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#but my roommate was not here and now she is lol
kuiinncedes · 2 years
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Friendly message to say sometimes it feels like you're the only one going through those hardship of speaking your mind but I promise you aren't. You should not be beating yourself up about it. Communication can be so hard and pressurized
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ur gonna make me cry again and this time my roommate is actually here lmfao
#literally sobbed while on the phone w my mom talking about it#not even bc it was like that bad just bc i fucking cry so hard when i get stressed lmao ;-;#but my roommate was not here and now she is lol#thank you <333 this is very kind of you to send#and i think i kinda needed it lmaoo i teared up again XD and turned to face away from my roommate even tho she's not facing me lmaooo#i was just thinking like i know i shouldn't be so judging/negative to myself about#speaking my opinion even tho it was like several hours late lmfao and caused a slight delay in our deliberations/getting newbies process#the process that everyone is apparently very tired of and wants to be over so ya i feel bad about stretching it out :]#i am ultimately mostly glad i did it tho i just feel like ppl think it was for nothing i guess :\ and i guess it was since we didn't end up#changing anything#idfk anymore lmfao ugh#but yeah talking to my mom and her talking about her similar experiences..... ugh yeah#im still absolutely gonna think about this too fucking much and make myself slightly miserable about it for no fucking reason lmfao#buuuut . it's ok#like i spoke up about my opinion when i had something to say#i am doing that more obviously in board lol and it's very stressful :]]]]]#esp when there are 4 very opinionated/quick-to-say-things members of board#idk i just like can't Say things so fast i need time to think and then when i've thought about it enough things have moved on lmao#i was so stressed about this all day and i know i shouldn't have been like literally was so upset all day and for what lmfao#we're adding newbies to the discord soon tho and hopefully thatll be a lil pick me up#sorry about all this tag stuff XD but ya know that's what i do here lmfao#ugh ugh i had a bunch more but i deleted it bc tag limit probably XD#newbies r joining yay and the discord hi stickers are being spammed <3#other-room-mate is there w her bf and talking and stuff and i dont rly want to deal w it :''''') but it's fine im listening to music#ok anyway anon if ur still reading ty for this ask lmao ily <3#asks#anonymous
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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months
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#holy fuck. knock on wood. fingers crossed. press my thumbs. i think the pain is cycling down#like probably its this bad bc my body is weak from fighting an allergic reaction and i think lam1ctal can cause some menstral issues#but like holy fuck. i cannot go thru that again. just hours of being nauseous and crumpled in pain#i was very very very seriously considering going to the hospital. but like ive ridden in an ambulance before and i dont wanna spend like#1000 dollars to go like 10min down the road. bullshit. god i hope its stopping#it was just like so much pain i didnt kno what to do. absolutely intolerable. ugh.#please dont let this happen tomorrow 🙏 please please please. i have to teach#and ny roommate is staying here the next 2 nights after not seeing her for like months#y now? 😭 im gonna have to b like hi *visibly disheveled* if i talk i might puke. bye.#i wish i could just sleep thru this. ibuprofen is not helping 😭#im just worried if i went to the hospital theyd make me wait for hours in the waiting room. shaking with pain. and then id b fine by the#time they got to me. like yea srry i was jusy being a lil bitch abt a normal bodily process lol. god. ppl with high levels of chronic pain#how tf do u do it? i dont think im strong enough. but i guess u probably get used to it. god that sucks so bad#ugh. i wish my mom was here. i want her to just pet my hair until i feel better 😭 but nooo shes going off to have fun in canada#so she's gonna b even farther from me than normal 😭#unrelated
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hua-fei-hua · 5 months
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at church reading the hymn lyrics like "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and "hey i learned that word from translating song lyrics so that i could write genshin fic!" and "hey i learned that word from genshin!" and finally "omg i learned that word from the king's avatar"
#花話#it's funny bc i Objectively know more cn than the last time i was here seven years ago which is great#bc the last time i learned any cn in a classroom was seven years ago lol#and i think that's probably a combination of Very Much Not Wanting To Lose What Skills I Have +gnshn n similar giving me occasional practice#but yeah of the words i Remember where i learned them it's like 85% gnshn 14% lyric translation n 1% king's avatar lmao#been trying to connect my laptop to the mobile hotspot i have here and Suffering(tm)... pain and agonie#i mentioned this on main but apparently i just Cannot have a line acct for w/e reason#(i suspect it's bc i made an acct in america on my phone number but temp sim card --> diff phone number here)#(and since i didn't expect this i didn't tie the acct to an email --> i am unable to have line)#however my mother and i have graduated past emails and are now just using regular texting to communicate it seems#ANYWAY i get to see the jade cabbage today. i hope. and other things i also hope!!#i was going somewhere w/the line thing OH it's bc on the way home from church my mom saw a sign that said 元氣 and was like 'genki desu!'#it is always kind of a surprise to hear my mom speak jp bc it sounds simultaneously clumsy and full of confidence#she has friends in japan (college roommate + old pen pal + i have no idea she's lived Quite a life i feel) n i once found her old letters#and was kind of surprised bc they were like entirely in jp so obviously she could read n understand a lot#but anyway my mom went on to talk abt how taiwan continues to have significant japanese influence to this day n i was like yes... weebs c':#it's also interesting bc we'll go sightseeing n she'll be like “ye that's from american/jp occupation times but they gave back the land'#'so now it's xyz' n i'll be like. almost 'tails.jpg A Colonialism.'
