I woke up this morning right before my alarm. The whole time I thought was oversleeping because I guess I was having a dream about oversleeping.
I turn off my alarm early and got ready for my grandma to come get me.
I am not really close with my grandma, but I'm not especially close to any of my grandparents. I have 3 sets of grandparents.
I tried to get close but I'm not great at it. My grandma is the easiest to talk to. It was easier to talk to her today then it was to my mom yesterday but then again we were going to the school for sports, and school gets my what I think is selective mutism out of whack.
Anyway we went to the doctor today and they asked me about whether I wanted to talk to this lady. Everytime they asked I said I didn't know because I didn't know, and I was getting freaked out from the concept.
The last time I spoke with her I was also freaked out because it was one of those papers where they ask you questions about how you feel and if you've done drugs and other things of the sort.
I think promised myself that I would say no if they asked me again but for some reason I didn't.
The lady came in with another lady with her. This other woman just watched me while the other doctor checked me for my physical.
Then the doctor(this is the first lady) gave me 2 papers for the questions but the other woman wouldn't leave.
I tried to lie on the questions but my brain wouldn't let me so I kept freezing. I skipped a few questions instead of lying and at the end she started talking to me. Saying things like I could say something and she wouldn't tell anyone.
I don't really believe that.
Afterwords, me and my grandma went to the store because she wanted to buy us things like she did when we were younger.
She got my brother a mini lasagna and Fanta and I got pizza rolls and apple juice.
But my brother wasn't with us he stayed home.
This art from last summer about it.
I can't believe I did the exact same thing. Same Hairstyle. Same thing with my legs.
đ„-I love you: My Maddie, I LOVE YOU TOO. To the moon and back a million times â„ïžâ„ïžâ„ïžâ„ïž. đ-I think youâre cute: You, a Supremely Cute Human yourself, think IâM cute?! *blushes forever* đ«Łâ„ïžđ-I want to marry you: Shall it be a spring or summer wedding, My Love? đ„°đ, âïž-I want to travel with you: yesss!! đ Letâs do it, where shall we go first?! Canât wait for you to show me around TN. đ„° ,đ- you are lovely: as are you, My Muffin. đâ„ïž, đž-you are cool: LSKDJDLSK đ«Ł not to shatter any illusion, Bestie, but I put my pants on one leg at a time like everybody else. And I get embarrassed by my laugh, and I am 87 years old on the inside, and I canât make change in my headâŠ.and the list goes on and on and on. But thank you all the same. â„ïžđ, đ -I want to meet you in person: BABES, ME TOO!!! đ±đâŒïž And I fully believe itâs going to happen. đđ Canât wait for our in-the-flesh shenanigans to begin!! đ, đ -you brighten my day: My Unicorn you brighten mine right back every single day from sunup to sundown., đ-you are a dream come true: what an honor, one that I do not take lightly. đ„čđđ«¶đ», đ-you are beautiful: thank you, Muffin. So are you. đđđđ
People who get annoyed about question askers during movies do know these questions are rhetorical, right? They do know we aren't actually looking for answers immediately . . . right?
you have been failing your classes A LOT recently. you had terrible scores on all of the subjects, but especially spanish.
and it didnt help that your love life and everything else was a mess right now, how could you study in this situation?
but you really had to pass this time.
so what do you do? cheat of course.
problem is you werent sneaky enough and now your being called to your spanish teacher's office because he caught you cheating.
you nervously bit your lip and just stood at the door to his office, just standing there for a good while and you honestly were debating onto wither you should make a run for it or not however you decided you better meet up with him fast before you get into more trouble.
and so here you were, sitting on the soft cushions of the black couch in his office as you fidgeted with your fingers, scared to make eye contact with him because of the consequences of your actions.
and it definitely didnt help that he was silent the whole time, writing on a notebook calmly as he occasionally glanced over to the stack of papers on his desk that you assumed were test papers.
the very test that you cheated on.
perhaps he was writing reports on the test perhaps he was not but did he really need to do this right now? couldnt he have done it before or after he was done with you?
''ahem.'' rang a deep voice through out the room.
you snapped your eyes back from your lap, looking up at him startled.
'''now then, (name), would you care to explain as to why you decided to cheat on your spanish test, hm?'' he questioned with a raise of his eye brow and a nonchalant expression on his face.
you gulped.
''..uhm...i- i am sorry-! i wont do it again! i am sorry!'' you apologized desperately.
he shook his head, getting up from his seat and walking toward you. you almost backed away when he reached for your chin and lifted it up with two fingers.
''shh...'' he hushed you.
''thats not what i asked of you, now was it? i didnt want an apology. i wanted an explanation. i'll ask again...'' he paused as if to let you process his words in your dumb little head slowly.
''why did you cheat?'' he repeated.
you were silent. unsure of what to say or do. dumbly looking at him, frozen in place.
''answer me.'' he said a lot more firmly now.
and you knew if you didnt reply right now you would really regret it. so mustard up the courage to push out a few words out of your mouth, albeit coming out in stutters.
''Ă had to- i am sorry- shit- i just really need to pass this time. i-i didnt- god- i shouldnt have! i really am...sorry.''
hearing your words, miguel o'hara smirked, letting go of your chin as he looked to you a smugly.
''ah, is that so? then you should've just told me so from the beginning, doll.''
his words confused you greatly. what did he mean by that? but you really didnt need any further explanation when he leaned down, placing beefy arms on both sides of your head as he leaned in to whisper in your ear in a low deep sensual voice.
