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#the way some of yall have a problem with the word queer smdhhhhhh#for any 'gay' thing i did from may age 11 onward earn me physical bullying and just relentlessly getting called gay#and then in college the way i was 'gay' until i was bisexual and then i was straight and shoved into the closet and told to kms for that#yall. if every time my 1 gay friend called me gay if i freaked out on her do you think shed think i was doing anything good in that moment?#literally its a reading the actual context situation. queer is not a slur unless the other person is making it one#OR someone who is also gay blanket labeling with 'the queer community' is not doing it to fucking hurt you or calling you directly that#fuck. also some of you are literally 16. maybe its a regional thing but queer is not the slur i think you think is#the 2000s to like 2015 still make me feel awful with how 'gay' was used agame in both directions from straights and gays#i literally dont make that everyone else's problem#queer is a good word. let queer people use it without you getting into your tag reblogs and typing 'kys' and 'please die ❤️'#seriously yall are messed up like a clump of unoiled spaghetti noodles. youre fucked in the head for REAL#in so many ways youre just like right wing cishets. just the other side of the damn coin.#my tags#will this be aistake to post even just as tags? probably#also theres so many typos but idc
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RADIO SILENCE ,, SUNGHOON SMAU
synopsis. hwang y/n and park sunghoon do not like each other. end of story. god knows why (well actually, niki is the only one who knows why). but when they’re put as co-hosts on a radio show, they’re bound to bond.
featuring. enha (duh) NCT DREAM jaemin , RED VELVET yeri, AESPA ningning, LE SSERAFIM sakura, TXT taehyun, HWANG MINHYUN + more
genre. smau duh. fluff, enemies to lovers, a lil bit of angst, crack. there will be written chapters too
warnings. my awful humour, cursing n prolly kys jokes, suggestive, typos, there might be logical errors in time stamps since it’s my first time doing a smau and i’m still figuring out how the apps work LMAO, sunghoon n yn are bit of an assholes ig + will add if there’s something more ++ DISCLAIMER: i started writing it in july 2023 so if theres something like "nct dream cb with istj" yeah. thats why. so ignore all the mixed and illogical stuff connected to that bc i just mentioned stuff that was out at the time of being
started. 6/01/2024
completed. 23/02/2024
taglist. @primoppang ,, @laylasbunbunny ,, @slytherinshua ,, @kazmura ,, @nicholasluvbot ,, @weird-bookworm ,, @dazzlingligth ,, @w3bqrl ,, @ocean-minho ,, @s-e-s-a-l-e-n-e ,, @eternalgyu ,, @haecien ,, @yenqa ,, @eneiyri ,, @aaasia111 ,, @catecita ,, @jebetwo ,, @rubywonu ,, @jiawji ,, @jeongintwt ,, @seunnimg ,, @isawritesss ,, @splat00z ,, @ilovejeongin007 ,, @sasfransisco ,, @saythenameseventeen178 ,, @hyuzaa ,, @flmtunes ,, @nxzz-skz ++++ ask in inbox to be added ! ^_^
a/n. phew. i’m so excited to do that you don’t even know???? hopefully i’ll manage to finish it LOL as i said, it’s my first time doing an actual smau so feel free to send constructive criticism 😪😪 aslo big shoutout to everyone who hyped me up on this ilysm + @vnsux who helped me a lil bit with technical stuff
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🎧 ꒱ PROFILES ! y/n and the 6 dancing princesses | enSCAMpen | hwang y/n’s official kpop profile
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🎙️ ꒱ MASTERLIST !
01. “devil works hard but hybe works harder”
02. “that was fucking scary my heart is going pitter patter pitter patter”
03. go girl give us nothing 🍅🍅🍅
04. ''wanna hear a joke?''
05. hoodie
06. mark lee
07. do we hear a breakup song?
08. after all this time
09. including mark himself
10. i ate it
11. only for the boba
12. "I WAS NEVER NOT BITCHLESS"
13. "ah shit here we go again"
14. “let’s give them a show”
15. DDAY
#RADIO SILENCE — ( smau )#sunghoon x reader#sunghoon au#sunghoon fluff#enha sunghoon#sunghoon x you#sunghoon x y/n#park sunghoon#sunghoon fanfic#sunghoon angst#sunghoon series#sunghoon enhypen#enha smau#enha series#enha fluff#enha x reader#enha soft hours#enhypen smau#enhypen series
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oooh ellie x established relationship gf celebrating ellie’s bday?? her gf would spoil tf out of her (and probs top her tbh)
₊˚✧ happy birthday!
modern!ellie williams x fem!reader headcanons
warnings: lower case intended, might be typos, incomplete sentences, nsfw, cursing
masterlists
sfw !
⋆ ellie is probably one to hate her birthday and you are more than determind to change that
⋆ you started with breakfast in bed and she just knew she was gonna be in for a long day
⋆ she didn't hate the breakfast, it was one of her favorites that she had mentioned off handedly to you once and she didn't even think you rememberd
⋆ "i guess this isn't awful." she admits forefully. you 1, birthday 0.
⋆ after breakfast you dragged her ass to the arcade
⋆ you led her over to a specific machine and pulled out a bag of quarters
⋆ "where tf did you even get those? no, seriously, thats like a million quarters." safe to say you and ellie were at the arcade for HOURS
⋆ she's just about ready to head home and thank you forgiving her a birthday that didn't want to make her rip her ribcage out
⋆ but wait theres more!! of course theres more. theres always more.
⋆ a nice candle lit dinner with a beach side view
⋆ "okay, okay fine. you win, this is really nice- IS THAT JESSE????" it was infact jesse.
⋆ "what did you think i was going to hire an actual person to serve us? i love you but i'm not made of money."
⋆ "shouldve used those damn quarters." you and jesse laughed, she shot jesse and he was silent the rest of the night.
nsfw !
⋆ she thinks you're finally done, the sun has set at dinner and shes driving the both of you back home
⋆ "that was really nice babe, thanks. i had a lot of fun." she sounded so genuine you almosted started crying.
⋆ but you were far from done with her and when you stayed quiet she knew she was in for a treat.
⋆ it was not even 10 seconds after you guys walked in the door that you pounced on her.
⋆ literally tonuge down her throat hands anywhere you could reach, you know that usual
⋆ she's not complaining tho 🫦
⋆ as the two of you reach the bedroom shes ready to fuck you until the sun comes up but you have something else in mind for tonight
⋆ "nuh huh, tonight's about you." she doesn't know what the entails but boy does she like the sound of that.
⋆ she likes your fiesty attitude as you push her on the bed and climb on top of her, almost like she would do to you
⋆ you're teasing her ever so slowly just to hear her little whines and whimpers with how turned on shes becoming
⋆ you decided not to tease her any further, finally giving her the pleasure she craved with your tongue
⋆ oh fuck how she loved your tongue. if she were to die rn she'd be so fine with that
⋆ her moans only get louder the closer she gets and it's just music to your ears.
