#anyways i'm sorry for all this oversharing about this kind of stuff
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alright besties. it took almost the whole session but i finally got myself to tell my therapist that i’ve been hurting myself
#it took the whole time for me to tell her so i didnt get any help :(#i doubt there's anything she could even really do to help tho#i've done lots of therapy cbt dbt etc and i only turned to sh because nothing else was working#i feel a lot better tho because i told her briefly about how i've struggled with sh for 6 years and it hasn't been bad in many years#but i have had small relapses on multiple occasions over the years#and i told her how i relapsed on sat and have done it again 5 times since sat#and i told her that i am going to do it again#it feels pretty good to not feel guilty or like im lying to my therapist and for someone other than me to know#i know this is not a great/healthy thing to post on here but im kinda really proud of myself for opening up a little bit to my therapist#it was kinda weird tho because it was the first time i ever talked about sh at least explicitly with this therapist before#she straight up asked me if i bled and i was like what of course#ik sh looks different for everyone but i just thought she had picked up on it because i showed her/mentioned the bandages on my arm#anyways i'm sorry for all this oversharing about this kind of stuff#tw self harm
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Hello dear! Can we have a fluff alphabet for Johnny Joestar?? Please, I need more things about this guy😩💕
Johnny Joestar Fluff Alphabet
notes - fluff alphabet here. YES YES YES!! Johnny is my fav joestar and such a little sweet guy!!! <3 I want the anime for SBR out NOW DUDE! Well, anyways, I really hope you enjoy and I'm sorry this took so long!
A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?
he loves the outdoors, so I think a lot of walks or picnics or dates outside
I also think he would just love cuddling, so a lot of stay in days as well with cuddles
he also LOVES deep convos, so a lot of the time, you two get into some deep stuff lol
B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?
your smile
^ he just loves that he can make you smile and will just stare at you, even if it's not him who made you smile
he just loves when you smile dude AHHHH
C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?
he is SO bad at comforting you
he just can't do it
if he sees you cry, he will start BAWLING
so he tries to like hug you or something and starts crying, so you both need a little break from each other until you're ready to talk
D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?
he doesnt really know how to explain it
he doesnt know if marriage is in the equation, or kids
but what he does know is that he wants you in his life forever
he literally cant see a future without you in it
so he knows you will always be a big part of his life and that means a lot to him
E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
I think we all know the answer...
look, you have to order a happy meal for him at mcdonalds because he gets too nervous
he's just a little guy
F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?
YES
he HATES fighting, so he avoids it at all costs
you guys don't really argue much because communication is important
he hates if you get mad seemingly over nothing and will start crying I think
so yeah, you rarely fight and if you do, a talk ensues rather quickly and he forgives you SUPER fast
G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?
HE IS SO GRATEFUL FOR YOU
you are his one and only and he is just baffled every day that you love him as much as you do
H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?
he doesnt hide anything
you two are very open with each other
but he doesnt overshare
if it comes up in a convo, he'll mention it, but he never purposely hides anything
I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?
oh 100%
his motivation comes from you a lot!
he isnt big on getting out of his comfort zone, but with some encouragement from you, it happens a lot!
J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?
he can be a little insecure, so yes
he knows how much you love him, but when he sees you talking to someone else, he can't help but feel a little bit jealous some of the time
to deal with it though, he will just hug you for a while and when you ask him what's wrong, he'll kind of ignore it and tell you how much he loves you
and you do the same and he's fine lol
K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?
YES YES YES YES YES
his lips are SO SOFT
and his kisses are SO LIGHT
AND HE LEAVES LIPSTICK MARKS
GOD
he doesnt even realize how hot it is when he kisses you and when you tell him, he gets flustered tee hee
the first kiss was on a picnic date and he actually went first, pressing the smallest kiss on your lips
after that, there are a lot of kisses tee hee
L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?
shaky voice
sweaty palms
and he tries to run off and trips over something, getting a bloody nose
you've been dating ever since
M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?
again, he doesnt know
he just knows he wants you forever
but if the convo came up and you would want to get married, he would propose like a couple days later and then you would get eloped!
N icknames - What do they call their s/o?
teddy bear (when he's feeling EXTRA cheesy)
sweetheart (rarely)
usually just your name (shortened version of it if you like that)
O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?
F L U S T E R E D
he will just be so in love
lots of staring
clumsy
ALWAYS TRYING TO IMPRESS YOU BUT FAILING AND THEN TRIPPING OVER SOMETHING
AHHHHHH
P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?
he doesnt mind, but it gets him way more flustered then when you two are alone
even if you just hold his hand on a walk, he will blush like crazy
kissing him though?? you killed the poor man
he does brag about you in the quietest, cutest way ever
but he still gets shy in front of others, but doesnt mind a little PDA if you initiate
Q uirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.
always reassuring you that he loves you
you will never forget that he loves you
he will give you little things or just remind you every day and you know how much he really does care about you
R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?
he can be pretty cliche
just silly little dates like dinner or picnics or something
but it's so cute nonetheless
but he will always change up date ideas based on things you like too
S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?
OH 100%
literally number one supporter
always trying to let you know that you can do it!
he doesnt help you a ton because he knows how achieving it is to do something on your own, but if you ask, no hesitation, he will help
T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?
nope! he loves you guys just the way you are and doesnt need anything crazy to be happy
U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?
he knows you crazy well
like he will bring home gifts saying that it reminded him of you and you lose it because literally its something you LOVE
he is super empathetic and will always always jump to help and give you love
but he will notice when you are off and ask how you can be cheered up for sure
V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?
he loves you SO MUCH
you are a big part of him and he doesn't want to lose you
having you by his side actually means the world and he loves your presence
W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.
best cuddler
very soft hugs and always warm
X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?
