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callsign-dexter · 10 months

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Requests are temporarily closed!

This Masterlist does have 18+ fics in it so please heed the warnings.

All fics are separated but I do:

Top Gun

Top Gun Maverick

One Chicago (Chicago Med, PD, and Fire)

Criminal Minds

9-1-1

9-1-1 Lone Star

The Rookie

I will do:

Sister!Reader

Daughter!Reader

x Reader

A/N: All fics not underlined means that they are planned and a wip this just helps me to keep track of what fics I need to do.

A/N 2: All fics are fem!reader unless stated otherwise or requested otherwise.

Series

(Discontinued) I'm Already There (Bradshaw!Sister)

My Daughter, My Heart (Jake Seresin x Daughter!Reader, OC!Elizabeth Taylor x Daughter!Reader)

Whisper in the Wind (Natasha Trace x OC!Benjamin Bradshaw, Natasha Trace x Daughter!Reader, OC!Benjamin Bradshaw x Daughter!Reader, Bradley Bradshaw x OC!Wife!Leah Winters)

Universes

A Forever Home (Grace Ryder x Daughter!Reader and Judd Ryder x Daughter!Reader, Grace Ryder x Judd Ryder)

Baby Bradford: A Little Fighter (Tim Bradford x Daughter!Reader, Lucy Chen x Tim Bradford)

Blizzard (IceMav x Daughter!Reader, Maverick x Iceman)

Littlest Halstead (Jay Halstead x Daughter!Reader)

Little Nash (Bobby Nash x Daughter!Reader)

Lil' Severide (Kelly Severide x Daughter!Reader)

Mini TK (TK Strand x Daughter!Reader, Carlos Reyes x Daughter!Reader, TK Strand x Carlos Reyes)

Our Little Girl (Jake Seresin x Daughter!Reader, Bradley Bradshaw x Daughter!Reader, Jake Seresin x Bradley Bradshaw)

The Firehouse Miracle (Eddie Diaz x Daughter!Reader, Evan Buckley x Daughter!Reader, Eddie Diaz x Evan Buckley)

x Daughter!Reader

Top Gun

Maverick

Safe and Sound (Maverick x Daughter!Reader, Bradley Bradshaw x Mitchell!Reader)

Always Daddy’s Girl (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Light of His Life (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Maverick is a dad!? (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Crossing Paths (Maverick x Daughter!Reader, Penny Benjamin x Adopted!Daughter!Reader)

Always With You (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Maverick's Little Co-Pilot (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

A Father's Fury (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Night Ride Rescue (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Echoes of Talent (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

The Lost Keepsake (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

A Father's Comfort (Maverick x Daughter!Reader)

Love, Laughter, and Little Pranks (Maverick x Daughter!Reader, Penny Benjamin x Daughter!Reader, Maverick x Wife!Penny Benjamin)

Just Like Daddy (Maverick x Daguther!Reader, Penny Benjamin x Daughter!Reader, Maverick x Penny Benjamin)

Never Again (Maverick x Daughter!Reader, OC!Nichole Bradshaw x Daughter!Reader, Maverick x OC!Wife!Nichole Bradshaw

From Fear to Family (Maverick x Adopted!Daughter

Jake Seresin

Nightmares (Jake Seresin x Daughter!Reader)

One Chicago

Kelly Severide

Daddy to the Rescue (Kelly Severide x Daughter!Reader)

A Home in His Heart (Kelly Severide x Foster-Adopted!Daughter!Reader)

911

Bobby Nash

Unspoken Reunion (Bobby Nash x Doctor!Daughter!Reader)

911 Lone Star

TK Strand

"911 what is your emergency?" (TK Strand x Daughter!Reader)

The Rookie

Tim Bradford

I'm Fine (Tim Bradford x Daughter!Reader)

Surprise at the Station (Tim Bradford x Shy!Adopted!Daughter!Reader)

x Sister!Reader

Top Gun

Bradley Bradshaw

Brotherly Love (Bradley Bradshaw x Sister!Reader)

The Sibling Connection (Bradley Bradshaw x Sister!Reader)

Jake Seresin

Together Against the World (Jake Seresin x Sister!Reader)

Heart to Break (Jake Seresin x Sister!Reader)

One Chicago

Connor Rhodes

Blood Ties, Broken Bonds (Connor Rhodes x Sister!Reader)

Fics

Top Gun

Bradley Bradshaw

Be Mine Forever (18+ MDNI) (Bradley Bradshaw x Floyd!Pilot!Reader)

I Apologize (Bradley Bradshaw x Benjamin!Air Force Pilot!Reader)

A Flight of Insecurities (Bradley Bradshaw x Reader)

Meet and Greet (18+ MDNI) (Bradley Bradshaw x Reader)

Behind Closed Doors (18+ MDNI) (Bradley Bradshaw x Simpson!Reader)

Out in the Open (Bradley Bradshaw x Simpson!Reader)

Hearts on the Edge (Bradley Bradshaw x Wolfe!Reader)

My Brother's Wingman (18+ MDNI) (Bradley Bradshaw x Seresin!Navy SEAL!Reader, Jake Seresin x Navy SEAL!Twin Sister!Reader)

Love's Second Chance (18+ MDNI) (Bradley Bradshaw x Adopted!Mitchell!Reader)

From Fear to Forever (Bradley Bradshaw x Pilot!Seresin!Reader)

Intoxicated Confessions (Bradley Bradshaw x Pilot!Kerner!Reader)

Knight in a Hawaiian Shirt (Bradley Bradshaw x Reader)

Shadow of Protection (Bradley Bradshaw x Reader)

Jake Seresin

Surprise! (Jake Seresin x Best Friend!Reader)

Hangster

Doppelgänger (Hangster and Bradley Bradshaw x Daughter!Reader)

Dagger Squad

Fight for Freedom (Dagger Squad x Reader)

Learning to Love Again (Dagger Squad x Reader, Bradley Bradshaw x Reader)

Tangled Hearts (18+ MDNI) (Dagger Squad x Reader, Bradley Bradshaw x Reader)

Maverick

A Guarded Heart (Maverick x Reader)

One Chicago

Connor Rhodes

Heartbeat Promise (Connor Rhodes x Nurse!Halstead!Reader)

Unexpected Reunion (18+ MDNI) (Conor Rhodes x Assistant!Reader)

Emergency Love (Connor Rhodes x Paramedic!Severide!Reader)

Blazing Hearts (Connor Rhodes x Paramedic!Severide!Reader)

From Exes to Lovers (Connor Rhodes x Nurse!Reader)

Lovers Forever (18+ MDNI) (Connor Rhodes x Fiancée!Nurse!Reader)

Surgical Serenad (Connor Rhodes x Surgical Resident!Reader)

Will Halstead

Unspoken Desires (Will Halstead x Doctor!Reader)

Daniel Charles

A Hug to Remember (Platonic!Daniel Charles & Platonic!Oakley Finn)

Jay Halstead

Dispatched Love (Jay Halstead x Reader)

Antonio Dawson

Heartstrings Tangled (Antonio Dawson x Reader)

From Tough to Tender (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Reader)

Undercover Temptation (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Reader)

From Colleagues to Lovers (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Intelligence!Reader)

Gossip and Glances (Antonio Dawson x Intelligence!Reader)

Flirting with Risk (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Intelligence!Reader)

Love in Sickness (Antonio Dawson x Sick!Reader)

Undercover Desires (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Cop!Reader)

Shattered Lives, Mended Hearts (Antonio Dawson x Paramedic!Reader)

Drunken Confessions (Antonio Dawson x Halstead!Reader)

Fighting Fate (Antonio Dawson x Intelligence!Reader)

Love Conquers All (Antonio Dawson x Halstead!Twin Sister!Reader)

Lost in Lust (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Intelligence!Reader

Frostbitten Love (Antonio Dawson x Firefighter!Reader)

Undercover Seduction (18+ MDNI) (Antonio Dawson x Intelligence!Reader)

In the Line of Fire (Antonio Dawson x Reader)

Hank Voight

Snapshot of Justice (Hank Voight x Intelligence!Reader)

Blake Gallo

Two Hearts, One Firehouse (Blake Gallo x Severide!Reader)

Kelly Severide

Taming the Flame (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Paramedic!Reader)

Sizzling Heat (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Paramedic!Reader)

Heatwave of Emotions (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Paramedic!Reader)

Broken Promises, Rekindled Flame (Kelly Severide x Paramedic!Rhodes!Reader)

Ignited Desires (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Firefighter!Reader)

Flames of Courage (Kelly Severide x Firefighter!Reader)

Passionate Nights (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Reader)

Saving Grace (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Fiancée!Paramedic!Reader)

Fireside Romance (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Paramedic!Reader)

Snowy Embrace (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Reader)

Beneath the Bubbles (18+ MDNI) (Kelly Severide x Reader)

Christopher Herrmann

Surgical Sparks (Christopher Herrmann x Surgeon!Wife!Reader)

The Rookie

Tim Bradford

Love's Wake-Up Call (Tim Bradford x Police Officer!Reader)

Love in the Moonlight (18+ MDNI) (Tim Bradford x Police Officer!Reader)

Late Night Confessions (18+ MDNI) (Tim Bradford x Evers!Lawyer!Reader)

Unraveling Desires (Tim Bradford x Police K-9 Officer!Wife!Reader)

Forever Yours (18+ MDNI) (Tim Bradford x Reader)

Bulletproof Love (Tim Bradford x Reader)

911

Bobby Nash

Surprises and Smiles (Bobby Nash x Wife!Reader)

911 Lone Star

Owen Strand

Love and Homemade Treats (Owen Strand x Wife!Reader)

Crossovers

Fight to Survive (9-1-1 x Criminal Minds) (Evan Buckley x Nash!FBI!Reader)

Burning Jealousy (One Chicago x The Rookie) (Kelly Severide x Paramedic!Reader)

Love in the Danger Zone (One Chicago x Top Gun Maverick) (Bradley Bradshaw x Halstead!Pilot!Reader and Kelly Severide x Halstead!Pilot!Reader)

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no-damsel · 1 year

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Just friends

Warnings: Swearing

Chapter two

Becoming impatient, you bounce your knee while waiting for Voight to arrive. Adam called his boss after you finished breakfast and briefly explained the situation. Voight agreed right away and was currently driving over with Antonio.

“Nice place you’ve got here.”

Adam lets out a sarcastic laugh. “Oh yeah, the dirty dishes and mountain of laundry really add to the decor.”

