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pensat-i-fet · 1 year

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Attention seekers (Pedri x Reader)

**I got this request and my writer’s block suddenly disappeared. Funny that, right? 👀🤷 Anyways, the story is set in lockdown-ish times but that isn’t the plot but what kickstarts the plot. Hope you guys enjoy it!! ❤️❤️ **

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“So it’s cancelled? Yeah, I get it. Hopefully, you won’t feel too bad. See you soon”.

You hung up the phone feeling so annoyed by the change of plans. After all the months of lockdown, it was possible to travel again and you had planned a trip with your uni friends. But now one of them tested positive and both she and all the others had to stay home. You didn’t see them since your exams were done, so you knew you were fine but…what were you going to do for your holidays now? Your family was going on a cruise with some friends of the family and you couldn’t think of a more boring plan.

“What’s wrong, princess? You look sad”, said your dad when he saw you sitting down, phone still in your hand.

“My holidays have been cancelled because all my friends have to quarantine. I guess I’ll stay here. There are worse places to be”.

“Come with us. There’s room for one more”.

“I don’t like cruises, dad. Besides, you’re travelling with people I don’t even know”.

“Nonsense”, he said, and you could tell he was not going to change his mind. “You know them. We used to be with them all the time”.

“Yes, when I was a baby. I don’t remember any of it”.

“Well, they are great so why don’t you come with us to Barcelona to see them and then if you don’t want to go on the cruise, you can come back here and be all alone. But give it a try”.

“Ok”, you said, rolling your eyes. It wasn't as if you had better plans.

A lot of the stricter restrictions had been lifted, but you still needed to quarantine before travelling abroad. So the families’ plan was to stay at the house of one of the kids in Barcelona since that’s where the cruise will be leaving from. It was apparently big enough for all of you because he was a rich football player now. You couldn’t care less about those things.

“I can’t believe you don’t remember Pedri”, said your mum.

“I do”, laughed your sister.

“Well, you’re older…”.

“Yes, and I also remember because you two were so funny together. You were either throwing things at him or trying to kiss him”.

“Don’t say that in front of him”, you told her but her smirk told you she was going to tell him the moment she could bring it up.

“I’m sure you’ll get on well, honey. He’s a great kid and so is his brother”.

You nodded at your dad’s words, already bored of hearing so much about Perfect Pedri. It was going to be a long trip for sure.

When you got to his house you couldn’t lie and pretend you weren’t impressed. He really was doing well. And also, a big house meant it was easier to avoid people you didn’t want to see so it worked for you.

After all the greetings and all the “oh my God! I can’t believe how tall and pretty you are!” comments, you excused yourself to your room. People never realised how shy you actually were and being surrounded by strangers, even if they weren’t completely strangers, wasn’t so easy for you. Plus the heartbreak of missing out on your dream holidays with your friends was still too recent.

After a little nap, you decided to head to the kitchen to ask when dinner was going to be ready and if they needed any help. But the moment you left the room, you bumped into a body and your phone fell to the floor.

“Sorry”, said Pedri, reaching for your phone and taking a quick look at the screen before giving it back to you. “Carlos? Is that your boyfriend?”

“No. Give that back”.

“Sure. I was sent to tell you dinner will be ready soon”.

“Ok, thanks”.

You tried to move but he got in your way. What was his problem?

“I remember you”.

“I don’t remember you”, you said back, trying to walk again but he was still blocking the way.

“Our parents got the photo album out. You would like to see some of the photos. There are a lot of just you and me. It looked like we were good friends and seeing them made me remind you”.

“Great! I guess my sister already told you about me hitting and kissing you. Glad I wasn’t there to be embarrassed”.

“Kissing me?”

Crap.

“Let’s go eat”.

You managed to leave that uncomfortable conversation and made your way downstairs, trying to remember the way to the kitchen. The last thing you needed was to get lost.

“You were nicer in my memories”.

Being stuck at home was a familiar feeling for everyone now but when it was someone else's house…

"We could go read in the garden", offered your sister.

"Sure, let me pick up my Kindle".

Everyone else was also in the garden, of course. You walked past Pedri and Fer and saw they were playing football.

"Doesn't he get bored of kicking a ball all the time?", you asked your sister but it was Pedri who answered.

"No, I don't. Do you want to play with us?"

