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azrielslightintheshadows · 5 months

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I've got you.

Azriel x f!Reader

Request; Right now I'm kinda going mad because of uni and I came up with this idea of the reader that is like studying something to help the inner circle, but she can't find anything (or whatever came up to your mind love) and Az, her mate, try to reassure her with cuddle/kisses and lot of fluff.

Warnings; Mentions of potential death, reader feels useless

Masterlist.

Hope this is what you had in mind love <3

The words on the tenth book you were currently reading seemed like foreign symbols, your brain had turned into a mush and you groaned as you massaged your temples. Nesta’s powers disappeared when she saved Feyre from death and everyone worried that it might have an impact on her health, thus you were searching every book you could find. Rhys and Feyre wanted to help but they were preoccupied by Nyx and everyone else made sure they were safe and handled the matters of the court.

“Come on, you can finish the book” you whispered to yourself and flinched when a deep chuckle sounded from behind you.

“You should take a break angel” your mate’s velvety voice filled your ears and you smiled softly. He moved closer and placed those beautiful scarred hands on your shoulders massaging them.

“I can’t stop now, I haven’t found anything and we don’t know how much time we have if it actually messes with Nesta’s health” you said and your bottom lip trembled. Nesta managed to become one of your dearest friends and just the thought of something happening to her made you want to rip your hair off. The fact that you couldn’t find something to help her broke your heart in million pieces.

“Calm down angel, we don’t know if she is in trouble for sure, maybe that’s why you can’t find anything” he said softly and pulled your chair back, he marked the page of the book and picked you up.

“Everything’s going to be alright” he murmured in your hair and sat on the armchair next to the big window of the study.

“I’ve read ten books and I can’t find anything. I feel so useless right now” you confessed and hid your face in his neck.

“You’re not useless baby, you are the only one who’s trying to find something about the situation.” He paused for a second “I think that this makes everyone else useless.”

You shook your head with a smile “don’t say that, you’re all busy”

“We are but that doesn’t change that you are researching without any help. Give yourself some credit and take some time to relax before you burn your sneaky brain” he pinched your side and you gasped.

“Stop” you whined and hugged him harder making him chuckle and kiss the top of your head. Two cups of tea appeared on the coffee table next to you and Azriel hummed, he picked one and pinched your side again to make you look.

“I’ll return to my book if you keep this up” you feigned an annoyed expression and he smirked.

“No you will do no such thing, this is Azriel time and I’m not sharing” he scolded.

You took the cup from him and leaned back on his chest, peeking at the view outside and enjoying his warmth. Azriel was staring outside while his hand rubbed soothing circles on your back.

After a while you sighed and looked at him

“I have to continue…” you trailed off with a sad smile.

“Let me help you” he smiled and carried you to the table.

You spent the rest of the day checking every book, even Azriel’s shadows started flipping through books.

“They can read?” You asked.

“I don’t even know anymore, they surprise me every day” he shrugged.

You kept huffing and puffing, moving from one book to another trying to make some sense but nothing. Azriel looked frustrated too and even his shadows slithered back to him looking defeated. Your eyelids started dropping and you blinked, you couldn’t stop now. You picked another book and started reading.

You felt something cold touching your back and you hissed.

“Shh it’s okay I’ve got you” Azriel whispered, you opened your eyes and realized that he had carried you to bed. He stripped his clothes and lied next to you, pulling you on his chest and letting a sigh.

“Get some sleep angel, tomorrow we will continue the research together” he murmured and kissed your head.

The next day you managed to find a book with a similar story, thankfully the fae who gave away his powers survived and you both cheered and walked hand in hand to the dining room to inform everyone.

Just before you entered the dining room you glanced at Azriel with a lovesick smile

“What would I do without you”

Hope you enjoyed it!

@hauntedwitch04

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ravencoloredroses · 11 months

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Dream Girl part 2

Nyx x Reader

Summary: Nyx and the batboys meet Y/N for the first time. They learn a secret about her and give her a chance to join them.

Warnings: none :)

Word Count: 2,865

A/N: Sorry this took a little longer than expected to get out! I’m working on part 3 right now!! Hopefully you like this part! Let me know what you think! Thank you so much for reading!!!

part 1 part 3

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“And where is Y/N right now?” Rhys questions.

“Right now?” Devlon leans back in his chair. “If I had to guess, I’d say those eyes peeking in the window are her.”