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todayisafridaynight · 8 months
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About Judgment: In short, I think RGGS was intending to continue the series. There were indeed rumors at one point that the series would end at Lost Judgment due to a disagreement with Kimura's agency, Johnny & Associates, about porting the games to PC--I'm unclear on why, there was speculation but I don't think it was ever stated. Obviously the PC ports are out now, so either that wasn't the issue or they moved past it. There's also just general disbelief around there being a third entry simply because there's this idea (joke?) that Kimura never does three of anything, which isn't true at this point. It is true RGGS historically hasn't done three of anything in terms of spinoff series (Kurohyou, Mobile+Kizuna, and arguably Kenzan+Ishin), but it's also true that none of their past spinoffs have been as successful as Judgment, and we're seeing a lot of "firsts" from the studio lately. The fact is that Yokoyama himself said something along the lines of "and of course, we won't forget about Judgment" (not literally, just the closest English expression I can think of that can be misinterpreted in the way I'm about to explain) while talking about future works. But for some reason, people took it as if he meant it "in mourning" rather than an obvious confirmation of more to come, I guess? A TV show was also announced, so I really don't get why they'd invest so much into a series they were going to end. I know Kurohyou got a show too, but this seems different. Anyway, that's the most recent information, but it's from some years ago. There is a major new development, however: J&A talents' contracts are being cancelled left and right as of the last couple of months due to the agency's dogshit handling of and response to an investigation into Johnny Kitagawa's serial abuse of allegedly hundreds of his talents. That's been going on since the man died in 2019, basically, but a lot's happened this year.
This has left the talents with the incredibly tough decision of either remaining at an agency that refuses to even change its name and is rapidly breaking down or leaving. It has historically been very difficult to do the latter. On top of what you'd expect, J&A controls their talents to an insane degree and has leveraged their control of the media to suppress the careers of those who leave.
Broadly, in terms of how media companies have responded so far, I understand not wanting to associate with J&A and that J&A would likely benefit from the contracts more than the talents, but it still feels like the talents are the ones being punished... I have to imagine at least some of them were victims, so to be victims of the blacklist on top of that... That, and some of these companies kept the truth from coming out for decades.
With J&A losing its foothold in the media, though, there may be no better time than now to leave the agency. I don't know if Kimura will--rumors have been circulating ever since his idol group were forced to break up years and years ago, but while they all went independent, he never has--especially because a lot of seniors like him feel a responsibility to stay and change the agency for the better. As of right now, I'm not aware of Kimura's contracts getting cancelled, so I can't say one way or another if that'd have an effect.
I don't know what happens from here. I'm not sure if RGGS will look at it as collaborating with J&A or with Kimura or both, and how they'll factor in what's going on right now into working with him. Hypothetically, it would be possible to continue the series even without Kimura (any of the other mains do or would make great protagonists), but at the same time, Judgment is hugely reliant on Kimura's charisma. That's why people who play the dub (or people who don't like Kimura) often come away with the impression Yagami's kind of a dick or doesn't stand out much.
So... that's the state of Judgment right now. We won't know until we know, I guess.
