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ghouljams · 7 months

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hello I'm fucking obsessed with your Hozier analyses. You just GET IT!! Wasteland, Baby! was my hyperfixation for a while, so I'd like to pitch a few suggestions that I would love to hear more from you about:

Movement - Ballet König, Ghost/Die or König/Fetch (honestly, all of the demon au humans watching their demon darling work): "When you move, honey I'm put in awe of something so flawed and free...Move like grey skies, move like a bird of paradise, move like an odd sight come out at night...so move me baby"

Nobody - Price/Duck, Soap/Moon: "And I think about you though, everywhere I go, and I've done everything and I've been everywhere you know, But I've had no love like your love from nobody" "I'd be appalled if I saw you ever try to be a saint, I wouldn't fall for someone I thought couldn't misbehave"

Talk - honestly works for every pairing, but I'm thinking König/Liebling or König/Bee: "Imagine being loved by me, I won't deny I've got in my mind, all the things I could do, so I try to talk refined for fear that you find out how I'm imaginin' you"

Dinner & Diatribes - again, works for everyone, but I'm getting Ghost/Die vibes: "I knew it from the first look of mischief in your eyes, I'd suffer Hell if you'd tell me what you'd do to me tonight. A pillar I am of pride, scarcely can speak for my thinking what you'd do to me tonight"

Obviously, you don't have to go with the pairings I suggested. I'm just here to feed the Hozier analysis because goddamn I love that man's music. (Maybe we could also get some Sleep Token lyrics sometime? Very Ghost tbh) (Also sorry for dumping this essay length ask in your inbox LOL I got carried away)

OK I'm going to list Hozier songs I associate with each couple and a short(Ghoul Short) reason. I'm just going to be doing couples I haven't already talked about, but god there's so many of these assholes.

"Nobody" is Gaz and Birdie's song, genuinely I think it's their first dance at their wedding. "I'd be appalled if I saw you ever try to be a saint, I wouldn't fall for someone I thought couldn't misbehave" is just so them. Both of them have spent their lives experiencing every part of the world they could, and they've found a love unparalleled in each other.

"De Selby part 1" or "Damage Gets Done" is Soap and Moon. Idk I think they need a duet, they're hard to pin down. With De Selby there's this huge-ness to it, the night and the dawn that your love captures and contains. The feeling of holding the sun in your hands and being burned. Damage Gets Done is almost mournful but it's a celebration. It's two people with nothing but each other, desperately hoping that their codependency doesn't hurt, doesn't end. They're young and reckless but that won't be what hurts them, it'll be the other person that spells their ultimate doom.

"Talk" 100% Konig and Bee. All the things he wants to do to her, do with her. It's madness, he has to hold himself back, talk refined, or he's worried he'll scare her off.

"Wasteland! Baby" feels Price and Duck to me. Just the gentle rhythm, the ebb and flow of "I'm in love, I'm in love with you" holding hands as the world ends around them. Through the fear and the fire that happens each time a boy falls in love with a girl, through sickness and health, through deployments and medical school, through unplanned weddings and even more unplanned pregnancies. For every airport pickup, and lunch break, I'm in love with you.

"Movement" is Ballet!Konig and his darling, self explanatory. She makes him love dance again, she moves and thus moves him as well.

"To Be Alone" is Ghost and Die. "Honey, when you kill the lights/ And kiss my eyes/ I feel like a person for a moment of my life/ But you don't know what hell you put me through" do you see my vision? They're tied to each other, they need each other, but it's scary and it hurts, but they can't quit each other. Not yet. (BUT ALSO "Who We Are" is so fucking Ghost and Die "Christ, hold me like a knife" I could write ESSAYS)

"From Eden" is Price and Price. This again strikes me as something that would duet well with the two of them. The death of innocence, the familiarity with each other. There's something almost ancient, intrinsic, about the way they fall together. A demon slithered up from eden and settled outside Price's door, and it was so familiar to him that he had no choice but to love them.

"In a Week" is Gaz and Luck. The duet just works so well. They lay together at the end of all things and yet they still know who lays beside them. They'd know each other blind, in a crowd they'd pick out their love's voice. In death they'd still recognize each other. They're home with each other, and it doesn't matter which consumes them first because when they're found they'll be together with their fingers entwined.

"Son of Nyx" is Soap and Hush. The atmospheric swell of piano, the fuzz of background noise, the haunting lilt of a lyricless voice, the strings dragging against the melody of the piano. Somehow the discordant sounds all piece together into (one of my favorite) song, and then everything falls away just to the strings. The emotion of it just leaves me breathless. There's something careful about the music Soap and Hush make together, something that starts in confusion and ends with a swell of emotion.

"Moment's Silence(Common Tongue)" is Konig and Fetch. It's the oral. BUT it's also the release, the short moment of clarity, or respite, that they give each other. There's no meaning to the things they do, no honor in mercenary work, no greater good they're fighting for. They take meaning in each other, and soothe the wounds of a war that isn't theirs.

"Foreigner's God" is Viking!Soap and his darling. This is another essay I could write. Both of them foreigners, bound by their shared history, by their language, by their desire to live on for the people they've lost. Soap holds his love like a new god. Both of them have suffered, but together they can rebuild.

"Run" is Knight!Ghost and his princess. "Run to me, lover, run until you feel your lungs bleeding" y'know? You get it. The clawing of others for his love, the desperation to get to each other. "A shame without sin" their whole relationship is built on an absence of sin(physicality) but it keeps the shame of their desires. ALSO "First Light" is so them. The absolute love and devotion, seeing your lover when you open your eyes and knowing that your whole life is laying beside you.

I'm not gonna do the fae or Ghost!Ghost because this is already long, sorry. but i have many thoughts on everyone. You're reigniting my Hozier hyperfixation.

#ghoul speaks #cod x oc #ghoul's pretentious hozier bullshit #do you all see my vision??? Do you see it #shoving my post in your face like a mad man

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gamora-borealis · 6 months

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hi so im one of those ppl that watched dnp religiously years ago and ive been out of the loop for a long time so what’s the thing about the wedding theory & the phil tag thing? if you dont mind explaining or maybe pointing me in the direction of someone else who could?

Oh well hello welcome back! Very long rambley answer under the cut :)

Tbh there's been way more insane stuff that's happened since, but in 2022 the biggest thing that had happened was Dan released his video "Why I Quit YouTube" where he announced that he was going on a solo tour ("We're All Doomed") and making some YouTube videos to go along with / promote the tour ("Dystopia Daily"). So I don't remember the exact details (I bet if you search dan and phil iceland on tumblr you might find some stuff), but Dan's tour was supposed to end in Iceland, and based on some stuff his friend PJ said on twitch it seemed like maybe he (and his gf) and Dan and Phil were going to have a vacation in Iceland after the last show. And idk if there was anything else (like maybe based on stuff they were liking on social media idk lol) people were like... what if they are having a wedding in Iceland after the last show? Apparently Iceland has been advertised as a gay wedding tourism destination too so idk. I think tumblr phannies were just bored and clowning but also it was 2022 which was the infamous prophesized year they were supposed to get married (based on a joke Crabstickz made years ago), so there was this thought like, what if they get married in early 2023 (when the Iceland show was supposed to be) out of spite.