YESSSSSSSSS
he loves hugs and kisses and cuddles and everything you're willing to give
in private he is so so so so so so affectionate and cannot help but cuddle you all the time tee hee
always hugging you, even when you're busy
he's just like a little puppy
Y earning - How will they cope when they're missing their partner?
he doesnt like being lonely
he HATES IT
he was lonely for a long time until you came in, so when you have to be gone, he's kinda sad lol
he just sits and waits for you to get back basically
can't sleep for sure, he needs you for that lolol
Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?
oh, absolutely!
we saw how much he did for a friend, so for someone he loves, he will do anything
LITERALLY ANYTHING
he is your number one and you are his <3
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Omg omg omg omg omg omg Mari's turn
HELLO MARI I LOVE YOU!!! WHERE WAS THAT SONG I SAW FOR YOU-
Mari, you are someone really kind and sweet... You say you struggle with words, yet the way you express your kindness and concern through your actions is something I'll never get tired of thanking you for. You are truly sweet and kind, not forgetting your beautiful art that I'll also always be happy to compliment! Heh!! This song feels, like it's name says, a tiny bit of light, like a small candle in the middle of the cold, gently warming up your hands. You feel like that, so gently warm.... Oh! As I was looking which other song to give you, I saw this one and... My heart said I should give it to you, it's called Kokoronashi (video, it also has Portuguese subs <3)
As I was looking at the video, I noticed that I feel I know less about you than even the subtleties from Mg, and yet you are quite kind... This song is special, you know? The vibe, the strong and beautiful vocals... The feelings and the lyrics. This time more than instinct, it was my heart who chose to give you this one, I hope you enjoy it, I love you a lot. And your third one....
The Spotify one isn't the version I wanted tho. The song is Electric Angel (Rin & Len ver.), I SAW IT AND SAID OMG GIVE HER THIS ONE!! ITS SUCH A PRETTY AND ENERGETIC SONG!!! And look it can either be for you, for your pookie, for koto, you can adapt it to your needs, yes yes. ITS SO GOOD I LOVE THIS ONE!
I love you mari <3 sorry to keep you waiting heh I hope you enjoy them
Omg yay my turn arrived!!! Ty Seari <;333
(and sorry for the delayed answer, I only saw it now T~T)
Alright, first of all, you just reminded me about Erased after so long and now i have the urge to rewatch it again LMAO......why do I want to make myself suffer again......Anyways- I never heard the eng version, it's pretty good!! It's a song that has somewhat of a hopefull feeling? idk how to describe it....but ty I love it!! I had completely forgotten about it.
The other two I actually have never heard before and dam the vocals on the second one- I could realy feel the emotion....I want to hug him too now and the lyrics omg. That song was so pretty, I think I'm going to snatch it to my spotify tbh. The last of the 3 is honestly adorable and groovy, it reminds me of something but I haven't figured out whatbut it did fill me with a happy vibe!! (and I see what you mean about how it can be for either, ty ty hehe)
About your words- I really don't know what to say. Honestly I never know what to say in response to kind words and compliments....but thank you, really 🥹 I love you too <333
I know I don't talk much...I'm kind of self conscious about what I say because I'm always paranoid of oversharing and ruining the mood or something of the sort- I'm sorry😭😭I'm always free to share stuff if people ask but I really avoid taking the iniciative...
But anyways!! Thank you so much for the 3 songs, I loved all of them in their own way and thank you for taking the time to think what songs you'd assign me really T~T <33
#ty seari really fbuiewbffmeiownf#i know i already said it but ily T~T#and now if you escuse me- time to add erased back to the watch list#i hope ive forgotten most of the plot by now lmao#i'm socialising#🍰
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1, 2, 3, 5, and 18 for Dazai, Makima, Reo, Bachira and Yuno. :D Ooh, you're into Kakegurui too! :DD The same questions for Kirari and Yumeko.
hi aurora!! ty for asking! (sorry for a late reply, i was busy ><)
"Why do you like or dislike this character?"
dazai:
LITERALLY JUST THISCHJSJKSKSKD he's everywhere. every single time there's an anime guy with fluffy brown hair and brown eyes you just KNOW someone in the comments is gonna be like "omg he looks like dazai" no he doesn't.
also.. idk i just got tired of him. i did think he's funny when i first got into bsd (i was 13-14 so you didn't have to do much for me to think you're funny) but now everything about his behavior is so. ugh. it's like okay!! you're a walking red flag!! not in a fun way!!
i still think he's a well-written character though. just not my type.
makima: i can just say that i'm into dominant women honestly her design is so cool!! i have her plushie right next to me rn. she's staring into my soul. she's a really cool and well-written character and i don't know, there's just something about her that still makes you (me.) trust her even though you know she's the villain here. also i really love characters who do horrible, horrible things but they believe that there is no other way and they believe they're doing the right thing. something about her is also weirdly comforting to me but we're not gonna unpack that right now that moment in the manga when she said that denji can just rely on her and he doesn't have to do anything. that felt personal to me. also the fact that in the end she just needed a hug and needed someone to love her.. idk, it's probably cheesy, but i found it heartbreaking.
reo: HE'S JUST LIKE ME FR!!! it's pretty much impossible for me to talk about reo without oversharing stuff so i'm just gonna say that. well. i know what it's like to be a sheltered kid who doesn't even know what they want from life but when they finally start to realize what they probably want, they get hit with that "nah don't do that" and also his relationship with nagi is so... HHHHHHH been there. done that. know what it's like. i was literally going "BABY NO. NO DON'T DO THAT IT'S ONLY GONNA HURT YOU MORE" even though i do like this ship djdksks. anyway yeah his character is very realistic, it was so painful for me to read the part where nagi was like "nvm i need you actually" and he said that exactly when reo started to move on...
bachira: i actually didn't like him that much at first because i'm usually not a fan of characters who.. like. have this "weird and goofy" kind of personality, i just find them kinda exhausting, but bachira's character actually turned out to be much deeper than i expected and i find him very relatable as well. also most of the time he felt like the most normal character to me HSJSJKAKDK
yuno: SHE IS SO. *falls on the floor and starts sobbing* i'm not usually a fan of characters who are like.. very fun and cheerful on the outside, but they're actually suffering (and i have. so many ocs like that. ironic, isn't it) because most of the time it's either written kinda poorly, doesn't feel relatable, or the fandom just boils their character down to that one trait, but yuno's character felt very refreshing to me, because her t1 personality already felt kinda fake and even es mentioned that she doesn't have to pretend around them and when yuno really does stop pretending, like. it's so cool because at the same time she changed a lot, but you know that she actually hasn't changed at all and she's always been like that. there always were signs that yuno is actually colder (haha get it) than she acts so it isn't surprising for her to act this way in t2 and it doesn't feel too drastic. also her wanting to be seen as an adult and wanting people to stop coming up with sympathetic motives for her is so.. it's so good.