''you could've just told me you were struggling...i would've helped you. all you had to do was ask, doll.'' he said as he brushed a hair strand behind your ear before cupping your face with his large hands.
''in fact i would give you extra credit and the best marks possible if only you did me a little favor...''
''...what?'' your heart was beating against your ribcage. you wanted to deny all this. no it wasnt happening right now. no this isnt true. is this going where you think it is?
''fuck-- yeah... your doing great.'' he praised. one hand placed on the crown of your head, running his hand through the silky hair and occasionally tugging and tightening his hold on your hair when you your tongue swiped against the veins on his cock or if you deep throated him suddenly without warning.
''k---keep going...'' he groaned as he couldnt help but throw his head back, gritting his teeth because of the pleasure you gave him.
you took him out of your mouth slowly, licking his long member along the way and swirling your tongue on it when you reached the tip, sucking it into your mouth afterwards as you closed your eyes.
''eyes on me, muñeca.'' he huffed, running a hand through his hair. ''keep your eyes on me when you suck my cock. look at me.''
''yes professor...'' you mumbled with his tip in your mouth, causing your words to come out muffled and sent vibrations through his dick. he let out an whimper at the feeling and quickly sinks his teeth into his plush lips to prevent it from happening again.
it felt so good inside your mouth. warm and tight. the feeling of your tongue on his cock, the feeling of being able do something so sinful with you, not to mention how pretty you look taking his dick.
it all drove him insane.
''f-fucking hell, cariño...stop teasing''
you blinked up at him at his words. watching the way his cheeks were slightly flushed and how his eyes were slightly glossy as he breathed heavily, gritting his teeth.
as much as you would like to deny it...the sight was turning you on.
you didnt give him a verbal response. instead you took him in your mouth in one go, deep throating him. he gasped audibly. his hands tightening on your hair.
you bobbed your head up and down, though tears treathened to spill from your eyes from taking him in so deep you knew better then to do this half-assedly. your grades depended on it!
his eyes become shut as he cums with a loud groan. spilling his seed into your mouth. and you finally take him out of your mouth, and just when your about to spit out his cum--
''shallow. all of it.'' he orders sternly. and you end up obeying, because what good would it do you to disobey him?
''good girl...so obedient.'' he chuckled, his breath still heavy as he recovered from his orgasm.
''but..i am gonna have to test just how obedient you can be, doll.'' he smirked wickedly before grabbing you by the arm, lifting you up and pulling you close to him.
''let me fuck that pretty pussy, doll. let my cock be inside you. i'll fuck you real good, i promise.'' he whispered sensually as he used his thumb wipe your chin before running it along your bottom lip.
''this- this wasnt what we agreed on professor...'' you mumbled, averting your eyes from him shyly.
he laughed.
''oh my sweet little princess....did you really think i would just let you go without fucking your tight little cunt? did you really think i was that nice?'' he cooed, a smug smile on his lips.
''undress. right fucking now.'' he commended. it was stern and serious, you could tell he wasnt joking around.
you hesitated. not knowing what to do. should you just make a run for it? and tell everyone what he tried to do? no that would mean they would know what you did. voices rang inside your head, making you freeze in place.
what should i do what should i do what should i do what should i--
''listen here, princess.'' he began. his voice snapping you from your train of thoughts.
''you either let me do whatever i want with you obediently or....i take you right here and now, forcefully, and you lose your mind while taking my cock''
you shivered at the threat. yet it wasnt because of fear, no.
it was a different feeling. a feeling you so desperately wanted to deny. yet the wetness coating your panties proved you wrong all the more.
''s-sir...'' you looked up at him almost pleadingly, unsure of the situation and as much as you wanted this you were gonna stick to your will. your not some submissive little lamp. theres no way your gonna give in to him this easily, right?
''you said...you'll help me if i just..sucked your cock..did you lie to me?''
he chuckled. A dark eerily chuckle that made you shudder.
''princess...me? lie to you? no sweetheat...i am no liar. your just stupid.'' he kissed your cheek in an loving manner yet the tone of his voice and the look in his eyes radiated no such loving warmth.
''your just so stupid its cute. it makes me want to just devour you. its cute how you struggle, its cute how trusting you are, its cute how naive you can be, its cute how you squirm when your scared, everything about you..top to bottom, everything is just so adorable.''
he kept going on and on as you struggled, squirming like an desperate little prey.
''but you promised-! you cant just- professor...you really wont do this to me, will you? why would you...lie to me professor? why me?''
he smiled at your words.
''heres the thing, cariño...you shouldnt trust men.''
he caressed your cheek, a smile still gracing his lips as he spoke.
''not men like me...not men like me who are so desperately in love with you. because god how could i let go of you once i got the chance to have you like this? i just cant, mi vida.''
he leaned in, pressing his lips onto yours, slowly opening his mouth to deep the kiss and encourage you to do so as well by caressing your cheek softly.
''let me fuck you.''
''i promise...i wont hurt you. i'll be gentle.'' he spoke against your lips, kissing them desperately like he craved for every single bit of your body, mind, and soul.
turns out...you were an submissive little lamp. because what else would you be if you so willingly gave into all of this fucked up stuff?
nothing but a stupid little submissive lamp.
---- ---- ---- ----
''ugh-- please--- mmfp-!'' you moaned as your hands dug into the softness of the coach.
''please what, baby? speak.'' he chuckled as he bounded into you hard, lifting your legs with his forearms and pinning them to your shoulder.
he had you in full nelson, continuously making you bounce up and down on his dick.
