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octopotto · 1 year

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Yandere! Cloud Strife Childhood Headcanons (+ lil’ blurb)

OCTO NOTE:

*Seeing barely any yan cloud strife content*

Me: Fine… I’ll do it myself

Warnings: NOT PROOF READ, Mentions of: child injuries, self-dout, depression, and violence, Out of Character madness (even for yandere standards), Unhealthy behaviours, Yandere but not extreme but still—, Possessiveness, Kid Cloud is crazy protective, some stuff is inaccurate bc I’m writing this by memory.

**Will CONTAIN SPOILERS for the following: FF7 (original), FF7 Remake (2020).

REMINDER: Yandere behaviour of any kind is unhealthy behaviour. It should not be something to seek out for in real life. If you are experiencing any sort of inappropriate behaviour, please contact help/seek out help.

**The reader will ALWAYS be Gender-Neutral!

THIS IS STRICTLY PLATONIC BC FOR ME WRITING CHILDREN IN LOVE IS WEIRD AND I CAN'T SORRY.

ps: first fic!

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- Due to Clouds insecurities developing at a young age, he most likely won’t approach you first. You would either have to be the one initiating the conversation or Tifa has to introduce you two.

- Either way, it’s super awkward for the both of you.

- Lil’ boy is bitter because no one wanted to be his friend but here you are lol

- I think the best way to get Cloud to open up is for you to keep talking to him or approaching him first

- I believe that it’s those efforts that will help Cloud realize how much you genuinely want to become friends/closer with him.

- It will help him get out of his shell.

- Honestly, getting him to initiate the conversation FIRST is a HUGE development in y’all’s relationship.

- Kid Cloud: *Approaches you first* “Hi…”

- Kid You: 😧😧 —> 😃😭🥰

- It will probably be like that for a while, but it will do!

- It’s kind of his way of showing that he also now wants to become closer with you.

- But once you guys finally get out of the ‘awkward’ phase, Cloud will slowly start to become attached to you.

- He’s now more confident in expressing himself and approaching you.

- He even tried to hold your hand a few times because he saw you hold Tifas hand when playing

- At one point, you even made Cloud and yourself friendship bracelets.

- “It a symbol of how much we care for each other!” You expressed to Cloud.

- He never once took off that bracelet. It was probably the first time he received something that wasn’t from his mother.

- You would always see him with it on. Even if you guys got into a fight.

- But when time passed, he started to get clingy

- No like

- REALLY CLINGY

- It’s to the point where you guys arrive to your house and you walk in to call it a night, HE ALSO starts to walk into the house.

- Kid You: *Confused as to why Cloud is taking off his shoes in your house after waving goodbye*

- Kid Cloud: *Literally just inviting himself in because wherever you go, HE GOES*

- I feel like his mother would look over this behaviour.

- Remember, Cloud never had any friends or anyone to talk to.

- So his mother was actually over the moon when he finally has someone who cares for him.

- She would probably chalk it up as him just being excited to have a friend.

- Your own guardian/parents wouldn’t mind as well as much

- They don’t really like the other kids as much (besides Tifa), so they were also happy that you made a new friend (despite again, being very clingy to you)

- Another mouth to feed too since he likes staying over.

- Cloud doesn’t understand these emotions but he does understand that he cherishes you and wants to be around you more often.

‘Kay enough with the slow-burn, time for the angst! :D

- If you played the original FF7 or watched it, yknow what’s coming up.

- Tifa’s mother died when she was young and thought she could reach her if she climbed up Mt. Nibel.

- You and Cloud followed her as you two were concerned for Tifa.

- Up in the mountains, you were fortunate to push Tifa and Cloud away before the bridge fell.

- The consequence? Yourself

- You fell down the bridge in place of both Tifa and Cloud.

- While falling, you heard the most blood-curdling scream you ever heard from both Cloud and Tifa.

- Thankfully, you survived the fall.

- But you still suffered major injuries and was unconscious for several days.

- Which resulted you from going outside.

- This deeply affected Cloud so much. His one and only friend, the one person he care for so much that he would do anything to prove it to you.

- It didn’t help that almost everyone in the town blamed HIM for what happened.

- Even with Tifa’s protests and defending Cloud’s innocence, no one listened.

- IMAGINE BLAMING A CHILD

- Your guardian reassured him and Tifa that it wasn’t their fault, that you wouldn’t want them to feel bad.

- But even with all of the reassurance from your guardian and Tifa, Cloud couldn’t stop the guilt and despair that kept clawing within him.

- Thus, he started believing the blame that people keep telling him, blaming himself that he was the reason why you’re in terrible state right now.

- With you being unconscious and not being able to go out, Cloud started to keep to himself again.

- If he wasn’t staying by your side to see if you would wake up, he was in his bed.

- Just laying in there, surrounded by his thoughts and guilt.

- Why do anything if everything that happened was his fault?

- Why go out if you weren’t there with him?

- He believes that he ruined the one good thing in his life.

- When you finally woke up, Cloud never ran so fast to your house.

- Even forgot to knock, just kept jiggling the door handle until your guardian unlocked it.

- He quickly into went to your room

- And when he got there, it was like he finally woke up from his nightmare.

- Because there you were, alive.

- Quickly went up to you and hugged you so tight that you thought you couldn’t breathe for a second.

- You couldn’t process what was happening until you felt something wet on your shoulder.

- Cloud was crying. He was so relieved, so relieved to see you awake.

- He didn’t know what to say, all he could say was incoherent mumbles.

- “Im so sorry… I’m so glad you’re here with me” Is what Cloud could say.

- Once you were able to process what was happening, all you did was hug him back just as tightly, not even caring if your arms were still sore. You weren't sure as to why Cloud was saying sorry for, but you began crying as well.

- “I’m glad you’re here with me as well,” You said back.

- All Cloud did was hug you even tighter.

- All throughout your recovery, Cloud was there by your side 24/7.

- If you needed anything, Cloud the Delivery Boy was on the run! 👀👀👀👀

- Made sure to hold your hand extra tight in order for you to not fall.

- If y’all were going outside for a walk, IT WILL ONLY BE ON FLAT GROUND.

- No hills, no bumps, no nothing

- He can’t risk you hurting yourself again because of himself.

- He also tried to carry you

- Never again lol

- Also super protective

- Wouldn’t even let Tifa near you when she wanted to see you again.

- Tifa was so mad he didn’t let her hang out with you. She was your friend too!!

- Kid Cloud: *Puts arm out to create a barrier between you guys and Tifa*

- “No 😡😡😡😡😡”

- Kid Tifa: 🙁🙁🙁

- Tifa On the inside: 🤬🤬🤬

- yan! tifa lockhart hcs??👀👀👀

- After what happened to you, Cloud swore to himself that he will be the one to protect you from any harm. Even as you guys grew older, he always protected you.

