ngl i think that. people kind of make knives treatment & thoughts abt legato more worse than it is? like yeah he treats him like shit and its Bad but its not like knives actually wants legato dead and is like cheering for his death and thinking he’s the lowest scum on the planet ykyk

i’m so totally normal about the fact that aziraphale’s last (known) deliberate foray into the queer community was when he learned the gavotte at the fictionalized hundred guineas club (!!!) in the 1800s and now in the 2020s he’s like “grindr? what’s that?”

many are talking about his repression which is very valid… and yet the thing to me that stands out about aziraphale is that he’s actually… incredibly stable in his identity and that identity IS incredibly queer. queer by the standards of heaven AND by human standards as well

metatron describes his “de facto partnership” with crowley as “irregular.” and in fact aziraphale in his entirety is irregular. he likes and makes it his business not only to understand but to be a connoisseur of all manner of things angels aren’t supposed to even remotely care about. food. music. books. theatre. sleight of hand. and more.

it’s the sort of behavior that would’ve gotten him othered, treated as a bit odd, in heaven even if he hadn’t chosen to consort all across the earth with a literal demon. and it IS treated that way - the fact is aziraphale even as an angel has got proclivities that set him apart from the rest of the host (even after offering him the highest position in heaven, metatron still acts deeply dismissive of him… like aziraphale’s bookshop is merely a quaint little hobby of his that can be easily transferred to another custodian, and not a literal extension of who aziraphale has become, full of his tartan and unique bibles and special vintages of wine and the books arranged in a very specific way)

so. aziraphale is a queer angel but of course he’s also queer to other humans. but in such a way that… he had his realization a LONG time ago, and put the matter very much to rest after that. aziraphale is perpetually something like several centuries behind schedule. he owns an ancient computer that probably continues to run windows 98 simply because aziraphale’s decided it should. he wears the same waistcoat and coat for generations because he simply likes them precisely the way they are and sees no reason to change them. but the idea that he doesn’t know how he comes across to others - of course he does. he knows he looks like your prim and proper grandfather and he prefers it that way

aziraphale looked around at humans in the 1880s and said: ah yes. this is where i fit. and promptly ensconced himself in that queer subculture. learned the gavotte. read his austen. loved crowley from afar. aziraphale is fiercely and vibrantly queer. just with the sort of assurance of someone who lives with his lover in a commonlaw marriage for decades and then shows up at city hall for the certificate once society decides it’s ‘allowed.’ like… he hasn’t had any need to know what grindr is because aziraphale’s ‘scene’ was a century and a half ago and it defined romance for him too.

but my favorite thing about aziraphale is how much of him is about appearances versus the truth. he can lie straight to angels’ faces and sleep at night. he knows he comes off soft but he once wielded a flaming sword. he dissembles helplessness but he’s far from it and he knows precisely how it makes others treat him. and at the core of aziraphale is rigidity, inflexibility of ideas… his sense of self is stable where crowley’s is malleable, and so on, and so on

and the fact that he’s continuously fixated on trying to misguidedly do the right thing, the fact that he seeks heavenly approval and wants to fit the world into his schema of good vs evil… in no way do i think that means he isn’t one hundred percent aware of how he feels about crowley or what it means about him by angelic or human standards. i’ve seen some folks saying that aziraphale doesn’t want to like kissing crowley and like… as much as i love me some brideshead revisited/atonement flavored angst; i put forth that it’s not internalized homophobia or queer panic but simply: “i’m trying to do the right thing for both of us and you won’t let me.” and “i wanted our first kiss to be different.” he was envisioning an entirely different flavor of romance than what he got but he emma woodhoused too close to the sun

like, y’all. aziraphale in all likelihood has a glorious collection of historical queer erotica. he just has a feathery diva coat hanging in his closet, and for what. “oh, good lord” he says at crowley’s revolutionary outfit in the bastille, while eyeing him up like an entire meal. he’s so good at affected propriety, at carefully constructed stuffiness, but between the two of them aziraphale’s got to be the one who has experience

aziraphale had been physically throwing himself at crowley the entire season. he orchestrated an entire regency ball so they could touch hand to hand. he spends the entire season (well, and season 1) looking at crowley like he’s particularly coveted. he looked at crowley before the fall like he was glorious and beautiful. aziraphale’s queer and he knows it and i think that isn’t his problem, it’s the fact that he wants to build a different sort of future for the two of them but crowley’s gone and thrown a wrench in it by reminding him of everything he can finally have. like. that’s the heartbreak. it’s how dare you make this ugly? i forgive you for our first kiss being all pain and salt. it’s my dearest, i wanted to make heaven as beautiful as you deserve. as sacred and safe for us as our bookshop. and i can do that for us, because once i held a flaming sword and i still remember how the hilt felt in my hands. and now the taste of you is in my mouth.