Everyone whips their heads around to see a cloud of white smoke dispersing right outside the window. Devlon throws his head back cackling. Rhys turns his confused stare to Azriel, eyes now wide.

“What eyes?” Cassian dares to ask.

“Why don’t you go find out.” Devlon replies with a grin.

Azriel gives Rhys a nod, clearly having a mental conversation, and stands up to walk towards the door.

“Stay here.” He throws over his shoulder.

Once Az leaves, the pain in Nyx’s chest grows again, this time worse than before. He hunches over and wraps his arms around his stomach. Cassian places a hand on his back. “You alright little man?”

“Y-yeah, I’m fine. I just need some fresh air.” Nyx replies standing up. Rhys steps in front of him, blocking his path. He opens his mouth to talk, but quickly shuts it. After giving Nyx a warning glare, Rhys moves out of his way.

Now outside, Nyx feels worse than he did before. He thinks about going back inside, but then he sees his uncle Azriel heading into one of the buildings and decides to follow.

Getting closer to the cabin, Nyx can hear voices. He stops just outside the door to listen.

“How long have you had them?” Azriel questions.

“I- I can’t remember when they showed up. They were always just… there.” A female voice says timidly.

Nyx tries to look in the window to see who the female is, but there are swirls of white and black smoke blocking his view.

“I think you should go and talk to him.” Az says.

“I don’t know… I’m- I’m scared.” The female confesses.

“You have nothing to be afraid of. They just want to talk to you, that’s all. I’m gonna go bring them in, okay?”

With that Nyx scurries back over to where his dad and uncle Cassian are. He tries to make it back before Az can catch him snooping, he doesn’t. A meir 3 feet from the door, Nyx feels a hand on his shoulder.

“How much of that did you hear?” Azriel asks spinning Nyx around to face him.

“Only the last part.” Nyx says shamefully looking down.

“And did you see anything?”

“N-no. Nothing.”

The door in front of them swings open revealing Rhys and Cassian.

“Are we interrupting something?” Rhys asks.

“No.” Azriel says starting to turn back around. “But there’s something- someone, you should meet.”

Rhys ushers Nyx to follow Az, leaving Cassian to trail behind them. When they reach the cabin, Azriel stops just before he opens the door. He takes a deep breath and looks back at Nyx.

Through the window, Nyx can see a figure sitting on a couch facing away from the door. As soon as Az turns the handle, the figure stands up. Their spine is straight, wings folded in and hands placed behind their back.

Rhys steps through the threshold first, making his footsteps audible as he approaches.

“Hello my dear, I believe we have a lot to talk about.” Rhys says with a grin, making his way over to the couch opposite of hers. He waves over at Nyx to follow him.

When Nyx steps into the house, white smoke slithers around on the floor and pools at his feet. It retreats back to the female a heartbeat later.

“Y/N, I presume?” Rhys asks, gesturing for her to take a seat. She nods and sinks back down on the couch. “Well Y/N, this is my son Nyx.” Nyx shuffles his way over to sit across from Y/N, trying to calm his breathing.

He knows who she is without even having to see her face. If it wasn’t the silky soft night black hair that gave it away, it was the pounding in his chest growing with each step. When he’s sitting in front of her, he says the only thing that comes to mind.

“I’ve been looking for you everywhere.”

“Me too” Y/N says, matching his gaze with a genuine smile.

Rhys walks over to stand behind his son. “I take it, you know who he is?”

“I could recognize that face anywhere.” She says never taking her eyes off of Nyx. “But, I do not know anything about you I’m afraid.”

The smoke is back, climbing up Nyx’s legs. He looks down to see it better, and that’s when he realizes. It’s not smoke, their shadows. Is Y/N a shadowsinger?

Azriel walks forward and answers the question Nyx is showing in his face. “I’ve never seen white shadows before, but yes, she is a shadowsinger.”

Y/N looks up at Nyx to gauge his reaction.

Nyx smiles and opens his mouth to speak when Cassian cuts him off.

“Y/N, we need to talk about some things.”

“Like?” Y/N asks, slowly moving her gaze over to Cassian.

“Like your training.” Azriel says, looking over at Rhys.

“My training?”

“Yes, I understand you’re having a hard time finding someone to train you?” Rhys asks, placing his hands on Nyx’s shoulders.

Y/N looks down, not really wanting to have to talk about this. “Yeah, the males here- they don’t really want me to train with them. They tell me I should feel lucky just for being alive and still having my wings.”