You looked away, shaking your head and heading to the chairs where you could do some reading.

"It's like a reversal of what used to happen", said Fer, laughing at his brother's expression.

"What do you mean?"

"As kids. She was always following you around and trying to get your attention. Now it's you doing that".

"I'm not doing anything. Just trying to make her feel welcome".

"I saw your face when she got here yesterday. You didn't believe me when I told you how pretty she was…but now you do and want some of her attention".

"Whatever. Besides, she has a boyfriend".

"She does? Her parents said she didn't".

Pedri thought about the messages he saw on your phone when he picked it up. Whoever Carlos was, he was definitely flirting with you and you were flirting back. So boyfriend or not, you had your eyes on someone.

"I thought we were going to read".

"Huh?"

"You're glued to your phone. Who are you talking with?"

"No one", you said. Because you weren't, really. You were just checking if Carlos had answered any of your messages but he hadn't.

He had tested negative and you offered to go back to Castellón to be with him but ever since you said that…silence.

"Is it Carlos?"

"Just leave it! Stop getting in my business!"

You didn't want to raise your voice but your sister was always trying to get you to talk about everything. And you didn't like that. The more people tried to pry into your life, the less you wanted to share any details with anyone. Why couldn't they understand you would talk when you felt comfortable?

When you got to the kitchen, you bumped into Pedri again.

"Are you following me or something?"

"What? I was getting an ice cream from the kitchen. Do you want one? It's getting really hot".

You shook your head, walking into the kitchen when you noticed him grabbing your arm to stop you.

"You don't have to run away from me. I don't bite".

"I guess you are used to the fangirls following you everywhere but I'm not doing anything because of you. I just want to be alone".

Pedri was getting annoyed by the way you treated him.

"Have you seen my sister?"

"Yes, she went inside after letting me know again how much she dislikes me".

"Why would she dislike you?", asked your sister, surprised he was saying that.

"She barely looks at me when I speak to her, always being so…I don't know, arrogant and cold".

"Don't take it personally. She's really shy and struggles with new people".

Pedri nodded. He guessed that made sense.

"And…she wasn't supposed to be here. She was going on a trip with her friends but one is sick and the rest are quarantining. And the guy she likes is a dick".

That caught his attention. "Is he?"

"Yes. He's always leading her on and then stops talking to her for weeks. Until he's bored again and wants some attention. But if I try to tell her she gets mad at me. Like she's right now. And also, she had a bad experience with a football player".

"When? What happened?"

Your sister laughed again, remembering how mad you had been. "She's studying to be a journalist in Castellón and got to do an interview with a Villarreal player for an assignment. He was…well, asshole doesn't begin to cover how he was. So her opinion of you guys is a bit tainted".

Pedri nodded, noticing his ice cream was starting to melt and used that as an excuse to go back to the garden.

He didn't expect you to be so complex. Thinking you were just being bitchy to him for no reason was easier but now he was intrigued. And not just because you were pretty like his brother said.

[You]: do you know if you're going back to Castellón or not yet?

You didn't expect an answer from Carlos, seeing the last 5 texts in the conversation all came from you and he had left you on read all 5 times.

[Carlos]: can you Facetime?

[You]: yes!!

You ran to the bathroom quickly to check how you looked before running back to the bed to answer his call.

"Hey! How are you?"

"Been busy. You?"

"Bored", you laughed. "Can you save me from going on this boring cruise, please?"

Carlos didn't have time to say more before you heard a knock on your door.

"What?"

"We are going shopping", said Pedri. "Do you need anything from the supermarket?"

"I don't know. I'm busy now …".

"We are leaving now. Don't complain later about us getting the wrong milk or whatever".

"Who's that?", asked Carlos.

"The guy who owns this house, he…", another knock. "Pedri! I'm on the phone. Leave me alone!"

"Pedri? Like the Barça player".

"Not like", you said, rolling your eyes. "The Barça player".

Carlos' face annoyed you. He was looking at the screen as if you were stupid.

"Sure. You know famous players and stay in their houses. Right".

You got up and walked to the door, opening it and finding Pedri there, waiting.

"Look", you said, pointing the camera at him.

"Who's that?", tried to ask Pedri before Carlos lost it.

"Oh my God! It's really you. I'm a big fan, man. Can you sign a shirt for me?"

