish imperative to believe that every human being is capable of kindness and has inherent goodness within them, we can never again trust that the kindness and goodness they possess will ever be directed at us. There was the very understandable thought back when this all started that if we just complied--if we were just willing to suffer a little bit by moving to the ghettos or registering on the lists of Jews the Nazis demanded or carried our papers with us at all time and wore our stars just as they said --then they would eventually realize we were good citizens. They would eventually realize we were just people like them doing their best to live quiet lives and follow the rules. People believed that, if we just complied, they'd remember their humanity and our own. If we just complied and let ourselves suffer, hen maybe our friends and loved one would be safe.

But that was a lie we told ourselves.

No amount of compliance or agree-ability or self-sacrifice will ever make someone who sees Jews as evil and subhuman realize that Jews are actually just human beings like everyone else. Compliance will never ensure our safety; it will just make us easier to kill. Compliance won't make antisemites see us as human; it will only ever make them see us -- at best -- as agreeable livestock.

(although I doubt any farmer would treat their animals as cruelly as Nazis and their supporters treated us).

I am not advocating for violence. But I advocating for discomfort and defense. That is why I am on here every day writing the things I write. I will not shut up for the comfort of people who don't care about my life or my safety. And neither should you. Neither should any of us. I will not allow antisemites to co-opt our own tragedies to demonize us further while casting themselves as warriors for justice.

No, we should not take to the streets and start harming goyim. But if the day comes that they once again start to round us up, I for one will tear those Nazis a-fucking-part with my bare hands. And if they live to have children and grandchildren of their own, they will have to explain to their children and grandchildren that they got the scars on their face and the missing eyeball because the Jew they were trying to murder wouldn't submit quietly.

And if this seems like a hyperbolic and absurd hypothetical to anyone reading this? Well, yeah. It seemed like one back then, too.

(And if any goyim chose to read "Night" by Elie Wiesel because of my post, please tell me. Please engage. I cannot be emphatic enough about this. If you are willing to read night in the way I asked of you in my post, then please do reach out to me with your experience and thoughts. Because that's the whole point. Jews need you to listen and engage with us about our own suffering. We need you to consider your impact on us and to not run away from that guilt or from us. If any of you are willing to read this book in the way that I have asked of you, please please please don't keep your experience to yourself. A lot of Jews desperately need to see goysiche growth in understanding antisemitism and its affects. I don't think you can even imagine how scared and lonely we are right now)

i understand why people say, like, that Amara can always channel Dhurke as needed for Rayfa or Nahyuta or Apollo or whatever, but i'm also like... would they not prefer for him to rest. cause like, it seems clear to me based on the way it's talked about in 6-3 that there is a sense of guilt in summoning the dead from their eternal rest to deal with MORE bullshit in the land of the living.

i don't think Dhurke would mind, confusing as it is for him, but i think Nahyuta would. idk. it's not like he doesn't want to see his dad. there's so much they haven't talked about, so much that Nahyuta wished he could have told his dad, wished Dhurke would have had the time to forgive him maybe, etc etc. but after 6-5, after Amara gets out of the hospital and they're off to the races trying to overhaul this country, i just think Nahyuta in particular would get this feeling that the ship has sailed. he can't keep clinging to the past, though it'll be a long time before he ever forgave himself for not talking sincerely with Dhurke one last time before it was over.

he had his shot to reconcile, he missed it, and that's something to reckon with. i think it just isn't something he feels is worth continually dragging Dhurke back to the living world over, though one could also chalk it up to a discomfort and unease with finally facing everything and talking it out. there's no telling that Amara wouldn't force the subject and channel Dhurke anyway, but, y'know.

Im not saying these kids don’t deserve closure, but I sort of think the lack of closure is the point to me? That they had to find closure through the trial and through their own actions, I guess? They could channel Dhurke one more time but I just don’t think that’d be the end of it if they did. Let the man rest. it's the least they owe him, even if it's hard to accept. otherwise, you're just picking at the scab forever.

wow you people are fucking weird not everything needs to be discourse??? just let disabled people have feelings and boundaries??? so weird to speak over a marginalized group on an issue you clearly know nothing about just because you misinterpreted the conversation in the first place. disgusting i’ve seen the language “moral panic” and “catastrophizing” to gaslight disabled people while simultaneously trying to say you “get we’ve been left behind in this pandemic”…as we try to speak about how this pandemic is affecting us

reflecting on my life and mental state i’m sad to report that id be primed for the eye, the spiral, the vast, the buried, the dark, the slaughter, the lonely, the flesh, and the end

the doctor who did my smear test gave me valuable as all hell information as to how to speed up getting my autism diagnosis sorted cause she also deals with that sort of stuff and i legit would not have known any of it had i not bit the bullet and gone for that stupid deeply uncomfortable test.

