#and its because im so calm about everything
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Hi! I saw that your requests are open!
Would you be alright writing headcanons for a GN!Reader(Fem is fine too if it's a struggle) for Sanji and Zoro with an idiot reader? The type to throw themselves in danger, believe people at face value, able to succeed a mission by failing all the instructions ect.
Im a big fan of idiot readers because I am one myself, if you could add some cuddling in there too I would be so grateful
Take care!
Hi!! Gosh, this was fun to write lol. Sanji and Zoro are my boys, they would both def end up with idiot readers lol. I hope you like it! :)
Sanji
You, an idiot?
His precious, darling beloved?
Never, he’d fight anyone who said you were! He’d never call you that himse—
Oh there you go again, throwing yourself in front of Luffy. Haven’t you learned he’ll be fine?
You do it every time, and even after Sanji and the others tell you to stop being so self sacrificing, they get enough of that with Zoro
Its fine, its fine, Sanji knows you just want to protect your friends
Its even fine when you nearly fall for an obvious scam of some woman needing money to pay off debtors, and it just happened to be the same amount in your hand
Thank goodness he was nearby and able to grab your hand to get you away from that, telling you what was going on
You felt really stupid for that, but it was fine, no problems, Sanji kept you from losing your money, Nami would’ve killed you both if you had
Its not fine when you end up injured this time, jumping in front of him when an enemy throws a spear at him
It barely grazed you when you pushed Sanji out of the way, but he’s still horrified knowing it was because you were protecting him that it happened
No matter how many times Chopper tries to Sanji that you’ll be okay, it wasn’t as bad as it could have been, he’s still upset with himself for being distracted by another enemy
Sanji wants to distract himself but you won’t let him leave you alone, dragging him into the bed you’re staying in that night and demanding cuddles since you’re hurt (not that hurt but still)
He’s glad to obliged, holding you close and burying his face in your shoulder while you stroke his hair
“Sorry I worried you, Sanji.”
“You’ve got to stop throwing yourself in front of people…”
He just doesn’t want to lose you
Zoro
He’s the one that calls you an idiot the most
In a loving way the majority of the time, but other times he really does mean it
The day you almost got swept away to another crew because on of their members tried to sell you a sob story about needing medicine for a sick kid?
Yeah you were an idiot for that one
The time you run to protect Nami, shoving her out of the way and receiving a deep gash on your abdomen
Zoro knows you want to protect people, to protect your family
But you should let him handle things sometimes!
He was on his way to protect Nami himself, but of course, you being you, ended up jumping ahead and pushing her away from the Marine attacking her
After all the Marines are taken care of, Chopper has you in the infirmary on Sunny immediately to assess your wounds
You got the worst of it, good job!
Zoro hears you got the worst of it, say your prayers because he’s pissed
Not entirely at you, partially at the Marine that got you, but still at you too
“You’re lucky his weapon didn’t have poison on it or somethin’!”
“I don’t think the Marines use poison, Zoro.”
“That’s not the point!”
You let him go off, telling you everything that could’ve gone wrong
It’s rare for even you to see this side of him, but it’s nice to know he cares this much
Eventually Zoro calms down, taking a deep breath before he walks back over and drags you into a hug
“You’re such a damn idiot you know?”
You nod, but smile, “but I’m your idiot, right?”
He rolls his one good eye and nods himself
“Yeah, you’re my idiot.”
He wouldn’t change a thing if it meant you were his and he was yours
Though he would like you be a little more careful in the future
#one piece x reader#zoro x reader#roranoa zoro x reader#reader insert#sanji x reader#black leg sanji x reader#fem!reader
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Sacred realm update! so I'm back!
Hi all!
Hope your doing well! :D
Only a few days late, Exam season man, what can you do?
This update shows link and Time Escaping. And time having... a Time....
Alright, now for the important stuff! Sacred realm belongs to @zelda-the-sacred-realm, and all art from the comics belongs to the comic artist. I've got their permission to do these! I love the comic so much its so good and so well done!
The link to the update can be found here! You should go reblog it, it's great, give it some love, please? :D
Let's do this, grab your popcorn and your water. Let's go! :D
Cinnamon roll Link strikes again, Clearly, the big purple guy just wants a hug!
oh no...