He guessed that was Carlos and between what your sister told him and the way he heard him talk to you, he was already bored of seeing his stupid face.

"I don't have any shirts here. Sorry", he said, tone dry.

"I could send one. Or I can go visit you guys in Barcelona if you are friends".

Pedri's response was to move your phone away from his face and look at your surprised face.

"Do you want something or not? We can't be here all day waiting for you to be done talking to your boyfriend".

"He's not my boyfriend".

"Good. You deserve better", he said, loud enough for Carlos to hear.

When he left, you closed the door and went back to your bed.

"Well, he's a dick".

"I have to go, Carlos".

"Are you coming to Castellón then? I'm bored. No one is here".

Yes. You deserved better.

"No. I'll stay with my family".

You picked up your mask and ran downstairs, hoping they hadn't left yet.

"Can I go with you?", you asked Pedri and his mum, who were on their way out.

"If you want to go, I'll stay. I'm really tired", said his mum, leaving you two alone.

"Are you driving?"

He nodded and you followed him to his car.

"I'm sorry about Carlos. He's…well, he …".

"He's an asshole".

"Yeah", you said, looking away.

"I'm sure you can do better than someone like him".

"You're more optimistic than me, then", you said, laughing sadly.

"Why do you say that?"

"The last months have been tough".

"You could say", he said, making you laugh.

"I mean, apart from that. I'm shy and meeting new people drains my energy. So going to a new uni, and meeting new people, …it was hard enough before lockdowns and all that. And I guess I've been guilty of just settling for the first person who is nice to me a few times".

"It can happen to anyone".

You looked at him and saw no judgment in his face.

"How was it for you? Moving to Barcelona, I mean. Leaving your teammates to meet new ones. I guess it's a bit similar to changing schools".

"It was hard at the beginning. I can be shy too but it's better now. The squad is really nice. I got lucky".

"That's good to hear".

You kept driving to the supermarket in silence but thankfully it was a short drive.

"I have a list", said Pedri showing you his phone, "but get whatever you want".

It was your first time shopping there so you just followed him and kept putting things you liked in the trolley. Then you noticed him moving and hiding behind you.

"What? Did you see an ex or something?", you asked, trying not to laugh.

"Worse, a group of kids with Barça shirts. I don't mind them asking for photos but you are here too".

"I don't mind either…".

"They'll say I was with my girlfriend if they see us together".

"Oh…right. Keep hiding then".

You couldn't help but laugh seeing him scan the aisles before walking.

"Pe…", you started to say his name but were freaked out like him, so you grabbed his arm instead. "Sorry for being so rude to you. I…it's no excuse but I don't know how to interact with people sometimes and get all snappy".

"It's ok. Your sister told me".

She did?

"I'm sorry anyway".

You couldn't see his mouth because of the mask, but the way his eyes wrinkled told you he was smiling and that made you smile back.

Maybe the holidays weren't going to be that bad.

The days after your trip to the supermarket were pretty uneventful. You still had to stay home and spent most of the time in the garden but the tension you felt staying at Pedri's surrounded by people you didn't know disappeared. Your parents were happy to see you were being more confident and just the normal you they knew and loved.

"Now that we have sunscreen there is no excuse. We're working on our tan, little sis".

Yeah, well…that was an excuse because you didn't want to wear a tiny bikini in front of everyone. The beach was one thing but the garden? It felt weird. But only to you because everyone else had been just wearing swimwear all day. Everyone but you.

"I don't know…".

"The green one", she said, ignoring you while she looked into your suitcase. "It looks so good on you".

Tired of the comments about how you were boiling under the clothes, you took the bikini from her hands and put it on.

You wrapped a towel around your body and followed your sister to the garden. Pedri and Fer were in the kitchen making some drinks for everyone. You put the towel on the grass while they were carrying the trays out and if it wasn't for Pedri's dad's good reflexes, the tray his youngest son was holding would have ended up on the floor.

"Careful!"

"Sorry", he said, looking away from where you stood, applying sun cream to your body.

Fer noticed the reason for the near accident and chuckled.

"Ask her if she needs help applying cream on her back".

"Shut up".

But no matter how much he pretended to not be affected by your presence, everyone noticed. And after many whispers that confused you, they managed to find a way to leave you two alone in the garden.

"And then there were two", you joked.

"Yeah", now it was his turn to act shy.

