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#and im not in an awful place rn. but i do need a bit of introspection and like. being gentle to myself
silenthillbunni · 3 months
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📓🖊️🌧️🌫️
#just... ugh! im so frustrated nd need to vent a bit#sadly.. smth i havent accepted yet is that having avpd will be constant thru my life and it will have ups and downs#i had a pretty long run of not being *that* avoidant#for 2 weeks now i'm back in that suuuuuper avoidant place#like super avoidant. i dont even go for walks or go to the grocery store. or send emails to my teachers (important!!!!)#i cant look at anything thats important. i dont even clean my room T-T#this is the 2nd week im skipping school which is v bad. nd i havent done anything on my assignment in the course i need to finish in march#i dont open messages or reply to anyone bc i just cant it gives me too much anxiety#im simply avoiding EVERYTHING#and it's such an awful place to be stuck in i hate it so so so so much#worst part is I HAVE NO FKN IDEA HOW TO BREAK FREE!!!!!!!#i've never gotten any treatment for my avpd nd there is actually no information or research online so idk how to handle it#i just wait and simmer in this fkn.... sucky ass soup mess nd wait nd wait#until suddenly it just loosens nd i can start doing things here nd there#the problem is. i dont rlly have time#i dont have time to sit and wait!!! i have time sensitive responsibilities that i risk ruin if i dont do them#i just have no idea HOW to do anything rn. bc it doesnt work to just force myself to do them#it doesn work to make lists or schedules#it suxxx that there isnt rlly any treatment or accessible tips for how to deal w avpd bc im rlly...#im alone... out in the open sea... no one around as far as the eye can see... no life raft. no help skskksks#anyway#ig all i can do is wait nd *try* to do small things as much as i can nd hope i'll get less avoidant soon#i just hate this so much. i always feel so awful nd terrible nd it's so bad ugh
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enevera · 23 hours
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i dont wanna count the weeks i just feel sad
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so-very-small · 1 year
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hi sorry for not updating sooner but im gonna be on a lil mini hiatus. lifes been whack so ive been taking a few days to do fuck all and play MMO's while i process a lot of Things. i'm totally okay, just needing a lil rest for rn. miss y'all, love y'all, see y'all soon <3
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dandyshucks · 3 months
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i think the simultaneously funniest and most frustrating thing abt my brain when things like this happen is that my brain freezes up a bit and can only think of like "aw gee whiz now xyz mundane thing i had scheduled into today won't happen" like girl WHAT there is shit going down and thats what ur thinking about ???
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tinylittlebab · 1 year
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hmm.
#ack. i wanna but a scale so bad but idk how much money i have rn#well at least since im restricting again ill have more money since i dont spend it all on food#wish i could get a job but id have to walk to it and i cant in the weather so im gonna wait till spring or summer#might wait till i turn 18 bc ill have way more options so i might aswell. its only like 2 months off from when i could even get one at all#hmmm. ill have to ask my mom to tell me how much is on my card bc i cant check it myself. im kinda regretting letting my sister not pay me#back immediately for $30 bc then i could buy a scale rn but she doesnt have much rn so whatever#going another month without a scale wont kill me. for the majority of the time before i recoved it didnt have a scale so whatever#but i remember feeling so awful not even knowing if the pain i put myself through did anything so idk if its worth that#i fall ever enough as is with my pots so idk if i wanna add starvation to tye mix when i cant even see the numbers drop#well. ill find out how much i have today and if i have a fair bit then ill buy one soon but if not then ill just cry ig#idk. i feel stupid for relapsing. i KNOW.it feels terrible and i dont even care much about getting skinny. i just miss starving myself#its not about getting skinny its just about seeing the number go down and hurting myself and i know it doesnt actually feel good but like#idk. my life has felt chaotic and out of control recently and i need something to hold on to even if it kills me#i dont even wanna die anymore either. i used to but now i dont. i have life plans that i wanna pursue. im not stuck in a moldy house with#people who abuse me. i live with my only friend in a place where i can actually go places. not many places but theres at least something#idk. i think itd be easier to be ok if i had other friends but i just have my sister. i dont even know how or where you meet people#everything i read either says scool for minors or bars for adults which is useless to me. the only others things are things not around me#idk. i guess ill have to get a car eventually and when i do that then i can go places. i feel so bleh lately#i just. i wanna be sickly and skinny. not bc i think im ugly but bc i wanna be sick. i dont dislike my appearance. im relatively thin#not that it matters bc theres nothing wrong with being fat but like. idk. i used to hate my appearance so much but i dont now#so it feels so weird that im relapsing anyway#idk
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diorsluv · 3 months
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feather , part 29
“ i’m so sorry for your loss ”
series m. list previous chapter next chapter
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luca.fantilli guys sorry my face wasn’t in these pics i’m just a little camera shy 😕😕
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jackhughes 👀
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adamfantilli a rat on the roof…?
