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midnightsslut · 1 month

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actually maybe folklore is an album about looking back on all the things that have made you go from a wild, innocent, open child to a damaged, pained, often duplicitous adult

#hence ‘our coming of age has come and gone’ on track 15 #a song about all the trauma that pulled you apart as the original closer #and a song about withdrawing from the things that are killing you accepting all that pain and finding peace with your lover #while excavating that trauma for art #as the real closer #that’s why seven - this is me trying - peace - hoax - the lakes kind of sum up the entire story #of the album #folklore #the lakes #mirrorball #this is me trying #seven #hoax

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inkskinned · 2 years

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kids remind me, often, of the things i've taught myself out of.

i have a big dog. he looks like a deer. he is taller than most young children. while we were on a trail the other day, a boy coming our direction saw us and froze. he took a step back and said: "i'm feeling nervous. your - your dog is kind of big."

goblin and i both stopped walking immediately. "he is kind of a big dog," i admitted. "he's called a greyhound. they are gentle but they are pretty tall, which is kind of scary, you're right. their legs are so long because they are made for running fast. i am sorry we scared you. would you like us to stand still while you move past us, or would you feel more safe in your body if we move and you stay still?'

"oh. i didn't know that about - greyhounds. i think i ... i want to stay still," he said. at this point, his adult had caught up to us. "i'm nervous about the dog," he told her, "so i'm - i'm gonna stay still." she didn't argue. she didn't make fun of him. she just smiled at him and at me and held his hand while goblin and i, with as wide of a berth as we could make, crept our way through.

behind us, i heard him exhale a deep breath and kind of laugh - "he was really big, huh? she said it's because greyhounds have to go fast."

"he was big," she said. "i understand why that could have made you a little scared."

"yeah. next time i - next time do you think i could maybe ask to touch him? when - i mean, next time, maybe, if i'm not nervous."

later, going to a work event, in the big city, i stood outside, trembling. my social anxiety as a caught bird in my chest. i took a deep breath and turned to my coworker. she's not even really my friend yet. i told her: "i feel nervous about this. i am not used to meeting new people, ever since covid."

she laughed, but not in a mean way. she said she was nervous too. she reached her hand out and held mine, and we both took another deep breath and walked in like that, interlinked. a few people asked us - together? - and i told the truth: i feel nervous, and she's helping. over and over i watched people relax too, admitting i feel really kind of shy lately actually, thank you for saying that.

the next time i go to an event, and i feel a little scared, i ask right away: wanna hold hands? this feels a little dangerous. i hesitate less. i don't hide it as much. i watch for other people who are also nervous and say - it's kinda hard, huh?

i know, logically, i'm not good at asking for help. but i am also not good at noticing when i need help. i've trained myself out of asking completely, but i've also trained myself to never accept my own fears or excuses. i have trained myself to tamp down every anxiety and just-push-through. i don't know what i'm protecting myself from - just that i never think to admit it to anyone.

but every person on earth occasionally needs comfort. every person on earth occasionally needs connection. many of us were taught independence is the same thing as never needing anything.

each of us should have had an adult who heard - i feel nervous and held our hand and asked us how we could be helped to feel safe. no judgement, and no chiding. many of us did not. many of us were punished for the ways that we seemed "weak".

but here is something: i am an adult now. and i get nervous a lot, actually. and if you are an adult and you are feeling a little nervous - come talk to me. we can hold hands and figure out what will help us feel safe in our bodies. and maybe, next time, if we're brave, we can pet the dog that's passing.

#spilled ink #warm up #so i have worked in childcare as a teacher for like 15 years #hence the language behind ''what helps you be safe in your body?''#like you can tell by what i say here i have EXPERIENCE with kids.#but tbh the REAL teacher moment is watching a 6/7 year old say #''this makes me nervous #can you please not come closer?''#as a teacher i was IMMEDIATELY like ... ahh whomever is raising you is doing an EXCELLENT job holy shit #verbalizing your fears? trusting an adult to listen?#ability to recognize a way you might feel safer?#like .... this kid's caregivers.... that one moment... i was like .... who are u i wanna french kiss you big on the mouth

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marzipanandminutiae · 10 months

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quotes by Victorians about the 1920s view of their generation's women

"We are frequently told that the Victorian woman...generally behaved like a pampered and neurotic infant. This is all moonshine. I do not think that I ever saw a woman faint before I came to London in 1869, and not often after then...they enjoyed a hearty laugh, and a good many of them a contest of wits with any man." -Nineteenth Century, a Monthly Review, 1927 (written by a man born in 1850)

"What queer ideas the girl of 1929 has about the Victorian period- they are not a bit true...Marriage was by no means the end and aim of our existence. Oxford and Cambridge claimed quite a few of us after school days were over. We had great ideas about 'life' and what it all might mean to us." -St. Petersburg Times, 1929 (written by a woman born in 1853)

