I'm so exhausted I don't really know where or how to begin my one-day weekend, have spent the day just kind of collapsed into executive dysfunctional confusion when what I WANT to do is post on tumblr about gay tv

I saw your post defending the way Jedi adopt the children/accept them into their culture, and I absolutely loved it! It was so well-informed, and you are right: It is all there in the original content!

I find it very ironic that many people spew these lies about the Jedi when that’s exactly what the Empire did. Iirc, this argument of Jedi being “kidnappers” was actually fueled by Emperor Palpatine and the Empire in their campaign against the Jedi. They wanted to discredit them and make the people turn against them so that they could erase them all more easily. So I find it very ironic that these lies are now being upheld by some people as the truth. (Really, have people forgotten the Empire was created bases on the Nazi’s and their own racist strategies?)

You are not inmune to the Empire’s propaganda.

Please correct me if I’m wrong. I’m not as good at pulling examples and proof from all the SW content as you are.

Hi! Thank you for the very sweet ask! Navigating stuff in fandom like this can be difficult at times, because there has to be room for compassion and tolerance for disagreement, like it's fine if people disagree with my views, I'm not your mom, I'm not telling you want to do or say, especially since this is fiction, these are made up space stories. But there also has to be room to understand that sometimes our commentary on fictional stories are echoes of reflection of real world attitudes--we can't just go around spewing racist, sexist, homophobic commentary and be like, "It's just fiction, you can't get upset!" There's no easy line for any of this, no single hard set in stone rule for when it's truly just fiction and when it's an echo of a real world attitude, especially in Star Wars, which often draws influence from a lot of non-Western sources and traditional Western sources. (My general rule of thumb is: I think it's fair to criticize those things through the influences they have, but if your criticism is then ended with, "So that's why we shouldn't have or acknowledge any Buddhism/Black people/queer people/women in Star Wars!" then fuck right on off with that.) And I also understand a lot of the anti-Jedi attitudes (or at least what I've personally experienced of them) because I've talked a bunch of times about how I started out as pretty Jedi-critical myself! I did the whole, "They had grown stagnant and refused to evolve with the galaxy, so they needed to be wiped out." thing because nobody had framed it explicitly as what it was: a genocide. It wasn't until a friend and I were talking and they mentioned that lens of it that it just sort of crashed down on me, oh, that's literally what it was and genocide is never justifiable. I did the whole, "The Jedi failed Anakin and taught him to repress his emotions." thing as well, because I saw it all over the place in fandom and just automatically folded it into my view, until I went back and actually watched Lucas' movies and Lucas' animation (first six movies + first six seasons of TCW) and read his interviews, which blew me onto my ass when I saw Obi-Wan being supportive of Anakin, when I saw Anakin not listening to the advice he was given, when I saw that Jedi were expressing emotion all over the place, when I saw they were respecting other Force traditions in the galaxy. I can't speak to why so many people think badly of the Jedi, there's probably a thousand reasons and I'm only vaguely aware of like half of them, but I do think that it's often unpopular to promote the idea of emotional regulation already being achieved, instead of something to be struggled with. I think we're all primed by a lot of mainstream media saying that an explosion of anger is what will save the day. I think there's so much anger in the world today that we're all angry and being told to let go of it feels really insulting at times. (But, as someone who has lost years of my life when I was younger to anger, I gotta say, I am so much better off having let go of as much of that shit as I can. It was poison in my veins, carrying that anger around. I lost so many friendships and opportunities and just time to being miserably mad about stuff.)

I'm getting off topic of the kidnapping aspect about the Jedi, but a lot of it starts to swirl together in what I've experienced (especially people who try to put this stuff on my posts--thankfully, that's died down/I block the people who won't respect boundaries) and so I kind of bounce from one aspect of it to another.

I do think it's good to talk about these things--both from "it's fun to analyze the content of the story on a meta level" perspective and "here's how this echoes into and from the real world" perspective, like I enjoy saying, okay, here's what's actually said in the movies/TCW, but also I think talking about how the Jedi are Buddhist influenced is important because that means they're going to have values that are meant to be reflected in that and Western fandom has a really big problem of being derisive about non-Western influences or automatically saying they're wrong. (I come from anime/manga fandoms, let me tell you, it's a big problem.)

And, yeah, in a way where it's really awful, but I think one of the most well-done things Disney's Star Wars has done is that it's really focused on showing that the Empire was a fascist one and the propaganda they used about the Jedi are ones that are super relevant to the conversation.

