#but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all.
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went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠
#like. to be clear this was the first time i've been literally anywhere but doctor's appointments in 4 years#not just because of the pandemic but because of mental and physical exhaustion#so it was a Big Mistake to go from 0 to 100 and not ease myself into it at all#but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all.#it was so much less crowded in 2020 (ironically the very last place i ever went; literally on the BRINK of covid)#and now idk what it's become. a monster con. it was unbelievable.#but i was only there for less than an hour but i was so so so terrified that i very nearly left before even seeing him#i couldn't even fully enjoy meeting him as kind as he was because i was so anxious and distracted#and when i got back to the car i just fucking cried.........#the last five days i've just been sitting in fear waiting to feel Any sort of symptoms#i wore two masks and again was barely there for long but Still#and everyone around me was so chill as if everything was normal and No One was wearing a mask :))))) it's not fucking fair man :)))))#insert the 'they don't know' meme; they don't know how much covid can destroy your body even if you get a 'mild' case#i would never want to be that ignorant even if i wasn't disabled and didn't have reason to worry (but everyone has reason to worry!!!)#but also. ignorance is bliss and it just really fucking sucks man.#it really fucking sucks. why do they get to be happy and enjoying life and not /me?/#why can't i do just ONE thing for myself without having it tainted by anxiety and fear that i'm going to die horribly???#while they get to do fucking EVERYTHING???#if they all just wore masks we could all enjoy ourselves much more comfortably than some of us are now#but no that's too much to ask from people 🙃🙃🙃#shit sucks man. the world sucks. something that should be a happy memory for me was simultaneously the most awful experience#and i don't know how to feel about it now that it's over#he knew that i was afraid and at the end he told me that he hoped to see me again at another event someday#and that made me cry because it felt like dazai telling me to live. and i want to. but i don't know how to when the world is like this now.#i desperately want to be able to see him again someday but right now after how terrifying that was i never want to go to a con ever again..#i wanted to ask him things about the manga and about dazai but i was being rushed and stressed so i couldn't ugh#(and doing that is hard enough anyway cause disability and i have to talk with my phone bahhhh)#at least i was able to give him my note *sigh*
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Let's Work it Out
Ettore X (Indifferent Crewmate Reader)
Warnings after the cut
Based on THIS request
Word Count: 1979
Ettore Masterlist
Full Masterlist
Banners by @arcielee
Warnings:: Ettore, swearing, Smut, dub-con, dry humping, fingering, unprotected sex (P in V), one brief line is a reference to previous non-con just a proper heads up. It's really quick, but yeah. Just in case.
"I hate this fucking ship." This is the thought that runs through your mind on a constant loop.
When you agreed to take this mission, you had thought it would be a good alternative to prison.But after months of floating around on this metal hellscape, you know you should have just stayed on earth.
Trapped in a tin can with a bunch of arseholes. At least in prison, the population was bigger. You had a better chance of finding people you could stand.
But here? Misery.
Boyse was fucking annoying with her constant bitching "this isn't right", "she can't do this", you know she's right but fuck, you can't change it and neither can she, so at least she could do you all a favor and just shut the fuck up.
Then there's Monte. The high and mighty one who thinks he is too good for the box. He walks around as if he is somehow morally superior to the rest of you, as if he wasn't a murderer too.
"You wouldn't be on this ship if you weren't asshat. Calm down."
Then there is the absolutely insane Dr. Dibs, who is apparently the only other person on this ship that is allowed to touch you and not in a fun way. Doing her freaky experiments knocking all the women up one by one and accidentally killing them off like some fucked up version of Russian roulette.
Then there is Ettore. He doesn't bother you as much as he bothers all the other female inmates, which actually makes him amusing in a way. He's definitely got the creepy staring guy role down, but who could blame him? There isn't much to look at on this stupid ship. Everything looks the same.
There are more irritating, annoying inmates, but you couldn't be arsed to learn their names. Fuck every single person on this ship, as far as you are concerned.
Most days, like today, when you have "free time," you just lay in your bunk. Trying to daydream and imagine you were back on earth before you irreparably fucked your life up.
Nansen is up on her bunk doing the same thing. She doesn't bother you much as she's quiet, and at the moment, Ettore is hanging off her bunk, literally sniffing at her.
"He's so fucking weird" you think as you watch him, trying not to laugh at the fact that this is what passes for amusement around here.
Nansen clearly gets fed up with him sniffing around her like some deranged dog and finally shoves him away.
The frustration on his face finally does you in, and you start laughing, no not laughing, cackling. He responds quickly with a flash of rage before quickly exiting the room.
"Thanks for that, that was actually fun," you yell over to Nansen before you roll onto your side, still chuckling to yourself.
Time moves slowly here and after what felt like hours Nansen left to go do something or other leaving you in the room alone still laying on your side and staring at the wall as if willing it to bring you some sort of escape from this place.
Your eyelids get heavier and heavier as you stare at the wall before they finally slide shut. Only the slight humming of the ship and distant voices can be heard as you feel yourself slipping into unconsciousness.
Until you hear it. The door closing. You open your eyes but don't move. Normally, it wouldn't be weird to hear someone enter the room. It is a shared space, after all. But no one ever closes the door. It's always left open.
You wait a few minutes while you continue to pretend you're asleep. Maybe one of the girls are douching after a visit with Dibs or puking up their sleepy time pills? Best to pretend you are asleep so they don't try to kick you out of the room.
So you wait. For movement, noise, or anything, but you are met with silence.
What feels like eternity passes with your heart thumping in your chest when finally, you turn around to see Ettore sitting on the floor next to your bunk, some of your long loose hair between his fingers.
You instantly jump back.
"Piss off!" You yell while pushing back with your feet towards the wall.
Ettore grips your ankle and drags you across the bunk and onto the floor.
"Arse!" You howl as your back makes contact with the harsh floor. Ettore stares down at you, a predatory look in his eyes.
"Don't you touch me, you prick!" You snarl at him, slowly rising to your feet.
Ettore doesn't say a word. Just slightly tilts his head to the side as his eyes scan you from top to bottom.
This guy isn't a dog, he's a fucking wolf and he is sorely mistaken if he thinks you're a lamb ripe for the slaughter. Yet you can't help but find him oddly enticing, the piercing blue eyes, his fill chest, and the fact that he keeps his mouth shut is a nice bonus.
As he moves toward you, the decision is made, you tackle him, wrapping your arms around his midsection, bringing him to the ground with a loud smack, and straddle his hips.
"Don't fuckin move you prick!" You hold his hands up by his head and are surprised when you see no anger, only unbridled lust.
And then you feel it. He is rock-hard beneath you, and suddenly, the fact that he isn't fighting you off makes sense.
Against your better judgment and any rational sense, you decide to tease him. It's been so long since you have been touched. Why not indulge for a moment?
"You like being under me, don't ya?" You tease as you rock your hips against him.
"Yea, nice place to be" his words are dripping in lust as he pushes his hips against yours grinding his cock against your cunt.
This boy is desperate.
You chuckle to yourself and grind back against him. His eyes roll back slightly as his jaw drops open.
He's so responsive, so much so that it drives heat straight to your core.
"You want me to apologize? For laughing earlier?" You continue to grind against his cock a sensation he loves, if the look on his face is anything to go by.
"Don't care," He grunts as he moves his hips a bit faster against you and closes his eyes.
"What if I said I would apologize by riding that big old cock you have stuffed into those scrubs huh?"
Ettore's eyes flash open, and he stares up at you, licking his lips.
"Would you like that?" You tease as you again roll your hips against him, but you make the mistake of closing your eyes and when you do Ettore wastes no time breaking out from the grips you have on his wrists and flipping you over onto your back.
You grunt at the impact. "Fuck, thought we were getting somewhere?" Your grumble in pain.
