{❥} Authors Note - OOO YES of course! Oh so many feelings and probably a good lot of slow burn , perfect recipe for disaster and a whole lot of realization <3 - sorry if the essek one is a little *bleh.* Ive been watching supercuts for him but I also dont want to spoil myself since I know a lot of his story revolves around the later plot for campaign 2 , SOOOOO.... I tried lol. Though his was very entertaining to write for! {❥} Content Warnings: Mostly proofread , some depictions of “flame” for Calebs part (signifying feelings lol.) Also for Esseks describing love in a rather “painful” manner to put it. Other than that , I think that is all! Please let me know if I should add more in the comments :3c    ₊˚✧꒰ᑕᗩᒪEᗷ ᗯIᗪOGᗩᔕT꒱₊˚✧ ･ That night originally was so peaceful, staring out at the moonlit sky with some of your other friends. Though as you conversed, you never expected to have everything get turned upside down. It was all so fast, not being able to call for the others happily asleep tore you apart. ･ Trying to fight off your captors was a struggle, you thinking the four of you could easily get away. But no, you overstepped and it ended in the bunch of you getting taken away. Not without some battering in the process. ･ You didnt know where you were, trying so hard to break free from the manacles that trapped you. Never stopping to find a way out. Your fighting senses were not very much welcomed by your captors. They picked right through you and your friends. ･ Sadly you got dealt the short end of the stick with Yasha. Spending the majority of your time being captured, getting your absolute shit rocked. All of it was a blur, only remembering the beating that came to you. ･ The coldness of the stone under you welcomed you into sleep. You were staying unconscious with Yasha as well due to the Shepherds. If you WERE conscious, you would have known of the entrance of your friend plus a couple of newbies coming in to save you and the others. ･ After they dealt with everything and opened up Jester and Fjord's cell, they found you and Yasha’s. The others decided to have a search around the Iron Shepherd’s base, and Caleb decided to sit that out. Instead staying behind with the “out like a light” you and Yasha. ･ Seeing you, so hurt and bruised sent something through him. With how much he's known you (I imagine the same as much as he’s known Nott), it sent a feeling of urgency through him. It wasnt like he was scared shitless before, but that made him feel that pit plummet even more. ･Laying there as the others went to go search around, he couldnt stop looking over at you. Those embers grew more and more, becoming a fire in his chest. What was this? , he hadn't really felt it in a while. What was this urgency? You were another one of his companions, why was he feeling all warm on the inside? ･Just like with Astrid and Eadwolf, that fire blazed to high heaven. This stood out to him, and the repeatings of “no no no no…” trailed along in his avoidant mind. He could bare to rid you of the burden of him being in love with you. A lot had happened in only a couple of days, which led him to lie to himself. ･He halted his flooding paranoia to a stop. Taking a breath in, he can think about this later and let it tare him apart. Now he just has to wait for the others to come back. He went on to clear his mind, rattling on directly to the unconscious Yasha next to him. ₊˚✧꒰ ᖴᒍOᖇᗪ ꒱₊˚✧ ･Even though Fjord could portray the persona of a calm and collected fighter, he was far from it. Under that mushy shell of suave southern charm and gentlemen' manners, was but a man. When he got to know you better, he didnt feel like he had to push up this sort of image. ･Originally he had met you the same way he met Jester. You had hitched a ride with the giddy blue tiefling. Trying to get away from some sort of mystery creeping up on you. Stumbling into him, he couldn’t help but trip over his own two feet. He could remember seeing you, watching over as Jester was messing with a few surrounding individuals. ･The way the Port Damali sun shaped your ever-so-collected features. You looked so excited watching your friend (who he would get to know as Jester) using magic to play her little tricks. Something about her and you formed a bubble of thoughts in his ever-expanding curiosity. Your big bright grin almost drew him closer. With this new set of abilities recently gifted to him, this display did defiantly catch his attention ･Fast forwarding to the present time, after trying to travel to the goal of the Solstice Academy in Rexxentrum: now everything was uprooted after meeting the band of assholes you got to know as your newfound friends. Even though he had bumped into you two and traveled alongside the both of you for quite some time, once you joined the “Mighty Nein” your relationship grew stronger in a sense. ･More comfortable with friendly banter, a trust was formed. It would only grow stronger as your party became more and more active. Though you could always be assured that Fjord always showed his loyalty in more ways than one Even if it was shown in smaller, more contained doses, he could and would always be by your side. He may have had appearances to keep up but rest assured that there were some times his heart couldn’t stop doing summer saults for you. ･With all of the chaos that rained throughout you and your parties' adventures, things got a little less hectic once you guys left the Dwendalian Empire and went down to the Menagerie Coast in Nicodranas. ･It was a more free-spirited atmosphere and you enjoyed the constant comfortable weather along with the wonderful ocean. Fjord was oh so overjoyed seeing you taking a liking to the place, being that you were a part of the group percentage that didnt really know of the gorgeous sandy beaches that inhabited the Menagerie Coast/Nicodranas.