"Am I going to have to throw things at you like when I was a kid? To get your attention?"

"I'd prefer if you tried to kiss me again”, he muttered.

"What did you say?"

"Nothing. I'm just distracted, I guess".

"I think I get now why people get annoyed when I don't look at them while I speak. It's pretty unnerving when you do it".

He took a deep breath and turned to look at you.

"It's hard to look at you right now".

"Am I that ugly? Really?", you joked but he didn't laugh.

He shook his head and you noticed him looking at you. Really looking at you. His eyes going from your head to your toes and then back to your head again.

"I don't want to make you uncomfortable when you notice you're almost making me drool".

"Am I?"

Now he nodded, looking at your face to try and see your reaction.

"I'm not uncomfortable. You can keep looking".

He nodded again. "You can look too".

That made you laugh. "I've been looking for a couple of days. Keep working on the gym. The results aren't half bad".

After your little confession, Pedri put a towel next to yours to lie down. And you both talked about the most random things. Just entertaining each other. His company felt nice. Way nicer than Carlos' ever felt and that only showed you how much you were wasting your time trying to impress him.

"Dinner is almost ready, kids", said your mum. "Why don't you get ready? We're watching a movie afterwards if you want to join us".

Pedri got up and offered you a hand to do the same, which you took. Wrapping your towel around your body again, you followed him inside the house.

It was back to walking in silence until you got to your room.

"See you in a bit", he said when you opened the door. But instead of getting inside and closing it, you grabbed his arm to pull him inside with you. "What …".

"I wanted your attention so I thought, should I throw something at him again? But then I realized it would be rude to do that in your own house and I'm rambling again because being shy sucks".

He was biting his lip, trying not to laugh.

"So anyways, I'll do this instead", you finished saying before kissing him.

"I don't think you have my full attention, sorry. Maybe try again?"

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totheseok · 17 days

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home is where the heart is

Jung Sungchan x reader

synopsis: Sungchan and y/n are family friends but y/n moved abroad and they lost touch, now y/n is back in Korea for uni and it's just so happens sungchan is attending too and now he's helping her readjust and navigate through life in Korea. What could possibly go wrong?

stage four: xxxx-xxxxxxx (written + smau)

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warnings: swearing 😔

Sungchan was seven when y/n moved to Canada.

She had haru to remind her of Sungchan and a handful of memories, but Sungchan had to live every day doing things and going places he used to with y/n, alone.

The first day he walked home from school alone was when it truly hit that his best friend had moved away. That evening he stood outside the empty house across the street to his, wishing a car would pull into the driveway and his friend would jump out with her Eeyore plushie and tell him all about her trip abroad.

But he knew that wouldn't happen. Eeyore was now in HIS backpack. She had haru now.

That thought was somewhat comforting to the young boy, he knew haru would watch over her and he was glad to know she had a piece of him with her.

As time went by, Sungchan's routine changed in accordance with the absence of his friend, and as he 6 found himself thinking about her less and less. However, every time he looked out of his bedroom window, he'd see a constant reminder of her and their friendship.

Truth be told, Sungchan had never truly gotten over his best friend moving away. Even now, as he prepared to leave for university in a week, he couldn't help but hope that by some miracle, y/n ended up going to snu as well.

Sungchan's father studied at Seoul National University in the 90s and later was a professor there for a large part of his childhood. This resulted in Sungchan wanting to study there. Even at seven years old, Sungchan and y/n had made a pact to go the snu together, despite not fully understanding what university was.

Sungchan wondered if y/n decided to uphold the pact and if she even remembered it. He hoped she did, and maybe that was selfish, but he couldn't help it. Then again, what would he do if she DID end up going to snu. Wouldn't they be awkward? They hadn't spoken in eleven years. Would she even recognise him? Maybe he's just somebody that she used to know.

These thoughts had been a common occurrence for him recently and were once again racing through his head as he waited for his ramen to cook while at the convenience store. He was broken out of his train of thoughts by a vibration.

He pulled out his phone to see a message from his mother.

a/n: I liked the concept for this chapter, and things are building up, but is it going too fast? or no? also could've probably written it better, but exam season is upon us 😔

taglist (open): @seungzzzz @wccycc @syupakingcowbaby @billiondollarworth

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fitzrove · 5 months

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Happy things (because I've been moping recently and decided to stop akdlödlf)

- A week until the holidays!!!!!!! I get to see my friends at home and my family over the break >:] I also organised cards and have bought novelty chocolates for my family akdldlfl (Germans may think theyre just normal but to me they're funny)

- I have chocolate in my cupboard!!