''f-fuck..your so tight...'' he groaned. ''are you a virgin or something? heh...''
you whimpered out a breathy ''y-yeah..o-oh''
''hm?'' he bounced you up and down on his length effortlessly as he breathed heavily against your ear.
''what did you say, cariño?'' he questioned, not because he was teasing, but actually because he didnt catch what you said.
''i s-said-- oh m-my god...'' you stuttered. your mouth hanging open from how good he was hitting you.
''you were so opposed to letting me fuck your cute little cunt minutes ago...look at you now. your just drooling for my cock, arent you baby?''
he smiled as he re-angled your hips. making him hit a certain spot inside you, you whimper in response.
''aw...so cute. your just fucked dumb on your professor's cock, arent you?''
he laughed before lifting you up higher then usual and holding you there for a little over 1 second and then slamming you back down making air get knocked out of your lungs.
''tell me you love my cock, cariño. that you want my cock to make you feel good. that you want me and only me to fuck you like this. you dont want anyone else to touch you like this, right?''
''n-no..'' you managed to let out. ''y-your the first person t-to fuck me like this professor...i-i love your cock professor..give me more-! i want more-! m-make me cum again please..!'' you babbled on.
''yeah? nobody fucked you as good as me, baby? thats a shame. but dont worry...you dont have to think about any of those guys that you fucked around with anymore...not when you have me baby.'' he pulled your head back to pull you into a messy kiss. slipping his tongue inside your mouth as he groaned at how tightly your cunt hugged his cock.
''n-no i- i never...mhmp-! did things like this before..'' you let out an in breathy voice, huffing and panting when he pulled back from the kiss.
''...what?'' he questioned. his hands on your thighs coming to a halt. ''you never did things like this before, cariño?''
''no..'' you confirmed.
''hey hey...but that would mean..'' his eyes widened at the realization and you simply gave him an hesitant nod.
''...did i just take your virginity, angel?'' you bit your lip in response as you squirmed in his lap, your head still turned behind to look at him.
''y-yeah..'' you mumbled.
he groaned at that. and you could feel his cock twitch inside you.
''your joking...no way..''
''i am no--'' you were cut off my your own moan as his grip on your thighs tightened again, as he thrusted in and out of you in an inhuman pace.
''w-wait-- slow down- nnhghh...''
he didnt listen. nor could he make sense of anything right now when his mind was going crazy by countless thoughts. he couldnt believe he was your first. and the thought made him completely lose it.
its not his fault though. you brought this upon yourself the moment you believed him when he said he'll be gentle with you.
if you can conceptualize or desire a version of ourselves with our desired outcome, it must exist. within consciousness, there are an infinite number of possibilities/realities/states that are readily available for occupying. it doesnât matter if we think or donât think itâs possible, it will always exist. so never be afraid to assume what you truly want. what weâre experiencing now is a direct reflection of who we are conscious of being. therefore, we need to choose the version of ourselves (this is a state!) you would like to be, and enjoy being so within.
how do you choose?
you choose by reminding urself that in one of these realities, you have it, therefore you already are that version. so continue to be who you want to be (in imagination), and the world will reflect who you are being.
"you are already that which you want to be and your refusal to believe it is the only reason you do not see it." -neville goddard
fulfilling yourself:
many of us have trouble understanding the idea of making a simple choice. at first, i was unsure on how to stand firm in a decision, and wondered if things were really that simple. well yes, it is. fulfilling yourself is as simple as knowing you have it, through a subtle reminder while thinking about it or when you are not in the state. this does NOT mean affirm until you drop. affirming is a technique to help you fulfill yourself, but feeling the need to affirm/any other techniques 24/7 or elseđ± suggests that the method has more power than you do, which is obviously false. you can make fulfilling yourself fun, with any methods you'd like. so don't make it a chore for yourself.
that's all!
if youâre wondering why you havenât seen a longer post from me in a while⊠i promise i am not planning on leaving you guys or anything. currently, i am more focused on studying the law at the moment. however, feel free to ask any questions in my inbox and i'll answer as soon as i can! i love you all so much!đȘ
ok this sucks im trying to sort out whats the best deal for off campus housing and i want to ask him his experience but i cant just fucjjng text this guy "where do you live"
Would you be able to do a story where Din ends up with a riduur (maybe accidentally) and heâs freaked out coz heâs a virgin đ€·đ»ââïžđ±
Consummating The Riduurok
Virgin!Din Djarin x F!Reader
Main Masterlist | Din Djarin Masterlist
Authorâs note: Hi!! First of all, thank you so much for reading!! And second, thank you so much for sending in a request! I tweaked the idea just a tad but I hope you still like it! đ€
Summary: You just got married to Din in a large celebration on Mandalore. At the end of the night itâs time for one thing only; to consummate the marriage.