- He wants to always be by your side.

- He doesn’t want to leave you alone from now on.

- Because it might make his nightmares come true once more: You leaving him.

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But what happens a few years later when he decides to leave for SOLIDER?

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It was late at night and Cloud left a note for you, asking to meet him at the water tower.

It wasn’t unusual for Cloud to ask this because you guys usually hang out whenever one of you feels like it. As you kept walking to the tower, you can’t help but have a strange feeling as to why Cloud didn’t specify why he wanted to talk to you.

Once you got to the top of the tower, you see Cloud sitting on edge of the platform. It seemed like he was lost in thought, like he was still figuring out what to say. You smiled, always finding his thinking-face to be so cute. You finally approached him and tapped on on the shoulder. He flinched, he didn’t even hear you walk up.

“Hey” You greeted Cloud while sitting down.

Cloud nodded his head at you and looked backed out on the ground below him.

Your eyebrows furred together. Again, the same feeling when you were walking to the tower came back and sense that something was wrong with Cloud.

“You said you wanted to speak to me?” You questioned as you continued to observe Cloud’s facial expressions. It took some time for him to say something, but when he did, it almost disappointed you.

“When spring comes, I’m leaving town and going to Midgard.” He stated while not looking at you.

You frowned. You knew this day would come.

You hummed at Cloud’s response. “Not surprised… every guy here is leaving for work, even Tifa’s friends are leaving too..” You quietly said, still sad that Cloud was leaving you. Cloud jumped at the tone of you voice, quickly turning his head in order to face you.

“B-But— I’m not like them!” Cloud exclaimed, worried that you thought he wanted to leave you. Never.

“I’m not just going into the city just to look for a job… I’m going to become a SOLDIER. Like Sephiroth” Cloud continued as he confessed.

“The legendary war-hero huh…” You said quietly.

You heard stories from some the guys around town talk about how they would leave town to either look for work or join a military program named ‘SOLDIER’. It’s been something that a lot of kids dream of when growing up, and Cloud was apparently not an exception.

You knew it was selfish of you to wished that Cloud wouldn’t leave town for the program. But he’s your best friend. It‘ll be painful for you to see him move far away for a long time, in a completely different city.

You guys stayed silent for a few minutes until scooted closer to Cloud. He looked at you surprised.

“Okay…then promise me this” You said to him. “When we’re older and you become a famous war hero and come back to visit… you’ll take me with you on your missions.” You said as you had this serious look in your eyes. If Cloud was going to be able to go cool and interesting adventures, you wanna come with.

“H-huh—?!”

“You’ll be like my guide or something!” You laughed at Clouds reaction.

“It will be dangerous for you!” Cloud exclaimed.

“Nu-uh! Tifa’s father has been teaching me some moves lately! At this rate, I’m going to be even stronger than Sephiroth and become SOLDIER” You proudly said as you flexed your non-existenting muscles.

“Plus..” You started. “Since you’re gonna become a SOLDIER, you’re going to be able to protect me. I know you will. You know I trust you with my life!” You continued as you smiled at him.

Cloud gasped at your statement as his eyes widen in shock.

You trusted him.

You wanted him to save you.

You wanted him as your protector.

You wanted him.

You felt your checks warm up in embarrassment as you realized what you said to him. You then grabbed Cloud into a tight hug.

You felt Cloud slowly hug you back.

"Y’know, I'm glad I met you, Cloud" You whispered to Cloud, hugging him even tighter. He also hugs you closer.

You guys just stayed like that while looking at the stars above.

All Cloud wants is to become strong enough to protect you. Since he saw how much Sephiroth has done to protect other people and cities in the papers, he knew that he had to join. To become stronger, to be able to become the best version of himself, for you to see that the only person that you could come to for protection and rescuing, will be him. He will become your protector.

He swore to himself ever since you got injured because to his carelessness.

‘Y/n…You have no idea what lengths I would go through just to keep you safe.’

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OCTO NOTE: This was supposed to be general headcanons but I went overboard (clearly lol). So most likely this will become a series.

This is my first ever fic that I’ve written for Tumblr as well as for Final Fantasy 7, so I deeply apologize if anything is inaccurate :((

Hoped you enjoyed these hcs! Again, Cloud gets no love in the yandere fic community so why not I just write some lmaoo

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skyfallscotland · 1 month

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Seriously Amy? It’s not like we’re not all in love with Xaden and you had him write *that* love letter? I literally could not stop smiling!!!!

I need ch 9 AND 10….this reunion might just be one of the top remixaden scenes.

Speaking of which….what are your top 3 Remi/xaden scenarios?

I'm sorry haha, I thrive on making him a perfect(ly flawed) human being, ok?

I have to choose? 😭 Haha

The reunion/following conversation/day IS one of my top three, for sure. I feel like I'm already going to forget some of their F&F scenes? I'm going to cheat and do three from both (yes, that means multiple sneak peeks so buckle up). I think it kind of says a lot upon reflection that most of my favourite scenes/quotes are from times where they're intimate but openly communicating 🥺

In F&F definitely when Rem first manifests her signet and she's crying and overstimulated and he's laughing but comforting her all the same.

I flinch, closing my eyes against tears as he turns back toward me. “Remi,” he says gently. “Look at me.” I shake my head, keeping my eyes firmly shut as the tears spill over, running down my cheeks. He laughs softly and I shake as I feel his hands on my face, pulling me close. “Angel,” he says quietly, “why are you crying?” “I don’t know,” I whimper as he holds me to him, wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

Maybe the scene by the lake where she threatens him?

“And Xaden?” My voice is gentle and he freezes in place, only a foot away. He turns his head, barely glancing over his shoulder. I let my hand shoot forward, pressing the dagger I’ve palmed from my corset against his spine. “You don’t ever speak to, or handle me, so disrespectfully ever again.” I tell him warningly, holding his gaze. “There are so many things I could do to you that would still leave Sgaeyl intact.”

And when he tells her he loves her 🥺

“I love you, Remi.” He skates a gentle hand across my cheek and my heart begins to pound in my chest. “So much.” He cradles my face as his onyx eyes hold my gaze. “I love you in a way I never thought possible. You’re—you’re everything to me. I’d burn the world for you.” I swallow hard, blinking back tears. I’d known already that he loved me—I could tell from his actions and the way he always held me like I was something precious. I didn’t need the words, but… “I love you too, Xaden. You’re my stars,” I tip my head back so he can kiss me again, softer this time, “my centre of gravity.” I whisper. “I love you more than anything.” He presses his forehead to mine, clutching me tightly like if he blinks, I’ll disappear. “Promise me you won’t leave.” He begs quietly. “Promise me.” “I already told you,” I whisper softly, “for as long as you love me in return, you’ll never be alone again.” It breaks my heart that he’s still so convinced I’m going to hate him—that he believes there’s no possibility that I’ll stay.