･He could clearly tell though that you were excited about Jester meeting her mother again. You and the girl were as close as could be , you held her really close to your heart. The same went for everyone else in the group. Fjord always admired how you always had that signature friendly air around you. Even if the person is a shopkeeper or a drunk you kept constant conversation with , you were never one for a boring environment. ･After you all become acquainted with the Ruby of the Sea , or better known as Marion Lavorre , you all end off your official first day in Nicodranas with some very rampant shenanigans. Now with the Gentleman potentially being Jesters father? That was a lot to rap all your heads around , especially Jesters. But with the suggestions of Fjord and the rest of the party , everyone decided to head to bed with how late it was. ･Right as everyone was getting used to their new rooms in the Lavish Chateau , you struck up conversation with Fjord about the new realizations that came to ahead. He could clearly see how you were worried for Jester , more so around the fact that this is such new news. Fjord listened to your steady rant about how this could mean so many things. You were really just getting your thoughts out into the air , and Fjord listened to it all. ･He racked your brain as well , though rangled your rampant stream of thought to a stop. Saying that they can figure it out more on on a later date. Which you agreed to , apologizing for keeping him up so late. He didn’t fuss though , instead giving you a warm smile and quelling your worries. He watched as you walked away , you both sharing a “goodnight” before hearing your door make an audible closing noise. ･He leaned against his door frame as he stared down that hallway of rooms , his eyes lingering on your door. Which was when he realized everything , when everything clicked together. He was in love... with you. There was nothing that stopped his brain from pointing this out , and why would he stop it? He wasn’t frightened about it or nervous , just relatively happy! ･You were one of the strongest sparks in his life , you were tethered to him if he liked it or not. He didn’t fight it at all and was just relieved to know this information. Though would he act on it? No of course , you as a group had things to do. He didnt want his feelings to blind him in any sort of way. Which meant he was going to let this meddle , keeping the new revelation close to his heart. ･Taking one final look at your door he would let out a content sigh before turning into bed. He would fully let sleep take over his mind , content with this day. He wasn’t going to fight what he felt for you , instead embracing it. He was in love with you and.. he was okay with that. ₊˚✧꒰ EᔕᔕEK TᕼEᒪYEᔕᔕ ꒱₊˚✧ ･At first meeting Essek was many things. Being in the same vicinity as the “Bright Queen” and in her court already made you tremble in ferocious anxiousness. Mainly because that woman had a certain look that could impale thousands of hearts. All of a sudden , as you and the group were here to get Yussa to freedom, she sent one of her shadowhands with you to escort you down to the dungeons. ･A smirk caught at the tip of your lips when you all were escorted by him. The sharp-chinned drow was definitely appealing in the eyes. His calm but calculated demeanor definitely matched his voice , smooth and cold like sharp icicles. You couldnt help but giggle to yourself like a school girl inside your conciousness , though outside you made sure to keep your composure. ･Impressions for him were wildly different. He wasn’t one for much care in this situation, following to do what he was told. Though he was definitely one that fell harder as your group became more inside his circle of faces he knew. ･When the group got to know him on a more personal level , so did you to him. Especially taking a liking of him , as a bright eyed explorer of the arcane. As you too shared a more ... competitive conversation in a sense after Caleb tried to convince him to the upmost charming manner (and of course succeed) , he even decided to give you some knowledge for new spells that involved Dunamancy. ･You were very open to every ounce of what the Dunamancy offered , no selfishness or greed at all when he explained to you some of the ties that came with those certain spells he would go on about for hours. All you did was listened , which is why you were so around him in the first place after hours. He was clearly taking a liking to you as well , again in smaller doses. But he was getting more friendly to you in his most of all Essek ways. ･When it wasn’t Jester sharing messages over to him about what was going on with the use of “Sending” , you would take a knack at it. One way or another you always got a comfortable chuckle out of him , already sinking your fangs into his affection. Sooner than he knew it , a burning feeling would grow in his chest. ･A painful , but heavy feeling emanated in his heart. His mind winced at the sudden intrusion of this but it slowly became more of a constant ... like the thought of you did in his mind. He tried to shake it off as best as he could , pushing those thoughts down into the pits with the fact that this had to mean NOTHING. It couldn’t and wouldn’t mean anything... or so he thought. ･It especially haunted his mind once he got more into his nefarious business and the situation grew more impactful so to say. The thought of hurting you and his new friendship with your group pained him. Though he had to keep faces up and work on what dealings were made with the Cerberus assembly and so on. ･His internal thoughts came to ahead when you and your friends found out how interloped he was with the chaos that was plagued around your every move. He couldn’t help but feel oh so ashamed, with the sudden realization of the betrayal that he caused with you all. Feeling so very very idiotic as if , within his mind , burning the bridge that he had with your party.   ･Though to his utter surprise, your friends extended a hand out to him. A hand of both un-earthed vulnerability and understanding. Just with him coming forward about everything that was going on , his expectations for how that all was going to go down were very much flipped. ･Everyone shared words of encouragement with him, and words of as well - guarded forgiveness. But what you had told him most definitely left an impression on him and his mental state. The whole time when you all were talking about what he was interloped in, your eyes were trained on him and his presence. Something to say was most, of course forming in your mind. He could clearly see it as your facial features ever so slightly moved. ･You extended a hand to him and figuratively opened your heart up. Giving him a light at the end of the tunnel. Saying that everyone had some sort of redemption for them, especially if they decide to choose a more cleaner path. It was as if you sucked the pain out of him, that had gone widespread in his brain capsule of a head space. ･That once burning, aching feeling clicked in his heart. As Nott extended an invitation to the Mighty Nein, he finally realized what his brain was so panicked about. Finding a name for the one thing that especially plagued him. His love... for you. The love that kept him up at night, that had him pacing around halls when thoughts of you sprung up from his mental depths. ･The word repeated in his mind... love. Love love love love love, that's what it was.                                                    ﹌﹌﹌ {❥} Part Two or “Mollymauks” part