“Do you still want to stay at this camp?” Rhys asks, sending her an apologetic look.

“I- I don’t have anywhere else to go… so I have to stay here.” She says fiddling with her hands.

“Well, obviously the final decision is up to you,” Rhys starts, “but I would like to have you stay with us. That way Azriel can help you out with your shadows, and we can all help with your training.”

“S-stay with you?” Y/N asks, now looking at Nyx who sends her a smile and a small nod.

“Only if you want to.” Rhys replies.

“I mean- I would like that. But, I don’t have any money to pay you for-“

“Don’t worry about that. I will never ask you for a cent.” Rhys says moving to go sit next to her. “You would have your own space, be free to do whatever you wish, and you would be completely safe.”

“Okay- um, yeah. That sounds good.”

“Where do you keep your stuff? We can go help you pack if you like.” Azriel says.

“Oh, um my room is a couple doors down.” She says looking down at her hands. Nyx stands up from his seat and walks over to her.

Holding his hand out to help her stand up, Nyx asks, “Would it be okay if I helped you?” She nods in response, taking his hand and lacing their fingers together. As soon as they touch, Nyx finally feels it. That snap in his chest that he’s been desperately waiting for. Based on her expression, it’s clear that Y/N feels it too. Their mating bond has snapped into place.

“Well, as much as I would love to chaperone whatever the hell this is gonna turn into.” Cassian says, breaking the silence. “You two better get packing, we’ll meet back at the house.”

Nyx is the first to break from their intense eye contact, looking over at his dad. Rhys smiles genuinely and gives a nod to Nyx, grabbing Azriel and Cassian to winnow back home.

Standing in the room now alone together for the first time, Nyx looks back over at Y/N. She’s already looking up at him.

“I can’t believe it’s really you.” She says with tears welling up in her eyes. He raises his free hand to cup her cheek, using his thumb to catch her tears.

“It’s really me.” He says staring lovingly at Y/N. His gaze slowly falls to her lips, jumping back up to her eyes a second later. “I never thought I would see these gorgeous eyes in person.”

Y/N looks down and takes a step back, out of Nyx’s grasp. “You don’t have to lie to me.”

He pulls her back to him with their still linked hands. Placing a finger under her chin to force her to look at him. “I would NEVER lie to you. You are the most beautiful female I have ever seen. Your eyes included.”

Staring into his eyes to see if he is telling the truth, Y/N leans in to kiss his cheek. She pulls back to see his shocked expression. He cocks his head to the side as she makes a goofy smile. “So, you had dreams of me too huh?” she says now laughing.

He matches her laugh and leans in to give her cheek a kiss. “You could say that, yeah.” He leads her out the door to go help pack up her things.

“Okay, this is me.” Y/N says, opening up her bedroom door. “I-it’s not anything special, and I don’t really have that much to pack, so you can just-“

Nyx cuts her off with a squeeze to her hand. “I want to help you pack, you can’t get rid of me that easily.” He says with a smirk. She smiles back and sighs, opening up the door.

Now inside, Nyx lets go of her hand as Y/N scurries over towards the bed. He closes the door behind them and sees a flurry of white smoke climb up to close the curtain. No, not smoke, shadows. Her shadows, he remembers.

Bending over to grab her bag from under the bed, Y/N stands up to find Nyx staring at her. “I told you, I don’t really have that much to pack so if you wanted to sit down-“

“What can I help with?” Nyx says walking over to her.

“Um, could you grab my clothes out of the dresser and put them in here?” She says, handing him the bag. “I’ll go to the bathroom and get my stuff from there.”

“Absolutely.” Nyx says with a smile. Walking over to her dresser, Nyx opens the first drawer. Nicely folding all of the shirts and pants he finds.

As he moves onto the second, a shadow comes out from underneath and shuts the drawer before he can open it. “What the-“ Nyx says trying to get the shadow away from the drawer.

Stumbling back as it finally opens, Nyx looks in the drawer to see hundreds of drawings. Not just any drawings, but drawings of him. He gasps as he picks up a few to look at. They are incredibly detailed, even getting the texture of his hair and wings perfectly.

“I didn’t mean for you to find those.” Y/N says sheepishly behind him. Swinging around with the drawing still in his hand, Nyx stares at her for a second.

“These are amazing.” He manages to get out, looking up to meet her gaze. “I- I love them.”