In T&T definitely the reunion and the scene that follows, for which I'm keeping the best lines to myself for now, because I want you all to experience them in context, but... (Ch9-10)

“I don’t know.” I admit quietly and his expression shutters. “We need to talk about it—about so many things.” I tell him. “I can’t figure this out on my own.” It took me a while to realise that. “But what I do know is that I love you.” I tell him firmly. “Xaden,” I cup his jaw gently, “as long as you love me in return—” “I’ll never be alone again.” He whispers, finishing my sentence like it’s a common refrain, something he’s repeated to himself over and over, and I close my eyes for a second, willing myself not to cry.

This moment in (approximately) Ch14? I think? Where they have both fucked up.

“I thank Amari every day that you gave me a second chance, because no one else will ever meet my standards. I know exactly how strong you are, Remi Sorrengail.” I bury my face in his neck, trying to force back the tears that prick my eyes. “I’m sorry.” I choke out, trembling slightly against him. “I feel like I let you down.” “No, angel.” He says quietly, cradling me close. “You didn’t let me down.” His arms tighten around me.

And this whole scene where Remi almost dislocates her hip, that looks like it's going to sit around Ch17-ish

“Come here.” He slides away and in a second he’s hovering over me, pulling my leg out straight. His hands gently manoeuvre me this way and that, his thumbs kneading my thigh. “Stretch it out and then we can try again.” I huff. “I’ve killed the mood already.” I mutter. “What’s the point?” He stops, lacing his hands together over my thigh and then drops his chin down on top of them as he stares up at me amusedly. “Bold of you to assume you know how I feel.” He challenges. “Are you still hard?” “Are you in charge?” We stare at each other for a moment before my lips twitch, just slightly, and then he’s grinning, dragging his teeth over the skin at the top of my thigh as I laugh softly. “Stop being a brat.” He chides, nipping gently as he pushes himself up, crawling over me. “Follow the rules.”

And yes, in case you were wondering that's just the tip of the iceberg and I plan to ruin you all xx 😇

#basgiath (remi's version)#remi's version asks #remi's version quotes

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h0rnyv01d · 6 months

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0: Height

1: Virgin?

2: Shoe size

3: Do you smoke?

4: Do you drink?

5: Do you take drugs?

6: Age you get mistaken for

7: Have tattoos?

8: Want any tattoos?

9: Got any piercings?

10: Want any piercings?

11: Best friend?

12: Relationship status

13: Biggest turn ons

14: Biggest turn offs

15: Favorite movie

16: I’ll love you if

17: Someone you miss

18: Most traumatic experience

19: A fact about your personality

20: What I hate most about myself

21: What I love most about myself

22: What I want to be when I get older

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

25: My idea of a perfect date

26: My biggest pet peeves

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

30: What I hate the most about work/school

31: What your last text message says

32: What words upset me the most

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

34: What I find attractive in women

35: What I find attractive in men

36: Where I would like to live

37: One of my insecurities

38: My childhood career choice

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

40: Who wish I could be

41: Where I want to be right now

42: The last thing I ate

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

44: A random fact about anything

oop this is long so

1: yeah lol

2: 6

3: nope, gotta keep them lungs healthy to stay slutty

4: nopity nope, i’m so scared of saying something i’ll regret while drunk

5: again, nope 😭😭

6: recently people have been offering me kids menus at restaurants? it’s odd, idk how old they think i am but

7: no :(

8: i wanna get a star pattern on my collarbone at some point, and maybe a jellyfish on my upper arm

9: yep! regular lobe, and a cartilage piercing on my right ear

10: i wanna get a bunch of piercings, but just on my ears, i’m getting a conch piercing on my left soon

11: probs my friend sophia but you wouldn’t know her obv lol

12: it’s complicated- we’re both into each other, and weve dated in the past, but neither of us is willing to b like “let’s get back together”

13: men just casually hinting at something they’re into. it just makes my brain go WILD with possibilities

14: being mean outside of sex

15: cinderella (1950)

16: i’ll love you if you’re sweet (my standards are so low i’m sorry)

17: my friends i don’t talk to anymore

18: i’ve had two seizures, and those were probably the worst moments of my life

19: i’m clingy but i won’t admit it

20: my chin and my need for attention

21: i got that hourglass figure <3

22: i wanna be an author!!

23: i have one little sister, i love her, but she’s nuts sometimes

24: no father, and my mom is more like a big sister than a mother to me

25: any date is perfect as long as i’m with someone i love. but if i had to pick, watching fireworks together

26: people pronouncing my city name wrong, idk why

27: he’s a lil short, he’s got curly blonde hair, and he’s so sweet, he wants to be lawyer someday

28: the person i dislike most has greasy brown hair, is 5’6, and looks like he doesn’t shower

29: protecting feelings, and also i’ve lied if i thought it’d help repair friendships

30: waking up early!! i hate getting up at 6

31: “will you wake up if i send you more pictures of cats i like, or should i wait until tomorrow?”

32: ‘we need to talk’

33: i’ve gotten told i look like cinderella twice today :)) that made me feel so amazing

34: i’m more attracted to men than women, but i’ve noticed that whenever i’m into women, they tend to be really strong

35: brunettes for some reason

36: tbh i’m perfectly fine in florida

37: my laugh

38: i used to want to be a marine biologist, and while that field is still incredibly interesting to me, i think i’d rather write

39: vanilla, i’m a basic bitch <3

40: adelaide kane, shes dropdead gorgeous i’d love to be her

41: greece, because apparently there’s a ton of cats!!

42: i had a banana a few hours ago

43: chris hemsworth. on his poster for thor: ragnarok, he literally fits leonardo da vinci’s idea of perfection, so i will unapologetically be saying this

44: the blue whale is the largest animal to have ever lived

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luveline · 1 month

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Heya love, I'm not sure what affordable means im your realm so instead of suggesting models, I wanted to pass on something I learned early on after moving out as a broke student: Remember your utilities.

If you have to go cheap with your tumble dryer, do that. Your clothes won't care, and it mostly doesn't make a huge difference. But make sure you buy one with as high a rating as you can afford. Instead of picking one with standard capacity and a C or D energy label, maybe opt for a smaller one that has at least B, possibly A (even better if it's A+ or A++).

In the end, the tumble dryer is a one time purchase. But utility bills remain and those can truly be cunts at times. I can not tell you how often those little shits came back to bite my arse back when money was scarce.