"True, debutantes were chaperoned at balls. But that fact did not prevent them from dancing as frequently as they chose with their favorite partners. The idea that girls in the Victorian era spent their days sewing seams and practicing scales is another fallacy." -Gettysburg Times, July 1, 1927 (quote from the Dowager Lady Raglan, Ethel Jemima Somerset, who lived from 1857 to 1940)

#history #when they were still alive to defend themselves #maybe- much as I rag on modern historical fiction -we've gotten a bit closer to the truth than our grandparents did #see this is one reason I love studying the Victorian era (besides hoarding their detritus like a dragon I mean what)#it just is One Of The Eras Of All Time in pop culture #and it means so much to so many people that getting to the real human bottom of it fascinates me #spoiler: it boils down to 'people were people and always have been'

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shitouttabuck · 2 months

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something in your magnetism (2x01 / 6x18)

#eddie “let me scooch on over a little closer to my boy best friend for no real reason” diaz #the way he HALF GETS UP to move just a little nearer in top right..... i feel deranged.... HE'D JUST MET THE GUY #buddie #911 #mine #my rewatch is going so well im being sooooo normal

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blednokrov · 7 months

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some more character studies ehe

#one piece #vinsmoke sanji #roronoa zoro #tony tony chopper #nico robin #art #the highest honor i can give to a character is to make them smoke when theres nothing suggesting the do it in canon #its like my personal art love language #sanji is leaning on the rail angstily type of a smoker. robin is squatting casually on thr ship deck type of smoker #also i grew up in the region that has active reindeer farming. i just had to color chopper closer to a real reindeer

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quimser · 5 months

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trying a linocut-leaning style (best viewed on desktop, mobile crushes the quality massively)

#normally i wouldn’t mention it but this one got hit real bad #this pic went through so many changes. originally was gonna be a simple black-white repeating pattern with fairly consistent line weigh #that was inspired by a nice pic of flying birds in a similar style. it got swallowed by my dash though : \#couldn't remember the name of what that style was closer to the bird pic but i rediscovered linocuts so it all worked out #iz #invader zim #dib membrane #quimser art

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son1c · 1 year

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sonic isn’t keen on being underwater, and bermuda isn’t keen on dealing with sonic’s hydrophobia. so, when the respirators aren’t enough to set sonic’s mind at ease, bermuda takes desperate measures-- he sings to him.

this song isn’t like the rest, though... this time, it’s a soothing melody.

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sth #shadow the hedgehog #sonic prime #sonic au #thinking about how this use of bermuda's siren song is probably closer to its like. Original Intended Use. and getting kinda emo about it #scribbles #bermuda #underwater #the respirators are basically magic hgfhgfh they let sonic breathe underwater just do me a favor and suspend ur disbelief ok #a real scuba mask or w/e does Not gel with his little animal face so

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moviestarmartini · 3 months

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the speed that jude has been learning spanish is INSANE

“ el mejor equipo del mundo, para mi *shrugs in cutie* “

#honestly his pronunciation is great and doesn’t have much of an accent #it’s similar to vini’s and he’s been living there longer + portuguese is closer to spanish than english is #i wonder if he has duolingo plus or sum #jude bellingham #real madrid #rma #supercopa de espana

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visit-ba-sing-se · 1 year

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not dark academia not light academia but a secret third thing (that one flickering light bulb in the library that is slowly yet surely making you lose your sanity academia)

#Dark academia #light academia #The real aesthetic #Getting closer to murder by the minute

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months

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Smell Check [Easy: Failure]

MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 1 (part 2 - part 3)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #disco elysium #MDZS Disco Elysium AU #So sad I didn't manage to get this comic out on the 15th (pd-mdzs's 8 month anniversary and DE's 4th year anniversary) but I'm here *now*#I have a very extensive and detailed MDZS Disco Elysium AU that I am Not Normal About.#I've seen a few other people point out the potential in a crossover (true) but they make the mistake in having it be set in 51!#A true crossover would take place closer to The Antecentennial Revolution!#Disco Elysium did not go that hard on its cool lore for people to only make surface level crossovers!!!#One day I'll write the fic or post my notes. I don't know who would read it but it tickles *my* brain and that's enough.#No spoilers for DE (here or in comments (please)) but please consider....Magpie Wei Wuxian B*) On his way to be an innocent.#I do think there is a good chance a chunk of the MDZS readership would enjoy DE but...it's also not a game I easily recommend #It's more of an experience you have to marinate over. It's dark in ways that are off putting to some people.#It makes you feel like a very bad person all the time. It gets extremely personal if you allow yourself to be honest in your answers #and it's also the game that saved my life. My life was truly forever changed after playing disco elysium.#If I recommend it to people it's a badge of the trust I have in you to appreciate something dear to me B'*)#If you decide to play: PLEASE go in as blind as possible. You will regret spoiling yourself.#edit: this is based on real disco elysium dialogue. HDB has many canon kinks but this is not one of them