kirari: hmmm i actually don't really have a strong opinion about her! she's cool! but i like her design a lot! her hairstyle, her eyes, her iconic lipstick, she's so pretty!
yumeko: YUMEKO JABAMI THE WOMAN THAT YOU AREEEEE... the crush i had on this girl when i was younger was so. shsdjasksksk. i know i just said i don't really like "weird" characters but yumeko is so unhinged, it's so fun to watch! i really like kakegurui exactly because of how it just. lets women do wild things and be in the center of attention and all. i like how at the same time it's hinted that her character is much deeper than it seems, but also she just REALLY likes gambling!
"Favorite canon thing about this character?"
dazai: probably not really a "canon" thing but i think his bsd wan design is cute :3
makima: SHE'S SUCH A GOOD MANIPULATOR IT DRIVES ME INSANE /pos
reo: i'll just put this here.
bachira: HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS MOM IS SO. 🥹🥹🥹🥺🥺🥺🥺
yuno: her answers to the interrogation questions are always so funny like you just know the girl is gonna deliver. "can you speak other languages?" "i can't speak english!" <- written in english. "can you tell us about your family-" "I ALREADY TOLD YOU I DON'T HAVE A FATHER"
kirari: that one scene with her and sayaka falling from that tower has changed me as a person forever
yumeko: she takes gambling so seriously, it's both cute and terrifying jdkdksks her relationship with midari is so funny 😭😭
"Least favorite canon thing about this character?"
dazai: his. uh. his personality in general jskslals SORRY IF HE WAS REAL I WOULD'VE PUNCHED HIM IN THE FACE ALREADY
makima: hmm don't think i have one
reo: it's like. at the same time it's basically my fav canon thing but sometimes i'm like "dude. please let nagi go. i promise you're gonna be fine. he's gonna be fine. guys. guys please"
bachira: don't really have one! good for you king
yuno: m-maybe the abortion reveal was too early?.. it's like, at the same time it fits her character, but i really feel like it was a bit rushed. (well if it really is true and it doesn't turn out that her murder actually was different) also GIRL WHO SAYS "uhh yeah that's probably murder". PROBABLY???
kirari: at the same time i like her "way too powerful student council president" status, but sometimes it feels like. too extra for me jdkdlsls
yumeko: sometimes i forget that her main motivation is to play a game with kirari, but then i remember and kinda.. get disappointed.. like girl what about simply having fun and vibing. her character does NOT need a goal!! she's perfect WITHOUT any motivation!!
"What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?"
my brain goes empty when it comes to music I'M SORRYDJDKSDLDL
"How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?"
dazai: not really "admire", but i think his dynamic with atsushi is cute.
makima: .. i don't remember her interacting with anyone except denji and some other characters HSJSKSLSL
reo: .. again DOES HE EVEN HAVE ANY IMPORTANT DYNAMICS WITH OTHER CHARACTERS. NOT COUNTING NAGI.
bachira: his relationship with nagi and isagi is neat :)
yuno: her relationship with kazui.. much to think about..
kirari: her relationship with sayaka! i don't ship them but i think their dynamic is really interesting.
yumeko: i'm going to say something controversial but. i think her dynamic with suzui is actually kinda cute?? again i don't ship them but it's. it's wholesome :)
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Hello love 🌿🤍 I wanted to ask if I could have a lotr match-up please?
My pronouns are she/her, I'm bisexual, tho I'm more attracted to men. I'm an Aries sun and leo moon, my mbti type is infj.
I'm quite introverted, tho I'm coming out of my shell more as I get to know people. I can get very stubborn and don't do all too well with criticism. I've always been quite good at school and I like to read, tho I can't seem to concentrate well atm. I'm very creative, like to draw and paint and working with textiles (I've started sewing, knitting and crocheting my own clothes a few years ago).
I absolutely love mythology and really enjoy documentaries and podcasts on history and different lore of ancient cultures. As for music, I listen to almost every genre, tho mostly folk and slower cottagecore-y stuff with a few showtunes here and there. Taylor Swift and Johnny Flynn are my top artists atm. I've played some instruments, accordion and clarinet for gge longest time, and currently I'm trying to master the ukulele and sing occasionally.
I'm going abroad in a few weeks, so I'm both excited and a bit terrified to be far from home for a long time, but I'm trying to romanticise my life there, so that everything will be alright.
Sorry, for oversharing 🥲💕 anyway, who do you see me with? Thank you so much love, I hope you have a lovely day 🤍🤍🌿
hello darling, absolutely you can! really sorry I took so long btw! lotr and grishaverse, i got that right hopefully. you didn’t overshare at all, actually you could’ve given me even more info, so you're fine!
so for lotr,
I ship you with...
Arwen!
Arwen can be very fierce and very gentle at the same time, but she's confident nonetheless. She's not the in-your-face kind of extroverted some people are, she's very observant, perhaps more introverted, but still very sure of herself. And she's super compassionate - so she's always there for you, always holding your hand, always beside you when you're insecure or not feeling as confident in yourself.
I believe she knows a lot about history and culture, too, but since she's an elf it'll be quite different to what you know. Which just gives you the opportunity to educate each other, to talk about your interests a lot. She'd love to teach you, but she'd love even more to be taught by you.
She really admires your creativeness and what you can do. She loves to watch you draw or paint or sew or knit or crochet - I mean, she loves to see the results, yes, she's amazed every time at your skill and your prowess, but she loves watching you do it even more.
Because elves give music a special meaning, she can also most definitely play an elven instrument, but again, she'd love learning one that you can play that she can't. And she loves dancing, too, so she's dancing with you whenever she hears music, or she's dancing whenever you play.
as for shadow and bone,
I ship you with...
Nina!