Also: Check for sales and special offers online! Sometimes shops have good products for really neat prices - even shops you wouldn't suspect like Lidl and the like!

oh no that makes sense though!! I don’t think I’d care about being transparent with my finances online but it feels sort of taboo at the same time! I don’t imagine anyone here would look down on me but it’s just one of those things haha . I wasn’t thinking about the energy thing at all so you’re actually extremely extremely helpful!! I hopefully won’t have to pay for the dryer all by myself because we want to get it for the house, I just want to get it because I feel like clothes on our radiators never get fully dry and then they don’t smell nice so you end up washing them again which isn’t very cost friendly!! I will definitely keep my eye out I’m not gonna buy the first one I see I hope haha. I just want dry clothes 😭 the one at the supermarket we sometimes use is too expensive and doesn’t even always work

#jade's asks #ily

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lilredghost · 11 months

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BABYY I SEE THE THING WITH THE SCENTS IM NOTICING HE DETAILS!!!!!

It needs to, he thinks to himself. I have plans with Anakin today. After all, the last thing Obi-Wan wants to do is disappoint his husband on account of his damned biology.

he doesnt know anakin would be so glad 😭😭😭 he didnt want an alpha in the first place this is misunderstandings galore im living for it

Should he chide his mother or spurn his husband? Should he attempt to compromise by bringing Obi-Wan to the temple, or will that hurt the both of them?

he's learninggggg my heart is full <3333 shmi needs to learn too istfg obi is a baby!!!! you dont wanna hurt him!!!!! he's the most innocent baby in this verse!!!!

i cant wait for them to go sand seal surfing together <3333 dangerous rides call for tightly held hands :) ALSO their kiss!!!!! they both are accepting and showing their feelings for each other im still swooning from that!!!!! cant cat wait for obi to give anakin the sash cause in anakin's mind obi proposed and the wedding wasnt done with tatooine's standards <3 this is gonna be so healing this is gonna improve my life i can just feel it

Anakin will come to him, he knows. He promised.

IF THIS HURTS OBI AGAIN I SWEAR I WILL READ IT WITH GLEE BUT ALSO MAKE PLANS TO KILL ANAKIN MYSELF PLEASE

1. My best girl back in my ask box!! I am so ELATED that you're catching the details! I've been slowly making the transition on the way Obi-Wan smells since literally chapter ONE (OK chapter 3 actually but still)

2. He doesn't even know Anakin would still love him 🥺🥺. Hell, he doesn't even know Anakin loves him NOW. There's this bit in the next chapter, the following morning:

He studies Anakin carefully, taking in the soft expression on his face. With some surprise, Obi-Wan realises he’s seen it before, seen it directed at him. How long has his husband been looking at him like this? How had he not noticed?

He sees he's been blind about Anakin's feelings but continues to be blind about the EXTENT of Anakin's feelings.

Anakin realized he loves Obi-Wan (this chapter's "epiphany") and immediately was all in, 100%, this is his husband they're married and in love now. In his mind, it's clearly mutual.

But Obi-Wan has been in love with Anakin for a looong time now, and he thinks they're still taking baby steps in their relationship. They kissed, sure, but that doesn't mean Anakin is suddenly in love with him.

3. Anakin learning is soooo dear to me, because aaall the way back in chapter 3 he was like:

there is a part of Anakin that wants to be petty, to tease and bring the man to tears in a vindictive sort of punishment—an opportunity to take control back from his Emperor husband without any chance of it being perceived as a threat to their alliance. However experienced Obi-Wan is, he won’t stand a chance against Anakin.

But now he knows Obi-Wan has such a soft heart (the most innocent baby in this verse, you're right 🥺). He's treating Obi-Wan gently, he's not lashing out anymore. We see the growth SO MUCH in this chapter:

It's clear to Anakin that his alpha is still feeling a little unwell, looking pale and somewhat distracted. Anakin resolves to take it easy on him, today.

He slides one hand slowly up Obi-Wan’s back, the other reaching out to pull him down by the nape of his neck. He moves carefully, not wanting to spook Obi-Wan—but his husband comes eagerly, leaning down and pressing lips to lips.

As for Shmi... she'll change her opinion on him once the whole "who proposed to who" conflict is resolved

4. SAND SEAL SURFING. I'm planning to have them go sometime after the Celebration of Light but there will also be sooo many kissses between now and then <3

And don't even worry about the morning after, Anakin will be there! I already wrote the scene for the next morning. (Originally it was gonna be in ch13, but unfortunately it didn't work with the pacing)

There will still be some angst in the rest of the fic, but like...we've gotten passed the hard part. Once they return from their vacation, the larger plot will begin acting upon them again. They'll have all these problems thrown at them and they'll have to split up for a bit. But they'll still be TOGETHER 💕

#thank you for coming to my ted talk #your ask watered my crops cleared my skin etc #obikin #emperor obi-wan au #asks #imjusttoofunky #squick: a/b/o

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khaleesiofalicante · 9 months

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i did not think i would live to see the day where we have (basically) angst-free mavid. but what a glorious day it is ☀️🙌

and i will most definitely accept this fic as an apology for both fmf and lbaf. i have a feeling i’m gonna migrate back to it after any remotely angsty thing in lbaf v.

ok an extended list of my thoughts, reactions, ramblings, etc.:

max in a suit will forever be my fave

brunch is most definitely a real meal, for adamant breakfast haters like myself

“How on earth could a stupid legal meeting be more important than avocado toast and strawberry mimosas?” david is the realest

david my love, calling him just mr.lightwood and not mr.lightwood-bane is probably losing you some points

the second hand embarrassment is real in this one dani 😩

“He’d like to see anyone else in that family write a dissertation on gender and colonialism in Jane Austen's Mansfield Park” he’s so hot for this

alec being taylor swifts lawyer but supporting her carbon emissions 😔 can’t win them all, folks

david baby, alec is just being jealous, don’t take it so personally pleeeeeaaasseeee

every single mavid scene in here is making me giggle and kick my feet 🥰🤭

i love the subtle netflix slander in all these fics

alec walking in on mavid 😭 david really can’t catch a break

david really is a perfect piece of shit

anjali is the absolute best. the standard, even

“you. always. all the time.” somebody hold me

david “accidentally” ruining the cake, this boy is too sweet

and the apple strudel scene was too funny

the little fbi max???? david is the best boyfriend ever

“You're my lawyer. You have to do as I ask. You can either help me or I will fire you and find someone else who will.” that was very hot

“I do have power over him. You really don’t want to see what I can do with it” this was also very hot

all their little pillow talk scenes make me so soft

seeing mavid elope in every universe is my absolute favorite

“Do not do the shimmy dance. Do not do the shimmy dance!” 😭😭😭

“he is gonna end up in a hospital like he did in Cairo” any mention of other max will be considered foreshadowing, dani

the entirety of chapter 8 was so perfect, i cant-

“sad gay prince and his little choir boyfriend” this is forever how i’m gonna refer to young royals now😤

“I represent all sorts of people,” the other man notes and then winks at David. oh, he is most defintely taylor swifts lawyer, isn’t he?