🍪 + Doctor Strange fandom (male character preferred) + I’m a 30 year old queer woman (she/they/fae) who is Graysexual and Biromantic. I’m 5’1” with a peaches and cream complexion, dark green eyes (tho my right eye has a blue film over it due to blindness), long dark brown hair, and an almost hourglass figure. I’m a Hufflepuff! I’m compassionate, stubborn, get frustrated easily, silly, happy, cute, passionate, have OCD, Dyscalculia, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I’m Autistic. I studied general studies in school (I switched majors a few times). I’m ethnically an Ashkenazi Jew and was raised both religiously Roman Catholic and Jewish. I am considering converting to Buddhism. I love animals a lot. I love reading (especially history, romance, myths/lore, anything about Judaism/being Jewish, and fiction), botany, space, cats, my faith, playing games, dancing, singing, traveling, and naps. When I get frustrated/upset or despondent, I tend to belittle myself and think that whatever is wrong is my fault even when it is not.

Ooooh I ship you with the man himself Dr Strange! ❤️

He loves how unique you are not just from your personality but your looks with your eyes and your beautiful skin tone that takes his breath away every time he looks at you

When he knows you're upset he makes shapes of animals with his powers and makes things in the sky making you laugh and smile thanks with help from his friends who are also your friends

He learned everything about Judaism from people around him and did everything of the culture's traditions with you and celebrating each holiday with your family

He loves how the film over your eye makes it look like an extra iris on your eye but more milky in color yet also so expressive and beautiful

He always reads to you and cuddles you when you're depressed even doing dumb things with his powers just to make you laugh and smile for a few minutes

He loves seeing you with kids and animals loving how he just fills a sense of warmth,joy,and falling in love all over again always

He loves to admire your body in many ways from staring at you whenever you wear a dress,caressing your curves and soft spots in the shower,kissing every part of your body in the late hours of the night or early hours of the morning,and laying his head on your chest or stomach when he couldn't sleep

He always tells you how beautiful and wonderful you are to him and everyone else in your life when you belittle yourself and think low and badly of yourself

He never minds helping you with blankets and movies whenever you're anxious always holding you and making you your favorite snack every time

Lord of Light

Finished (re-)reading “Lord of Light” by Roger Zelazny.

From the cover copy: His followers called him mahasamatman and said he was a god. He preferred to drop the maha- and -atman however, and called himself Sam. He never claimed to be a god but then, he never claimed not to be…

I cannot count the times I’ve read this book. I first read it as a teenager, and that was a very long time ago. It tells the tale of Sam, who doesn’t want to be a god, and his friends and enemies, many of whom do. It tells the tale of a revolution, and the battle for mankind’s right to decide their own fate, free from Heaven. It tells a tale wrapped in the symbols of both Hinduism and Buddhism.

It’s a Hugo award-winning novel by a Nebula award-winning author. If you don’t what that means, well, the Hugo award is recognition from the general fandom, and the Nebula award is recognition from his fellow speculative fiction authors. Which is to say, he writes things people like in ways that other professionals also like. Those don’t always go together.

The prose is superb, often lyrical, the characters interesting and varied, the pacing good, the plot exciting. It’s 319 pages that reads like 119, so easily flows the story. It draws you in and keeps you there while time disappears around you.

I cannot recommend this book enough to match how much it deserves to be recommended.

Very Highly Recommended Indeed.

Yesterday, @crazydisneynerd123 brought up an interesting little detail about how Andrias’ decor foreshadows the Core, and while the banners off to the sides was something I noticed already, I’d like to draw your attention to the shield in the middle up above.

We all know about the multitudes of eyes the Core is framed with, and we can tell the crowns on the banners most likely connect to the Core being able to see and implicitly talk through Andrias’ crown.

However, the shield stands out to me as compared to the iconic vertical eye on the banners, the Core’s bottommost eyes are conjoined, and it only has some of the top upper row of eyes.

In fact, it reminds me less of the Core and weirdly more of a diagram of a flower cross-section, particularly with a flower’s petals and stamen:

As for why this sticks out so much to me, you know how the symbol on Anne’s S3 shirt was first interpreted as a flame by the fandom and later given the second symbolism of a lotus by Matt?

It suddenly struck me as interesting that rather than the typical pink and or white colored lotuses that are most often used across media, Anne’s shirt lotus is a vibrant orange. While I am unsure whether the color has actual significance since my Google searching only told me orange lotuses are rare and that they look close in color to gold - which is apparently the color of full enlightenment in Buddhism - I looked into stylized drawings of orange lotuses and, well, I’ll just let the drawing speak for itself:

And speaking of shields and flowers, it does bring back to mind how Anne’s iconic S1/S2 school uniform proudly bore SJMS’ crest, and both the shield crest and the flame/orange lotus designs of Anne’s two permanent outfits lie directly in the center of her chest.

Or like the symbolism of other works of fiction would say, the crest and lotus lie right next to Anne’s heart. Sure raises some questions about what this all might potentially mean for the Core, maybe Andrias depending on where he got the shield, and especially for Anne, doesn’t it?