Feeling restless, you stand up and walk around his living room. Adam suggested you meet at his apartment; that way, if anyone saw you with him, you could easily play it off as a hookup. You smile at the picture pinned to his fridge of him and a brunette woman posing. “She has a beautiful smile; who is she?”

“That’s my girl, Kim.”

“Where did you guys meet?”

Adam nervously scratches at his beard and says, “Work. She's a cop in my district.”

Laughing, you toss the dish towel hanging beside you at him. “I thought you’d know better than to get involved with someone you work with.”

“Yeah, yeah. How’s your dad and Eli doing?”

You gulp down a mouthful of cold water before pulling at the label covering the bottle. “Eli’s fine—great, actually—and my dad's just the same. Having a kid in the house again is good for him.”

Adam gives you a sympathetic look but doesn’t ask any more questions. You make small talk until Adam gets a text. “That’s them here," he says as he walks towards his door, ready to open it, saying, “Just remember not to be nervous. Hank and Antonio can be a little intense and dark at times, but they are good guys, and if you want, I can do most of the talking for you.”

You struggled to hold back a laugh. Adam was being so sweet and protective, and yet he was in for a surprise. Antonio walks in and gives you a polite nod before greeting his colleague. Hank walks in with a serious expression on his face that softens the moment his eyes land on you.

Adam clears his throat. “Boss, this is—”

“Detective Love,” Hank pulls you in for a hug. “It’s good to see you, kid.”

“You too, Hank; it’s been a while.”

“Don’t drink anything the brunette waitress called Beck gives you; it’s spiked. All the rooms have hidden cameras. Be safe.” Antonio holds the note you placed in the uniforms between his fingers, “so there’s no safe space to talk inside? What about the staff changing rooms or bathrooms?”

“All bathrooms have cameras facing the sinks, and there are hearing devices in the changing rooms.”

Hank nods. “Before we go any further with this, we all agree that nothing that’s said leaves this room.”

All three of you nod.

“Now that’s sorted, Viola, tell me how you got into a club owned by Hector Vasquez; last I heard you were a detective in robbery-homicide.”

“I volunteered when I heard Nat Dickson was back in town.”

“I’m guessing since you’ve been undercover for a while, Nat’s still out there.”

Rage boils deep within your veins; “bastards have been keeping a low profile.”

“Who’s Nat Dickson? I don’t think I’ve heard that name before,” Antonio says.

“He’s wanted for human trafficking in New York. Viola, you should have come to me when you heard he was back in Chicago.”

“You were in prison.”

“Fair enough, but I’m here now.” He turns to face Adam and Antonio and says, “Nat Dickson is scum and extremely dangerous. Trust me, if you’re ever in a run-in with him, do your best to shoot and ask questions later.”

“Nat is part owner of the club, but his share is under a fake name, Lewis Archer. Jasper gives him a large amount of cash along with a bag of guns once a month, but the date, time, and location are always different.”

Adam’s eyes widened with interest as he looked through some paperwork: “The club is full of drugs and has been busted twice in the last month, but only one arrest has been made, and that was for public intoxication.”

“Jasper’s got eyes on the inside.”

Anger flashes behind Antonio’s eyes. “You're telling us a dirty cop is ripping him off for police raids?”

“Dirty as they come,” you say, clicking your tongue. “But I’ve no idea who or how many cops are mixed up in this.”

“Is Nat still selling girls?

You chew on your bottom lip as Hank drives you back to the other side of town, where your car is parked. “If he is, he’s doing it in another location.”

“Tell me about this Beck who spikes people’s drinks.”

“Every so often she spikes men with sleeping pills, takes them into a back room with the promise of having sex, and robs them. She takes everything, from wallets to wedding rings. I’ve tried reporting her anonymously twice before, and each time it’s bounced.”

“Sounds like there’s more than one dirty cop involved. I’m going to have Ruzek stay on the bad-dope trail while you continue gathering evidence of Beck drugging and robbing men; I have a feeling they are contacted.”

“And Dawson?”

Hank turns a sharp corner, the tension in his shoulders obvious. “I want you to stay close to Antonio. Don’t get me wrong, Adam’s a good cop, but Antonio has been deep undercover before, so he knows what it’s like. Plus, he’ll watch your back without getting emotional.”

“I understand and thank you.”

“It’s what my team does; we watch out for each other.” He lets out a small chuckle and says, “I also have an ulterior motive.”

“What’s that?”

“Once this case is closed, I want you in intelligence.”

#antonio dawson x reader #antonio dawson x you #chicago pd fandom #chicago pd x reader #Chicago PD #chicago pd fanfic #chicago pd fanfiction #antonio dawson #adam ruzek #hank voight #antonio dawson fanfiction

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imjustwritingg · 2 years

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Most of us are a part of this fandom because we love the show, cast and the enjoyment from the stories and content make us happy and it’s an escape from the stresses of daily life. For the people causing drama, please let this fandom be a safe and fun place for us all to be. The world has enough craziness happening this should be the place we we can laugh and have fun.

#anon ask #chicago pd fandom

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blackterrae · 8 months

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Ideas for Black!Reader Fic

I am going to try my hand again at writing. And I wanted to share some people and fandoms that I love. If you don’t know these shows/actors/franchises/movies/streamers I’m putting you on! For the following:

Johnny Depp- All his characters

Cameron Monaghan- I know that there are fics out there but it’s only always his Jerome/Jeremiah roles never just him or Cal Kestis

Anthony Carrigan- I loved Anothy as Victor Zsasz

Paul Dano- There are Riddler fics but not as many for his other roles

The Entire Cast of Hawaii Five-0 (2010) - Don’t even get me started on how good this show is! And the cast looks amazing!

Chicago Med/Fire/PD- These shows have so much potential for fanfic storylines!

The Game (2006)- Has great potential for slow burns and fluffs.

Star Wars franchise (1977-present) - I know I said Cal Kestis but there are also other characters like Anakin, Luke, Obi Wan,Boba Fett (etc.)

NCIS franchise- I honestly love this franchise and it’s characters!

Hamilton

Any/All Sports Men- Jude Bellingham,Lewis Hamilton,LaMelo Ball,Allen Iverson(etc.)

Berleezy - He’s handsome and he’s funny!

Coryxkenshin- I literally love him and his videos!

Albert Aretz (Flamingo)- Look … he may be the epitome of mediocre white man but I like what I like!

AMP- Duke Dennis, Kai Cenat, Agent 00, ChrisNxtDoor,Davis, and Fanum ( all I gotta say is love a black man from infinity to infinity🗣️)

Beta Squad- A British YouTube/ streamer group!

SOMEBROS- Berleezy, Rico, ,PG, Joe (etc.)

WWE- come on now, do I even need to explain!!!

Four Brothers- All the cast but Garrett Hedland in particular!

Peacemaker - Don’t get me wrong I love Adrian Chase but I want to see just as much Peacemaker x black!reader fics because 2 words… JOHN CENA

MAWS- New animated Superman show! Love!

Smallville - The entire cast is hot! Tbh I fell hard for Tom Welling when I was younger when he was in Cheaper By The Dozen. Plus they literally whitewashed Vixen. COME ON! Vixen is a black female hero btw. She was also with Jon (Green Lantern) at one point.

Justice League/Justice League Unlimited (2001 and 2004)- I mean I literally can’t find any Jon Stewart x black!reader fics and he was with a BLACK WOMAN!

Warner Bros Franchise (minus the looney tunes & space jam)- There are lots of popular franchises that this company has from Fast & Furious to The Matrix!

Peaky Blinders- Saw a Tommy shelby x arms dealer black!female reader fic on my previous account but even then I couldn’t find it again on that account. So it’s gone with the wind. And the cast (i.e the actors and other characters they’ve portrayed). Example: Cillian Murphy as Johnathan Crane.

The Bear

FBI (All)

Vinnie Hacker

Tiktokers

Blue Bloods

Will Poulter- I haven’t really seen any Adam Warlock fics

Slashers

Stranger Things

Dave Lizewski

Eddie Redmayne

Macgyver (2016)

Fresh Prince of Belair

Guardians of the galaxy- Explanation? Do I really need one?

On My Block

Descendants (characters will be the actors age in real life.duh)- Love Boo-boo Stewart & Mitchell Hope!

Matt Rife

Joey Bragg (Liv &Maddie) - What can I say I love dorks!

The Boys- Haven’t seen that many fics about the characters and a black reader

Once Upon A Time- I love dark fairytales sometimes because they remind me that not every story has a happy ending and you have to learn from them. But this series is good for any theme really.

Walker Texas Ranger (1993)

Top Gun

Magcon: Whether you saw their vines on YouTube or vine, you know who they are

Dolan Twins

Mission Impossible

Euphoria- Entire show has great storylines with the potential of drama in fics

Shameless- Especially Carl Gallagher and Lip Gallagher

Creed- Michael B Jordan need I say more

Keanu Reeves- There are very few fics about Keanu but I’ve seen a few of his John Wick x black!reader fics (chef’s kiss) but never see any of The Matrix Fics!Also Ted (Bill & Ted)

River Phoenix

Batman Beyond

Rider Strong

Danny Gonzalez

Timothée Chalamet

New York Undercover

Past-Present Singers & Rappers/ Groups -Bow Wow, Tupac, Lil Baby, Nelly, Omarion, Prince, Michael Jackson, Jon B,Usher, Central Cee, Måneskin, New Edition, BTS, James Bay(etc.)

Anime(Any kind!)- Would love to see other shows, I know hunterxhunter,aot,one piece (etc.)

Bridgerton- There is very little Bridgerton stories catered around a black reader.

Marvel- Now that’s not to say that there aren’t any in fact there are many but I never see (Tobey Maguire Spider-Man stories and it seems like everyone tends to focus on the famous Marvel characters like The Avengers but not on other aspects like X-men or better yet, heroes that haven’t even gotten their own movie but are just as amazing like Squadron Supreme , it’s equivalent to DCU’s Justice League.

Secret Invasion- Not gonna lie , I’m feening for Gravik.😳

DCEU- Another franchise that pushes its other characters to the side. For example, Hush (Thomas Elliot) is literally the epitome of Bruce Wayne gone bad!

Ross Lynch- There are so many roles that Ross did so well in Like Teen Beach Movie or Sabrina.

Highschool Musical Franchise (2006- present ) I’m not just talking about HSMTS (2019), I mean even further back than that. I don’t see any Troy Bolton x black!reader and that’s crazy. I also can’t find any Zac Efron x black!reader

Interview with a Vampire (1994) and (2022)

Austin Butler- He did well in his role as Elvis!

