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Hello first time requesting
I was wondering if I can request reader x hanma were they have a toddler and hanma rough plays with him and overall hanma being a good father to the point that the reader is moved to tears as they see that since they never really saw how a loving father is supposed to look like so it’s like healing their inner child seeing their kid being genuinely loved by their father not just in name
(It’s to heal them daddy issues yes)
a/n: we're in this together cause me too. at first I didn't wanna write it since I've stated I wouldn't write about marriage or pregnancy but I'll let this dodge just cause I said so. (btw I did the kids gender as a boy cause you mentioned 'him' once, not sure if that was on purpose or not but i hope thats okay)
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Hanma Shuji |-° a good father
it was scary getting married, afraid that it would turn south and become unhappy to the point where we'd turn down walls just to get our points across. afraid that cause of all our bickering he'd be secretly go with another woman, become avoidant and distant but that hasn't happened, at all.
finding out I was pregnant was terrifying, afraid that I would fail as a mother of a sweet baby and id be the reason for his dreams and innocence being taken away. you don't need to be drastically smart to know that you eventually become your parents, everyone has some sort of element inside of them that resembles their care givers. so I was petrified that I'd turn out like my father, or maybe that I had married the wrong man to commit in having child with; just like my mother. generational trauma doesn't go easy on anyone, so my heart always shook and sank whenever i held my boy.
I try, I really do try a lot to make sure that what I went through won't ever happen to my- our kid and he'll grow up to be loved. but fear does still strike me since I'm yet to figure out how to be as a parent, Im aware that how I grew up wasn't right at all, but that doesn't mean that I know what good parenting looks like.
I've told hanma about my fear of parenting before we had agreed on having a kid, he didn't look at me weirdly, he didn't say anything negative, he didn't tell me that I shouldn't worry half assed as if it should be common sense to figure it out on the spot. instead, he told me not to worry sincerely, he meant every word he said, soothed me with warm words and some of his little jokes, and told me I have plenty of time to figure out if I want to be called 'mom' and that there was no reason to rush into things. so after a few days I've made up my mind and went on to discuss baby names as a hint that i want to keep it.
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I hear small giggles in the other room, ones that belong to our child, a child that has the most gorgeous smile and has his father's eyes. his tiny baby hands have grown to be toddlers and he's still growing everyday.
I wiped my hands dry and clean on a towel in the kitchen from washing the vegetables that I was about to cut up and cook. I could have started right away with the cooking but I wanted to quickly see what's so amusing that got our boy all loud and humoured.
leaning against the door frame I saw our boy stood up on his little feet with his arms circling around in the air, Hanma was gently pinching his tummy with this thumb, pointer and middle finger making him ticklish and making 'pow' and 'wow' sounds. Hanma was smiling and laughing along as he'd change him movements to then annoy the kid by tapping him on his cheeks and nose, the boy would try and move hanma's hand away but despite his annoyance he was enjoying it and that just kept Hanma to keep playfuly annoy him.
is that something that fathers do? is that what they call rough play, or is this something else?
a main thing that also struck me in this moment was that hanma was smiling while playing with the boy. Im aware that parents can still smile but seeing his joyed expression instead of a bothered and annoyed look felt really refreshing.
for the past few years we've had our boy he's been nothing else than a good father, sure we've had a few off moments but there will always be short lasting moments where it feels like we're all sinking because of our own mistakes and flaws.
but over time Hanna has made me realize many things, about himself, myself, our boy and on an overall what it means to be a good parent. what considers to be good parenting is a very controversial topic for most but I'd say as long as the child is happy and isn't sat through abuse or neglect, that's more than enough.
my boy will have the childhood that I needed but couldn't have, Hanma is being the father that I needed but didn't have. our boy will be smiling all throughout. while im over here trying to keep in my angsty emotions, c'mon I'm better than this aren't I?
