Steve and Billy staying up way too late talking on the phone in hushed voices
Past midnight, Billy’s under his covers with the lights off, mumbling into the receiver about how annoying Max was that day and how he couldn’t wait for their away game this weekend.
Steve’s laying in bed with his fingers tangled in the cord, a soft smile on his face as he listens to Billy’s low voice as it rumbles gently into his ear, feeling his eyelids start to get heavy.
It’s like they’re laying right next to each other, heads on pillows and fingers intertwined.
After another twenty minutes, Steve finally mutters, “‘M tired…”
“Go to sleep, baby,” Billy whispers back, smiling softly to himself.
“But I wanna talk to you…” Steve half-whines, sleepy and wishing his boyfriend was there with him.
Billy chuckles softly into the receiver, already imaging Steve’s pouting face, “We’ll talk tomorrow at school.”
“Promise?”
“Yeah, sweetheart. Cross my heart.”
Satisfied, Steve hums easily, “Okay. Love you.”
Billy feels butterflies in his stomach, as he always does when Steve mutters those words. He clears his throat and whispers, “Yeah. Love you too.”
It’s getting easier to say those words out loud, but he’s also scared to say them too much. Steve doesn’t believe there’s such a thing and says it whenever he can, his dark eyes full of love, just as his voice is.
He says it so much that Billy starts to believe it. Starts to believe he’s worth loving, and it changes him for the better.
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another thing i hate about high school movies is them always portraying the bullied kid as the one that gets the highest grades and always focuses on studying, as if any kid who has to spend the day being constantly harrased would devote the limited hours they have away from such a toxic environment on schoolwork
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The way Dean defaults to fight and Cas defaults to flight and they never fully understand this about each other so Cas is always thinking Dean wants him to go and Dean is always thinking Cas doesn't want to stay.
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hey guys, i hate having to do this all the time but im scary broke again 😞 i've been applying to jobs all week, i even applied to a temp agency, but i havent had any luck with work... i havent gotten a commission in over two weeks now, probably because it's con season, so i've been barely scraping by. i'm trans and i have no family to help me out so i'm trying to survive on my own pretty much
i just woke up this text and im freaking out. i have bills coming up, and i only have $4 in my bank account. i need to start paying next month's bills in a week!! hopefully i can score a project with the temp agency soon but it doesn't seem likely so far
i'm still applying to jobs but since i can only get jobs on my bus route i have to find things in my area which has been difficult. i've been working on commissions daily and trying to get through my queue as fast as i can.
if anyone wants to help me at all, i'd really appreciate it... anything at all helps. i'm open for commissions too! my turnaround time is 1-2 months depending on complexity. you can see my art here https://furaffinity.net/user/shadyhouse (warning: most of what i make is nsfw, please only commission me if youre 18+)
if you want to just donate and help me out, even a couple of dollars will help me, you can send it here
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otherwise, i'd really appreciate reblogs 🙏 please don't feel obligated to donate if you cant afford to, i'd like for you to be able to survive as well!
thank you for reading this far, i'm sorry i have to do this all the time, i really wish it wasn't the case. i'll update if things start to look up for me
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You know, it would be a LOT easier to explain to doctors where my pain is on my body
A: If the pain wasn’t in my BACK and therefore impossible for me to SEE or properly POINT TO with my short fucking arms
B: If every diagram of the human body available to me wasn’t made for TALL PEOPLE and therefore way harder guess where I should be pointing in reference to my own short fucking body
C: If the doctors examining me would just PUSH HARDER ALREADY. I literally have so much radiating pain, your fucking butterfly taps of “does it hurt here?” are NOT HELPING. You need to DIG IN THERE or I can’t TELL YOU WHAT HURTS MOST.
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If anyone is wondering why I haven't updated, there are a number of reasons. However, a major one is that Crunchyroll will no longer allow you to use old versions of the app. What this means is I am no longer able to take screenshots of record small scenes so I can transcribe them or basically do most of what I do here.
For those of you who are unfamiliar with this blog, I am a broke ass bitch with a chronic, genetic kidney diseases I had the pleasure of being born with, which severely limits me in a number of ways. One such way is money: medical bills at expensive and even with insurance I owe something like $1,462.78 and that's just the past year. Nevermind the bills I collected from other hospitals/doctors. The result is I live a pretty simply life, including the fact that I don't own any sort of fancy recording equipment like "a pc". Every screenshot, every gif, every artistic and not so artistic edit, every video recording, every single post and fanfic and reply, that is all done from my phone. It's my one and only portal to the Internet and sole tool to do whatever is is I do.
With that in mind, while I am proud I managed to take my degree in English Literary Theory and learn how to do all of that on an older model Android I've had for a few years now, I also know that then bulk of internet denizens are just WAY more skilled/knowledge at this then I will ever be.
Keep in mind, I have no money (so advice along the lines of "just buy this $99 program, it's so easy!" or "why not just get a cheap laptop, you can get one for under $600 EASY these days" or even "you just need a monthly subscription to this OTHER streaming site, that doesn't have a film blocker" just doesn't help, especially since I don't even have my own subscription to CR so there is no just dropping that to pay for another.) I was hoping someone out there knew a method I could use to record the "latest" episodes.
I say latest but I left off at 1078. I know, I'm ages behind, but there is a good reason for it.
Please, anyone who knows how I can take screencaps (recordings would be useful but not required) PLEASE contact me and let me in on your secret.
I won't tattle, I swear. I just want to be able to watch the show and react about it on this blog since, sadly, I've recently lost all my OP watching buddies to various life circumstances.
Failing that, I need someone to agree to watch every single episode along with me as my "recorder", recording long swatches of each episode and then sending to me when we're done so I can get my screencaps and gifs and the likes. The good news? You'd have someone eternally thankful for your contributions, who would credit you in every post, and I wouldn't even use any jokes/observations/thoughts you might share while we watch without permission. And.... errrr. Did I mention the gratitude? Shit, that's really all I have.
But I have so much of it!
Guys, I hate getting all emotional, but I am having a hell of a year between the dogs, the bad diagnosis and, hey, this is currently my face:
For comparison, when I'm not dying:
Just any help or even attempts at advice would be welcomed. I know it's stupid, but a lot of what I personally get from reading/watching/playing things is in sharing it with others. I shouldn't have to explain that, it's part of why places like Tumblr and AO3 EXIST.
Feel free to reach out in a reblog, comment, tag me, DM, message me on discord (gildedmuse). Whatever is easiest. And thank you, so, SO much for any potential advice or help you can offer.
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