“Well, there’s not much to do here and I didn’t want to forget what you looked like so…” Y/N starts moving over to put more things in her bag.

“I’ve drawn you too.” Nyx admits. “But I’ve never done anything like this. You’re an amazing artist.” Now walking over to meet her at the bed, he sets down the drawing and grabs her hands.

“I can’t wait to show you my home, have you meet my family and start our life together.” He says looking into her eyes. Y/N leans into his chest and Nyx places his arms around her.

“I can’t wait to join your family.” Y/N says, leaning her chin on his chest to look up at him. “I can’t wait to learn everything about you.”

“Well then,” Nyx says, bending over slightly to grab her bag. “Let’s get you home, shall we?” Y/N nods. Nyx smiles softly looking down at her. “Have you ever winnowed before?” He asks.

“No, never.”

“It’ll be okay, just close your eyes and don’t let go.” Nyx says, placing the bag over his shoulder and hugging her tight. Y/N nods and squeezes her eyes shut, wrapping her arms around Nyx’s waist. He chuckles at her cuteness before leaning down to press a kiss to her forehead and winnowing away.

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Landing on the front steps of his house, Nyx looks down again at Y/N. He gives her a slight squeeze, leaning down to whisper in her ear, “We’re here.”

She opens her eyes and looks at their surroundings.

“This is the House of Wind. It looks a little intimidating at first, but soon it will feel like home.” He says, admiring her taking in the view.

“Where are we?” Y/N asks, grabbing onto Nyx’s hand and threading their fingers together.

“The City of Starlight. A.K.A Velaris. It’s still a part of the Night Court, but nobody knows about it. My father has kept it a secret and his father before him.” Nyx answers, watching her reaction to his city.

“I-it’s beautiful.”

“Just wait till you see it at night.” He says, pulling her slightly, leading her towards the door. “Come on, we don’t want to keep them waiting do we?”

“Them?” Y/N asks as Nyx swings the door open. They walk inside and are greeted by a line of smiling faces. Nyx gives them a warning glare to not scare Y/N off. He squeezes her hand in encouragement as a beautiful female walks forward.

“Hello my dear, You must be Y/N. My name is Feyre, I’m Nyx’s mom.” Feyre says, extending her hands out for a hug. Y/N lets go of Nyx’s hand and moves into Feyre’s arms.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, Mrs. Archeron.” Y/N says as they pull away.

“Oh please just call me Feyre! No need for formalities.” Feyre says, walking back to stand next to Rhys.

“Welcome to our home, Y/N. These are the rest of our family members.” Rhys says, placing a hand on Feyre’s back. “You’ve already met Cassian and Azriel. This here is Amren, over there is Nesta and Elain. And then here is Mor-.” Not even letting him finish, Mor is running up to pull Y/N in a hug.

“Hello! I’m Mor! Nyx’s Auntie! You can call me Aunt Mor if you want! I’m so excited to finally meet you! Ever since Nyx told us about you, I couldn’t wait!” Mor says all in one breath. Rhys pulls her away and gives Y/N an apologetic look.

“Alright Nyx, why don’t you show Y/N her room? Help her get settled and then meet us back down for dinner.” Rhys asks. Nyx nods, grabs onto Y/N’s hand again and heads toward the stairs.

Making their way down the hall, they pass Nyx’s office and Y/N’s shadows scurry inside. A second later they squirm up to her ear and whisper something, stopping her dead in her tracks.

“Y/N? What is it?” Nyx asks when he sees her shocked expression. He sees her shadows coming out of his office and realizes she knows about the painting of her.

“Can I see it?” She asks. Nyx nods and lets go of her hand. She carefully walks over towards the door. Stepping inside, Y/N looks up above the desk to the painting of her. Stopping just a few feet away, she studies the painting. “I thought you said you didn’t do this kind of work?”

Nyx comes up behind her, putting his arms around her waist and pulling her closer. He leans down to her ear and whispers, “I don’t, this was a gift from my mother. She gave it to me last Starfall.”

“Starfall?” Y/N asks, leaning back into his chest.

“It’s a holiday here in Velaris. My favorite. It’s coming up pretty soon, I can’t wait to spend it with you.” He says kissing the side of her head.

She spins around in his arms and places her hands on his chest. “That sounds lovely.” She says standing on her tippy toes to press a kiss to his cheek.