Vikings - There are a good amount but still!

Transformers

Suits

Saved By The Bell

The Goldbergs

Parks & Recreation

Leverage

The Outsiders

Heart of Stone

New York Undercover (1994)

Addams Family

Victorious

Matpat

ICarly

The Real Bros of Simi Valley (2017)

Think Like A Man (2012)

One on One (2001)

Scorpion (2014)

The King of Queens (1998)

G.I. Joe Franchise

Terminator

Beware the Batman (2013)

Any and all Asian Idols/Actors

Seal Team

Mortal Combat

Bill and Ted

Barbie

Detroit: Become Human

Will Trent

Tokyo Vice

Growing Pains

Graceful Family (Kdrama)[Any Asian Drama shows or movies would be great as well]

The Regime

Batman: The animated series

If anyone needs ideas for these franchises/movies/shows/actors , then holla at me! I got you!

Also add more to the list if anything that you would like to see comes to mind.

Also tag black writers who you want to see this!

@sheabuttahwrites @shinsouscatpisssmell @cocoamoonmalfoy @heathenarmyimagines @cinewhore @cocoamoonmalfoy @stxxllaaa @glitterjuju @lilvampirina @breanime @blackmissfrizzle @afro-hispwriter @stargirlfics @lavenderursa @clydesducktape @pettyprocrastination @theblvckvenus @plantvenuss @punani @n-slayaaaaa @infernalodie @halfofmysoulsblog @iridecsense @tomhardydallasstarsgirl @supremethunda @thekrazykeke @canumoveurseatup-no @hiatuswhore @avintagekiss24 @ohcaptains @iguessweallcrazyithinktho @xsapphirescrollsx @sunflowertuliplily @bakarilennox @batfamily14 @ramp-it-up @blackreaders-assemble @royallyprincesslilly @funnyexel @blackterrae @slashisms @artemisthewh0re @shelbydelrey @toocriticalharlow @v-era-18 @vampsired @queenimmadolla @sinnerlillith @greengoblinswifey @apocalypse-shuffle

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sarah-cam · 5 months

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Holiday Icons

it's snowy season ❄️🕎🎅🏼

various fandoms

150 x 150 px

like/reblog if you use/save

icons found here

#icons #holiday icons #christmas icons #winter icons #*#i don't have the individual posts anymore so here's where you can find the main page!!#here's some of the fandoms -->#chicago pd #chicago fire #the rookie #nancy drew cw #the summer i turned pretty #outer banks

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jayhalsteadsimp2019 · 1 year

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Summary: When Lyla’s world is turned upside down, she turns to harmful and unhealthy coping methods.

TW: Self Harm, Alcohol, Substance Abuse, Vaping, Blood, Sexual Assault, Anxiety, Swearing, Awful Writing

Word Count: 7k

Note: Hi! This is the first fanfic I’ve ever posted so it’s kinda bad but oh well lol I hope you like it (:

Lyla woke up in a cold sweat, desperately gasping for air. She sprung up in her bed, clutching her blanket like a lifeline that would help her escape. Obviously, it didn’t work. She told herself to take deep breaths, in and out slowly, and after what felt like forever, her breathing slowed, heart following suit.

She checked the time, groaning softly in annoyance as it was only 2:57 in the morning. She rested her head against her headboard, allowing the tears she felt forming to fall. It was her fault. It wouldn’t have happened if she would’ve just stayed home.

It was supposed to be fun. She was supposed to have a good time, enjoying herself, her brothers not knowing a thing. Of course, Jay and Will would never let Lyla go to a party, but they didn’t have to know, right? It would be fine. Her and her best friend Caleb would sneak away, have a drink or two, then Lyla would make it home before Jay and Will did, since they had to work late anyway. She’d be fine, besides, if anything went wrong, Cal would be there for her.

Well, that’s what Lyla thought, anyway. She had known, trusted, and loved Cal in a platonic way since they were little. They did everything together. They told each other everything. They shared their fears, their insecurities, the problems they each faced as teenagers. They trusted each other. She trusted Cal, until that trust was broken in a way Lyla never imagined possible. Her best friend betrayed her, leaving her to pick up the pieces.

She reached over for the hydro flask on her nightstand and pulled up the straw. She hesitated for a second, knowing she’d regret it later, but took a large sip of the alcohol she put inside, having stolen it from her brothers. It helped her fall asleep, even if it didn’t keep her asleep. She hadn’t been sleeping well since the party. She just wanted to sleep, so badly.

She put her water bottle back on her desk, resting her head on her pillow. What would Jay and Will think, she thought, if they knew what she was doing to herself? If they knew what Cal did to her? She couldn’t tell them, she couldn’t see the look of disappointment on their faces. She couldn’t and she wouldn’t.

After a while she gave up on trying to go to sleep. When she saw that it was only 3:14, she groaned in annoyance and stared up at her ceiling. She thought about how things would be different if she didn’t go to that party. If she would have just listened to Jay and Will, everything would be fine. Why couldn’t she just listen?

Her heart began to race as guilt presented itself. She sat up and put her head in her hands, tugging roughly at her hair as if that would help. When it didn’t and the guilt got worse, she grabbed her phone from her night stand. She then jumped off of her bed and rushed to her bathroom, making sure the door didn’t slam, and locked her door.

She turned on the light and put her hands on the counter, looking at herself in the mirror. She knew she’d feel guilty later, but she told herself it’s what she needed to do, because she’d feel fine now, and the pills would help later. She hesitated for a moment longer, and then grabbed her phone. With shaky hands she removed her phone case, revealing the blade she kept inside.

She grabbed the blade and looked at it for a moment, considering if this would be a good idea. She shook her head as if to shake away those thoughts and carefully set the blade on the counter. She then rolled up the sleeve of her hoodie, revealing the already cut and scarred arm. She took a deep breath, grabbed the blade and put it to her arm. She began cutting, watching as the blade pierced her skin, blood pooling around the blade. She removed the blade, and when the guilt still resided, she made another cut. Guilt finally gone, she rolled her sleeve down, blood trickling down her arm, and made sure no blood was on the ground. After cleaning what was on the ground, she put her blade and phone case back, turned off her light and exited the bathroom.

She laid back down on her bed, putting her phone on her night stand, and pulled her blanket around her. Somehow, and she had no idea how, she managed to fall asleep.

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Lyla’s somewhat peaceful slumber was interrupted by a knock on her door, making her jump.

“Lyla, it’s 6:00.” Jay announced, and Lyla rubbed her eyes. When she didn’t answer, he knocked again.

“Don’t make me come in there.”

“Okay, okay, I’m up!” Lyla pulled the covers off and hopped out of bed. She thought about making her bed, but she decided against it. She chose an outfit- a dark colored long sleeved shirt, gray leggings and her favorite black hoodie, and made her way to her bathroom. She washed her face, brushed her hair and teeth, and began getting dressed.

Everything was fine, until she changed her shirt, and she remembered what she had done to herself earlier that morning. The guilt began coming back and tears began to form in her eyes. Why couldn’t she just keep clean? Why didn’t she just tell Jay and Will? Why didn’t she stay home in the first place?

She quickly put her shirt on and rolled up her sleeves. She then made her way out of the bathroom and grabbed her book bag. She opened the smaller pocket in the front and began searching around with her hands, until she found her vape. She knew this would make her feel guilty, so she closed her book bag and moved to her bed. She grabbed her pillow and slowly grabbed the bottle of pills she hid, making sure not to shake them. She then moved to her window, opened it, and hit her vape a few times. She closed her window and made her way to her bathroom, vape still in hand. She closed her door and poured one onto her hand. She swallowed it, without water, and placed the bottle on the counter, looking at herself in the mirror. She hated herself for this, but she couldn’t tell Jay or Will.

It was a constant cycle, drink alcohol to sleep, cut to get rid of the guilt from drinking, vape to get rid of the guilt from cutting, pop pills to get rid of the guilt from vaping, cut to get rid of the guilt from popping pills. It started to drive her crazy, but she couldn’t stop. She wanted to, but it was the only thing that helped her with the triggers, the stress, and the guilt for not listening to her brothers.

She felt a tear fall, and she wiped it away quickly. She put the lid back on the bottle of pills and made her way out of the bathroom. She quietly put her pills back in her pillow case and decided to make her bed, because she knew Jay and Will were beginning to catch on. She didn’t want them searching her room, because she knew she'd get in so much trouble. She then put her vape back in her book bag and slung her book bag over her shoulder. She grabbed her phone and ear buds from her night stand, deciding to leave her hydro flask. She put her hair up in a messy bun as she checked the time-6:26, turned her light off and exited her bedroom.

“Good morning.” Jay greeted as Lyla made her way down the stairs. She made her way to the island and took a seat as Jay made breakfast.

“Morning.” Lyla mumbled, opening her phone and scrolling through Instagram.

“Someone’s grumpy.” Will retorted as he entered the room, taking a seat next to Lyla, who just rolled her eyes at the comment. They sat there, a somewhat comfortable silence falling over them, until Will spoke up.

“You okay?” Will asked, showing concern for his sister. Jay and Will noticed changes in Lyla’s attitude and noticed she had become distant.

“Yeah.” Lyla replied, keeping her focus on her phone.

“Are you sure?” Jay butted in, setting a plate of pancakes in front of his sister, “You’ve been acting a little different.”

“Yeah, I’m fine.” Lyla and her brothers knew she was lying through her teeth, but she didn’t care. Jay and Will shared a look.

“Hey,” Will started, his voice soft, “You know you can talk to us if something’s wrong, right?”

“Yep, but like I said, I’m fine.” Lyla was starting to get irritated, the pills not having kicked in yet.

“Lyla, if something’s going on we just wanna-”

Lyla slammed her phone down, making Jay and Will jump.

“I said I’m fine! How many times do I have to tell you guys? Just leave me alone!” She grabbed her phone and air-pods, jumped off the stool and made her way to the front door, despite how early it was.

“You’re not gonna eat?” Jay asked, still shocked that Lyla had just snapped.

“I’m not hungry!” She yelled as she slammed the door, leaving her brothers dumbfounded.

“That went well.” Will remarked, still shocked Lyla had reacted that way.

“Yep.” Jay replied as he sat down next to his older brother, worry for his sister growing by the second.

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Lyla made her way to the park, shocked at the way she had just acted.

She had never, ever yelled at Jay or Will like that, and it scared her.

She threw her book bag on the picnic table and pulled her vape out. She closed her book bag and made her way over to the swings, sitting down on one and placing her bag on another.

