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crybaby-bkg · 1 year

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a slight continuation of this

no caller ID pops on your screen, pulling your attention away from your previous task at hand: not fucking up your eyeliner. you typically wouldn’t care if it was a little uneven, but you’re going on a date tonight, for the first time in so long, and you want everything to go as smoothly as possible.

which is why you groan when you end the call, and that same no caller ID pops right back up seconds later. you know who it is—who else would it be? you figured he’s already seen your story of being excited for going on your first date in a while, on the only app you hadn’t blocked him on. petty? perhaps, but it’s on him to be keeping up with you despite you cursing him out for wasting your time and then blocking him right after.

you watch it ring though, contemplating for a while longer than you should. you blocked him for a reason. no need to entertain his same shit that he always spews to you when he realizes that he might be losing you once more?

….but it doesn’t hurt to hear the hero beg for you.

“What do you want, Bakugou?” You sigh irritably as you finally answer his call, putting him on speaker as you go back to even out your eyeliner. You hear him huff on the other side of the phone at the use of his surname, but he doesn’t say anything about it, instead, quickly telling you what he’s been bothering you for.

“Who’s the fuckin’ loser that’s gonna drool over how good your tits look in that stupid green dress you love so much?” Bakugou grunts, and you instantly feel your face heating at his crude words. You glance over with a frown at that same green dress that makes your tits look good, where it hangs on your closet.

“None of your damn business, Bakugou.” You snap at him, wondering if it’s too late to find something else to wear. “Not like you ever took me out in my stupid green dress.” Your voice holds a level of bitterness that only he can bring out of you, and you hear his sigh through the speakers.

“I told you this before, I’m always—”

“Busy.” You cut him off, voice suddenly thick as you think back on the countless rejections he’s splattered at your feet every time you tried to further your relationship with him. “You reminded me of how busy you’ve been since you first started this whole situationship.”

“Situation—? Huh? We were dating!” Bakugou protests with a huff, and you can hear how he paces the floor quickly. You glare at your phone, setting down your liner to instead pick of your (his) favorite lipgloss.

“You’d have to ask me out to be dating, Bakugou. You’d have to court me to be dating, Bakugou. You’d have to make time for me and take me out on dates and not hide me to fucking date me, Bakugou.” You spit at him, venom dripping off of your lips in waves. You don’t know why you answered, why you even entertained him. You shake your head with a huff when the line goes quiet, eyebrows quirking up when your date sends you a text to make sure you’re still on for tonight.

“I’m sorry.” Bakugou mutters pathetically, his voice suddenly soft. You hesitate, for some reason, when it comes to texting your date back. Why do you always hesitate when Bakugou is around?

“Let me make it up to you, court you, and shit. I can take you to one of my favorite places, you can wear that pretty green dress and that gloss you know I love.” His voice is pleading, thickening and sweet and suffocating. You shouldn’t respond, should reply back a yes to your date.

“Please? You know how much you mean to me.” Bakugou mumbles, and you can hear the earnestness in his voice. Why haven’t you said yes to your date yet?

“I’ll do better this time. Just one more chance, sweetheart.” Bakugou’s voice is so soft, you’ve never heard him this vulnerable before. You sigh with a shake of your head, slumping back into your seat in defeat.

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Sorry, I can’t make it tonight. Something came up. Maybe we can reschedule for another time?

#sorry this is kinda angsty lol #but I saw this tt earlier where this girl was so giddy bc ‘no caller id’ called LOL #and it just reminded me of the first part to this #at first he’s all ‘no we can’t date bc of xyz bullshit reason’#but the moment you’re like ‘I’m done w this toxic back n forth we’re not even a couple’#he’s like WE WERE TOGETHER THE WHOLE TIME!!!!!#delusion is what I like to call it #also he definitely takes you out to a place that’s very secluded and exclusive #to shut you up for the time being #the whole ‘at least I took you out!’ shtick #I hate him actually #but the toxic hate sex goes crazy ☝🏻#okay gn I’m sleepy and I felt so shitty today #or yesterday #so I’m hoping today will be better #maybe I’ll mediate before I start on my work #I wanna go on a walk sometime this week bc it’s gonna be great weather but my anxiety keeps telling me #that one of the stray cats or foxes is gonna attack me AKSJDKDJDJD #omg does anyone remember me talking about that calico kitty in my backyard at one point???#I haven’t seen her since and I hope she’s okay :( we miss her :(#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#bakugou treats! 🍬

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olasketches · 2 years

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gege, when?