"Collectin my apology." He sniffs up the side of your neck before reaching down to pull off your scrub bottoms.
You want to correct him. Maybe explain. What riding him means, but again, you couldn't be arsed.
You push your scrubs down the rest of the way and bring your legs up around his hips.
It's been far too fucking long since you've been fucked and he's weird yeah but he's also hot and is most likely gonna fuck you silly.
Ettore leans forward to capture your mouth, but you turn your head to the side.
No fucking kissing dipshit.
Luckily, he is quick on the uptake and goes for your neck, seemingly unbothered by the subtle rejection.
He brings his hand to your heat, sliding his digits into your leaking wetness.
"Mmmmm" He groans eyes closed as he hovers above you, his fingers finding your clit and rubbing small precise circles on the nerve.
You close your eyes and lean your head back, your climax getting closer as he continues his ministrations while gently biting at your neck.
You feel your body tense as you climb that hill, wanton moans slipping from your lips as Ettore slides a finger into your canal, his fingertips exploring, looking for the magic spot that makes a girl go wild.
You take a deep breath in and rock your hips against his hand, your labored breaths, and sounds of pleasure gradually growing in volume, and he knows he's found it.
Ettore gets to work rubbing at the spot deep inside you as he pulls back to watch your face contort in pleasure.
It's so primal. Emotions aren't necessary. Just basic physical need and gratification, one of the driving forces behind Ettore's every move.
He quickly removes his finger from you and grips your thighs tightly, pulling you up to him, and plunges himself inside you in one swift thrust.
The only thing he feels.
He audibly groans at the sensation, jaw hanging slack as his pace quickly increases.
He has tunnel vision. He wants that sensation and needs that sensation, and there is not a thing in heaven, on earth, or this damn ship that is going to stop him now.
In just moments, his pace is punishing the hard smack of his hips against your skin and the delicious mixture of pleasure and pain have you reeling.
"Fuck!" You bite your lower lip nearly breaking the skin as he bullies your insides, hitting all the right spots with each violent thrust.
He watches himself entering you memorized be each movement. He is practically drooling seeing your fluids building up on the base of his cock. Dampening the short blonde curls that grow there.
He can't help but think to himself how much better it is when they want it.
He brings his thumb to your clit working the nub in small circles wanting that clench he knows you can give him.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!" Your eyes fly back open as you hit your peak temporarily going deaf, body numb to all feeling other than the overwhelming pleasure.
Ettore smiles, not a happy smile, more of a victory smile. It's time to chase his peak, to take what he wants needs.
As you begin to float back down from your high, Ettore is climbing his. Every thought in him consists of reaching that goal. That euphoria.
His grunting grows louder, and his legs begin to shake as he pushes his body to its limit, determined to have the most intense experience he can create.
"If you ever want to do this again, you'll pull out." You don't know if he will heed your warning. He doesn't care about you. Why should he? You do hope that his needs in the future will outweigh his wants right now, but only time will tell.
He says nothing, his eyes closed as he groans loudly, you feel him stiffen, and just as you think he is going to ignore your warning, he pulls out shooting his spend onto your quivering thighs.
You both stay put a moment before you reach into your laundry and snatch up a shirt that's meant for washing, wiping yourself down.
Ettore watches you intently before finally opening his mouth. You see him debate with himself whether or not he should say whatever it is he is planning on saying.
You watch the gears move in his head moderately, amused as you start to put your bottoms back on.
"Good grief, just say it." You can't help but lose your patience. He is back to being the weird, staring guy, and it's irritating.
"Again?" He finally mutters.
You chuckle as you realize he is confirming that this is going to happen again.
"Sure" you shrug "Need something to do on this fucking ship"
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15 questions for 15 friends
Tagged by @elveny and @johaerys-writes -- thank you, my loves!
ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My mom. Apparently my dad really wanted to name me after my mom and she was like "ugh really fine" LOL. My dad is also named after his dad, who was named after his dad... REAL ORIGINAL. This is going to sound like a total humblebrag, but my mom and I are both published academic authors, so we have to use our middle initials to distinguish who published what 🙃
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Probably in therapy last Thursday LOL. Though I got a little prickly-eyed earlier this week watching the episode of ATLA where Zuko and Aang go on their lifechanging field trip to the Sun Warriors' secret village 😂❤
DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Nope! Childless by choice.
WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED? I played T-ball when I was 5 or 6 (hated it, cried so much that my parents pulled me out LMAO) and I was on the volleyball team in Grade 6. I'm left-handed and I had a habit of serving into the wall, unfortunately, and the habit got worse when I was nervous. During one game, they took pity on me so much that they paused the game until I got the ball over the net. I was fucking humiliated and have never played a team sport since then. 🤣💀 Re: other physical activities, I like dancing! I've taken a ton of different kinds of dance classes including swing, salsa, bellydancing, and Bollywood dancing, and loved all of them!
DO YOU USE SARCASM? No. Me? Never. 🙃🤣 Forreal though yes. All the time.
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Uh...! I don't know if there's any one specific thing? I usually take in an "overall impression" of appearance. Vague, but that's all I've got. If the question was "what's the first thing you notice in people you're attracted to", that might be a different story 🤣
WHAT'S YOUR EYE COLOUR? Brown.
SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? I am going to copy Johaerys's answer and say it doesn't matter to me, as long as the story was good. But also, who says scary movies/horror media can't have happy endings?? 🤣Haunting of Hill House, anyone? (Bittersweet, maybe, but it counts as happy to me!)
ANY TALENTS? Would it be wretched if I said I feel like writing might be a talent? Whatever, I'm saying it. 🤣😅
WHERE WERE YOU BORN? In a hospital in the same city where I currently live! Which I will chose not to reveal openly! 🤣
WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES? Writing! It takes up a solid 75-90% of my free time. Also gaming (which I might count into the writing time since it often becomes Research™ for the writing 🤣). I also enjoy baking and cooking, though I don't know that I'd count those as hobbies since they're necessary ADLs?
DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? A cat named Meeko. She is my daemon. We can never be apart when I am home. Case in point, a photo taken in real-time while completing this quiz:
HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5'3".
FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? Uhhh... what level of school are we talking here? In undergrad, I took an incredible linguistics/history course about writing systems, and that was probably my favourite class ever. I took a course during undergrad about different schools of psychotherapy that was pretty damned influential too.
DREAM JOB? I also loved Johaerys's answer here: "I don't think there's any sort of job anyone could do in this capitalist hellscape we're all currently living in that would be enjoyable enough to make up for, well... living in a capitalist hellscape." I'm lucky enough to work in the public healthcare system so I'm pretty safe from the worst of capitalism, I guess, though my job (speech-language pathologist) is one I chose more for practicality (certainty of employment) than because I was really passionate about it. If I could do something else and not have to worry about money, I would either want to be a fiction editor, or a sex therapist.