- So many fun books (not "work" books) waiting to be read over the break 🥹

- I'm going to get Hungarian chimney cake at the xmas market if I have time to go there before I fly home

- I get to fly home and consume blueberry juice on the plane 😌😌😌😌😌😌😌😌 my favourite 😭 its almost cringe how much I like it but I'm not ashamed xD

- I get to go to the airport! (I actually kind of like airports, they make me feel like a glamorous international businesswoman and/or adventurer 😭😂)

- My room/apartment (omfg its literally like. the size of my previous room) is clean rn and I changed my sheets<3 cozy

- My internet just got way better since I got a proper router today! Can actually download pdfs bigger than 5 mb now akdlld

- After being in Germany for just 3 months, I'm settled at my cool university, I have a really cool part-time job, and I've made friends in my classes in a way I never did in undergrad 🥹 I've also explored 3 different cities and seen 5 different musical/theatre things!

- My classes are really interesting!!!

- I'm getting a feel for what I want to do after uni. I think going abroad to study was important in showing me that you can go live abroad lol (and within the EU it's not markedly more expensive than moving to a new city within your home country). I think most of the jobs I'm interested in will have me go abroad again... 👀

- I've been exploring and adventuring so much in general during my time here!!

- I got a really nice comment on a fanfic from last year :]

- All my fears about not being able to make it living on my own (incl. being scared of not knowing how to cook) were unfounded. Plus nobody else has to eat what I make so I can make everything the way I like even if it's "weird" 😌 (which mostly means ingredients being separated and most veggies being raw 😭😭 Like I won't put carrots or bell peppers in a sauce or soup or anything, I will just eat them raw on the side of whatever I made. I love cronching on a big fresh red bell pepper while my pasta water is boiling 😭 recommend)

- Nightwish<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3_3

That is to say, it's haaard to light a candle easy to curse the dark instead 🎶🎵 so I'll try not to be hard on myself for moping sometimes. Especially since I have demonstrable mental illness and am somehow winging it/making it through full time study and side employment without medication that I might benefit from pang9dg9kf

#how is it that every time i actively do something to feel better/try enough things..... i actually feel better #for reference this time it was promising to myself to quit doomscrolling + listening to Important Music + putting on a dress at 2 am :')#personal

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into-september · 6 months

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For the "always wondered" questions: What's the meaning of "into September"?

...so in those halcyon days of 2011, I left uni and got my first adult job, which as it happened involved working with teenagers who were liable to be on the internet and also knew English. My old Livejournal - at that point some nine years old - had some information that if you dug deep enough, could've identified me IRL, and since I was at that point in a fandom where I didn't really have any friends (but for the first and this far only time, a nemesis!), I decided to quietly move house.

This happened during a time of my life that was defined by melacholy. My only ambition in life had been to study at a university, and now I had no idea what more there was. Eight years after I'd moved out on my own for the first time - most of which had been spent in a Real City, and two of them abroad - I was moving back to my rural home district, to a place larger than my hometown but even further away from the rest of civilisation. It felt like a regression, but also of waiting, since the only reason I was there was because that was where I had the job offer - I was sure I'd be out of there come June 2012. (spoiler: I wasn't)

So I wanted this new Livejournal for this new stage of my life to reflect that juxtaposition of something new beginning in a place where there is no future. And, well: September is both the time when the wheel starts turning again for those of us in the public school system, as well as heralding the inevitable fact that summer has ended and winter is coming. (it's allegedly called something like "the second new year's" in France, if Arte is to be believed)

I had a legit list of new journal handles until I landed on "days of september", which I changed somewhat when I made this tumblr a year or so later. (I had some idea that I didn't want this to be traced back there, but I can't remember why) This was towards the end of The Great Fandom Migration, and that second LJ never saw much use since the handful of friends who followed it soon enough left LJ behind. The most recent post is from New Year's Day 2017.

Yes, my default userpic was the same as my icon on here. Yes, this was also a refleciton of the kind of feeling that dominated my life back then.