First of all, Nina is so confident. She's so outgoing, so extroverted, so she's really the opposite of you, but that doesn't clash in the slightest. No, absolutely not: she's the best person to motivate you, to hype you up, to make you feel confident in yourself. At the beginning, sometimes she went overboard and made you feel a little uncomfortable, but she always realised quickly and apologised and bettered herself.
Nina, just based on her education alone, can also totally play an instrument, and she knows a shit ton about culture and mythology, which means that the two of you can geek out. And/or form a band. Like, you wouldn't need podcasts because she could just tell you so many things. But she'd also absolutely listen to those podcasts with you. So.
Plus, you sewing clothes? Holy shit. Nina is in love. Nina has fallen head over heels. She knows she looks good and she loves fashion, styling herself, I bet she's tried to make her own clothing before too, and now that you do it? Now that she's found someone who can? Oh. She is begging you to make more and more clothes for her and every time you do, she is just over the moon. Like, you've never seen her happier.
#nina zenik#six of crows#nina zenik x reader#arwen#arwen x reader#x reader#matchup#matchups#lotr#lotr matchups#lotr x reader#lotr matchup#shadow and bone x reader#shadow and bone#shadow and bone matchup#s&b
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oh no is everything okay? i have noticed you haven’t been around on tumblr lately but i didn’t want to come across as nosy
I'm actually an oversharer about most things LOL so it's not nosy to me, I'm endeared you noticed my behavior as different at all! I don't want to be mysterious or cryptic because I will be ok eventually. I will make it through all of this. But not everything that's going on will turn out ok and sometimes I think that's important to recognize too. So I'll give some more detail for those who are wondering beneath the cut.
TW: medical stuff, parent cancer, surgeries, pet loss.
My health is kind of wreck right now. It turns out I have a rather large lesion (medical jargon for "thing") in my small intestines, so I most likely have surgery ahead, possibly major, BUT we think this is finally what's been causing my debilitating anemia (because it turns out it wasn't the big benign ovarian tumor I had removed, which is crazy). At this point all the tests are looking like it's not malignant or invasive (ie, cancer) YAY, but the doctors are confused about what it is, which is never a good feeling lol so we're waiting on a second opinion from an expert who's on vacation right now and damn, waiting on test results SUCKS. Some of the medical tests have been really hard and stressful. One of the testing procedures caused a painful problem I had to have minor surgery to fix last week which has been a tougher recovery than I had anticipated. Even before that, I've just been in a lot of pain that's hard to live around.
And we just learned my husband has a vestibular schwannoma (a benign tumor on his hearing nerve) and it has some serious life-changing risks no matter what we do. And my dad with a brain tumor has taken a bad turn because his tumor became resistant to the chemo (I'm not sure I've ever mentioned this here...) and I live so far away from my parents. We're hoping a new chemo will make a difference and he's pushed through before but prognosis is always guarded. You can know something is inevitable and never be ready for it.
And like I mentioned, a lot bad pain and uncertainty and constant medical appointments and through all this I have a stressful job and busy kids (one with a birthday party this week!) with their own needs and I really miss my dog who passed away unexpectedly in November because he was my snugglebug when I was sick, and plus my immune system is shot right now with the stress, so I am getting hit with every stupid illness, so eating and sleeping have been hard which you know always makes dealing with things harder. I just got WRECKED by this cold for days that barely touched anyone else in my family and I'm better today but my poor nose 🤡. oh also my husband got laid off 6 weeks ago but he has managed to find a new job to start next month so we can check that one off the stress list and it's actually a great move for him! 😵💫 but yeah, that was stressful too!
This isn't even everything but it's the most pressing things 😮💨, they just keep piling up. It's just been a lot. Usually tumblr and BTS and my writing and this community are my little safe haven but the pain and stress have left me so hollow that I've just been sort of emotionally shut off from a lot of my usual joys. Writing is like breathing to me and it's scary when it stops.
But I will be ok. I will adapt to whatever medical stuff is coming up even if it's scary, and my husband will adapt to whatever happens with his medical stuff even if it's hard, and I will push through all of the things, and I will even survive the inevitable loss of my dad, which isn't ok but is what it is. I felt a little better today for the first time in a long time, my cold is improving and it wasn't a bad pain day and I even wrote a few paragraphs. Sometimes these small victory days are the best we can manage.
Anyway, sorry this was crazy long if you didn't want all the details. But thanks for asking about me, it's really sweet 🥰
ETA: Since writing this Tuesday night, our childcare just gave her 2-week notice 😭
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palm tree 🌴
nutmeg
ivy
and chia 🩵🩷🩵🩷🩷
get to answering lol
Ayee there's my fren...
palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?
Damn, ik they're morally gray characters n very popular or infamous choices for such questions, but Snape n Draco, i don't usually like characters that act out the way they do because of whatever negative experiences they've been through, because you always have a choice to not bleed on those who haven't hurt you, but anyhow, i think that their backstories and everything that they do based on them, doesn't make me love em exactly but appreciate them a lil more than others ig. Also, just a blanket answer will be all those side characters in movies or TV shows, that are not exactly villains but are villainized by others on the show or they and their struggles are hidden from the spotlight because they aren't as quirky or likeable as the main character's problems, just makes me love them even more! Also, might be a bias cause i identify as a side character..
nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?
My room, oh the tragedy, i wanted it to be a subtle dull-ish green, or teal kinda maybe, but it turned out this bonkers paint that i hate now, but anyway, i try to work with it. There's no theme, because i didn't have a room of my own until i was way older and then the prospect of me leaving my parents' home made me think, why even bother decorating.. but yes, as of now, it's just a place i occassionally occupy n has my pride n joy, my bookshelf n my canvases on it and i am a neat freak so i like to organize stuff but ever since my seemingly never ending exams have started n my life decided to go to shit simultaneously, i haven't gotten the chance to clean n organize, but soon i will n it will feel better. (It being me, n also, a bit, the room ig? haha)
ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?