#this is how I manage to stay positive guys #delusion is what I like to call it #jjk #iori utahime #kugisaki nobara #my art #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen fanart #I miss these two so so soo much #mamahime

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fumifooms · 1 month

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Homegrown

Thistle and Delgal - Dungeon Meshi, Ryoko Kui

^ Fernando Pessoa / Killing Flies, Michael Dickman / A Brother Named Gethsemane, Natalie Diaz / Antigonick, Anne Carson v Oats We Sow, Gregory and the Hawk

#Dungeon meshi #spoilers #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #thistle #sissel #thistle dungeon meshi #web weaving #web weave #Just in case for sake of transparency: in the ‘what a relief everyone’s safe’ panel I erased a bit of dialogue he originally said #‘What a relief everyone’s BODY IS safe’#But yk. Delusions angst. Dinner table Thistle imagery you are famous to me #delicious in dungeon #Umm go check out my Thistle & Falin fic on ao3 called Slivers maybe idk #Sometimes it does feel like Thistle has an age regression through the manga it’s interesting. Kui what were you cooking #I am a firm believer that Thistle’s an adult and that that doesn’t take anything away from his narrative tho.#He’s the older brother here & that’s the whole point. God dunmeshi family narratives I love youuu #Thistles are a weed… Idk the garden theme for him works great imo. Make that dungeoneum manage that kingdom like an ecosystem

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adhbabey · 7 months

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not everything spiritual or "weird" is a delusion or delusional attachment (challenge impossible).

But no, seriously, do NOT assume people's spiritual beliefs are delusions and vice versa, do NOT say people's delusions are spiritual.

You do not have the right or consent to reality check people without permission, and people are not "crazy" or "delusional" when they have beliefs that exist outside of proven science.

It drives me CRAZY, that people, especially skeptics, call people terms like "delusional" or call people insults, just because they have different beliefs than you.

You literally are an ableist cunt if you do this shit.

#babey posts #spirituality #actually nd #witchblr #madpunk #idk what else to call this #just stop doing it please #i just saw someone call otherkin a cult and delusional like shut the fuck up #PLEASE STFU #they are different things and NO ONE besides those that identify that way WANT YOU TO CALL PEOPLE THAT #everyone wants you to stop using terms like DA and delusions like that

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duncanor · 1 year

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Okay but was this scene the only time Wolfwood called Vash by his real name or am I delusional?

I legit can't remember one other time where he called him Vash.

#trigun #Trimax #Vashwood #Vash #Wolfwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #I was thinking #And was like damn he really never wanted to say his name even once #And then I REMEMBERED #And you know what #I think he tried to say it when they met #But Vash stopped him #I don't remember well #It might genuinely be the delusion #Anyway it REALLY was his 'oh' moment #Like damn #Calling him by his name?? Someone is really catching feelings huh #Anyway

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compacflt · 8 months

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what dog would icemav get?

im guessing no mangy devil chihuahuas or rescues (compacflt can't be seen with anything but a purebreed) golden retriever might be too on the nose, how about a malinois or a german shepherd maybe an english bulldog (ugly)

idk. i don’t really have a dog in this fight (i don’t care) (pun intended). but it definitely would have to be like a Real Dog. yeah nothing smaller than 70 lbs. a Real Dog. other than that i don’t have any opinions. could be a mutt or a rescue! but it would have to be, you know, handsome and upstanding and like, a Real Dog that you can, like, do stuff with. it is very cliche and on the nose and maybe im only saying this bc i, like, don’t care at all about dogs but ice does seem like the white lab/golden retriever guy and mav strikes me as a german shepherd guy. there are many reasons i don’t think they would ever have a dog (what would they do with the dog?) but not being able to agree on the breed might be one reason they never get a dog. arguing and bickering etc