Edit: And in the middle of all of this, I’m reminded of another little detail from all the way back in The New Normal, one with Cloak Bot’s arm cannon that seemed innocuous at the time but now seems rather suspect:

As my good friend @mira-blue would say, I wonder if this might mean anything…

Your Reputation Precedes You

A response to “On Fandom Racism (and That Conlang People Are Talking About)” because lmao that cowardly bitch just hates getting feedback from people that she can’t then harass into oblivion

i.e. God I Wish I Could Use The Tag Fandom Wank Without The Titty Police Nerfing My Post

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To be frank, I'm not here because I think you or any of your little cronies are going to change your minds. If the 'name' wasn't a giveaway, your group of ~likeminded individuals~ have quite the reputation for espousing ableist, antisemitic, and, yes, racist views under wafer-thin the veneer of "calling out racism." I think we both know that what you're actually doing is using the relative anonymity of the internet and progressive language to abuse, harass, and bully fans that you personally disagree with. You and your group are toxic, hateful, and utterly pathetic, using many peoples' genuine desire to avoid accidentally causing harm and twisting it into this horrid parade of submissiveness to You, The One And Only Arbiter Of Truth And Justice In Fandom. Never mind that you have derided autistic people as lacking compassion and empathy, that you've used racist colonizer dogwhistles to describe a fictional culture based heavily on real live Maori culture, that you've mocked the idea of characters having PTSD, or that vital mental health services are anything more than "talking about your feelings with friends uwu." Let's just ignore that you have ridiculed the idea of adults in positions of power exerting that power over children in harmful and abusive ways, that creating transformative fan-content that doesn't adhere to the spirit of canon or wishes of the original author garners derision and hatefulness from you, and that you've used classic abuser tactics in order to gaslight people in your orbit into behaving more submissively towards you in order to avoid more verbal abuse.

Let's toss all of that crucial context aside in favor of only what you've written here.

What you've written here is nearly 3,000 entire words based on, at best—though, admittedly, based on your previous behavior, I am actually not willing to extend to you an iota of good faith—fallacious reasoning. You posit that a constructed language, to be used by a fictional religious group located in an entirely different galaxy than our own, is othering, racist in general, and anti-Asian specifically. This appears based in several suppositions, the first being that a language unknown by the reader will, by nature, cause the reader to feel alienated from the characters and therefore less sympathetic, empathetic, and caring towards the characters. That idea is patently ridiculous and, I believe, says far more about your ability to connect to a character speaking an unfamiliar language than any kind of overarching truth about media and the human condition. New things are interesting; new things are fun; the human brain is wired from birth to be fascinated with new things, to want to take them apart, find out how they work, and enjoy both the process and the results.

The second supposition this fallacy is based upon appears to be that to move away from the blatant Orientalism of Star Wars is inherently anti-Asian. While I find it... frankly, a little bit sad that you cling so viciously to the Orientalist, appropriative roots of Star Wars as some form of genuine representation, that's really none of my business. If you feel that a Muslim-coded character bombing a temple and becoming a terrorist and a Sith, a white woman wearing Mongolian wedding garb, a species of decadent slug-like gangsters smoking out of hookahs and keeping attractive young women chained at their feet (as it were), a species of greedy money-grubbers with exaggerated features and offensively stereotypical "Asian" accents, and an indigenous people wearing modesty garb based on the Bedu people and treated by most characters as well as the narrative as mindless animals deserving of murder and genocide are appropriate representation of the many, varied, and beautiful cultures around the world upon which they were "based," then that is very much your business. Until you pull shit like this. Until you accuse other fans, who wish to move away from such offensive coding and stereotypes, of erasing Asian culture from Star Wars. Then it becomes everyone's business, especially when you are targeting a loving and enthusiastic group of fans who are pouring their hearts and souls into creating an inventive and non-appropriative alternative to canon.

Which leads into the third supposition, that a patently racist, misogynistic white man in the 1970s, and then again in the 1990s, intended his universe to be an accurate and respectful portrayal of the various cultures he stole from. I understand that for your group of toxic bullies, the term "Death of the Author" holds no real meaning, but the simple fact of the matter is that George Lucas based his white-centered space adventure on Samurai movies while removing the cultural context that gave them any meaning, because he liked the idea of swords and noble warriors in space. He based the Force and the Jedi Order on belief systems such as Taoism and Buddhism, but only on the surface, without putting any real effort into into portraying them earnestly or accurately. He consistently disrespected both characters of color and characters coded to be a certain race, ethnicity, culture, or religion, and likewise disrespected and stole from the cultures upon which he based them. He was, and continues to be, a racist white man who wrote a racist story. His universe has Orientalism baked into its every facet, and the idea that fans who wish to move away from this and interrogate and transform the text into something better than what it is are racist is not only laughable, but incredibly disingenuous and insidious.