Ukw, funnily enough, i don't have a lot of 'tells' especially when I'm sad because i self-isolate, (ik toxic trait, but i feel like i don't wanna burden people with my sadness) so yeah that... But i am quiet mostly when sad n when i feel joyous, i think i hum n sing quite a lot, n take interest in my hobbies again n dance somewhat, but hey that could also be because I'm depressed but I wanna distract myself or procrastinate dealing with it so I just do the happy stuff, fake it till u make it or die amirite? For anger tho, i recently found out, i can't express it healthily, *pause for gasp* n end up screaming, crying (which i hate!!!! Crying when you're angry is horrible!!!!) n actually have very bad symptoms like a racing heartbeat n shortness of breath n have thrown up too, God, I'm oversharing! But yeah, might as well drag the cat that's outta the bag now... (Sorry, no, i still love cats, LIKE A LOT!, Please apologise to your cats, i didn't mean any harm to them)
chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else?
Ok so this is actually a very geographical joke (The Office reference, the kind of jokes u have to "be there for" hehe) so as i said i have my exams going on rn, n in this one subject we had to study about what makes an entrepreneur... And idk if it was a typo in the notes that we were provided with or what, although i wouldn't put my uni past that, but apparently one of the reasons one can be held back from being an entrepreneur is "not being able to have dreams", now ik they must've meant dreams as in a vision or high ambitions or something... But when me n my friend read it, we just imagined this one person going to sleep every night n waking up disappointed like "Dammit! I was so tired, i straight up went to sleep n i didn't even have a dream! This is why mom was right, i will never amount to anything because i don't see any dreams.." now they didn't even bother to specify what kinda dreams, so it can range from nightmares to fantasies or wet dreams for all we care, but ever since then, whenever there's a problem n we can't find a solution, me n my friend say to each other, "Oh well, this is because we never have dreams man! We can never think outside the box for creative solutions to anything, because we sleep too soundly n dreamlessly"
Ik it's a very, very stupidly silly joke but it gets us cracking each time so ig it works out for us atleast lol..
Wow, these were fun to answer!
Would love more asks people!
N if u reblog the OG post I'd love to fill up your ask box too...
Also, love ya n thank u sooo much for sending this love ❤️✨
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Like seemingly everything in my life, there's a story to this one. Feeling kind of strange, so maybe I'll delete this later. Unfortunately I'm also insanely impulsive, which is winning at the moment. This is a long one, and if no one ever reads this that's honestly okay. I think I just need to get it out there for my own reasons.
To start, this song was written and recorded as my final senior project at my arts high school, so this recording is old. I performed it and provided the guitar (and tambourine!) on the track. My friend did the drums, mixed, and produced it. Another person provided piano. Okay, all credits out of the way!
I don't think I have ever honestly shared what this song is about. I didn't feel comfortable sharing it at school, so I came up with some silly, vague answer for them to read off at the final showcase and put in the Senior CD.
It's actually about my best friend in high school and I growing apart after I had moved to the arts high school. She was probably one of the best friends I have ever had. We were tight as could be. We did everything together. We even created our own fake religion (much to our parent's chagrin, I'm from the south). We called each other "fave" and even had a handshake type thing we would do. A rumor even spread that we were dating, we were that close (we thought it was hilarious, it was also not true). There were countless inside jokes. We traveled, went to any and all concerts we could afford, hung out all the time way past curfew, had sleepovers, went thrifting and vinyl hunting, almost anything and everything together.
So when I switched schools and we began to grow apart, it broke my heart. There wasn't a big blowout, no massive event. We just, grew apart. Admittedly, there was drama brewing for a while in the friend group around us (which is also sad, as I lost many close friends because of that drama as well) that I think influenced it as well.
I was doing some not-so-spring cleaning today with some stuff I picked up from my mom's house, which had a bunch of papers and notebooks and yearbooks from high school. In the box was a file folder labeled "Top Secret." There is actually nothing scandalous the file, it was just a bunch of stuff we had created and notes from when we were friends. I found a letter that this friend had written for me, and because I am so emotional, I of course cried reading it.
"Anyway, I hope you realize how talented you are. I know we tend to bash ourselves (it's our weird sarcastic behavior) but honestly speaking you have such an inspiring passion for music. Maybe this is crazy thinking, but I just know you will be successful in your music; you are so talented when you perform and the songs you write give me chills."
"I swear we have the same minds; it's so great to have someone to talk about annoying people, the government, school, relationships, music and tea :)"
God, there's more, and it all hits like a fucking truck.
So, that's what this song is actually about. Reading this made me go down memory lane, looking through old pictures with so much teenage dirtbag energy from that time (I wish I could share, but it's obvious why I'm not going to). We got up to all kinds of mischief, but it was so much fun. And it was authentic. Having someone who you can truly be yourself with and spill any and all secrets to is hard to come by.
We very occasionally chat. I actually only reached back out to her recently. We didn't communicate through all of college. Our friendship will never be the same as it was, but it's nice to not be radio silent. We have both moved on and met new people and all of that. I now live so far away from where I grew up anyway. And that's all okay because that's just life!
So, sorry if this is all oversharing, but I do really love this song. It's probably one of my best, if not my best. I wrote in during a meltdown in the shower all in one go, so a true moment of inspiration. Right now, it doesn't feel right to share it and not share the story, since sharing silly stories of my life seems to be what I do on here now I guess.
Again, I obviously can't share all of the photos and stuff that this song stirs up, except for the one I put as the song cover. I usually don't give away feet pics for free ;), but since these are socked feet in socks that we got as a symbol of our friendship (lol, yikes, haha!), I'll make an exception this once. We weren't totally bad kids I promise! Well...
ily, eva <3
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forgive if i'm overstepping but just wanted you to know is okey to be mad that you feel othey are putting all the emotional weight on you , i have notice there's a weid standard that the woman ,the daughter is supposed to be carrying it without complains and feels on their own , and that's well pardon my french bullshit , if someone is not able to regulate emotionally then maybe the solution is getting to learn those skills instead of passing it to the person "is more equipped for it" that were usually force to learned them because nobody else bother to ,anyway sorry for the ramble i don't pretend to know everything about you or you family i'm just trying to say it's okey you feel that way, and you deserve better, you deserve to have your emotionally needs meet and not be the person "keeping it together for the sake of everyone's else" all the time , all of these is valid and i hope it gets better in any way you wish one day.