OHHHHH OK saucy... sucks about J&A- it'd be cool if yk. they could face the consequences of their actions LMAO but that Could involve displacing hella workers now wouldnt it
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thatone-churro · 6 months
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y’know just as soon as i start getting comfortable with the idea of being open/relying on my dad and him being more comfortable with my choices than i feared, i can essentially throw all that out the window with how vehemently he yelled at me at the thought of my getting my septum pierced (even though i never said i was yet. i said my side before i decide anything else). also making underhanded remarks of me never getting tattoos other than the one for my mom. like okay don’t ask me why i don’t tell you about anything or talk to you or anything. what the fuck.
#‘i love you no matter what’ and ‘you’re an adult and as long as your choices make you happy’ out the window i guess.#are we too sober for those statements to apply all of a sudden?#and again i didn’t even say i was getting it any time soon. i said my sister wants to take me to get my first non-ear piercing.#she’s getting hers repierced & i want to get my side.#and then he started going off on me for it for no reason. and brought up the one tattoo i want to get for my mom.#and THEN made an off handed remark of a similar vein about dyed hair.#i hope he knows he’s literally the only reason i don’t have piercings or tattoos or dyed hair or like anything that lets me look how i wanna#like deadass. i know i’m your ‘baby.’ but can i please actually embrace myself. i don’t care if you don’t like alt culture. i do.#he would shun the girls i crush on fr like oh my god.#like if he knew what i really wanted to look like i think he’d disown me. won’t even have to bring up my funky relationship with gender.#literally as soon as i start thinking i can be open with this man he pulls this shit and then asks why i’m slowly getting more distant.#like wow it’s almost like i’ve been regulated and raised according to what you want and not what i want.#and you wonder why my sisters (especially my oldest who has a lot of piercings & tattoos like i want) aren’t close either? isn’t that wild?#how we never got much of a chance to explore this without reprimand until we were moved out? even as legal adults?#absolutely WILD correlation there i wonder if the causation lines up here pa. what the fuck.#anyway i’m gonna go now and not cry because my roommates are home but i’m gonna go sulk because i’m sick of this ✌️#oh wait convenient that the showdog poem went up tonight too isn’t that crazy. man calls himself out so hard lol#grace being stupid#text post#personal
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samssims · 1 year
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Im relatively new here so if you dont mind... what is NaNo? I saw ppl talking about entering and i looked st the tag and all and its something about writing but i didn't understand what is the challenge really :P
Hello! The long version of it is NaNoWriMo which stands for National Novel Writing Month. It's a month-long challenge to write 50K words which is a little more than 1600 words a day (which seems doable except when you have to do it every day for 30 days lol).
It's a free challenge. It’s not a tumblr thing. Everyone who completes it wins so it's not a competition! And you get all kinds of cool free prizes for doing it such as physical copies of your book and all sorts of other things.
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swagging-back-to · 1 year
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my dog refused to sleep with me last night so now im giving her the cold shoulder for as long as she ignored me for.
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whcwashe · 1 year
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jeonqkooks · 1 year
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the concept of friendship just really amazes me sometimes like it really is quality > quantity and found family is just so beautiful to me ugh
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pepprs · 2 years
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less than 2 weeks left living with my roommates less than 2 weeks left living with my roommates less than 2 weeks left living with my roommates
#i said i would clean the apartment this weekend and yet i hear vacuuming and scrubbing. so i think someone is being passive aggressive abt m#me having not cleaned the apartment yet even though the weekend isn’t over and i am going to do it today. meanwhile im too scared to go use#the bathroom bc i don’t want to be seen not cleaning the apartment and also having not showered. i hate it here i wish i was in brighton so#i could have a bathroom inside my room and not have to do this silent warfare over who is I. the bathroom and who is cleaning it. lol#purrs#like the kitchen is bad enough but i just hate living here sometimes bc we never talk to each other and we are not friends. and it sucks#living with people you are not friends w and who you think hate you. i never want to live w ppl i barely know again it sucks so bad#also i technically am friends w one of my roommates and that’s why we live together like it was the two of us who organized all this and the#the others came along after but it was our friendship that led us to live here. and after this year i don’t think we are friends anymore. i#think she hates me and thinks im a slob and ever since we started living together we stopped talking like we used to and going out to eat an#and stuff and we weren’t rly good friends to begin w but i don’t see us being friends after this experience. bc she’s so neat and perfect an#and put together and im a trainwreck on legs and also keep being loud pn the phone so she has to text me to be quiet and i left crumbs on TJ#the floor last semester and she vagued me in the groupchat and got mad at me for my chili exploding too lol. so yeah no i think after this w#we will never speak or see each other again bc all of our convos now are abt apartment upkeep and nothing abt anything else lole. and i know#i could fix that easily and it takes two to tango but also i don’t want to even try bc im uncomfortable too ♥️#LOLLLLLLLLLL ok i opened my door to go to the bathroom and as soon as i stepped into the hallway she closed the hallway door 😍 awesome. cool#so now i can’t go into the kitchen and im starving. awesome. this is really cool. i love living here i love this living arrangement
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likeclarabow · 1 year
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how did i go from being someone who spent most of her time alone and liked it that way to being someone who hates being alone for more than a few hours 
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footieridiculosity · 2 years
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I’m glad if bad shit had to happen to me, it’s happening in London where I have so many people I can seek help from. Literally more friends (and exes 😳) here than most places I’ve actually lived, called a permanent home, in my life.