Tagging forward to @ranaspkillnarieth @iamcayc @heroofshield @fantasy-girl974 @hellas-himself @midnightacrobat @alyssalenko @vorchagirl @elinorbard @stuffforthestash @mwasaw @lordofthenerds97 @y0ureviltwin @ladyofthelake91 @perhapsrampancy @cha-mij and genuinely, anyone else who wants to share!!! Tag me so I can spy on your life! 🤣❤
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no but imagine like a whole backrooms like scenario and it's like a whole ass horror game scene- but the entity that has been following you is lonely has actually been waiting for the moment you basically 'noclipped' there. There isn't an escape because they plan on keeping you there (unlike the many others who ended up appearing on their level)
tw - imprisonment, forced codependence, obsessive behavior, mentions of death/violence, slight generalized monster fucking.
i mean, they're just as trapped as you are. they might not be exactly the same as you (no, no, they've been here far too long for that), but they can't leave either, and when they find you, lost and confused and so obviously helpless, they can't help but get a little attached - like a child might if they find a stray puppy whining in an alleyway. they do their best to appear friendly, to smile, to speak softly, but it really isn't necessary, you're as desperate for help as they are for company. it doesn't take any time at all for you to ask if you can stay with them, if you two can try to survive this dim, dark, endless hellscape together. of course, they're more than happy to let you stick around. it's not like they have many other options here, anyway.
and you're so nice to them, too, so much more understanding than the last few people they've stumbled onto. you don't blame them, or insist that there has to be a way out, or ask any questions when they ask you to stay at the little encampment they've set up to take care of... things you shouldn't have to deal with, not so early on, not when you're still so full of life and love and warmth, more warmth than they've felt in a long, long time. you're so sweet. you don't even say anything when they start to relax, when they fail to keep the light in their eyes as bright as it should be or forget which color their hair was the day before, just because they have so much more to think about now that you're by their side. you've never tried to run, but you take their warnings so well, and they've never had to explain what they mean when they tell you that they just wouldn't know what to do if you ever left them to rot here, that they just wouldn't be human any longer if you ever tried to abandon them. you can go years without seeing another person here, and there's nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing to look forward to. they wouldn't have anything, if you ever tried to run away. there wouldn't be anything, if they had to get rid of you too. they wouldn't survive. there wouldn't be anything of them left.
but, they don't have to worry about that, right? because you're not going to run. because nothing's going to happen to you.
because they're never going to be alone again.
#i usually don't ramble in the tags BUT#i'm making an exception just to voice how passionate i am about the backrooms as a horror concept#and how many fucking IDEAS i have for it#like i'm never going to make a visual novel#but if i do#it'd 100% be backroom themed#that or this other idea i have but that's a lot harder to explain#okay okay#yandere#yandere x reader#yandere imagines#yandere prompts#yandere theory#general
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Personally, I think Yung gets very upset when he sees how his boyfriend and cousin don't get along. Everyone needs his attention, then let them negotiate and try to make peace for him (to be friends)
Oh, he absolutely does. The first time Bill witnessed a big shootout at the mansion was also when he first learned that Venuz had a weakness. It scared the absolute hell out of him, and he needed a whole lot of comforting when it was all said and done.
In all the chaos, Venuz forgot that Cuz always hides during gunfights until he gets the signal from his big cousin that it's safe. It was only when he woke up in the middle of that night when he realized his mistake.
"I'm sorry, Cuz. I fucked up. I should'a--"
"You were with Bill, right?"
Venuz's heart sunk to the scarlet carpet beneath their feet. His silence spoke volumes, and Cuz sighed.
"It's cool, Vee. You two seem happy together n' I can take care of myself, y'know? I jus' wish you checked up on me is all, lemme know you were okay."
Needless to say, this impacted him a lot. It was his job to take care of Cuz, and he failed him. He left him scared and alone because he was too focused on his boyfriend. He felt like such an idiot!
Of course, this wasn't Bill's fault, but a teeny, tiny part of Venuz couldn't help but be reminded of his lover's bad reputation as a master manipulator.
He loved Bill, and was not going to let anything hurt him, but he also knew he couldn't entirely trust him. It was a difficult position to be in.
Venuz had always believed in the philosophy (or, as he called it, "gangsta code") that one should stay out of the business of others, especially the dirty business. That kind of breach in privacy was what assholes like the cops did, invading privacy, judging people by arbitrary sets of rules instead of paying heed to the enormous possible spectrum of grey areas.
But, this was different. Bill wasn't just some street criminal. He had been around for trillions of years, his name was whispered throughout the recesses of the multiverse like a curse. If he was going to be in his life, there were things Venuz needed to know for sure, things that Bill would certainly not tell him.
It wasn't just him at stake, but reality itself, and so, for the first time in decades, Venuz made the decision to utilize his powers of omnipotence.
...
According to the last trillion years, Bill Cipher was a cold, calculating, manipulative, amoral, and cruel creature, with no regard for anything but his own desires. He did not feel love, he did not know mercy, and he cared for no one.
Venuz wasn't quite sure what to think of it all.
Bill had tricked men much smarter than Venuz before. There was no good reason to trust a single thing he said. But…what if he really was telling the truth this time? What if Bill had finally found someone he could open up to? Someone who would understand him, and accept him for who he was?
Venuz took a long, deep breath, trying to clear his head. This was a difficult decision. And yet, he felt he had truly opened his heart to Bill, and so it was a necessary one. The smart thing to do would be to destroy Bill right now. He would be doing the multiverse a favor, would likely be hailed a hero for it, and would be able to continue his life without any worries.
But, at the same time, he really, genuinely felt something for the abominable demon. If he had been telling the truth, that he had grown up in a two-dimensional hellscape, that he had lost his only family when he was only a kid and had spent the past two trillion years acting out to distract himself from the deep agony he felt…that Venuz was the only other being in the multiverse to know that truth…
Well, then maybe he should give Bill what nobody else ever did: a chance.
Venuz had always been a rebel, a risk-taker. This may end up being the most dire gamble he ever took, but the thought was somewhat exhilarating. As long as he just never allowed Bill his powers, he was safe enough. If Bill turned out to be lying, Venuz could snap his fingers and end his existence with nothing but a thought.
It would be okay. He would give Bill that chance.
He turned over to gaze at his sleeping lover. Bill looked so peaceful, so innocent. It was hard to believe that something so beautiful could possibly have been the cause of so much pain and suffering. He reached out and stroked his face with the back of his hand. He was so perfectly warm and smooth. He was perfect.
"I love you." Venuz whispered to him. "I believe you mean it when y'say you do, too."
~ Mod Emily 🦇
#ask box#love triangles au#mod emily#yung venuz#yung cuz#nuclear throne#yungbill#bill cipher#gravity falls#gun godz#art#minty's art#fic#all excerpts from a draft of a fic! sorry they're not fantastic lol it's in beta still#but they fit too well to exclude#sorry anon i think you probably wanted something funnier with bill and cuz trying to get along but it Got Real LOL
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I think for this black history month (Since this is the first time I've ever posted art super consistently like this), I'm going to post a black character of mine a day and give a bit of background on them.
This is probably something someone has already thought of and I'm simply just ignorant to it. If this does already exist, please let me know!
It's just that I'm sick of always hearing people tell bipoc people to "make their own characters" when we already have. They just don't get any attention on these algorithmic hellscapes. Besides, black fanart for characters are usually meant to be indulgent. Just to see these characters we've loved for so long just look like us? It's incredibly cathartic as a group of people whose representation for the longest time was always reduced to "angry black persons", "the mammy/ black best friend", "the conveniently lighter complexioned love interest", etc. The list goes on. Of course, this is changing slowly but surely, but my point still stands. That and people just enjoy being dense as fuck on purpose.
So that's what I'm going to do. A character of mine a day with the tag #makeyourowncharacters under every single one of them.
If this ever gets seen, I encourage anyone who has a black character to do the same!!
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I agree on your post about fandom with Leon. I like him but the way fandom treats him and acts if he's the only character that has gone thru the most hell, it makes me not want to see him in any further content for awhile. Don't me get started on the shipping aspect of him whether it's self-shipping or his relationships with other characters.
I'd really love it if people who ship leon with themselves or reader or whatever would choose TWO ways to tag it as a group so I can block it en masse and not see their boring ass fantasies generated from character ai play out the same way 500x a day no matter how many variants of the tag I block.
Every time I think it might be a character analysis it's slapped with "He Wouldn't Fucking Say That" but for every sentence, and I get to decide whether I'm going to block or scroll faster.