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username67 SOFT LAUNCH?
edwards.73 the skates are CLEANNNN
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_quinnhughes the hello kitty pajamas are really doing it for me
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→ _quinnhughes because he can’t say no to you 😒
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→ _quinnhughes STOP BRINGING THAT UP IT HAPPENED LIKE A DECADE AGO
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trevorzegras damn lukes double cheeked up
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jackhughes you went to the beach in hoodies 🤯
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username88 if luke was at the beach with his girl on christmas and the only girl he was with on christmas was our lil drizzy…
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jamie.drysdale 🤢
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jackhughes that looks an awful lot like..
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trevorzegras THERE IT ISSSSS MY BOY
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_quinnhughes moosey did you actually buy the ring…
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next chapter notes ) guys.. I KNOW I’VE BEEN INACTIVE but i’m really trying i promise
tags: @aliaology @hockeyboysarehot @absolutelyhugh3s @jackquinnswife @freds-slut @love4ldr @blueeyedbesson @43hughes @v1olentdelights @dancerbailey3 @random-human02 @ho3forfakeguys@loveforaugust@cstads-blog
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winryrockbellwannabe · 6 months
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✨ Getting my life together ✨
to be very honest, i've been feeling kinda awful this last couple of weeks, and i haven't been able to do anything but stress over exams and complain about my life. today this will end.
So here's a hopeful but realistic list of habit's I'll try to implement
🏋🏾‍♀️ 1: Im going to start working out again.
Not everyday at first, and i still have to understand if it works better for me to work out in the morning or at night. Ideally im going to rotate between: arms/abs workouts, youtube ballet classes (there's a youtuber that seems to have great adult ballet videos, and its a chill way for me to work out), and hopefully going on walks on fridays, since i have the morning off, when it's not raining.
🫗2 : Im going to do the dishes right after i use them
i dont even hate doing the dishes, i dont know how i accumulate so many shit. But i do, and then i have no clean dishes and that makes me not want to cook, and delay eating lunch and stuff like that. SO DO YOUR DISHES!!!
💊 3: im gonna go to the pharmacy to get my meds and actually take them
self explanatory, ive been super anxious about taking my adhd meds, since im going to try to take a more intense dose than im used to, and i was a bit scared bc of side effects but my friend has already calmed me down a bit about it
🖋️ 4. Im goint to try to post more regularly and journal more
4.1. Post more regularly
It helps me get excited and motivated about studying, so self explanatory
4.2. Journalling
Everything is being so weird rn. My friends are acting so weird, two of them are basically ignoring me, and other two are acting super shitty towards me and another friend. It's super messy, and we don't know why everyone is being off, so i think i need to let all this negativity out of my system and reflect about this, and see if i could also be in the wrong in this situation
🧹 5. Im going to be more organized, and try to keep my room tidied
💖 6. Im going to try to spend more time with people that actually recharge my energy, instead of people that just stress me more and make me more upset
📜 7. Im going to try new places to study, since my usual ones haven't been working as well for me
and there's more to go, but i don't want to be too optimistic, Im going to be happy if I actually manage to keep half of those for more than a week lol
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wikiangela · 20 days
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tease tidbit tuesday
tagged by @bidisasterbuckdiaz 💖
me impatiently waiting for tuesday to share a snippet bc im obsessed with bucktommy rn and after some editing im loving everything i've written in this fic so far and wanna share every word of it asap lmao
here's a bit more, and yes they are talking about the evan thing bc at first it bothered me so much, but it grew on me (with fics and some takes on it i saw and just the more i saw it and thought about it) and now im kinda loving it lol
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“If you wanted me out of my shirt, you should’ve just said so.” he murmurs.
“I want you out of your shirt.” Buck says without hesitation, and Tommy releases a breathless, surprised laugh.
“Suddenly so forward.” he shakes his head, capturing Buck’s lips again. Well, Buck has been kind of shy and flustered with Tommy, but that’s not always how he is, not how he used to be.
“Oh, you have no idea.” Buck grins, and then, still a little hesitantly, places his palm over Tommy’s thigh where it rests over Buck’s knee. Tommy looks at him curiously, and Buck’s grin widens as he pulls his leg up and over his lap, getting Tommy to properly straddle him now, his shirt falling over his back again, as he releases a surprised gasp. “Now that’s better.” he adds, getting used to the unfamiliar weight, Tommy being bigger and heavier than Buck’s used to with his previous partners, obviously, but it- it feels good, right, almost comforting, Tommy’s steady and firm presence surrounding him now. Plus, it is kinda hot, too.
“Evan.” Tommy just says breathlessly, and Buck’s smile softens, one of his hands moving to the side of Tommy’s neck, just resting there.
“You know you’re one of the very few people who call me that?” he whispers, the mood shifting a bit from hot and impatient to soft and warm, and pleasant, and Buck really feels so comfortable with Tommy.
“Yeah, I noticed.” Tommy replies, settling more comfortably, wrapping his arms around Buck’s neck loosely, but his hands play with Buck’s hair lightly. He sits far enough on Buck’s lap that their crotches don’t touch, and Buck’s not sure if he’s happy about that. “Does it bother you?” he asks with a hint of worry.