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suntails · 7 months

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#9!! silver RUN!!! hes trying to convince him to sign to switch dorms. can u imagine the leverage he'd have to try and get closer to malleus #like 'wooowww crazy! one of ur guards just so HAPPENS to be in my dorm! hes fantastic. if u ever need anything id be MORE than happy to hel #i think its funny!! iirc theres a dj with silver in octavinelle its a silly concept. that boy doesnt belong there #hes generous (real) not generous (octavinelle)#i think silver would be susceptible to signing a contract w azul. but i dont think itd be a Bad contract bc azul knows mal would murder him #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #azul ashengrotto #suntails

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dinoserious · 5 months

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been idly muckin w the manfish recently. his name is tiberius (tiber or ty, mostly) and he has a companion character, bazal, an eagle man whos design is still in the works (not a griffin btw! i just like the earsies, no other feline traits present)

the two of them are formerly human mercenary types, and pissed off a god while working a job together. they continued working together because who else do you work with after something like that

(they wear clothes ive just not decided what i want those clothes to be, stylistically)

#tiberius the manfish #bazal the birdman #sketch #creature design #baz has golden eagle plumage with some white spotting similar to stellars sea eagles. his bill is broader like the latter as well #the setting is nebulous rn. but its errs closer to real world based geography historical fantasy w then like. dnd world stuff #like real places and things but fantastical shit happening vis a vis gods and monsters

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egophiliac · 2 months

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kamen rider shion was just revealed for ride kamens, and he looks like he's themed after the... horse orphnoch? this is an even bigger surprise than the jin and woz homages

trying to speculate on Ride Kamens characters pre-reveal really is like

#ride kamens #not art sorry #(still gotta draw something for SUPER POSITIVE MAN too whoops)#joseimuke games are serious business #i am NOT complaining i think it's great that they're not restricting themselves to main riders or even like...main characters #but horse orphnoch feels like...an extremely weird pull #i have not seen faiz so i don't know anything about him as a character beyond a quick google #still feels weird to do a non-rider though?#i mean shion seems very lovable and i do enjoy having a character i can just shout HORSEBOOOOOY about #he was the one i was convinced was brave though! DANGIT #the specter of a possible ikemen poppy looms closer...#though any ex-aid rep won't be poppy let's be real here #at this rate it's going to be like. burgermon.#do i dare hope for such a miracle #(is that one guy with the wolf/dog tail going to be garulu then)#(or maybe he's thouser's dog robot WHO KNOWS)#truly ride kamens is a kingdom of infinite possibilities

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viveela · 7 months

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If you draw dip i woul be sooooooo happy

So I like to imagine Damien likes to fill in Pip about what happens back on Earth

#veearts #south park #sp fanart #fan art #damien thorn #phillip pirrup #pip #dip #damien x pip #i will talk more about this:#they become besties in hell u can't convince me otherwise #based this also a bit off of Damien still being in the bg sometimes #but yeah I think pip would be a bit bummed about passing so soon #ofc he's like well I guess I'm just unlucky oh well! but he'd miss being around everyone #even if they were pretty mean...#as they get closer Damien would tell him about the latest crazy shit that goes on #but he hides it under a lot of fake and real frustrations #pip very much appreciates it and can kinda sorta see through #and yeah basically this is canon in my head thanks

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zerozeroren · 4 months

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Feeling wistful feelings over the fact that the form of Ahiru the majority of us viewers end up loving and rooting for the most (girl Ahiru) is also the most illusive and unreal of the three

#Hear me out on this #The Duck is true to reality. It's a living being. Princess Tutu is true to the fairytale. Same way Mytho is.#But girl Duck? She's completely fabricated. No firm ground to stand on #Quicksand of an existence. And yet. It's her we connect with #Her that we are rooting for #Her who builds relationships and bonds and her who does all the preliminary work for Tutu to take over later #she's the most real person for us emotionally #And because of that it's heartbreaking #Because if you look closer you'll know that she's doomed and destined to be forgotten #She belongs to no world #But you want so badly for her to pull through #princess tutu

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art-that-fucks-you-up-tournament · 9 months

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SET ONE - ROUND ONE - MATCH ONE

"Lament for Icarus" (2020 - Miao He) / "Lament for Icarus" (1898 - Herbert Draper)

MIAO HE: [no additional commentary provided]

HERBERT DRAPER: It is a sad picture, yes, but mainly it fills me with some kind of melancholy and calmness. The golden colours, still speaking of the sun, his apparently unhurt body, brown and human in contrast to the white nereids... He seems like he's sleeping and maybe he's finally happy and free :') (stardoused)

(Miao He's painting is a digital piece done in 2020 as a new take on the original piece from 1898. you can find Miao He's artstation here!

Herbert Draper was an English painter who painted this piece in 1898. "Lament for Icarus" is an oil on canvas painting that's currently owned by Tate Britain, a free to visit art gallery located in London. The piece is 180cm x 150cm (5.9ft x 4.9 ft)!)

#art that fucks you up tournament #polls #atfyu polls #id in alt text #REAL BRACKET POLLS THIS IS NOT A DRILL #it's icarus v icarus time which one flew closer to the sun #cw nudity

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