I put a hand over my mouth to stop my quivering lips but my teary eyes took that as a chance to spill over before I could wipe them away. looking away to avoid any attention but before I could go back to what I was doing before; Hanma called my name out and I felt his hands slide up my upper arm and turn me around. he saw me cry before I saw him notice.
"hey hey, what happened? talk to me" he said worryingly
looking at him briefly, I wanted to speak up but even I was unsure on what I was crying about, but then i looked at our boy for a few seconds and it only then clicked in. I shook my head gently before replying "no it's just- you're a good father. and I'm glad our boy will have you to look up to"
hanma immediately brought me into a tight hug but then chuckled a little, I felt the vibration of his laugh against his chest. whats so amusing? "and he has an amazing mother to look up to as well. I know how stressed you've been and I'm really proud of you for how far you've gotten"
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#i hate writing about a sappy family#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers x reader#hanma shuji#shuji hanma#hanma x reader#hanma shuuji x reader#hanma shuuji x you#hanma shuji fluff#tokyo revengers fluff#tokyo revengers hanma
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lmao buck didnt ditch tommy last episode, he just made a pit stop before going to spend the night with tommy, like do you think he spent the whole night there? and yeah, this episode, if he does leave tommy to go help eddie, that's what friends do ?? like what do you expect him to do, just ignore his friends life completely falling apart? buck is an adult relationship and adults respect the fact that they arent always going to be no 1 first priority ALL of the time. tommy respects that, especially because eddie is actively in a spiral, and honestly it's really refreshing to see such a healthy depiction of the balance between romantic/platonic relationships. i mean how many times have other couples been interrupted by similar emergencies, this is literally the emergency show like. yeah obviously when there is an emergency, the characters are going to drop everything and go to it. I swear you people have never had adult relationships, romantic or platonic, because you see a normal healthy relationship and are incapable of enjoying it. "not anti bi buck, just anti tommy kinard" not anti bi buck, just anti any relationship buck has with a man that isn't eddie
wow what did i say?? that was quick!
if you think buck left eddie’s house after hearing eddie say the words “yeah me too” in reference to being worried about him, then you do not know buck at all.
also when have we seen tommy respecting anything with buck? you all live in these made up scenarios that lou blabs on cameo when in reality all we have seen is tommy constantly be dismissive towards buck unless buck is actively paying sole attention to him. that is not a perfect and healthy relationship.
tommy is constantly speaking down to buck, calling him “kid” and refusing to call buck by the name he chose for himself. that is not the sign of someone who cares about buck to me.
as for being against any relationship buck is in with s man…. give me a man who actually shows that he gives a flying fuck about buck. give me a man who isn’t constantly being condescending and rude. give me a man who’s whole backstory wasn’t as a tool to put hen and chimney through hell at the 118. if buck was dating literally any other guy i wouldn’t be anywhere near as fed up with this plotline; but the fact of the matter is we have BARELY seen anything between them that isn’t tommy being a dick to buck unless buck is kissing him. that doesn’t read as a positive and healthy relationship to me. you all claim to care about buck so much, but then actively defend everything tommy does that is rude and condescending to buck as if buck somehow deserves it.
i am capable of enjoying normal healthy adult relationships because i have watched this show for seven years. i have seen these characters drop things for emergencies. i have picked up on the patterns they have laid down in previous storylines. i have experience working in filmmaking and know how to read into things.
normally i look at these asks and laugh because i don’t like to give a platform to people like you who hide begind anon to try and make buddie shippers out to be monsters but the fact that that post hasn’t even been up for ten minutes and you already felt the need to type a whole anon ask about how wrong i am when none of what you’ve pointed out has any canonical evidence of living in the truth? i have to laugh.
the block button is free. filtering out the anti tags is free. if you’re one of my followers…. when have i ever posted anything that would make you think i was pro tommy in any way that got you to follow me in the first place?
since you sent the ask on anon and i have no way of doing it myself, i invite you to go to my page and press the block button… the anti tags exist for a reason and if you don’t wanna see anti tommy content, either filter out the tags or block my blog. simple as that.