She put her air-pods in at full volume and hit the vape a few times, trying to block out the world and what had just happened. When that didn’t work, she let the tears fall.

She was angry at herself for the way she had just acted. She knew her brothers were just trying to figure out what was wrong so they could help her. She was beyond pissed and upset, because she was taking out the anger she felt for herself on her brothers.

After a while, she stopped crying and she felt the pills kick in. She checked the time and saw that it was 7:15, which was the time she’d normally leave. She hopped off her swing, put her vape in her back pocket and grabbed her backpack, slinging it over her shoulder. She slowly walked to school, knowing she’d hate herself even more later.

Lyla was sitting in her third hour class, drawing on her desk, not even paying attention to what was going on. Unfortunately for her, the pill was starting to wear off.

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“Mr. Doherty?” The school’s secretary, Mrs. Lewis, called over the intercom. Lyla didn’t think anything of it, because the secretary called all of the teachers frequently.

“Yes?” Mr. Doherty replied.

“Could you send Lyla Halstead to the office?” This obviously caught Lyla’s attention. She looked up at her teacher, confused.

“Yes. She’ll be right there.”

“Alright. Thank you.” Mrs. Lewis hung up, and Lyla made her way to the classroom door.

“Do you know what they need you for?” Mr. Doherty inquired as Lyla reached the door.

Lyla looked towards her teacher, “No.” Then, she opened the door and left, confused as to why she was being called down to the office.

When she got in there, the principal, Mr. Kramer, was waiting for her, which scared her.

“Is everything okay?” Lyla asked, worried and confused at the same time.

“Yeah, everything’s okay.” Mr. Kramer started, which eased Lyla’s worries a bit. Mr. Kramer continued, “We just need you to get your book bag.”

“Am I being signed out?” Lyla inquired, confused as to why they would need her book bag. She wasn't sure this was the case, because they would've told her teacher over the intercom.

“Not exactly.” Mr. Kramer stated, “Just get your bag and we’ll go from there.”

“Okay.” Lyla replied, still very confused, and left the office to go get her book bag as instructed. She made it to her locker, put her combination in, and grabbed her book bag, trying to think of a reason they would need her bag. Then, she closed her locker, making sure it was locked, and made her way back to the office.

Once she got in there, she handed Mr. Kramer her backpack.

“Have a seat, Lyla.” Mr. Kramer instructed, and Lyla did so.

Lyla watched as Mr. Kramer opened her bag and began searching. She didn’t say a word, still confused, and it wasn’t until he opened the small pocket that it hit her-her vape.

Lyla had been careful, or so she thought. She rarely vaped at school unless it was outside, and she didn't think anyone would've seen her. Even if it wasn't the vape he was looking for, he'd find it now, but was that what he was looking for in the first place?

The latter was revealed to her when Mr. Kramer stopped searching and pulled out her vape. At that moment, she was very glad she didn’t bring her hydro flask.

Mr. Kramer sighed and turned to look at Mrs. Lewis, showing her the vape. She too sighed, surprised that Lyla would ever do such a thing.

“I’ll call her brother.” Mrs. Lewis stated and picked up the phone. Mr. Kramer turned back to Lyla, who had a look of guilt on her face.

“Go get the rest of your homework for the week.” Mr. Kramer instructed, and Lyla stood up and left the office.

The whole time, she was pissed, at herself, at whoever told on her, because that’s what had to have happened. She was just pissed at the world in general. What would Jay and Will think? This thought made her want to cry, because she knew they’d be livid and disappointed in her. How would they be able to trust her? She felt so, so guilty about everything, and it was stressing her out beyond belief.

Once she got her stuff from Mr. Doherty’s and her homework from the rest of her teachers, she grabbed the books and notebooks necessary for her work from her locker and made her way back to the office, putting her stuff in her book bag. She sat down in the seat, leg bouncing in anticipation.

Usually, she would’ve hoped it wasn’t Jay that showed up, but this time, she hoped it wouldn’t be Will that showed up, because first, doctors and vapes are like oil and water and second, the looks of disappointment she was sure he’d give her would destroy her even more. She couldn’t do that.

Unfortunately for Lyla, when the office door opened, it was Will that walked in and not Jay. He immediately looked to Lyla, who was staring at the floor.

“Mr. Halstead, please have a seat.” Mr. Kramer instructed.

“Please, call me Will.” Will started as he took a seat next to Lyla, “What’s this about?” Mr. Kramer stood next to Mrs. Lewis, clearing his throat, “Well, a student came to my office this morning stating they had seen your sister vaping. We didn’t believe it until, well, we found this in her bag.” Mr. Kramer pulled out the vape, and Lyla looked up for a split second to read Will’s face. His features went from one of surprise to anger, and when he looked at her, she regretted looking up.

“Wanna explain yourself?” Will asked, a tinge of anger present in his voice. Lyla just stayed silent, returning her gaze to the ground, knowing he was more angry than he seemed.

Will sighed and looked back at Mr. Kramer, “What kind of punishment is she looking at?”

“She’s being suspended for the rest of the week and she’ll have one day of in school suspension.” Mr. Kramer said, and Will ran a hand down his face, disappointed and shocked Lyla would do this, still angry of course. Actually, angry would probably be an understatement.

“Alright. Is there anything you need me to sign?”

“You just need to sign her out.”

Lyla stayed seated as Will stood up and signed her out.

Once finished, Will turned to Lyla, “Let’s go.” Lyla got up and walked out of the door.

Before Will left, he turned to Mr. Kramer, “I’m sorry about this. I don’t know what’s gotten into her. I can assure you this will not happen again.”

“I’m sure it won’t. She’s a good kid. Don’t be too hard on her.” Will nodded his head, then followed Lyla out to his car.

Before Lyla made it outside, the bell rang, and students flocked out of the classrooms. She caught a glimpse of Cal, who actually waved at her as if nothing had happened at the party, and it made her want to throw up. She put her now shaking hands in her pockets as she made it to Will’s car, sitting in the backseat so she’d be as far away from him as possible.

Lyla had just buckled her seat belt when Will entered the driver’s seat and slammed the door.

“What the fuck Lyla? A vape? Really?” Will yelled, turning the car on and buckling his seat belt. Lyla just acted unfazed, because after what she had just seen with Cal, she knew she would crack, especially now that the pills were wearing off. She couldn’t do that, not right now.

Will turned around to face Lyla, “I’m so disappointed in you, Lyla. I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low.” Then, Will turned around and began driving, trying his hardest not to drive like a mad man.

Lyla tried to act unfazed, but those words kept echoing through her head. “I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low. I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low. I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low.” Her heart began to race and she felt like she was going to cry, but she couldn’t do that, she couldn’t give in. She needed to calm down, and the only thing that would calm her was cutting, and she couldn’t do that right now, not in Will’s car.

“I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low.” She began to pick at her thumbnail with her index finger, something she did when she was stressed. Even though she was glad she didn’t bring her hydro flask, she kind of wished she did.

“I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low.” She wanted the words to go away, she needed them to. Although she tried to stay calm, she began to breathe harder.

“Do you know how fucking dangerous vaping is?” Will yelled, not aware of how Lyla was feeling at all, “You’re so lucky I don’t take you to med to get checked out right now. And don’t think I’m not telling Jay about this.”

As Will kept ranting, Lyla thought about the look Jay would give her when he found out, how he’d yell at her as well. She then thought about Hailey. They’d both be so disappointed in her, for everything.

“I didn’t think you could stoop this fucking low.”

She pulled her knees to her chest as best she could with the seat belt in the way and buried her head in her knees. She thought of the party, of what Cal had done to her. She couldn’t handle the rush of memories, Will yelling, the looks she imagined Hailey and Jay would give her. She started silently crying, wishing Will would shut the fuck up and these images memories and words would leave her head.

“Out of all the things you could have possibly done, you chose to vape? Really?”

“Please stop.” Lyla begged softly, but Will couldn’t hear her. She felt like an object, like she didn’t matter to anyone. She felt like she couldn’t carry this weight anymore. She started to shake slightly as she wrapped her arms around her legs as tightly as she could and put her hands in her hair, tugging softly.

“Do you know how many kids your age I’ve seen in the ED because of vaping? Do you?” Lyla whimpered softly. Will looked in the rear-view mirror and sighed.

“Lyla-” Will’s voice became softer, kinder. He took a breath, “I’m sorry.” When Lyla didn't say anything, Will guessed it wasn’t just the vape that had been bothering her.

Will sighed, “Lyla, can you please tell me what’s going on?”

“No.” Lyla replied through tears, and it broke Will’s heart.

“Please? I just wanna help you.”

“I said no!” She took her hands out of her hair and gripped her arms, slightly digging into her cuts through her thick sleeves. Will sighed and just continued driving, knowing if he kept pushing she’d become too distressed and likely have a panic attack.

Lyla felt like she was going to explode. She just needed to make it to her bathroom.

She wished the words, images and thoughts would just leave, just until she was alone. She couldn’t take it. For the first time, she felt like giving up.

After what felt like hours, Lyla felt the car come to a stop. She looked up to see that they were finally at their house. She unbuckled her seatbelt, grabbed her book bag and exited the car. She waited for Will to unlock the door, and after he did so, she rushed to her room.

“Lyla-” Will tried to talk to her, but she was already halfway up the stairs. Her door slammed and Will sighed.

Lyla immediately made her way to her bathroom, phone in hand. She quickly removed her phone case and rolled her sleeves up. She began cutting, the most she’d cut at once, making new cuts and reopening older ones. She took a deep breath, cleaned the blade and counter top with toilet paper, put her blade and phone case back, rolled down her sleeves and exited the bathroom. She laid on her bed, face in her pillow, and cried silently to herself, guilty because of the vape and what she had just done to herself. She was glad she wore black because nobody would be able to see the blood, and the fact that she did this broke her even more.

She laid there for a while until she heard a knock on her door.

“Lyla, I’m coming in.” Will’s soft voice announced. Lyla rolled onto her back and sat up as the door opened.

“Are you feeling okay?” Will asked, seeing as Lyla had been crying. Lyla nodded.

“Do you want some water?” Will offered, and Lyla nodded her head. At this moment, she realized she had heard those words before.

“Alright. I’ll be right back.” Will told Lyla, and he walked out of her room to go downstairs and get a water bottle, Lyla's mind shifting to the night she'd heard those exact words before.

Lyla had been stressed with upcoming exams, hence coming to the party. She had a pretty bad headache, and the loud noises from the event weren’t helping, the opposite actually. She made her way to the kitchen where Cal was sitting.