Do you think you could do regressor Grog Strongjaw headcanons? Totally fine if you don’t want to

Regressor Grog!

hard to say what ages exactly he might regress to i dont think he regresses to any fixed age but 6 and 12 might be the more common ones? depends on the day really

of course pike is his primary caregiver, she is big sister and scanlan is more of a babysitter or secondary caregiver the rest of the party dont mind looking after grog too much though

this kiddo has so much energy sometimes it seems like hes got never ending zoomies but he does tire himself out pretty quick

would be indipendant if he didnt have a habit of getting into trouble

yes he is alowed to have weapons, he just needs to promise to be careful and not pick/start/join fights

he's really not picky about food so he doesnt exactly have a snack preference except if its tiny food. lots of tiny little snacks and probably marshmallows. his hot chocolate always has to have marshmallows in it.

it doesnt take much to keep him occupied but because he's easily entertained his attention will also eaily switch from one thing to another hes wandered off following a butterfly when he was supposed to be doing something else so even while you got him doing a task, you gotta keep an eye on him

giggles. very giggly especially when he's excited or thinks hes doing something silly actually its because of his giggles that scanlan cant pull pranks with him very often. "what are you two up too?" "nothing at all" "yeah, nothing hehe" "....grog are you and scanlan up to something?" "hehe nooo" "uhuh, what do you have?"

doesnt fuss or throw a fit he will if he gets really upset but its not often and he usually wont be little when hes angry instead he just gets really pouty

loves hugs but you gotta remind him to be gentle

i hope these were okay!

i love grog hes the best

Can I just take this moment to put forward my variation on Essek Thelyss while I'm too high on the newest ep to write anything else?

Yes so repressed hot boi wizards, we all love them. But there are SO MANY ways to be repressed and being touch-starved is only one kind of loneliness.

So I would like to introduce Shadow-Hoe Essek.

Essek likes sex, and drow society is pretty permissive. He likes the act, but more than that, he likes the power, the secrets, the relationships it builds. None of his partners knows of all the others, but they all know there are others.

Among the elite in any society, people get up to stuff. High society weaves a tangled web, especially when you have to account for all sorts of past lives, and Essek Thelyss is a master manipulator.

That is, until he got cocky and committed a war crime.

