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prince-liest · 3 months

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Some thoughts on Lucifer's mental health, relationships, and role as king of hell!

Lucifer’s perception of himself as the king of hell is really interesting to me because he’s very blase about it in canon while totally using it when it suits him.

I think it’s really telling that the first time he actually brings it up himself is when it’s something he can leverage to help Charlie out. He reads to me like someone who objectively knows that he’s the hottest shit in town, but also just doesn’t really think that it matters most of the time because it's not relevant to his personal problems. Being Lucifer Morningstar did not allow him to achieve his goals in petitioning heaven. Being the most powerful person in hell didn’t even un-fuck his family life!

...Except for when suddenly it might in fact help un-fuck his relationship with his daughter.

It's the main thing he can desperately and dramatically showcase as a worthwhile reason for Charlie to maintain a relationship with him, because he as a person is depressed, half-functional, and barely has enough spoons to pay attention to a conversation he's having with her while he's actively having it, nevermind remembering their last one.

He wants to! And it doesn't start with his song at the hotel! It starts with him answering the phone, heavily fumbling actually connecting with Charlie despite clearly desperately wanting to, and then realizing she's asking him for something and promptly choking on his tea before excitedly telling her, "Yeah! Of course! Anything within my power is yours for the asking, you just name it." He knows that there is a great deal 'within his power,' and he's happy and relieved that he can offer her that!

Lilith has been gone for years but he's still wearing his wedding ring. His walls are still covered in family portraits. He's just been sitting in his room making thousands of rubber ducks he thinks suck instead of ruling hell, because his daughter liked that one duck he made one time.

Charlie needed him to support her in her mission, but damn did Lucifer also need Charlie to get him out and moving and actually doing things again.

Anyway, someone get this man on an SSRI.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin lucifer #lucifer magne #lucifer morningstar #meta #personal #text posts #long post #expanding on some comments I made about him in an ask!#can't WAIT to find out what his and Lilith's deal is #my funky little depressed king #Alastor took him not knowing who he was personally #but after his comments about watching TV and not remembering Charlie's hotel #I think it's pretty clear Lucifer is just out of touch as hell because he hasn't got the spoons to function like people think he would #ETA: I tried to write a little rambling meta post failed to get my feelings out and now I'm 3k words into a fic #I NEED TO JUST REMEMBER THAT FIC COMMUNICATES MY FEELINGS BETTER..........

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c-a-s-s-i-s · 4 days

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In a world full of darkness and hopelessness you created something beautiful. People who can do that live forever.

#reita #the gazette #yeah i will never be over him #i was thinking what to put in the desc #like... i never knew hum personally but the fact he existed changed my life for the better in so many ways #and it is still so unreal to me that he is... gone.#i found so much solace in their music i know i kinda abandoned this blog but god knows my mp3 player is full of tG live rips #i've been rewatching their lives recently and looking forward to MASS. and then... this. i can't imagine how his family feels. and the band #idek anymore. may he rest in piece. i have no words. heaven couldn't wait with this one.

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couthbbg · 10 days

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Bianca Stone, “Artichokes” // x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x . x

#this was just an excuse to use all my fav close up sid shots #also making it did make me feel better #can't wait for next season :)#also plsss read Bianca Stone she is so amazing #i am not immune to text over images #hockey edits #hockey poetry #web weaving #pens #sid #pens lb #<- tagging only bc i made this as a last game of the season happy celebration & i hope it brings y'all happiness too <3 #ok editing to add the link to the poem too bc you can hear her read it and i lovee her voice ok i'm done #my edits

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jaratedeguadalupe · 7 months

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close up of my boy

#i've consumed 80 pounds of honey due to my horribly sore throat #i can't wait until i can faceplant into my bed for 12 hours and hopefully not feel like a corpse #looking at my man has made me feel 10x better though #jaratemisu #tf2 #tf2 fanart #team fortress 2 #team fortress fanart #tf2 demoman #tf2 demo

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rainymoodlet · 3 months

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🌧 rainymoodlet is in full hiatus mode! 🌧

hoo... absolutely sick to my stomach writing this. ✌ for more information, please read below! thank you all for following my stories, loving my bachelor challenge, and loving my little pixels as much as i do. 😊