“Are you feeling okay?” Cal asked, sounding concerned.

“Yeah, I’m good. I just have a headache is all.”

“Do you want some water?” Cal offered generously, holding out a water bottle.

“Sure.” Lyla accepted his offer, and Cal handed her the water bottle. Lyla took a few sips, feeling the cool liquid run down her throat.

“Thanks, Cal.” Lyla thanked sincerely.

“Yeah, no problem.”

If Lyla would’ve known what Cal had done to that water, she wouldn’t have accepted it.

“Lyla?” Will called out.

“What?” Lyla asked, having forgotten about their previous encounter.

“I got your water.” Will answered, concern filling his voice as he handed her the water.

“Thanks.”

“Yeah.” Will replied, “You alright? I called your name like 50 times.”

“Yeah. I’m fine.”

“Alright.” Will replied skeptically. He was about to say something else, when his phone went off. He pulled it out of his pocket and groaned as he read the notification.

“I have to get to Med.” Will sighed, “I’m gonna call Stella and see if she can watch you, alright?” Lyla nodded her head, and Will brushed a strand of hair out of her face, “I love you.”

“I love you, too.” Will planted a kiss on her forehead, then left her room.

Lyla waited until Will was gone before getting out of bed. Will had texted her saying Stella was on her way, so she knew she had to do this quickly. She grabbed her near empty hydro flask and made her way to her bathroom. She quickly washed it, then made her way into the kitchen. She opened the fridge and grabbed the bottle of Tequila that belonged to her brothers, opened her hydro flask and filled it up about half way. She put it back in the fridge, closed her hydro flask, and went to the main bathroom. She grabbed febreeze so Stella wouldn’t be skeptical, sprayed some, put it back and made her way up the stairs, hydro flask in hand. She closed her bedroom door and connected her air pods to her phone. She then chugged the contents in the hydro flask and made her way to her bathroom.

Once inside, she rewashed the hydro flask, brushed and flossed her teeth, then rinsed out with mouthwash. She made a few more cuts to take the guilt of drinking alcohol away. She cleaned the blood off of the counter, not really caring about cleaning her arms. She rolled up her sleeves as she exited the bathroom, putting her blade back once she was by her nightstand. She grabbed a packet of gum out of her nightstand drawer, popping three pieces into her mouth. She grabbed the water bottle Will had given her earlier and poured the contents into her hydro flask. She shuffled her Spotify playlist she’d been listening to lately and put her air pods in. She laid down on her bed, putting her phone and air pods case next to her. She pulled the covers over her as she quickly fell into a peaceful, drunken slumber.

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“Hey, Stella.” Jay greeted as he, Hailey and Will walked in, “Was Lyla good for you?”

“Hey! I checked on her once and she was asleep. I haven’t seen her since.”

“Oh. Well, thanks for being here anyway. I owe you one.”

“Don’t sweat it. I’m happy to help.” Then, Stella grabbed her stuff and left, heading for her shift at Molly’s.

“I’ll go check on her.” Will informed Jay and Hailey who nodded. He turned around and made his way upstairs to Lyla’s bedroom.

“Lyla?” Will called as he softly knocked on her door. When he didn’t get a response, he became kind of worried, and opened the door. He saw that she was fast asleep, which calmed him down. He was about to leave, when he thought he saw something on her right arm. He decided to check it out, just to be sure. When he made it over there, he saw what looked like dried blood that had trickled down her arm, which worried him. Curiosity got the best of him, and he gently grabbed her arm, slowly rolling up her sleeve.

When he saw the cuts, he wanted to cry. He flipped her arm and saw more cuts. He was relieved there weren't very many, until he realized her other arm would likely have more, being that she was right handed. This realization made him want to throw up. He didn’t think something could have been bothering Lyla this badly.

Lyla jolted awake from the contact, a nightmare having begun when Will opened the door.

“What the fuck?” She muttered, then she saw Will, “Will, what are you-?” She followed his gaze and saw her arm. She sat up a little in bed and slowly looked up, meeting Will’s worried eyes.

�� “Will, i-it’s not what it looks like-” Lyla tried to protest, but she was at a loss for words.

“Jay!” Will called for his younger brother.

“Will!” Lyla hissed as Jay came rushing in. She banged her head on her head board in annoyance and guilt. She was sure her secret wouldn't be a secret anymore.

“What’s up?” Jay inquired worriedly. He walked over to Will, and was shocked to see Lyla’s arm. He bent down and inspected it.

Jay was honestly at a loss for words. Lyla just ran a hand through her hair in exasperation and fear.

Jay walked over to Lyla’s left side and bent down.

“Can you roll this sleeve up?” Jay asked gently. Lyla knew there was no escape. She rolled her other sleeve up, revealing cuts all up and down her arm, at least twice as many as her right arm. Lyla felt tears form in her eyes and her heart began to race.

“Lyla,” Jay started, his voice soft, “Can you tell us why you did this?”

Lyla stayed silent, putting her hands to her eyes to try and stop the tears from flowing.

“Lyla,” Will spoke up after a moment, “Can you please tell us? We can help you.” “No. I-It doesn’t matter. It’s my fault anyway.”

Jay and Will shared a look, then Jay spoke up, “Lyla, please. I promise we won’t be mad at you.”

Lyla looked at her brothers, their gazes a mix between soft and concerned. She knew it was now or never.

She sighed and took a deep breath, putting her head back and closing her eyes, “I snuck out to go to a party and Cal drugged and raped me.”

Even though the words were rushed, Jay and Will still heard them, and to say they were pissed at Cal was an understatement.

Lyla drew in a deep, shaky breath, “I-I’m sorry. If I would’ve listened-”

“Hey, look at me.” Jay instructed, his voice soft. Lyla met his gaze, and he grabbed her hand, “None of this, and I mean none of this, is your fault, okay? It’s Cal’s and only Cal’s.” Lyla nodded her head.

Will opened his arms, “Come here.” Lyla accepted the embrace and cried in Will’s arms while he rubbed her back soothingly.

He looked at Jay, “Go get him.” Will mouthed, rage in his eyes. Jay nodded and walked out of the room, Will turning his attention back to Lyla.

“Hey, what happened?” Hailey asked as she saw her husband coming down the stairs. She could tell he was beyond livid.

“Call Voight, tell him we have a case. I’ll explain on the way.” Jay grabbed his coat and keys and stalked out to the truck, Hailey following suit.

Meanwhile, Will had gotten Lyla to calm down.

“I want you to know none of this is your fault. Just because you snuck out doesn’t mean you’re the one to blame, okay?” Lyla nodded. Will planted a kiss on her head and got up.

“Will?”

“Yeah?”

“Can you stay with me?”

“Yeah, of course. I’m just gonna grab a blanket and pillow from my room, okay?” Lyla nodded her head.

After a few minutes, Will came back with his blanket and pillow. He turned off her light and laid down next to her, wrapping an arm around her protectively. She rested her head on his chest, enjoying his warmth. After a while, she finally fell asleep, feeling the safety she’d craved.

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“Voight.” Voight’s gruff voice came over the line. Jay and Hailey were in the truck, Jay racing towards the district, obviously using his lights and sirens.

“Hey Sarge.” Hailey started, “Jay has a case.”

“Talk to me, Halstead.”

Jay sighed, “Lyla told us she snuck out to a party and was drugged and assaulted. The offender is Caleb McCarthy, 15, no priors.”

“Alright. Do you know how long ago this happened?”

“No. I’ll call Will and have him ask Lyla.”

“Alright. I’ll call the team. Do you know where this prick lives?”

“Yeah.”

“Alright. Come to the district, we can debrief the team there.”

“Okay. Thanks, Sarge.”

“You don’t have to thank me. She’s family. I’ll see you in a few.” Then, Voight hung up.

Hailey rested a hand on Jay’s arm, “We’ll get him, Jay.”

“Yeah, I know. I just feel bad for her, you know? She had to carry this by herself for God knows how long.”

“Yeah.” Hailey squeezed Jay’s arm as they pulled into the district. Hailey got out of the truck and made her way to the bullpen as Jay called Will.

“What’s up?” Will asked, answering on the second ring.

“Can you ask Lyla when the party happened?”

“Yeah, hold on.” Will put the phone down and turned his attention to his sister. He gently rubbed her back.

“Lyla.” He said softly, and Lyla opened her eyes.

“Hey, I’m sorry to have to wake you, but I have to ask you something. Do you remember when the party happened?”

Lyla thought for a moment before answering, “October 15th."

“Alright. Thank you. You can go back to sleep now, okay?” Lyla nodded her head, resting it where it was a moment before.

Will picked up his phone, “October 15th.”

“Alright. Thanks man.”

“Yeah. Go get him.” Will hung up and pulled Lyla closer to him, planting a kiss on her head.

Jay walked into the district and buzzed himself up to the bullpen where the team was waiting, already aware of the situation.

“October 15th. That’s when the party happened.”

“Alright.” Voight started, scratching his head, “We’re gonna need more evidence. Go through his phone records, check his social media, anything we can. Let’s get this prick.”

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Will knew Maggie was on shift, so when he knew Lyla was asleep, he called her to tell her he was gonna need to use some of his vacation days. He didn’t tell her exactly what happened, just that it was a family matter.

Will was beyond pissed. He just hoped Jay would get that son of a bitch that had hurt his little sister, causing her to spiral to the point she was hurting herself. It broke his heart. He really wished they would’ve caught on sooner, because he knew they’d have more evidence.

He looked at Lyla who was currently sound asleep. She felt so fragile in his arms, so vulnerable, so scared. He figured that was the reason she had started vaping. He wanted to ask her if she was doing anything else, but he didn't want to push her. All she needed right now was her brothers to be there for her, and Will knew this.

Will didn’t understand how someone could do something so evil, so wrong, especially someone he knew Lyla trusted with her life. That’s what pissed Will off the most, was the fact that she trusted him since she was little. Her and Cal had been best friends since kindergarten, and he broke that bond so selfishly.

Suddenly, Lyla jolted awake, heart racing. Will’s heart broke, knowing exactly what was going on.

“Hey, hey, I got you. I’m right here.” Lyla’s heart slowed and she leaned into her brother.

“Did you have a nightmare?” Will asked gently, and Lyla nodded her head.

Will planted a kiss on top of her head, “It’s okay. Do you want your hydro flask?” Lyla nodded her head. Will used his free arm and grabbed the hydro flask, flipping the straw up. He handed it to her, and Lyla took it, taking a few sips of the water inside. She closed the straw and put it on the nightstand closest to her, feeling tears well up in her eyes.