“Now I’m saying they met because of me,” the man hums. “But one does wonder where the mavid ship would be without the wind that is Jace Herondale.” YOU TELL THEM 😤

“David, you are a like a son to me and I love you very much.” HE FINALLY SAID IT 🎉

taylor swift? the taylor swift???? omg

the whole moment where mavid was singing the lines of “lover” to each other was perfect

i can’t blame david because i would also be in shock if i found myself having a conversation with hozier

david beauchamp, you perfect son of a bitch

Do you think he'll like it and forgive me for all the pain I'm about to put him through in LBAF? 🥺 david might, but i won’t. leave my baby girl alone dani, i beg of you

i think this fic was the best thing that ever happened to me 🤍💙💛

ps: don’t you dare think i missed that lbaf foreshadowing 👀 just cause other max doesn’t have david anymore doesn’t mean he can’t have any love in his life dani 😩 and what is this i hear about disrupting canon events 🤨

pps: if other max can hop dimensions, i’m sure it would be very amusing (and eerie) for him to see that mundane david writes about him so accurately

ppps: i’ve marked my calendar for lbaf v, i am so excited for this (i’m assuming the 18 chapters is the 18 years between lbaf iv v)

Was this angst free tho 👀

I'm so glad you enjoyed the fic and loved the fluff (see? i can write fluff too!!)

The 18 chapters have time skips, so it isn't really one chapter for each year (there are more than a 20 years gap if I'm not wrong - I'm begging yall don't make me do the math)

love u

#best thing ever

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swiftie here!!!! i’m so sorry if this is too long😭

oof 😮‍💨

i guess i can try and sum up what i’ve been talking about with my irl best friends

i think the whole thing is layered. taylor swift, at the end of the day, is a human being. there’s nothing people can do to change it. she’s going to fuck up and fuck up hard throughout her life. i know matty has been someone close to her for nearly 10 years, so it isn’t surprising that she would fall into his arms. i thought that he was just a rebound but new articles make me think that maybe there was some… not overlap… but evident feelings while she was with joe (and after taylor playing two songs about cheating yesterday, maybe joe had feelings for other people too)

i despised matty for years before this. he’s a white man who plays the role of a hardcore edgy leftist political satirist but it is not the revolutionary act he thinks it is- especially when he consumes “ghetto gagger” content which i cant even bring myself to google but i’ve heard it’s degrading and racist sexual content.

stan life aside, i’ve always thought that the people people hang out with are a reflection of who they are and after taylor being in a david o russell movie (the director SA’d his niece) a few years after covering time magazine for the me too movement, it’s safe to say that taylor has so far removed herself from the general public and has fully submerged herself into a selfish lifestyle that’s cushioned by insane financial gain. it’s interesting because it’s an undeniable side effect of fame- fame isn’t natural. but it has undeniably soured her for me to be honest.

taylor doesn’t have to live her life via fan rules and standards bc at the end of the day it’s her personal life. but she is actively working to becoming the most famous celebrity/entertainer in the world, if she isn’t already! eras tour has proved that and she loves it, she expresses it every night. but she is actively and consciously making herself even more famous and i think that if she were to do so, swifties cant simultaneously victimize her for facing backlash.

hopefully it’s just a phase she’s going through and they won’t be longterm. but it is just another time taylor has outrightly proven she does not have a backbone when it comes to issues outside of herself that she cant fix with money. it’s sad! and partly my fault for putting her on a pedestal.

(pt.1)

wow. i had no idea about the david o'russell thing and i'm... even more disappointed. the point you made about taylor working with him and then being a part of the me too movement is almost identical to what's going on now.

to me, it feels like taylor only speaks out about certain things if she benefits from it/if it's about her directly. if matty healy said all the shit he said about ice spice about taylor, her and her fans would obv have Nothing to do with him. but since he was talking about a woc, she's been totally silent (despite her "women supporting women" motto). her idea of feminism just seems very performative to me...

i definitely wouldn't say it's your fault for putting her on a pedestal, though! you supported a person who claimed to be a feminist. it's not your fault that her actions completely disregard that.

#bug answers #ily

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jxnmzko · 4 months

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i find it hard sometimes to accept that i deserve love or even that i’m pretty because most of my life i’ve felt very left out and ugly because of how others perceived me. My ability to be social had definitely improved because i made friends but then i lost them after a few years. I don’t look the way i used to and nor does my body and the way people treat someone when they’re bigger is crazy especially if they don’t fit the beauty standard. I feel sad at times bc i wish i wasn’t insecure with myself entirely bc i think i’d live a somewhat more fulfilling life. I wish at times i was more appealing to ppl and not seen as a joke. I also wish i didn’t self sabotage whenever i did feel like someone cared for me in that way, i always compare myself like oh they could have this so why me? but that’s victim mentality and also beating myself down. I need to allow myself to be myself to the fullest and accept i won’t be appealing to everyone just how not everton is to me. I can’t be hurt when im denied because ik how lucky the other person would be to get to call themselves my partner bc i do love with all my heart. I can also change how i look if i’m not satisfied and or accept it little by little because life is too short to worry about how i’m perceived by others. I think this but it’s hard to rly apply it 😭

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vanillanaps · 3 years

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⌨️ Bodyguard Bucky +

During an argument, in which two characters have yet to reveal their feelings for each other, one of the characters shuts the other one up by kissing them, and suddenly everything’s forgiven (because the argument was really only about how they’ve hurt each other emotionally, because neither of them won’t freaking admit that they’re in love with each other)

I hope this is okay!! 😭

The door slamming shut behind the two of you causing the pictures on the walls of your apartment to rattle startled you. You turned on your heels, throwing a glare at Bucky who angrily shrugged off his jacket, tossing it over the back of your couch.

“Sure, break my front door. I’m sure my landlord won’t mind.” You spat at him, resulting in him rolling his eyes before walking around you, “What is with you?? You’ve had an attitude all night!”

“Nothin’. Don’t worry bout it.” He grumbled, stomping his way into your kitchen.

It wasn’t nothing. He had spent the entire night listening you go on a date with some douchebag that had only talked about himself the majority of the time. He hated when you did this. Lowered your standards for men who didn’t even deserve a glance from you. Not while he was there, not while Bucky was around. He would worship the ground you walk on—hell, he already does. He was your bodyguard after all. He was there to solely follow and protect you at all times, not to fall in love with you. Besides, you didn’t see him like that. At least, he thought you didn’t.

“Clearly it’s something! You do this every time I go on a date! I don’t get it!” You yelled, following after him.