#it would also have to be a boy.#same thing if jake & Bradley ever have/adopt a kid—has to be a boy or ice & mav are not interested #obviously for the human girl child they would have to suck it up and be good grandparents anyway but they’d have no clue what they’re doing #theyd never willingly adopt a female dog i just don’t believe it i don’t think they’re that good of people #what is a malinois?#pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #asks #i do think ice & mav would be kickass cat owners though #you know like guys in their 50s/60s don’t really care about cats and their cats don’t really care about them #but it’s a mutually beneficial relationship and like they’re chill with each other #ice finding a cat under his car during a cold winter out in the sierras #posting pictures on twitter ‘we might keep him internet help what do we do’#take him to the vet etc #my husband & i have decided to keep him. we could not agree on a name so we have decided to call him cat. here are pictures. he is polite.#etc etc all things you’d like to see from a retired admiral on Twitter #my delusions are sometimes involved #idrc whether they get a pet or not though like i just drc it’s just a literary symbol for unspoken commitment #and the ways he’s thinking about that commitment without committing to actually thinking about that commitment #one day someone will take me out back and shoot me for having tags this long

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ihatethiswebsite77 · 1 year

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Watching "it's a Jersey thing". I am beyond confused and in disbelief as to what prompted Cartman to say that

"Deep down you're a monster, but you're my little monster" line.

My working theory is that part of the reason Cartman hates and constantly rips on Kyle for things about him that he can't inherently change, and why he paints a narrative where he assigns those traits a negative meaning even tho they aren't negative in nature is because he is subconsciously annoyed that there is nothing "naturally" negative about Kyle. Kyle is pretty much a well adjusted kid for the most part, but his negative personality traits do come out a LOT when he is interacting with Cartman, but there's nothing about where he 'comes from' that's negative. He has a happy and healthy family, he knows his dad, his parents have respectable jobs, etc.

As opposed to Cartman, who is deluded about being "naturally big boned" which is something for which he is constantly being ridiculed, as well as his mother being a "crack whore" which is also something that he is constantly being ridiculed for. He can't change who his mother is, (and while he could lose weight) he doesn't really believe that cuz like I said he is deluded by his mother into thinking that that's just how his family is.

So when he finds out Kyle is from new Jersey, he immediately jumps to ripping on him about it. Because it's something that Kyle is just "naturally" that everyone in town actually considers to be a negative trait.

But then, when Kyle actually shows that Jersey side to everyone, and it stops being just a way for Cartman to do his usual thing of assigning negative traits to things Kyle is, even tho for once he actually has ground to rip on Kyle for, Cartman is very chill with him.

Almost like, knowing that deep down inside Kyle actually has that "monster" in him brings comfort to Cartman, because now he feels like Kyle is a bit more similar to him.

The "he's just like me fr" of it all.

Or maybe I'm just reaching for the high heavens with this analysis. Who knows.

#might delete later if when i watch the rest of the episodes i find that this take doesn't hold water #insane takes brought to you by delusions of grandeur #most likely I am looking too deep into this #but it also explains a lot so i kinda like it #i remember seeing a post on here that was talking about how people started calling cartman 'cartman' and how it's basically a label for #both him and his mother and i think that interpretation works really well with this analysis #essentially the 'where you come from and what you are' lables you as a fuck up part of the analysis #if i end up posting this just know i debated it before i don't wanna come across as excusing cartmans behavior #this is more like #explaining why i think he acts the way he does #his motivation and shit #especially in regards to kyle because that's where it gets most confusing #eric cartman #kyle broflovski #kyman #eric cartman analysis

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flutt3rb4tz · 3 months

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every time i see the word "delulu" i cringe so hard its like hooooly fuck those ppl would hate me and my "everyone can read my mind im always being watched/theres bugs crawling on me all the time/someones going to kill me" bullshit LOLLLL

#💞 god is calling #🛑 !!CW DELUSIONS!!#<- really minor cw but lie LOLL #not a vent btw just. opinions opinions #ive watched ppl like me get called 'delulu' for #literally being .. mentally ill #like. in front of me #before my face. DIRECTED at my conversation #and its like #what is fucking wrong with you actually #its not funny? its not funny. its not funny why are you #joking about it??#i hate tiktok and twitter for getting it popular #i really do

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lys-lilac · 8 months

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[JP] RMD VIP event: Delusional. ~Our Fetish. Thanks for the meal~

EXCUSE ME MY EYES HELLO?!