He fell hard for Caleb when they were working together on Veth's spell, but didn't want to make the first move because

a) his new crush comes with a big sign that says "careful, fragile"

b) he didn't want to make Caleb think his help with the spell depended on it

c) war crime guilt

So there you have it, my proposal for you all. Is he lonely? Yup. Is he emotionally repressed? Woo boy yup. But Essek Theyless likes to fuck and do kinky shit, and is happy to help when Caleb comes asking.

It is once again 2am and I'm unable to sleep so have another late night thought.

(campaign 1 spoilers)

The realm of death exists outside of the domain of time. This allows Vax to be there for his family when they die. Every single death, he keeps them company in the afterlife until they are revived. Each time a member of Vox Machina awakens from death, they always feel sad when they see Vax and they can't remember why.

I have this dumb head cannon that Matt checks in with the cast separately after each episode to see their motives and feelings regarding everything. Is this entirely possible? Yes. would it be a lot of time and effort on Matt’s part? Yes. But would it be something super extra and just like Matt to do? Yeah probably. Like imagine the check ins with people after super crazy charged episodes? Like talks machina without the cabbage. Or nerf guns.

Anyways. I might go to bed now.

Night.

Okay, so I know that OOC Percy and Vex deciding on Man of Honor and Best Man right before they left and assigning Grog his role and asking Scanlan to walk Vex down the aile the day of was because the cast didnt discuss it ahead of time. But, I love the idea that all of the wedding planning went like that. They didnt discuss the possibility of actually getting married again until six months before, and even then Percy thinks Vex was joking about it for another month. They didnt decide on a date until two months before. Invitations aren't sent out until three weeks after that. After all, that means less people will show up, which was the whole point of the destination wedding in the first place. Vex, Pike, Keyleth, and Tary walk into a dress shop drunk three weeks before the big day. They dont actually inform Dalen's Closet that they are coming or hire a wedding planner until a week after that. The planning and the hotel staff all hate their guts for it, but they are stupid rich and also Vox Fucking Machina so they cant really tell them no. Plus they have a stressed out arch druid insisting that everything has to be perfect and a couple Vex winks to smooth everything over.

Also, this would mean that the actual reason Sylas rejected all his more complicated plans was because these idiots threw the wedding together on such short notice.

Hc that when Scanlan writes his book about the adventures of Vox Machina, after the final battle with Raishan, there’s an empty year-long section that just reads: for the events of 812 P.D., please consult The Daring Trials and Tribulations of Sir Taryon Darrington

lmao I cant wait for the M9 to meet VM and induct them in as honorary members even though they’re far more renowned and accomplished

Personal headcannon that Mollymauk “functionally illiterate” Tealeaf was actually dyslexic and he only learned how to write his name and he memorized the circus flyers he handed out.

i see you autistic caleb and i raise you autistic beau

Upside to seeing ships on critrole by the fans you see cute pictures and stuff and nice headcannons, downside to it is so many fans can't get it through thier thick skulls that non of these characters are thiers and do not have to do everything they want oh and don't forget those who try to Squeal about queer baiting just because thier ship isn't cannon, or it is and just not super in your face.

(people tried to claim queer baiting because Caleb and essek weren't all over each other despite neither of them been into that)

✎ᴛʜᴇ ᴍɪɢʜᴛʏ ɴᴇɪɴ ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀʟɪꜱᴛ

✦.⁺ ᴘᴄ'ꜱ (ᴘʟᴀʏᴇʀ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀꜱ)  ⟶

【☆】 𝐉𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐋𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐄 ﹕ ・Small oneshot of what it would be like it on watch with the bright and bubbly tiefling<3 ・Coming very soon!! ^3^ <3

【☆】 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐁 𝐖𝐈𝐃𝐎𝐆𝐀𝐒𝐓 ﹕ ・ 𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘗𝘶𝘳𝘳'𝘴...ღ ・A concept I had for a Caleb/Essek/Reader fic! (potentially may revisit) ・Caleb is having a hard time getting used to the fact that he now has a trusted group of friends , along with the fact of his feelings for you. ・ ੈ♡‧₊˚ᐯᗴᑎᗪᎥᑎǤ ᗰᗩᑕᕼᎥᑎᗴ ᗝᖴ ᒪᗝᐯᗴ ੈ♡‧₊˚ (Caleb Widogast!!)

【☆】 𝐘𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐀 𝐍𝐘𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐍 ﹕ ・Coming soon! :D

【☆】 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐓𝐓  ﹕ ・Coming veryveryveryyyy sooon<33

【☆】 𝐕𝐄𝐓𝐇 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐎 ﹕ ・Coming very veryyy sooon! ^^

【☆】  𝐅𝐉𝐎𝐑𝐃 ﹕ ・A small little blurb about you and Fjord on watch , chatting about your future as a couple. ・Headcannons for Fjord , Mollymauk , Essek , and Caleb realizing their in love with the reader. ・Headcannons for dating Fjord , Mollymauk , Essek and Caleb widogast.