As I said, I am not writing this to change your mind, because I truly believe that you already know that "cOnLaNgS aRe RaCiSt" is a ridiculous statement. The way you've comported yourself in fandom spaces thus far has shown to me that you are nothing more than a bully who knows that the anti-racist movement in fandom can be co-opted for your benefit. If you tout your Asian heritage and use the right language, make the "right" accusations and take advantage of white guilt and white ignorance, you can have dozens of people falling at your feet, begging for forgiveness, for absolution. And I think that gives you a thrill. So, no, none of this will change your mind because none of this is genuinely about racism—it's about power, it's about control, it's about fandom being the only space where you have some.

So I'm writing this for the creators of this wonderful conlang, which has been crafted by multiple people including people of color, who don't deserve this nonsensical vitriol, and for the fans reading this manipulative hate-fest, wondering if they really are Evil Racists because they don't participate in fandom the way you think they should.

Here it is: fandom has a lot of racism, antisemitism, misogyny, queerphobia, ableism, etc. baked into it. Unfortunately, such is the nature of living and growing up in societies and cultures that have the same. The important thing is to independently educate yourself on those issues and think critically about them—not "think critically" as in "to criticize" them, but to analyze, evaluate, pick apart, examine, and reconstruct them again in order to come to a well thought-out conclusion. Read this well-articulated attack on a group of fans who have always welcomed feedback and participation, are open about their backgrounds, their strengths and weaknesses, and wonder who is actually being genuine.

Is it the open and enthusiastic group who ask for the participation of others in this labor of love? Or is it the ringleader of a group of well-known bullies who have manipulated, gaslit, and then subsequently love-bomb people who did not simply roll over at the slightest hint of dominance? The ones who spent hours upon hours tearing apart, mocking, deriding, and falsely accusing authors of fanworks and metatextual works of various bigotries and -isms, knowing that those evaluations were spurious and meant only to cause harm, not genuine examinations of the works themselves or even presumed authorial intent. The ones who made their own, quote-unquote, community so negative and toxic that even after the departure of a large portion of them, including this author in particular, that community still has a reputation for being hateful, toxic, and full of mean-spirited harassers who will never look critically about their own behavior but only ever point fingers at others. The ones who are so very determined to cause misery wherever they go that as soon as their usual victims are no longer immediately available, they will turn on each other at the slightest hint of weakness.

This entire piece of (fan)work is misinformed at the most generous, disingenuous at the most objective, and downright spiteful when we get right into it. The creators of Dai Bendu, along with various other works, series, and fan events that these people personally dislike, have been targeted because it is so much easier to harass, bully, and use progressive language as a weapon against them, than it is to put any effort into making fandom spaces more informed, more positive, more respectful.

As someone rather eloquently put it, community is not a fucking spectator sport. You want a better community, you gotta work at it. And conversely, what you put into your community is what you'll get out of it. This author and their friends have put a lot of hate into their communities, and now they're toxic cesspools that people stay well away from, for fear of contracting some terrible form of harassment poisoning.

Congrats, Ri, you've gotten just what you wanted: adoring crowds listening to you spout your absolutely heinous personal views purely to live out some kind of power fantasy, and the rest of us staying well away, because fuck knows nothing kind, helpful, or in good faith has ever come from Virdant or her echo-chamber of petty, spiteful assholes.

No love, bad night.

P.S. Everyone actually in the Dai Bendu server knows your ass got kicked because you didn’t say shit for a full thirty days and ignored the announcement that inactive members would be culled. You ain’t cute pretending like it’s because you were ~*~Silenced~*~ after ~*~Valiantly~*~ attempting to call out racism. We see you.

Can we ask multiple things?

Questions 5, 7, 23 sound really interesting

hell yeah you can!!!

5) character you were most surprised to end up writing

very good question...very good question. Hmm. Maybe He Xuan?? I think my love for him really came out of the blue for me since SQX was my darling from the get-go (and very much one of my Types™). I never hated HX just 'cause he was the antagonist of SQX's arc but I don't think I was expecting to read his stuff further and just fall madly in love with the guy hahahahaha, and now he's my fav 🙏🙏

7) when asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

I'm very enthusiastic! All my friends, even non-fandom ones, know I write fic and porn lmao, and if they ask I'll even tell them what the porn is about. My policy is if they end up embarrassed that's their problem nsfndnjfnjdnf

(to be real though, I can't wait for the day I actually have an original fiction project that I can talk about so I don't have to talk circuitously around fic for people I'm not super close to.)