I can't really draw what's on my mind so here is the blueprint of my vision instead:

I looked through your blog and couldn't find an answer, but for "record", are you using the verb or the noun? As in, the word pronounced "re-cord" or the word pronounced "rec-ord" because it seems like both could be correct

maybe not knowing is part of the reason I chose that particular title.

actually unhinged how easily a lot of people on tumblr could have gotten really into armed Zionism in the right time and place….. the ideology of the corrupt traditionalist world that the true revolutionary must leave behind for something new… the love of cleansing violence and militarization… the idea that in the interests of an oppressed group of people all violence is justified and there are no civillians… agriculture/nature fetishization and cottagecore… why don’t we all just leave society and form an armed found family agricultural commune!!!! We will find community and purity in the harvest. No living In a Broken society.

as someone who grew up in israel so many underlying ideas and rhetoric of leftist goyim i see on here just.. reminds me so much of the zionist ideology we learned of in school here!!! and it makes me sick

empyrean meme dump since we're getting an empyrean event for msi

I agree with the whole “mike schmidt is michael afton” theory as much as the next member of the fnaf fandom, hell I’m even treating it as definitive canon in my own timeline of events, but I really wouldn’t be mad if the fnaf movie changes its canon to suit the story it wants to tell bc something about the nightmare scenario of “minimum wage night shift guy who’s figuratively dead inside has to deal with murderous animatronics for a week who are literally dead inside” has its own level of charm and hilarity to me

had a dream i was cockwarming al at the arcade while he was playing a batman racing game and i think that’s a great start to the weekend for me

I wonder why ppl interpret sonic not jumping at the chance to kill an enemy as him giving "second chances" to bad guys who don't deserve it like eggman

It's AO3 donation drive time again, and I'm so happy to see that they have surpassed their goal! AO3 is completely transparent with their finances which is such a blessed relief in this world of others who aren't. This way I know that any amount donated over their goal is still put to good use supporting the mission of transformative works and expanding the back one structure of AO3 (server upgrades and more).

hm

I don’t think people utilize Dick spending the latter half of his childhood under Bruce’s guardianship enough. Like, yes, his core childhood memories are in the circus with his parents, but kids don’t often have a grasp on money until they’re in the double digits.

I saw a post where Tim just pulls out a couple hundred dollar bills, and I want that for Robin-era Dick too. Dick didn’t realize that his weekly allowance was enough to feed a small family for a whole month because all of his civilian classmates have approximately the same if not higher allowances because they’re all in the same wealth bracket and a $100 pineapple is a perfectly normal visiting gift. To add a little bit of flavor, Dick generally has a very skewed perception of how much things should cost. $100 pineapple? Completely normal. It’s just a nice gift. $400 sweater? They’re not items he had to think about purchasing as a kid, especially since the circus kids cycled through hand-me-downs. He generally assumed that all clothes are investment pieces (quiet wealth) and had zero concept of fast fashion. The fancy crystal chandelier? Definitely expensive, and he really shouldn’t break it, but it’s not like it would cost an arm and a leg to replace, right? Bruce built him an indoor trapeze set in the next week.

But $17 ticket to the local movie theatre? Horrendously overpriced. He vividly remembers the circus tickets were only $3 per adult and free for children under 12. Meanwhile, carnival food is like $20 for a corn dog. Dick always hesitates when paying for the movies because it feels like highway robbery, but he doesn’t bat an eye at the movie theater food prices.

I think it’s generally funny if the three Robins who’ve led their respective Teen Titans all have this little “quirk” where they just unironically carry hundred dollar bills. Tim is from the same social circles as Bruce, and Damian is something along the lines of a literal prince.

I keep thinking about that panel of Dick not having a credit score because Alfred then Starfire handled his finances.

i can find a group cringe and fail and still enjoy some of their music . just so u all know

staring at my computer waiting for fancams to be made without my input (should be going to bed but that means not being awake thinking about making fancams)

I have spent the last month absolutely plagued by demons (ADHD impulses telling me to just go and adopt a dog even though it's not a good idea with my current living situation) and today I finally submitted an application to volunteer as a dog walker with the local humane society instead. Everybody say good job vyvansebaby

JUST WATCHED BARBIE!!!! GRETA GERWIG SLAYED MARGOT ROBBIE SERVED CINEMA EXPLODED!!!! 🩷👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🎀