Anyways, the Iceland show ended up getting cancelled. I'm not exactly sure why, but there were some other cancelled shows too and some people suspect it was due to poor ticket sales / too many shows in one city / issues with venues (maybe they were scheduling some that were too big) / issues with promotion (dan's management and touring agencies left most of the promotion to him outside of the standard local venues in-house promotion). Both Dan and Phil got new management this year after all that (Dan now has an agent for his comedy / touring stuff, Phil has an agent for his own channel, and then they have another agent for the gaming channel).

Anyways, 2023 kicked off and Dan and Phil started doing all kinds of insane stuff, which that's a whole other long post about how wild this year has been (Japhan 3.0, OnlyPhans, Gaming Channel comeback, Dan being a slutty nun for Halloween baking, Catboy calendar, etc) and they have been pretty open and comfortable together online lately (while still being fairly private) and more settled in their lives that some people actually think they might actually be getting married. Which, idk maybe we are just being insane again but this time I actually do think it's more believable lol. They bought/designed a house together (though I think it's actually a condo? penthouse? something like that) and Phil has had some health issues so even though they might not really be the kind to want to get married, some people are wondering if they might do it for legal reasons and also to maybe celebrate their relationship with family since Dan came out to his family and then like 9 months after their coming out videos the pandemic happened. Also doesn't help that next year is their 15th anniversary, which the anniversary of the first day they met takes place on the same day Fall Out Boy and My Chemical Romance are performing at the We Were Young Festival 2024 lmaooo. I mean some people are still convinced that they are queerplatonic and romantic exes or something like that but there's a lot they have shared that heavily implies that they aren't.

Okay, now the Phil tag examiner... Idk there was this blog that kept sending people asks anytime they posted something in the Dan and Phil or dnp tags that didn't explicitly mention Phil, and were like "hello this is the Phil tag examiner please keep posts only about Dan out of the Dan and Phil tag" and it was kinda funny to be honest. It stopped after a while idk what happened to them but no one was taking them seriously.

Anyways, I got back into dnp while Dan was on his tour about a year ago, and it's been such a wild year and now is probably like one of the best times to start watching them again there's sooo much new content with the gaming channel and they are being very authentically themselves it's really great.

#dan and phil #dnp #phan #<- for the fandometrics <3 #ask

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chussyracing · 1 year

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Hi, I was wondering, and honestly this is for any cholar (Charles scholar) that wants to take a spin at dissecting this, but why is the Monaco Grand Prix an emotional experience for everyone (chirlies). I get that it is Charles’ home race and with his string of bad luck, incompetent cars and strategies, it has taken longer than expected for him to win his home race. But the same could be said for Pierre, Yuki, Lando, Zhou, Esteban, and George. They haven’t won their home races but no one seems to wax poetry about it. The only suitable parallel that comes to mind is when Senna, if I’m not mistaken, won his home Grand Prix after five years of bad luck and he was so tired that he couldn’t lift the trophy. Did that create an allure around winning on home soil or is it something more. I’m still trying to learn my F1 history, so I might have missed important details, facts or people. I’m sorry for that🫶

Thank you

Nah, don't apologise. It never occured to me but now that you said it like that, it's a relevant question anyone could be asking.

In short: 1. he is specila 2. monaco is special 3. he was freaking close many times before. All details below the cut to avoid cluttering people's dash!

So first of all, there's a reason they call him il predestinato. You probably heard the story that it was given to him by Carlo Vanzini after pr training session where his teenage self bravely claimed that he doesn't need to train some situations and phrases, because there's no way any teammate of his could be better in equal machinery. It only really stuck around his win in Monza (because of the legendary commentary of his race win), but everyone suspected he was destined for bigger things much earlier than this. He was dominant in every sense of the word in F2, then he literally destroyed Marcus in Sauber despite being a rookie and had arguably the best rookie season since the time Lewis debuted. It's not a coincidence that he got offered the Ferrari seat so early on, so young and for such a long time (and the speculations about him getting it were here much sooner than that too). He got a seat of last Ferrari champion who was outperforming his teammate at that time too and (people used to be so mad at Charles for this) technically although not literally pushed out both Kimi and Seb with his performance, because Ferrari count on him long term.

Monaco is special. (I'm incredibly biased and on the contrary to many Charles fans who hate the circuit and want to drop it from the calendar from the future, I love it.) Every driver wants to win there, maybe even more than a home race. Don't hold me accountable on this but I think there's a real quote from a former champion that literally goes like "one win at monaco is worth two or three somewhere else". It's not a coincidence that the greatest drivers of history were the best in Monaco (Senna, Schumi, out of the drivers on the grid of course Lewis). Due to it's difficulty, it's a part of so called triple crown: monaco win, indy 500 win and 24 hours of le mans win. Everything has to be precise, the drivers are literally kissing the walls and being a centimeter of the line can have the worst consequences. It also has many exceptions in terms of how long the circuit is, how many laps are raced, how much they pay in hosting fees. It's been there since the first ever season of f1 with only slight changes. And of course, what people are often most concerned about are the celebrities the glamour... and the famous celebrations. Idk if you watched and followed last season but I suggest looking up "2022 monaco sergio perez orgy rumours" for funsies (spoiler: it isn't funny) - it's not the only rumour about Monaco after race celbrations either!

He was SO SO close many times before. In F2 in the main race he started on pole (as usual) fell down due to some bad decisions with crashes during the race and safety cars to p2 and then dnf cca in the middle of the race due to technical problems. In the sprint he got to p16/17 before dnfying again due to more technical issues. In Sauber he qualified p14 and dnfed due to brake failure (also took Torro Rosso driver with him and got 5s penalty for speeding in the pit lane, not a great race). In 2019 there were high hopes but Ferrari fucked up his quali when they decided not so send him out to save tyres and he was out in Q1 - kinda poetic that he ended up p16. In the race (that was really something) he got to p12, then spinned, touched someone else and got a puncture. The damage was so bad that he was lapped before he came out again. Then he pitted again and after a lap Ferrari decide to retire the car, because it was too damaged (I think he was ironically the only one to retire the race despite some others crashing/spinning). The next year it was cancelled, because of Covid pandemic (and rightfully so). In 2021 he put it on the pole again (despite crashing at the last few minutes and red flagging the session). Then famously, Ferrari declared the gearbox is okay and Charles will start on pole. But he didn't, because they discovered an issue before the race they wouldn't be able to fix before the start. To be fair the issue was on the other side then where he crashed, even in that case it was a huge let down. And then last year he put it on the pole AGAIN and due to data showed, he would put it on the pole even if Perez didn't crash and red flag the session. In the race... I can give you my full written recap if you are wondering but it was a strategy disasterclass and Charles was a sitting duck falling to p4 and not even getting to podium after yet another home race pole. It's an impressive record, because Monaco especially in modern era is known for little to no overtakes. I think the numbers says something like 8/9 out of 10 last gps were won from pole. If you get the pole the victory should be basically guaranteed. Some people started calling it a Charles curse, a Monaco race, home race curse, whatever. To be fair, I hate the narrative, because all it does every single year is him getting mocked and ridiculed all of Monaco race week. People left and right are joking about him dnfying or crashing and what not.