#911 abc#911#911 spoilers#911 on abc#911 season 7#eddie diaz#evan buckley#buck and eddie#buddie#buddie 911#anti tommy kinard#anti bucktommy#not anti bi buck anti tommy kinard
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it is normally the bare minimum, but there is something very nice and even surprising about stumbling about white people who are seriously respectful about cultural foods. I've only really encountered two, but it's refreshing to see
#I want to be careful about praising it because we normally aren't granted the same sort of wonder/praise#however these two people I'm thinking of really went above and beyond learning the language and#actually talking and befriending the people they're getting food from#I forget the @ of the first guy I think his name was max#but I just stumbled upon this gal called blondieinchina#and wow is it really refreshing to see this#I mean she's even trying dishes my friends and I don't even normally go for#and she's never rude about it even if she doesn't like it#actually I think this is the same lady who was talking about rabbit heads before (which are delicious btw)
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I know a lot of people have issues with the Neon Frights line, but I still really adore my Frankie so much
#still waiting on a clawdeen that really wows me#the refresh isn't bad but i'm still kind of eh#esp bc i don't know if i'll be able to see her in person since idk if she's coming to target#frankie stein#monster high#dolls#all art#fanart
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rereading my fics is like a constant cycle of being like "teehee that was funny. oh god that line was cringe. hehe that was funny. wait why did i say that 😑. hehe. wait i forgot about that part. hang on didnt i plan to write xyz into this why did i never get to that. teehee that was funny-"
#anyway im rereading the latest chapter i had for the kalim thing to refresh my mind kfsdjfklsd i gotta revisit my notes#which are. within this sketchbook sojfdlksjf idk why i wrote them in there instead of just in a doc lololol#but god yea i forgot a lot already that happened in the latest chapter bc theres was some stuff i think i hd to add/figure out#as i was writing it outside of the chapter planning lolol#not a lot but enough that i was like HMM. fjdsklfjdskl good thing it is right here for my own. memory.#there are alos a lot of spacing errors and a typo so im editing them rn =_=#ive had a general outline for how the whole thing would go / roughly a few things i might want for the last few chapters#but ough i really am in the no man's land rn this latter part is less planned than the first part LOL#so uh. we'll see how it goes. but it's ok if it sucks it's my first multi chapter fic im not counting on perfection!!!#either way i will do my best. to make it enjoyable i hope sdlkjfklsdjf#ppl in the comments: wow im interested to see how this turns out#me shaking kalim by the shoulders: me too. whats going on. sdjklfjsdkfljsklfjsdkl
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im so considerate.... (<- guy not ranting about a thing it hates before its friend is done with the media)
#can officially say i finished the arkhamverse. didnt watch anything about that suicide squad one but i read all comics#a d watched the complete story & side mission gameplay for origins asylum city and midway through my refresher for knight#the biggest takeaway i have is wow these people are weird about convicts and addicts and love their toxic masculinity#but the gameplay and nostalgia impacts peoples opinions on it. maybe an enjoyable experience but for the story or universe itself#its a complete failure in every regard i can think of—only having glimpses moments of quality that makes the rest of it#be frustrating because the potential can be there. theres interesting premises occasionally but the execution and payoff doesn't make it#even worthwhile to get to those premises because of what you must wade through to reach them#<- thats me being my nicest and most spoiler freeabout it btw.#my other big takeaway is that tim is canonically older than jason and i think a grown ass man saying fuck that kid is really funny#[SPOILERS LOOK AWAY CJ]#<- tim currently works as a highschool science teacher while jason was shown to be adopted and made robin at 15#where he was then promptly captured and kidnapped by joker. he escaped half? a year later during asylum and AK takes place 2 years afterward#i think. the entire timeline for this shitty universe is awful and confusing. dick was robin for like 2 years its ridiculous.#and i think primarily so they can go noooo see bruce is a hot late 30 year old instead because you become dust at any older!!#but. back to the age thing. hes about 17 maybe early 18 during AK but because tim is a private school teacher he needs a bachelor's degree#and most people get it at 22/23ish and then theres the actual teacher application and being hired (or not because hes a nepo baby)#so hes early mid twenties or so. compared to a (presumably dead) teenager who he called a loser more or less.