“I should’ve stayed home.”

“No. Just because you snuck out doesn’t make it your fault. It’s not your fault, and it can not and never will be your fault.” Will pulled her closer, wanting her to know that she was safe and that none of this was her fault.

“Can you tell me a story?” Lyla asked.

“What kind of story?”

“I don’t know, like something you and Jay did together.”

Will thought for a moment, then chuckled when he thought of the perfect story.

“Okay. You know the Target by your school?” Lyla nodded her head, and Will continued, “One day, Jay and I ditched. We walked around, and when we got up to the Target, for some reason we decided to steal a shopping cart from the parking lot.”

“Jay jumped in the cart and I pushed him all the way until we got back to the school. I then had the idea to push the cart up the wheelchair ramp outside the front entrance and then push him down the stairs.”

“What happened?” Lyla inquired, kind of intrigued.

“Well, you know that big ass scar on his right arm?” Lyla nodded. “He has that because the cart flung Jay forward and he almost broke his arm. When Mom and Dad found out they grounded us for a month and we had to pay for the shopping cart we stole.”

“I thought you were smart.” Lyla retorted playfully.

“Hey!” Will protested, “I am smart!” Lyla giggled, and Will chuckled. He was glad he made her laugh, because that was the first time in forever that he saw her actually smile.

Lyla yawned, and Will held her tighter. After a while, she fell asleep again, leaving Will awake and pondering.

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“I think I got something!” Kevin announced from his desk. Everyone stood up and made their way to Kev’s desk.

“This tweet was posted around 9:00 the night of the party.” Kevin informed the team.

“Didn’t think drugging someone would be that easy.” Kim read the tweet, which was posted by Cal. It angered everyone, especially Jay.

“Doesn’t that count as a confession?” Jay asked Voight eagerly.

“To the drugging, yes, but to the rape itself, no. Anyone have anything else we can use?”

“I might.” Adam started, opening a vanilla folder, “I recovered some deleted texts Caleb sent to a contact named JJ that were sent the day after the party and, well, they’re pretty, um, gruesome.” Adam handed the paper with the messages to Voight, who began reading to himself. Let’s just say Voight became angrier by the second, and when Voight gets angry, well, you don’t want to mess with him.

“Kim, you get a warrant. Halstead, Upton, once we get the warrant, we’ll get this prick.” Voight demanded, and the three of them grabbed their coats. Voight would’ve made Jay stay, but after reading those texts, he didn’t really care.

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Having secured the arrest warrant, Jay sped off to Cal’s house, Voight following close behind. When they got there, Jay parked the truck in front of Cal’s house, and he and Hailey hopped out, Voight following behind.

Hailey knocked on the door, and after a few moments, Cal opened the door.

“Hi, Hailey.” Cal greeted, “What’s up?”

“Hey, Caleb.” Hailey replied sarcastically, faking a smile, “I need you to get against the wall for me.”

“What, why?” Cal asked, seemingly confused.

“Get against the wall, now.” Jay commanded using his don’t fuck with me tone of voice, and Cal did as told.

Jay pushed in front of Hailey and walked into the house, handcuffs out. He first patted Cal down, then he began cuffing him, when Cal’s mom and dad came into the room.

“What’s going on?” Cal’s mom inquired, confused and worried at the same time.

“We have an arrest warrant, ma’am.” Voight informed the confused parents, handing her the arrest warrant.

“Th-This is insane! He couldn’t have done anything wrong!” Cal’s mom exclaimed, not even reading the paper the sergeant handed her.

“Oh yeah,” Jay started, anger present in his voice and features, “Tell that to the fifteen year old girl he sexually assaulted.” Jay turned his attention to Cal, pushing him forward and leading him out of the house, “You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have the right to an attorney. If you cannot afford one, one will be provided for you.”

Hailey made her way to the passenger side as Jay opened the back door and shoved Cal inside. He slammed the door and walked over to the driver side, hopping in and starting the car. He drove to the district, Voight following closely behind once again. Once they got there, Jay walked through the garage and roughly handed Cal over to Kevin, who brought him to the interrogation room. He was about to follow, when Voight stopped him.

“Halstead,” Voight called, and Jay turned around to look at his sergeant.

“Go home, be with your sister. She needs you.” Jay nodded in agreement, turned around and went towards the garage door, receiving a pat on the back from Voight. Hailey opened the garage for him.

“Thanks, Hails. I’ll see you at home.”

“See you at home.” Then, Jay walked out and went to his truck, Hailey closing the garage behind him and making her way to the interrogation room. Jay started the truck and drove home, choosing not to use the sirens so he’d have time to calm down and gather his thoughts.

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It was about 11:30 now, and Lyla was still fast asleep, much to Will’s relief. He was deep in thought, thinking about Lyla’s road to recovery, when Jay walked in, snapping Will out of his thoughts.

“Hey.” Will greeted softly so he wouldn’t wake Lyla up, “Did you get him?”

“Yeah. How’s she doing?” Jay asked as he walked towards Lyla’s bed.

Will sighed, “She’s got a long road ahead of her, that’s for sure.”

Jay laid down next to Lyla on the other side, and Will moved his arm so Jay could replace it with his.

“Well,” Jay started, lowering his voice to a whisper. He planted a kiss on Lyla’s head, “We’ll be here for her, every step of the way.”

Will nodded in agreement, and after a while, they both fell asleep. Lyla had woken up when Jay came in, unbeknownst to her brothers. Shortly after Jay had come into her room, Lyla fell into a comfortable slumber, thankful that she had her brothers to help her heal.

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I hope you enjoyed! If you have any questions, requests, or if you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to reach out to me.

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Kim Burgess' (extremely hot) fiance <3

#burzek #chicago pd #adam ruzek #kim burgess #me @ the fandom: TAKE MY SHITTY GIFS #yes this is my first time giffing in literal years how could you tell?#the janky movements? the colouring? the sizing? the quality?#I'm sorry but also. not. because i was able to stare at paddy's face and i do enjoy doing that #ree's.gifs #which is also a tag i haven't had to use in years #literally since my old laptop was new (to me)

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lady-rhaesnow · 2 years

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Goodbye Detective Jay Halstead

Jay Halstead will always be the heart of Chicago PD

#thank you Jesse #saying goodbye will the hardest things this fandom does #not happy with that exist but what is done is done #jay halstead #jesse lee soffer #upstead #hailey upton #upstead forever #chicago pd #one chicago #tracy spiridakos #nbc onechicago

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babytrapperdiaz · 1 year

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nobody :

the slow burn ship that's been developing for literally 84 years :

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fanficsforfun · 11 months

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Don't be afraid to write for small fandoms!

Even if you feel like no one else likes this character you love, just go for it. You're gonna make someone really happy, I swear.

#fanfiction #fanfic #fanfic writing #writing #fandom #small fandoms #fictional characters #the walking dead #chicago med #chicago pd

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adarafaelbarba · 11 months

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I'm (once again) sick and sat at school studying for my exam on Monday (first time I'm here to work on a Saturday)

Someone PLEASE send me some good vibes and headcanons to write/react to at the earliest convenience ❤️

#karen speaks #fandom headcanons #send me headcanons #law and order svu #law and order #law and order organized crime #a discovery of witches #kingsman #mayans mc #outlander #chicago pd #chicago fire #grey's anatomy #station 19 #911 lone star #911 fox #the rookie #criminal minds

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callsign-dexter · 7 months

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Dispatched Love

Request: Reader had known Jay since she’d first started as a dispatcher for Chicago. It wasn’t long until she’d developed a crush on the older man. She didn’t say anything since she realized he was dating Erin but then she left. She left and Jay got kidnapped; reader heard it over the radio. Hank texted her to say they’d found him and she left her job without saying anything and sped to the hospital. When she saw the blonde detective in the waiting room they got into a fight and reader punched her. She refused to leave the hospital until Jay woke up and laid in bed with him the entire time. When he woke up, in the heat of the moment her lips were on his in a moment.

Pairings: Jay Halstead x Reader

Warnings: angst, fluff

Masterlist

When you moved back to Chicago you really didn't know anyone besides Hank Voight considering he was your uncle and he had raised you for most of your life. You had gone away for college and had just recently come back to Chicago.

You had been job hunting for a while but nothing had interested you or if you did find something they weren't hiring. You really wanted to be a 911 dispatcher but each time you tried to apply something always came up so you just gave up. Hank had come up to you one day saying he had a surprise for you and that he wanted you to come to supper and of course you accepted, you loved your uncle.

It was currently Thursday night when you went over to his house for supper. You drove over there and when you got into the driveway you parked and killed the engine. You got out and walked to the door and knocked and waited then the door finally opened.

"Hey! Come on in!" Hank said and you smiled and walked in.

"Hey, Uncle Hank." You said and hugged him and you returned it.

"I'm glad you could make it." He said as he let go of you.

"I was doing anything really. I was just thinking about opening a bottle of wine and sitting in front of the TV and ordering a pizza." You said and you watched his face fall.

"You know you're always welcome over here." He said and you nodded.

"Of course I do but I don't want to inconvenience you." You told him and he shook his head and you both began walking into the living room.

"Nonsense. Supper will be ready in 10 minutes." He said and you nodded. You both sat on the couch.

"You said that you had a surprise." You told him and he nodded.

"I got you a job at the 911 dispatch center." He said taking a drink of the beer that he had on the table.

"Wait. Seriously?" You asked with a look of shock on your face and you watched him nodded "How?" You asked.

"I know someone who owed me a favor." He said and you practically tackled him into a hug.

"Thank you." You said and he hugged you back.

"No need to thank me, kid. I know how much you wanted it." He said and then you both released each other. Dinner was ready and you both ate in a comfortable peace. You went home happy and grateful for an awesome uncle.

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When you weren't working you were hanging out at the police station and visiting your uncle. You had made fast friends with everyone in Intelligence including none other than Jay Halstead. You had developed feelings for him. He was always so nice to you when you came in and if you needed something while there he would get it for you. But he was with Erin Lindsay so you didn't pursue your feelings. What you didn't know was that he had feelings for you too.

"Hey, Y/N. How's it going?" Jay asked when you walked into the bullpen. You smiled at him.

"I'm good. Just been working." You said as you walked over to him.

"How's it going?" He asked truly interested and you loved that. He had been sitting on the edge of his desk.

"It's going well. I'm doing what I've always wanted to do." You said and he smiled but then Erin walked over and slung her arm over his shoulder.