Panic!
Time's little superhero slide here.
Also, it must be said he's doing all this while carrying an adult. (Or close enough.) I know he's a spirit and all but that's VERY impressive!
You know when you're reading and you can hear the atmosphere, you can hear the moment that a breath is held. And time stands still.
This. The moment in a movie when everything stops before the action picks up in another way.
The talent it takes to get it from still images. I just am in awe.
Pure fear from Link.
Props to Time here for remaining calm while he's got the cinnamon roll here just scared out of his mind.
Time... Being reassuring?
Wow.
This is important I think for these two's relationship. The need to protect someone only comes to people who dont really hate someone. Before this, I'm pretty sure Link doesn't think Time cares too much about him.
Why would he right? Time's been nothing but cold to him.
(More on this later)
Link getting cocooned in Time's cloak is just, everything to me. It's such a caring more from him. (Even if it is a you can't die thing)
Ouch, that's gotta hurt
Oh man, this man is like... low-key gripping onto him.
Excuse me while I cry a little?
Twilightttttt ;-;
DIRECT FAMILY CONNECTION
EXCUSE ME WHILE I CRY MORE? ;-;-;-;
TIME? OH YOU POOR MAN
This reaction gives me father-son vibes but with time and Link, it's giving me life because oh my god these two.
Link is a cinnamon roll and must be protected.
PFFFFFFTTTT
Rip
This made me laugh I won't lie. Damit Time I was rooting for some Dad Time in this world.
Says the 'Small cinnamon roll with scared of everything issues.'
I love him but ohhhh man Time is gonna kill you
SEE
RUN LINK
RUN
Link, poor guy. Man needs help okay.
This map is interesting, I reckon is a list of the first three heroes we meet.
That top one is Skyloft. With Hylia and the floating island. - For Sky. who we met first.
The middle one has someone holding The double helix sword... That's the fierce deity on the middle level. We know Time has a connection to the Fierce deity mask. And in turn the deity himself. So this middle level is Time.
And that lower one.
If im right, This is the Twilight realm, and we will find ourselves there soon. The people look similar to the 'Link' we see on the land level to an extent while still holding a semblance of individuality.
Its almost, inverted? Like the twilight people were. Rather than looking different different.
I'm excited to see where this goes.
Also
Hi it's later
So I'm a sucker for visual storytelling in backgrounds and I think this might be more than an exploration into the depths beneath the ice.
Starting with this.
I think this, is Time being vulnerable.
The break from a cold icy exterior to something a little more personal.
Funny how when Time begins to see more personal stuff, he has more visions of the past.
The trigger has him almost scared, just look at him.
Why would Time be scared, if he didn't care?
Time appears to carry a lot of guilt around Twilight.
And when Link calls him out on it, he returns to that icy exterior, not allowing himself the opportunity to be vulnerable again.
And I wonder if that has to be explored before he can take his place within the medallion. Trials by fire, as they are so suitably called, can be for the spirits as much as Link.
Just a thought tho.
That's all from me! Hope you have a great day! :D
#comic analysis with major#ramble corner with major#zelda sacred realm#zeldathesacredrealm#sacred realm#sr twilight#loz sr#sr realms#sr time#i love this comic#Writing these brings me almost as much joy as Sky does#And that's saying something#because in every iteration dear god does he bring me joy#ztsr#hero of time#hero of realms#sacred realm analysis#this comic brings me so much joy
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having to attend events + be in a show with your ex (who asked out your best friend 5 days after your breakup) and act like everything is normal, is another level of strength. i deserve a tony for this performance damn.