Shipping aside(because woooo do aeon, cleon, and jilleon shippers love showing their misogyny as much as people who ship leon with other boring white men), seeing people baby him incessantly as if he's not a grown ass man is a different level of fury. Yes, his job fucking sucks. Yes, he was suckered into it. He's not special actually. How many people have the option to not work a shitty job for an uncomfortable period of time in their lives without suffering immediate financial consequences? I'll tell you who. Rich people. Who I don't respect anyways. You know who else has a shitty job? Literally the entire recurring cast of characters we see, majority of whom are women.
You know what usually makes a job shittier? Not having a dick. I cannot fucking imagine the hell that Jill, as much of a paragon in her field as Chris is, has to experience from the men higher ups questioning every single fucking decision she makes on top of dealing with bioweapon bullshit. Her only reprieve? Probably Chris or Barry stepping in for her to shut them up, and if not that, she can get some of that anger out through the gorey, visceral violence some people dream of having as an outlet when dealing with shitty customers in retail.
And don't even get me fucking started on Rebecca and Claire who don't have the mercy of that much of a reprieve! Both of them have to deal with politicians from multiple countries, majority men, also questioning and second guessing their every plan while they try to provide life-saving medicine and resources to people who need them. You know what Leon has to hear from politicians? Arrest or kill this guy and go home. Escort this person and go home. They dont' question his competency. I know for a fucking fact Claire and Rebecca get the third degree if they so much as even suggest a faster way to supply necessary footwork in order to rebuild a neighborhood or save lives, meanwhile Leon goes home and does, uh, fucking nothing until he's called onto the next job.
But oooohh ooohh woobie baby pookie puppy daddy waawaa googoo gaga leon kennedy has a dwinking pwoblem. He's soooo babygirl and needs to be cuddled and protected and loved because his job is sooooooo stressful, and he's a victim.
You know who's a fucking victim in this situation post RE2? Sherry goddamn Birkin who apparently has zero fucking contact with Leon for 15 whole years after the government snatched them. YOU KNOW? THE GUY WHO SAID HE'D KEEP AN EYE ON HER FOR CLAIRE. THAT ONE. Did I mention she is a sudden orphan after watching her mom die in front of her? Oh, and her upbringing can be considered questionable at best due to RE6 being a genuine shit show. Oh and she also let doctors experiment on her body in order to A)Fuck around with the G-Virus, and B) figure out cures and vaccines, WHICH MOST OF WERE MADE BY REBECCA ANYWAY WITHOUT HUMAN EXPERIMENTATION? So like!!!! If I want to separate it further by saying who has the worst shitty government job dealing with Umbrella after it's shut down, it still isn't fucking Leon! Can you imagine the hellscape assignments they send Sherry into with her super healing ability??????? I know they're worse because she can survive egregious injury without them using money to provide medical supplies! And you know governments everywhere love cutting corners when it comes to money.
But Leon is blonde ONCE, in ONE GAME, a good game yes but is apparently so iconic his pain magically takes precedent as the worst above everyone else's. And I hate that so fucking much because even Leon doesn't think this about himself! Leon literally doesn't think he has it the worst out of everyone! He just kinda wants to die sometimes which is not the same thing! Yet, the unfortunate amount of fans with little to no media literacy believe otherwise.
#resident evil#re#leon kennedy#jill valentine#rebecca chambers#claire redfield#sherry birkin#anonymous#heh nothing personal kid#re analysis
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there's a person on tiktok who people find "cringe" for some reason. he's an autistic trans man who makes content for trans people, give them advice, support, love, and all around just very wholesome videos. literally the worst thing about them is that he's a bit excitable. he's literally just a guy making fun little videos.
and for some reason, people fucking hate him. they've received so many death threats and hate comments that they had to turn off comments on their videos. what was supposed to be a safe space for trans people turned into a fucking transphobic hellscape, so they had to get rid of all comments entirely.
it's not just homophobic and transphobic idiots doing this. other gay people are making stitches of them taking down their pride flags or saying "I get why people are homophobic now" and basically saying "homophobia and transphobia is okay when it's directed at people I think are cringe"
and those videos are filled with the most disgusting vile putrid horrific comments I've ever seen they're calling the original guy a pedophile and groomer and threatening to kill them. and the people who make the stitches just let those comments stay up? so you're gay, but you're letting violent homophobic shits stay in your comments and spread their idiot fungus all over your profile... just because you find one queer person mildly annoying?
what happened to the sense of community? what happened to "you mess with one of us, you mess with all of us"? why is the queer community so divided these days? I know why. it's homophobes who lie to you and say that "homophobia isn't caused by homophobic people, it's caused by the 'bad' LGBT people" and you fucking believe them. they are literally pinning the LGBTQ+ community against itself. and you're stupid enough to fall for it.
what do you think will happen after they kill all the "cringe" queer people? do you think they'll stop? do you think all the homophobia will leave after they've gotten rid of all the people you find mildly annoying online? no! you fucking idiot! they'll go after you. they'll keep killing queer people until all of use are dead. you're fucking braindead if you think they'll go "omg thanks for making that video on tiktok where you took down your pride flag when a trans man made a video about his haircut. as a reward, you'll be one of 6 queer people we won't kill in the queer genocide". no. they don't fucking care. be as homophobic and transphobic to other queer people as much as you want, they don't care. you're just doing their job for them. and your reward will be the same thing they want for all other queer people. they don't care. bigots do not care about you, and never will. no matter how nice you are to them. no matter how much you suck their boots. no matter how many hate comments you let fester on your page. no matter how many trans people you say are "cringe". in the end, you and the 'cringe trans guy' are the same to them. they see you both as a subhuman.
what side are you on? the side of community, fighting back against your oppressors, dismantling hate and bigotry, and letting future generations live in peace without fear of being killed for who they are? or are you on the side of people who want to kill you?
think about that next time you make a stupid fucking tiktok video about a guy literally just being happy and sharing his happiness with the world. I don't care how much you think he's "cringe". the hate you post online about him is no different from the hate people post online about you. why would you subject a member of your community, a member of your family, to even more hate and threats and violence?
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Fanfic Writer Questions
thanks for the tag @optiwashere!
If you're reading this, consider yourself tagged! But here is one more for the road: @collegeoflore
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
Apparently I have 20? That's news to me lol. I would have guessed like 10 to 12. I've used this AO3 account for a while, I guess.
2. What's your total AO3 word count?
62,119 words, according to the statistics.
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Currently, only Baldur's Gate 3. Before that I was writing lightcanon for League of Legends.
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
1. And They Were Roommates
2. To Muzzle a Gith
3. Misfit and Nomad
4. I Thought About You
5. Workouts in a Winter Hellscape
Damn. Some of these are callbacks.. Not too surprised, though. These either have popular ships or popular fandoms. LoL lightcanon in 1, 3, and 4 make sense to me, even if I'm embarrassed by the writing in them. Continually shocked by To Muzzle a Gith. I guess Shadowzel is that popular? I don't know. I have so little desire to write for them again and the writing in it makes me cringe, tbh. Same with #5 LMAO. You couldn't pay me enough to reread the fics I wrote in highschool.
5. Do you respond to comments?
Yes, always! Well. If someone comments on something really old I might not? But only because im scared they'll ask me to update it lmao. But in general, yes! I love talking and hearing what people liked!
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
If I'm including the 20 QOTD Challenge fic (and i am because this is my post), I'd have to give it to Nerves, ch19 of that challenge. I mean, its a flashback scene about killing a childhood friend (and maybe lover) for a crumb of an uncaring goddess' attention.
It's pretty much the only piece of angst I've written that doesn't have some overtone of hope to it. I'm hoping to work it into my act 1 rewrite because I like it so much.
7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
To me, its Savoring Seconds from the challenge. It's bittersweet but after everything those two have been through... It's the happiest I can envision them ever being. Maybe that's just my bias tho :P
8. Do you get hate on fics?
No? Do most people get hate on fics? I haven't had anything of the sort. Hard to imagine what that would even be like..