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

yeah. Here's what I can remember at a scan:

Song of Achilles fic - my hometown Les Mis greek myth!AU - the classics course I took in undergrad One Piece MAS zoo!AU - volunteered at the zoo/worked at a bio sciences museum songxiao daycare AU - worked in early ed & babysitting We Built Our Own House - the Buddhism course I took songxiao transmigrated mail order bride AU - XXC has my ex-housemate's old job lolol songxiao temple drummer/spanking fics - i did temple drumming ndfjdfjn songxiao erotic acupuncture - i went and got acupunctured literally for this fic i think ksdnfdjfnj songxiao bachelor!AU - stage managing/first ADing/read Strike the Baby and Kill the Blonde songxiao street food!AU - me literally going to 東區 in taiwan and sussing out the food stands Cultivation No. 6 - worked at a plant store; this fic is literally just my customer service adventures songxiao aerial yoga PWP - i went and did aerial yoga SHUT UP songxiao hospital pianist AU - you already know where this is going SV porn!AU - SY's video editing (not the porn part, sadly)

a fic i'm really excited about writing is the post-canon SQX-centric fic I wanna write w freediving, which I am now learning!!

((Get to know your author))

I'll be honest. I haven't been on this site for probably five, six years? Ever since the great purge that drove off almost everyone and almost collapsed Tumblr's userbase I haven't had much of a reason to be on here.

Pretty much everyone moved on to the equally bad for you Twitter, including myself. I really don't know if this will generate any traction on here... but, posting on a site that -- at least at one time -- was a hub of diversity and very important for my own discovery of who I am and my own bisexuality, might be a successful and good idea.

I occasionally still get emails and notifications saying that someone (ironically almost always a bot posting the very things Tumblr banned -- not sure if I can even say the word without getting blocked) has followed this account. So, I don't think that this will get a massive amount of traction... I think the majority of people who followed me went the way I did and just abandoned their accounts, letting them get covered with dust. But, it'd be foolish for me not to bother just in case this can get traction.

So, with that out of the way, I've started posting a novel onto Wattpad and Goodreads. The Wattpad one is linked on this post, the Goodreads one is linked on my profile.

I would be extremely grateful if you could check it out and let me know what you think. I know there was a lot of fandom activity on this site before the purge, so I hope some of that excitement is still here and still willing to try some new things.

And now, a description of the novel:

In 2024, the Deva Software Corporation releases the Samsara Virtual Reality Headset alongside their flagship title: The Pure Lands, a Virtual Reality Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game (VRMMORPG for short). This single release promises to revolutionize gaming and the way we interact with others online.

By October of that same year, Leon Cris is College graduate with no plan, no career, and overall no prospects outside of his mysterious "uncle Rick" who's bankrolled his life so far. For his twenty-second birthday, this unknown "uncle" gifts him the Samsara Headset with a note telling Leon to "Come Find Him" in a specific server on the game, a role-playing only server.

Now Leon has to navigate the player-created world of the game, dozens of new influences on his life in the forms of friends, inspirations, and allies, forge connections, and meet the father he never knew, all while figuring out what he wants to do in life outside of this new game.

Inspired by hit works of fiction like Hunter X Hunter, Sword Art Online, She-Ra: Princesses of Power, Black Clover, One Piece, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, the works of Studio Ghibli and more, while also taking thematic inspiration from religions such as Taoism, Hinduism, and Buddhism, "Come Find Me" is a story about living your life to the fullest and finding a family that will help you do that.

Please take a look and enjoy. There are 40 chapters so far, and more to come every week.

alright, I wasn’t technically tagged in this, but @the-chesapeake-shipper did a vague-tag to all mutuals yesterday, and 🥺 I’m bored. thank u for ur generosity

rules: tag people you want to get to know better!

your name and then what you would have named yourself: well... coincidentally, i did choose my name a few years back. i’m darcy (yes, after mr. darcy. no, i do not regret it). HOWEVER there are times when i wish i had chosen a name that paid homage to my Japanese heritage. i recently learned that my mom had planned to name me kimiko hunaya and there are lots of days where i consider it because i know my great grandmother approved of it

astrological sign (sun/moon/rising if you know): will someone at a higher level of gay please teach me how to do this stuff???? i’m a capricorn, but i don’t know if that’s sun, moon, or rising

when did you join tumblr and why?: oh god.... way too young? i think i made my first blog in eighth grade. so 2011. mostly because i wanted to be an edgy tween reblogging quotes

top five fandoms: i have to narrow it down? this list is in a constant flux but at this exact moment: nbc hannibal, star trek, tolkien (i cant bring myself to say lotr while the silmarillion still holds most of my heart), the man from uncle, and x-men (but exclusively for erik’s turtlenecks)

top five favorite films: the normal heart, princess mononoke, star trek: the voyage home, the phantom thread, and the pride and prejudice 5 part mini-series that we’re all going to pretend is a movie because i never watch movies...