#personal#bf#dating#dont date your castmate#breakup#legit some of our friends dont know we broke up yet#and its because im so calm about everything#lord give me strength#showmance#backstage drama#friend group drama#relationship drama
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reading about autistic meltdowns is crazy. in retrospect maybe that time i ended up sobbing self isolating and lashing out at people because I couldn't figure out how to set up my laptop the same way it had been before might've been because of The Autism
#i cannot deal with changes to things I deal with regularly#i need to have my phone and comp exactly the same lest I Suffer bc i use them every day#also perhaps i would get so upset over my mom cleaning my room (although being a nice gesture) is because she would move shit to places-#i didn't know and messed up the system i had#also fuckin. executive dysfunction. that's some shit isn't it#i had to move to a new desk early in my job to run a different room and the desk setup was different and I Was Struggling A Bit#also people trying to calm me down during meltdowns is significantly worse and i read a bit that was like.#'trying to interject into the meltdown may cause additional sensory overload. it's most safe to let the person self-regulate.' well shit#that's about right huh#autistic burnout also seemed very familiar and its a little disturbing just how close everything hits#anyways im probably autistic. good night#mossy's rambles#text post#luci's rambles#autism#neurodivergent#autistic things#autistic adult#autistic experiences#if anyone would like to add to the pile and tell me im autistic feel free ig. ive already been peer reviewed
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having the worst weekend ever in my life rn
#time for a rare TUMBLR VENT POST usually this is limited to my twitter#my hair loss from t has gotten way worse recently and im extremely upset about it#upset enough that yesterday at my sisters graduation i could barely focus because i was freaking out#and i am still. freaking out.#scheduled an appointment about finasteride and ordered rosemary oil shit but its really not looking good#and to top it all off my dad managed to ram into my car and put a dent in it. its easy to fix but still like. come on man WHY NOW#and i cant do the normal things i do to calm down about my hair because its On Me i can See It#i can see how its all fucking falling out#and everything reminds me of it#im so hungry but anxiety is making me so nauseous i can barely eat#im tired because i could barely sleep last night from the anxiety#i want to go home but also what the fuck do i do after that#i just feel so awful. i dont know what to do with myself#how did i even get such an intense balding gene my dads hair is fine my sisters hair is beautiful#im really fucking upset 😁😁😁😁😁🤪🤪🤪🤪😁😁‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️⁉️⁉️⁉️🤪🤪🤪🤪😁😁😁🤪😁☹️
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#sorry im thinking abt death again#because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died#that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from#time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed#i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she#died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way#my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today#for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days#and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt#future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her#last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that#and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving.#sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless#others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club#i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her#stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i#dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my#family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters#probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno.#i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity.#again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a#full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length#unrelated
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i genuinely dont know how tales of the abyss did what it did because ive never had a game hurt me so much with like sixteen separate character relationships. all at once.
#.text#tales of the abyss#besides the fact ive (obviously) been thinking abt jade and luke#ive also been thinking about tear and asch. and how im disappointed they only speak like once to each other#because they. are like. so insanely similar it is. surprising to me they dont meet.#but tear in general is so underused. like.#tear. she doesnt want to kill her brother but she must. he is everything to her. but she knows her duty.#she is calm and collected on the outside even as she breaks on the inside. she is a soldier. she doesnt let her emotions#dictate her actions or her words. and she is kind.#and then. like. asch. he wants to kill his replica but he knows that he cant. his emotions get the better of him to the point that#he disregards everything about luke and paints him as the enemy. for as responsible and mature he is all of that#disappears the second luke is involved-- because his emotions control him. he wants to be kind but i dont think he knows how anymore.#i dont think they would get along but there would be an understanding between them.#with tear. understanding means kindness. if she sees herself in others or understands them completely. she becomes. so kind.#its almost shocking to see that side of her one moment and the stone cold soldier the next.#its a matter of what she allows herself to be#but i think with asch she'd become the opposite. because she sees too much of herself in him - unlike luke it is not#the good things. nor is it the things they could bond about. it is the fact that asch wants to kill the only person in the world#who is not responsible for what happened to them. and probably the only person in the world who could truly understand asch.#like i know tear says she believes some things must be done. including killing family. but i dont think she truly. truly believes that.#she is in anguish over having to kill her brother. so i think her seeing asch completely disregard and even attack luke at times#when it ISNT necessary. like it is with van. she would not be kind to him.#which is like. asch is really only Neutral at times - even with luke he sometimes cant keep telling himself everything is lukes fault.#besides being defensive. i think thats really the only thing he could be around that type of tear.#like a. 'you dont know anything.' type of deal. a quiet anger. not the loud stuff he shoves at luke or van#they are fascinating to me.#how would they act in my twinswap au.................#i wonder...