It's sad i'm not the "what if" kind of person, because if I was I'd count how many wins and/or podiums he would have at home by now. Because it's not just a normal circuit like Silverstone is for Lewis - it's literally his home, because he walked those streets, got his driving licence there, drives around his friends and family homes and his own too. The stress is more on home and less on race in his case of "home race". That's why this would mean more than a home race victory and why everyone wants to see it so bad. If F1 was raced on how much people deserve it, nobody would deserve to win Monaco more than Charles.

Sorry this got so long, I hope it helped understand you a bit more about why it's different than a normal race. (If we were discussing a home race for Charles, we can just as well consider it Monza. Monaco is just something more than just that).

#side note: please let's stop the posts about #'do you think the curse extends to arthur'#'it would be so funny if charles dnfed and arthur didn't'#'do you think charles will at least finish this year haha'#and so on and so on #it's soooo tiring and also lowkey (highkey) disrespectful #ask #e

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omishu · 8 months

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Amber, Jack-o-lantern, cinnamon

Thanks for sending the asks, bestie! Sorry my answers are so half-assed and unconfident lol

Amber 🔶️ - share an unpopular opinion that you may have.

Hm ... I'm not really sure tbh. I often genuinely don't understand how other people think sometimes (it's the autism in me), so it's hard for me to gauge, unless someone tells me my opinion is weird or unusual. Um ... I think coffee smells disgusting.

Jack-O-Lantern 🎃 - if you could look like any celebrity, who would you choose?

I'm pretty happy with how I look but get compared to Taylor Swift and Katy Perry a lot, depending on how I do my hair and makeup, so idk maybe one of them ?

Cinnamon 🟤 - if you had to live in a time period different than the present, which would you choose and where?

I often like to imagine that I was turned into a vampire in like the 1890s and have just stayed the same age appearance as then, but lived in the overlapping time period of Art Nouveau in France, the Gilded Age in the US, and the English Victorian Age. And then also got to live through the Roaring 20s and watch history unfold through the 20th and 21st centuries. Idk, Renaissance could be cool too, I guess. Or maybe I could give the good Christian answer and say I'd love to have met Jesus irl thousands of years ago when he was on earth. But my family sees something glamorous from the 1890s, and they're like, "it's so you. I'm sorry you were born now in the wrong time" rip lol

I've given this fantasy a lot of thought, like my family is legacy from Ellis Island and the Mayflower and shit, so we would have had old money. And I am super like ... great at doing things rich girls would've done back then, you know with the arts and education and shit, plus I'm an excellent cook and can clean and mend etc. But I would've been a BAMF of a spinster. Like, I'd have a chatelaine and would flourish selling paintings of my garden flaura that I tended to and probably would have sheered and spun my own wool and other fibers and dyed it myself and wove it into textiles myself. It would've been great. And my house and clothes would've been so fabulous because of my many suitors, whom I'd reject ofc, lavishing me with expensive gifts to woo me (kinda how it sometimes is now but like ... better). And if I wasn't a vampire I'd have died young from some horrible unknown disease at the time. But being a vampire would explain why God won't let me die, so like ... lol

#Autumnal Asks #Ask meme #Personal #Literally me irl

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camileeon · 2 years

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hii! idk if your requests are open but if they areee

could i get camilo x fem!reader who acts like meg from hercules ? tysm ❤️

WON'T SAY I'M IN LOVE

🍵- “this is too cliche, I won't say i'm in love..”

🦋- FemReader! X Camilo

🍊- MF GUESS WHO'S BACK AWOOGAAGAGAGHH- POSTING THIS IN THE MIDST OF SEEING AND TO CELEBRATE 400 BEAUTIFUL FOLLOWING STARS UP TO DATE! THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS!! I HOPE YOU ENJOY LIKE ALWAYSSS :D THANK U FOR REQUESTINGGGG! @pepasfavorite - Ceres

[•••]

“Not so pretty after all huh? You'll never be one of us.”

A young girl exclaims before shoving another down to the pavement which happened to be y/n being picked on by some spoiled brat and her underlings. They had been messing with her because she wasn't like them, didn't have looks and wasn't good enough. Though honestly, she was the type to care less about how other people seemed of her, but was just a little bit too careless to let people like them pick on her.

“who said you three were pretty to begin with anyway?” a boy in yellow stepped up to the center in between them both, crossing his arms in defense as he eyed the group as they fled after getting the message he was trying to give before turning to the girl on the cobblestone

“are you okay? They didn't treat you very well did they..” he spoke with concern before helping her up “i'm good actually.. you didn't need to. Unless you're supposed to be my hero or something mister...?”

she answers before giving a glance at him, expecting a answer and was responded with a fumble of words. “o-oh me? I'm u-uh uhm..”

“you don't look very fluent in.. speaking your own name?” she jokingly retorted, before being answered with a rushed response

“Camilo! y-yeah yes yes.. A madrigal you know? The shapeshifter!” demonstrating proudly using his gift, trying to impress her as he shifted into many familiars.

“Mhm mhm, don't worry i know you.. It's y/n by the way. See you around wonder boy.”

She gave him a small smile and a wave before turning around to leave. She never had forgotten him since then, neither did he.

As the years pass, she stayed away and maybe avoided him a little bit. She matured as so did he but nothing ever changed, admiring from the shapeshifter afar and was tempted several times but never had any gut to just talk to him. She's held how she felt for so long and the regret never failed to hit her once in awhile..

Not until the first gifting after the one that received none, the whole town of encanto was invited for the newest and youngest boy in the family. During preperations, camilo had heard from his mother and father of the guest list and had heard the name of who his heart desired for oh so long, the name of the person who he could never get sick of even if it was repeated in his head for a billion times. Picking an outfit to impress and to show well for the occation, bugging her sister a few times too much just to get some tips on how to "be more attractive as if you were trying to impress someone but not make it obvious" well, you get it. She knows. And her primas too because she can hardly keep something like this only to herself. They knew y/n through non other than camilo, he practically yipped yapped about her 24/7 and already knew how much he loved her from the very beginning.

As the night of the celebration commenced, his gaze just looking for that familiar pretty face that he had fallen head over heels with “Camilo, your eyes look like their about to pop out of your skull.” His sister, Dolores the super hearing gifted spoke up as she nudged his side

“You still looking for her?”

“what do you think I'm doing?- ” before beginnibg once more, he gets shaken by her sister with her finger pointed at the figure in the crowd. Seeing her once again after a few years, reliefs his heart that thumped loudly against his chest.

“Oooooooooouuuu mi hermanoooo's so in looovve” Dolores exclaims as she practically watched the boy's pure happiness walk through the crowd “Hermana shhhhhh! Agh.. she's something else isn't she..?” he bashfully responded, his ears turning a shade of bright red. Quickly thinking up a plan before pulling him aside once more

“All right listen well, if you're gonna get her, here's what we're doing...”