First of all, thank you, that's very kind of you to come here and remind me that, second some oversharing bellow.
Okay, so I get why those 2 stories alone make it seem bad, and it is, it was, when my dad was back home from the hospital that time I legit cried for half an hour straight, because he was home, everyone was okay so it was okay for me to let it affect me. And today, my mom got mad at me but I went to get my brother. He's better equipped for the situation, I'm not just gonna manage it because I feel like I have to anymore. But my parents have been better at managing this expectation that was always put on me because I am a woman, my dad a lot more than my mom, but this only started when I was like 20/21 so the damage was already done. We actually had conversations about this because of the situation that made my dad realize that something wasn't right because one time we were over at my grandmother's house and me and my brother were studying since we were both in university at the time and I got yelled at for being lazy and being in my computer all the time (mind you I have a bachelor's in computer science, I literally couldn't study without a computer) and my brother was being praised by being so focused and my dad was like "back up they're doing the same thing" it was the only time I've seen my dad fight my grandmother, it was interesting. But like I have a behavioral therapist, I have a physiatrist, I'm on mood stabilizers, they can't really act as if the shit that happened didn't fuck me up. But they try not to do this type of stuff anymore. But my mom still tends to put things on me that are definitely not supposed to be on me in moments of crisis, my dad tries to correct her but since the situation was about him he wasn't there to do it so it kinda totally triggered me. But honestly it's the thing I work through the most in therapy, it's okay for me to be overwhelmed by some of these situations.
#its not all bad#we're all trying#but shit happens#and my reactions aren't always collected#but thank you for checking in#i really need a tag for asks#anon 😌
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Jan 29, 2023
Cheyenne & Negative Emotions
On Jan. 27th, I woke up feeling low. I decided I would eat ramen &told myself that I didn't have a reason to not work after I ate. B4 I began making my ramen, my roommate Cheyenne said from the other room "hey, I'm gonna be cleaning that space here in a bit, just &fyi" which I took as "get out of my way." I put the stuff for the ramen away &just went back to my room. I came out once while my roommate was cleaning said space, but only to get water. After I heard her finish, I went to the kitchen to proceed making my ramen. As I was putting the soup into the pot of boiling water, I received a text from Cheyenne. She said she was hurt & frustrated that neither me or my roommate Darren stepped in to help. I was already in a very low place so this hurt my feelings. She accused me & Darren of never picking up after ourselves, even though she doesn't really come out to socialize& always keeps herself isolated in her room and has no way of knowing what we do to clean when her door is closed. I assumed she was cleaning in preparation for her party that was going to happen the next day. I told her just because she doesn't see it happening, doesn't mean it doesn't happen. I also explained how Darren actually always cleans up after himself, &so do I. The only time Cheyenne talks to us is when she has a complaint to make. I considered her a close friend. She was someone I didn't mind having heartfelt conversations with. Someone who would randomly give me hugs if she knew I was having a bad day. For some reason though, these last few months she's been distant. I would understand if she was a friend that I would only talk to every once in a while, but our relationship went from being like bffs to being like strangers, &sometimes I even feel like she hates me. I've talked to her about how I felt that specifcally. She said something along the lines of "I know I can come off as bitchy sometimes, i'm sorry" but then proceeded to still come off as bitchy. I just wish I knew how she was feeling towards me. I'm not everyone's cup of tea, &I know that. I just hate when people say one thing &then proceed to do something totally different. I feel like one of my friendships is coming to an end, but secretly. That's not even the point I was trying to make but journaling always brings out more because I have the tendency to overshare. ANYWAY So after I received her text, I cried because I was so frustrated. It was like she expected us to read her mind instead of verbally asking for help. &I get it, sometimes you want people just to jump into the roles they should have (us as equally responsible roommates). However, the tone of her voice when she told me she would be cleaning didnt sound inviting. She's the kind of person who likes to do things alone. So it was obviously a misunderstanding. At that, I'm the type of person who needs to be directed &or specifically asked. This whole expectation without request made me think of my mom. She used to clean everything, including my room. She was one of those "If I want it done right, I need to do it myself" kind of people. After she'd clean though, she would complain about how I didn't help and stuff like that. I never asked her to clean my room, &she never asked me to clean it myself. She would just do it herself &then get mad at me. I think seeing cheyennes accusatory text set me off. No one has show disappointment in me &I think that was what really set me off. I hadn't felt that kind of emotion in a while, &it really hurt. I don't think it was just that that made me cry. I have felt very unmotivated &sluggish, &I was already feeling not good enough so Cheyennes text just pushed me over the edge. I feel like crying all the time, but only when I sit &think about it does it actually happen. It's like my eye lids are a dam, &my thoughts lower that dam wall &allow the tears to just come flowing out. I cried like 3 or 4 times the rest of Friday, felt extremely heavy &I wasn't able to convince myself to work. I wasn't even able to finish all my ramen which is like a big deal considering how much I love ramen.
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Hi Holly~
I'm sending this ask because I saw your post about feeling less than other writers.