⋆ and after ellie's first orgasm shes eying the strap that's laying on one of the shelves and you know just what to do
⋆ yeah maybe ellie doesn't hate birthdays that much
┊ㅤㅤ 🌾 ㅤㅤ ﾟㅤㅤ ┊
#! ☢ ₊˚✧ tlou .#ellie williams#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams smut#the last of us#the last of us smut#the last of us x reader#tlou smut#tlou x reader#tlou
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Vent bc I’m tired and I’m almost home from work 2day (TW: S/@, abuse)
So um, this is something that has been creeping me out right?
Ive been S/Aed 3 times in my entire 21 years of living and my best friend knows this. She knows this very well because she makes “jokes” about it and specifically only about how its “my fault” that it happened. And recently shes been getting, touchy. Like really touchy. She knows I’m alr with touching but she knows I don’t like being touched by my thighs and places like that since yk. I just don’t genuinely like it, it makes me feel uncomfortable, I’m only okay with thigh touching, chest touching, etc, if you ask first. Like My other best friend does.
BUT YET she keeps doing it, it’s becoming a issue. We had a argument about it yesterday and she was saying shit like “your lucky im not touching you Like he did! At least I’m not r@ping you 24/7!” And I’m genuinely thinking, why does she think that’s okay to say? Like we’ve been best friends for 5 years, i get that Friends make jokes but..HELLO?
“What do you mean? You are a fag! You and your boyfriend proved it a LONGG time ago.” like, DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING AWFUL THAT FEELS? WORSE DAY OF MY LIFE AND YET SHE THINKS ITS FUNNY TO JOKE ABOUT IT. CALLING THE MAN WHO R@PED ME MY “BOYFRIEND” IS JUST WEIRD. IF I JOKED ABOUT HOW ABUSIVE HER MOM IS, WOULD SHE LAUGH? NO SHE WOULD FUCKING CRY AND ASK ME WHY I THINK ITS FUNNY. Honestly, it’s fucking stupid. My mom was like that, she was abusive, but she’s better now. But if I made fun of her for her Trauma, would she be all happy? I don’t understand why she just thinks like that. I ask her why she would joke like that but she excuses it and says, “i can joke about it because your a guy, it didn’t really happen.”
I’m just getting really uncomfortable with her but I want her to stay, shes My best friend. BUT COME ON NOW. It was my fault? I deserved it?
I WAS FUCKING 7.
God, shes just pissing me off man.
Also sorry for the random vent, I’m just so EUGHHHH rn yk?
Theres probably a lot of typos so 😐
#vent ig#personal vent#vent post#tw vent#vent#tw abuse#its just EuGH#i dont think I’ll be friends with her anymore#cause seriously what the fuck?#saying it’s my fault isnt making me laugh#saying i deserved it DOESNT make me feel good at all. yk?
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Thank you to everyone
The fire seems to have been electrical and started in the kitchen. No appliance was on or used in the last 24hrs so it might have been the qiring itself.
My beautiful girl was asleep when she succumbed to smoke and wasnt burned, when they found her. She just Went apparently. After a days distance, i take that a s consolation.
She is with the pet funeral service as they are goi g to cremate her, and she will return in a scatter box to be buried under a tree or plant that suits her personality when the grief is less like a throbbing wound.
Theres a cat tree comingfor her and i think it will be devastating when it arrives. So stupid, i know.
The whole place is torched. Even items not directly hit by flame are smoke damaged or crumble to the touch.
All my books, my clothes, the furniture. And i dobt really care. Its stuff,i will start again bc i have family and friends willing to help
But if i could have had one thing saved, it would have been my bubba, my little girl Zarya my family is distraught over her loss too, they saw her most weekends and when they visited. She was The Baby.
And of all things i was able to save something silly. A little tapastry thing id seqn to hang my badges on. Zarya 'helped' by trying to sit onit with the pins in and was offended when i moved her.. teenagers right? And then helped by playing Attack each time i moved itto putthe badges on.
I will miss her silliness and playful spirit.
Most of them were smoke coated but it came off well enough, a few are still damaged but i am going to try with a rough cloth or something. I cant replace most of them, they were from random kickstaers and shops and such over the years.
I have no undies and myboots melted and my daughter died and all my comics and manga are destoyed... buti got some of my badges back. Stupid isnt it?
The biggest issue is that mosthad thoselittle rubber backs and no qmount of scrubbing will remove the smokey firey smell from them meaning they arent safe to keep. Havr to replace them, have to get new things. Thinking about the safest wayto dispose of them i trash to prevent them ending upchoking fish or wildlife etc
And i think thats the worst part of grief, i have lost people and pets before to time or illness, but never anything like this. So young, so unexpected. So random.
The guilt eats you alive qith WHAT IFs and Could i have's...
There are moments you sob u controllably at a thought like knowing shell never snuggle up in bed like she did every night before... and then moments where everything is neutral and quiet and average. And you feel guilt for actingg like nothing has happened.
Life has to go on, but it hurts to see the wheels turning when shes noton the train anymore.
I have family qho i can be with, qork who will help me find somewhere new to stay as they hold the leases, and coworkers and friends who are sourcing things. I am luckier than many, 3ven with most things gone.
Its just that theres a switch inside that will hit grief at random times, and then snap back to nromalacy for hours until another reminder comes through.
Its so.stupid.
Its not fair and its fucking awful, but it happened and nothing can change it or bring her back. And that is just how random and cruel thw world can be.
My computer was annihilated so the typos are likely all through this. Its silly ut the idea of posting on social media where my friends and mutuals ive had for years are felt selfgratuitous in the worst way.
And over a day from the incident, i feel like srolling through tumblr ot twitter or whatever else is degrading her memory bc thats a normal activity, etc
Which is silly, but grief and anxiety and guilt are all buily into the same package and you never know which one will pop outof the box when the handles cranked.
But again, thank you for holding her little face in your hearts and memories.
She remains so fucking loved its like a physical pain, and that will never change. Forever the baby girl, forever Zarya.
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im talking about silly hex info i heard on witchtok again
i posted another version of this on tiktok too hopefully people are chill abt it
every now and i hear someone saying something about how you cant use salt in baneful magic and im just now processing that bc whaaaaatttttttt???????????????????????? salt????????????????? huh???????????????????????????????
spell ingredients have so much more potential when you think about why they could have the associations they do. metaphysical and physical properties are not isolated from each other. a big part of my practice is taking into consideration what items do for me physically, which is how I can find ways to use things like Tums and plastic in my workings. so what does salt do? its put in near everything to preserve it, it's absorbent, cleansing and its shape is useful to help roughly scrub surfaces, flavor enhancing, too much can damage a heart, some types are sharp, etc
AND REMEMBER NOT TO PUT SALT (except epsom salt thats fine) IN THE EARTH. ITS FUCKS UP THE SOIL SUPER BAD FOR A SUPER LONG TIME
and theres different types of salt too. maybe it depends of the brand but the celtic sea salt i have is pointy as hell. if you eat it raw (listen i have POTS okay) it will slice your tongue up and then dissolve as if it were never there. and yall dont think you can use that in a hex??????