So, Voltage released a new VIP event on occasion of RMD's 5th anniversary. What the heck is that cute chibi MC and these 6 men jlhsklkdsjllkl

And these delusional stories descriptions WHAT IS THIS T^T

[Kasumi]

"Before performing a risky heart surgery, Kasumi is forced to choose between the dream of pregnancy of the patient and her own life. You find yourself pondering over what choices you would make if this were your surgery. At that time, something you said to him, imagining a future with Kasumi, moved his heart…"

[Takado]

"Takado tells a couple who had been planning for their retirement that their dreams may not come true in the future. One night, as he was having complicated feelings as a doctor, he found you collapsed in the living room…!? Takado, still more anxious than ever, runs for tomorrow with you!"

ALSO THIS FREAKING PREVIEW-

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tswwwit · 1 year

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Had a very funny thought in my head of bill successfully getting a cult started at some point between reincarnations just bc he’s bored. By coincidence dipper gets reincarnated into a kid who grows up in said cult and bein all culty n stuff. When it’s finally time for bill to pick up his human he’s low key annoyed that dippin dorks all culty. Problem is immediately fixed when dipper remembers everything and goes back to normal.

The experience becomes a very funny story at dinner parties where dipper cringes and bill thinks it was a wacky time. I imagine the cult gets broken up by dipper bc i want to give them a happy ending too.

Oh boy, poor, poor Bill. It's one thing for Dipper to pretend to be subservient - that's all fun and games, not real. But a version of Dipper where he's actually, sincerely, bowing and kneeling before Bill? That gets a full on 😬 Sure, he likes weird! This is certainly that!

But it's like. The flipped version of Dipper watching Bill cheerfully working at a soup kitchen, or tenderly nursing a baby bunny back to health or something. Not what he should be doing. Bad. Just so wrong. Man, he's gonna be glad when his feisty little guy gets his brains back

Also contains: One confused Dipper, whose 'god' is actually really... annoying?? And for some weird reason, it seems to make said 'god' happy when he finally gets fed up enough to be bitchy about it.

#answers #Bill's equal parts amused and annoyed - it'd be hilarious if it wasn't happening to *him*#As it stands he's just gotta wait for things to sort themselves out #Bill's gonna keep his hands to himself at the outset this time #Something about the idea of trying to seduce Dipper when he's like this makes his organs feel squirmy in a bad way #It's kind of cute having a 'servant' that he just kidnapped. The cult was pretty cool!#He's much *less* thrilled to see the impact it's had on his defiant stubborn husband. The brains are there but they're full of delusions #Again something he would typically like but he's always loved that Dipper liked the *real* Bill. That's not what he's seeing now #Where's that insight?? The fond exasperation?? Where's him calling Bill an asshole and smacking him then kissing him anyway???#Watching Dipper shrink back and shut his mouth makes Bill disappointed every time. What a pain.#It's frankly a huge relief when Dipper starts getting snappy and petty again; Bill's gonna be *extra* annoying just to encourage it #He knew nothing would keep Pine Tree down for long 😌#Dipper here going 'I should theoretically be worshipping this guy but he's an ASSHOLE and furthermore a huge goddamn dork.'#Torn between wanting to smother Bill with a pillow and kneel in a different way #Frantically googling whether it's weird to wanna murder your own deity and or seduce him. Can you do both.

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hauntingblue · 2 years

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Mmm.... so FRIENDSHIP it is

#fun game: count how many times friendship and minkhoa in all caps has appeared in this issue #also i liked the end it was good and i enjoyed it btw but im gonna focus on what i wanna focus #and im going to choose my delusions always #so ghostbat nation how we feeling #im starting a conspiracy that they kissed in this issue but considering how in like issue 5 there were people calling them gay (derogatory)#editorial made changes. this is my truth this is my design #ghostbat #ghostmaker #batman #bruce wayne #khoa khan #mihnkhoa khan #talking tag #editorial: okay see where you wrote gay relationship you are going to write FRIENDSHIP like this in all caps #wednesday spoilers #btk #batman the knight

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francy-sketches · 11 months

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People complaining that jon and dany didn't have kids in s8 is so silly to me bc the idea of a reanimated corpse being able to reproduce is just. if it happens in the books I'm gonna piss myself