Be more gentle to yourself, darlin. You're doing great. I know we just became moots recently, but what I really wanted to say is that there are readers out there that love your work because YOU wrote it(me included). And I think that's pretty darned awesome. So please don't think any less of yourself. You are an incredibly talented individual that deserves all the love and gentleness coming your way. Sending all my love to ya, darlin! Mwuah~
hi darling <33
i’m sorry for being all depresso on main yesterday, i tend to go full writer existential crisis as soon as i’m not as productive as i’d like to be
i’m quite the lazy person and i don’t get nearly as much done as i should, so being gentle with myself just feels like i’d encourage my already slothful behaviour; beating myself up over it seems like the “right” thing to do bc at least then i’m not condoning my (lack of) actions
i know it’s probably super unhealthy to think that way but that’s just how it’s always been and gentleness would most likely only inspire guilt and feelings of “i don’t deserve this”
anyway, taking a break from oversharing, thank you very much for your kind words; although it’s hard to believe somebody would take time out of their day to read my stuff just because it was written by me and not necessarily because of the character or the premise, i’ll try to imagine it’s true >///<
thank you for checking in with me, it’s nice to have people look out for you; but you said you sometimes feel the same, i can tell you that everything you just said to me, is also true for yourself; you’re an incredible creator and a very very awesome friend and i’m really grateful i could meet you ♡
#coffee & tea break#my regulars ♡#letter from: the gorgeous rebby ❀#apologises for being depresso#directly turns super introspective#sometimes i forget people can actually read these#and i’m not just shouting into the void
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shout out to me for always getting SUPER defensive whenever people say that Phoenix’s grape juice is wine to the point where I may or may not start crying lol
#not gonna overshare here all you need to know is alcohol addiction highkey triggers me ha ha#Like i'll be fine in a few minutes after it's mentioned it just. AH do NOT like when people associate it with my comfort characters#have your headcanons I'm not trying to police you because I'm sensitive lmao it's just I think people need to calm down about it.#some of y'all are SO passionate about the fact that Phoenix was implied to have a wine addiction it's a little unnerving#Anyways Spirit of Justice confirmed it was grape juice and Phoenix would never be visibly drunk infront of Trucy if he was drinking#That's all have a nice day#please do not come to me and give me insisting I'm wrong if you don't agree thanks#it's not that i'm not open to criticism but um.. I will cry. so-#sorry I was watching a video essay about turnabout trump and the guy was VERY adamant about the fact that it was 100% wine and not juice#it kind of set me off dghjknts6e47iku#aa#alcohol mention#ask to tag#might delete this later since it's kind of a vent.#don't reblog. The important stuff is in the tags anyways
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Recently a friend revealed they had a crush on me. I spent some time detangling my various emotions and ended up turning them down, because if any of my feelings are romantic, they aren’t romantic enough to be obvious to me-- And they deserve someone who would jump at the chance to be with them, not some lukewarm courting.
Still, as I rummaged through my perception of them looking for an answer, I was struck all over again by how much I adore them, how delighted I am to be in their company, how deeply I love and care for them. Platonically, yes, but that is not a lesser tier of love. I love them to the core of me, through the core of me, burning a space where light can pass through my heart.
So I’ve been carrying every sweet and lovely thing about them under my tongue, because I can’t say it now, not when it could lead them on or twist the knife of rejection. I miss them, and I feel selfish in that missing. But I know eventually they’ll move on and I’ll be able to tell them everything that makes them so wonderful. <3
#personal#sorry I don't know if this counts as gossip or TMI but I'm sleepy/anxious/lonely#Which is the combo that makes me OVERSHARE ON THE INTERNET#and plz don't tell me I might actually have a crush on them#I'm this sappy about all my bestest friends#and if I think about dating them it feels like I'm forcing it which isn't a good sign#I thought I'd vent through a poem but my poem brain is not working lately#I'm too anxious about world stuff#also they said it while they were drunk which makes me feel guilty because maybe they didn't mean to and maybe I should have stopped them#because maybe they regret it and maybe that's my fault#but I can feel guilty about anything so I probably just need to chill out#and there's all these complicated feelings because all my life I've been made to feel unromanceable#so my brain's still kind of short circuiting#anyway sorry bout all this
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Hi idk if this is oversharing but I feel the need to say it so I will. Feel absolutely free to ignore this if you want. TW: violence. Right so my uncle, from my father's side, was over at ours for christmas 2021. He's a very kind and gentle man, and while my father has anger issues, he loves his siblings so I didn't expect there to be any issues. But alas, at night uncle and father fought physically, aggressively. My father is a big man, built in the same way I imagine Lludd is built with the addition of being POC. My uncle is obviously weaker than him. This fight was one of the worst so far: the TV got broken, glasses were shattered, and most importantly both men were physically injured. My uncle the most. Several of his ribs were broken, and he has more injuries but those haven't been confirmed and I don't want to ask. Anyway the point is, it's now mid february and I'm starting to realise that it was traumatic for me as well, even though I was upstairs and didn't even see it happening. I feel kind of like Efnisien does in regards to Lludd and I have to idea how to deal with it, or how to explain it to anyone (like my therapist). I don't think father ever physically abused me, same as I remember Efnisien thinking, but somehow I'm terrified of him? And I'm hyper aware of my ribs and get intrusive thoughts about breaking and broken ribs. Yeah I'm unsure why I'm sending this at all, but I just thought that if anyone were to unstand how I'm feeling it would be you. Sincere apologies if this triggered you, or is a bad thing to say in an ask like this. <3
Hi anon,
I'm sorry you had to experience that, that is very much a traumatising thing to experience, even though you didn't see it, it doesn't matter. Someone you loved injured someone else that you care for, and they did it in a horrible, violent matter, with blunt force trauma. If your uncle had pressed charges, what your father did was serious enough he could have gone to jail. It's something anyone would take extremely seriously (and I definitely think it's worth bringing up in therapy, no one is going to dismiss this unless they're a strange, heartless person).
I think you did a really great start honestly explaining it here. You could even copy/paste your message and hand it to your therapist to read.
Here's the thing with trauma - you don't have to directly experience the injury to be traumatised. Witnessing - or knowing - someone else has been hurt violently is enough. Especially within a family situation. You know your father is capable of seriously and physically injuring a person weaker than him. I think many people in that situation might think 'well, I'm weaker than him, what's to stop him from doing that to anyone? He's done it to a family member already, on Christmas, so what about me?' And the unconscious brain - being more animal-like and more concerned with threats - can very easily become scared and alarmed in those circumstances.
It's probably good to bring it up with your therapist when you can, so you can both start talking about it, and giving yourself space and compassion to process it. It's a hard thing to deal with! And it's also something you can deal with over time. It won't stay like this forever, especially now that you're bringing it up and talking about it more.
You're allowed to not be okay, comfortable or fine with what happened. Your uncle was the one physically injured, yes, but you have gone through an emotional injury, and also a betrayal of trust with a family member. Those things are important, and I think your brain is probably trying to communicate to you that there's stuff here to deal with.