So yeah, vagina havers, go get your damn smear tests. you might learn something totally random but super valuable!

“He’s no Skywalker”

Anakin, Rex, and Bridges:

1. Lack of consent, permission, or Rex’s participation in the plan

2. Long drop that is very unsafe for Rex

3. Clear fear from Rex as he falls

4. Disregard for Rex’s fear and requests on how to work together better after having not asked permission or given any warning about his plan

Kanan, Rex, and Bridges:

1. Asking for permission and consent, gains Rex’s active participation in the plan

2. Plan involves a fairly easy way for Rex to get to safety

3. Expends effort to ensure Rex gets to safety before thinking of his own needs or trying to get across himself

im not even really flamboyant and I still used to hide my mannerisms so bad pls god never smother yourself it was never ever worth it, you are not the exception

If anyone’s noticed I’ve been using a new brush and it’s been allowing me to draw anything that comes to my mind I’m unstoppable GRAAAAHHHH

Writing Patterns!

Rules: list the first line of your last 10 (posted) fics and see if there's a pattern!

Thanks for the tags @postmodernau and @teddywesworl!! This is such a fun idea - I only have the six, but here we go!

1. Steve’s father dies in November of 1991.  [don't you hear me howling, babe? | steddie]

2. There is a crack in the top left corner of the bathroom mirror. [reach out, touch faith | steddie]

3. Eddie tips his head back to watch the curl of smoke disappear in the light from the porch. [swing for the fences | steddie]

4. If he’s being honest, Steve isn’t a hundred percent sure how they manage to get Eddie back through the gate. [cabin fever | steddie]

5. Eddie stands in front of the cracked mirror like he's daring his own reflection to make a joke. [any other way | steddie]

6. His lungs are on fire. [we know where we're going | steddie]

No pressure tags for @sparklyslug @oakenorcrist @cuips-not-cute @cranberrymoons

y'know, i keep making a habit of swinging my bat at hornets nests, but i have to say i'm getting so, so tired of people complaining about shows not making perfect sense when they aren't even close to done. we're four episodes into this season of doctor who. we're four episodes into this season of bridgerton. and yet in both fandoms i keep seeing people whine that such and such didn't make sense or it wasn't explained all the way and by god you guys i think maybe explanations might come later in the season. this is something most viewers will recognize as being called a 'plot.'

@la-voce-to-me replied to your post “Do you have any advice on how to write good...”:

My biggest one is erring on the side of drawing it out rather than rushing it. Nothing kills character chemistry like scenes they havent been built up enough for! Giving characters enough time to explore/build their chemistry is 🗝 I think of in Pride&Prejudice, part of why that hand flex scene is SOOO captivating is because all the previous moments where there COULD have been "positive" physical contact were instead spent playing the "who can be most disinterested" game. Its an overture of kindness AND intimacy that had been previously withheld! Lizzie is appropriately shocked and Darcy appropriately freaking out about this deviation from the status quo! But if we didnt see them establish that status quo, it wouldnt matter so much. We wouldnt understand WHY the chemistry in that scene is unreal. There's also something about the coopting of common gestures that makes me swoon. Why is a fistbump so different from character A than from all the rest. What made character b do a double take about making A laugh. You know?

​This is very well said! It's so great when relationships develop slowly. It's very satisfying to observe two characters, who aren't interested in each other, start to notice each other and then grow deep feelings for one another. Sometimes in books characters meet and are immediately attracted to each other and it feels very repetitive to hear how gorgeous the love interest is with every following meeting. This is definitely how the tension often disappears. Ah, the hand flex! Oh man, I aspire to achieve this kind of chemistry. (I feel like in many cases romances lack kindness and intimacy (other that sexual) and characters are becoming more and more selfish. But maybe I'm wrong.)

im so close to finishing our wives under the sea and i have never read a more hauntingly beautiful story about love and loss and grief that also made me feel the most uncomfortable in my own skin before

im going to start mauling people if they keep trying to ask me about my discourse positions. "what do you think about [x]" ok well first off i don't think about it. at all. secondly the weather is nice today. thirdly i'm going to go play outside. have a good day