im gonna drop some potential baneful uses for salt because its literally too easy (and remember to consider the people around your target. ex) abusers that feel bad will try to make it everyone elses problem so maybe find a way to protect potential victims)
every time someone is awful to you, put your anger, sadness, feelings of betrayal, into some salt. put all things you want to say to them in the salt. collect all the anger salt when you think it's gotten bad enough to the point you need to hex them, and use that in the hex. maybe you can pile it on top of a representation of them(the sharp celtic sea salt is good for this). or bake with the angry salt and gift it to them. BONUS: water can represent emotions, so get some water to represent their emotional state and dissolve that salt in there so your anger at them is now their anger at them and ideally it will either push them to change or torment them if they don't. and since its dissolved salt it will be a little harder for the target to identify a foreign influence
get a representation of them and scrub salt into it. celtic sea salt is good here too. this is good for very harshly scrubbing off their bullshit and bad habits or beliefs. yes this is cleansing your target. thats the point.
use it to bring out the qualities of like,, literally anything
salt sucks up water. water is very important. suck up their important water, (whatever you have the water represent, like energy, tranquility, resources, a certain emotion, etc ). let their well run dry.
use salt to set boundaries on your hex. contain where all the baneful energy is going so it doesn't spread to innocent people
remember how i said salt fucks up the earth. :))) if you wanna halt their growth for a long long time, represent them with a bowl of soil and salt it.
i adore salt and all her uses. she's in near everything for a reason.
im dissociating as i type this so if there's any typos dont worry about it
xx
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This may sound horrible but i feel like its a Thing and i never see it bwing talked about as you know, a Thing, but i feel like the portrayal of rape in horror is so incredibly rampant cause no one knows how to portray it the way it deserves to be portrayed, which is respectfully and with focus on the victim & their life. And then it's easier to stomach (and therefore this portrayal is used more often) because its not taken SERIOUSLY, directors and authors dont dive into the aftermath for the victim, they dont give it any emotional weight besides "this woman was raped and its awful but lets move on anyways" (saying woman cause cmon this happens almost exclusively to women on film/lit). But when you see a story that CENTERS around rape, and what it does to the victim (most poignant example i can think of is American Mary), it is so much more difficult to get through. Maybe this is a me thing, but thats how it works for me. I say this cause ive read a Number of books that make it into most "disturbing lit" lists and there's rape aspects sometimes, but i am able to keep reading because they are not portrayed adequately. The worst offender i can think of is Dead inside by Chandler Morrison (horrible book btw. Horribly written and has no redeeming qualities). Meanwhile i cant read memoirs or nonfiction about the subject cause it pains me so much and brings me close to a breakdown. Again maybe this is a horrible thing to say (that rape is more """palatable""" when not taken seriously) but i feel like its true.
Obviously nothing will ever change the fact that its awful in every way, and that the fact that i (and many other people in the horror community) have become desensitized to it is horrible. i shouldnt even have to say this but i dont want anyone to misunderstand me.
Theres also the fact that its used as, i dont know how to say it but it links to the "not portrayed properly" thing, just a thing that happens sometimes. no empathy or care shown for the victims, which is crushing really when you think about the fact that Yes, rape victims very much exist in real fucking life and seeing their experiences being portrayed in this way just has to be horrible.
Sorry this is an actual rant and i cant word things properly for the life of me, i know this is a serious subject and i tried to word it as best as i could and avoid typos.
#rape m#rape tw#rape#for the record i am not a rape victim ive only ever been sexually harassed#So sorry if this doesnt make sense just shoot me an ask
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tater i'm. so dumb i literally- ok so- also i can't backspace so if theres any typos i'm LEAVING THEM THERE thank u desktop tumblr but anyway. my brother told mye abt this thing that my brother's friend and also another friend of ours watched that literally caused one of them to not awant to get out of his car bc if *it was so terrifying but then-so i was liek ok can't be that bad. looked at pictures of the thing. it IS that bad. i fucking hate analog horror. however i am fascinated i'm literally watching an analysis video and am in a room nesxt to a room of other people and keep getting scared bc i can't seen anywa- i can't see anyone but i can Hear Them. in conclusion, i rlly need to stop thinking i can handl e horror, even though i can and have known this to be strue, bc i - like while i CAN . it's NOT UNF- F U N i love my lifte i'm so fucking studip idfknwekndlmds
god horror fucks me up sometimes man i have like specific times and moods i have to be in to watch it or else i am just paranoid for like the next day its awful i feel u man
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Morning Pages 1/21/2023
I wonder if there’s something about me posting my morning pages on tumblr that makes me think that i need to kind of edit myself or like “perform”. I like performing. Not all the time. Btu i do enjoy it because i’m good at it. I was always good at performing and doing what i was told. I’m very good at taking direction and my intuition and my empathy make me a great actor, i think. But i kind of never really stopped performing even when i wasnt in front of people. Or i tried to find people to perform in front of. I still do that today. Thats why i’m a fucking comic lol. I want to perform. I want to be laughed at and laughed with. I want ot make people laugh and i want to laugh at myself and laugh at life. Laughter is so healing. I laughed os much last night it was so much fun. I can’t believe jordan pointed out my typing lol. Im typing now and hes next to me and im so insecure about it lmfao. Well, i feel the insecurity but i;m not gonna let that stop me from doing what i want to do. Jaust cause i’m not mavis fucking beacon.
It did make me think though. In middle school and high school when we took computer class i didn’t care about the home row keys or i didnt care to practice proper technique. Its definitely not too late to learn. But now i’m getting this feeling like just because i dont type well or fast that means that i shouldnt be a writer or i shouldnt write out what i want to say. Ugh. i feel so insecure. Ok. let me see if i can use EK as a practice on this. I enjoy the sensation of “insecure” in my body. When i am outside of my body i can laugh. When i am outside of myself i can laugh. Inside i feel self conscious and insecure. I wonder if i can be inside my body, feel insecure, and still laugh with adoration and love, the way a parent would chuckle at their toddler. I would say “aw honey, you are a writer. Being a good story teller and being a good typer are two different things. You dont need to be a good story teller to be a good typo and vice versa. But if you want you can be both.” 14 year old me doesnt care if i’m a good typer. I dont think any part of me cares that i’m a good typer.
I see the ways where i still make fun of the younger versions of myself. Where i am annoyed. I want to transmute that annoyance to love. I wonder where the annoyance comes from. I think it comes from this part of me that wants control. That thinks i need to conform for safety or to be liked. Yeah. its the part of me that wants to be liked and validated by others. It doesnt want me to have feelings because feeling are annoying. Feelings made my parents feel uncomfortable. Im still attracting that because i am still annoyed by other peoples reactions. I’m so fixated on peoples reactions. I wonder what that is. Its definitely a learned thing form my parents. Gauging their reactions in order to make them happy. Learning how to act based on how they were acting. Then doing that with my friends in high school. And even in college. I’m constantly gauging people’s reactions and body language. They dont even have to give me words of affirmation. Just their reaction is enough for me.
I remember at one retreat i caught myself staring at David’s face. Not before he caught me first though. I felt so flustered and embarrassed and i still wonder why i was starting at him. Ugh. theres something in my heart thats like an electric jolt. I think i try to gauge the reactions of people i like so i can repeat whatever i did to get a good reaction out fo them. Fuck that manipulative. I wanna do that on stage. Thats the kind of vulnerability i need to bring on stage. Open up my power to read and gauge and know what to say and what will work. I write my own jokes now. Usually my jokes i get from other people, but now i can write my own. Set ups and punch lines that get bigger and bigger with waves. Look up the step to an effective sale. The energy moving should be like a chart. With the middle line being stasis an peace. Tension and release.