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Yes, I do. Outside of To Muzzle a Gith, I think I write pretty tame stuff? More emotional than anything.
10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?
A Common Song was really the only crossover, but even then.. it was really just a League of Legends fic with a cyberpunk2077 au. It had some good ideas tho.. maybe I'll return to it some day.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I've noticed?
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Not really. I've helped with brainstorming before but that's really all.
14. What's your all time favorite ship?
This.. is tough. I change fandoms too often for something like this 😭 If I had to pick a bg3 ship... Laz/Karlach. Is it cheating to say my OC ship? Probably. But fuck you, its MY post. I've cried multiple times on the bus just thinking about these two, no one else had quite the strangle hold on me. (I was thinking abt Karlach's funeral btw).
15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
A Common Song. I was cooking on some of those ideas but I was FAR too ambitious lmao
16. What are your writing strengths?
I'm... Not totally sure, to be honest. Its hard to read your own stuff and see what's uniquely strong. If you have any thoughts, please let me know!
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
I don't think my writing has much rhythm to it. I'd like to work on that. Also my grammar is shoddy at best. English classes were always my lowest grades :,)
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
For fantasy languages I think it's fun! It can add a lot of depth and creates a lot of insight to a characters culture. Dabbling with Drowic for example was a lot of fun.
But like, a real language? Naw. I don't know any other languages so unless it was a phrase I knew a character said in canon.. I wouldn't want to risk a shoddy google translate.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Uh. It was either Invader Zim, Mass Effect, or SAO? I'm not totally sure. This would have predated AO3, when I was in middle school or something. I've tried to find those fics but I think they're genuinely lost.
Probably for the best lol.
20. Favorite fic you've written?
Currently, it is Snowfall. Once I post it, I think it'll be the act 1 rewrite.
#fanfic writer q#tag game#doing this on my phone was a HUGE pain in the ass#i might go back and hyperlink the fics later if i remember
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I'll put this below a cut cause its aimed at particular grievance and is long:
@scottsumrners Since I'm not one to veer away from going at know-nothing up-own-ass chucklefuck bitches like yourself: I need nor want Biden to fuck me, I just need him to:
not remove the women's rights that are left
not throw away LGBT+ rights and criminalize being LGBT+
not turn this country into an authoritarian military enforced hellscape
not quote Hitler (like orange bastard on the opposite side
maintain a status quo as opposed to falling into a fascist authoritarian regime
Oh and little ignorant bitch, being center-left is not "right-wing cuck"; its called having ones head in reality and not up ones own ass in some delusional idiotic view on things. Like realizing that a President nor government body is capable of waving a magic pen to make real far left shit. Universal healthcare/single-payer? Not going to happen so long as there's a right-wing and independent actors that stand against it; because a President doesn't get a magic wand to wave to make it real. Student loan forgiveness? Shut down by the right. Voting rights bill? Oh look another thing that'd require more dems to vote for it. On and on in this vein, where your dipshit type fail to grasp how systems work. Not even diving into you actually sabotaging the left and all of its causes, because you serve as the perfect example of far leftist types. The type that makes sane reasonable ones like myself's jobs that much harder, while we're trying to make steady smaller advancements that actually do shit; your moronic type bitches and whines over that not being far enough. An easy example to go to is how universal healthcare/single-payer isn't going to happen by one wave of a magic pen, cause the right exists to block it and a President isn't supposed to be an authoritarian supreme power forcing through things. However one can gradually elect more people that are for it and steadily build it up till finally being able to have it actually pass. But ones like you are incapable of grasping that reality thinking the dems just choose not to pursue it cause its not their fancy; rather than the system not allowing it. I may despise the Trump right-wing, but I'll give them credit in actually seeding a lot of shit over decades of time that allowed them to have such a massive upheaval that set the clock back in recent times. Its something far leftists should consider cause as bad as the right version was is as much potential beneficial good as a left version could be if they'd drop the damn purity tests.
Also ftr a 3rd party option isn't a damn thing, since there's not a chance in hell they'll actually get enough votes from the EC to actually win anything. They're a wasted vote, which in this upcoming case is a pro-Trump vote by indirect consequence. Something you'd think your dumbass type would've learned from 2016.
So take your far-left head-up-your-own-ass ignorant/naive bullshit and shove it right up next to where your head is associated. Oh and ftr "him", are you pushing a gender onto me? Cause that'd be a very right-winger thing to do. For most people I don't really give a shit as I go by all pronouns, but when a self-righteous little prick decides to try to step into my territory I'll call that shit out. Now do crawl your sorry pathetic shitbag ass back to whatever cesspit you call home. The only thing you've shown here that I've already said in the past is that far-left and right are just mirrors of each other, using the exact same tactics and attacks towards anyone not getting in lockstep with you. I was going to ignore the other post cause your little bitch ass pal ran their mouth off without having a clue about what they were talking about (or even having the comprehension skills to grasp that the "supporting Trump" part of my post had nothing to do with RWBY side), but then you did a 2nd post so I shifted instead to a fuck you.
Oh and a last note if your sorry ignorant ass thinks that the orange bastard is going to be better in regards to Gaza, then I'll metaphorically laugh my goddamn ass off at your idiocy.
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I've been ruminating on fandom lately. Criticizing fandom at all will get you barraged by very defensive fans who will accuse you of hating fun, not understanding creative expression, and being an art snob, and I am about to go a LOT harder than most of the posts I've been exposed to, so in an attempt to preemptively curb that indignance: I like fandom. I have written fanfics, and theory posts, and meta, and I've reblogged countless fanart. A lot of what I engage with or have made meets the standards I'm about to critique, and I understand completely that for many, fandom is a hobby. People would like to escape from the struggles in their lives. They find comfort in the media they love, so they immerse themselves it. It can be hard to make anything in this capitalist hellscape, so if you've achieved something at all, it's a miracle. I get it. I really do. I'm not an art snob; I think it's fine if things aren't that deep, and they're primarily wish-fulfillment. I have some grievances with the critics too, and they'll come up. This post isn't about you specifically; it's bigger. Fandom content suffers a lack of substance because of superficial engagement with the source material.
Many fandom critical posts on this website bring up shipping culture as the reason everything is samey and uninteresting, often referencing ao3 in specific. I sympathize with these posts, I also find shipping prominence can be fairly tedious when you want to read ANYTHING else, but why is it when complain about fandom, we point the finger at fic? Why do we use shorthands like "he would not fucking say that," and drop ao3 tagging conventions, and mention fanfic websites? Have y'all LOOKED at the fan art you reblog? A lot of it is just posing and kissing. If you wanted to analyze it for any further meaning, I don't think you'd get very far. I am not positioning fanfiction as superior; as everyone points out, a lot of it is repetitive and derivative, but let's not pretend that this is a fanfic exclusive issue. We can take it further out! Look at the absolute state of meta. Most analysis is done in service of promoting a headcanon or a ship if it isn't just a theory wildly speculating an explanation for an unresolved or ambiguous plot point. We're gonna include those guys who make power scaling rankings, filling out the wiki, etc too. They're fans! Everyone agrees those people aren't engaging with the text in a deeper way, but that doesn't make them NOT fans. It is the way their appreciation manifests the clearest! We're all fans; we are doing the same thing in just a different form.
Most of what gets popularized I all these spaces is based on a strictly literal understanding of the work; it's about plot events and how characters relate to it and one another, and the meaning people get out of it—from shipping to theorizing to memes to tierlists—never goes beyond that level. If people don't know how to look for themes, to interpret symbolism and examine the construction of a work to see how it contributes to how the whole is operating to affect them, because their education on how to do it sucked shit, then obviously they won't. But I don't think that's enough to explain the heart of the problem.