“No, no, of course not.” Buck rushes to say. If it did, he’d say something. No, it doesn’t bother him. The opposite, in fact. “I actually-” he can’t help a small awed smile. “I think I like it.”
“Why do you sound so surprised?” Tommy tilts his head curiously, and he’s so cute, and Buck needs to kiss him. So he does. Because he can. And he can’t stop smiling.
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pop-roxs · 8 months
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hiiii idk if i wanna post this on ao3 or not so you guys tell me pleaseeee
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relationship(s): grelle x reader words: 533 extra: no warnings should apply, reader is just a sickly little guy and grelle takes care of them(noooo i didnt write this cuz im sick rn wdymmmm)
reader is gn!!!
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You laid in bed, lips slightly parted, which allowed you to breathe, as you heard footsteps drawing closer to you. You felt a weight be placed on the edge of the bed you laid nearest to, and a hand touched your forehead. You opened your eyes.
“Hey, sweetheart. Are you feeling better yet?” the redhead asked. You shook your head, and she frowned. “I’m sorry…”
You were going to speak up, to tell her that she had nothing to apologize for, but your clogged nose and itchy throat decided that you weren’t going to speak comfortably for a little while. You moved her hand from your forehead down to your cheek, and she leaned down to kiss the spot where her hand previously was.
“Do you need me to get you anything? You have water, tissues, and medicine when need be… Do you need something warm to eat?” You nodded. “Alright, darling. You wait right here.” Grelle stood up from the bed, walking out of the room and presumably to the kitchen. You turned over to close your eyes again.
You couldn’t help but feel a bit bad about all of this. You got just a little cold, and now Grelle is all over the apartment trying to make you feel better. You didn’t like these thoughts, so you let your body relax, and you drifted into a nap.
Grelle slowly opened the bedroom door, and once she saw you asleep, she made sure to be extra quiet as she made her way around the bed and to the side you were sleeping on. She gently placed the bowl of soup she had made on the nightstand next to you, crouching down in front of your burning face. She pouted. “Poor dear,” she whispered, as she caressed your hair and placed a few kisses along your cheek. She paused when she heard you grumble and saw your squinted eyes
“Good morning.” It was 1:24 PM. “You look awful. I wish I could do more to help.” You reached your arms out to her, beckoning her to join you in bed. “Oh, really? You’re so sweet to me. Of course, ma cherie.~”
You scooted back to make some room for her, and she gently pulled up the covers, sliding underneath them and holding you close. She tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, both your arms around each other. Her smile was sweeter than ever. You pulled her closer, resting your head against her chest, but she could tell that you were trying hard to not get any mucus on her.
“My love, you look uncomfortable. As your partner, it is my sworn duty to look after you when you are sick. Don’t worry about me. Worry about yourself.” You looked up at her for a moment, before sniffling, and deciding to just tuck your face into the crook of her neck.
She pet your head once more, holding you tight and whispering in your ear, “I love you so much, my dear. You’re safe with me. Rest, now. I’ll take care of you.” So you closed your eyes, drifting into another nap, this time feeling as if you’ll have sweet dreams.
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im gonna die right here also yes. i reused the grelle divider from my valentines fic. leave me alone i couldnt be bothered to go looking for a good panel to take a picture of
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starysky1289 · 17 days
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hello!! i love your recent captain!vanessa x rookie!reader fic omg im on my knees for captain!vanessa omg <3 i was wondering if toxic!sorority!vanessa would ever receive pleasure from reader instead of giving it? if yes, could you do a fic about it? 👀 anyways hope you take care of yourself and keep urself safe!! <33
A/N: I have more Captain!vanessa on the way!!! It’s just in the oven rn. Also sorry if this one is a bit short, I’m getting back into the swing of writing fics. Hope it’s good for yall tho!!
Toxic!Sorority!Vanessa X Reader. Selfish.
TW: Toxic relationship, Guilt Tripping.
You lay on the bed with Vanessa, she sit besides you, braiding your hair, ranting about her day.
“ AND THEN Lily, fucking little slut. Practically BEGGED me for some coke on fucking campus!! Like in front of people! I know every one knows but Jesus! I can’t get arrested right now! “
You chuckled, scrolling through your phone as you listened. Sometimes all she needed was to let off a little steam. And you sat pretty and let her.
“ I’m still so fucking pissed. It’s been a day yn. “
“ I’m sure it has. “
“…that’s it? “
You glanced up, tilting your head slightly. She glared down at you, shaking her head.
“ your not going to make me feel better? “
“ oh uh- I’m sorry nessy…can I help anyways…?? “
“ your awful at comforting people ya know. “
“ you just usually…don’t care. “
She groaned, laying back in bad. You rolled over and shimmied up to her, wrapping arm across her.
“ well now I want comfort. Why are you acting like this is such a big deal yn! “
“ I-it’s not a big deal a-at all!! W-what do you want me to do Vanessa…? “
She hummed, thinking to herself. You knew she knew exactly what she wanted, but she wouldn’t tell you easily. She was tricky like that, you had to figure out how to crack her.