Word count: 2.4k
Warnings: reader is able-bodied, canon divergent, set post season three, porn with little plot, face reveal, nervous!Din, fluff, fingering, premature ejaculation, vaginal sex, cream pie, body worship, biting, face reveal, tattooed!Din, use of Mando'a words/phrases (Cyar'ika = sweetheart, Riduur = spouse, Ni kar'tayli gar darasuum = I love you), no use of y/n
âDin Djarin, repeat after me,â the Amorer says, âMhi solus tome. Mhi solus darâtome. Mhi meâdinui an. Mhi baâjuri verde.â
You watch as your sweet, nervous Mandalorian grabs your hands, trembling a little. For Mandalorians, weddings are usually no big deal. Theyâre very casual about it, no extra frills. Youâre literally standing in front of the forge, the Armorer in between you two. Itâs all so informal, no hoards of people watching you profess your undying love for one another.Â
And yet, Dinâs hands still shake like a leaf in a rainstorm as he repeats the vows to you. Heâs nervous because this is not just anyone heâs marrying. Heâs marrying you, someone who makes him feel complete, desired, and seen, even under all the beskar. He never thought heâd be the type of guy to get married until you came along, understanding his needs and his wants. Youâre so patient with him, understanding of all his customs and traditions. Even when he told you he couldnât have sex until he married you, you waited. When he told you he couldnât show you his face until you were married, you waited. Even when your friends on Nevarro told you you were crazy for agreeing to this, you just ignored them. And right there thatâs when Din knew you were the one for him.Â
You smile at him, a soft smile reassuring him that thereâs nothing to be nervous about. The Armorer asks you to repeat the vows and you do, squeezing Dinâs hands a little tighter.Â
âAnd now I pronounce you two as riduurs. Let the festivities begin!â the Armorer says, leading you and Din to the rest of the Mandalorians. A loud cheer erupts from the crowd as you and Din stand side by side, officially riduurs now. A mixture of smiling faces and visors of helmets stare back at you. Itâs a stark contrast from the intimate ceremony you just had moments ago. Youâre excited to celebrate but you also just want quality time alone with your riduur.Â
And so you mentally prepare yourself for the many congratulations youâre about to receive, but also⊠probing questions. Such asâŠÂ
Are you two going to⊠do it tonight?
Well, the answer is yes. Itâs weird that people would ask you that. However, Mandalorians are very open and nonchalant about these types of topics.Â
Regardless, youâre excited to see your riduurâs face and have sex with him, two firsts in the same night. Your stomach is swirling with excitement, anxious to see what he looks like; what he feels like.Â
You can tell heâs getting a little antsy, anxious even, by the way he clings to your side. His hand graces the small on your back, a sign heâs ready to go. Heâs not one for grand public displays of affection. You look at him and his visor meets your gaze, trying to imagine what expression heâs wearing under there. You imagine his eyes are pleading with yours, trying to tell you to get out here and spend some alone time together.Â
You take the hint, starting to bid your goodbyes to the others. A few of them who arenât wearing their helmets shoot you suggestive smirks and a few eyebrow raises, insinuating whatâs about to happen the second youâre alone. Regardless of the sex or the helmet coming off, youâre just excited to be alone with him in general, something thatâs so rare for you two lately, especially with Grogu around. But Bo-Katan has offered to watch him for the night, saying something about how the newlyweds need time to be just that, newlyweds.Â
With that, you bid your last goodbye to the party and head to your and Dinâs house; a simple one made of stone. The Mandalorians constructed a small village once they got settled in. Youâre just excited you donât have to sleep in the cramped cot of the Razor Crest.
You burst through the door and head to your bedroom. He follows you in, standing in front of you silently and awkwardly. Heâs so nervous. You can tell by his body language. You close the gap in between you two, grabbing his hand and wrapping your other arm around him.Â
âYou donât have to be nervous,â you reassure him.Â
âI know, I justâŠâ
âWhat is it?â
âCan I keep the helmet on?â
Oh. You canât lie, your stomach just sank a little.Â
âOf course. I never want you to do something youâre uncomfortable with.â
âIâm just worried youâll hate the way I look.â
âThatâs impossible.â
âNo, itâs not.â
âWell regardless of how you look, regardless if you want to keep the helmet on, I love you.â
âThank you,â he says, letting go of your hand to caress your cheek, âBut I still want to do the other stuff.â
âOh yeah?â you say suggestively, your mouth curving into a smirk.Â
âYes, I do,â he says, his hand trailing down to your ass, âDo you know how long Iâve wanted to do this? How much I thought about you underneath me?â
For a virgin, his dirty talk is damn good. You feel your cheeks heat up and your knees buckle. If he keeps talking like this in that low, sultry tone youâre going to melt into a puddle on the floor.Â
âShow me,â you tease, taking off your clothes one by one.Â
He pushes you down on the bed, pulling off his gloves and tossing them on the floor. He takes off his cape but he canât be bothered to take off anything else. Heâs too eager to explore your body and find out what makes you squirm. He kneels down beside you on the bed, pulling your legs apart and trailing two fingers up and down your cunt.Â
âSo wet for me,â he coos.Â
âFor my riduur,â you add.Â
He brings his fingers to your mouth, coaxing it open. You moisten them, prepping them to be inserted inside you. You wonder where he got this idea from and you figure that⊠he probably watched porn to prepare. The thought gives you the urge to giggle but you resist, not wanting him to feel bad.
He slides a finger in your cunt and you wish you could see the reaction on his face when he feels just how warm and wet you are.Â
âYouâre soâŠâ
âWet?â you chuckle.Â
âYeah, how-âÂ
âIâve wanted this for a long time, Din.â
âReally?â he says, his visor not leaving his finger in your cunt.Â
âI married you, didnât I?â you chuckle again.