Critics will bring up the fandom wash cycle, an analogy for how way fandom will spend more time engaged with itself than the source material, and perpetuate its own tropes and fixations ad nauseum. This is true in any fanspace you can spend your time in, including those "who would win" bros. I hear this, and I think of social media, the place most of fandom lives now. People making original work often talk about how their stuff never gets any attention compared to fandom stuff; the biggest fandoms are sprawling franchises with corporate entities behind them. Social media algorithms promote what is already popular, what will generate the most clicks, so you stay online and make their corporate overlords more money. It is the depth of human experience streamlined into easily digestible chunks.
You're spent because life is hard and the world sucks and the only relief you can find is in the media you love. You don't want to expend a lot of energy today, so you'll consume or create ship centered content, or fan theories, or memes and gifs. You'll wonder who would win in a fight. Even without social media, people feed their own algorithms, because the system is designed to encourage it. Fandom is part of a larger whole.
If fandom will ever be more than what it is, you have to be willing to put in the work to fix it. Criticism won't cut it. As the saying goes, be the change you want to see in the world. Create what you want to see, use what you make to teach what might be lacking, seek out more of the things that look like what you want fandom to be (I assure you it exists), not just what you already know. Fandom is perpetuated by fans. Being a fan doesn't make you predisposed to creating cyclical, watered-down content. Every fan has a rich internal life with a whole host of experiences that should inform both how they make their works and how they read it to begin with, because they're people.
People are far too diverse to be defined by an algorithm; maybe with enough effort, we can write a new one.
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Snowy hellscape? Snowy hellscape.
We are not dressed warmly enough for this. Good thing we got all that cold weather practice back at Zenith Academy. Nobody talks about it but the sky is very cold all the time. It's a miserable place to live.
We aren't burning the books yet, but we've been here five minutes and I already hate this place.
Oh my god, they have ice DJs. I take it back. This place is amazing. I renounce all other places. What do you even call a--
Rude.
Now I can cross "used ice to ward away the cold" off my list of life experiences that I never wanted to have in the first fucking place.
Still aren't burning the books but I am this close.
No. Absolutely not. I am too cold and pissy right now to deal with you jackfucks.
So help me, I will skin you for warmth.
...honestly, that was barely even a fight. We've had random encounters with more punch than you two. Zale and I only had to pop a single Mending Light.
When you see One and Three, tell them I said, "Hey, at least you're not these clowns. Silver medal's better than bronze."
Alright, it's real enough. Archivist's books are safe from my wrath.
I am going to be the greatest menace to sleep schedules in history. Hmm, what kind of lighting would I like for our journey today?
Maybe we can use this to fulfill our prophecies properly, since we're apparently too shitty to do it ourselves. To be fair, using tool assistance to compensate for our shortcomings is what makes us human.
Hmm... if we can control the day/night cycle freely now, can we use this to fabricate an eclipse when needed? I was thinking about that before with the time rune things but now we don't even need the runes.
Son of a bitch! If you'd told us that from the beginning, we could have just turned around, gone straight to the Fleshmancer's castle, and died horribly.
Well played, old man.
Well, credit where it's due; The compensation for this one was pretty cool. So why not. Maybe we can make a deal.
Yeah, I saw him when I was faffing about earlier. Is there more to him or is he just a head?
Are you the guy that Garl's supposed to demand a Flask of Borrowed Time from? Because this sounds pretty Flask of Borrowed Time adjacent.
Don't forget about that, Garl. My prophecies and Zale's have been trash, but you get the best prophecies.
Wait, you can do that? Could you just. Like. Reverse time to the night of the Eclipse and then we jump in and stop Erlina and Brugaves before they know what hit 'em?
If you can control time then our best option for dealing with Mesa Island is to prevent the Dweller of Strife from ever waking up to begin with.
XD
"I have no idea where Aephorul put my artifact but he's a predictable little shit so it's going to be there."
Well. Shit. I have a feeling we're about to find out if we can fabricate eclipses or not.
I guess we really wouldn't have been done once the Dweller of Woe was dead. Strange. If a Dweller's here, I wonder why it's not. Like. Doing anything.
I'm feeling a lot better about our chances against the Dweller of Strife than I was five minutes ago.
Here are your books back. I'm sorry I threatened to burn them.
It's called Torment Peak because the Dweller of fucking Torment lives there. Nobody knows there's a Dweller there because the place fucks with your head so bad that the Docarri, having set up shop on the island, discourage people from visiting.
There could be hidden Dwellers anyplace where common knowledge says we don't go there ever.
Okay, point to Erlina and Bugraves. We actually wouldn't have been finished after the Dweller of Woe was killed.
But also five points deducted because. What. People are just supposed to live like this? What the Dweller of Woe was doing to that island isn't any less unfathomably horrifying just because more Dwellers exist. If anything it's moreso. How long until the Dweller of Torment beefs up enough to do the same shit to the Docarri?
Oh, yes please. I could chug some "Fuck Outta My Head" Juice. We had a bad experience with exactly this kinda shit on Wraith Island and I don't want that ever happening again.
#sea of stars#drake plays sea of stars#glacial peak is very cold#but hosts a surprisingly rich culture all the same
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If you were the writer for Fate S3, what would you do with it? (I'm super intrigued)
You know Brian, you're not the first ask I get about this and I'll be real that I've tried sitting down and working on it many times, but I inevitably grow bored, because I already wrote various different fics covering the points I'd want addressed.
A couple things I'd for sure want would be the expansion of the world. I think we end s2 with most of the characters in a pretty bad place, but also with their own plot.
(Btw, a lot of the ideas here are a product of me and Mo spiraling, so credit where credit is due, this is as much hers as is mine @gossipqueen2000 )
So my ideal season 3 isn't in Alfea.
Secondly I wrote all of how I'd see Bloom in the Realm of Darkness in the HEX fic (A Merry Fucking Life), but that fic is heavy in the introspection, which I know wouldn't be that interesting to be watched, so I'd add more threats inside the Realm of Darkness and mysteries too. Not only Bloom's memory is slowly slipping between her fingers and she has to come to terms with the fact that Marion is not her friend and that she already has parents, but she also has to realize that she killed herself at the end of the season 2 and deal with the monsters that are out to get in the Realm of Darkness.
One idea I toyed with when writing AMFL was that the tower would be a safe haven in a hellscape. So the first time Bloom attempts to escape it, she's chased by this sand-shadow creatures, which are manifestations of hers and Marion's fears. The only safe place is the tower, but that in turn has Marion inside it, a glimpse into the future of what she's going to become if she doesn't leave fast: a relic locked in a tower, with no memories of her loved ones or herself.
Bloom aside, the second thing I'd be *dead set* on wanting in season 3 is Burned Ones. They were my favorite thing in s1 and I think it simply makes sense they'd be attracted back now that the Dragon Flame is gone. We can imply they were searching for her for years, thousands of years in the Otherworld, then baby Bloom was unlocked from stasis and taken to the First World, so they stopped attacking people, since they could sense she was no longer in this world. Then she comes back to the Otherworld in s1ep1 and they come back. Season 2 we don't see them as much because they are regrouping after Bloom demolished them in the finale of s1, also Rosalind's specialists are just fucking better.
"But Jo, she's no longer in the Otheworld, so if they're attracted by Bloom, by this logic they shouldn't be in season 3!"
YES BUT- The Dragon Flame and the Shadow Guy are essentially the same thing.
The presence of the Shadow Guy who escapes at the finale of s2 is enough to bring forward the Burned Ones. To them, they're essentially the same thing. Same power.
Anyway and anyhow, now we have B.Os again, hurrah. Then, I'd have the characters divided. I'd put Sky, Saul, Dane, Kat, Riven and Musa in the same package [The Specialists] and have them deal with the Burned Ones.