#.txt #not me doing s8 discourse...#not that I think d&d were above writing that but it's so stupid #grrm about beric: he’s not a living human being anymore. His heart isn’t beating his blood isn’t flowing in his veins #like do you think his dick and balls are working #what makes you think jon would be different #yes I can accept dragons but I draw the line at zombies nutting -_-#it's just so antithetical to the way resurrection works in asoiaf like. he should not go on to have a normal human life fuck off #anyway idc if you want jon and dany to have kids like have fun with your ship #I mean I want tommen and myrcella to live a long happy life with their dad so. we're all entitled to our delusions #just annoys me when people call it bad writing. them not having kids i mean not s8 in general #when my little meow meows die horribly im not gonna call it bad writing #tumblr user francy sketches dont make every post about the lannisters challenge (impossible) (gone wrong) (cried)

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dngrcpckwithmurdericing · 6 months

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Having a serious George Michael moment at two am.

#we're having serious family problems #the kind you should call the cops about if you trust the cops #instead i called my dad #i have never asked him for anything #not in like thirty years #and i begged him to come as soon as he can in the morning #i can't be the only adult here anymore #and my abusive dad who has religious delusions is my only option #and for literally the first time in my entire fucking life he's coming to help me #i think i scared him with my crying #i don't think he's ever seen me cry in like the last thirty years or so #i am terrified though #so I'm listening to George Michael because he and Elton are the most comforting music i can think of right now #maybe I'll add some Madonna to this playlist #anyway everything is hard right now and i truly don't know what to do when the systems society has in place for this aren't an option #and my cats are like an hour away #i really might delete this later #I'm just so upset???#i needed to write it out for a third time in a third place

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everafter-life · 3 months

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Does anyone else have ‘delusions’ that just can’t be reality checked?

#I put delusions in quotes because i call them that so others don’t find me insane #But it’s just true idk what to say #Has been true and known by me for like. 5 years now #And i have tried reality checks they don’t do anything for them #radqueer #rq 🌈🍓#pro transid #pro transx #🌸🌈

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emlos · 5 months

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im gonna be honest i dont understand so many basic things that people do

ex. why put together forever etc on wedding cakes and decor and stuff, because realistically this just sets your expectations up for failure

like it would make more sense to put something generic like "omg i cant believe were getting married" or "let's try to make this last!" or even "we love each other" because even if you believe you're gonna be together, yoj HAVE to know that divorce is something that can happen, and youre just lying right ???

#ok maybe i..saying it wrong #i do KNOW why people want to say it #but there's no way anybody believes that m #right?#i dunno but #ita the first time i could put this feelung of 'ok but...why?' into worda #dont answer that #because the answer is: because thats how they show love #which doesn't make sense #saying ' were gonna be together for as long as we both want because we love each other' (but like poetically) is wayyy more romantoc #dont you want somebody who is logical and doesn't want to bind yourself to you 'for forever' if you're not right for each other?#if anybody ever wants to marry me then i would be constantly anxious whether they're staying with me cause of they feel like we have to #since we're married #(and if that was the slogan or theme or whatever)#eugh thats NOT how normal people think why do iiii #and i guess it's bothering me because i just. dont understand this... wishful thinking? self delusion?#sorry i cant think of a better word i know what delusion is but what do you call uhh ślepa wiara?#text

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maddestmewmew · 1 year

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"folkpunk is so #goblincore #trashcore its all grimy grody men with slimy guitars" cool. actually i think this genre mostly populated by poor, poc, and/or queer people shouldnt be associated with. grossness. actually.

#as someone who grew up poor and queer i need rich white queers to kindly fucking Stop please?#i love folk punk. i love how. real it feels compared to other genres.#and id . really appreciate it if people stopped treating it like a silly funny life to be in.#most folk punk or midwest emo or whatever you wanna call it is very clearly about growing up with a Struggle.#most songs youll find in the genre are about struggles with mental health #growing up poor facing abuse facing homo/transphobia #the hardships you face being a minority #and . i dunno. the people calling it like . gross and grimy feels. really. bad #when i was little id write songs. in my rat infested almost condemed house. i struggled a lot with duh being poor i was young and autistic #i was a lesbian and i struggled with it. i was expieriencing delusions bc i couldnt handle my reality. i was being abused and neglected.#and music and poetry were my outlets. and i dunno. imagining myself look that little girl in the eye and telling her shes gross. shes grimy #and stinky shes a little trash goblin what the fuck ever. that kind of genuinely makes my skin crawl.

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