Blushing, Nyx returns the kiss and steps away. He grabs Y/N’s hand and leads her back to the hallway. Standing now outside her bedroom door, he turns to her and says, “This is your room, I’ll leave you here to get settled. My room is just across the hall if you need anything. I’ll see you downstairs for dinner okay?”

Y/N smiles and nods. Nyx pulls their joined hands up to his lips and places a kiss on the back of her hand. He lets go and looks into her eyes one last time before turning around to go to his bedroom.

Entering her new room, Y/N closes the door behind her and slides down it towards the floor. She brings her knees into her chest and pulls her hands around them.

With a heavy sigh, she whispers, “please let this be real. please, please, please don’t let this be a dream.”

#a court of thorns and roses #acotar #azriel #cassian #feyre #mor #nesta #nyx x reader #Nyx #Shawdowsinger #rhys #rhysand #elain #amren #velaris #city of starlight

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acourtofquestions · 12 days

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“To the people who look at the stars and wish, Rhys."

Rhys clinked his glass against mine.

“To the stars who listen— and the dreams that are answered.”

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highladyofterrasen7 · 5 months

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Feyre after going into the city with Rhys

I’m very proud of this

#sarah j maas #acotar #rhysand #feyre archeron #feysand #feyre cursebreaker #the inner circle #acomaf #velaris #city of starlight

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tomorrowisabetterdayx · 4 months

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#Velaris #acotar #beautiful #incredible views #fantasy #a court of thorns and roses #court of dreams #city of starlight #the night court #sarah j maas #great books

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fairytails28 · 2 months

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#acotar #velaris #court of dreams #city of starlight #a court of mist and fury

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4s1na · 4 months

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i'm completely drowned in your love.

#lutt putt gaya #i am in love #he is magic #city of starlight #love #romantic academia #romance #poetry #fyp

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tineart · 2 years

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❤️‍🔥feysand❤️‍🔥

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peachyandmoon · 1 year

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Velaris, City of Starlight inspired makeup look

#a court of thorns and roses #a court of wings and ruin #rhysand #azriel shadowsinger #feyre archeron #cassian acotar #mor acotar #amren acotar #velaris #city of starlight #court of dreams #acotar #sjm books

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incorrect-fantasybook-quotes · 1 year

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This my new favourite thing I have on Redbubble! Look how cute haha!!

It also comes in stickers and mugs etc.

https://www.redbubble.com/i/t-shirt/I-VELARIS-design-ACOTAR-by-Luna-Art12/134173447.WFLAH

#acotar #acomaf #velaris #city of starlight #a court of thorns and roses #sjm #redbubble #bookish #bookish tshirt #cute #i love velaris #rhysand #cassian #azriel #feyre archeron #feyre #velaris city of starlight

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azrielslightintheshadows · 5 months

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Princess

Azriel x f!Reader

One of the series I’m currently working on. Enjoy!

Summary; Reader is Mor’s new friend that she found in the winter court while she was away for business. Y/n has been raised as a princess since her parents wanted to wed her to a noble fae in order to climb the social ranks. When her parents are brutally murdered y/n is left alone without a clue about the harsh reality or the brutality of the world. Mor finds her and takes her back to Velaris afraid of what might happen to her if she was left to live on her own. Will y/n survive the hate she will receive from certain members of the inner circle -including her mate- regarding the way she grew up?

Warnings; angst, mentions of abuse, trauma and death, swearing

Masterlist.

Princess Masterlist.

Chapter 12

“Fuck you” you shouted and slammed the door shut, leaving a whimper at the pain on your hand.

Azriel disappeared for two weeks, you knew he was still in the house, but he avoided you like the plague. At first you didn’t mind his absence but now two weeks later your hands wouldn’t stop trembling no matter how often you massaged them, it wasn’t the same. Azriel’s touch was like a light breeze on your hands, yet it was hard enough to release the pressure of the muscles and even though you spent more than an hour every day trying to sooth your aching ends it wasn’t enough. You tried looking for him in the house and even sent Claude to find him but failed miserably. You knew that Claude found him even though it hissed in your ear that it wouldn’t lie to you and you decided to act like you believed it in fear of losing the only part of him you had left. That was a thought that you kept deep in your mind under several locks to hide it from Rhysand and even yourself. In the past two weeks you realized that Azriel’s silence and darkness felt soothing and gave you the will to regain the control of your life. With a sigh you decided to join the night family for dinner, you wrapped your hands with bandages to hide the tremor and walked to the dining room. Everyone was already sitting around the big table -Azriel too and their heads snapped to you. The shadowsinger immediately glanced at your wrapped hands and frowned.