go to song when you want to Feel something: depends on what i need to feel, but if we’re talking about Yearning(TM), lover please stay by nothing but thieves

what’s your religion or faith if you have one?: i was raised mostly with catholic influences and some shintoism/buddhism. i vacillate between total nihilism and the concept of divinity in nature and the infinite cyclicality of energy and life??

a song that makes you feel seen: anything keaton henson has ever written? beekeeper is a very enduring song from when i was younger that still hits me right in the gut even if i dont feel the same way as i did back then. a more currently relevant song would be garden song by phoebe bridgers

if you could have any career: if i could be the person i want to be rather than the person that i am, i would be a university english professor, preferably at some old university where everything is a little drafty and the campus library has high ceilings and ghosts that stretch back to time immemorial. sharing a love for literature and storytelling has always appealed to me, and if i could, i would spend the rest of my life in academia

do you have a type: men who are too old for me and women who intimidate me 😔

what does your heart/soul yearn for?: faust. all i want right now is to sit down in my library with goethe, tchaikovsky playing in the background. where’s mephistopheles to give me a special witches brew so i have all the time in the world to glut on the passions of humanity?

if you had to describe yourself in 5 words to someone who doesn’t know you: book hoarding bisexual literature student???

favorite subject in school: english, but i also love history (especially art history)

where does your soul feel most at home?: sitting on the end of my grandparent’s crumbling dock, feet dangling in a lake that made it’s home in some scooped out part of the north cascade mountains. everything is still except the whisper of the air through the pine needles and the slap of water against the shore. my grandma and i had wine and charcuterie for lunch and now my grandpa’s talking about his painting—something that straddles the line between the familiar and the surreal. it’s a very comforting memory

top 5 fictional characters: aragorn, son of arathorn, king of gondor; hannibal lecter; jim kirk; thomasina from tom stoppard’s arcadia; lyra belaqua from his dark materials

top 3 moments in a show that made you ugly cry: did you mean when boromir dies in fellowship???? he’s such a tragic character, and sean bean was the perfect casting decision. uuuhmmmmm hannibal tenderly and erotically gutting will in his kitchen. it’s one hell of a sex scene, that. aaaand the ending of your lie in april. i have nothing else to say on the matter

the earth, the sun, the moon, or the stars: has to be the stars (moon, please forgive me....)

favorite kind of weather: when everything is poised on the edge of a storm. the air is perfectly still, and you can smell the rain and the lightning. the sun low enough that there’s nothing but a glow of light at the bottom of the cloud bank

top 3 characters you kin with: elizabeth bennett.... clearly; will graham.... less clearly; and leonard mccoy, ultimate mom friend

favorite medium of art: subtractive sculpture mediums, especially marble, and oil painting. give me all that classic art

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: i’m a big, dumb introvert

a favorite literary quote: i could... spend hours answering this. since i’m thinking of stoppard and his horribly underappreciated plays, we’ll go with my favorite quote from arcadia: “We shed as we pick up, like travellers who must carry everything in their arms, and what we let fall will be picked up by those behind. The procession is very long and life is very short. We die on the march. But there is nothing outside the march so nothing can be lost to it. The missing plays of Sophocles will turn up piece by piece, or be written again in another language. Ancient cures for diseases will reveal themselves once more. Mathematical discoveries glimpsed and lost to view will have their time again. You do not suppose, my lady, that if all of Archimedes had been hiding in the great library of Alexandria, we would be at a loss for a corkscrew?”

some of your favorite books: the hobbit (tolkien), cloud atlas (david mitchell), the goldfinch (donna tartt), broken monsters (lauren beukes), the amber spyglass (phillip pullman), the paper menagerie (ken liu), the vintner’s luck (elizabeth knox), wuthering heights (emily bronte), pride and prejudice (jane austen), lolita (vladimir nabokov), crimson petal in the white (michel faber), sharp objects (gillian flynn), life after life (kate atkinson), the picture of dorian gray (oscar wilde), arcadia (tom stoppard), faust (goethe)

if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?: a townhouse in edinburgh scotland, someplace just big enough for all of my books and a dog and cat. or that town int he netherlands where there’s no cars and everyone gets around by boat. i don’t drive, so that sounds like such a dream??????

if you could live in any time in history, when would it be?: i don’t think i’d like living in any other time, honestly... as a nonbinary person... but i would love to pop into the victorian era for a visit. i want to sit in on a victorian salon, listen to poets read their work and look at art and just generally enjoy the beauty of it. but i wouldn’t like to live then for long

if you could play any instrument masterfully, which would it be?: the cello please and thank you

if you have one, what mythological god or goddess do you feel a connection to?: i vibe pretty hard with persephone...