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the combination of Sam trying to cope by manly manly cutting down tree after tree and breaking his axe combined his cringe fail inadequacy of making a pyre for his dead son after leaving without telling anyone and sobbing by the side of the road. hits.
#sam and jack#sam winchester#sammy#spn#supernatural#byzantium#14x08#s14#so far my thoughts on this ep are needs more jack. but i remember seeing him in heaven before he like was breaking it or something.#wow what am i going to do when I actually remember later seasons spn really well and have nothing that feels refreshing to rewatch </3#incoherents#caps
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A couple weeks ago, I commissioned Eronposts on Twitter to draw some Saving Starlight StarKeri’s and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LOOK HOW PRETTY WE ARE 🥺😭😭💞💓💗💕💕💟💝💘💓💖💖💓💞💕
#THE SCRATCHES ON HIS ARMOR#THE COLORS? THE COLORS?? PINK LEMONADE KING AND QUEEN READY TO CONQUER ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING#seeing these after such a long workday was JUST what i needed#these are so detailed and HIS CLAWS?? ARE SO INTRICATE? SO PRETTY???#SO BEAUTIFUL EVERYTHING ABT HIM IS BEAUTIFUL#AND THIS ARTIST!!! MADE HIM LOOK SO STUNNING#SO DAZZLING SO PERFECT AAAAAAAAAAAA#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE'S MY EVERYTHING 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#i asked this artist for lots of love and tenderness#and didnt really give any instruction i told them to draw whatever they wanted#as long as stsc was happy and very much In Love#AND WOW DID THEY GO ABOVE AND BEYOND#im so thrilled!! that last page looks so much like scenes from my AU!! and it was unintentional!#the fucking reunion hug?? TEARFUL JOY??? THE PROTECTION?? MY LORD???#HOW DID THEY KNOW....#ughg I LOVE HOW THEY DREW MY HAIR TOOOO I LOVE THIS SO MUCH#god they made him so tender exactly what i wanted 🥺🥺🥺 it's PERFECT#better than i could ever imagine#its so refreshing to have Saving Starlight art that I didn't have to make myself#im going to stare at this forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and everrrrrr#Saving Starlight AU#Saving Starlight AU art#precious commissions tag#💕 Everything I did to get to you 🌟🌸#GOD LOOK HOW FOND HE IS. THE BLUSH#HIS SMILES. OGHOHGHGH IT WRECKS ME RIGHT IN THE HEART
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book VII ch 8 of feh once again blatantly showing how IS only writes to/assumes all their players are straight dudes huh
#sorry for the negativity but goddamn is that shit annoying#this book's ch designs just got SO blatant with the primary drive for female ch creation being t&a fanservice first and foremost too#which is such a pity bc despite it's faults i'd thought book vi was a refreshing step in the right direction of female ch design/writing#(particularly when compared to what we were seeing of the pre-release info/ch designs of engage at the time and all)#(where i was over here like wow can't believe the GACHA GAME is doing a better job on the ch design front what gives??)#...and then we were hit with the WAY WORSE designs of book VI#AND THEN the book freaking starts and it's uhhh really ramped up the blatant obsession with the PC w/ these new chs too huh ugh#just gotta love how for all their blatant 'make chs obsessed w/ the pc to pander to players' bullshit#IS can still only write as if the player is a straight/cis dude so it falls flat for like a solid half of their fanbase lmao#sto parlando#feh blogging or smth ig#general fe blogging tag
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wc animators who make amvs involving dovewing that dont vilify her or make her look like a vain airhead who bullies her sister and is proud of taking hollyleafs place or heavily sideline her in favor of ivypool and act like shes just the beginning of ivypools arc i am kissing you directly on the mouth
#im very slow on the community i just watched the follow me dovepaw and ivypaw amv and WOW it is gorgeous#i already really liked bunnycats drift away amv with her and god it makes me so happy that theres a semi popular animator that actually care#cares about dovewing#like she doesnt have to be the focus but i love how in the amv shes not only given equal attention to ivy in a scenario that people only#involve ivy in but they also have ivy be portrayed as the naive one and dove as the mature one#which like. not only is that just so refreshing to see in the fandom on doves side but like. yeah ivypaw WAS naive#she was a teenager that got manipulated and tortured not some epic badass girlboss sadgirl who had her hand forced#she was tricked and it’s completely on hawkfrost that she was but like she was vulnerable and hawk exploited that#and i feel the amv did a good job at expressing that without making it like. weird ig#echoed voice
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Some practice/experiments!