“ want me too…talk about my day? “
“ and take MY spotlight?? Selfish whore..”
“ n-no your right! Uhm…I can cook you something…? “
Vanessa let out another ‘ Hmph ‘ and rolled over face down in her pillows. You sighed, playing with her hair. You knew what she wanted, but you also knew she was going to be mean about it. But you’d rather her be mean than upset at you.
“ do you wanna…fuck me..? “
“…hm…no…I want you to fuck me~ “
“ what??? “
You sat up in shock, your eyes wide in confusion. She snickered and sat up besides you pulling you into her.
“ well..i just realized that you’ve never done it! And it feels like you’re being selfish…like you don’t love me…”
“ b-but I do love you Nessa! “
“ then prove it…and fuck me just as good as I do you~ “
You fiddled with your thumbs, you’d never even dreamed of fucking her before! She was always on top of you, and you ever dare say a word she’d drop you.
“ cmon, I’ll take these off, you know where the strap is, and you know what to for for foreplay~ “
You gulped, getting up and heading towards her vanity, stripping off your clothes and pulling out the pink strap. You examined the features, before slipping it on, tightening it around your hips and waist. Turning back, your heart nearly stopped when you saw her. Vanessa was just taking off her bra, laying nude on her bed; her skin almost glowed, her soft muscles rippling ontop of the woolen blankets.
“ cmon…get me ready yn~ “
You nodded, getting back on the bed and keeping your head between her legs, looking up at her before letting your tongue swim through her gentle folds. You immediately felt her legs crush between your head, keeping you in place.
“ that’s it…keep going yn..make me all nice and wet~ “
You nodded, or did the best nod you could trapped between two legs. You started a steady pace of laps through and around her folds, holding her waist to keep her somewhat under control.
“ cmon, i can fuck myself better with a table edge than you are, I thought you said you loved me! “
“ I domph! “
“ then prove it! Get up, roll me over, and fuck me. “
Vanessa growled, pulling your head up with your hair and throwing you to your knees. You quickly grabbed her waist and rolled her over. Her grasped her hips, aligning yourself with her hole, and slowly pushing yourself in.
“ fuck..I am small..I can’t believe I get you sobbing with this thing…”
You didn’t respond, only thrusting in, and slowly pulling out. You went red in the face, as your started your thrust pattern, in and out, just like Vanessa would.
“ come on. Harder! Is this anyways to fuck someone?? “
“ I-I’m trying Nessa! “
“ not hard enough. You said you loved me, show me you love me then!
This time you thrusted in harder, getting a groan out of her. You had lost the pattern, now just trying to get in as deep as possible. Sweat began to bead down your forehead as you continued, throwing her legs over your shoulders to hold you up.
“ I used to ride toys better than this, I could pay any girl in this fucking house to fuck me better. You want me to? Leave you here and sleep with a better girl? “
“ n-no vanessa!!! I l-love you!! “
“ say it like you mean it. “
“ I-i love you Vanessa!! “
“ again. “
You were panting now, struggling to keep going. The strap was hitting your puffy clit, making you whine as you got ever so closer to your orgasim.
“ I love you Vanessa!! “
You slammed in deeper a few times, before finally finishing with one last thrust, colpasing onto her as you heard her whine.
“ I-I’m sorry…I-I’m so sorry I tried not t-to cum before you, I-i “
“ I came…don’t..tell anyone I did this…I-i don’t..ever cum this easy..”
Vanessa muttered, as you smiled softly, burrying your head in her neck.
“ get up. I’m going in the shower, are you coming? “
“ o-oh, yeah! “
“ good. I’ll take care of you in there~ “
You flushed, quickly sitting off Vanessa and slowly pulling out, tossing the strap to the side. Vanessa got up, stumbling her first few steps, before grabbing her robe that hung from her chair.
“ I’ll get it going…hurry up before I decide to start…”
“ alright…I love you Vanessa! I-I hope you had a good time…”
“….dont get ahead of yourself…”
You sighed as she left, grabbing your robe from her closet and getting ready to follow her out. She was just embarrassed, you told yourself, who wouldn’t be! But, despite everything, you followed her out of the room and into the shower, giving yourself to her again. Just like you always did to make her happy.
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ricegobbler · 2 months
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TFP CONS X FEM!CON READER HCS PT.2!
ok so this is part 2. Uhm. I should’ve done this sooner but I’ve been busy😢 good news is im opening requests soon! Ok anyways enjoyyy! (Prob gon make a pt.3)
Oh and btw I’m like having a tiny break rn so I made this out of boredom. So everytime I post smth is mostly bc of boredom😢
Yall might be like “why are you making posts even if your requests r closed?” Like i said, im bored and every post i post is made when i have a break. My breaks dont rlly last long so yeah. And doing requests with only like and hour break or smth isn’t enough time in my opinion, srry. (Hope that made sense..)