Well, my darling fellow simblrs... it's happened. It's been a bit of a long time coming over the past few months, but I've finally decided to put my blog into a permanent sort of "hiatus mode". I am a person who is riddled with executive dysfunction and lack of self-control, and I know that if I don't legitimately cut myself off from Simblr™ and the disassociation it's allowed me, I will. not. quit. 😅

I originally joined Simblr back in 2021 during a really difficult and isolated time in my life. I haven't been able to speak much to it because of the legal issues it's tied up in, but Simblr became my escape whilst in the throes of seeking justice against my abuser in a time where my entire family had abandoned me, and my fiance and I were living alone in my parents' house with only the two of us to swirl in deep and massive depression. Sims has always been my escape; from 2004 onward, it has given me narrative control and visual fantasy for as long as I can remember, and it will always be a deeply comforting and "safe" game for me.

But when I joined Simblr, it was out of many of the reasons that I think we can all relate to as writers and creatives. I had the idea for Loved by the Sun, and as I kept imagining and writing and building this world, I thought: "I deserve to show this to people. I really want people to see this. And I really want them to think it's good." I had been existing on the fringes of Simblr on my own personal Tumblr blog: I've seen countless legacies rise and fall, countless dramas spread out across blogs that are no longer active and haven't been for years. I wanted people to wake up and roll over and check my blog, desperate for updates, eager for more.

And more than anything, I wanted to escape the day-to-day hell I was living in.

But as the years went on, I've noticed that the excitement and creativity that drove my creation of my account has dwindled beyond measure. And I will put that on myself - starting a Bachelor Challenge like Kiss Me in Komorebi was one of the beginning nails in the coffin of my creativity and enjoyment of Simblr. I do not regret it one bit, and I am so grateful for the following it's gained and the genuine enjoyment you've all had with KMiK. It's my proudest achievement, it's pushed me to be a better editor and a better screenshot-taker, it's challenged me in my way of playing and it's introduced me to so many wonderful people.

But of course... I me'd it up. 😎

I've become obsessed to an egregious degree with the perception of my handling of this challenge. I want everyone to feel as though their sim gets enough screen-time, I want everyone to feel that the creative effort they put into submitting their sims was respected, and I desperately don't want anyone to feel left out or as though they're being ignored in favor of other contestants. It became so much less of telling Dan's story and journey, and all about how I was appearing as the Master of the Game.

And to be honest, my obsession with "staying relevant" in the fast-paced scroll of the Simblr Dashboard, believing you all would stop caring or stop reading if I didn't post as quickly as possible, was my own doom from the start, fkdfdjk.

In my life, I've had countless opportunities to turn my life around and start changing for the better. And time and time again, the energy that could have gone toward improving my situation or bettering my relationships has gone toward Simblr, and this online environment. I have practically no life beyond the screen: my days off are spent taking screenshots or spending four hours on builds that I still won't finish, obsessed over every angle, desperately seeking out that ~sparkle~ of simplicity and not-trying-too-hard I apply to all of your screenshots.

I am a dopamine and serotonin fiend, and though I can pinpoint in my life where trauma and isolation has pushed me to my online spaces, I was hyper-aware of the reality that in a few years, I won't be involved in Simblr. I won't be posting constantly, I won't care about the mods or the updates or the custom content.

And the stories I've written will be monuments to the time I've wasted, working on chasing the serotonin monster instead of bettering my own life and my own situation.

And now, I've got a real chance to do something better with my life. My fiance and I are at a crossroads of choice - we can change our lives for the better this year, or we can accept that the years of inaction we forced ourselves into out of the fear of moving forward have doomed us to a life we're not happy with. And I am one stubborn bastard when it comes to giving up.

The friendships and connections I've made here are some of the most meaningful in my life, and I hate that I've pulled back in the way I have. Along the way, it became much more about the notes, the numbers, the interaction, the reblogs over likes - and I lost myself and my friendships to my own mismanagement of my time and energy. I could spend five hours on one build, going from 7am to 12pm in a lightning speed of disassociation and obsessive Alt-clicking, and at the end of the day sit there and go...

What the hell have I done today? I could have messaged someone, I could have chatted with my friends, I could have done something. But no, I built a science lab, or a date location, and fretted the entire time until my stomach felt sick that it just "wasn't right" or wouldn't "look the way I wanted it to" in my screenshots.

I deeply, deeply love my stories, and I am so proud of them and what they've done for y'all and how you all have enjoyed them. I am incredibly lucky for the experience I've had on Simblr, and I know that there are plenty of blogs out there that sit with little interaction when they deserve so much more.