【☆】 𝐌𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐘𝐌𝐀𝐔𝐊 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐅 ﹕ ・Readers sent back in time to the death of their former lover Mollymauk , trying to change the fate he was given. Though that doesnt work out the way they planned. ・A headcannon list about keeping watch with separate party members , including him. ・Headcannon list for dating Fjord , Mollymauk , Essek , and Caleb Widogast ・Part two to the Cr mighty nein boys realizing their in love with reader!! (Mollys)

【☆】 𝐂𝐀𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐄𝐔𝐒 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐘 ﹕ ・Coming veryveryvery soon!! <33

【☆】  𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐊 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐘𝐄𝐒𝐒 ﹕ ・ ੈ♡‧₊˚ᐯᗴᑎᗪᎥᑎǤ ᗰᗩᑕᕼᎥᑎᗴ ᗝᖴ ᒪᗝᐯᗴ ੈ♡‧₊˚ ・Headcannons for Essek , Fjord , Caleb and Mollymauk realizing they are in love with the reader ・Coming very very veryyy SOON! <3

【☆】 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐘 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐅  ﹕ ・ ─❝𝐀𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐝❞─ (Kingsley x reader headcannons) ・ Coming very very veryyyyyyyyyy soon!! ^^ ✦.⁺ 𝘕𝘱𝘤𝘴 (ⁿᵒ ᵖˡᵃʸᵉʳ ᶜʰᵃʳᵃᶜᵗᵉʳˢ/ ᵍᵘᵉˢᵗ ᵖˡᵃʸᵉʳˢ / ʷᶦˡˡ ᵉˣᵖᵃⁿᵈ ᵃˢ ᴵ ᵍᵒ)  ⟶

【☆】  𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐍 (𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐑) ﹕ ・ Coming very very VERYYYYY soon!

today’s critrole headcannon:

everyone knows tieflings run pretty hot. jester is cooler than most tieflings because of her cold resistance and water genasi genetics, but still warmer on average than most humans. molly isn’t as cold as jester, but still colder than most other tieflings, especially ones assigned male at birth. why? the frequent use of molly’s blood powers makes him iron deficient

hi! im just barely starting critical role (starting in s2, technically, but i plan to listen to s1 when im caught up) and im on episode 9, but i just had a ridiculous (and somewhat angsty) thought about caleb. i dont know anyone who listens to the podcast, and youre the only person i follow who does, so would it be alright if i sent you this thought/idea thing? its okay if not! and sorry if im nerding out, i just got excited >.

I LOVE headcannons and stuff hit me the fuck up i love talking critrole!!

Character Comparsion - Calianna and Caleb

Alrighty, first blog post. Damn you Mark Hulmes, for coming up with a character that I must, must write about (and also I’m a new critter starting with the Wildemount campaign and i’m super hyped about everything critical role) Also, massive respect to everyone having such emotive, distinctive characters that we can all feel passionate about. So, this blog is mostly about turning all that hype into somewhat intellectual considerations and analysis before I explode screaming “IS IT THURSDAY YET?” every hour it isn’t thursday critrole time. Also, reblogging good art and fics. ALWAYS. so SUBMIT all you lovely talented people. 

Okay okay lets go. Right off the bat in this episode, we are introduced to Calianna, a half-elf with draconic ancestry, supposedly 1/10th. So....50% elf, 10% dragon, 40% unknown? As an aside it’s mentioned it’s from a great-ancestor, but Cali is half draconic and half elven feature wise. Later on, we find that she was pretty much living on the streets until a cult of the Scaled Tyrant took her in, taking good care of her and occasionally using her to do nasty things to people and also raising her as a sacrifice. She afterwards realizes these are nasty people and escapes on her own.  Comparing that backstory to Caleb’s, there appears to be many points of contrast, built around the cultish/fanatical upbringing. They are opposed in so many ways, Caleb was raised by pure human parents, taken in by a magical academy (as opposed to a religious cult). Interestingly, Calianna left on her own realization (possibly over an extended period), whilst Caleb had a 180 turnaround incident; one succeeded, the other was miraculously rescued after losing a great deal of memory, so there is some vagueness on both sides. Their sources of magic are also innately different, one acquired via thorough study, the other via instincts and bloodline (The one similarity they have is an affinity for fire). These differences probably contribute to the contrasting ways these two characters behave. 