You were fed up with him. Tired of the mix signals he would give you. How he caress your cheek while staring into your eyes after you had a long and stressful day, telling you that everything would be alright. How sometimes he’d start to lean in, you start to lean in too before he cleared his throat, pulling away and shutting down any obvious attraction to you for the next couple days. You were tired of it. To be honest, you could’ve made the first move. Expressed your feelings, kissed him first instead. But if you were to lower your guard even an inch to let him see that vulnerable loving side just for him to reject you? You wouldn’t recover.

“I see the way you look at me Bucky when you think I’m not paying attention!” You called out to him, making him stop in his tracks, “You’re constantly sending me these mixed signals. One day I think you want me and then the next you shut down and barely talk to me?”

“Stop.”

“No, Bucky, I’m not gonna stop! I’m tired of this! I go on all these dates to distract myself from the fact that maybe—just maybe I’m reading into this too much!” You sighed, “But, I like you Bucky. I like you a lot and I want to be with you! But if you don’t want me, say that! If im just some piece of ass that you want to fuc—“

Bucky turned on his feet, marching over to you, cupping your face in his hands and slotting his lips on yours. You were taken by surprised but quickly melted into it as you kissed him back, resting your hands on his arms. He pulled away moments later, leaning his forehead against yours, “i told you to stop because I want you, I do. So damn bad.”

A sigh of relief left your body, turning your head up to nudge his nose with yours, “then why didn’t you say anything?”

“I’m supposed to be protecting you, not falling in love with you.” He sighed, thumb rubbing circles against your cheek, “Those are the rules.”

“Fuck the roles.” You pressed your lips against his once more, “They were meant to be broken.”

#bodyguard!bucky #bodyguard!bucky x reader #bucky barnes x reader

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after-nine-at-the-oasis · 2 years

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🤔🥰👏😭😭👏🥰🥰😭😭😭OKAY OKAY OKAY I’M BACK

TOOK ME A HOT MINUTE BC TIS THE LIFE OF A PROCRASTINATOR (just bc I had other things to do) AND OVER-ACHIEVER BUT! HERE WE ARE.

Alright now I was just gonna say that 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Anyway, yes I’m having feelings, no I don’t really remember them, and yes this will have less emojis than it would have given that I’m on the computer and not my phone so this goes faster xDD.

ANYWAY

Also I was gonna say (finally remembered it lol) at the time, well I did say out loud, after laughing: ANDREA NOOO HE’S DYING YOU CAN’T DO THAT XDD

But technically it was for when he recovered lol, not while he was still dying, so we’re good XD. Especially because she’s being protective and I just love that in people and characters, especially (especially) because she’s been protective over CARLOS cause just CARLOS, and also especially (especially [especially]) because it’s funny xDD.

Anyway!

Onto the summary, the reaction over all :D.

If you will, it’s time for the:

REVIEW

Alright, so, overall: I. ABSOLUTELY. A D O R E D. THIS EPISODE. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Now, it may just be because of the Tarlos and Grace (and Judd, obviously), but this is probably my favorite episode this Season so far :)).

Seriously though, I am living my best life. If I had the energy, I might even write a Tarlos talking fic myself. Now, I don’t, not right now, nor the time, which is why I apologize if this is a shorter review than other episodes, which it probably will be - it’s been an hour and a half since the show ended, I can’t use emojis as easily so I get a little less distracted lol, and I’m just less sucked/zeroed in to my phone since like, idk, I’m just more in the environment, and like, aware xDD. Another reason for a shorter review is that I got my covid vaccine booster today, and, as the wonderful words of the amazingly wise mas said/state, that booster sure can covid. In short, I’m gradually feeling worse and worse, so, uh xdd. This is distracting me a little though, so let’s continue on with it :). Lol, maybe it won’t be a shorter review, but certainly less about the episode xD. Maybe not, idk yet, lol.

And also like I said I’m not freaking out as much anymore LOL XD. Well, I mean because of the whole, it ended 90+ minutes ago (100 actually - well, 99 technicallyyyyyy. . . Okay I’m waiting for it to hit 100 but it might actually be a minute lol because I was looking at the clock and it was at like 40 seconds so- ope no the computer switched like half a minute ago as I was typing this lol I just wanted to finish typing, lol ANYWAY, 100 xDD), but, anyway lol.

Okay, so, first off, Grace and Judd (and Billy, obviously).

THEY ARE SO CUTE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. Like literally I love them soo much 😭😭😭 xDD. Seriously though, we’ve once again revisited (grammar haha) the fact that Grace tries to do everything on her own. Well, maybe not everything, for example, she’s not trying to have this baby on her own lol (well, the actual birth sure, but xdd). I know that in Season 2 it talked about this in relation to the standards black women and other women of color are held to in today’s society, and I do think that’s very important to talk about, but I think I’ll let a few more of you talk about it more in-depth instead, seeing as I’m white xdd. I do get the pressure to want to do things on your own, though - I think that’s something a lot of people can relate to, no matter what their situation is. But, nonetheless, I thought the scenes of her and Judd were really cute, and I’m just glad they’re all okay :)). And I am so, So, SO, SOOO HAPPY THAT JUDD MADE IT FOR THE BIRTH :DDDDDDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 :D :D :D :D :D. It just- yes, it was wonderful.

Now. Owen. You know what I’m gonna say, methinks.

STOP 👏 MAKING 👏 EVERYTHING 👏 ABOUT 👏 YOU 👏!!!!!! 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏!!!

Like, sure, I liked your sadness about TK (my BOYYYYYYYY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭), and I did like your comparison, just bc I know you were actually sad and really, really very scared, specifically for him and yourself, but nonetheless, it’s s t i l l n o t a l l a b o u t y o u. But I will let it slide this time, as it’s all in juxtaposition to TK.

And oh my gosh his hug to Carlos 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. I thought I would literally lose my mind xddd XDDDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. And just- one more tear from Carlos, everyone being there, the comfort of that hug, Owen just finally seeing the pain of someone around him and CARING and helping him through it, I just- I can’t 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 xDD. I love them so, so much. Well, mostly Carlos, and TK if we’re including him here, but Owen’s aight. Lol, anyway, also Marjan having to find out 😭😭😭😭? Literally killed me. I mean, it really would have if we would’ve had to SEE it, but luckily we didn’t. Still kinda wish we did though xDD. And of course her being surprised about Paul - glad they assuaged her fears rather quickly, because she was still calm in that moment, I feel like - or at least in control of her emotions. Anyway, glad that we finally got to see the rest of them there with TK 🥰🥰🥰🥰. Or at least some of them anyway.

But! Yeah. I think you now what time it is. Time for. . .

T A R L O S !!!

You knew it had to be coming eventually xDD.