What is the line between tension and release. The orgasm? Orgasmic point? Opening point? I’ll figure it out.
Release
_______critical point__________
Tension
I feel these cramps going from the front of my reproductive system to the anus. This feels like my sacral being activated for some reason. I’m releasing something maybe. I feel something moving. Maybe i need to poop.
Ugh, even with that fancy diagram i made i still have a page and a half more to write. Blahhh. I dont know what else to type about. What am i feeling? Im feeling excited and i’m feeling maybe a bit gassy and hungry. Im feeling excited about all this stuff. I’m looking forward to work at the dispensary now so i can have some money to fund these projects. I’m excited for this project and i know its gonna be so much fun to build this with my friends.
Ok. i think i need to rrst and calm down now. There was a whole lot fo good, and we can have more good, i just feel myself getting to that havingness level again and i feel like touching on that feeling will make me spiral to the other side. I’m happy i got to talk about my feelings last night. Wow, what a novel idea. Look what happens when you trust other people with your truth, then they trust you with theirs. Lol. whoda thunk?
As I’m typing this i’m still feeling self conscious about my typing and now i think its funny. Lol. im happy that it was able to make him laugh at a time when he was going through something sad. Thats like what happened for me. When i was dealing with my dad’s death there were lots of funny and ridiculous things happening. It really was how my dad wanted to go. Im sad hes dead. I miss him. I wish i was equipped with the skills i have now. I wish i still didnt have this anger in my heart. I couldnt empathize with my father. I couldnt meet him where he was at because i wasnt able to hold my own level of depression. I wish i could have sat with my dad and said “i know what its liek to want to die” i think about it everyday. I think about how much easier it might be for others if im goine. But then i know everyone would be sad, and i would be sad, and i’m better off alive and figuring it out and being with the people i love, than for us being sad and apart. I know what its liek to want to put other people first in order to make them happy. But if im putting other people before my happiness whats gonna happen if other people are unable to show up for me? Then who will make me happy if not for myself? Who will tale care of me?
There is this codependency that i learned from my parents and from my culture. You expect your family to do things for you even though you have hurt them. And youre expected to do things for your family even though theyve hurt you. And there was no healthy way of fixing that rupture. I need to heal my own home. I’m used to being in unhealed homes. I’m used to broken home. My house was a broken home. Thats really sad. I was born with a heart too open for this world. I was born in a broken container. I grew up in a broken container. My only reality is broken and it feel safe and normal here. I want to get out of that brokenness. I want to get out and repair what has been damaged. I need to go into that wound where the blade was pulled out and out love in there. See where the cells need to rejoin, where the ligaments need to grow. And i need physical therapy. But i see myself moving, jumping, and loving so much more than i ever could before. I see myself mending the broken parts and truly creating an energetic container that is safe for me to be in. and i want to share it with other not because i feel like i have to, but also because i want to share it. I know what this kind of joy brings and i want others ot feel it. I want others to feel the love that i have felt.
I’m feeling something on my right side, like under neath my side boob. It might just be a cramp.
I have jordan resting next to me now. I really like them. I like being around them and holding them and talking to them about the universe. I like learning new things from them and i like sharing what i know. I like when they listen to what i have to say and give me heartfelt and honest responses. I’m very grateful they exist in my world. I’m grateful for all the event that led me to this present point where after i post this i get to turn to them, kiss then on the cheek and hold them. I’m very lucky.
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me before meeting a dog: oh i do love cats but that doesnt mean i think dogs are bad either, i just like cats a lot more (probs a deep psychological thing, to love things society has deemed "unlovable", projecting probs ha) also its been a long time since ive seen a dog, so maybe my opinon will change when i see one again??? also dogs i see in pic seem so nice!
me meeting a dog: WHAT IS THIS FUCKING THING OH MY GOD PLEASE GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY GET AWAY FROM ME STOP STOP STOP FUCK NO NIGHTMARE BEING WHAT THE FUCK NO I HATE YOU SO MUCH GLAD THE FEELINGS MUTUAL GOD FUCK THIS PLANET AND EVERYTHING ON IT YOU FUCK STOP STOP STOP
#theres a typo in this post but basically 'and if i had the option to delete all dogs from this world i wouldnt' is the gist#listen.#no listen.#dogs are good beings ok#they make a lot of people very very happy#and if i had the option to dogs from this word#i wouldnt. ever.#but good GOD i hate dogs#like so fucking much#am i gonna hurt dogs? no fuck no.#if you do that *youre* the monster#they deserve happiness love and care#just 9838993749498109841273773571456 miles away from thank you very much#this was such a tramatic experience#like really. it was really fucking awful.#like i never want that to happen again. ever.#me: STOP NO NO dog owner: oh dont worry this is normal dog behavior haha me: dO I LOOK LIKE I GIVE A FUCK#ahhh i love being able to hate things#theraputic#uvi says shit#btw come at me with an axe and all you get is a raised eyebrow#rip u but sometimes ppl have different opinions lol
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IUI - Roach is Baby
Wifey told me Jask needs to meet Roach and fuck she was RIGHT
warnings: I... went a little horse girl on main? sorry? no triggers, just cuteness. also i was tipsy whilst writing the last half so like... im sorry if theres typos or its unreadable lol
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“I’m sorry. I just have to go check on Roach before we go to dinner,” Geralt cringed as he turned away from the restaurant Jaskier had wanted to go to.
Jaskier just put a foot on Geralt’s dash and made himself comfortable, “Oh what’s wrong with our baby?”
“Our baby?” Geralt nearly swerved into a ditch.
“I’ve seen enough pictures and heard enough stories that I happen to have grown attached. Now answer my question,” Jaskier didn’t seem phased at all. In fact, he seemed to think it was perfectly normal to just adopt your partner’s animals after three months of dating.
Geralt took a steadying breath and tried not to read into it. Jaskier said wild things all the time, he was just beginning to get used to it, “She got her teeth floated.”
Jaskier was quiet for a moment, tapping Bonnie the Blue Footed Boobie on his thigh, “I’m having some horrible image of pumping her mouth full of water until her teeth come out, please tell me what this means.”
“Horse dentist filed down the sharp bits of her teeth so she can chew better.”
“Oh! Ow!”
“Oh no, they sedate the horses. That’s why I didn’t answer last night. I- uh. Didn’t want to leave her in case she laid down and got cast.”
Jaskier shifted and peered at him over the rim of his sunglasses with a fond smirk, “Sweetheart, I don’t speak Horse Girl.”
“Cast is… cast? Getting stuck laying down? But stuck on or under something? Once Roach did it by rolling on a pile of shavings I hadn’t spread yet so she couldn’t roll back over where she had room to get up. I had to pull her back over it by her legs…” he chuckled at the memory then paused as he turned into the barn’s driveway, “I see how this sounds odd.”
Jaskier sat upright and leaned forward, mouth open in awe as he took in the stables that looked like something straight out of a high(er) budget daytime soap, “So this is why you live in a studio.”