And yes, I will admit. The tendency of a 15-minute slapped together CAS edit of mine getting more notes and spotlight than the posts of my stories I've put legitimate effort into has fucked with my brain.

Simblr has changed from the story-laden place it was when I was following y'alls stories and legacies from 2015 onward. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that! Online spaces shift and change just as much as the social media sites like TikTok and Instagram, that go through trends and phases and fads and memes the same way we do. We are not above other social media in that regard, and I think there's a general sense from Simblr that we're some isolated island; we don't follow trends, we don't have fads, we don't have audio trends that get slapped on every other six-second video.

But I will raise you the Blender Phase and the Edit Phase as evidence every time.

I need to take some serious introspection time, and commit a lot of my energy to things that can bring me positive change outside of this online space. I hope to be able to come back as a better, healthier person, but to be honest, I don't really know when that will be. (Even this post is something I feel I have to do to be responsible, not just disappearing in the middle of this Challenge, leaving you all hanging djfh) I hope this doesn't come off as some high-horse rant, or leave a sour taste in y'alls mouths.

I just... I'll really miss this space. I'll miss the sims, I'll miss you guys, I'll miss your posts and your legacies and your sense of humor. I want to thank so many people, but I don't want to tag you all and shove this post into your activity streams dkfd.

I can't give any commitments to appearing more in Discord or even being present on this space - I've gone to the point of disconnecting the Chrome browser that's for rainymoodlet from my main icon bar, like I am going straight cold-turkey. I'll still be playing Sims, but I'm going to try and reconnect with it for myself - not for the screenshots, not for the stories, and not for the desperate want for people to understand what I'm posting or for it to make sense or satisfy, dfkj.

I am so, so incredibly grateful for every single one of you, and I hate to just drop this out of nowhere. But I need to do this, for me and for my future. And now I'm just sitting here like "Shannon, it's simblr, fucking chill." dkjfd I JUST... this space has done so much for me, and I genuinely feel a sense of loss in leaving. Especially in the middle of a story, fkgjfkg.

I really do genuinely love and care for you all. Please take care of yourselves, okay? Mama Shan does genuinely want the best for you, and I can't thank you enough for letting little old dorky ass me be a part of your community and your lives.

'Til next time, y'all. I'll see you soon. 💛

#txt #this will be my new pinned post.#going to go lay down on the floor for a long time now.#i feel sO SICK FUCK.#i really will miss you all so much. but i need to do this. it's like cigarettes at this point. if i don't go cold turkey... i won't quit.#i'll keep stressing abt how i'm not posting kmik or how i'm not interacting or how people are waiting and it will keep #affecting how i choose to spend my time and energy #and i just can't afford that anymore fff.#but ofc my blog will still be up!! you can still read kmik and my tjolc and everything i've posted #because gdi my contestants put a lot of effort into their sims and they deserve it #i hope i can come back to y'all in a better place 💛#2024 IS THE YEAR OF CHANGE MY DARLINGS AND I ALREADY WASTED JANUARY SO LETS GOOOO

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thelonelyshore-if · 2 months

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update today c:

#author posting #( i wanted to post it yesterday but had some health stuff come up )#( it's still lingering but i feel a lot better )#( so wrapping up the finishing touches to the edit and then i'll drop the update!! )#( can't wait for y'all to read it )#( i'll be getting to some asks once the update's posted btw )

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annihilatius · 16 days

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#v.jpg #bioshock #frank fontaine #this could have been better but honestly i was so sick of working on it i just wanted to get it done and move on #not because i don't like it but because i probably spent a solid 8 hours meticulously nitpicking over the the tiniest of details #that no one will notice or care about except me #sorry this took so long but i have other stuff i wanna make soon #(i say that and then proceed to constantly procrastinate doing it knowing i will feel terrible about it after the fact)#i should've tried giving him tattoos now that i think about it #anyway i can't wait to see what the tags on this will look like (i already know)

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thesinglesock · 4 months

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hiccup and astrid only works for me if they're written as foils. Hiccup is a soft hearted pacifist who has to learn to make tough calls. Astrid is a hard core warrior who has to learn compassion. they both admire the other for their strengths, and by some combination of striving to be more like each other, and hitting the breaks when one of them goes too far in one direction, they manage to meet in the middle and work really well together

