Having Fitz Vacker feelings right now. @ahoyimlosingmymind this ramble is dedicated to you.
Say what you want about Fitz Vacker but he’s trying. And it’s excruciatingly hard because he made it so important to his identity when it was easy.
He was the kid from the perfect family. Styling his hair and keeping his clothes straight was only a small amount of time in the morning. He’s super good-looking and all the girls knew it. He manifested extremely young and blew everyone away. He was top of his class without even being able to attend all the time because he was off doing classified, important things for his important father.
The Vacker name was handed to him.
He was attractive without having to try, so all he had to do was gel his hair into place and go about his day.
He manifested at 12. Everyone was amazed. Of course he was a prodigy. He didn’t have to ask or try for that, either.
His nexus came off at a young age because of his amazing concentration.
He was Important. That was why he often wasn’t in school and everyone knew it, though they didn’t know the details.
He was smart. He was top of the class.
He was effortlessly perfect and that was what made him Fitz Vacker. He got comfortable with it. It was all he needed.
But… balancing schoolwork with searching for a hidden Elvin girl got difficult, so he started having to put in a little bit of effort. But he did it behind closed doors. To everyone else he was still effortlessly perfect. The late nights studying were his little secret.
He still had everything going for him, naturally.
Then he found Sophie. Sure, she… might have manifested younger than him, but she doesn’t count. And she’s the only one who can block him… but she doesn’t count. She DOESN’T. She has altered DNA, obviously, so he’s still the best young telepath. He IS.
And this is a good thing, because now everyone knows what he’d been doing. What an important kid at such a young age. Fitz can’t help but be proud.
But things aren’t always easy.
And they keep getting harder.
His classes get harder, but so does his life. Alden’s mind breaks and he doesn’t have it in him to be nice to everyone. He says things he regrets… especially to Sophie. She doesn’t deserve that. He tells her. (He’s forever grateful she brought him back.)
(….why couldn’t he bring him back?)
Does anyone notice his slightly lower grades? Probably not. He has an image everyone probably assumes is still true. And besides, he’s involved with things so much bigger than school now… obviously he’s still Perfect…
He starts to develop feelings for Sophie. He cares about her, and… so does his best friend. His best friend who is Imperfectly Perfect. The boy who manages to be just as popular and appreciated as him without having to always look put together. He starts to resent being put together.
(How does Keefe not go to class and still do amazingly on all his exams, just because of his stupid photographic memory, while Fitz has to study and study between his insane life and pay rapt attention in every class and just pretend it’s easy for him?)
(Why is Keefe the one who skipped a grade? Fitz should have skipped a grade. Why didn’t he? He should have. What a good idea.)
(Fitz makes it look like he’s effortlessly perfect. Keefe IS effortlessly perfect.)
(Keefe’s “effortless” looks better than Fitz’s “effortless.”)
(It would be insensitive to say Keefe has it easier though, of course. Fitz knows what his home life is like…)
Fitz worries that, of course, Sophie will go for Keefe, but he doesn’t say anything. He waits.
He joins the Black Swan.
No more Foxfire.
He’s a rebel.
(He’s fine with that, really.)
He and Sophie are cognates!!!!!!!! That’s a good thing, that’s special!!
They get banished from the lost cities.
(He’s a Vacker.)
(Does that even matter anymore?)
He goes to exillium.
(What does it mean to be Fitz Vacker anymore?)
He can’t even really protect Sophie. And there’s just one thing she won’t tell him in their trust exercises. (Does she like him?? Surely not. What is she hiding? Why doesn’t she trust me? ……Does she like me?)
Alvar. Is. A. Traitor.
(What does it even mean to be a Vacker anymore?)
His family name was handed to him, but now he has to make it for himself. People aren’t so sure about the Vackers anymore.
His special ability and its strength was handed to him, but now there’s Sophie. (Do they even need him? Does the cognate relationship even benefit Sophie, or only him….?)
School is light years away. Even when they return to foxfire it isn’t really the same. He’s been to exillium. He can’t go back to being the quintessential top student.
So… what is he?
Who is Fitz Vacker anyway?
It feels like everything he defined himself by is slipping away, but he can’t give it up now. He can’t try something like Keefe tries. He has to be Fitz Vacker. He has to keep it up.
(Sometimes his mask slips a little and he’s terrified people are going to see that there’s nothing underneath.)
He wishes he never decided to be effortlessly perfect.
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So I started watching Succession somewhere between s2 n s3 and till yesterday, I was under the impression Rava Roy(?) is supposed to be of Indian descent (though why someone would name her after food idk) but then I saw some bts of s4 with the actress and I'm sure she's white or not idk 😂 Point is, can you tell if the kids are supposed to be adopted? (That's what was suggested in an article) like I'm so confused??? Are they biracial? Is her ethnicity ambiguous? I feel like maybe you might have the answer for me 😅
It's never explicitly stated, anon, but I'm pretty sure Rava is supposed to be Jewish.
Natalie Gold, the actress who plays her, is Jewish herself, and the name Rava actually has Hebrew origins dating back to around the year 300CE. Interestingly enough, it's actually traditionally a boy's name in Hebrew meaning a father, which feels pretty deliberate given the nature of the show. I think too that her being Jewish makes sense given the tension between her and Logan, and Kendall's hyper-sensitivity to Logan's anti-semitism, most notably in 3.04 which happened pretty quickly timeline-wise after Kendall retreated to (and took over) Rava's apartment when he didn't have anywhere else to go.