OKAY! So, as y’all well know if you follow me or follow what I’m doing here, like my posts, you know I LOVE Tarlos. I mean, I think most of us do xDD. And like- this episode 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. Literally I can’t deal. I was stimming. SO. HARD. It’s been a long time since I’ve stimmed like that and- yeah, it was nice :). I REALLY wish I had the energy to say more about them right now. . . I’ll do a little more, but then I really have to go - I get up in 7 hours and I have most likely at least 30 minutes of school left lol. OKAY took a quick break but we back <3. I am definitely not letting this be the smallest, or even second biggest, section XDD. Anyway, yeah, I just- it was really lovely and wonderful to feel such feelings that I stimmed like that again, and it was really great <3. With a recent re-hyperfixation at some really epic parts I’ve been able to stim a little, like, naturally, but this is just a whole new/’nother level :). I was literally kicked my legs up in the air and flinging my arms around lol xD. Like, those legs were 90 degree angles because I was mostly lying down on the cough XD. I just- I love them so, so much. That final, well more like FINALLY, culminative I suppose, handholding and kissing and cuddling at the end 😭😭😭😭😭. Like, when TK woke up I mean - although obviously we’ll talk about the apartment and the ending-ending in a minute xDD. It was like, he was so worn down that as soon as he felt like it was okay to hold his hand, the dam broke for Carlos and he couldn’t handle not touching TK, being close to him, supporting him, loving him. I am, in short, VERY emotional 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭xdd. Just- 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰. I LOVE THEM. SO. M U C H. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3. They are perfect (not literally) and- oh my gosh, Ronen and Rafa did SUCH 👏 A 👏 GOOD 👏 JOB 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏!!!!!! I just- I love them so much. Later I will be posting my betting pool between me and the lovely @mas (yes I know that’s not your account/blog name lol I just don’t care <3 <3 <3 xDD) on why the broke up lol, or the whole situation in general - we were both pretty close 🤔!!!! Okay, real quick, just as a last thing or two here, the apartment: it is so beautiful. I really do hope we eventually get at least a little talk, a little on-screen explanation from TK on why he acted the way he did, and while personally I think it was a little much to break up, I also kinda get it. He’s not used to having nice things :’(((((( (I believe I saw someone else say something along those lines and it is %1,000 true in my opinion 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭, if not all the time). I also saw someone say they honestly would’ve preferred if it was Carlos who had made the mistake, whether it was him or TK who actually did the breaking-up with, I believe, but honestly I don’t really care. I think we’ll see more mistakes from Carlos in the future (that was their reasoning), and while I don’t like the fact that TK has to make so many mistakes, he’s been through a lot and I feel like that was the only logical storyline to make the break up fit. Sure, do I wish they hadn’t ever broken up? Yeah! But also, kinda not. TV’s not perfect - in the wise words of Abed Nadir, “It needs to be okay for TV to take a sick day. Or phone in a day.” The show isn’t gonna be perfect - I agree with and acknowledge that. But, to me at least, it’s so very, very good <3. TK will keep making mistakes. So will Carlos. Hopefully, they won’t break up ever again - I really don’t think that’s likely, to be honest, luckily. I love them so, so much, and I think they’ll be okay.

Now, the ending party. Yes <3. I got a special little thrill and :’) of happiness at Mateo ringing the bell, because this is his first time entering that fire house, officially at least, as a full-fledged Fire Fighter. So proud of him <3 <3 <3 :’’’)))))))) 😭😭👏👏👏👏👏👏🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰. I just- I love him, I love them all :))))))). Also, yes, stan Paul and his new rich sponsor family <3 <3 <3 xDD. And yes, I was so happy that Gwyn was there 😭😭😭😭. Sure, TK, you may eventually have to admit - to her or to your therapist, I don’t know lol - that you saw her in your coma dream(scape), but for right now, I think it’s just good for you to see the real her :). She supported you through a hard time, and she’s hear to REALLY support you. You know, as a real person xD. And, support everyone of course, but mostly him, and Owen, I think :)). I mean, I know, but I’m sure she cares about the others too xdd. And TK’s little brother, her son 😭😭😭😭😭. I don’t remember his name, but I just- he is adorable. THEY are adorable - Gwyn with him, TK with him, whatever. Glad Owen wasn’t too weird or salty about it :’). Also having Baby Ryder (Charlie!!!!!! Love that so much 😭😭😭 :))) :’)) <3 <3 <3 <3 :pppppp :pp :pp :p) and Gwyn’s second son all (well, there’s two, but, you know, lol xD) around at the same time, it’s just fun and interesting :). Even if she and him (Gwyn and the kid) won’t be here too often, I assume :). And yes - quick note, again, CHARLIE IS SUCH AN AWESOME NAME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. You mind your business, Evie (I believe it was her, lol xDD) - that’s a wonderful and kick-butt girl’s name 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰. And it’s just so, so sweet 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 :’’’)))))))))))).

Anyway, that’s about it!

Overall: I absolutely loved this episode. I adored it. Owen wasn’t too bad, we got to see everyone at least a little bit, and the fire house is back up :). Maybe the ending was a bit quick, but honestly, it’s time that we move on from this storyline lol. It makes sense to wrap it all up right now :). Honestly, I was afraid it would end with a cliffhanger, or like, even if it happened offscreen, a kind of open ending, TK woke up and Tarlos is about to talk scene, but nOPE, we got much better :)). This was an amazing episode, so lovely, from Grace and Judd being amazing as always, to Billy, who was slightly less annoying than usual 🤔. You gotta admit he’s funny though, lol, xD. Ah, I love him. Well, maybe. Probably not as much as the rest of them, but I’m just in a happy mood right now XD. So yeah, I’ll love him :)). The team was adorable and loving, Tarlos hurt so much but ended happily, and it hurt in a good way, since it was amazing <3, Tommy might’ve finally forgiven herself for TK’s accident, :), Nancy helped Carlos open up a little bit, it wasn’t all about Owen, and little baby Charlie Ryder came into the world :)). And, of course, finally: The 126 Firehouse opened back up. Such an lovely ending. A great ending for an exciting episode arc :DD :D. I’m psyched to see more :)))))) 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰. I loved it <3. This was an amazing episode :’).

Sooooo, yeah!!

This was my review for. . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 3, Episode 4: Push

Next week!!! I’m so excited for :))). . .

9-1-1: Lone Star, Season 3, Episode 5: Child Care

See you then!!!! :DDDDDD!!!!