A sharp gasp cuts you off. He slides another finger in without warning. That bastard. But it feels so good. He curls them against your walls, pressing them up against your g-spot. You werenât expecting to be at the edge so fast. Your walls tense up around his fingers in anticipation of release. And with one last come here motion of his fingers, youâre coming, cunt clenching and unclenching erratically.Â
âDid you just-â
âYeah,â you respond, blissed out and a little breathless.Â
He pulls his hand from your cunt, looking at the mess you made on his fingers, holding them up in front of his helmet.Â
âWow,â he says softly, admiring the slickness in between his fingers.
He just has to have you already. He takes his already hard cock out of his flight suit, pre-cum gathered at the head and gives it a few strokes. Youâve never seen his cock before so you rest on your elbows, propping yourself up a bit to get a good look. Heâs intimidatingly large and itâs almost a crime he kept it locked up all the time. You spread your legs apart even farther to accommodate how broad he is.Â
âYou ready, riduur?â he asks, moving to situate himself between your thighs. Â
He thrusts into you, feeling his cock split you open. And at first, he stays still for a moment, taking the time to feel you, to appreciate this.Â
âNi kar'tayli gar darasuum,â he says, just as he begins thrusting in and out of you.
âNi kar'tayli gar darasuum,â you repeat, your voice jumping an octave.Â
He leans down so heâs face to face with you, resting his elbows on either side of your head. This is all youâve ever wanted, on your back with Din inside you, exploring your walls. Even if he wonât remove his helmet just yet youâre still ecstatic that youâre together.
But then something happensâŠ
He cums. Before you did. It was bound to happen though. Losing your virginity isnât some magical moment like people make it out to be. His warm release spills inside you and heâs silent.Â
âDin?â you ask. Heâs still inside you, completely frozen, and his visor not meeting your face.
â...Din?â you ask again, âSay something. Please.â
âI⊠finished,â he says, his cock softening inside you.
He pulls out and lies down beside you on the bed. Heâs as stiff as a board, arms rigid and resting at his side.Â
âI know, but itâs okay,â you say, rolling on your side and placing a hand on his chest.
âItâs not. You didnât cum,â he says, his voice stiff and robotic almost, like heâs trying to mask how he feels.
âIt was your first time. It was bound to happen,â you reassure him.Â
He falls silent again so you take it upon yourself to straddle him, resting your hands on his chest.Â
You bring your hands to the edge of his helmet, pausing to ask, âMay I?â
âYes,â he says softly.Â
You lift his helmet off his head to reveal his face, brown eyes filled with worry, brows furrowed, curls matted by the helmet, and a slight pout to his lips⊠his lips. You lean forward and kiss him, hands caressing either side of his face, and your thumbs brushing his facial hair.
âWe can always go again,â you say, pulling back and looking deep into his eyes.
âI know⊠I just thought it would be different.â
âCan I suggest something?â
âWhatâs that?â
âWhat about taking off the armor? You know⊠get naked with me. It might help.â
âOkay,â he says, with a shaky breath. You move off of him, letting him stand up to take everything off. He removes each piece meticulously, setting them in a neat pile on the floor before taking off his boots and his flight suit. You watch as he does so, taking in his completely bare form. Scars, freckles, tattoosâ all gracing his skin perfectly. Thick, black tribal-style lines encircle his forearms up to his biceps, some of the ink disrupted by scars. He has a tattoo of the mythosaur signet on his left pectoral, some of the ink faded and blown out with time. Somehow you knew he wasnât bare under all that armor. To put it simply, heâs beautiful, everything about him is. Your eyes move down to his cock, already hard and sticking straight out again.Â
 âLet me try something, okay?â
âOkay,â he says, still very nervous.
âLie down for me,â you say, scooching over for him.
He lies down on the bed and you move to straddle him again. But instead of sinking down onto his cock, you mark his body with your mouth, nipping and biting at his skin. He shudders at the contact of your teeth on his skin as you move across his body, starting at his groin and working your way upwards. As you scooch forward, your cunt rests on his cock, the head just grazing your wetness. He lets out a small whimper at the teasing touch, prompting you to poke your head up from the mark youâre leaving on his chest.Â
âBe patient,â you giggle.
âBut whatâs all this for?â he pants.
âJust showing you how much I adore you.â
âR-Really?â he says. Poor thing is so nervous, so sweet.
âMhm. Youâre beautiful, Din. This couldnât have worked out better for me,â you say, before returning your mouth to his skin.
He groans at the feeling of you biting, licking, and kissing his skin, moving from his chest to his collarbone. His breath hitches as you inch your way closer to his neck, eliciting a deep moan from him when your teeth graze a certain spot. That must be the spot. The spot that makes him melt into putty in your hands. Â
âCyarâika, please,â he whines.
âWhatâs that?â you ask teasingly.
âIâm ready again,â he whimpers.
âOkay, okay. Youâve been patient,â you chuckle, moving so youâre resting directly over his cock. You lower yourself down onto him, taking his full length inside you in one swift motion. You rest your hands on his chest as you rock your hips back and forth, feeling his cock etch itself deeper and deeper in your cunt.Â
âYou feel so good, riduur, so wet,â he moans, hands moving to squeeze your waist.
âYou feel so good, too, Dinâ Ah!â you say, the pitch of your voice getting higher as his cock hits that spot inside you.Â
His hands squeeze your waist even harder, blissed out while heâs encapsulated by your warmth; your wetness.Â
âDin, Iâm gonna cum,â you moan, grinding yourself even harder against him.