I've been having a lot of trouble w paints LMFAO, so I've been revisiting pencils and like damn. This is literally so much better actually LMFAO, I have so much more control and room for error. But then I spent like half a second thinking about how (for something I'm working on 👀👀) I'm gonna have to color backgrounds at least a little and thought. Damn. I fucking hate using pencils for bgs it's SO tedious and STUPID and also I still wanna paint I don't wanna give up 🥲🥲🥲
Then I thought, damn...... what if I mixed mediums. Would you be mad at me
#genshin#in my throwing spaghetti at the wall and seeing what sticks era ☺️☺️☺️☺️😌😌😌#sksks it's been nice though! i think when i was younger i was def super rigid w my art.#i had something that worked and if it works no need to change it!#and also. severe perfectionistic who's entire world would end if he was not immediately good at something#but like i can't even be like 'wow i've grown soooo much ☺️☺️☺️' bc like. i don't think it counts LMFAO#literally all this is a direct result of 'what works' is not working anymore. i'm being forced into this LMFAOOO#oh well!!!!!! all that matters is that i really am having fun.#trying grayscale w that comic and now whatever this is lmfao... some other stuff i was working on too w just ink...#it's really refreshing. i don't feel so stuck or burnt or bored anymore. i'm actually enjoying the process#vs like. just wanting end product NOW LMAO (I. STILL FEEL THAT A BIT. BUT. the journey itself feels different/better)#epic gamer moment 🎉🎉🎉👍👍#venti#gi aether#paimon#my art
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And I feel Mitsuru emotions in this Dorm tonight.
No but seriously, the amount of times she isolates after a confrontation is so sad. And her admitting to hiding if you talk to her through her door… god, someone give her a hug.
#Mitsuru has a very special place in my heart as contributing to baby jest’s gay awakening.#But also wow oh wow. She’s so nice and approachable. Early-game Yukari really isn’t a reliable source.#Like I get it she’s supposed to be kinda intimidating but honestly she’s really kind from the get-go.#And she has fun! she laughs at jokes and teases and was totally down to let Junpei use a bomb to break into the school.#Plus her calling out the faculty left and right is so refreshing.#note: that’s not a dig at Yukari. I actually really adore the realism to this cast and how their biases affect how they treat eachother.#I’ve always loved that SEES is composed of characters who feel like people. They’re messy and clash but they’re always doing their best
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Feel like the past three months I’ve seen so much death at work that it’s somewhat maybe affected my ability to cry because I’ve just dealt with it and carry on as if nothing’s happened. But recently I’ve been deeping how unpoorly my patients are in the rotation I’m in - it took me watching a mother wail over her daughter on friday to make me realise. These are all people I’ve been involved with. I’ve seen some die, I’ve seen some of their bodies being taken away to the morgue. Some people I put the most input in didn’t make it out alive. Death is always lingering around the corner.