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brutal-out-here · 3 months
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Now who from housing thought it was a good idea to drop in at 9am
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discoreptile · 3 months
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#heyo again posting in the ol tags#At a moral quandary but I guess I'll update yous on my life while I think of a way to sound it out#I am currently single. This is a big deal for me because I am coming to terms with my status as a serial monogamist#I think my ex has been not single longer than I have so I'm not feeling guilty about it. Just feels weird being single is all.#I'm doing the whole dating thing again. Have been on 2. First one I stayed at her spare room and freaking cried. Haven't spoken to her sinc#Second one I stayed in her spare room and she stayed with her roommate. Both times I didn't want things to go physical. Both over now.#The second one I was more optimistic for tho.Prominent thing was that she wanted me to date her and others. So I'm not exclusive with anyon#And I still maintain that. Doesn't feel good bc when I go on a date with one it feels like I'm cheating on the others.#But i have such low confidence that I don't want to turn anyone down or keep anyone waiting for me to ask them out. So idk what I'm doing#anyway. moral quandary. I just realized I can't actually talk about it. But I have to choose advancing my own career at the cost of my sou#it would be really nice to get some big £$£$ but I'd have to sort of betray new boss a little. Who has already given me permission to do so#it doesn't feel right. Shellycoat here is from new project. Ugh I dunno. I think I'm going o have to sell out just a little.#Bein single again shows me how behind I am for my age. Still can't drive still living with my best pal. Probably goin bald soon#then again I've been saying that for years now. Maybe I have a few years left of it. But yeah. I don't earn very much rn. When I get those#questionaires I'm often in the lowest bracket so i'm like “I am among the poorest of ppl then??” One lady stopped talking to me when I#told her I rented a flat. Which implies a lot of men my age own property already. But did they get them with their morals intact or did the#have to do a bit of backstabbing on the way? Anyway. I guess I'm happy that I'm not just whining about my love life.Maybe being single is o#still wanting to get out there. Maybe I'll make another post about that or whenever I'm not single lol
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eyesopentv · 4 months
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thinking about how i was only in the hospital for a week bc i hated the staff so much i forgot to hate myself
#miles thots#tw suicide#actually what happened was i told the story of my coming out and expressed my anger at my mom for taking so long to be okay with my transne#in a group session and the nurse was so quick to defend my mom even saying she sounded like a good mom even after i told her it was the#biggest reason i wanted to die#and she was all ‘i’m sure she just didn’t understand’ even though i said i’d sent her videos and links to articles and offered to explain#myself if she still didn’t get it#this nurse made me feel so incredibly invalidated. i left group early and my roommate came to check on me (he’s also trans so he got it)#i was actually still actively suicidal when they released me but i hid it so well bc i couldn’t stand to be in there any longer#my friends saved me more than that place did. they let me crash on their couches until i was ready to talk to my mom#also- in case anyone actually read this: my mom is wonderful and i love her and we have a very strong relationship now.#it took a lot of work to get here though and it doesn’t change how i view what she did or how she made me feel in the past#but we have talked about all of it and i’ve forgiven her. she’s now my biggest supporter and i love her to the ends of the earth#so this story isn’t me talking bad ab my mom- just the situation and the response i received#oh yeah also they violated hippa and i didn’t realize it for about a year and while they had no right-#i also don’t care enough to do anything ab it anymore lol#tw transphobia#< almost forgot that one
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kuiinncedes · 7 months
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