ismelda: you really put the L in LGBT

merula:

i know i dont make many personal posts on here but i just wanted to take a minute and reflect on the past year. its not over yet but im going into the last month of 2023 so totally at peace with the last 11 months of my life !

i had 3 goals going into this year: 1. adopt pet rats 2. find a new job 3. get into long-term therapy

and i've managed to achieve all those things!!

first i brought these three lovely boys into my life (dark grey is quincy, light grey is findus, and light grey hoodie is monty). they'll be 10 months old in december :) they are such an absolute delight - smart, sweet little guys that just love life so much. its been so fulfilling to have them with me this year, and watching them grow into the little guys they are today has been so rewarding.

and after adopting them i finally got myself a new job ! its been a really wonderful few months, and it feels so good to be in a position where people actually value what i bring to the table. i wont go into this too much for privacy reasons, but i feel really hopeful for the future and what this position is going to lead me to in the next few years

and the final thing i managed to do was get a long term therapy spot. its been pretty difficult at times to dredge up all the old pain and sorrow thats haunted me for so much of my life, but its ultimately all for a good reason, so ive been going at it with my heart as open as i can muster

im so grateful to all my friends, everyone around me right now that has made all of this possible, opened my soul to new possibilities and a flood of love and tranquility that i have never thought would be available to me. and we cant forget the antidepressants, of course ! i can honestly say none of this would have been possible without being medicated. not being fraught with negative self talk and anxiety and guilt and shame every step of the way has afforded me a previously unimaginable kind of peace of mind. things really are okay, im worthy, im good enough, and ive worked so so so hard to get here and im finally ready to do some well-deserved reaping of everything i sowed

and im grateful to my past self. i never gave up, even when it felt like i was crawling on my hands and knees a thousand miles through the desert. everything was so hard, everything hurt so much for so long. i can finally put it all down. i did it

hi I’m getting my next tattoo in two weeks so I got my hands on the physical copy of the volume I’m getting it from :)

look me in the eye and tell me Charlie wouldn't do this

My blog has become infested with angst goblins, and they must be fed with some hypothetical scenarios!🙏💚

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some frames of the animatic im working on

Let’s Dance

Part 3/12

Part 2 | Part 4

inspired by a post by @nunalastor wherein cursed cat alastor™ inexplicably loves Lucifer

I love...

he is the only funny person on the damn app

[Hi Dennis. How was the lion feeding?...?]

This has been something I've been working on for quite a while now, as some people who look at my insta story might know, but I'm finally done!! those text messages from s14ep5 are so unhinged, they haunt me every goddamn day. To drop "i love you so much" just to follow it with what essentially is a "no homo.. for u... even tho u r so hot and i like you so much!". exploading them with my mind into a million pieces, okay?

think I’m finally legally changing my name to charlie this year :)

It’s healthy to step out of our comfort zone’s a little!😜

The good ol switcharoo au, instead of empowering demons with his voice Adam would probably empower them with his music :p (guitar solo fuck yeaaahhh)

Also I haven’t draw traditionally for like FOREVERRRR so its a bit rusty (I got pencil smudges all over my hands afterwards, not fun)