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so the property im house sitting at is like. pretty isolated and up a driveway that theres no possible way youre going to go all the way up on accident but a random unexpected car came up and didnt come back down as far as i could see so that is. very fun and not at all frightening ✌️
#i told my parents what was going on and they called the police to have them come check everything out.#no word on when thatll be because. like. mildly middle of nowhere and its cops.#realistically theyre gonna do fuck all. because again. its a cop. but theres no way im going up to check the other house rn.#itd be thin ice for me to go do it tomorrow morning if not for the animals i have to feed.#its been about an hour since it initially happened so ive calmed down a little bit but im still freaked out being alone like this#god itd be so fuckin cringe if i got murdered in this shitty slasher scenario. im wearing a fuckin halloween t shirt.#you cant be slashed while wearing a slasher thats embarrassing.#anyway. i doubt im gonna die. but it is scary when some motherfucker is outside#and you cannot see them#ghost.txt
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What’s a genuinely sweet moment with Jo?
LOL
#snap chats#if you talkin rggjo then him meeting up with mitsu at the bar was kinda sweet#its my fave scene cause i still think him ambiguously forgetting his wallet is funny#but if we’re talking y7 uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhLOL#he really just a sad asshole#the notion he was ready to give up everything for masato once he realized the extent of his conditions kinda sweet. ig#ughhhh no wait jo being like ‘i couldnt kill arakawa how could i’ does make my kokoro go doki doki a lil..#thats pretty sweet….#another thing thats Weirdly sweet is just how insane he is about masato during chapter 1#yk scolding ichi for being late and saying killing him a thousand times wouldnt be enough if ichi left masato hanging#even more so because jo knows its masato’s actual birthday that day#even if no one else acknowledges it its sweet jo still wants masato’s real birthday to be good#following up on that its Again sweet how irate he gets at ichi over the notion ichi stole from masato#I MEAN. INSANE. LIKE CALM DOWN. but its the sentiment behind it considering Everything#all things considered jo can be a sweet guy… just violently lol…. love him….#wahhhhhhhh now im thinkin bout jo bruh how am i supposed to eat these pancakes now…
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discovery of the day
#im sorry i do Not see what everyone sees in this movie. although from the years of browsing the internet ive began to realize#that i actually dont know if people actually like the movie or not#why is everything so rushed#their romance felt like nothing to me because i dont KNOW what they see in eachother#listen you dont have to tell me straight up into the camera why they love eachother#but the aggressive kissing and cut sex scenes arent telling me much#i get that it came out in 2005 but cutting mostly every gay sex scene? even the kissing for the most part?#but oh we NEED to see this happy husband and wife doing it. yes im bitter#a german movie by the name of summer storm came out the year before this one and actually shows something that feels like actual passion#i sound like i need to see people doing it in these movies all the time I promise thats not it#but even the kissing? the thing i Actually like the most? the thing that makes me feel things? felt like nothing at all#and oh i forgot that this is a tragic gay movie where one of them dies. Oh yeah. forgot.#mentioning summer storm again: it actually has a relatively happy ending. feels good that i dont need to be reminded of how gay people are#doomed 24/7.#the romance started good. with jack telling the guy whos name i already forgot to get his ass in the tent already.#the Pulling his arm over my body thing. it was going great#THEN IT WENT SO FAST! WHY WAS HE SUDDENLY SO INTO IT! WHY WERE THEY BOTH SUDDENLY DOING IT#im sorry i expected a slighter slow burn than this!!! calm down cowboys i have no idea why you two like eachother all of the sudden!#i seriously thought they would show these little moments of tension#and it just growing bigger and bigger#until they couldnt take it anymore#that would explain the aggressiveness of it! why they were so desperate! but it literally just HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!#im sorry i. I expected more of this movie that i hear so much about.#the most it made me feel was at that moment that turned into a meme where i thought “Hop on fortnite”#chuckled. that was it. did i cry? did my heart race at any moment? was i worried about what was gonna happen? not Once#im so. Disappointed.#after this i wanted to watch summer storm but netflix removed it. Its a german only movie no one knows from 2004. where the hell am i gonna#🏴☠️ that#AAAGHHHH!!!!!!!#not being able to watch summer storm made me cry more than this movie did What the hell
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Mental illness is insane I'm just having dinner w my father eating this a little too spicy pasta enjoying the Yeowch on my throat and the silence and suddenly I'm like yeah I'd kill myself.