Especially because as you mention, your father has anger issues, I don't know how safe I'd feel in that situation going: 'Hey this thing you did really hurt me, and I don't really trust you anymore, can you work on your domestic violence / anger issues so you can be safer to be around.' Which means...there's big trust issues there, and the potential for trust violation. Also I want to point out that if a person in your house breaks objects when they are angry, this is domestic violence. If he's done this before, even if he's never hurt you directly, I am very very sorry, but you are living with someone who has engaged in domestic violence. It may be that your reaction to your father has been building for a little while, and this is the thing that tipped you over <3
I'm really sorry for how difficult that is though. It can feel a bit like going crazy at times. And a bit like 'do I have a right to be so stressed out about this when he was the one who was so badly injured?' Yes! You do! It's 100% both allowed and understandable.
I don't know that I can say anything that will help, I do think it was very brave of you to bring it up here, and I really encourage you to - in your own time - really bring it up with your therapist. It's okay to want some professional support in this, and it's great that you already have a therapist you can tell (I'd gently suggest finding one if you didn't). You have a right to be supported and respected while figuring this out, and figuring out how you want to (and can) safely deal with it.
Sending lots of hugs though, anon. And also just admiration that you wrote this at all, knowing how difficult it must be to share.
#asks and answers#personal#trauma#domestic violence#many people do not realise that a person breaking objects in a house counts as domestic violence#but it does#and it can create harm in the people around them#it rules a house with a level of fear#if you ever feel like you've had to walk on tiptoes around your dad's anger#to try and prevent it#there's probably something going on there#and obviously there is#because he felt 'comfortable' enough to seriously assault a family member#badly enough that if charges were pressed#jail for grievous bodily harm would be a likely outcome#it's serious stuff anon#it's okay that you don't like what happened and are having a trauma response because of it#i'm just sorry for how distressing that can be
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Hi! I noticed you've mentioned you're from Finland and for someone like me who's from the same part of the world (Norway) I'm kind of fascinated about how you ended up in Japan? You seem pretty open so I hope you don't mind me asking. I follow you but whenever I ask someone about something personal I'm always too shy to answer off anon lol sorry
hi!! "You seem pretty open" haha is this shade on my oversharing if so i deserve it!!
anyway, long story short. when i was 13 i was bored one time and downloaded an episode of inuyasha on kazaa (rip) because i was a nerd and had recently learned about anime on a gaming forum. i found myself quite fascinated with the japanese language. from there i became obsessed with visual kei bands and spent most of my teenage years in that fandom. then after a brief stunt as an english major and a couple of mental breakdowns later i realised this is not what i want at all i want to go back to my roots and study japanese, so i changed majors to east asian studies. having done that i managed to get a scholarship from the japanese government on my third year and came here to study. but being the depressed thot that i am, i developed a big crush on day 3 on a person who was only supposed to help me out once. then stuff happened and eventually i got married to that crush and well ten years later i am still here and building a house!
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Hallo hallo! ^^
i was curious about the match up thingys and I kinda wanna ask for one as well! if it's still open and if that's ok with you? (A yandere Dsmp/ resident evil village match up and I'm ok with romantic or platonic btw!)
(I think I already sent this before but it's probably gone and I hope I'm not being a bother and if you already seen this before and decided not to do mine im so so sorry-!)
If it is well-
A description of what I look like!
(I apologise if it gets way to long!)
I'm 4'11/5'
(it's been a long time since I last checked my height ^^;;)
I have kinda long brown hair
it's sometimes straight and there are times that my hair is all poofed up like a cloud
I have light brown skin/tan-ish and I have dark brown eyes
I am very ticklish and my weak spot is the back of my neck cuz it's the part where I'm very very ticklish and as soon as someone grabs me by the back of my neck it's game over for me-
Oh! And I'm pansexual!
I've been told I'm oblivious af and I can be an air head sometimes
And I tend to overshare stuff and I also tend to kinda over give? Like i can't say no when someone asks me stuff and I will spend money on friends to show how much I really appreciate and care for them and I'm a bit of a hopeless romantic
I get kinda angry easily which is something I need to fix more but it's not as bad as when i was younger and I'm kinda insecure about my weight and I'm touch starved af and I'm a sensitive cry baby lol-
I enjoy any kind of music but lately ive been listening to random heavy metal and ballet music for some reason ^^;;
I love reading mythology and fairy tales and I believe in supernatural stuff, I'm addicted to coffee, I wanna travel the world
and I May have used to get into fist fights at school when i was younger lol- 👀
Im also interested in the Cottagecore aesthetic and in goth/alt clothing style and I've always wanted to dress up in gothic lolita/pastel lolita clothes-!
Also if you do decide to do mine thank you so much! And srry if this got wayyyyyw too long!(I hope I can support you and your work in anyway but sadly I am poor af 😔✌🏼) (also again i apologize if I already sent this twice cuz i don't exactly remember when i sent the first one ^^;;)
After thinking for a little bit, I decided to give you ... Ranboo (AGED UP)! I do believe that you two hopeless romantics would get along more than anyone else I could think of!
A . How would they show their love and affection? How intense would it get? - Ranboo is very shy when it comes showing love and affection, but when he does, he tries to be as cheesy as possible, preparing things like they are right out of a movie.
B. What type of future are they planning with their lover? - Ranboo wants to show you all around the dream smp one day and then settle down where you like the most. Whatever you want, he will make sure that it will happen.
C. What is the scariest moment with them? - Ranboo is so obedient and takes everything you say literally, that he can be even a danger to himself. If you will tell him to disappear, he will. If you tell him to never talk again, he will never talk again. So be careful with your words!
D. How do they usually act with their lover? - Ranboo is very shy but he tries to show affection to you by giving you gifts and by making your life as easy as possible.
E. How would they court their lover before? - Ranboo would probably start following you around and doing stuff for you to try and gain your approval.
F. What's their favorite memory/thing in the relationship? - Ranboo has a very hard time remembering anything of this relationship, but he knows that he loves you a lot and would never do anything to hurt you.
#yandere dream smp imagines#yandere imagines#dream smp imagines#yandere dream smp headcanons#yandere headcanons#dream smp headcanons#yandere dream smp#yandere
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