#astrid makes sure Hiccup doesn't let people get away with misusing his trust #and Hiccup makes sure Astrid doesn't burn every bridge ever over issues that could be solved #httyd #vitpost #hiccstrid #im watching the show again and I straight up can't get over how much better it handles their dynamic compared to the movies #could it be that I spent more time with the show versions of them in between waiting for the movies #and so got attached to that characterization which led me to misinterpret the original depiction of their relationship? maybe.#but also not rly because the dynamic im talking about is very much present in the first film and then further supported #by the Gift of the Night Fury short #so really it just feels like the second film didn't rly know what to do with Astrid and kind of sidelined her #and then by the third movie they'd forgotten her personality too #They're Cute in the movies though I'll give them that. but that does not satisfy the aroace viewer :)#I need them to Make Sense too

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mattodore · 6 months

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they're the 🐺 and 🐇 emojis

#river dipping #ts4 #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #GOD........... PUTTING THEIR CAS HEADSHOTS SIDE BY SIDE MAKES ME FEEL SO CRAZY. THEY JUST. THEY JUST LOOK LIKE THIS.......#NEVER NEEDED [REDACTED] SO BAD IN MY LIFE..... EMBARRASSINGGGGGG. LET'S GET A GRIP.#also i can't wait for when i get better at making scars and can make matthias's chin scar look how it's supposed to #it's meant to be gnarly. like. well there's a lot of real estate on that chin first of all 😭#but his mother threw a very heavy decanter at his face so. thick glass. it was fleshy and bloody.#in my head the scar's more like a rough edged gouge than a thin line of scarred over skin. like his chin was torn open.#the skin is probably lighter there and raised. ik my glass scars are like that (tho they're from a window so it's different)#and i think i want the scar to be more vertical and kind of... reaching? like maybe it goes down underneath his chin too?#hmmm...#i wish i had a reference for the exact kind of scar but alas </3 #i do have a reference for the scars on his torso from the lung surgery he had in his teen years tho!#...typing ! at the end of that unthinkingly only to sober up like two seconds later bc like. and WHY did he need that surgery exactly? GOD.#matthias's character has so many scars but theo has zero... it really speaks to the different kinds of violence they faced #mirror images but the words are backwards yk.......#no one cared about appearances with matthias or worried about having to hide the evidence..... jesus. god............... well.#christ.#just sat here staring at my screen for two minutes.#well. i do think it's interesting the way the does vs. evanoffs treated their kids. the abuse was so different but it still connects them..#and that isolating distance vs. suffocating closeness shaped both matthias and theo's personalities in such an obvious way #like you look at their character traits and it's like. well first off THAT'S a symptom! but also. jesus. it all traces back to the crib.#yeah... well let me stop here. bc i realize i'll hit tag limit if i keep talking to myself and i don't want to type something only for it #to delete itself after..... which has happened to me SO many times while rambling abt mattodore in the tags of so many posts 😭#cw abuse mention

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everythingiguess · 3 months

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Mhok and Day will meet again, and they will not be the same people anymore.

Mhok will meet a Day that is happy and independent and who can live by himself, a person who doesn’t need to be looked after at all times. He will meet a Day that finished his studies despite thinking he would never be able to go back to college. He will meet that Day, and he will know; there will be no need to worry about him because he will meet a Day that has already proven it to the world. Mhok will meet a Day that has been living that way for a while, and nothing bad has happened. Good things have happened instead.

At the same time, Day will meet a Mhok who has taken opportunities, a Mhok who has started to reach his goals and has a better chance at living and trying and moving forward and doing what he loves. Hopefully, he will meet a Mhok who is healing and looking ahead despite the circumstances. And Day will be happy to know he did not hold him back, because Day has always wanted the best for Mhok even if he’s not there to see it.

Mhok and Day will meet again, and they will not be the same people anymore; they will be in a better place. A place where they’ll be able to figure it all out, to get past it, and to hold each other’s hands tightly and get through it together.

#last twilight #last twilight the series #mhokday #morkday #there's something so beautiful about becoming a better version of yourself #i loved day's dialogue about not being the same person after going through so much #and overcoming your hardships #i love this show sm #i decided not to talk too much about it #and just trying to understand day and mhok's feelings during this situation #i can't wait for the finale #but also #i don't want it to end :(#btw #i'm saying this taking into account that they might not see each other for a long time after breaking up #or that they might keep in contact with eo #or that they might be long distance #idk #whatever happens

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bitacrytic · 5 months

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And here I thought we'd be stuck with that weak joke of a villain. Only for this ABSOLUTE GEM to join us from Korea.