Geralt sighed as he parked the truck in front of Roach’s barn in between the indoor arena and the massive covered wash racks, “Yup.”
Jaskier got a brief tour, or more accurately, he followed Geralt to Roach’s stall and pointed at things and asked questions the entire time. There were so many horses. He’d never seen a horse up close, except for that one mounted police officer on his trip to Canada and that wasn’t an all too fond memory. He was almost vibrating with excitement when they reached Roach’s stall.
Geralt stepped in and greeted her so softly Jaskier thought he might faint, “Hey, Ro. How’s my sweet girl?”
She pressed her forehead into the hand he held up and nickered. Geralt just laughed and scratched under the little tuft of long hair between her ears. He leaned forward to give her a kiss and whispered something in her ear that Jaskier couldn’t catch despite his best efforts.
Geralt turned back to face Jaskier, looping one of his arms over Roach’s neck and giving him a proud almost-smile, “Wanna come say hi?”
Jaskier ever so hesitantly stepped down into her stall, “She won’t step on my toes if she doesn’t like me right?”
“She might. She’s never met someone in Berks and daisy dukes,” Geralt winked as he ran his fingers through Roach’s mane.
Jaskier took a moment to register his sarcasm and flipped him off with a grin. Geralt gently gripped his wrist and manipulated his hand into a flat surface, popping a sugar cube in his palm.
“Just keep your hand flat and let her sniff you. She’s easy to win over,” Geralt’s voice was unbearably fond and Jaskier found him watching his face more than the horse reaching her nose toward his outstretched hand.
It was one of two times since he’d known Geralt that he didn’t have at least one solid worry line in his forehead. Hell, his whole body was more relaxed.
Roach took the sugar cube and explored his hand, wiggling her upper lip over his palm and wrist before snorting and shaking her head.
Jaskier yelped and jumped back, earning a confused head bob from Roach and a laugh from Geralt, “It’s okay. Something just tickled her nose.”
“She’s just so big…” Jaskier muttered, stepping forward and holding his hand out just like Geralt had shown him.
“You can pet her too.”
Jask just brushed his fingertips over the white patch on her face but she pressed into him, bobbing her head a bit to use his hand to scratch at a certain spot between her eyes.
“Oh! Hello! Does this mean she likes me?”
Geralt’s smile covered his whole face, another thing Jaskier had only seen a handful of times, “She does. You want to go for a ride?”
“Now!? In shorts?!”
“Oh no, sometime next week maybe? You’re not supposed to ride for a couple days after a float.” Geralt started running his hands over her back and belly, then her legs as if he was looking for something. He pinched right at the peak of her rump, making her flinch a little bit and swish her tail, which he seemed satisfied with. Then he pushed at her middle, just gently leaning against her and watching her feet. When nothing happened he seemed pleased and moved on to checking her water and kicking around some of the shavings and, to Jaskier’s disgust, poop.
“Darling what are you looking for?”
“Anything unusual. She looks fine though,” he draped his arms over her back, now on opposite sides from Jaskier, “Could I convince you to walk her up and down the breezeway for me?”
Was this the date night Jaskier had been expecting? No. Was it absolutely adorable and delightful to see Geralt so clearly in his element? Fuck yes. He giggled and played little games with Roach and was so gentle and patient with both Roach and Jaskier. It was, so far, the best date they’d been on, first one included. Jaskier had gotten a little peek at who Geralt was when he was truly at home.
After a brief and very goofy showmanship lesson, they strolled out of the barn with Geralt’s arm draped over Jask.
“I’m sorry. Restaurant’s probably full by now…” Geralt sighed, opening Jaskier’s door for him.
Jask hopped up on the seat and pulled Geralt to stand between his knees, “I don’t give a flying fuck about where we eat. This was lovely.”
There was a look in Geralt’s eyes that reminded Jask of a little kid being told they could play outside for one more hour, “Really? You had fun?”
“Of course, darling,” Jask mumbled as he pulled Geralt further into a kiss, “Just give me heads up next time so I can wear my boots.”
“You have cowboy boots?”
“Well they’ve got a rather high heel… but they’re still technically cowboy boots.”
Geralt leaned his head back and laughed, “I’m getting you barn boots.”
“If you insi-,” Jaskier shrugged, cut off by Geralt’s lips on his, where they stayed for several minutes.
They were definitely too late for a table.
#geraskier#inked up idiots#tattoo au#geraskier tattoo au#geraskier tattoo#geraskier fluff#soft geraskier#geraskier boyfriends#geralt is a horse girl#tattooer jaskier#tattoo artist jaskier#weanie geralt#the witcher#the witcher au#the witcher tattoo au#geralt of rivia#geralt of rivia fic#jaskier#jaskier fic#tattooer jaskier fic#this is so fucking self indulgent yall have no idea
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Fearfull Proposal
Summary: henry plans a romantic proposal... and instead of coming clean about your secret fear of heights and ruining his romantic plan, you put on a brave face... well until your nearing the top of the london eye.
Warnings: fear, fluff, swearing, typos.
You quivered as you rose higher and higher over londons skyline.
Fuck why? Why the fuck had you got in this dangling glass death trap.
A faulty few bolts and you'd be plummeting into the fucking thames!
Henry was standing by the window looking out at the glittering lights in awe.
You were standing with your back turned to the houses of Parliament hands clutching the rail eitherside of you knuckles white. Knees knocking.
God this was the stupidest thing you'd ever fucking done! And it was your own fault.
"Babe, look! God big ben looks soo small never been on this at night"
You hummed nodding but continued looking to the floor.
Henry paused when you didnt correct him with the whole 'big ben is the bell' you usually countered
He turned looking back to you
and his stomach dropped.
"Babe? Whoa are you okay there love?" He asked frowning as he saw your eyes clenched shut almost as if you were in pain.
You were trembling and pale to the point he fearded youd pass out.
"Here come sit down and relax, i packed some snacks-" he said placing the specially packed bag of snacks and screw top mini wine bottles.
"No! No I'm fine... I will just stay here... By the saftey bar" you said giggling nervously sparing him a glance and patting the metal you were holding onto for dear life..
Henry faltered and really took in your apperance unsure what to do.
It wasn't like he could get you off, you had to ride the ride.
"Babe? Are you scared of heights?"
"Nooo dont be sillyeee- OH MY GOD IM GONNA FUCKING DIE!" you began laughing him off then screamed as the ride stopped.
Instantly you ducked crouching whilst wrapping your arms around the silver bar shouting bloody murder.
It didn't help you were bathed in purple light so couldn't see shit.
Henry got up and rushed to you standing over you arms rounding you holding you securly.
"No, no its fine love... shh its fine baby, they said it could stop to let people on poppet remember?" He said quickly rubbing your sides as you cowered trying to fend off the temptation to look at the thames below.
"Y-yeah fuck hen- im sorry i just..." you mewled turning towards him tucking your head to his chest.
"Scared of heights huh? Why didnt you tell me?" He sighed pressing kisses to your head as you whimpered adn the ride began moving once again.
"Because you went to all this trouble, you planned this surprise and i didnt want to ruin it, you were soo excited" you sniffled blinking at him.