Camilo shuffled his way through the crowd to near her, clearing his throat before facing her with an akward-ish smile “hola princesa, anyone bothering you this evening? Hopefully i'm not one of them.” Camilo states as y/n looked his way with a bright expression, the way the shapeshifter's smile never changed and how the ruffle of his curls tried it's best not to cover his eyes made her heart squeal internally. The loud thumping of both their heartbeats assured dolores the plan seemed to hit it off more than perfectly.

“You have some nerve to call yourself a bother in the first place.” She lets out a little chuckle before placing a hand in the boy's hair to give it a slight ruffle. Sending camilo's heartbeat even increasingly faster, lightly clutching his chest to try to calm himself down a little “it's been too long.. well a few years just pass b-but you know, maybe you'd like to come over tomorrow..? For lunch? O-only if you're free of course!” he stammers slightly, a noticable amount of a crimson shade burnt up his cheeks while he admired her features while expectantly waiting for an answer.

“wonder boy, when do you ever think I'm busy? I'll be happy to.” She answers, finding the brightest expression of the boy in yellow so adorable it made her feel so soft and vulnerable just seeing him.

Camilo listens to their response with the biggest smile to ever cross his face, reaching out to the pillar behind her that was grown with flowers before plucking a velvet red camellia to hand to her. Hearing his abuela's calling for him to tend to something, he quickly gave her a peck on the cheek “Then, I'll be gladly waiting y/n.”

It stunned her almost immediately, a smile just permanently carved on her lips. She snapped out of her thoughts. No no no no no no, am I in love? Surely not right? Jeez emotions are confusing, just a phase?? Clearly not.

She walks through the hallway which didn't seem to flood unlike the other places she wandered through, quietly twirling the red camellia between her fingers before hearing a few steps following her as well

“ Ahh mi primo, y/n yes? I think you and I have the same thing in mind right about now.. you like him don't you?” Mirabel emerges from a corner along with Dolores, Isabela, and Luisa surprisingly.

“Aren't you supposed to be with them?”

“Not when you're on about this no, stop denying it! I can hear your heart beat faster than lightning a mile away!”

“i don't like him!”

“Exactly! Because you've loved him. Ever since!”

"Who d'you think you're kidding

He's the earth and heaven to you

Try to keep it hidden,

Honey we can see right through you

Girl you can't conceal it

We know how you're feeling

Who you thinking of!"

“No chance no way! I won't say it, no no”

"You swoon you sigh why deny it oh oh"

“It's too cliche I won't say I'm in love..”

"Girl you can't deny it

Who you are is how you're feeling

Baby we're not buying

Hon we saw you hit the ceiling

Face it like a grown-up

When you gonna own up that you got got got it bad"

“No chance no way I won't say it, no no”

"Give up, give in, check the grin you're in love"

“This scene won't play I won't say I'm in love”

"We'll do it until you admit you're in love"

“You're way off base I won't say it

Get off my case I won't say it”

“Girl don't be proud it's okay you're in love” They all finally started to leave her alone one by one, giving her the glance of "see you tomorrow"

She hummed softly before, stroking the flowers petals as she pondered on casita's railings, watching the boy from afar.

“At least out loud I won't say I'm in love..”

🍊- FORGOT TO APOLOGIZE I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO GO THROUGH MY ASK BOX BUT I WILL I PROMISE TO GET TO YOUR REQUEST AS SOON AS I CAN DO SO! I HOPE U ALL UNDERSTAND!!! 💗-ceres

TAGLIST!!:

@destinydrawssometimes @camilolovesroxiie @i-more-need-books @aphrodicts-imagination @s1mpysstuff @yoursimpingfan

#disney encanto #camilo x reader #encanto fanfic #camilo madrigal #encanto headcanons #encanto x reader #camilo madrigal x reader #camilo encanto x reader #encanto fic #camillo madrigal #camilo x y/n #camilo x reader fluff #camilo x you

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absolutebl · 2 years

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what's your opinion on homophobic actors ? for example the love by chance cast and their scandal with earth? there might be other homophobic ones idk about but I was just using that as a example I still want you're overall thoughts! would you still watch their stuff? or follow them? or another example actors admiting they used bl as a way for clout some people think thats okay and its justified would you agree?

BL Actor Homophobia

Oh boy. I don't really follow actor drama. Or I try not to. And I kinda don’t want do this, but I guess I should do a sort of official statement thingy. Since this fun silly side blog of mine has sort of gotten bloated and out of my control.

Like the giant peach.

ALT

In general, I think it's difficult to understand any celebrity's actual feelings on anything.

Sometimes it may not be safe for them to express their true opinion, because of image, brand, business, studio, agency, management, or family concerns or constraints. They may be more supportive or less supportive than we will ever know. Anything that approaches bullying is going to be even more complex because there are so many elements, perspectives, and entities involved. (Although I will always side with the victim.)

With regards to interview, vlog, or variety show missteps and misspeaks, a lot of BL actors are BABIES, like so young. Tell me you didn't make a stupid fucking idiot statement when you were in your late teens and early 20s. Well, you CAN tell me you didn't, but I won't believe you. I certainly did. I was a pretty lousy human for a while. Queer af but still lousy.

And a bunch of queers from other countries jumping in and attacking is surely going to change baby boy’s tiny mind... right? Yeah, no. No, it’s not. Multiple studies have shown that attacking someone only drives them into a corner and hardens their sentiments.

Honestly? I don't think it's ever a good idea to make a hero out of an actor... they are, after all, ACTORS. I mean, come on, you must have meet some of the breed?

Make a hero of the BL character he portrayed, certainly! But not the actor for goodness sake. He’s only an actor, after all.

Celebrity turns people... odd. Or maybe it's just that the type of personality that seeks celebrity is innately suspicious? At least to this curmudgeonly introvert. (The fact that I all too often end up dating the fuckers is my terrible judgement and wicked bad taste.)

Where was I?

In most of these cases netizens take everything out of context, or at the very least hugely exaggerate. People pick camps. Yes there are certainly bad apples, but I think about this with kpop a lot, sometimes it's all shades of grey and no celebrity is as evil, or as good, as we want them to be. They're mostly just gloriously shiny narcissistic pricks (affectionate).

Particularly with something like homophobia, the context of identity (or identity erasure or abuse) is very culture specific. With BL we are often talking about places where, until recently, they didn’t even have a word for gay. I don't like to get outraged in general, it's exhausting. But to get outraged about something that some pretty kid said or did, in a language I don't speak, born and raised in a culture I did not grow up in, to a family dynamic I cannot comprehend?

It seems like, considering all the grey areas, I am not really equip to judge.

It's not the same thing, but I'm a long time melody and I often think about what happened to Ilhoon. As an outsider what he went through seems absolutely insane. But I've never lived in South Korea. What the hell do I know? I can only make a judgement call from my safe little nest where (currently) weed is legal and has been for ages. I guess, at the very least being in Kpop should have taught Ilhoon how to be careful enough not to get caught?

And I guess that's were I do judge.

If the actor is homophobic (by any standards), and acts in BLs, at the very least he shouldn't have gotten his tiny hypocritical arse caught out, now should he? Tut tut on the brand management, fella. Practice a little circumspection.