Cali comes across as trusting, open and idealistic, despite her rather gritty past. Caleb, as we have seen for some time now, is rather cynical/pragmatic and closed off. Both share some social awkwardness, though expressed in different ways. Cali kinda powers through it, stuttering and stumbling as honestly as possible. Caleb holds his cards as close to his chest as he can, telling half truths and neglects mentioning the facts whenever he’s shuffling the options in his head. 

In this episode, we can also see the way they approach combat. While Cali lacks combat experience, she isn’t afraid to be right in the frontlines, closing at every opportunity, and ofc Caleb as we know hides in the back, only approaching to the maximum available distances to get in range or angle, then backing away out of potential danger. Both of them are pretty trigger happy with their magic though, quick on their feet/mind (Also, im rewatching as I type, so one moment of silence for Fabron who died a horrible, messy death, unmissed by his employers who happily wailed on the monster kidnapping him, causing him to die faster)

Then, the most important thing to include would probably be that final confrontation, where Caleb’s caution boils over to what some would consider paranoia. I personally even considered if he wanted to take possession of the bowl himself, given his penchant for magical artifacts. Having said that, he did say it was of no use to him/the Mighty Nein, so probably not. 

Him using the Mighty Nein as a barrier between himself and Cali is.....revealing. To be fair, he did see Cali rush very aggressively at the fish folk, also that momentary slip of aggression about claiming that last kill. Perhaps he made the assumption that Cali was still angry (post Friends spell from Molly) and was merely concealing it. (like he himself probably would if someone tried to keep magic stuff from him, he’s like a magpie) Then Cali did go on to reveal that he was well treated by the cult (as compared to Caleb who was punished during his magical training), so maybe a bit of jealousy there?  Regardless, this episode quite clearly highlights Caleb’s highly, highly skeptical nature,to the point where he doubts Yasha’s ability to destroy the bowl before she even tries. He seems caught by surprise that Cali is willing to let him mind check her, and even more so when she reveals her desire to fervently oppose the cult that once held her.  Here are my final speculations and head-canoning. Perhaps Caleb was in shock from having the bowl snatched from his grasp or how the group doesnt seem to quite side with him despite standing between him and Cali. I think he will be quite shaken from meeting someone who shares a little of what he has been through, and how different said person is. Will his trust in the Mighty Nein as a group be shaken? In Beau? In Jester? In Molly? Fjord and Yasha were the neutral ones here for sure. Strangely enough, Nott didn’t make any move to question Cali or defend Caleb during the standoff, perhaps seeing it as Caleb’s area of expertise? So many questions, some of which I’ll definitely be writing more on (and some retroactive ones as well). If you’ve got any question or headcannon (on critrole campaign 2) you’d like me to dive into, ramble on and overcomplicate, SUBMIT or drop an ask! Its summer break, so all the time in the world :)

Thank you all who’ve read this far! Looking forward to doing this writing thing more. Credit to all the redditors, alpha chat and discord users whose well stated opinions help shape some of mine!

IT ISNT THURSDAY YET *sobs*

─❝𝐀𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐥, 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐝❞─

{❥} Pairing: Kingsley Tealeaf x Reader

{❥} Summary: Taking place some time after the “Mighty Nein” has finally finished off Uk’otoa for good , yours and Kingsleys new crew docks ship in a small port town in Nicodranas for some dealings. Your feeling more so frazzled with the fact that its the anniversary of Mollymauks death , same day and everything. Its a truly hard hitting realization , which has left you rather emotional for the majority of your crews brief stay. You feel ashamed that your grieving is clouding so much of your judgement that you decide to take refuge in a place of honoring for the Raven Queen to ease the gaping wound of pity. Little do you know , Kingsley has found you after searching for your presence all after to night. As the rest of your crew celebrates in the local taverns , you confide in Kingsley .. even if the conversation is a little awkward.