After a few greetings you sat across him and fell into conversation with Nesta.

Cassian cleared his throat interrupting you “You missed training today” he said to you.

You quickly scanned around the table and almost blushed when everyone’s eyes fell on you.

“I was tired” you mumbled.

“Will you come tomorrow?” he pressed.

“I don’t think so, I need some time for myself” you lied and hid your hands under the table.

No one seemed to notice except for Azriel who kept staring at you with furrowed brows. He nudged your foot with his own and shook his head questioningly when you looked at him. Oh now he cares. You thought and rolled your eyes before looking away and ignoring him for the rest of the dinner.

“I want to talk to you about something” Rhysand spoke to you. You nodded and waited for him to continue. “I talked with Helion and we would like to try something on your hands”.

You blinked. “What?”

“Maybe he can speed up the process of healing and maybe make the scars less visible.” He stared at you, trying to read your face.

“Maybe?” you asked.

“He doesn’t think he will be able to do that now, if he was here when it happened he is certain that he would make them disappear or at least not visible from a certain distance.” He explained.

You snorted “well if you go to Hewn City and I stay here you won’t be able to see them now, so certain distance doesn’t actually make a difference.”

Rhysand smirked and shook his head. “Anyway he agreed to speed up the healing process so you can continue training without pain. Cassian told me that you started your full training again and that you cry out every time you punch.”

He was right and even though you hadn’t met Helion, everyone said that he is kind and fair. “I would like that” you replied and Azriel scoffed.

“Tell her” he snarled at Rhysand making you stare the high lord questioningly.

“During the session you will be in tremendous pain.” He said softly. “Helion’s power will pierce through your wounded skin in order to heal you from inside out.”

“But my hands healed weeks ago that’s why Madja took off the bandages.”

“The outer layer healed, the damage was deep that’s why it hurts every time you touch something, Madja took the bandages off because the risk of getting infected doesn’t exist anymore.” Rhys explained. “But from what I can see you wrapped them again.”

You hid your hands even deeper under the table and sighed. “It soothes me” you replied.

“So should I invite Helion here?” he asked.

You didn’t know why but your eyes fell on Azriel, and you tried to figure out if he agrees. The shadowsinger stared back at you and quirked a brow. “It’s your decision” his expression seemed to say even though he remained silent.

Nesta noticed the small interaction and cleared her throat. “What do you think about this Azriel?” she asked and her hand fell on your thigh leaving a soft squeeze.

“I.. why me? It’s her decision.” He stuttered.

“Because you’ve been through this” Nesta rolled her eyes.

“If I had the opportunity then I think I would take it.” He shrugged.

You thought about it, everyone must be thinking that you’re a fool for not replying immediately but you’ve been in tremendous pain before, and you weren’t sure if you would survive it again. If Helion managed to help you then you would be able to go on missions with the girls, Cassian had said that they would start in a few weeks. But if he failed the healing process might be delayed.

“What if he fails?” you asked Rhysand.

“He won’t, at least on the healing part” he replied.

You hummed. “I don’t really care about the scars I have already made peace with the thought of having them forever”.

Azriel stared at his plate with a frown at the last statement.

“Okay I’ll do it” you announced.

“Perfect, please consider this an apology for the way you’ve been treated here.” Rhysand said and you nodded.

After dinner was over you returned to your room and Azriel slipped inside before you could close the door.

“What are you doing here?” you asked him but didn’t show your irritation not wanting to push him away.

“You bandaged your hands again” he noted.

With a sigh you unwrapped them and let him see the tremor and twitching.

“You’re not massaging them?” he frowned and quickly moved to your nightstand to take the ointment.

“I do but they won’t stop” you huffed.

He patted the bed “Come here”.

You quickly obliged and he knelt in front of you before grabbing your hands and started massaging them. His touch made you shudder and immediately your muscles relaxed. You suppressed a moan and closed your eyes, savoring the feeling of relief.

“Thank you” you whispered.

“I’m sorry for disappearing, I should’ve been here to help you.” he replied.

You took a deep breath. “I was awful to you, I just got so mad because you treated me differently and I reacted so poorly. I don’t blame you for what happened to me, at least not entirely.”

“I know… but I think you’re wrong. It’s entirely my fault and I will spend the rest of my life punishing myself for it” he shook his head “I don’t know why I always mess it up with you, I told you that I would help you heal and then I disappeared even though I knew that it was normal for you to react this way.”