Oof. My cynic is showing.

Look, I’m not that bad, I’m just an old tired queer. We’ve been fighting a long time. Can’t I pass the buck (or blunt or cock) along?

Mostly when one of these stories crosses my radar I just feel sad. And I don't wanna feel that way around BL (or Kpop for that matter), so I try not to even register it's happening.

Here, you wanna get outraged, get outraged about this:

ALT

There are major cultural issues in play here, and when this kind of thing happens to an idol on the streets of Seoul, I’d venture to say, there’s society wide systemic problems at the root of of this kind of homophobia, that the homophobe’s are manifesting - like symptoms of a disease. Sure you can treat the pox (with a damp wet white towel, perhaps?), but darlings don’t you think it’s about time we developed a vaccine? (And maybe I think that’s kinda what BL and pop culture can do to culture, if it gets normalized enough.)

But currently, with these homophobic incidents? We all lose, and we are all to be pitied because of it.

I love BL because it leads with love, and that’s the best I can practice at this point in my life. Try to talk more about positive BL dramas and less about negative BL actor drama. Try to be a little more loving and a little less outraged.

That’s it, I don’t have a solution, sorry. Just... perseverance, I guess? su su na and all that.

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stagefoureddiediaz · 2 years

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Kym thank you for your wonderful answer to anon. I think a part of fadom freaks out easily because the reporter scared everyone for a lifetime. Last year we were all here celebrating how good for buck would have been having a friend outside of the 118, and we got a terrible friend then and an horrible gf now that basically monopolized 2 entire episodes of 5a, probably she'll be gone soon but her presence is still to much compared to others So yeah I don't think lucy will be a LI but who knows

Awww Nonnie 🥺🥺🥺 tysm

Tay Kay is definitely scarring!! I'm gonna be upfront - I have never ever liked Taylor and I never saw her as a friend to Buck (idk how anyone could tbh but maybe thats just me!!), so I never joined in the celebrations of Buck having a friend outside of the 118 - I've only ever viewed her as a narrative device- her character has always been selfish and self serving and if the writers wanted me to feel differently about her they would have invested the time and effort into showing character growth - addressing all the bad choices she made previously. The fact that they didn't, and actually went the other way - showing how much of a hypocrite she is on top of everything else - spoke so loudly to me.

If, like me, you've spent years working in the industry, and studying how film and television is created and developed, I guess you spot things a mile off. I do think they wasted a lot of time and energy on giving her a back story and using it to fill time that could've been better spent elsewhere, but I'm also of the view that theres a very good chance that we'll see what we learnt coming back into play in the first part of 5b.

I think the writers have spent time creating that backstory for a reason - because it's what they've done historically and if it wasn't important they would've used the time elsewhere - showing us more of other characters and doing further world building. The entire season is planned out at the beginning - the arcs will have been decided- even beyond just the season - and they will have spent a lot of time figuring out how to get the characters from a to b - what needs to happen, what road blocks to put in their way etc.

That is why I'm sure that there are plans to make further use of what they have chosen to give us (and why ghost stories got such a drastic rewrite) and I expect it all to come into play in 5x11 and 13 with repercussions further into the season as well. Im actually looking forward to the summer hiatus so I can really look at how it all plays out in more detail - when we know where it all leads to - only then will we truly know if they short changed us and put in a load of unnecessary filler we could've done without!

For the most part the section of fandom that freaks out over this kind of thing tend to be young with little experience of the real world who will (hopefully) learn as they get older - I don't tend to see to much of it in my little corner of the internet as I curate my experience - I'm here for a good time, to have fun and for healthy debate, Im not here to stress myself out or make myself miserable. Its also easy to forget that many of these people freaking out have grown up in a world which has always had internet and so they are not used to being made to wait for things in the same way as those o us who existed before the world was at our fingertips - when binge watching was only possible if you recorded each episode every week or bought the vhs/dvd box sets!

Sorry Nonnie - i've got up on my soap box again 🤣🤣🤣 I've never bee none for brevity!!! As always great to have you appearing in my inbox!

#kym answers things #nonnie asks #kym rambles #have soap box will stand on it!#911 on fox #911 fox #911 #911onfox #911 spoilers #911 fandom discourse #anti taylor kelly #anti buck taylor

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Black Shelton was sexiest man alive?? Shocked and upset 😭😭😭 still better than John Legend LMAO

I knowwww 💀 Neither of those men are worthy.

I'm going to give you some opinions you didn't ask for now. Ranking all of the men that have been given the Sexiest Man title in my lifetime. Top man will be most deserving in my opinion, bottom will be least deserving. As an asexual lesbian, I clearly have the most valid opinions here. Going under a cut because this is long lol.

Paul Rudd - Yes, I'm giving him the most deserving spot. Paul Rudd is such a cool dude. He's really fun, kind, and entertaining! I've never heard a negative thing about him. I love him as an actor and a person. Also he is nice to look at. 10/10 man.

Johnny Depp - What can I say about Johnny Depp omg. If I was straight, I'd probably be in love with him. One of my absolute favorite actors!! He was my favorite for a long time. (The I saw Titanic and Captain America lol.) An incredible actor and human. He's been through, and is going through a lot. He has my love and support forever. His emo boi roles were a fundamental part of my childhood. Also, points to him for getting the title twice in my lifetime!!

Ryan Reynolds - This dude's personality is great. He's hilarious!! He's a great actor, and it helps his case that he's friends with one of my favorite people ever. Again, he's nice to look at! Plus in general, a good sense of humor is a good quality.

Chris Hemsworth - I don't love really muscular guys. Chris is an exception. His personality is lovely, and I think he's such an entertaining actor. Also, THAT ACCENT! If I was straight, I'd swoon.

Dwayne 'The Rock' Johnson - Anyone who dislikes this man is not to be trusted. An ICON!! Again, I don't like muscular men, but he gets a pass because he's THE ROCK!! I'm a big WWE and action movie fan, so obviously I'm a fan of this dude's personality and acting. He has a friendly presence, a cool voice, and he is definitely not bad to look at. He wins life in general.

Adam Levine - He's just hot. I don't have much more to add lol. I was really into Maroon 5 as a kid. I love his voice. I like his face. I wholeheartedly endorse him winning the title.

Michael B. Jordan - I'll be honest idk much about him. He was amazing in Black Panther, but I don't know about him as a person. I will say, I love the story about that girl busting her retainer looking at him, and any man that can drive a girl to do that is worthy of this list. A+ to him.

David Beckham - David Beckham 🥰😍. I don't care about soccer in the slightest. I couldn't even tell you what team(s?) he was on. I just know that he and Victoria are one of the most iconic celebrity couples of all time. They're so hot together??? Also he's close with his kids, and we appreciate good parental figures here!! So yeah hot dude. I don't really know anything about his personality, and it's okay. The only personality he needs is hot 90s/2000s dude.

Bradley Cooper - Disclaimer: I don't think he's attractive. However, as I said previously, I think comedy is a good quality. I love Bradley Cooper as an actor! His hilarious, and entertaining to watch. I can't tell you how many times I've seen The Hangover. So yeah his acting skills, and general icon status (I have a picture with his wax figure lol) make him attractive.