(Breakdown, Soundwave, Shockwave)
REQUESTS STILL CLOSED‼️‼️‼️
Warnings‼️: mentions of figthing(s)
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Breakdown:
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-One of our favorite strong boys☺️
-honestly, just like knockout, he would be interested in meeting you but since he’s in the medbay he’s gonna have to hear about you from rumors or Starscream.
-The first time he saw you was at a meeting, you didn’t interact at all, but he atleast saw you and thought you were beautiful.
-I honestly could see this man day dreaming abt u in the med bay like:
Knockout organizing his supplies in the Medbay, “Breakdown, why are you so silent all of a sudden?-“ turns around to see Breakdown day dreaming. “Oh primus..” Knockout mumbled..
Random silence in the Medbay.
“Y/n is so pretty..” Breakdown suddenly said, leaving Knockout just face planting himself.
-Then the day finally came, the day he finally had a chance to speak to you.
-you were coming into the Medbay, wounded from a fight against the Autobots. As you came in you met optics with Breakdown, then Knockout.
-After Knockout fixed you up, Breakdown quickly started a conversation with you.
“Hello,” Breakdown started, your optics widen a bit at the sudden voice but you turn around and see the blue mech look at you sweetly, “hello?…you’re Breakdown, right?..” you ask a little awkwardly.
-After the two of you introduced yourselves, the two of you were quickly close.
-Everyday you’d visit the Medbay when they’re slow and no injured vehicons or others, talking to Breakdown. Knockout would sometimes smirk at Breakdown as he’d talk to you, you didn’t find that out until after you became mates with Breakdown. (I think they’re called conjuxes?? I forgot, ima use mates for now-)
-Speaking of mates, the day finally came when Breakdown confessed to you. He confessed to you a little nervously, I could see him stuttering a bit and rubbing the back of his neck canes with a servo, or fidgeting with his fingers instead. You have got to accept his love bc what he said to you was so adorable 😢
-he’d definitely call you either “love” or just “my spark.” PDA?? Yes, he wants to let others know your his. How he kisses? Pretty passionate. He’d also become protective of you, and he’d BEG you to come to the Medbay since he’s mostly in there all day.
Soundwave:
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-MY NUMBER ONE FAV WAVE😍😍
-he’s soo..WHXBDHRIEJNX
-anyways.
-when you first arrived he didn’t care or say anything, he literally can’t say anything at all tho so🤷🏻‍♀️ bros a mute💀
-I feel like he’d show you around the Nemesis kinda like how Starscream would. Or, he would go over important things you needed to know by playing a recording of Megatron talking abt that kind of stuff.
-When the day you fought the Autobots for the first time since you joined them he was in awe. A fem like you having strength like that? Ofc he knows he’s stronger tho so.
-The next time you’d see him after your battle he would silently just stand infront of you.
Soundwave standing infront of you, looking down/up at you. “Uhm..Soundwave?..why have you blocked my way..” you ask, he then plays a recording going like, “Y/N-strong-very-strong-it-is-impressive.”
Your optics widened but you just smiled at him, “oh thank you, Soundwave..” he then placed a smiley face on his visor and walked away.
-Everytime there would be a meeting you’d see him plaster a smile on his visor and you’d smile back. He’s too silly.
-I feel like you’d fall first. Why? Idk. He’s too silly to resist. I mean, am I wrong tho???
-When he’d fall for you he’d either confess to you by using a recording, or show you smth he typed on his visor. (Like a poem ykyk)
-he wouldn’t call you any names. Bc. Yk. But he would let you watch some things on his visor when not busy. You found the show, “my little pony.” How? Just know that Megatron may or may not have watched it once and you saw.
-Since Soundwave doesn’t rlly have a mouth you just kiss him on the visor and he’d place a smiley face, holding you around the waist. PDA?? Ehhh…yes. Just maybe not infront of Megatron.
Shockwave:
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-illogical my ass once eye mf.
-jk I love this mad scientist <33
-he did not gaf abt ur arrival. At. All. Like he’s busy tryna make some shit in his lab 😢
-but, the first time he ever saw you was when you explored the Nemesis alone and entered his lab.
“What is the purpose of your arrival..” Shockwave asked, “nothing. Just..lookin around..” you say back
-he wanted you OUT. Like go away bitch🙄
-but you didn’t, so you just stayed and started chatting with him as he did work. Sometimes when Shockwave either needed smth yours grab it for him.
-or, when he makes a mistake (which will probably never happen bc he’s a smart ass) you’d correct him. You’d then start talkin abt science things which perks his interest with you. He hates your humor tho.
“Would you like to hear something humorous?” You ask, “no. Jokes are illogical.” He responded, continuing his work.
-rude.
-honestly it’d take a whileeeee for yall to click. He’d start falling for you eventually tho. His confession wasn’t anything sweet, it was just some straight up confession.
-one day in the lab you wanted to help Shockwave out, and once it got all quiet between yall he literally just blurted, “I’ve grown some feelings for you.” Smth like that.
