It’s hard to have the willpower to “be present” through a panic attack because it’s like… I’m just going to feel this way again tomorrow. What’s the point?
But anyway, why is it so hard to heal panic attack disorder??
For me, I think it’s because you have to learn emotional regulation/stress management from scratch. And you’re quickly trying to get yourself to function like a “normal person” = someone who experiences stress, but doesn’t feel completely overwhelmed by it.
Additionally, you’re plagued by people thinking you’re just lazy or a procrastinator… but it’s not a lack of self discipline. You’re fucking TERRIFIED of people / forgetting something you need/ feeling stupid for not knowing something etc.
All in all, you just get the sense that some people truly think that your life would be better if you could just “get your fucking shit together”. The most they’ll tell you is try breathing exercises or a a cold bath lmao.
But the root cause of your panic remains and it won’t go away with some health techniques alone.
And you are left to fight the dragon of people’s neglect of you, misunderstanding, and thinking that you are beyond help.
I’m not beyond help. I still really don’t know how to heal this yet. But I deserve help and I’m going to fucking get it. Give up on me if you want, bitch. I won’t give up on me😢🔥