#luly talks#i mean it came from out of nowhere grieving but it's so bizarre#like i just got hit by this very heavy rock in my skull this overwhelming and genuine urge for a second that yeah that'd be ok#that's the correct path to take and there's no physical changes i just kept on chewing on my all too spicy bc he used the wrong condiments#pasta. like sure i was a little zoned out maybe if you paid close attention you'd have seen my eye getting lazy or something but like. thats#it. and i always in zoning out#like this wasn't even an intrusive thought those come out of nowhere and just are echoing chambers of fear and shame#this was a calm resolution like yeah. that's the way to go alright.#y'know kind of unrelated but i always wish i had someone to talk about some mental health things i cant w my therapist#more on the speculative diagnosis thing. if you dont know what i mean shame on you for not keeping up with the Luly lore /silly#it's really hard being neurodivergent and im not talking about autism rn that i can manage but gestures vaguely its hard when it's#a group project. it's hard when everything is so fuzzy#because sometimes i tell myself i only think of this bc im all day alone and thinking but like#what. am i supposed to be getting non stop stimuli 24/7 least i realize i hsve something in my skull going on?#i blame my mother for that one she always made me ashamed of being sick or whatever acting like it was my fault#like me noticing symptoms was equivalent to me making them real#as if that wasn't just absurd like. the symptoms are here you twat. I'm not placebo effecting myself w shit#even the ppl who do like. the symptoms are real.#aaahhh siiiiigh yet another common L#brain stuff
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Whenever this gets brought up my mom always says "aw I know how you feel I have body dysmorphia too :(" bro I don't have body dysmorphia I know I'm skinny and most of the time I like how I look that's not even the problem so literally just stop brining it up constantly
#i know shes trying to help but Im just annoyed#it was 6 MONTHS AGO Im fine you dont have to act like Im fucking insane#'I just cant believe youd tell a stranger over me I must be doing something wrong' IT WAS A DOCTOR#and yes youre doing a lot of stuff wrong but thats not why I didnt tell you#so calm down#literally all teenagers keep stuff from their parents#am i supposed to go to you and say omg mom Im fucking depressed and dont want to eat#like?? what do you expect#and the doctor TOLD YOU its not helpful to say that you have body dysmorphia too because telling me that does nothing except piss me off#god I fixed everything it was 6 months ago Im literally fine#Okay I do appreciate my mom trying to help I guess I just had to get that out of my system#but whenever my mom and dad talk with me I know my dad is telling the truth when he says you can talk to me about anything and tell us what#we're doing wrong#but my mom is such a liar because anytime anyone tells her something she takes it so fucking personal and then plays the victim while#simultaneously telling the person that theyre playing the victim???
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im actually getting so heated but i’d love to know your opinion on how annoyed people are getting about dennis “successfully monitoring his blood pressure” and actually being in control of his body. like??? huh??
I dunno, I don't really get why it's an issue for so many people personally speaking shsjnfnkhfjd this is like, pretty well established stuff, he's just gotten better at it and is using kratom to achieve it now. I'm jazzed that we're going to get (and have been getting) the Not Just Angry dennis that glenn wanted to play.