Ladies and Gents, give it up for Kim Minsu, the evil short king!

#I wasn't feeling that other guy at all #Babe kept beating him and his posturing just never felt threatening enough #but here comes this guy who I thought was a reasonable human being #he even smiled at Charlie after he lost and was showing proper sportsmanship #only for him to have done it all on purpose #EVIL!#I love it #I love him #I can't wait for him to cause trouble #and i hope he has a boyfriend on the show #he better not be a single villain #pit babe the series #give him his toxic relationship please #better yet #put him in a love triangle with the youtube boys #I'm so giddy for this character

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wildflowercryptid · 7 months

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thinking about kieran again... particularly about how i feel like he struggles with a weak sense of self and how him identifying so heavily with ogrepon, (or at least the version of ogrepon he originally knew,) probably helped him stabilize how he saw himself, only to have something he considered so core to his identity essentially ripped away from him. not only that, it was by someone he seemingly wanted to trust and open up to, (which i doubt he does very often.)

i definitely think that the way he's handling things is far from healthy, but i can get why he'd have such an intense reaction to losing something that was so important to him and basically being betrayed by someone he wanted to consider a friend.

#i'm saying this as someone who has also struggled my sense of self and used to use characters to help feel more of a person #basically what i'm is that kieran is autistic-coded as hell and i see bits of myself in him #they aren't the prettiest parts but being a teenager with undiagnosed mental illnesses was never meant to be beautiful #also kieran's autonomy constantly being undermined by the ppl around him is a big fuckin mood #oh and the toxic chain possession theories are making me go 🤔#i can't wait to see how things turn out for him...#at the end of the day i just hope things end well and that florian & kieran can be friends again...#ideally they'd still have a friendly rivalry that helps both of them improve for the better (like may & wally)#pokemon #pkmn scarvio #rival kieran #chara : kieran hinoki #<- kiddo's got an mjverse surname now 😏#(it's from the japanese cypress who's wood is used to create masks for noh theatre performances)#mj.txt #scarvio spoilers #sv dlc spoilers

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wikiangela · 6 months

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wip wednesday

tagged by @jesuisici33 @callaplums @daffi-990 @loserdiaz @thewolvesof1998 @disasterbuckdiaz @fortheloveofbuddie 💖💖

made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it is🤷

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“Maybe we should get you to a doctor.” Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddie’s shoulders.

“I don’t need- I just closed my eyes for a second. I’m fine.” he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end – he’s cold and refuses to admit it, and he’d rather sit here and pretend he’s fine. He’s impossible.

“Eddie, that cough did not sound fine.” he points out.

“Buck-” he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve.

“I bought tissues.” Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. “Seriously? You’re gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove you’re not sick?” That’s a new level of stubborn Buck hasn’t seen from Eddie yet. He can’t believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.

“I’m not.” Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. “Let me just finish my coffee, and then I-” another sneeze. “Have so much to do today.” he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.

“Yeah, no, all you’re gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.” Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. “Get comfortable, and I’ll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-” he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. “Oh, and stopped by the farmer’s market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?” he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesn’t need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.

“Yeah?” Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie won’t just give in and admit he’s sick, but this is a start. “Why don’t you tell me all about it?” he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired.

“I will, just a sec! I’ll make you some tea with lemon and honey, how’s that sound?” he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though he’s not sure if that’s an answer, or if Eddie’s just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that he’s sick, as if Buck didn’t already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.

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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gayarthur @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @diazblunt @911onabc @eddiediaztho @housewifebuck @lover-of-mine @gayhoediaz @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @hoodie-buck @monsterrae1 @hippolotamus @ladydorian05 @forthewolves @honestlydarkprincess @wildlife4life @spotsandsocks @eowon @theotherbuckley @weewootruck @thewolvesof1998 @giddyupbuck @disasterbuckdiaz @hoodie-buck @spotsandsocks

#wip wednesday #sick eddie fic #eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao #this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha #buddie fic #buddie wip #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop #and this one isnt going so smoothly either #but im here and trying to work on it all!#ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it #i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope #thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol #this got venty lmao ignore me #i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha

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