-of course you felt the same. You had to. He has big boobs😍
-I feel like he’d call you “little one” or “my spark” how he kisses?? Blud don’t got a mouth. You’d kiss his helm tho softly, and PDA?? Only in his lab, he’s kinda serious, but he loves you dearly and would protect you. He’d also make you things himself like gifts! <33
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Ok this one’s kinda bad tbh. I’m sorry☹️ I’ll do a pt.3 as soon as I can! Sorry for how late this is too btw!!
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Derek x Reader
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You were furious with Derek. He’d promised that he wouldn’t get involved. That after he was attacked he would move on and stay out of whatever Scott was dealing with. 
You’d found out that he hadn’t done what he promised after you were called to the hospital to pick him up. The car ride home was silent until you pulled up to his apartment. “I’m sorry.” That was all he said as if it fixed everything.
“Out.” You said sharply. It was all you could get out without yelling at Derek who let out a shaky sigh.
“I’m sorry.” He said again.
“You promised. That you wouldn’t.” You bit out. Derek sighed and nodded.
“I know. But what was I supposed to do? You wanted me to just leave Scott high and dry?” Derek asked quickly. He was getting defensive. You rolled your eyes, scoffing as you looked away.
“You know what. It’s Christmas eve. You nearly got killed. I am going to be pissed off for as long as I need to so we’re not going to talk about this until after the holidays. I’m going back to my place.” You said in a tone that left him unable to say anything else. He reluctantly got out of the car and sighed as he shut the door. You started to back out of the driveway but he hurried to open the door again.
"Hey. I know... I know you're trying to avoid me, but just take this gift I got you and I will walk away." Derek said quickly. He didn’t give you a chance to answer back, just set the gift on your car seat and shut the door. You glanced at it before driving away, seeing him watch you in the rearview mirror. You’d call him later, you decided. You needed time to cool off before you could talk things over with him. As you turned down the long road that led to your house something exploded out of the woods next to the car. Your hand smacked at the screen on the car's dashboard to try and call for help as something large barrelled down at you.
“(Y/N)?” You heard Derek say. He was the top name on your speed dial. You just had enough time to let out a yell and throw your hands up in front of your face as glowing eyes and glistening teeth collided with your car.
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munamania · 1 month
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ok and now i need to talk this out on here cause like in all reality idc that much but this is just a little. awk. i might do this under the cut just so i can talk in a bunch of little paragraphs if thats chill ok ty
sooooo right ive mentioned that sam has been talking abt having beef specifically w his roommates but also that friend group at large bc they went on spring break trips w/o him. The roommate took a duo trip with fellow dyke and everyone else did like a big thing together erm
right thats just the context idrc except for the amount of times sams vaguely alluded to it and idk any other details. um but he has called his roommates like the 'poison pills' of the whole ordeal since they literally live together (but they havent been that close. prob since their freshman year when sam was out for a semester. which isnt inherently er bad but hes acting like hes been victimized for the last few years)
and like last night after this long sesh of working on our assignment sam and i r walking to the bus stop and he says something about finding out just like shitty awful drama and how it sucks having to live with 'two of those people' lmao sorry im not laughing im just like. whatever
this said i have plans to see. should i name sams roommate. ok i cant do that rn but we have plans to hang on monday and i would be seeing sam like immediately after for class. and esp if we're hanging out on campus like we might have a repeat of last time where sam spots us out and im not sure if he'd approach and hang this time. but hes obviously aware that me and them like chat
so it's like not so subtle that hes trying to get me to either ask abt the roommate or flat out not trust/see them anymore and i just havent engaged which might come across as "fake" but like. well ill be honest man theyre all a year younger than me and that doesnt mean much but it does feel very immature to handle things this way idk the whole story but im not gonna get roped into the like Omg i cant talk to this person bc of beef idk about...
and maybe i should feel worse abt not being #loyal to someone who is or at least at one point was considered a friend esp when it comes to someone that yeah ig he does know better than i but i dont... sorry ive been talking abt this bitch like cady and regina george except im not psychosexually obsessed im just like. hes been more insufferable than i remember lately yk.