"Hey shh you silly girl, you should have told me. You wouldnt have ruined anything you silly sausage" he cooed winding himself around you tighter.
He was actually annoyed at himself, how the fuck had he not known his girlfriend of a year and a half was scared of heights?
He'd suspected a fear of heights when you both went on holiday for your birthday, but youd managed to convince him it was a fear of flying and planes... not heights.
And come to think of it you didnt even like the glass lifts in shopping centers, you ran to the corner and held on eyes locked onto the doors the entire time.
So this was the worst surprize he could of planned for tonight. Things weren't going to plan. Fuck.
"Babe im sorry" he apologised feeling like an asshole.
"No no dont be, this was extremly sweet bear" you said quickly not wantin to make him feel bad fpr your own short commings.
"Theres noting sweet about terrifying you"
"Do... do you want to sit down? Ill hold you the entire time" he offered peaking to the central bench where both your bags sat.
"I.. yes okay i think sitting will be better" you said then yipped as he prompty scooped you up and placed you in his lap securly.
"Im so sorry love, I just wanted to make this special and romantic" he muttered holding you as close as he could letting you know that you were safe and sound.
"It is! It is love really im just a baby" you said quickly grasping his face pulling him closer before peppering his face with kisses.
"Your not a babe we all have our fears" he said quietly pressing his forehead to yours.
"You dont" you sighed closing your eyes trying to ignore the snails pace of the pod that still rose over london.
You could barely feel it, but your fear amplified it.
"Oh but i do~" he replied peering at you, as yur eyes fluttered open.
"Like what?" The questionnescaped before you could think.
"No" he said eyes now becoming worried, anxiety clouding them.
"No?"
"Yes, at the moment thats my biggest fear" he said releasing a shakey breath as you frowned at him not following but didnt dwell as your ees darted to the side seeing the houses
"You see, i was trying to be all romantic and wait untill we got tp the top, but i think you'll be too terrified"
"Henry?" You said leaning back unsure about the serious tone he seemed to take.
"I brought us here, to the spot we met two years ago today..." he said drawing deeper breaths as the reality of what was about to happen hit him.
"Was it really?" You asked surprized he'd remember something like that. Anniversary? Definitely. But the day you first met? And asked for a selfie with a series of embarrassing squeaks? No you didnt think he'd remember.
"Yep. I remember doing a promo and shoot on this thing, then got off and was sat next to you in wagamama"
"And i squeaked for a selfie" you groaned with a small giggle.
"Im glad you did, i scanned instagram for days after- scouring my hashtag trying to find you... i kicked myself for not getting your number~"
"I still cant belive you did that... but im gld you did henry"
"Who'd have thought the nervous little thing trying not to even breath in my direction would be my girlfriend six months down the line"
"Or that we'd last this long?" You quipped at him trying to reme,ber to breath.
"And.. hopefully a lifetime? Despite me dragging you intoyour actual living nightmare- which i promise to never do again! Not even lifts"
You scowled and tilted your head to him not sure if you heard him correctly.
Untill he pulled the small velvet box from his pocket.
"Henry?! What? You cant be serious?"
"Oh but i am love, as much as i want to do this right and drop to one knee i doubt you'll thank me for releasing you?"
"Dont you dare let me go!"
"I think you'll find im trying to do the opposite~" he chuckled opening the box revealing the simple elegant ring three tiny diamonds.
"Im trying to marry you..."
You gasped eyes glazing over as you locked on to the dainty ring pinched between his fingers.
"I love you y/n, and i want to know if you'd become my wife and share your life with me. Will you marry me?"
"Oh god yes of course its a yes henry i love you bear!" You cried throwing your arms around him making him grunt and quickly clench his fist arohnd the ring before he dropped it.
He groaned into you rocking from side to side littering your head with kisses before peeling you away to sit the ring on your finger.
You looked at the glittering stones on your finger weeping. You may have been cursing yourself for getting into this godforsaken glass bauble in the sky.
But now you were he happiest woman alive.
"I love you bear"
"I love you too"
"Would you like some wine? I brough the little cute bottles you like" he offered nodding to the bag of snacks.
"Err lets not push it hun" you whined not sure wine at this altitude was a good idea.
You kept glancing at him still sniffing and giggleing unable to look from your ring for long.
"Gotcha, no wine"
"You look surprized i said yes?"you quipped needing to talk and take your mind off the fact your at the tippity top.
"I made you face one of your nightmares i thought you'd slap me silly when i ask" he scoffed pressing a kiss to your cheek unable to stop.
"Never love... but please never ever get on this thing again okay?" You pleaded fluttering your lashes at him pleading.
"I swear. Never again, but seeing as this is our one and only ride we should take a few selfies? Mark the occasion?" He said standing letting your feet hit the floor but never once did he let go.
"Absolutly, gotta show off my new fiancé" you hummed rising to share another kiss with him not really paying attention to the height you'd now reached, you had more important things to think about. Like sharing the rest of your life with this glorious man.
"My thoughts exactly" he grinned pulling out his phone aiming it at the two of you, makeing sure to have the hand that rested on his chest donning his ring in shot.
#henry cavill#henry cavill imagine#oh for fic sake headcannon#henry cavill x reader#henry cavill x you#henry cavill x y/n
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sometimes im like “am i also a hypocrite because tommy is my fav cc but c!tommy is also my fav on the smp?” but then i remember dream, techno and phil are also some of my absolute fav ccs but i have so much anger and annoyance at their characters so im like hmm mayhaps not
also im not an “apologist” god i hate that word SO MUCH JINERFBJKGFDJK i just see a lot of justification/reasoning behind tommys actions and i do think hes also done a lot of wrong, but the thing is, hes gotten punished SO MUCH unlike 90% of the other characters on the smp which is big ouchies
also cc!wilbur is also my absolute fav, and c!wilbur is one of my fav characetrs who i also love but critise a lot but also understand hes got many issues, doesnt mean hes excused or completely evil, hes just complicated and a sympathetic character whos very confusing and deep
idk i just hate the whole “apologism” thing going on in the fandom it pisses me off because its either people doing no critical thinking and jsut latching onto characters becuase, either its their fav cc, they think that a character is either Completely Evil or Never Done Anythign Bad Ever, or not beign an apologist but usign that title, because apparently now it means “fav character” which PISSES ME OFF AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
like, if i see “c!tommy apologist” im like.. uhhh idk i dont agree hes never done anything wrong (unless im saying it as a joke) he actually has many flaws and fucked up plenty of times, but hes one of the most justified and understandable characters out there in my opinion, i agree with most of what hes done, and if i dont i usually feel “this was a really bad decision but i understand why u felt the need to do that”
but if i see someone calling themself a c!dream apologist?? holy shit my fight or flight instinct is activated. because its SUPPOSED to mean “i agree with all the characetrs actions and think hes completely justified in everything hes done, he has done no wrong” which. when i look at c!dream im just liek HUH???????????? because theres a difference between being like “this guy is evil and i think thats fun, i like villains” and “actually i think this character who has done evil and awful things and actually abused people is in the right haha” and its like what. but then sometimes its people who just?? enjoy dreams characters and are more sympathetic to hima nd actually make some good points and im just like WHY DO YOU CALL YOURSELF AN APOLOGIST WHEN YOURE NOT OIJFEDKBJNGFNJ
like i was saying. i just despise the word “apologist” and the discourse of “a character is either completely morally correct and justified in EVERYTHING or theyre a complete bad guy” and its like. guys thats just not how it works
sorry for this long nonsense ramble but these are just thoughts ive had in my head for a long time and it just makes me mmmmmmmm
i know i did like 900 typos in here but idc im not going back to check
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Week 3, Day 7
Safety cut, line breaks where the original posts ended.