{❥} Authors Note: That one boygenius song dude... OHMYGOD! “Not Strong Enough” has made me ugly sobbing so what do I do? , project on my favorite characterssssssss. I just finished the full Mighty Nein Reunited two parter so this post is also in celebration of that! I'm so glad Taliesin decided to play Kingsley this one-shot. Just because its able to flesh out more of him and his future. I hope we see this group again in the future cause they r so jajajajaja<3

{❥} Content Warnings (CWS):  Only some religion-esc references since this whole thing mostly takes place in a “temple” of honoring the Raven Queen. Also just some hard hitting grieving , and most half proofred. Other than that I dont think there’s anything more to add! If there’s more I need to add, please let me know.   ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )  →

                               ₊‧ʚ・︵︵ ₊˚๑ ᕱᕱ ꒱✦ ₊ ︵︵・₊﹆ɞ‧₊

・ Kingsley should be happy on this day , right? I mean your crew had just gotten a major win , this should be a day of rejoice! But his mind could only wonder off with the thought of you. As he traversed the streets of the port town you all docked in , no sight of you could be seen anywhere

・ He only had a small clue on where you could be. That whole morning as the ship sailed in , you clearly had your guard up. Not saying that every day you were cheery as can be , everyone has their bad days of course. But something about your manner was just.. different. The frustrating aspect was that these streets kept on winding down into different path after another.                                                                                     ・ Shops turned into houses and then houses turned into the more religious end of town. It was rather beautiful being able to take a look at all the gorgeous and intricate ways people worshipped what deity they followed. He was at his last whit's end , but something caught his attention when he saw a certain building in that district.          ・ It was more of a church than a building but it would do. Rather eloquent and very put together , a large statue of the Matron hanging from the middle part of the roof. Her arms were almost billowing out like she was about to give someone or somebody an embrace. But by the porcelain mask she was always adorned with , he couldn’t catch if that embrace was the one of friendliness or death.

・ He threw the detailed , double doors open. The interior was rather a peaceful sight to see to be honest. Matching the colors of the Raven queen , with tributes of her everywhere. Pictures were strung around a large table; almost like a mantle , flowers and gifts to their dead loved ones placed every which way. Along with tossed around notes to the Matron , thanking her or begging her for solitude and so on.

・ He walked down the middle isle of the place and let everything fall. He started to panicking-ly ramble on about how he was so worried , are you alright , what the fuck is wrong?! All those kind of things , didn’t help in this situation with the abundance of pity drinking he did before setting out to find you.

・ His talking paused when he noticed something was very very wrong. Your shoulders were stiff , you were currently sitting on your knees bent back. Your hands were digging into the material around your legs , more so of a nervous maneuver. Before he could say anything at all he saw your face.

・ He could see how hard you have been crying for the last hours or so. Your eyes were puffy and about to be blood shot , your lip in a tremble. You were clearly trying to hold it together but the cracks were slowly starting to show as seconds passed. Kingsley didnt get any closer to you but decided to as well take seating on the cold , stone flooring of the establishment.

・ You proceeded to fiddle with your hands , your before violent sobs turning into now small sniffles. You looked over to your “friend” with irritated eye bags and a blank expression , your lips curled into a faint frown. “I’m sorry , you shouldn't see me like this.” You said - wiping away the last remaining streaks of tears.

・ He almost looks bewildered by your words. “I shouldn’t? Your my fuckin first mate for Christ's sake - you really think I give a damn?” Which surprisingly cause you to let out a small chuckle , though it sounded more like a pained one. Very close to a wince. You had been here for a good while by the looks of it , basically curling into yourself with your legs crossed.

・ He frowned at the sight , now having a more serious facial expression. He was genuinely concerned for you and your wellbeing. He clearly was trying to read you or your expressions to see any signs of what was wrong. Though you hadn’t spoken up in the continuous silence , which just made Kingsley feel more and more stumped.

・ As he went back to just awkwardly staring off , you spoke up again with a more cracked tone. With your less put together wording , the sob’s slowly started to come through.  