i feel the Tiniest bit bad and like oh have i taken advantage of u bc yk we've hung and smoked and had dinner together often at ur place and def wormed my way into talking to the roommate via u etc but then i remember the way sam talks abt like anything and i dont feel all that bad
and theres this whole thing abt the eclipse i dont have plans to go see it it might happen last second but now after sams asked me abt it and messaged me like yeah idk we (him and his bestie) could maybe take a bus but we'd need a place to stay (asking to stay w my family bc i mentioned it like once on my close friends) and then theyre like going to a diff city anyway like oh my gooooood it's gonna be seen as shady and i dont really CARE i just need assurance that this is stupid as hell and its ok if im a little bit of an asshole about it. i dont think being mad abt the eclipse would hold up but w/e
has not been at the top of my worries and still isnt but now that this is all coming up in the next week im like frank g*llagher voice (sorry) oh Jesus Christ. you know
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do u have some hcs for when the twins are newborns? i imagine leon would be soo protective he would be scared to break them (im so normal about his big arms) so imagine tiny babies on his arms hejdbjejsjsjjdndj
AEON TWIN SUPREMACY
they'd be so tiny, i still don't really know if i'd have it so that ada has a perfectly good pregnancy or not, especially since i'd hc that she's in her early 40s so i wonder if like- it'd be also harder since it would be twins (also we can assume she's pretty healthy??? she flipping around a lot during re6 lol)
i don't wanna get into the pregnancy part for rn so i'll talk about after they're born
but they'd be so tiny!!!! i dunno why but ada is also kinda thin, i can't imagine her getting HUGE HUGE lol
i think about ada holding one, leon holding the other after she's had them and they're just in awe of how small they are. they can almost immediately tell them apart (leon will get confused if he's really tired though)
one is kinda fussy and the other isn't haha
leon has the fussy one and she's just kinda pouty sometimes
he would jokingly say he can carry both of them in his arms and he can technically but he wouldn't just on the off chance something goes wrong T_T
LEON WITH A DUEl CARRIER ON HIS CHEST AND HIS BACK WITH THE TWO BABIES I'M SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS
when they're a bit bigger he'd let them hang off of his arms hehe, and ada would just be like, "be careful with the girls leon," just kinda rolling her eyes but the girls are so giggly playing with daddy hehe
they love leon playing with their hair but ultimately mommy has to do their hair cause she does it better
whenever he's holding them he just feels how small they are and how fragile, he just wants to protect them. he feels better if they fall asleep on his chest. he barely wants to leave them and starts to realize that one day he'd have to let them have some space when they grow up
leon is SUCH A GIRL DAD
he'd love spending time with them and having tea parties and just letting them get paint and glitter and stuff on him lol
i think that he might be strict SOMETIMES but that's when they're older.
he would want them to grow up not spoiled in a sense and want them to still do chores and stuff around the house
feel like leon would be best dad but he would also be worried that he wouldn't be doing a good job sometimes
god i really do go all over the place i started talking about them as they're older lol
uh anyways
yes when they're small, he would just kinda need reassurance that he's doing good or not. sometimes they would just be crying incessantly and he just can't get them down for a nap or something
ada would help, she suffers with it too- thinking that she's not doing a good job as a mother but she tries her best. they both do but they suffer with thinking that they're just fucking up
they both (i think canonically) didn't have good childhoods so i can see them struggling to understand what it's like to have a good healthy household.
they just want their babies to be okay :(((
leon does a lot of the stuff with the babies
changing them, feeding them, playing with them
i see ada probably being okay with breastfeeding and feels a bit emotional about it cause she wasn't expecting to have leon's babies. so to have them in her arms makes her extremely emotional
ada does a lot of the dressing them up, bathing them, getting them to bed
they always read to them at the end of the night no matter what
they also have bear toys!!!
YES
they take shifts a lot to take care of them but also spend time together taking care of them because it's easier that way
they didn't expect the babies let alone twins, so it was very overwhelming at first
when they can have more foods, leon's eager to get them to try different foods like banana or blueberries. they love how they react to the foods hehe
HELENA CAN NOT TELL THEM APART
HELL YEAH AUNTIE HELENA IS HERE
she has trouble if they don't have differing bows or outfits, but when they get older she can tell them apart better.
they both are just cute little copies of ada lol
i know genetics can lead to aeon babies having the recessive gene, but i just don't headcanon them to be extremely blonde. maybe slightly brown hair but that's it. it's just unlikely for them to have a blonde hair blued eyed baby (but if you headcanon that, that's fine) for me i just don't see it
BUT ALSO I'M A SUCKER FOR ONE BLUE EYED AEON BABY, and then the other slightly lighter hair tone
but also for this they can not be identical, which i never really headcanoned tbh. i always thought of them to be fraternal twins
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enid-rhees · 6 months
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Hey girl! I got my request here for you, can you write a Connie x reader where reader is sick but even tho shes sick she still continues doing her "job" at hilltop so Connie being the amazing woman that she is just tells reader to stop doing what shes doing and go to bed but reader is a stubborn little bitch and refuses so Connie has to force her and its basically just Connie taking care of reader being sick? Like you know, im sick rn myself so i think this is a pretty cool idea, it doesn't have to be a long story because its not a very big request but im sure you can make something awesome!
heyy !! i love this req sm, hope you enjoy! i apologize for posting this so late because i know you’re not sick anymore 😭 this is also a bit short and i apologize for that.
warnings: none!
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every two seconds, you stopped what you were doing to wipe your nose. the cold air made it worse, so you wrapped your jacket tighter around you.
before you could fold the piece of clothing, you scrunched your nose and let out what might’ve been the most painful sneeze ever. when you lifted your head back up from your arm, your head was dizzy. you stumbled back and tried to stay still until your head stopped buzzing.
you shook your head and continued to fold the clothes, taking two clips and pinning it to the clothing line. another sneeze racked through your body, followed by a series of coughs.
your face was burning when the coughing fit ended and you tried to fan yourself before grabbing the next shirt. suddenly, the shirt was yanked out of your hands. you whipped your head around and saw Connie.
you sighed, “what are you doing?” you signed to her. Connie folded the shirt, “you’re sick! you need to lay down.” she signed back. you shook your head and picked up another item of clothing, but Connie pulled that one out of your hands too.