âYeah??â he asks excitedly.Â
You donât even get to answer, your orgasm interrupting you. Your walls flutter around his cock and the look on Dinâs face when he realizes his cock made you cum. Pleasure erupts from your core and spreads outwards, stars dancing in your vision. Your orgasm triggers his and youâre filled with the feeling of his cum spilling inside you once again. Except this orgasm is different for him. Itâs louder, more intense, more visceral. His body glistens with sweat while he repeatedly blinks, coming down from his high. You feel him go soft inside you and pull yourself off of him, resting your head on his chest.
âThanks for being patient with me,â he says after a moment of silence.
âAnything for you, riduur,â you say, smirking at the last word.Â
âWhat?â he chuckles, âYou are my riduur.â
âIt still doesnât feel real, I suppose,â you say, inching closer to kiss him.
âI guess it doesnât. I donât want to ever get used to it, though.â
âMe neither,â you respond, resting back down on his chest.Â
âNi kar'tayli gar darasuum,â he whispers.
You repeat the phrase back to him, entangled in the arms of your riduur, peacefully falling asleep.
I know the answer to my question. Itâs âNo, not really. Yes, pretty much. Only if youâre very flexible.â But I want to ask anyway.
My sixth book (!!đ±!!) is coming out in March and Iâm scared as hell. Do you ever stop being scared as hell when a new book youâve written is coming out?? Like, is this a forever thing?? Do I just Muppet flail like Kermit for a month every time I publish a new thing??
Thank you for being awesome and doing these asks, by the way. Youâre very kind in a world that is often not.
I haven't yet stopped being scared when I send something I'm working on out to a handful of people to be read. Normally by the time the book comes out it's closer to stage fright than real terror though. I've already scared myself sending it to editors and friends. It's a forever thing, yes. And just as you think you're used to it something you've written that's published arrives and you want to show everybody and you realise you aren't used to it at all. And yes: flail away.
This is an excellent article by astrophysicist Dr. Adam Frank and theoretical physicist Dr. Marcelo Gleiser about how information from the James Webb Space Telescope is changing physicists' perceptions about the standard model of cosmology. đ±
Since how we understand the universe seems rather important, the link above is a giftđlink to the article, so that even if you do not subscribe to The New York Times, you can read the entire article. Below are a few excerpts:
Not long after the James Webb Space Telescope began beaming back from outer space its stunning images of planets and nebulae last year, astronomers, though dazzled, had to admit that something was amiss. Eight months later, based in part on what the telescope has revealed, itâs beginning to look as if we may need to rethink key features of the origin and development of the universe.
[...]
But one of the Webbâs first major findings was exciting in an uncomfortable sense: It discovered the existence of fully formed galaxies far earlier than should have been possible according to the so-called standard model of cosmology.
According to the standard model, which is the basis for essentially all research in the field, there is a fixed and precise sequence of events that followed the Big Bang: First, the force of gravity pulled together denser regions in the cooling cosmic gas, which grew to become stars and black holes; then, the force of gravity pulled together the stars into galaxies.
The Webb data, though, revealed that some very large galaxies formed really fast, in too short a time, at least according to the standard model. This was no minor discrepancy. The finding is akin to parents and their children appearing in a story when the grandparents are still children themselves.
[...]
Working so close to the boundary between science and philosophy, cosmologists are continually haunted by the ghosts of basic assumptions hiding unseen in the tools we use â such as the assumption that scientific laws donât change over time.
But thatâs precisely the sort of assumption we might have to start questioning in order to figure out whatâs wrong with the standard model. One possibility, raised by the physicist Lee Smolin and the philosopher Roberto Mangabeira Unger, is that the laws of physics can evolve and change over time. Different laws might even compete for effectiveness. An even more radical possibility, discussed by the physicist John Wheeler, is that every act of observation influences the future and even the past history of the universe. (Dr. Wheeler, working to understand the paradoxes of quantum mechanics, conceived of a âparticipatory universeâ in which every act of observation was in some sense a new act of creation.)
[...]
The philosopher Robert Crease has written that philosophy is whatâs required when doing more science may not answer a scientific question. Itâs not clear yet if thatâs whatâs needed to overcome the crisis in cosmology. But if more tweaks and adjustments donât do the trick, we may need not just a new story of the universe but also a new way to tell stories about it.
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Image caption: "These six galaxies may force astronomers to rewrite cosmology books. (Image credit: NASA, ESA, CSA, I. LABBE)"
Now I'm thinking about twisted anxiety reader being able to sing really well. I feel like there could be some very interesting/funny moments (4 us not reader).
Reader probably only sings in a reclusive area like a forest around the dorm
I wanna say that the forest already has haunting rumors about it ,and when someone (jade or rook) hears reader singing they think that the "ghost" is up and active again. So students start doing a "test of courage" type thing.
I put Jade or Rook being the one to hear reader cuz they're really the only ones that would really be in that area without a reason.
I also know they're intelligent enough to know it's not a ghost ,but start the rumor anyways cuz they want to know who's singing. And it becomes this big thing the school trying to figure out.
Cut to reader losing her mind cuz she like "wow, I didn't know people thought it was that bad. How am I supposed to live, laugh, love ever again??"
When in reality they were just memorized by reader's singing. And they really want to find out who it is.
Bonus points if they film it and sent it to the group chat you posted about earlier. And reader just has to be like đ§ââïž "whattt???? No way!! đ€·ââïžđ€·ââïž a random voice in the woods đ±đ±"
I'm sorry for sending 2 long asks back 2 back ,but twisted anxiety just gets my head going.