Sky is a wreck, he's reckless and no one wants to be his partner. Riven is the only one putting up with him, but that's going to cost him too. Dane and Musa actually build a friendship. Musa refuses to use her powers, she's deadset she wants to be a specialist. This has to cost her too.
I've written it before, but I think Musa should get attacked by a B.O, an attack she could've prevented, if she had used her magic. Musa's refusal to grow and avoidance is one of the things about her character that bothers me the most, so if she won't learn via love... Then she'll learn via pain. You don't get to avoid a scar going across your face, sorry. I also just really like scars. + mini arc where she gets to go home and we see more of her father and her mom, or the space she left with her death.
(for the sake of makeup department the scar would eventually fade to a red line on the side of her face, but FIRST we need this big thing that is a testament of how much she's failing herself by avoiding half of her nature).
Riven needs a plot of his own and I guess is a little too late to tackle the gigantic glaring "Internalized homophobia" thing he's got going on. That was a season 2 issue that they did a fucking shitty job on. Time to tackle his self esteem and what future he sees for himself. If Sky already decided he'll die by the end of the season, Riven is the one who realized he'll have to live and now, for the first time, is being forced to make all this mature decisions and pick a future he's not even sure he's ready for. + the weight his own family is putting on him. Let's finally give a face to those gigantic daddy issues we all have sensed since s1.
Talking about gigantic daddy issues... Saul would be headmaster, but he's way in over his head. Not only he had trauma to get past from jail, but he's got a suicidal angry son in his hands, B.Os on the loose that he needs to send his own students to hunt and he has to deal with the loneliness he finds himself on. All of his relationships have been severed, be it by choice (Ben, Sebastian), be it by death (Farah, even Andreas). This man is incredibly tired and alone... Then we give him the new headmistress for the fairies, after ep 2 or 3. Saul cannot lead the fairies, it's obvious the Queen would appoint someone to the position, but he's not ready to allow this stranger into his school, near the kids he's meant to protect, especially not after going through Rosalind all over again. Saul vs Griselda showdown.
That's the "Alfea" people, but they're hardly at Alfea most of the time. They're in the surrounding area, Blackbridge and region to hunt the B.Os.
Meanwhile, Terra and Flora pack their bags to go get Sam and Ben back from Malacoy Academy. Malacoy has been their "enemy" school since always, but there's a difference between petty rivalry and whatever is happening there now.
Beatrix crawled out of her grave once the Shadow Guy loomed over it ominously at the finale and she went in search of her two sisters, Darcy and Isobel, only to find that they were in Malacoy. Naturally, she enrolls and tries, once again, to pull the same thing she did in season 1. Except this Beatrix is not the same from before, now she opened up to Stella, now she had the taste of doing something because she believed it was good... She craves having these two sisters, but she cannot turn a blind eye on how horrifyingly weird they are.
Because turns out that while little Bea was rescued from the Aster Dell bloodwitches (who were extremists) and raised like a fairy, she's not an actual fairy. She, just like her sisters, are the product of what Rosalind says in season 1: Sacrificing fairies to put their powers inside of Blood Witches (#fuck the season 2 B.W lore).
Beatrix was raised believing she's a fairy, but she only has the air powers. Unlike other fairies, her powers can be great but they'll not ever turn into the other elements. This she realizes in Malacoy Academy.
Meanwhile Isobel and Darcy had escaped the blast by fate and they were raised by the B.W who escaped. The extremist ones. They do believe in the ancient practices of sacrificing fairies for their powers and they've done this. Their next victim is Sam Harvey and Beatrix doesn't even like the guy, but she knows him and now she has this horrible thing called a moral compass and ugh... Fine, fuck, she'll save his life- And now Terra's and Flora's too, she guesses? Why can't these people just stay in their own castle.
Talking of the extremist Blood Witches, well... They didn't just get nuked in Aster Dell. A good number of them escaped, enough of them to indoctrinate even more Blood Witches in the future. They were living in the shadows, but Luna's declaration of war in season 2 pushes them forward. They need to take on the fairies, they need to do this in an organized manner. This means they need a leader.
They turn to Sebastian's people- Except Sebastian is no longer there. Grey is. Grey who has a moral compass and people he likes (even loves maybe?) in the fairy side, but suddenly has an entire group of people asking him to lead them. He doesn't budge easily, he's been in contact with Aisha, they're hopeful that they can get the Andros people and other mini realms to see what Luna is failing to see: the blood witches need protection from Burned Ones just as much as the fairies, not all of them are evil.
This can be done in a civilized manner.
This is why Aisha leaves Alfea alongside Stella. Stella needs to be introduced to her court, her training needs to be harder, Luna wants her there. Meanwhile Aisha believes, just like Grey, that they can build a case and being in court, talking to politically relevant people is instrumental for this.
What Aisha doesn't realize is that by going to the Solaria castle she's not just building a political network against the queen and this counts as a coup attempt, one that could put Stella's head on a platter, but also that she is, physically, in Luna's grounds. She's a hostage just as much as Stella is.
Suddenly Grey is out of moves, the things he thought he could do in a civilized manner are no longer feasible. There's a Shadow Guy going around bringing the dead back and attracting Burned Ones, there are Burned Ones attacking his people. He can't afford to let them die just because Aisha is scared for her parents or for Stella. He has to put his people's interests first.
Stella, in the other hand, knows that it was her letter that got Bloom in stasis. She was instrumental in the decline of Bloom's mental health at the last two episodes and this guilt is eating her up. Beatrix's death? Also on her. So many things are directly her fault and she needs to clean it up, she needs Bloom back- But Beatrix is back? How? The Shadow Guy.
Well what if... What if they could catch the Shadow Guy. It came through the same portal Bloom vanished, didn't it? It's the same magic.
Stella believes, furiously, that she can bring Bloom back if she catches the Shadow Guy. Beatrix's resurrection aids this belief.
Sky is angry at the whole lot of them for not making an effort on bringing Bloom back, he's angry at himself for not going with her, he's angry at Silva and Riven for wanting him to live the future that is knocking at his door - He'll do whatever Stella asks. Including lying to Riven and the others about the "burned ones" they're tracking, which is not a Burned One at all.
If only Musa wasn't wearing the cuffs and in denial about her magic, then she could sense Sky is lying to them and weaponizing Silva's and Riven's sympathies.
Beatrix wants to save the Harveys from her own sisters and this is how she gets roped into the Blood Witches fight, this is how she gets to know about the stealing magic ritual, the bidding ritual for the Shadow Guy, she has people of her own that she wants back from the dead... This is how she ends up in Grey's power, her life in his hands.
Griselda, for all that Saul hates her and wants to undermine her, used to work in Malacoy Academy. She knows the students suddenly being amazing at magic tests and tournaments isn't normal, she just needs to find out what is going on. If only Silva would let her get closer to the students, stop shielding them from her prodding, then she could get the full picture of what is happening at Malacoy, with the blood witches right under their nose.
And then they could trace it back to Grey and Aisha and Stella and the fact that Stella isn't seeing that in her insanity to save Bloom, she's falling into the same trap that Sebastian fell in. The same power from darkness that is whispering in her ear that if she sacrifices enough people, they'll be able to bring back her loved ones (in this case just one), she just has to open that portal back again for Bloom.
Surely nothing worse is coming out of it.
#fate the winx saga#fate: the winx saga#mymeta#answered#i'm sure there are some plot holes here but like- pay me and i'll solve them
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15 questions and 15 mutuals
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Were you named after anyone?
my middle name, which i've since dropped. otherwise nope.
When was the last time you cried?
within the last month seems right, but i can't remember an exact moment. it was probably out of frustration.
Do you have kids?
nope.
Do you use sarcasm a lot?
not naturally, because i usually don't understand it when it's being used by other people.
What’s the first thing you notice about people?
i don't know? there must be a pattern, i just don't know what it is.