Jude Law - I just think he's neat! I don't know a thing about him as a person, but I could look at him for a while. I loved him as young Dumbledore!! I don't think I agree with him being on a list of the "sexiest" men, but maybe the straight women are seeing something I don't.

Idris Elba - Again, I don't know anything about him. I know his voice is in the song London Boy, and for that he gets points!! He's not bad to look at either!

Hugh Jackman - I'm sorry. Wolverine is NOT sexy. Rip to the straight women, but I'm different. Seems like a good guy irl, but I do not see him as attractive. Good actor, even if I haven't seen a ton of his work.

Channing Tatum - Literally have no clue what women see in him. His muscles weird me out. He gets points for dressing up as Beyonce for Lip Sync Battle, and for wearing a 50s style dress for P!nk's Beautiful Trauma music video.

Matt Damon - Not attractive. Not sexy. I really do not ever think about Matt Damon. I've seen a few of his movies. I won't praise his acting, but I won't insult him either.

George Clooney - I don't really understand this one. I know women think he's super sexy, but I can't see it. I think in terms of sex symbol status, he definitely deserves the "Sexiest Man Alive" title. So even though I can't agree, I would never argue against his right to be on the list.

Matthew McConaughey - All right, all right, all right! That's all I know about this dude! Oh that and apparently he's against vaccine mandates so 🤦‍♀️. Like okay if I squint I can see why people think he's attractive, but nothing in his personality seems to substantiate his place on the list.

John Legend - Arthur memes. That's my only commentary.

Blake Shelton - Look at that yeehaw jerk. Idk if he's legit a jerk, but I hate him for turning Gwen Stefani's fashion more country. Also I just don't like country boys. He is the least valid person on the list in my lifetime.

Thank you for reading, and feel free to come back for more unsolicited celebrity opinions 😂😂. For someone deeply invested in celebrity culture, specifically of the 90s and 2000s, I really don't get to talk about it enough here!!!

#honorary mention to Brad Pitt who has won twice just not in my lifetime. he would rank very high because omg just look at him #asks #tina

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thebraingremlinsaremad · 3 years

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Daily Blog #6: August 13, 2021

Okay, okay, I know it's a couples days later, but I can assure you that I did not forget; I purposefully, and kinda without a better option, didn't post on Friday, and you'll see why.

So the day started off pretty regularly: I got up, ate breakfast, got a shower, and then sat around playing games and watching YouTube for a bit.

That was until my friend showed up at my house...

He called me and said to come outside, so I did.

It wasn't long until I got into his car, and we started driving.

I definitely should have been more anxious or nervous heading out, but for some reason, I just sat there with my head absentmindedly poking out the window, not really thinking about it.

I really wish I had grasped the situation a little better.

We got down there after an hour and a half of driving and we parked a bit away because there were so many people there, so many people there, in fact, that we just got some food until it calmed down again.

It was gonna be a great fucking concert.

Hella Mega Tour 2021, originally supposed to be Hella Mega Tour 2020, but postponed for obvious reasons.

We shopped for a tiny bit beforehand, not buying anything, and then headed over to the stadium 45 minutes before the concert was set to start. We were let in about 10 minutes later, and we filled our contraband water bottles that we managed to hide on the way in.

We sat there for a bit, me just listening to music on my Redmi Buds 3 pro.

I love these things.

Pretty soon the music started, and it was The Interrupters; everyone was feeling pretty lazy for this bit.

It's not like they were bad or anything, they were actually pretty good, but I guess everyone was just getting situated and didn't wanna bother using up all of their energy lol.

So The Interrupters' set is up, and they tear down the stage and reset it. Before too terribly long, Weezer starts up, and there's a lot bigger reaction from the crowd than there was before: people knew the songs, like Africa, Buddy Holly, Beverly Hills, and Feels Like Summer to name a few.

I was getting into it a bit, I knew a good few of the songs, I was moving along, I sang a bit, took some video.

What's cool is that I could feel myself moving along the scale, like going from no excitement while no one was playing, then tapping my foot and grooving to The Interrupters.

When Weezer first came on, I was just sitting there like, "alright, this is good shit." Towards the end, I was quietly singing Buddy Holly, their last song for the night.

I say quietly because there was a lot more loudness to come.

I should add that, up until this point, the music had been kinda unbearably loud, the highs really piercing and hitting hard.

Additionally, up until this point, I had been trying my best to document the concert with videos and audio recordings; it wasn't so much about enjoying the concert, for I've always been taught just to record stuff and not worry about the concert.

I don't think I've ever really enjoyed any of the concerts I've ever been to; I was there, but I wasn't. I didn't really know too many of the songs, and I had only listened to the artists in passing, not to mention the fact that my mother had been at every other concert I've been to, which is stifling in itself. I really can't enjoy anything when she's around.

But here we were; it was starting to get dark, and Fall out Boy was coming onstage. The crowd was getting into it with Weezer, and it was time for Fall Out Boy. The energy here had far exceeded both Weezer and The Interrupters, and this went for me as well.

I was sitting there, singing along and still occasionally recording, but I didn't have my phone out too much. I started to dance in my seat with every song, for I knew almost every one: Sugar, We're Going Down, Centuries, My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark, Grand Theft Autumn/Where is Your Boy, The Last of the Real Ones, Save Rock And Roll, and Dance, Dance being a few.

Throughout this set, everyone was singing along, but the real fun had yet to begin; the scent of smoke from the flames and fireworks finding its way through the crowd, the music now strong instead of piercing, a sense of unity between everyone in this packed stadium, between people of all walks of life: men, women, children, transgender, cisgender, non-binary, gay, straight, lesbian, ace, black, white, Asian, Mexican, young, old, middle-aged, and everything in between and outside... It didn't matter who you were or where you came from; you were at a fucking party, and everyone was gonna fuck it up once the main act came on stage.

Meanwhile, everyone was more than happy to celebrate with Fall Out Boy and some of their greatest and most memorable tracks.

Part way through Fall Out Boy's set, I decided to get off of my ass and join the growing number of audience members who were really getting into the groove and feeling the music.

It was so close to becoming an explosion of energy once Fall Out Boy was about to leave the stage.

After they left, the set was torn down once again and set up for Green Day.

Their was a low mix of music playing through the speakers all the while things were being set up. Once the stage was set, the music continued for a bit, but was then cut and replaced with a voice and lyrics that everyone knew immediately.

"Is this the real life. Is this just fantasy."

The crowd sings along to every word.

"Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality."

Freddie's voice poured out into the crowd, and the crowd sang them right back.

"Open your eyes, look up to the skies and see"

The song continued, and the whole crowd sang to the very end.

This really goes to show how impactful some people and groups can be on our lives... Although no one at the show was connected to Queen or Freddie Mercury, everyone who came to see these 4 bands still knew this great group.