Also if you don't like being sent stuff like this just tell me and I won't send any more. I don't want to over step at all. These are just like head cannons I give to reader ,cuz I just love making things worse for her. Can't let her know what peace is
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hOW THE FUCK DID YOU GET IN MY HEAD đ«”
iâm going to give you the fattest smooch alive you donât understand. AND I LOVE IT WHEN I GET LONG ASKS!!! so please! ask away i donât mind, i actually get really flattered that people want to share with me their long, detailed thoughts !! i was actually nervous people wouldnât like my long responses đ
no cause thatâs ALWAYS one troupe i ALWAYS go back to.
i was thinking about making them a singer, REALLY I WAS- but i had second thoughts cause i thought people wouldnât like it / maybe people would think its too⊠y-nie or im trying to make twisted anxiety reader too much, ya know
BUT OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU MEAH MWAH (also dw i got your other ask and fully plan on answering it, this one was just at the top of my inbox đ«¶đ«¶)
but oh my god,,,, HEAR ME OUT;
twisted anxiety reader getting pent up because they. have. no. outlet.
none.
maybe they played a sport in their old world, but no longer canât because seriously?? going up against beastmen, mermen, fae and just,,, men?! absolutely not.
they canât do anything fun in ramshackle because of the ghosts can and will find a way to stick their noses into your business. also hello??? no privacy at ramshackleđđ
honestly, twisted anxiety reader doesnât have any friends so they canât blow off steam that way either. and going to the gym is out of the question because 1. anxiety 2.gym bros- and working out at home is⊠different.
so there has to be a way to let off steam⊠good thing twisted anxiety reader dilly dallied in everything!!
they want to sing but arenât confident enough to join the pop music club, and the walls to ramshackle are paper thin.
thereâs absolutely no where you can go.
and yet⊠every time you glance at the forest. you canât help but wonderâŠđ€
oh my god i have to make a separate post for this before i completely rot and accidentally write a whole chapter because iâve been WAITING to write about this and iâd feel bad about making this SUPER LONG
but i canât imagine rook going for a sunset âhikeâ (âŠsure, letâs go with that) and hearing you. belting your little heart to âhopelessly devotedâ HAGFJAIWOFOSOWOFOAPEIFOZOQFOXOD
ROOK IS AWE STRUCK
such passion! such devotion! how marvelously beautiful! rook is stunned.
of course after you finish singing he can hear you moan and groan about trivial things but- rook hunt was not a hunt if he didnât appreciate the gift the forest provided.
and yet, the carful hunter made a careless mistake. cursing silently, he glared at the twig his boots stepped on before he snapped his head up to the clearing up ahead.
ah, you fled.
to say rook was⊠upset was an understatement. yes he was able to marvel in your voice, but he lost the privilege to listen to more, to observe from afar.
the strange songs you sang and possibly wrote (what he doesnât know wonât hurt him) are gone with the wind and the high step of your foot as you vanished into thin air.
rook could easily hunt you down, but he stopped himself after a slight muscle twitch. non non! he was the enjoyer of beauty! not the hunter! yes he hunted beauty but it would go against his very being to trap it instead of let it fly free and continue its song.
so let this be your little secret, okay.
jade would def walk into you singing âeverything staysâ
OR OR ROOK N JADE BOTH TAG TEAMING READER IN THE CHAT SAYING HOW THEY WISH TO MEET THIS BEAUTIFUL VOICED GOREST âNYMPHâ SO THEY CAN HEAR MORE OF THEIR SONGS
readers just like;
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âtime to find a new locationâïžâ
*thereâs no where those two wonât be able to find you fyi*
TWISTED ANXIETY READER WILL NEVER KNOW PEACEâŒïžâŒïž NOT AS LONG AS IM HEREâŒïžâŒïž
please send more headcanons i love reading them đđ»đđ»
Dude just imagine if Ethan was still Alive even though Sam and Tara swears up and down that they killed him. Like your trying to live your life away from NYC where Your Crazy ex boyfriend and his family had died at. And he shows up again đ I didn't know, if I would like that one bit
Omg was it the one with the voice over that said âaccording to the carpenter sisters there was said to be three suspects that were behind the murder massacres in New York City. Only two bodies were discovered.â đ±đ if it is then Iâve seen that one đ
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Hope always lingered in the back of your mind after the news confirmed that Detective Bailey and Quinn were dead. Ethanâs disappearance remained unknown. No knowledge, no information on where he could be. The group saw it as good news. They were again free from being chased and no longer had to look over their shoulders. It was liberating. The beginning of a fresh start again. The trauma still remained though. The nightmares lingered, projecting behind your eyelids every time you closed them. Various flashes of blood and knives painted your restless nights. However, it was his face that kept you from sleep. The memories of what you considered to have been the happiest days you could have had. The promises of forever twisted into false statements with the removal of the mask. You didnât think heâd be the one behind it. You didnât know what to think anymore.
You had made it known to the party that you swore you saw someone that resembled Ethan one afternoon. The crowded subway made it impossible to allow you to catch a second glimpse. You pushed and moved passed people and in the end, you were left with nothing but the faint catch of dark brown curls.Â
Chad reminded you that his betrayal could have made you hallucinate or possibly mistake someone for Ethan by accident. The need for answers and your need for closure to help close this particular chapter in your life was what could have brought on the want for that person on the subway to have been him. You knew better. Your gut telling you that it was him, that you werenât hallucinating or making him up. You knew betterâŠand no one wanted to believe you.