The Final Day
“I bet you don’t even know what the word ‘nervous’ means.”
“‘Ey, why you gotta call me out like dat, Phones?”
I have missed these two. :’) For the record, I’m fucking terrified.
OKAY THE CITY BEING THIS DARK IS AWFUL I HATE IT. NOPE.
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Beat. Answer your phone. It’s probably Rhyme. BEAT. THE PHONE. NOW.
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Why. *facepalm*
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I may have zoomed right past Kariya and Uzuki with Soundsurf before I even registered they were there. Thankfully the game didn’t let me zoom too far. >.>
I simultaneously have the warm fuzzies cuz ~teamwork~ and a yawning abyss of dread in my stomach cuz this is it.
I’ve always hated those last talks before the final battle. They make you so horrifically aware of exactly how much you stand to lose, even if you win.
I do not like that I have to go to Udagawa to meet Kaie. I am hella paranoid about that place. Aaaah.
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Shout out to Hishima standing there to tell me he’s looking for someone? And then not telling me who? Bruh.
Kaie is waiting for someone who holds incredible power of the non-supernatural variety. So Rhyme or Shiki? Cuz everyone else is currently accounted for or VERY supernatural.
Well that was a weird detour.
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An aside: Beat is all grown up and doesn’t flail at his full name anymore.
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Beat Shiba. There’s no way this is real.
Oh now time has stopped. Good. THE PEOPLE ARE TURNING INTO NOISE WHAT. (This is about to descend into an unreadable mess I suspect. Sorry.)
How did I get a B I almost died. I think that meteor thing almost managed to hit eesh. Alright. Here comes the shit storm.
Oooh Rindo. Straight savage. I love his habit of throwing people’s words back that them. It’s the best kind of fuck you. It’s way too early to celebrate my dudes. There’s still no way we’re done.
“Executor”? Oh I do not like that.
Damn he died without going Noise.
I had really hoped Kubo wasn’t coming back. This was very naive.
4:44:44. Of course.
Also, OH FUCK. RINDO’S PIN JUST ERUPTED KUBO IS THE SOURCE OF THE DISSONANCE I CAN’T THINK WHAT DO.
NO DON’T YOU HU- NEKUUUUUUUUUUU!! He. He. He killed… he erased Neku. No. no no nononononononoooooo. And the Inversion-!
What IS he?! (I think I’ve gone non-verbal oh dear)
Another Angel. It’s official. I hate the higher plane. I didn’t like them before, the whole business with how cut off the Composer is has always struck me as designed to fail and massively fuck up but this. This is so much worse.
Why?! Why would… Why would they decide to destroy Shinjuku and Shibuya..?
Shit, Rindo has been Kubo’s proxy. Shit shit. This is so much worse than the reveal that Neku was Joshua’s proxy. Joshua hadn’t actually DONE IT yet. This fucker has actively done it once and is in the middle of succeeding again. Oh god.
Minamimoto. He was looking for a way to consume and control the Noise Rindo was generating. That’s why he needed a sample. His first attempt didn’t work and it fucked him up, like the Plague Noise have been doing all week. Shit I really hope he’s had time to figure it out. I vote we go back, un-erase Neku before I throw up, find Sho, get him fucking cooperate for once in his existences, no that’s not a typo he’s died like 4 times, then destroy the pin before Fuckwad here can call the Noise out of it.
We’ll only get one shot though.
I’m gonna unpause now.
Okay watching Shoka get got like that. That was. Extremely unnecessary.
I do not envy Rindo having to explain all this oh boy.
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It just registered that we’re about to try to kill AN ANGEL. Fuck me. I remember Panthera Cantus. Oh boy.
I don’t know how well talking to Shiba is going to work, when he’s probably the way he is because Fuckwad did something to him on a Soul level.
Lmao that went poorly. Shocker. And now, a scavenger hunt across time~
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The scavenger hunt has yielded
Hishima and Shiba used to be good friends but Hishima refuses to be overtly helpful
Rhyme has mad hacking skills and Beat still hasn’t looked at his damn phone
“Must be from a higher plane. Everyone from up there is some kind of weirdo, let me tell you.” KARIYA. WHAT. HOW MANY HAVE YOU MET!? Also like, most of the Reapers aren’t supposed to know about this shit. I remember the secret reports very well thanks. Only the Composer knows they exist.
Coco called Fuckwad a must, dusty, crusty old cretin and this gives me LIFE. Otherwise was very unhelpful.
Uzuki just had an ‘oh my god they were partners’ moment re: Hishima and Shiba and I’m half giggling cuz my brain made it a meme and half having Feels cuz “things go south with your partner and then that’s it?” halp my emotions.
SHE JUST CALLED HIM HELLO!? XD UZUKI I LOVE YOU. SHE STILL HAS NO CHILL SHE’S JUST MORE PRODUCTIVE ABOUT IT.
“Can you imagine? Being played like that… and then having everyone just abandon you like you’re nothing?” It wasn’t until Fuckwad said what he is that I stopped being out for blood. I was assuming that whatever had happened to change Shiba, he had played a part in it himself. But if someone that much more powerful came and started messing with his head and his soul then yeah, he deserves to be snapped out of that and to be himself again. If what he became isn’t his own fault, if it wasn’t because he messed with something he shouldn’t have, then yeah. Make this stop. Then we’ll see.
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Damn Hishima going straight for the jugular. Respect.
We got our cease-fire for now though. Shoutout to Neku casually reassuring him we’ll fight him to the death if shit doesn’t kick off. Like that’s totally normal. Aiya.
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A thought, as Fuckwad is gloating over how screwed we are: Minamimoto want’s to “approach infinity”. Which in this case might not mean ‘I want to be Composer’, it might mean ‘I’m trying to make the jump to Angel’. In which case… That would be very good for us, I think. Certainly couldn’t be worse, at any rate.
(Exact line I’m on: If you thought that Noise gave you a good beating last time around, just wait till you see it now. You kids are in for a world of hurt. (No, I am not typing out his weird lisp thing.))
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Oh gooooooooood damn it not again.
OH MY GOD SHOKA IS- SHOKA IS SWALLOW!?!?! HELLO!?!?!? I had completely forgotten Swallow even existed with all the madness.
THat. THaT JUST HAPPENED
AND FUCKING HE BROKE OUR PIN NO NONONONO OKAY OKAY HOW ARE WE GETTING OUT OF THIS THERES A WAY WHAT IS IT
Hello giant beam of light what??? I am massively confused. How. What. I do not understand what is happening. What is. GOING ON.
This post is long as fuck I’mma just make a new one.