In that sense, I do think we're supposed to understand that Sophie is adopted, yes. I've talked about it on here before, but I tend to think that Iverson is biological, and it's that, plus him being a boy and white, that causes Logan to simultaneously dote on, weaponise and abuse Iverson more directly and visibly on screen than he does Sophie. As far as Logan's concerned, Iverson is the only heir beyond his children, and it's pretty clear that he's been found wanting. What that means for Sophie who is, of course, just as much Kendall and Rava's child, is open to speculation, but I think the show is deliberate in the way it focuses on Iverson and forces Sophie aside.
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Hey I've been going through your NFHCC AU tag and I absolutely need to know when Eliot decided to tell Nate and Sophie hes a triplet. Like, did they run into them on a job and are they confused? Or did it just randomly come out one day?
Oh man, I can't believe I have an actual answer for this rather than just speculation. Thank you for asking ^u^
This is a bit of a spoiler for The Hitter Job, Extended Edition, but Nate and Sophie aren't actually the first ones to discover Eliot's blood relations. It's Hardison!
After discovering that Eliot Spencer has only existed for just under 2 years, Hardison, in innocent curiosity, digs in and discovers Eliot's real last name is Stone, and he has two brothers. He doesn't immediately go to Nate with the information, because the deeper Hardison goes the more information he gets and the picture this new information keeps getting worse. Only when Hardison feels comfortable and able to tell Nate about Eliot and his secret brothers and last name (amoung other more upsetting info) does he actually do so.
So for a while only Hardison and Nate are aware of Eliot's brothers and father, and they keep it that way. Nate is, of course, hurt that he didn't know this about one of his kids (it's a similar emotion to when he met Archie) but Eliot is almost 18 and Nate knows how easy it would be to loose the trust Eliot has in him, so he says nothing about it. I don't think it's until a job almost a year later, when the Stone triplets are all 18, does the Leverage team accidentally cross paths with both the Librarians and the Cebu trio.
It's a mess lol, but the mess ends with Eliot, Alex, and Jake all reuniting after 3 years of being apart, and the Leverage team and Librarians (as well as Kai and Ernesto) finally meeting their respective triplet's brothers and friends and guardians.
So while Nate finds out about Eliot's brothers before Sophie, and while Sophie isn't exactly happy Nate kept it from her, Sophie Devereaux (and Parker as well) is absolutely the one who understands why Eliot changed his name and never told her or Nate about his brothers. And while both Nate and Sophie aren't glad they find out by accident and not because Eliot chose to tell them, they understand why he didn't, and most likely never would have had the crossover not happened.
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mayhaps a Witch Hat/Howl's Moving Castle fusion?
Ooooh not only is this a FUN one but it is one I have thought about before!
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Before Coco got herself cursed, she’d always thought she’d live and die a tailor in that little town, where nothing exciting actually happened. The most interesting thing to ever happen to Market Chipping was when the train station got built ten years ago, and when people come out from Kingbury and Kahln. Coco is willing to believe that interesting things happen, of course, but interesting things don’t happen to her— they happen to interesting people. Like witches!!
This is what she tells herself, to keep herself from getting too bored.
Actually, the most interesting thing to happen in Market Chipping happened three months ago, when the girl down the street saw the Wizard Agate’s castle in the fog creeping about the hills— but that’s terrifying, not not interesting at all.
They say the Wizard Agate eats the heart of any pretty girl she finds out on her own, that she peels the magic from other witches, that she does all manner of madness in her quest for power.
But, well, Coco isn’t a pretty girl anymore, now that she’s nineteen-going-on-ninety, and she was never a witch to start out with. And she can’t bother her poor mother with all this, not after that business with placing her sisters in nice apprenticeships. Maybe the Wizard will even feel like breaking her curse! Maybe the Wizard will teach her some magic! Not wizardry, since you have to be born with the talent to be a wizard, but maybe a bit of witchcraft!
Probably she won’t, but being an old lady is good for hope! What’s the worst that will happen, anyways?
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“Who the hell are you?” The woman— Wizard Agate, since it couldn’t be anyone else but her— said. She was, shockingly, wearing trousers. Coco couldn’t imagine ever being so scandalous, but she figured one must get used to it after some time.
Oh no.
“I’m your new cleaning lady!” Coco said.
Wizard Agate took a long drink of whatever was in her mug. “Why,” she said, but not like a question.
“Because you need one,” Coco said, and since Wizard Agate hadn’t eaten her heart yet, she dared a little further. “Really badly.”
Wizard Agate pinched the bridge of her nose and sighed, dramatically and showily. “Fine, whatever.”
Coco would have danced in joy if her bones didn’t protest to the thought. “I promise you won’t regret it!” She said.
“I already do,” the Wizard said, and reached behind Coco to shut the door. She was taller than Coco, as she was, and probably would’ve been taller than Coco as she had been, too. Her outfit made her look even taller, long straight pants with pin folds that went all the way up to a long blue and silver vest over a fine shirt with flounces on the sleeves.
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