#ask ada#im happy for him i wanted a change in dennis and this is a really really great way of going about it imo#like it doesnt change the dynamic with the gang it just sort of#cleanly pushes dennis to be a little more chill with them all while also developing our understanding of him#its a character study ep!#i dont think sunny NEEDS to be bleak and depressing and have them miserable all the time#thats why i dislike a lot of the more recent seasons#i think dennis needed a personal victory#even if its delusional#he can control his rage now. like. good. glenn's sick of going into that headspace hdsjhfjfjf#also like. yeah charlie lost his dad and sobbed in the rain but. s15 ended on a hopeful note and it was BETTER for it#because the gang came together to support him#so like. what is the problem#idk i got everything i wanted and more and i have no complaints#he had to compromise the entire episode and work with the hand he was dealt#its not... dennis having control over his body. its dennis coming to terms with the fact that he needs to step back and relinquish control#he realizes he CAN'T control shit. he can't control his body aging and he can't control other people#and then. he accepts it. and calms the hell down
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I was so anxious today even tho i was on top of my self care slash mental well being basics check-list... I suspect it was the caffeine on top of already worsening anxious Symptoms
#it was def that combo bc i did everything else right#i was weirdly calm for the first 15 mins of my commute this morning and then it was all downhill from there fr#i got so self conscious and anxious after that and then in class i stuttered twice and seemed so unsure of myself even though i was#otherwise communicating quite coherently and fluidly#and then after class at the coffee shop where i attended my online lecture i was so on edge#i think the matcha latte just added onto the shot of espresso for the worse#which is strange because thats really not a lot of caffeine? i literally had two shots of espresso the other day and got really hyper but i#didnt want to die about it or cry about it#so yeah ^_^ its probs bc the past two days have been rough so it snowballed#also i had a weird moment on my commute home#i was so nostalgic bc it was all warm and rainy and the sky was a warm grey#but then i was so melancholy i wanted to cry#and i swear in that moment i felt like something earth shattering was happening to me because i was so refreshed by the memories of a past#self but it all felt so strangely tragic. i didn't just feel happy. i felt happy and then distraught#and i probably looked like a fool because i cant control my facial expressions as well as i used to be able to#i feel like im being dramatic again but 乁( •_• )ㄏ i have the mind of a poet or whatever the hell they say#i dont think they say that#z.post
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Hate Hate Hate "problematic" culture where everything has to be bad in some way because i see one post with a 14 year old calling something random "problematic" but because i have no context i just get a random panic over whether this thing i thought was totally innocent is actually horrible and now i just live in a state of literal constant anxiety about the things i like
#its wonderful and totally not a fucking paralysing and suffocating way to live my life and experience the things i enjoy#seriously i saw One Fucking Single post calling genderbending as a concept 'problematic'#like. how!!! how is it fucking problematic!!!! that's how i figured out i was fucking trans i dont understand#i hear 'its problematic' but with no context i just spiral into a panic of What Part Of This Is Bad Oh God#because i Hate Hate Hate having moments where i'm being an asshole without realising it at all#saying things i don't realise are bad and hurting peoples feelings without knowing i said something wrong#because im fucking autistic!!! and i do that a lot!!!!!! and i never know when im fucking doing it#because nobody explains shit to me they just say 'that's bad!!!!!' with no explanation#so i never fucking know how to feel about fucking anything#what do i need to think or say without getting screamed at for being different from everyone else#i just have to be fucking terrified of everything all the time because everything at any second could be a landmine#i just want people to chill the fuck out and calm down and let me FUCKING RELAX
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the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice
#like itll be busted as fuck because ill be freaking out but you bet ill be sobbing my way through verbally drafting an email#ive done it before‚ like im a frustrated crier and once i start crying i cant turn it off so ive had a couple times where i had a breakdown#at work‚ cried about it a lot‚ and my lead pulled me into a meeting room after i calmed down to check in#and as soon as i started talking it just started again so i had to be like 'sorry th-this is just something m-m-my bod-dy does‚ i-i'm calm#m-mentally but i just c-cant turn this-is off‚ just try to i-ignore HIC it and f-f-focus-s on the w-wwwords‚#(tired of crytyping so just mentally fill it in yourself in everything else i say)#n they offered me more time to chill but im like no really i genuinely am calm‚ i calm down wayyy before my body does its gonna#keep doing this on and off all day‚ it takes hours for it to fully calm down and is on a hair trigger the entire time#so thinking about this will make it kick back up again no matter what unless we talk tomorrow‚ so if youre ok with bearing with me then cool#and theyre like. dang ok and just focused on what i said#or much more recently i was talking to my roommate‚ stopped‚ held up a finger + stood there silently for ten seconds‚#then was like 'sorry about that‚ i think i have to throw up. excuse me for a moment. what was that? oh gotcha yeah i'll message you if i#need anything‚ thank you'#and just typing it out like that it sounds like i was fine and just saw it coming a ways away. however that is not the case#i had had my covid booster and some other vaccine earlier that day‚ lost 5 vials of blood‚ eaten Nothing‚ drank only#acidic-ass apple juice‚ and had just hit my vape too hard#keeping it in once it made its presence known was a feat of will the likes of which have never been seen before#and still my sentences prevail
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