oh my god, this is so long, but LASTLY, favorite recent selfie in your camera roll: two because why not?

rules: tag people you want to get to know better!!!

tagged by: @transseven (kinda im just bored and wanna do it)

your name and what you would’ve named yourself: finn...and i named myself that:))) i considered kalen and max also but finn felt right. might fuck around n change it again tbh

astrological sign (sun/moon/rising if you know them): virgo sun/libra moon/aries rising

when did you join tumblr and why: 2012 maybe?? i was a ~hipster aesthetic blog~ until i became the mess i am today

top 5 fandoms: i dont consider myself really IN any fandoms but,,,mortal kombat, overwatch, polygon, animal crossing, and unus annus are things im really into rn!!

top 5 films: i really dont watch movies much um....jawbreaker, my neighbor totoro, howl's moving castle, spirited away, clueless, pretty much anything ghibli or disgustingly 90's

go-to song when you want to feel something: i have a playlist that is all megan thee stallion for when im extra mentally ill and need to feel like a bad bitch again

what’s your religion or faith if you have one: i don't feel strongly about any really?? i used to relate to wicca when i was younger until i realized a lot of it is stolen closed practices and cultural appropriation and it just didnt feel...right i guess?? im actually a very spiritual person in private though u might not guess it from the everything about me!! im just still not sure if there is a religion i would feel totally comfortable in, although buddhism has always intrigued me!!

a song that makes you feel seen: dog teeth by nicole dollanganger ... teen idle by marina ... vienna by billy joel ...

if you could have any career: i'd love to perform, idk what but i just wanna create for people!!! even as a youtuber, a streamer, or more original performing like in a band or doing drag i just..love to be seen and make people happy:)))

do you have a type: um not really??? hot alt queers to the front of course, and i prefer someone else to be able to take the lead in most things, but that rarely factors into my attraction. if u cute u cute and i will kiss u

what does my heart/soul yearn for: to feel cared for:))) to be a first choice:))) independence:)))

if you had to describe yourself in 5 words to someone: blunt, compassionate, easygoing, impulsive, ditzy

favorite subjects in school: music, english, and forensics

where does your soul feel the most at home: anywhere there is fresh air and some peace and quiet

top 5 fictional characters: mileena, yuri, dva, kuromi, howl

top 3 moments in a show that made you ugly cry: FUCK um. many moments in the promised neverland i cant even pick one so just the show as a whole....the abortion scene in sex education......and also all of your lie in april just so much of it

earth, the sun, the moon or the stars: the stars

favorite kind of weather: that time in either fall or spring when its perfect sweater weather, the sun is shining but the breeze is cool enough that u don't sweat at all, and it stays that way until the sun goes down:') and everything smells so nice....it's different for spring and fall but they both smell lovely

top 3 kins: mileena, yuri, and kuromi

favorite medium of art: to do? graphite or digital bc im bad and must erase a lot! to enjoy? all of it literally all art makes my heart go whoosh

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: ambivert

favorite literary quote: i had to search so hard for this bc i couldnt remember it all but my fave book in my early teens was across the universe by beth revis and i always really liked this quote idk why: " I stare at the stars... And even though there are so many and they look so close together, I know they are light years apart. The glitter in the sky looks as if I could scoop it all up in my hands and let the stars swirl and touch one another, but they are so distant, so very far apart, that they cannot feel the warmth of each other, even though they are made of burning. This is the secret of the stars, I tell myself. In the end, we are alone. No matter how close you seem, no one else can touch you."

some of your favorite books: i dont read as much as i used to so most of the books i loved are young adult books but: the crank series by ellen hopkins, the painter from shanghai by jennifer cody epstein, every day by david levithan, i am the messenger by marcus zusak

if you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?: i want to travel as much as possible, but i think i'll always wanna come home to canada. maybe not where i live now, but canada just feels the most like home and id love to live somewhere beautiful here

if you could live in any time in history when would it be?: i mean i guess my gay ass is in the most ideal timeline right now, but bigotry and such out of the picture i would have fucked w the 70s so hard....big hair big shoes and just not giving a fuck??? gimme

if you could play any instrument masterfully what would it be?: guitar or piano are obvious choices but tbh id be an iconic saxophone player

if you have one, what mythological god or goddess do you have a connection to?: artemis and apollo were the first deities i was drawn to when i started my craft and figuring out religion and such, but recently i have been very drawn to persephone and dionysus??

lastly, favorite recent selfie from your camera roll: (i never take selfies this is the most up to date pic i have and its bad but oh well)

i'm not gonna tag anyone bc i dont have friends but pls do it if u wanna!! i wanna know yall better!!!