"Hey, Y/N." She said and then turned and kissed Jay on the cheek.

"Hey, Erin." You said with a polite smile on your face.

You really didn't like Erin she gave off a vibe that just didn't sit well with you, even if she was part of your family. She would always pop into conversations and still him away even if it was just a simple friendly conversation. So you ended up steering clear of her and him and started to visit less often. You hated doing it but that didn't stop your feelings from forming.

"What are you doing here?" She asked turning to you.

"I was actually waiting for Uncle Hank." You said just being in her presence was awkward and not pleasant. "You know I actually need to go. I have work in a few hours. Jay, can you tell him I stopped by and I'll get into contact with him later?" You asked and Jay nodded and then you left saying bye to Trudy on the way out.

You didn't return to the station after that day so you didn't know what had happened. Your love for Jay still grew stronger. You met everyone at Molly's a few nights but you steered clear of Jay and Erin no matter how it hurt.

One day Jay had shown up to you as you were leaving work. This surprised you. "Jay, hi." You said a little confused.

"Hey, Erin left." Jay said and you didn't say anything but you wore a shocked expression.

"I'm sorry, Jay. I know how much it must hurt." You said and then pulled him into a hug which he returned.

"Thank you, Y/N." He said and you both talked for a while before you both left but not before exchanging numbers.

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It had been months since Erin had left and you hoped she didn't come back. You and Jay had been texting but never met up due to working hours. You wanted to but never found the right time. Sometimes it would go on for weeks and sometimes it would stop and you understood. You both had demanding jobs.

You were at work when tragedy struck. You had taken a 911 call from a women. She claimed that she saw someone, a male, matching Jay's description and your heart dropped.

You had texted Hank but he said that he didn't know anything and he would let you know. It had been a few hours so when you took your break you had called him.

"Hey, have you heard anything?" You asked him and heard him sigh.

"I'm not supposed to be telling you this but we're close to finding him, we think. You have to believe that we will." Hank said and you closed your eyes.

"I believe you. I love you Uncle Hank." You said and opened your eyes.

"I love you too kid. Everyone including Erin is here helping." He said and your blood ran cold. You didn't say anything else just hung up the phone and got back to work.

You didn't contact him for weeks or even visit them. You couldn't you hated the thought of seeing her face.

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Going into 3 weeks of Jay missing you had gotten a text from Hank.

Uncle Hank: We found him. We're going to med.

You just stared at your phone you couldn't believe it. You got up and grabbed your stuff and headed out of work. Your boss was going to stop you but they knew what was going on so they just let you go.

When you got to med you walked right into the waiting room to Hank. He saw you coming and he opened your arms and walked into them fully closing the hug. "Where did you find him?" You asked him and as you broke apart from the hug.

"We found him in a warehouse locked to a pole and he was beaten pretty badly. He's in surgery now." Hank had told you. All of Intelligence didn't care that you knew but that didn't sit well with Erin and it showed.

"Why are you telling her? She's not supposed to know anything." Erin said and you turned to look at her.

"I thought you left. Why are you back?" You asked her maybe a little bit rudely.

"I heard that he was kidnapped and I came back to help look." She said and you didn't quite believe her so you scoffed.

"If you cared for him so much then you wouldn't have left him. You broke his heat. Now all of a sudden you're back trying to win it?" You asked her and she had an offended look on her face but you didn't care. You didn't know when you had stepped closer to her but at some point you had.

"What? It's not like you're dating him or anything." She said and rolled her eyes.

"You're a bitch you know that." You said with a look of disgust on your face.

"What did you just call me?" She asked

"A bitch. I called you a bitch." You told her and the next thing you knew you were getting punched in the nose and it started bleeding. You stumbled back into Hank but what she didn't know was that when you get mad you go into fighting mode. You took one swing at her and she stumbled and into a wall. Before it could get any further Connor Rhodes came into the waiting room to say that he was out of surgery and only one person was allowed to be with them while he recovered, Everyone agreed that you should be the one, Erin was offended but you really didn't care.

When you walked to his room with Connor. He had stopped and checked you out and cleaned you up before continuing on. "Hey if any swelling occurs call me." He said and you nodded and then turned to him when you reached the door.

"Thank you, Connor." You said and he smiled and nodded. You walked into the room and waited.

Waiting can be a horrible thing at times. Waiting gave you time to think and those thoughts could be good or bad. Jay had been unconscious while you were there and you refused to leave his side. He had visitors come and Erin surprisingly didn't show her face. Hank visited often it was to check up on you and to see if any changes happened with him.

"Hey, Sweetheart. Any changes?" He asked and you shook your head and he sighed.

"Nothing new but that's a good thing. That just means that he isn't getting worse." You said and he nodded.

"You need to go home. You're probably missing a lot of work." He said and you shook your head.

"I had the next few days off since I work late nights. I'm not leaving him." You said and he nodded and left it at that.

"Text me if anything changes." He said and you nodded.

"You got it." You said never leaving your eyes off of him.

It took a total of 2 days for Jay to wake up. You had fallen asleep in a chair next to his bed. He groaned and started moving and that is what woke you up. You jumped up and before you knew it, your lips were on his. What you didn't expect was to from him to kiss you back. You only broke apart when you needed air. He looked at you suprised.

"I'm sorry. I just really wanted to do that. For awhile now. I should go." You rambled but he grabbed your hand and pulled you back and crashed his lips back onto yours, this time it was turn to be surprised but kissed back. You pulled apart again when air was needed.

"You don't know how long I've wanted to do that." He said and you smiled and you sat down.

"Really?" You asked and he nodded his head.

"Really. Y/N I fell in love with you when Hank first introduced the Intelligence group to you. Yea I was with Erin but we were already going out of the relationship." He said and you smiled.

"I've had a crush on you when Hank introduced me to you and then it slowly turned into love." You said and smiled.

"Well would you like to go out with me on a date?" He asked and you nodded your head.

"I would love that." You said and you both smiled at each other. You didn't know if you ever would love again but Jay Halstead just proved that you could. You loved each other and nothing was going to change that.

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no-damsel · 1 year

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Just friends

Warning - Swearing

Chapter one

The music was so loud that it was almost impossible to hear the conversation that was taking place right in front of you. Walking further into the room, you rub the bottom of your nose with the back of your hand and sniff loudly before sitting on the club owner's lap. His hand immediately moved to your waist, making you uncomfortable, but you bite your tongue and pretend to enjoy the attention Jasper gives you.

“Who’s this?” You ask, pointing to the two men sitting across from him.

Jasper takes a drink of his whisky. “This is Tommy and Gregg,” he says slowly, as if you’d need a moment to follow what he’s saying. “They are going to be working here on a trial basis.”

“Cool.” You lazily rest your head on Jasper's shoulder while they continue to talk business.

Both men would be rotated between working behind the bar and working security. Occasionally, you’d wipe your nose with the back of your hand or twitch your jaw. Each time you did, ‘Gregg’ would shoot you a death glare; you couldn’t blame him. He probably thought you were a drugged-up mess, which is exactly what you wanted people to believe. You recognized the man going by the name of Tommy as the sweet kid who lived down the street from you growing up, Adam Ruzek.

“I’m sorry,” ‘Tommy’ says, interrupting. “But you’ve got to introduce us to this pretty lady here.”

Adams' brown eyes bore into yours as he searched for any sign of distress. You hadn’t seen him in so long that he must have been shocked to see you sitting on one of the most despised men in Chicago. The fact that you look strung out and hardly dressed probably didn’t help.

“Where are my manners?” Jasper says, slapping you on the thigh and laughing. “This is Angel; she’s one of our dancers and my personal favorite. High as hell, but she takes great care of my books.”

How Jasper wasn’t busted before was a mystery; he would mix different pills and alcohol and start blabbering to anyone who would listen. He had just met these guys and already told them who had done his books.

The man sitting with Adam scoffs, “Angel, huh? How original.”

You met his glare. He was handsome. Hispanic and looked to be around the mid-thirties. Given that Adam hadn’t been a cop for long, you’d assume this guy had a fair amount of experience being undercover. You lean forward and run your finger over ‘Tommy’s’ jawline before pinching his cheek. “I like him; he’s cute. He reminds me of a chipmunk.”

Adam gives you a sweet smile before acting flattered by your comment, “Well, thank you, sweetheart.”

Jasper wraps his arm around you a little too tight, a silent way of telling you to shut up. “Excuse her; Angel likes to party a little too much on shift and comes away with some weird shit; just ignore her.”

“Oh, I imagine that’s not possible.”

Jasper smirks. “Since you’ve taken a liking to them, you can show them around.”

After showing the club’s newest ‘employees’ the lockup routing, you lead them down the hallway towards the dressing room. The halls were mainly empty since it was still daytime, but in a few hours they would be mobbed by dancers starting to get ready for the nighttime shows.

“So, Angel, how long have you worked here?”

“A couple of years,” you answer before opening the door to a small room that the staff uniforms were kept in. You close the door behind you and look between them. “So, chipmunk, is your friend here good?”

Adam chuckles. “He’s good.”

You both knew the question you were really asking, and that was if the person could be trusted.

You give them both uniforms, scribble down a message, and place it between the tops you hand to Adam. You hand it to him just as Jasper walks into the room.

You wink at Adam and say, “I’ll see you later, handsome.”

Jasper frowns and runs his hand through his blonde hair, and you hear him say, “House rules: no getting high off my shit and no fucking on shift. If you see anyone who isn’t one of my men, tell me right away. And if you do bang any of these bitches, I don’t want it to bring any drama into my house, right?”

They answer in unison, “right.”

A few days pass before you see Adam again, along with the other cop, when you finish your shift at six in the morning. They had been working behind the bar while you jumped between greeting ‘guests’ at the door and convincing the men sitting at booths to buy overpriced bottles of alcohol.

“Yo, Angel!”

“Tommy,” you smile before rubbing at your eyes, which are heavy and over-coated in massacre. “How are you enjoying your new gig?”

He looks more uncomfortable the closer he gets to you, and he does his best to avert his eyes from the sheer red outfit you were wearing. He clears his throat. “I was just going to grab some breakfast; care to join me?”

“Sure, I’ll just get changed, then meet you outside.”

“Your partner seems intense,” you say in between bites of your breakfast. Pancakes loaded with cut-up strawberries, bananas, and chocolate sauce. You’d need the sudden sugar rush to help you stay up a little bit longer.

“Antonio is wary of strangers, but he’s a good guy.” Adam chuckles, “I see you still have a sweet tooth.”