Once the song was over, a mix of some of the most famous rock anthems began to play:

"We will, we will rock you"

"I love rock and roll"

"Hey, Ho, let's go"

A glorious piece all lead up to the 4 running onstage, Billie Joe Armstrong, Jason White, Mike Dirnt, and Tre Cool, joined now by 2 new members, Jason Freese and Kevin Preston.

All at once, it was an explosion of strong and passionate guitar jamming, soon followed by the drums and vocals of American Idiot. All at once, the crowd was rocking along with bopping heads, stomping feet, and swaying bodies. I only had my phone out to record for a short moment before I put it away and scarcely removed it from my pants for the rest of the concert.

I couldn't help but feel cocky, as a bi/pansexual (idk which one lmao), being allowed to sing the line,

"Well maybe I'm the faggot America"

I was like, "You straight bastards better not be singing that line 🤣"

It was absolutely incredible; the crowd cheered passionately and wholeheartedly at the end of every song and solo, after every quote from the band.

The coolest part about the concert was the fact that everyone just lost themselves in the music, as well as that everyone, without hesitation, followed what Billie Joe said. He says jump? WE FUCKING JUMPED. He tells us to scream? We. Fucking. Screamed. And when he wanted us to sing, we sang. I mean, okay, we were singing the whole time xD. I'm sure we would've sang if he told us to and we weren't already doing so lmao. What he said was our law, and we were doing our jobs as the dutiful citizens of Suburbia by following those laws.

It really is hard to express the level of pure energy at this gathering, especially when it radiates from every point in the packed stadium.

I screamed so loud and hard, and sang so long and passionately, that my voice started to go. But. Guess. What.

When you're at a place like this, no matter what, you just have this insatiable urge to keep going no matter what. When my arm got tired of throwing my fist in the air, I kept fucking going and even used the other arm too.

It's such a strange feeling when you feel like you're about to give out, like your voice is gonna break, or you're gonna collapse from dehydration and exhaustion, but you find around you the strength and power to keep on going, no matter how quickly your vocal health deteriorates.

Ask my friend, I couldn't speak properly after that shit xD. He even threatened to send a video of me talking to my choral teacher, who honestly would have been mad at me lmao.

Meanwhile, Green Day is playing some of their greatest hits, old and new alike, and I knew every single fucking one of them. I sang every song, and only took a break between 2 of them to down my whole bottle of contraband water in 3 seconds flat.

At one point, the band stopped playing, and Billie spoke into the microphone.

"Get your pretty lights out. I wanna see the pretty lights."

Everyone got their phones out and turned the torches on, as per his command.

"Turn the house lights off."

The lights go off, and the stadium is lit up almost as bright as it had been before, but this time with the lights of thousands.

"Look at that."

It was honestly an incredible moment.

That brings me to another point: when you go to a concert, you're not just paying for the music, you're not just paying to see a band, you're paying for an experience.

Let me tell you, this was one hell of an experience.

If you don't leave a concert feeling fulfilled, then the performers didn't do their job of giving you the experience that you paid to be a part of. I'm so happy that these four bands, especially Green Day, were able to deliver.

I really did love every moment of that show, which is such a rarity for me. I'm really happy that my friend took my mother's place. I can't fucking enjoy everything when she's around.

Oh yes, it wouldn't be one of my daily blogs without me talking about how my mother consistently pisses me off. Don't worry, I have some happy shit left to end on.

I swear to fluff though, she always manages to ruin everything for me. When we went to see The Lion King on Broadway, she insisted on coming with. That meant that I wasn't able to relax in my seat because this disgusting woman was sitting next to me and I had to cram myself to the side of my chair away from her. It meant that I wasn't allowed to cry when Mufasa died or during Can You Feel The Love Tonight because I knew I'd get made fun of for it.

I even went to a Fall Out Boy concert before, her refusing to let me go myself, and I didn't sing a single song because she'd just tell me to let the professionals handle it.

And for fuck's sake, the time she compared me trying to fucking validate my existence as a trans person to her wanting a car... That will always fucking piss me off.

Sorry, I got sidetracked. I was talking about how she ruins everything for me.

I literally cannot be myself around her. I've always been judged and ridiculed by my parents, and still am. I can't enjoy anything when they're around because I'm too focused on trying not to get made fun of or yelled at.

That being said, that concert was absolutely fucking incredible. I was with thousands of people who felt the same way that I did, and I could fucking jam out if I wanted to.

Apart from everyone being really on top of their game, and Billie Joe basically not aging since he turned 25, the only really notable thing left to say about the performance was when they pulled a kid guitarist onstage. He played for a bit, and they ended up letting him keep the guitar lmao.

BEST PART IS:

I SAW THE KID AFTER THE CONCERT, AND I WAS LIKE,

"Omg, hey, can I get a selfie with you?"

I was trying to be really low-key and quiet cuz I didn't wanna draw too much attention to him lmao.

The security guard was like, "Yeah, sure, but hurry up."

I TOOK THE PIC REALLY QUICKLY AND THEN HEADED OUT

HERE IT IS

YES, OF COURSE I BLOCKED OUT MY FACE

But I absolutely love the vibes of this photo xD. It's blurry, the lighting is shit, and you can barely make out any details. It has a lot of character, and I would take this over a clean, clear photo any day.

Walking away, the kid's mom said, "You're like, the coolest kid ever now."

Agreed.

Then it was time to go home. Honestly, I didn't feel sad that it didn't last longer, or disappointed that I had to leave. I was actually very satisfied and fulfilled with what happened, which is honestly the way it should be.

Driving home, I stayed awake by sticking my arm out of the window and letting the cold rain hit fast like tiny needles.

I got home.

I passed out.

Although, that was technically on Saturday 🤔

ANYWAY, THIS IS MY LONG ASS BLOG FOR FRIDAY THE 13TH

I hope you enjoyed

Be good people!!!!

-Leonna

#Concert #Green Day #Fall Out Boy #Weezer #The Interrupters #Green Day Concert #Daily Blog #Blog #Trans #LGBTQ #alternative rock #Alternative #Pop Punk #Punk Rock

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ickle-ronniekins · 4 years

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Congratulations on 4k!!! You're such an amazing person and you deserve it so much. ❤️

🍄 A random fact about me is that I first watched HP when I was maybe 8 or 9 and it absolutely terrified me. I had a nightmare about Prof Quirrel/Voldemort (idk that was just traumatising for me) the same night and every time my parents would watch the movies I would leave the room, because I was so afraid. Idk when I actually enjoyed HP, but it was before the last movie came out, I borrowed the books from a friend so I knew what will happen in the last part. However I was never really obsessed with it until this year. Now I'm reading the books (second hand copies because I don't want to support jkr) for the first time in English and it's so fun. I never thought I would become obsessed with it after years– but here I am simping over some redheaded twins lmao 😂

Anyway I hope you have a great rest sleepover, again you deserve it so much. Your writing is out of this world and if you're going to write your own story I'm the first person to buy it. ❤️

join my 4k sleepover celebration!

hey there sunshine! :) thank you so much for your sweet words, you’re so kind! i’m sobbing at them oh my gosh. hopefully one day i can publish a book.... but for now, i’ll just write twinny fics :) thank you so so much <3 thanks for following along and thank you for participating!