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name: Angélica || nickname: Angie (?)|| zodiac sign: Sagittarius

height: idk || orientation: em I like guys :p || ethnicity: ? :s mayan maybe

favorite fruit: orange|| favorite season: Winter but I like all of them

favorite book: The Little Prince maybe hahaha idk the last book I read was The Great Gatsby || favorite flower: nothingspecial maybe daisys || favorite scent: an expensive perfume xD || favorite animal: Dogs

coffee, tea, or hot cocoa? Coffee and tea when I feel sick

average hours of sleep: 6 aprox

cats or dogs? Dogs

favorite fictional character: I have a lot don’t make me choose

dream trip: Italy maybe

when was your blog created? like 4 years ago

what do you post about? RK, Saint Seiya, Yu Yu Hakusho and moore! I’m proud of my blog :p

do you get asks on a regular basis? No

aesthetic: I don’t understand this question :/ dresses that i will never wear maybe

favorite band/artist? none in particular

fictional characters I’d date: all of them xD Kurosaki from Dengeki Daisy, Kenshin and today I’ll say SANOSUKE SAGARA because I really need one of his hugs <3

hogwarts house:

T W O

Countries I’ve lived in: Mexico

Favourite fandom: Every fandom I am in

Languages you speak: Spanish and English xD

Favourite film of 2016: I can’t remember any

Last article you read: Something related to buddhism

Shuffle your music library and put your first three songs here: 

Young and Beautiful Lana del Rey

To be a princess from a Barbie movie xDD

Blue Danube

Last thing you bought online: nothing

How would your friends describe you? nice, friendly, understanding

How would your enemies describe you? shortspoken (?)

Who would you take a bullet for? family, friends, my fav character, Aioros. It could be anyone xD

I tag @cokris @meztliel

No one asked for it but I’m bored and if you want to learn about me then here ya go...

if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to? I’m such a paradox that I don’t think anything could fully depict me.

have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who? Granted I don’t read a lot, no.

list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with. I’m in so many different fandoms and I don’t feel like thinking about all of them.

do you like your name?  is there another name you think would fit you better? It’s nothing special but I don’t hate it. I really used to want my name to be Alicia pronounced  A-lee-see-uh.

do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do? I wouldn’t let my actions define who I am because I think I’m constantly changing and I think how I deal with certain actions could define me.

are you religious/spiritual? Definitely spiritual because I don’t have a religion that I affiliate with because I don’t know that much about religion but from what I’ve read, I lean toward Buddhism.

do you care about your ethnicity?  Yes because it’s culture. It gives a sense of self and who I should be and learning who my family were.

what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime? Twenty One Pilots, The Weeknd, Nirvana, and many others. Each artists represent one part of me.

are you an artist? Yeah , I write poems, draw, stories.

do you have a creed? Everything happens for a reason. That really keeps me sane and optimistic a lot.

describe your ideal day. Chilling with my favorite people eating my favorite foods while looking cute as hell with deep conversations but also fun laughter of light hearted conversations.

dog person or cat person? Cat. I’m such a cat myself and they’re easier to maintain but I have both so *shrugs*

inside or outdoors? Inside most days and outdoors some days. I think getting sunlight and fresh air is good for the soul.

are you a musician? Somewhat. I come with beats in my head at least once a day and I have created a few. I also dabble in playing the piano.

five most influential books over your lifetime. I don’t read as much as I used to and all the books I used to read weren’t meant to be influential.

if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same? Well personally I would say no but logically obviously I would because environment plays a role in how people are.

would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?I think it’s pretty fucking close but I think I’m more emotional on here but even if you look on my blog I’m not that emotional.

what’s your patronus? I don’t know what that means.

which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle? I don’t like Harry Potter.

would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else? If it’s based on fiction places it would probably be Twilight because I really want vampires and werewolves to be real.

do you love easily?  Friendships yes but relationships no because people’s intentions are something that I’m very weary about.

list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order. Twitter,Tumblr,Youtube,Games, Homework.

how often would you want to see your family every year? I’m very family oriented and every Sunday we go to my grandparent’s house and once I move out I’ll probably be home a lot because I love annoying my parents.

have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone? A lot with my parents and siblings and sometime with my best friends.

could you live as a hermit? I’m a hermit now. I sometimes want to be outgoing but more than not, I like being alone.

how would you describe your gender/sexuality? The conventional straight girl ally.

do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”? No because on the outside I always seem like I’m not thinking deep thoughts when I actually am.

on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin? 9. No one really can piss me off for more than a minute because I let go of it then I’m good.

three songs that you connect with right now. I haven’t had a good connecting song in a while. Someone give me song recommendations. I legit listening to every genre.

pick one of your favorite quotes. Everything happens for a reason.