“I don’t indulge much these days. Jasper likes his dancers to look a certain way, you know.”

“Yeah, like trash. Calling me my nickname from when we were kids was a good call. I gotta say you had me really worried when I first saw you; I actually thought you had gone down that path.” He sips on his coffee. “You're not taking anything, right?”

“Absolutely not!” you say defensively. “I’m just good at making it believable.”

“Viola…”

You kick him under the table for using your real name in public.

“Sorry, sorry.”

You had to give two years of your life to this undercover assignment. You had gone on a strict diet, dyed your hair with cheap dye, then let the roots grow out, and invested a lot of money into tacky clothes and cheap makeup to play the part. In-between bites, you ask, “So you're going to tell me why you're in that hellhole?”

He leans in and talks in a low voice, “In the past two weeks, there have been thirteen overdoses because of bad dope that’s been sold by Jasper’s people.”

“Jasper isn’t the boss; a man named Hector Vazquez is calling the shots. This case… It’s icky; there’s more to it than just dope. I’m not going to lie—I’m actually glad you're there, because I’m drowning.”

“Can’t you speak to your sergeant?”

“No,” you answered sharply. “Sorry, it’s just that you're the only person I’ve said that to. I’m… The stuff I’ve found out has made me seriously consider just leaving and starting over.”

Seeing the worry on your face, he places his hand on yours. “What do you mean?”

“I’ve been looking at one-way plane tickets,” you admit. “I just... I don't know who to trust anymore. You're the first person I’ve spoken to in a long time who even knows my real name.”

Adam scratches his chin with his free hand before smiling politely at the waitress when she tops off his coffee. “I know someone who can help, but you’ve got to trust me. Completely.”

“Who is it?”

“My boss, Hank Voight.”

#chicago pd fanfiction #Chicago PD #antonio dawson x reader #antonio dawson #antonio dawson x you #slow burn #adam ruzek #chicago pd x reader #Chicago PD fandom #Chicago PD fanfic #Antonio Dawson fanfiction

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imjustwritingg · 2 years

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I think a big problem is people treating you like an extension of Upstead / Tracy and Jesse as it appears you know a lot about them and the show, so you’re expected to have the answers to all their questions. It’s not your job to provide them with answers that a quick Twitter and Google search can do. Maybe not all asks need a response to avoid accidentally offending anyone

I appreciate this message Anon and this is not directed at you, but to people in general…If anyone sees me that way then you really need to get a new perspective. I am a fan just like anyone else here and putting that kind of pressure and level of expectation on someone is unhealthy and absolutely ridiculous.

I shouldn’t have to constantly screen all the asks in my inbox because someone can’t use common sense or do a Google search, and it’s certainly not my job to filter everything I say at the risk of offending someone on the internet over a TV show. Some of you expect too much with your twisted sense of entitlement and don’t deserve peoples’ kindness. You just don’t.

#anon ask #upstead #chicago pd fandom

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Hope You See Me Instead (Eddie Diaz x female reader)

Content Warnings:Halstead siblings,adult themes,ptsd,violence,cussing,graphic content,guns

Summery:When a work case ends up leading the Halstead’s Baby sister to yet another family,the groups circle expands and love engulfs everyone,all while working their dangerous jobs.

Your day didn’t start at work,you had that day off having told Voight, your boss that your brother needed help.Which wasn’t technically false,he was at work but he did need help fixing his house and his horribly decorated walls,though that shouldn’t of been a excuse.You just knew you really just needed at least today off,it marked a year sense you got back after you were honorably discharged from the Rangers.

You had just got to the store to buy paint,you knew Will was never gonna willingly change his house.He would just tell you he’s busy to try to get you off his back.

Right as you were about to go into the store you saw a man with a younger kid,who had cerebral palsy but the odd part was they didn’t seem like the kinda people who have a grudge on them by anyone so it made no sense to as why someone would be pointing a gun at them.

“Put the gun down,now!” You hollered at the guy taking your gun out and pointing it at the guy with the gun,who started to take off running.

the two seemed okay so you ran after the suspect and but by the time you brought him in,for questioning you realized you hadn’t asked for their name or anything to make sure they were okay.

Everyone was getting ready for their day while you got upstairs,sipping on your coffee which was still boiling hot as you sat down at your desk listening to voight,while Jay threw a piece of paper at Lindsey.

“You like working in this unit,you keep it in your pants” voight stated to Jay before making his way to his office.

“I didn’t know it was out” Jay said sarcastically but also laced with confusion as he looked over at his baby sister who was already on her third cup of coffee.

“Look I know you keep saying your fine,but I know what today is.You look like yourself,but your somebody else only it ain’t in the surface.” Jay asked you worried about your mental health with what today was suppose to be.

“Look I’m fine really,if something with that changes you will be the first one to know” you tell him serious as you get up.

“Jay just give her sometime,it’s not like your any better on your day” Lindsey said sincerely as she patted his shoulder nudging him.”come one we have to head out” Lindsey faintly smiled at you before leaving with Jay.

The case ended up causing a apartment building to catch on fire,leaving you coming out of the apartment coughing while fire trucks pulled up and people going in but you froze seeing the guy from earlier.

“Hey I’m glad to see your alright,sorry I didn’t even think to get your name or number to check back in.How’s your kid?” You ask the guy as he was putting his coat on.

“My names Buck,but he’s actually Eddie’s kid” Buck pointed to Eddie who got out of the truck and headed in right away but Buck almost laughed seeing your cheeks get faintly red seeing Diaz.

“Well I’m at least glad you both are okay” you shake his hand while he asked for your name you only smiled. “That’s not important” you teased you knew how things would change if he had found out your a Halstead and that would just lead to him finding out more things about you,that doesn’t need to be known.

But right as you had thought that Voight yelled your name.

“Halstead!” Voight’s rough voice startled you as you turnt around not even thinking about it and what they just outed,it wasn’t a big deal but you knew your brothers were both really well known,in Chicago.

The second your name was said you heard bucks smirk.”well Halstead,how about you come out tonight for some drinks and maybe meet Christopher’s dad”.

“Yeah sounds lovely but I don’t do things like that,I’m quite focused on work,but thanks” you slightly sassed as you walked over to Voight you asked you that was and you had told him just some guy from the store,which technically wasn’t a lie.

Even for that whole day you could just feel the constant judgement and pressured to talk and get your feelings out but that wasn’t you,an that wasn’t how you were raised.You hadn’t even thought about bucks comment earlier as you made your way to Mollys.

“Hermann strongest thing you got-“ you were cut off mid sentence as two guys approached you and the one was Buck…of course.

“Hey thought you weren’t showing up” Buck teased but you couldn’t help but glare at him.

“Didn’t show up for you or him,I just needed a drink and you just happen to drink at my brothers favorite bar,so as kindly as I can say this let’s not chat” you stated downing the drink Hermann gave you before you had even sat down all the way.

“Look I just wanna say thank you on my behalf as a father,for keeping my son and idiot friend out of harms way” Eddie smiled Apoligetic as soon as he saw dog tags around your neck.”how long did you serve?” He asked curious.

“Look it’s my job,you don’t have people coming around thanking you when you just wanna drink for a job you get paid for,do you?” You glared at them “an it doesn’t matter,it’s none of your business” you sassed as you downed yet another and motioned Hermann a well known signal while the two men looked at each other.

While not even few minutes had passed the door to Mollys swung open and in rushed Two others over to you.

“Look what did I tell you about drinking,at least today of all days” Will told you while Jay drank your drink.

“Take her home” Jay looked at Will while you stood up.

“I’m not a dam child,you two out my brothers not my baby sisters,my life is mine while you two wanna try to control it you did to your dam medicine and your girlfriend and you Jay,stick to your dam wife I can handle myself I have been doing it for the past 25 years of my life” you raised your voice while walking out having not got to far before you held a hand come on your lower back.

You felt like you were gonna get sick,having passed out and no clue at all what happened till morning and found yourself on a couch in a apartment which freaked you out,darting up realizing you gun was gone until you saw Eddie.

“How are you feeling?” Eddie’s voice was sincere and laced with gentle concern which was something you haven’t experienced in a long time.

“Fine really,thank you for letting me uh-sleep on your couch” you hesitate with your words nervous and he picked up on that.

“Hey your family,I served just like you so men or women we both experienced that,an I don’t know what you were seeing last night but I know it was bad enough to lead you to drinking”. Eddie came over sitting beside you.

“I’m fine really,it was just a bad night nothing else” you tell Him while he raises his hands defensively jokingly.

You and Eddie looked at each other both with respect and a new found friendship as his door opened and in came Buck and Christopher who hugged you right away which seemed to surprise Eddie especially as you hugged Christopher back an the two of you had already seemed to love each other though you didn’t know each other barely.

“You are the strongest guy I know,you know that” you tell Christopher without even hesiating you took of your dog tags that you hadn’t ever took off and threatened to hurt anyone who ever tried to take them off you and put them around Christopher.”I have to go to work,but you stay like that alright kid” you smile getting thanking Eddie again before heading out.

You hadn’t expected when you came to the firehouse to be told to act as Eddie fiancés seeing his partners harassing him.

“Hey babe,I got Christopher to school but I wanted to check in and let you know I brought you something,I put it in the fri-“ you were cut off right away by his dad telling you to go and that they were trying to have a conversation.

Before Eddie could even defend you,it surprised them to see you stand up for yourself,an Eddie.

“Your exhausting,everyone in the world has problems not just you,but you don’t hear anyone else whining about it somehow everyone just manages to suck it up which is something you should learn how to do.An don’t even get me started on the way you treat your son,he is a fucking amazing father to Christopher and even after everything you try to control him and get Christopher to yourself’s.” You stated glaring at them while Eddie grabbed your hand keeping you behind him and couldn’t help but smile when you changed it all to joking.

“You wanna go for the title there big boy” you smirked which made him smirk as well that made his parents uncomfortable.

“What if you don’t have protection” Eddie’s mom asked

“Prayer” you jokingly said while Eddie held your hand over his heart

“I would be lucky to ever be able to get the chance to have a kid and raise one with her,she has already became such a amazing and beautiful mom to Christopher”. He smiled looking down at you which made you feel nervous,something about this now didn’t feel as a -play along for the moment kinda thing-.

*all units be advised we have a hostage situation with active bombs on west 2573 timber street all units be advised ambulances are needed,district 21 needed at the scene*

“Looks like I have to go,see you and Chris tonight?” You kiss his cheek before rushing out in a hurry and speeding off to the scene.

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