Connie then grabbed you by the shoulders and pushed you away from the clothing line and basket full of clothes. she brought you inside the house and pushed you all the way to your shared bedroom.
she grabbed the notepads that sat on the bedside table and started writing in it. when she was done, she turned it around.
“you’re staying in here until you feel better. don’t fight it.” you pouted and Connie laughed lightly. she put her finger up, signaling for you to wait and left your bedroom.
you laid on your back, staring at the ceiling while your nose began to stuff up beyond belief. your head started to pound, and you covered your face with your pillow. after a few minutes, Connie came back into the room, a bowl in her hands.
she took the pillow off your head and flicked her hand up, telling you to to sit up. you did what she instructed, and she gently placed a bowl of soup in your hands. you stirred the spoon in the bowl and scooped up some, gently blowing on it. Connie sat on the bed next to you, pressing a kiss to your head as you took the first bite.
Connie grabbed the notepad again, scribbling something down. she then placed the notepad on your thigh.
“i brought some medicine too.” it read, and when you looked up at her, she smiled as she held up a bottle of orange colored medicine. you grimaced and shook her head.
Connie rolled her eyes playfully at you and opened the bottle, pouring the cup full. she handed it to you- well, she shoved it in your hand since you wouldn’t take it.
reluctantly, you drank the medicine, immediately scrunching your face at the awful taste of the liquid. you set the bowl of soup next to you and grabbed the notepad.
“that was awful.” you wrote. Connie laughed, snatching the notepad away from you. “but thank you.” you signed. she smiled and leaned forward, kissing your cheek. you picked up the bowl again and finished the rest of the soup, putting it back down on the table.
the medicines effect had already started to set in, and you felt yourself become drowsy. you laid back down, and Connie followed. she pulled you closer until your head was tucked in under her chin and held you tightly.
you lifted your hands up, “thank you for taking care of me.” you signed, and Connie smiled once more. you looked her into her eyes, smiling back. Connie kissed your head and rested hers on top of yours.
within a few minutes, you drifted off into sleep. Connie watched as your soft lips parted, and your chest rising and falling slowly. she smiled to herself, just admiring how pretty you looked while sleeping.
with one more kiss to your head, she closed her eyes as well, allowing sleep to take over her.
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myers-meadow · 5 days
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Got a short and sweet one for ya! BG3 character(s) of your choice reacting to someone going, "Aw, you two look so cute together! You should date!" and Tav—the object of his/her as of yet unspoken affections—just smiles a little bashfully and says, "Yeah, that would be nice."
(Also, I just wanted to let you know that I still leave with a big smile on my face when you talk about your thoughts and feelings about the thingies I send your way. I say this because I realized that one of my last messages might have made it sound like I only enjoy your drabbles and prompt fills—which I also absolutely enjoy as well, it's actually how I found your blog in the first place. I just wanted to make sure you knew that I appreciate your thoughts on my ideas/prompts just as much as I enjoy anything you decide to make with them; it always brightens my day a bit.) 🐾
omg, thats so cute aaaa. This one with Gale!! ✨
he'd be either flustered, or he'd give the most seductive look you've ever seen, and go "you hear that, Tav? well, what about it..." and then drop it until you come to him in the evening, more flustered than usual and bring it up yourself 🥺💞
I swear im not becoming a gale girly pls;;;
Astarion and Halsin are already very flirty and forward, right of the bat, so they would just take it and roll with it immediately, no blush, no pink tint to the ears, nothing hahaha. Astarion knows (or likes to think he is) very, very beautiful, so to him, it would mostly be an affirmation that both him and you are incredibly good-looking. (he actively thinks about how stunning you are btw, like he will look at you and lose his train of thought bc of it)
Raphael would play into it immediately, in order to seduce (and manipulate 🥰) you. "With such a charming creature such as yourself, I can't help but be flattered when hearing that. Don't you agree, my dear?" And he is def pulling you a lil closer <3. Next step is a dinner date by candlelight, because you're just that promising of a future client, and before you know it, you've fallen even more than you ever thought possible.
I love an upfront, not so easily flustered Tav to write, so the wistful "that would be nice" is really cute. Very telling for the dynamic already too, that they don't expect the feelings to be returned, but yet! They can't help but have that hope. 😭
xoxo Meadow
p.s. how did you find my blog? I'm so curious now hahaha 👀💞. Have I even done prompt fills/asks for bg3 before you? Or was it another fandom? (my memory is so bad omg...) I did those lil fics, like three of them, for Halsin and the devils?
p.p.s. I'm so glad to hear that at least these answers are a lil bit of cheer in your day! Thank you for clarifying that, although I hadn't picked up on it myself 😊. I appreciate that you don't have the expectation that each ask will turn into a fic or drabble, bc that is not really possible for me rn, however much I do want to write more. Stay strong throughout all that life throws at you! The game, fandom, and the characters will be there for you whenever you need some time away from real life <3
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