#the me from two years ago wudve cried along with thr relatives or cried by myself over each person#ive become a lot emotionally stronger but now im worried that i cant cry#its my last week on these wards then im switching to another rotation where recovery for pts is a lot better so inshaAllah itll be better#but wow - life really is short#whats the point of all of this like does anything even matter#i realise this all sounds quite negative but theres also been positives to it#where i get to see them recovery fully and wave goodbye to them as they leave#and some where ive gone to speak to them and they started crying from gratitude#its so refreshing and makes you feel fulfillment etc#but the side where ppl dont make it… gosh 😭#personal
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#dawg they are so right when they say that your mindset is the most powerful tool - if not sometimes the solution - to a shitty situation#like I didn't get nearly enough sleep last night and my now my bus has broken down and I'll be late for work and most likely therefore end#up leaving late for work - despite how I planned ahead and got up early and had plans for after work that might be delayed or cancelled now#but BITCH I'm listening to anpanman and recreating the bts concert that I went to in my head#and I'm being flooded with that same feeling I got when I saw them performing this live on stage...the colourful lights & BOUNCY CASTLE#THE SECOND TIME? and remembering their enthusiasm and warmth and the nice things they said to us and I'm SMILING#serotonin really be stored in the airpods ig#but for real I recently became friends with someone who received life coach training & she has inspired me so much to implement a mindset#revolved around gratitude#like now I'm stuck in rain bc we are in need of a replacement bus BUT that gives me more time to chill on my phone + my boss is#understanding and wouldn't punish me for being late like some others would + the air feels soo refreshing + a dozen other reasons to feel#good despite the circumstances#every day above ground is a good day bitch!#wow imagine my depressed ass self from years ago hearing me say that...she could never#anyway that's it from me today see you next time beloved internet diary of mine#personal#I'm ✨ a 🤩 new 🌈 superhero 💃 ANPANMAN 💜#(blatantly ignores that the lyrics are actually supposed to be deep and sad and sentimental LMAOOOOOOOOO 😭)#we are on the new bus now let's goo
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It’s always so interesting to me when someone not super close to me gets me a gift or does something for me , and it’s like ahh okay I see , the color scheme you’ve chosen … I see now what vibe I’ve given off
#not in a bad way#but like they get me something that’s all pink and baby blue and spring and light#and it’s like wow you see me as this pure lil angel#a refreshing viewpoint from being the hosuehold villain#thank you for that 🥲💕#ramblings#my boss and coworkers were really nice#but I was intrigued by the girly and light hearted design on the cupcakes#I mean I wear a lot of dark colors but I enjoy a pastel now and then#so it’s like ahh you think I’m girly and fun and sweet?#🤔
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did i mention yet that i got skerples to start watching cg a couple weeks ago? we're nearing the end of the first half :)
#oughhh ough ogh. The Horrors#just thinking about. it all#just as insane abt cg as i was when i first watched it...wow <3#dont want to say anything specific since she will probably see this but . Man.#this is maybe the second anime that ive just started going off abt how much i love some of the like.#writing choices and themes and shit and skerples has just been like “bro make a video essay <3”#the other being trigun.#which is a whole nother level of brain worms this is my third watch of cg and with stampede included ive watched trigun like. 8 or so times.#but yeah............#also watching anime with her is so funny bc she like. will make gay jokes (is it really jokes w cg tho. i mean seriously.)#like suzaku and lelouche will be on screen having a fight and shell just be like “JUST KISS ALREADY DAMN.”#we had one of the scenes with nina and euphie earlier and she was like “and history will say they were just friends”#its so like...refreshing.#also . shes heard me say “if lelouche and suzaku teamed up from the beginning the show wouldve ended in 2 weeks”#& in one of the last eps we watched they were fighting together and she just turned to me and smiled and said “two weeks”
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