...so that was a whole story, the moral of which is that the month of September came to symbolise a transcient stage of my life during which everything slowed down and I had no idea where I'd go next, because I'd reached the finish line and I was in the exact same place as where I'd begun.

Also this song.

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#yes i love talking about myself #blah #fandom history #me #music #ask game

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awesomefringey · 8 months

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I'm very confused with Louis' team

There has been no advertisting for his concert in Athens and us greek fans were discussing that we are sad that his concert is not selling enough and we were sad that the theatre will not be full enough. We even thought he might cancel the concert or move to a smaller venue. And now they changed the venue to much bigger one (i think its the biggeset in his EU tour) and the concert is in two weeks). A lot of greek fans were selling their tickets because they cannot attend due to uni exams (its exam season in the country and exam dates were announced recently). Also there was not much activity from fans from abroad attending. Now some fans from abroad are selling their tickets because they wanted an intimate show in the original ancient theatre. In the website you book tickets yesterday it was showing yellow availability, which is when there are a lot of tickets available. And today they changed the venue from a thetre with 4k capacity to a venue with 25k+

Huh. That’s very interesting. 🫤 I did wonder about the short notice. If it had been for the „phenomenal demand“ as per @lthqofficial it would’ve sold out immediately. Also I imagined many were specifically fascinated by the location.

But ticket sales always confuse me. After what happened with Louis‘ Asian tour leg, I feel like there is so much we don’t know about what makes a show happen or not.

Maybe in the end the Theatro Petras wasn’t certain they could handle Louis‘ crowd and asked the artist to go to a bigger place that’s better staffed and equipped. LOL.

But all jokes aside, if you’re going to see Louis, I hope you have the BEST time and fingers crossed the place will be packed or at least so loud you think it was bursting.

Theatro Petras

Plateia Nerou

#ask #fitfwt athens

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wistful-academia · 20 days

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if you get this, answer with three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs! anon or not, doesn't matter, let's get to know the person behind the blog <3 (absolutely no pressure)

oh i like these things!!

1. one of my favourite things to do is swing dance (mainly lindy hop but also charleston and collegiate shag), i started it when i started uni and i love it so so so much i’ve made so many friends there!!! i mostly follow but i started leading recently and i’ve been having so much fun switching, i’m gonna miss my uk swing dance buddies when i go on year abroad

2. i lived right by the sea my whole life until moving to uni (you can see it from my bedroom window and hear the waves from the back door) and i cannot imagine permanently living anywhere inland, when i don’t come home from uni for a while i have to take a trip or two to the coast over there cos i miss the sound and sight of the sea too much

3. i don’t think i’ve ever fallen out or argued with any friend since i was like 6 or 7 (and even then it was just one friend who could be a bit dramatic, it never lasted longer than a day), like i’ve had the same best friend for 16.5 years and i can’t think of a single time we’ve argued - i’ve seen people say that’s weird and not right (not about us specifically but in general about never ever arguing with your best friend) but i never understood that? i get that you can argue and make up and it be good but we just… never have anything to argue about

#i fear that last one could come off as sort of holier-than-thou so let me just say that is not my intention at all #idk maybe i’ve just happened to find only remarkably chill friends my whole life?#ask

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kyemeruth · 6 months

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Rents and wants

It's been a while, Tumblr.

There's a lot to talk about, to digest, to rant, to basically dump here. The year's about to end and I am not really sure if I’m moving forward or I’m stuck somewhere. Sometimes I feel like life’s really great and then there are times where doubt creeps in. Those days were frustrating, draining really. I feel like I’m going through the motions. I would have wanted to talk to a professional, just to check if the gears are still in place. Hehe.

Those gloomy times challenge me but there’s always that glimmer of hope that we’d always see better days ahead. Prayers, that constant reminder that God holds you, it makes greater sense to me now. I remember I felt that when I was also struggling with professional growth in 2018. I was 25 then. Probably it’s age too, 32 this year and musing about the future can make you anxious. In the end, faith keeps me grounded.

The past few months were quite testy. I’m rethinking this office work I agreed to. It’s taking precious time from me to do research and pursue other worthwhile things. It’s also taking some toll on my mental health. At some point, I felt so angry because an office colleague has been taking advantage of the leniency of our working relationship. They’re basically tampering on time records to show they’re not late to the office or that they’re present even when they’re not. Add to the injury was the poor quality of work. What really triggered me was the fact that they’re checking our work and the time we spend in the office, when they were the ones doing the damage. That person resigned, forgave them, but the “inis” stayed because I thought the whole thing’s resolved.