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PLEASE tell us about scenepunk partyghoul
you do not know what you have askd for. i have so many thoughts. you are getting an entire not!fic/fic outline here (also its 4am prepare fr typos this took so long to write my wrists hurt)(also put it under a cut bc it got LONG)
so basically it started with me Hating the pastelxpunk trope and making it Better. that is not important context but i also want it to be known
party is. Obnoxiously scene. they can and will pretend it is still 2007. the world past 2012 does not exist in their eyes. absolute king of kandi bracelets and neons you WILL get a headache from looking at them. they are the reason their school changed the rules about what hairstyles arent allowed and they r proud. did i mention this is sorta hs au. anyway they end up goig 2 a lot of local shows bc when it comes 2 alt music you cannot pick and choose in a relatively small city. reminder they are WILDLY scene they CAN and WILL glow in the dark from the amount of glow sticks they wear
ghoul is PUNK. and i mean he is properly PUNK he has the aesthetic the mindset the music. all r nothin baybe! and also. Doesnt like scene kids. bc headache inducing. he always has a shitton of patches on everything and makes most of them himself r they were gifts and like. hngh i just think he is Neat. patches nd denim jackets and doc martens that are falling apart nearly. so hes from the Big City and jus moved 2 party/kobra/jets town (they r childhood frendz) at the start o summer (YES TIMING IS IMPORTANT U WILL SEE) and is getting in2 the local alt scene.
and at one of these super cool shows he sees party poison fr the first time and is. Woah. theyre BRIGHT. and party is like used 2 ppl staring bc theyre the only super scene kid around but GOD, that guy doesnt seem 2 b staring in the GOOD way bc ghoul is fucking blind but refuses 2 wear glasses and cannot see anything other than Neon Blur (i am projecting here. also thats a cool kj name) but he KNOWS thats a scne kid so hes glaring bc this is a misfits cover band Why Are You Here kinda thing i guess? and partys all “whats up with you, fucker?” bc theyre defensive and impulsive and ghoul flat out punches them (he swears he was aiming fr their shoulder. but he also couldnt see very well. so he hit their face) and they end up getting thrown out fr fighting and they hate each other now.
and then. one day. kobra jet and party are all chillin sewhwere public. and party goes off probably to claires bc theres a sale and they Need more gloves and when they come back That Kid from the show is there???? talking to kobra and jet???? and party is like “kobes wht rh FUCK???????” and koba nd jet r just like. uhm. s this is fun ghoul? the guy? we told you about him? and party is like OU DIDNT SAY HE WAS DOUCHEBAG PUNK GUY!!!!!! and ghoul is like gay panicking bc they can actually See party now and Fuck Theyre Pretty but also PARTY POISON YOUR SIBLING AND TRUSTED FRIEND IS ANNOYING SCENE KID????????? ANDALSOREALLYCUTEOHDESTROYAHELPME but kobra and jet catch on and are like “nuh uh ur both coo people no fighting when we r around keep ur dumb little spat between urselves” and ghoul nd poison r like “>:( fine >:(” except secretly ghoul is :flushed: :pleading: :flushed:
so we fast forward 2 school starting in september and since i dont fuking understand the american school system, kobra is a year below ghoul&party and jet is a year ahead but somehow ghoul has classes w kobra bc i want them to and it is plot relevant. so ghoul and kobra bcome friends bc obviously they do and ghoul jet nd kobra hang out a lot bc party is Busy With Things i guess?? but like ghoul and party have a class 2gether and even tho they both have 2 tone down the aesthetics fr school they still intentionally annoy each othr in discreet ways
nd they sorta? keep that up? but ghoul and poison both realise “aw fuck, theyre actually. super cool” but both have chroic Cannot Admit My Mistakes disease so they resort to no longer plotting murder but PINING bc “oh noooo they hate meeee how sadddd” but theyre BOTH pining and think the other hates them. so to compensate thy keep doing little flirts in their own ways? party special orders darker kandi beads so they can make ghoul a bracelet that matches their aesthetic but ghoul of course knowns nothing of kandi and just. accepts it. and kobra and jet are like :bonk: bc WHAT THE FUCK???? cause they have baincells sorta kinda. and of course ghoul flirts by handsewing a patch fr party with ALSO special ordered neon thread and party is ALSO oblivious. this happens bc i think it is hilariously adorable that in their own subcultures thy r basically shoving signs saying DATE ME!!!!! I LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!!n each others faces but they dont know enough abt eachother to know that. miscommunicaion and gay pining. mmm yummy.
nd at this point they r Very Close 2gether and ghoul hands party the choker back ad is like ,,,csn you,,, help me put it on,,,? and it is very very charged as ghoul moves their hair out of the way for party to reach up and fasten the hoker and ghoul KNOWS they should TURN AOUND so party can see better and party KNOWS they should move their hands away from the ghouls neck even when theyve fastened it and they BOTH know theyr standing Very Close and partys hands r sota half holding ghouls shoulders nd partially his face and ghoul is just. Staring. and then they both sorta lean in and :)))) kith. and jetndkobra are like THANK FUCKING GOD FINALLY and party nd houl r like WE WERE HAVING A MOMENT also wdym FINALLY i totally couldnt tell they liked me! then they look at eah other like. HOW DID YOU NOT KNOW I LIKED YOU??????? HOW???? I GAVE YOU PATCHES/KANDI BRACELTS THATS BASICALLY A MARRIAGE PROPOSAL and then kith more. :)))) liddol homos
then,,,,,,,, one day the four r at the mall and the tension is THICK bs ghoul has an Extra Special patch they spent ages on and party has a very awesome kandi/chain? choker they spent ages designing and they r both convinced This will b the gift that shows the other how they feel (spoiler alert It Does Not) and jet and kobes r like. right fuk this WE are gonna go. to the food court. or something. somewhere Not Here. and ghoul nd poison r just :heart eyes: yeah sure,,,,, and they both like,,, shyly reach in2 their bags,,, nd are like :flushed oh? you uh :flushed: u got me smth too? :flushed: bc gay idiots. and party is like OH MY GOD GHOUL THIS IS SO COOL WHERE D YOU GET ALL THESE PATCHES THIS IS LIKE MADE FR ME I LOVE IT andghouls like ,,, i made it,,,,, for you,,,,,,,, uhm,,,,,,, and party gives him the choker nd is like ,,,oh,,, well uh,,,, i also,,,, made this,,,,, for you,,,,,, like you specifically,,,,,,,,
anyway. you were not expecting this. it took almost an hour. its 5am. this was very fun though cant wait for the day (never) that i write this as a real fic
jet and kobra watch every interaction with amusement and horror bc they like. understand what the two are doing. and they both TRY talk 2 party nd ghoul bc party nd ghoul are convinced the other hates them bc theyre fucking idiots.
#lickthatbattery#im sorry if u werent. expecting this. but i needed 2 get my thoughts down#scenepunk au#partyghoul#killjoys#mypost#myfic#long post#edit: made it my pinned im very happy w this i love this au#i know kobra nd jet arent in it much... its partyghoul. if i wrote it fully there would b scenes w them more#danger days#ttlofk#ttlotfk#ages later i noticed two paragraphs are out of order im so sorry oml
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