You unlock your apartment and walk inside. Your keys clatter on the glass bowl on the table by the door. You remove your jacket and bag. Sighing in relief that you could finally distress and take down your armor. It was your guard that didnât fall, though. You froze in place seeing the outline of the silhouette standing in front of your windowâhe pulled down a blind divider to peek out. You didnât need him to turn around to know it was him. His jacket and backpack on the carpet clarified who entered your home.
âHey! You had the late shift at the cafe, right? Itâs why you barely got homeâŠâ You thank the fact his back is turned to you. You didnât want him to see you flinch at just the mere sound of his voice.
âE-Ethan.â You greet. Though it felt more like a question
âI-I still had the spare you gave to meâŠâ He takes the key out of his jacket pocket. The clatter makes you flinch again as it rattles on top of your small dining table. You stiffen as he turns around. âI donât know what surprises me more. The fact you didnât replace the locks or that fact you saw me and didnât turn me in.â
Your questions were answered.
âSo it was youâŠon the train that day.â
âYou caught me off guard that dayâŠâ He looks down. A tiny smirk as he quirks a brow at you. âY-Youâre done with classes around 4âŠI thought I was in the clear.â He nervously laughs.
âYou kept tabs on me didnât you?â You gape at him.
âIt was the only way I could keep you close.â
You scoff. Crossing your arms. âYouâre full of shit!â You pick up a pillow and launch it at him. âYou son of bitch. You think you can come into my home like you own the goddamn place, expect me to receive you with a smile and accept your hey. Go to hell!â You round the couch to get up in his face. His jaw clenches as he lets your words be thrown at him. âYou have some nerve coming back, especially after everything. Anika was our friendâŠChad for gods sake! I let you in. I introduced you to my friends! I loved you!â You cry. Your hands pushing and beating against his chest. He stumbles back, taking blow after blow. A solemn frown painted his features. His eyes getting teary-eyed. âI let you inâŠI told you my life story, my insecurities, I let you in, and you threw it all away so you could what- kill my friends! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you and your stupid face, and for making me fall in love with you. I gave you everything I had left of myselfâŠdid you even really love me?â You sneer up at him with so much anger and hatred for him. âOr was that all a part of you and your familyâs plansâŠâ You ball your fist against his chest. Head falling against him. Your faint sniffles and cries break him. âI knewâŠâ You nod. Ethan gently runs his fingertips over your fist, flattening out your palm to rest against his shirt. âI knew you werenât dead, and no one believed me.â
âIâm hereâŠâ He reassures.
âI hate you so muchâŠâ Your lips tremble as your eyes rake over his face. The curves and dents of his features memorably welcoming. âHow could you? We talked about a future togetherâŠyou gave me hope of a somedayâŠWhy would you do that to me? Put me through all this shit?â A tear falls down your cheeks. He lifts his hand to wipe it away. You instinctually find yourself leaning into his hand, pressing your cheek up against his palm. It felt like home.
âMy dad he uh- He gave me an ultimatum after I didnât want to follow through with his plan.â He swallowed thickly. His brows furrowed in thought. âIt was either I go through with the plan like he told usâŠor heâd kill you.â
Your faces scrunched in confusion. âWhen did youâŠWhy didnât you want to go through with it anymore?â
âIt was after our first dateâŠâ He looked down. A sad smile doted his face now. âYou asked me if I wanted to play a game called 36 questions. I said yes. So we playedâŠand one of the questions you asked was if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living and whyâŠâ He looked back up at you with intensity. âYou answered first and said you wouldnât change anything cause it brought you closer to the people you loved. That if you had changed somethingâŠyou wouldnât have met me.â A tear fell down his cheek. You braced a teary-eyed smile, nodding.
âI didâŠâ You breathe out.
âI knew right thereâŠI knew.â He nodded. âI donât blame you if you decide to hate me forever. The things I did canât be forgiven or forgotten, and Iâm gonna live with that guiltâŠâ He sniffles. âI-I never gave you my answer that dayâŠâ He shutters out a faint exhale.
âYouâd change something?â
âThe only thing Iâd change would be to have met you and your friends under better circumstances. That I didnât meet you for the sake of my dad wanting revenge for my brother. Thatâs all Iâd changeâŠâ He shrugs.
âI donât think Iâd change the way we met.â You disagree.
âWhy not?â He frowns.
âCause you fit right in from the startâŠâ You shrug. âChad brought you along one day, and the rest was history. Even if you did juke the roommate lottery and attempt to kill us. You came into our lives⊠my life. I donât think we would have even crossed paths if you were just Ethan Landry the transfer student going to the same school as Woodsboro survivors. Was the outcome one I would have never imaginedâŠyeah and it fucking hurt.â You admit solemnly. âBut I wouldnât change how we met for anything.â You shake your head. âI donât forgive youâŠâ Ethan's shoulders drop at your words. âNot right nowâŠItâs gonna take me some timeâŠChad, the girls, they wonât take you back. Maybe in a few years, but thisâŠnot right now.â You gesture between you two. âItâs too much. I just need time okay.â
âIâll wait for you.â He admits it like it was simple.
âThen youâll be doing that for a while.â You breathe out a laugh.
âIâll wait a lifetime for you.â You stare back at his kicked puppy dog eyes. You groan, facepalming.
âYou canât say shit like that!â You whine. You turn around and walk to your room.
âBut Iâm serious...â He defends, following after you.
âI know!â You look back at him over your shoulder.
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SHE WAS THERE DRINKEN BLOOD BEROUH !
she goes,
I loooove drinkin blood.
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