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HOPE ANON HERE AGAIN💕💕 you can rely on God to help you through your problems, don't try to face them yourselves, because He can carry your burdens - there's no problem greater than God and He loves you so much! i was also talking about 'perfect' Christianity yesterday and how it doesn't exist, there's nothing we can do to be 'perfect Christians'. Perfect doesn't exist and as humans there's nothing we can do to achieve that status. BUT!! Jesus payed the ransom for our sins and while we're still not perfect, He is and i find that my life is only held together because God is at the centre. He's with us through everything, even when we neglect Him and He gives us chances to repent, and He's such a loving God! i think about it a lot sometimes, He's so perfect and loves US? it's unbelievable and there's many things we can't understand about God, but that's what makes Him so great - we will never be able to understand His Godly nature.

also about your tag of tw Christianity, at first i thought the same thing, and it is a shame that some people have lead people away from God because of hate :( i pray those people find ways to spread His love and glory instead of hate to get people closer to Him. In Jesus' name, Amen.

also one more thing : i was really happy when you said you felt God's love through the screen,, that made me really happy!! Praise the Lord!!

p.s. : i, too, find it very nice and cool that you're a Christian AND a fanfic writer, because as one myself it's really hard for me to find Christian friends!!!

- sincerely, hope anon

ILYAAA💕💕💕

hi hope anon!! thank you so much for this message,

that’s so true. there is no ‘perfect’ christianity - no matter how hard we try, we’ll never be up to the standard. but we still have all we need because Jesus has got our backs, because God wants to have a relationship with us despite it all. He gives us endless chances, but i know that i’m being too prideful often and don’t wanna admit when i’m making mistakes even though i make literally hundreds a day 😭😭✋ and yes that part, that part always hits hard - that’s the part that made me want to get baptized. “He’s such a loving god.... He’s so perfect and he loves US?” because God knows we’re going to mess up. he’s watched us mess up and stumble and give up and struggle so much, and he loves us despite all of that, because God is love. it makes me emotional every time, to think about how he has all the power in the world to destroy us but he won’t because we are incredibly valuable to him; he’s all-powerful and loving, and he knows what’s best for us and “we will never be able to understand his Godly nature” it’s so true. and it’s beautiful and slighty frightening, but that’s okay, because we can have faith that if we trust him then he’ll lead us where we belong.

yeah, i agree. it’s sad to me that christianity is a “trigger” - that people associate something this wonderful and beautiful and hope-inducing with anxiety and fear and discomfort. it hurts me that talking about the God I love is somehow wrong, that the center of my life is looked down upon. it’s my purpose, and i’m really, really sorry if you don’t like that. i just wanna love like my God does. i’m trying my hardest out here, but being told that believing in unconditional love is wrong from a secular perspective is heartbreaking. because what kind of world is this, if patience and kindness and sincerity are unwanted?

i guess it’s a sinful world. i guess that’s been covered. but christianity isn’t such a complex and strict thing as people seem to think. all it is is about being a follower of a God who wants the best for us and is always there for us and having something to hold onto. AHKSAKL I COULD GO ON FOR SO LONG ABOUT THIS AND I’M SO GLAD THAT I’VE BEEN ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT THIS MUCH ALREADY (watch me lose followers for making a Christian post, just wait ahaha)

yes. i felt it loud and clear, and i am so so grateful for that because things get cloudy, a lot, especially recently, but i knew that you were simply sharing God’s love and reminding me of the essential things and it felt like truth, something i could hold onto, even though i’m surrounded by voices inside and outside that feel like they’re trying to pull me down. uahha that sounds very dramatic but that’s what it feels like (•_•)

YEAH NO I NEVER EXPECTED I WOULD BE HERE BAHAHA it really feels like the biggest twist to end up here, writing about fictional characters. but i get to make people and i get to meet people and i get to express my own emotions and it’s one of the most beautiful parts of my life.

THANK YOU SO MUCH HOPE ANON. YOUR WORDS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME AND IT GIVES ME MORE HOPE THAN I’VE HAD FOR AWHILE AHH <3 I hope God continues to work through you like he is right now. ILY!!

#elk's asks #anon:hope #tw christianity #like wtf tho #do buddists have to put tw buddism on stuff :/#.

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vaatistrife-purplemage · 5 years

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Here down below is my 2019 Standard Illustrated Hardcover Edition of Terry Pratchett’s & Neil Gaiman’s Good Omens novel, which arrived today July 25, 2019. It looks gorgeous and I’m really happy with it. 😭👍🏻 The illustrations my edition comes with are so beautiful.

And ugh, let me tell you how angelic and devilish good Good Omens is. Sure I may not have read the actual novel first and it seems I’ve been living under a rock for but a few good years but still-

Ever since May 31 2019, the novel, originally written back in May 1, 1990, by the late Terry Pratchett & Neil Gaiman and re-released in April 2019 / May 2019 has been turned into a mini TV series adaptation which can be found on Amazon Prime why not Netflix too? and soon BBC Two, too. The episodes, which there are six of, each last an hour.

Yes, an hour. That may be pretty long but there’s plenty to go through. Character backstories, the plot itself, jumping back and forth within said plot, the humor that intertwines with the plot. Let alone the music that plays each episodes, which is absolutely fantastic. Not to mention both the angel Aziraphale & the demon Crowley roles are portrayed and played by none other than Michael Sheen; who I mostly know from his role as Aro Volturi in the Twilight Saga movies, and David Tennant; who I know as the Tenth Doctor from Doctor Who, although I’ve hardly ever seen a Doctor Who episodes.

Together both Michael Sheen & David Tennant are hilarious as Aziraphale & Crowley.

Given I didn’t have Amazon Prime, I watched all the episodes somewhere else, and watched all the six episodes within one sitting and one day. Afterwards I immediately wanted to rewatch it again.

I also couldn’t watch it with a straight face. No, instead I almost laughed myself out of my deskchair during some episodes.

In the end, Good Omens is a wonderful mini TV series which is definitely worth watching it despite the silly Netflix petition it got sometime back to get cancelled. I bet the novel will be lots of fun too! And incredibly bonkers.🤣

Here’s the backcover of the novel:

I’m certainly going to pick up the Good Omens Scriptbook, Good Omens TV Companion & the late Terry Pratchett’s DiscWorld novel series in the near future because I’m a little too much obsessed with Good Omens right now.

This is the official trailer for the Good Omens Amazon Prime Original (and soon BBC Two too) mini TV series:

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I love Aziraphale & Crowley a lot. I’m like Aziraphale when it comes to books and reading. Honestly. 😂😅

As for the little updates on my bookshelves; this is what my bookshelves are looking like as of right now:

As of late I also got myself a second closet for my growing amount of novels:

I’ve about 13 novels waiting on my To Be Read pile to be read by me. Good Omens being number 13. I hope that won’t bring me bad luck or anything. 🤔😂

Either way, if you’re looking for a fun and action-packed, supernatural themed story to read, I highly recommend you to pick up Terry Pratchett’s & Neil Gaiman’s standalone novel Good Omens if you haven’t yet.

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