What’s your eye color?
brown
Scary movies or happy endings?
i'm easily frightened by spooky things, so probably happy endings.
Any special talents?
i can't help but analyze things critically.
Where were you born?
toronto
What are your hobbies?
videogames, music, art, writing, reading, baking, crochet... i have lots of hobbies but those are the big ones
Have any pets?
nope
What sports do you play/have you played?
none as of right now. i played lacrosse and hockey in high school.
How tall are you?
5 ft 3
Favorite subject in school?
english, history and physics
Dream job?
i was an animator working in film, and i would've loved to have done more of that, maybe someday write and direct something. but the industry is such a hellscape. at one point title sequences, which i love doing, fell completely out of favour and they just stopped making them? also i don't want to move to LA lol.
i also did a stint in comms for a labour org and it was depressing as all fuck but i do feel somehow "called" to it. so if i ever recover from my last experience i might not be able to help myself...
right now i'm working probably the closest thing to a dream job. i'm an art director in a stable position and i still do a lot of the practical work myself (even some animation still!) which i love. but at the same time, i've been thinking about going back to school for programming, or getting a masters and moving into public policy... a job that doesn't burn any of my creative fuel, and i have that leftover for my personal projects, which mean more to me. if you read this, send me an anon and tell me whether or not you think creative fuel is something you burn throughout the day, that you can run out of and need to replenish.
lol, i guess that brought up a lot of stuff.
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Opinion: It's so much harder to grow up as an overweight child than as a weird skinny child (both are pretty bad though to be fair). My sister and I grew up in a very broken home; bastard of a dad, crazy but fun mom lol. Lotsa personal things happened that led way to my sister and I to having different eating disorders. Her with bed and I with ana. And I will never ever forget the way adults and children alike acted towards her. It was animalistic and venomous and I've never seen such depravedness until I saw how people interacted with my sister. But you know what, I was fucking babied for being underweight! The worst of it was being frequently being pulled aside by teachers as they questioned about what I ate at home and getting called a bag of bones. I was mainly picked on for being quiet and being poor but boys and girls would defend me for being underweight. So I never felt that it was my thinness making me unlovable and ugly. No one would protect my sister but me and a few other girls. She would come home everyday from being bullied at school to being bullied by neighborhood "friends". Not even 10 years old and she couldn't take a break from anything. Yet she remained a tight suitcase, never let anyone see her cry about it, she turned to food for comfort. Food for us was how we were showed love. Our mom would take us out of the house away from our dad to get MickeyD's or when our dad didn't want to verbally apologize he would get us ice cream. I would refuse to eat but seeing my sister finally be able to breathe and enjoy herself could bring tears to my eyes. My sister and I are both grown now, and she has lost weight and you know what, she's one of the prettiest women I've ever seen. It's funny how that works as her bullies aren't so attractive as adults lmao.
uaghhh, as someone who grew up as a fat kid i'm surprised at your like, level of understanding and self-reflection and genuine honesty regarding your experience vs your sisters. i don't like kind of measuring ppl's pain as x is worse than y but fatphobia really is built into society in a truly structural way and it hurts so fucking much growing up with it like a shadow over you and everything you do lmfao, i swear. my heart just absolutely aches for both you and your sister because you obviously each went through some absolute bullshit, like it's awful on either side. though it just fucks me up so much and takes me back to childhood to hear that ppl would really have it out for your sister and that hardly anyone would defend her whereas you were at least supported in that regard. it was the same for me, like ppl absolutely took pleasure in dehumanising me and scorning me for being overweight - it was literally like i wasn't even a person and i know that sounds dramatic but in the most literal sense of the phrase, it really felt like that at times. just white hot shame following you everywhere, and your peers despising you for it. i think it's interesting how using food as a crutch when raising a kid can have such polar opposite yet equally unhealthy and awful effects on a childs mentality and their perception of body image, but it is so so common for us as people to find comfort and companionship and even a vice in food/hunger. that is definitely used against us in general, esp in the furthering of diet culture, it's a fucking hellscape. i'm wishing nothing but health and stability and self love for both you and your sister in the future - those people who messed with her are fucking demons, idc LOL. i'm so proud of you for working your way through that. sending so much love to you both! x
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From the most literal ratblr perspective, what do you think comes next for humanity after End of Evangelion? Does your average Joe take the deal and fade into nothingness, or is that more of a niche appeal? Is it an apocalyptic event rivalling/surpassing Second Impact that we never recover from? Is it gonna wreck the economy?
We are gonna ignore the manga where the aftereffects of Third Impact are depicted and its a total status quo reset complete with an amnesia'd global populace I assume? :)
Overall I think this depends a bit on your interpretation of End of Evangelion. For one, Shinji rejects Instrumentality, which while some view as a purely personal decision, I, well...it causes this:
Pretty sure this changes how Instrumentality functions, I don't know, sans gigantic god-mom Rei ruling over earth from her crucifix blood throne I don't think the whole "you exist in eternity connected to your loved ones via an LCL serotonin pump right into the brain" deal is still on the table.
Of course initially everyone did 'take' the instrumentality deal, not sure they had a huge amount of say in it:
(Fun fact, for these shots the background photography on the pane was slightly off kilter, you can see the diagonal black line of the pane in the lower left corner)
So at the end of the film the 'status quo' is everyone is a ghost, probably not happy but also not in pain (this we know for sure, 'since to choose life is to choose pain' is in the text), with the option to return to the earth...which ya know looks like this:
So I think two factors come into play here - Gains From Specialization & The Rawlsian Veil of Ignorance. Shinji & Asuka honestly look pretty fucked, the ocean's being stained red from LCL is probably bad for aquaculture, cities are flooded and destroyed, its probably going to be a real Robinsonade situation for the two of them. To restore any semblance of a functioning civilization, they not only need people to come back but enough people, a minimum threshold of mechanics, farmers, etc. And they all need to come back around the same time, so they don't die out waiting for the rest.
So the mechanics of ghost-dom reign pretty supreme here. I think, status-quo bias ruling, the median human, already being rendered a ghost, is not choosing to come back to this. They would choose their comfortable modern civilization, but I am skeptical they would choose to wander the red-hued deserts of the world God abandoned until they starve to death.
But do they know that? Can they observe the world as it passes? When can they choose to return? If they stay ghosts does their humanity wither over time? Most importantly, *can they observe other people's decisions*? If everyone is placed behind a veil when making the decision, not knowing either the state of the world or the decisions of other people - most of them would *choose a world when most humans come back to life*. That is their own status quo bias behind the veil, thinking in full Hansonian Far Mode, to return to the world they knew where humanity can flourish. Certainly enough would to get at least one functional civilization off the ground and expanding.
But if everyone is making an individual decision, based on actively observing the world around them...you know I think its still possible. I think a minority of people would choose to return, particularly in the Eva world, where a huge amount of society got built around preparing to fight the angels and defend against the apocalypse. Soldiers, politicians, engineers in the defense industry, etc, I think a cadre of at least 1% of humanity could decide to plunge into the hellscape. If the ghosts can *keep* observing, and don't lose their humanity over time, that can cascade as those survivors build something from the rubble. If they can't, if its an "act now or ghost forever" kind of deal, then while that minority cadre might survive, its a bit more of a dice roll, based on where they spawn and the extant food supply and infrastructure conditions. Civilization will take way way longer to recover.
So yeah its a probability tree based on unknown starting conditions;
IF [Rawlsian Veil (RV) = True], THEN [Humanity Flourish Odds (HFO) = High]
IF [RV = False] & [Ghost-Human Decision Window (GHDW) = Long], THEN [HFO = Medium-High]
IF [RV = False] & [GHDW = Short], THEN [HFO = Low]
Hope SEELE thought through the decision tree on this one in their "Shinji's refuses to fuck his cloned mom" crisis simulation they surely ran as part of their strategic planning!
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