“Maybe the Cauldron was wrong” you whispered, and he froze. “It usually is so easy between mates but look at us, we keep fighting and hurting each other with our words.”

He shook his head. “You should have seen Nesta and Cassian…” he paused “It doesn’t matter… we will reject the bond whenever you want.”

“I don’t want you to go mad” you stated.

“I won’t… I’m way stronger than most males.”

“Still this is something ancient…”

“Why do you care?” he asked and let go of your hands.

“Because I don’t want to harm you, even though you despise me, I don’t.” you shrugged.

“I don’t despise you” he furrowed his brows “listen… I know that I was a complete asshole to you, and I don’t want to defend myself for it, but I just wanted to keep you at a distance and to be honest the first days I completely hated the way you grew up. I kept thinking that you would never understand what I’ve been through, and I hated that I didn’t have the opportunity to be raised in a loving home like you. I guess I envied you.”

“You called me a princess…” you snorted “I grew up in a small cottage, we never bathed with hot water and some days we didn’t have food. My parents didn’t love me, they loved my potential… they called me their savior and brainwashed me so I could become an obedient little housewife to someone who would give them money and make their life easier. They wouldn’t care if my husband was abusive as long as they could enjoy his wealth.”

Azriel’s breath hitched, and you continued “It was really painful to realize all of this, but I did it when I came here and saw how the other females were. You see in my village most of the girls were brainwashed like me, so we never noticed that something was off. I’ve heard a few things about everyone’s past here and I know that it was way worse than mine but that doesn’t change the fact that I was abused too. I might not be able to understand your trauma, but I will respect it and I will stand next to all of you and support you if needed.”

Azriel’s eyes watered and he shook his head. “I wish I could go back in time and change the way I treated you.”

You smiled softly at that “I think we should let the past go and focus on the present, we ruined the bond between us but that doesn’t mean we can’t be friends.”

“Do you think we can leave all of this behind?” he asked sincerely.

“I think that it will take time and there will be times that we will fight but we will figure everything out eventually.”

He stood up and left the ointment on your nightstand.

“I’m willing to try it, maybe we can go to the city tomorrow I think I owe you a proper tour” he smiled.

“I would like that!” you smiled back, and he headed to the door.

“Azriel.” You called him and he stopped. “I would really appreciate if you came to my sessions with Helion… if you have time… Its okay if you don’t want to” you chewed on your bottom lip.

“Of course I’ll come” he said and with that he was gone.

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Helion arrived the next day, ruining your plans with Azriel to go to the city. Rhysand explained to him what you talked about and then he left you with Helion and Azriel.

“I will start with the left one” Helion explained and took your hand between his warm palms. “When I heal most of the damage, we will do both simultaneously” he informed you and you nodded. “You will feel a lot of pain, do you want something to bite?”

“Should I?” you asked, and he nodded.

Azriel quickly left the room and came back with a piece of leather.

“This used to be a belt, I washed it” he informed you and gave it to you.

“Okay let’s do this” you said and bit down on the leather.

Helion’s eyes became brighter, and you felt his power piercing through your skin, your eyes watered and the piece of leather seemed to groan at the pressure. You felt nauseous and goosebumps appeared on your soft skin. Azriel immediately grabbed your other arm a bit higher than where the damage was, and his shadows slithered around your body anxiously. The pain made you see stars and you were sure you would faint, but Azriel’s siphons started beaming and you felt a wave of power inside you, urging you to stay strong. His shadows hissed at Helion but remained on you, wiping away your tears and caressing your cheeks. Sweat was running down on Helion’s forehead, and his eyes closed before he stopped.

“I need a minute” he panted and walked out.

Azriel immediately removed the belt from your mouth and fetched you a glass of water. “You did so good” he praised you and removed a strand of hair from your face.

You could only nod.

“Should we stop?” he asked you worriedly.

“No no” you mumbled and took a deep breath.

Helion walked inside again and grabbed your right hand. You nodded and Azriel placed the belt between your teeth.

Everything repeated and Azriel’s power flowed in your body giving you strength and you could swear that it took some of the pain away. When Helion was done your eyelids felt heavy and your body gave up. The last thing you felt was Azriel as he carried you to your room and tucked you in, he probably thought that you were unconscious because before he left he placed a soft kiss on your forehead.

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