           “W-what if I jeopardize everything , Kingsley? I did it before and it could happen again... I lost him that way- and I dont .. I dont want to repeat that with you. I care about you too much and.. and..-” ・ The water works immediately came back , your bodies immediately colliding. Your head found purchase in his shoulder , Kingsley didn’t resist at all. With the time you both had spent together , managing a crew and as well managing the Revelry , the both of you had really became inseparable. ・ He didn’t speak up at all as your sobs increased in velocity , just letting you whale as much as you needed to. You looked up again , your eyes more teary eyed than before. Finally he broke that stale silence , gently cupping your cheek. As his hand met your face with hesitance , you nodded at him in permission. If someone walked in on this they could definitely cut it with a knife. “First of all , I think the seas making you loopy. You aren’t gonna jeopardize anything or anybody , especially me. To be frank I think I’d be the one to cause any sort of large problem of course. And... he- what do you mean by he? I cant help fix anything if you dont tell me on it.” ・ He noticed your shoulders tense up again , as you nuzzled your face into his hand. All you wanted was that signature warm comfort. But Kingsley did have a point. You cleared your throat and explained your worries. Telling him about your whole grievances with Mollymauk , and how todays just a big reminder of your failure. ・ He couldn’t help but snicker just a little which made your posture straighten up and more so playfully jabbed him in the chest with your fist. Slowly you were starting to come out of your once mourning demeanor. “Hey fuck you!” - “Whattt? , I dont mean any harm as your captain!” ・ You two immediately erupted into a fit of giggles , the feeling of pressure pretty much getting more and more lighter. He looked back to you as your fun times died down , and you looked back at him. Your eyes said it all , feeling guilty about bringing up the one soft spot. At least you thought so. “Listen , I know I cant say anything really about your whole process. I know you and Molly had a rather.. interloped companionship. But you dont have to hide from me just because of some small details? I’m your friend , I want to know what’s wrong - even if its all a little mopey...” ・ You furrowed your brows at him but his words were clearly sincere. Your rough and tough expression turned to one of that same blank look - but forgiveness laced into every crease. “I care about you too , greatly. An I wasn’t fucking kidding when I said your my first mate. I NEED to know what’s wrong with you. Molly clearly meant a lot to you and I understand why you grief for him to this day , but you dont have to be this pitiful and mourn alone by all means. We kinda chose a tavern to celebrate for a reason you know?” ・ You agree with him with a little more energy than before , your body and mind clearly growing more comfortable in this moment. Even if Kingsley was being an ass , he could always make it sound as charming as possible. You couldn’t stay mad. You two talked for a little more longer , Kingsley quelling your worries about your still long lasting fears and regrets. ・ At a point you two came to a compromise , you two can talk it out buttttt not in this cold and desolate honoring space. A more bright and lively tavern filled with some of your close crew mates seemed like it would do the trick. He brought up how even if Mollys gone hes still around , through you and the rest of the Mighty Nein. Through the smallest acts he would always be there. “Wow word of the wise , where’d you learn that?” “Caduceus.” He said with the toothiest of grins. ・ As he got up from the stone flooring , he stood up straight and extended a hand to you. Even bringing up the idea of visiting the local bakery, promising bear claws with the most Nicodranas sweetness. You chuckled and said you would “-hold him up to that.” ・ In the end he did keep up to that promise , along with the one about the taverns atmosphere helping your grieving process. With the songs of associates and friends flowing through your ears , even if you ended black out drunk on the floor of the captains quarters the night definitely ended off on a better note. ・ That night you guys sailed off , heading back to the Isle. You woke up the next morning having no idea what the time was. The same taste of ale mixed with a hint on cinnamon rested on your taste buds. Your entire body was enveloped in the comfortable and soft blankets of the captains bed. ・ Before you went to go maneuver out of the very comfy surroundings , you felt the slightest pull back from a certain someone's tiefling tail. You looked back and saw a half asleep Kingsley lazily reaching out for you , immediately you sat back into the pillows with no questions asked.  ・ His body against yours was a very calming difference. Each and every exposed part of skin basically being consumed in the warmness that regularly radiated off the purple fellow. Everything was even more nicer when his arms gently wrapped around your torso.  ・ In that moment you could only do one thing , which was smile at the sight in front of you. You realized something you should have clicked together a long time ago.  You may have not been able to change anything , or fuck with fate at all , but this wasn’t so bad. Mollymauks life would always be apart of your existence and you took that in. ・ But this ship , this crew , the life you had grown for yourself was only something but a dream once before. You had friends that were basically your family , a loyal crew , and someone that felt so refreshing with you. This was okay , you were okay , and the wellbeing of the people around you was all that mattered. ・ As you reclined your brain out of your constant thought , you listened into the slowly swaying sea from outside the large window that faced the back wall of the captains sleeping quarters. You realized that Kingsley had fallen back asleep , which you realized you should probably do as well. ・ You nestled back into the mattress under you  and nuzzled your head into the softness of the pillows. Letting sleep take over your conscious , you went into slumber with a more at ease mindset. Even if you weren’t a god or a divine being that could fuck with the dealings of fate , you could finally rest with the feeling of reassurance that what you achieved was.. right for you. Finally , you could be at peace.                                 ₊‧ʚ・︵︵ ₊˚๑ ᕱᕱ ꒱✦ ₊ ︵︵・₊﹆ɞ‧₊ {❥} Authors Note: Me after FINALLY finishing this  ➜