oh my gosh. that’s so cute! i definitely do not blame you for being so scared -- it’s terrifying, especially at a young age! i love that you found your love of ‘harry potter’ in your own time. so many people ask me “why are you still obsessed with it? it ended years ago” and i hate that. we can love whatever we want, when we want too! and it’s honestly such a huge phenomenon, i don’t believe it’s going anywhere haha. and honestly? i feel that about fred and george. i’m just here, irrevocably in love with fictional characters LOL.

a little fact about me is that i actually hated reading when i was younger. there was nothing i disliked more. i had a lot of issues with comprehension when i was a little girl (probably between first and third grade) which made me upset and annoyed whenever i had to read anything. but then i realized, it wasn’t reading i hated, it was what i was reading. i had all these awful books for school i had to read, and none of them appealed to me. then i started ‘harry potter’ in first grade (i did have to do a lot of rereading with this because that is a lot for a six year old to take in HAHA) but i just absolutely adored it and realized how much i LOVED READING. now reading is all i do. i’ve found what i like to read and i charge forth and find every single fic/story/book i can that revolves around my interests. reading is so fun :)

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beezelbubbles · 3 years

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I posted 1,012 times in 2021

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For every post I created, I reblogged 111.4 posts.

I added 17 tags in 2021

#the locked tomb - 3 posts

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#old on the internet - 2 posts

#harrow the ninth - 2 posts

#no - 2 posts

#i literally told them that ultimately it's about what flag you like better - 1 posts

#have you heard the good news of our lord undying the necromancer prime? - 1 posts

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#i almost asked a library patron what service his very clearly not a service dog provided the other day

My Top Posts in 2021

Really trying to wring some serotonin out of my horrible brain and it is not working.

My husband got his dream job. Everything we've done, every choice for the last like... 16 years has been working towards this. We're moving back to our favorite city. We still have friends there. We're closer to family. There are so many opportunities for our kid.

And it just all feels like a trap. I cried happy tears like I haven't since my freaking wedding day. (No offense to my kid, the I'm a mom tears were different and totally wrapped up in complicated birth feelings and hormones.) But housing is a mess. HR is totally fucked and he probably won't get his first paycheck until the freaking end of September. He had to go and I'm packing the house up by myself. (Kid is great, but they are a young teen and in full eye-rolling omg I do everything around here yelling when asked to do 1 whole thing mode and I can't really rely on them. They've got their own things going on with school and pandemic.) And I've got to leave my job, which I freaking love so much but it's so niche in a competitive market that there's no way I'll get anything like it again. And my coworkers are the best. And I finally made friends here and I adore them.

What should be an absolute victory just fucking hurts so very much right at this moment. The worst part is I can't say any of this to my husband because I don't want him to feel at all bad. He shouldn't! This isn't me being the trailing spouse, as we're called in academia; I absolutely chose this and want this. He will blame himself and feel guilty and take way more responsibility for my feelings than he ought to. I'll be fine when this shit part is over. Just have to get to that point.

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Alright Tumblr! I need to know where to buy a Bi pride flag and a Demigirl flag! Our local Pride celebration was pretty small, and while we saw plenty of people there *with* flags, we didn't see anyone selling them, so my kid had to make do with facepaint when they really wanted a flag cape. I'd like to avoid Amazon for this, and double points if I can support an LGBTQIA+ creator.

2 notes • Posted 2021-06-16 04:29:18 GMT

the crashing of the waves falling from their shoulders as they rise from the ocean and turn to their gaze to you, back muscled and straight, skin glistening, a rumbling demand: "buy me 40 red lobster cheesy biscuits, mortal." thunders across the rainy sky--how could you refuse? you like a boisterous and exciting date, but most importantly, someone who dwarfs you in height. you could probably be picked up by this monster and be perfectly happy with it. get ready to dive into some rough waters ;)

2 notes • Posted 2021-06-13 20:37:12 GMT

Cleaning Accountability/Done List Post

Okay so really it's more about cleansing in the magic sense? But that does start with cleaning. IDK. I feel like we've been butting heads with our house for a while. We're starting our third year here and we love it but it doesn't always feel like it loves us back. So cleansing bad energy and making space for good. But also just fucking cleaning up because how can the house be happy if the kitchen floor needs mopping?

Shit that needs done today: Dishes need doing Floors need sweeping and mopping (1812 is currently running, so that's a start. I'll go along and sweep up any bits he misses and then mop.) Windows and mirrors need cleaning All the trash needs to go out Laundry needs to be folded and put away.

I am going to be doing the UFYH 20/10s or maybe 30/15s. Otherwise I will just wipe myself out and that won't help anything. I'm getting really burnt out at work and I'd hoped to get some serious recovery in for my day off. Oh well. My space will be cleaner and that will help my mental state, even if I'm still physically tired. (Starting to think I'm just always gonna be physically tired.)

Once the mundane clean is done, I'll hit the magical. I'm staying away from smoke involved stuff because my lungs are crap and also fire has been an issue in this house (last renters did a good bit of fire damage), so it just seems like not a great peace overture to make. Need to figure out what exactly I'm doing. New moon is Friday, so I'd like to have it worked out by then.

8 notes • Posted 2021-07-04 17:09:28 GMT

Life and the Locked Tomb

Spoilers for Gideon the Ninth and Harrow the Ninth

H'okay so I've been listening to the audiobooks for months, swapping off between them. And there are a LOT of things that have stuck out at me, but one of the biggest is the repetition of giving up your life.

At the beginning of Gideon the Ninth, Gideon tells Aiglamene, "I gave her my whole life." as she unsheathes her blade for the fight with Harrow. which is fascinating to me, because on the indentured servant front, no she didn't. She was raised by the Ninth. She's spent her whole life trying to run away from the Ninth. That doesn't sound a whole lot like giving her life to Harrow.

But then later, when she is literally giving her life to Harrow during the second challenge in the facility, Cytherea!Dulcinea says (bolding mine), "Gideon, Gideon... you're so young. Don't give yourself away. Do you know, it's not worth it ... none of this is worth it, at all. It's cruel. It's so cruel. You are so young--and vital--and alive. Gideon, you're all right ... remember this, and don't let anyone do it to you ever again. I'm sorry. We take so much. I'm so sorry." It hits very different when you know it's a Lyctor speaking. Cytherea knows what's possibly coming.

And of course in the epilogue, Harrow throws herself before the Emperor and says, "I will never ask anything of you, ever again, if you just give me back the life of Gideon Nav." Which of course he can't, because Harrow so irrefutably *has* Gideon's life that it can't be withdrawn from her.

So I need to go through Harrow a little more closely, but of course there's the iconic bit when Gideon breaks through, "I gave you my whole life and you didn't even want it." A perfect echo of that first time in GtN. Gideon gave and gave and gave herself to Harrow. And of course Harrow wanted her. The first thing she did was ask the Emperor for it. The tragedy to Harrow was that she completely and totally *had* it. But Gideon didn't know that, and I don't know that she could bring herself to believe it if she would have. In a book about death, of course we have a lot touching on the value of life.

11 notes • Posted 2021-11-04 22:31:38 GMT

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