More recently, such issues resurfaced. This time alleged “chismis” as the culprit. It’s really the littlest of things. I don’t really like these kinds of tensions because it veers away from the work we should do. We’re also beginning a reorganization. There’s a lot to envision and hope for, but until these creases are resolved, I’m not sure how change can be managed.

I like the work I do, but doing PhD is more important to me now. I want to study, to learn, to write. Abroad that is. The goal is lofty. Targeting a top uni in Europe and another in the US, but hey what stops us from dreaming this big. The push and pull comes from these priorities. I know I can do a good job with the reorg, I still have a lot to give. But I also know that I don’t work on my PhD now, I’d be resenting this decision and always going back to the what-ifs.

It’s scary though. Write a proposal, get someone to recommend you for grad school, talk to a potential advisor. Living abroad is the least of my worries. The preparations are what scares me because I have to put myself out there again and pour heart and soul with 50-50 chance of making it vs not making it. The potential failure scares me.

And then of course I have to think about the future for our family, for my parents in particular. Papa’s about to retire in a year or two and they would need a place to settle down. They want to travel while they’re strong. That we can work on. Buying a house for them is what fills my mind recently. Our rent here will go up next year and they won’t be selling the house to us because the next generation owners have future plans. In my mind, we have at least a year to look for a permanent house and put together enough money to make sure it’s ours. As the eldest, the responsibility falls on my shoulders. My brothers are getting married in the next two years, our youngest sister’s planning to work abroad and prepare for it, and my other sister would most likely be in between jobs next year given thesis work. So yeah, exciting times, mixed feelings too. I’m expected to step up.

Amid all these, I thank God’s perfect timing. I did not expect the promotion late this year and I kind of was annoyed at first because I don’t want to be beholden to someone. But then again, you always thank whatever’s on your way. It seems that the promotion’s for this bigger responsibilities next year. My return service ends this coming February so I am relatively free to pursue my PhD. I am entrusted with bigger stuff at the office, commended for good work, so yeah, the pressure is there, but we soldier on.

The memes had it right. I thought the 30s were more smooth-sailing. Being born in a middle class family with no intergenerational wealth, in a third world country, faced with inflation and less security, it could really get frustrating and lonely. Sometimes I just want to sit down and stare, maybe things would rewind and we’d be back at least to days where dreaming of buying a house would be much more achievable.

You can’t blame us for enjoying an overpriced coffee and healing our inner child once in a while. The world’s in flames and rents continue to rise. Some luxury might just keep us going and help us survive.

#life #life updates #precarity

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m-jay-gee · 1 year

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i dont know how to word this but it's been on my mind recently. context: i moved from a pretty generally bigoted school in a more working class area to a more progressive one in a very rich area for sixth form.

now, the main difference i have noticed other than the glaringly obvious ones are my own emotional expression. it's like ive gotten worse in an environment that's so unconditionally forgiving and welcoming. at first i sort of put it down to me being shy and needing time to open up as i got more friends but it's been over a year, i have really solid friends and i still have a worse time than other people emotionally expressing myself.

i think that at my old school it meant so much more to have someone you could be comfortable around and a lot of us had similar less than average backgrounds so we had that other layer to bond on. but like here everyone is so "you can always come to me to talk" and although the sentiment is there it isn't the same.

like today for example i was talking about how i got an email that i should apply for a scholarship bc im likely eligible for it and i was trying to complete my application during lunch. at the same time my friend who is so lovely but is a bit blind to our class divide is going through her photos to Just Me showing me her family and i have to keep saying give me a moment i need to sort out financial information for my education.

but like even though all these people ive met, bonded, CAMPED, been to pride, gotten blackout drunk with, i feel like there is a subconscious blockage in my brain that refuses to let me open up to them and be truly vulnerable. and i feel like it's class related even if there's not a real logical reasoning behind it.

this whole post is kind of a rant but also not really. just experience ig. feeling really disconnected from my peers post-ucas because of the class divide becoming so much more obvious. people talking about crazy work experience, volunteering abroad, talking to oxbridge advisors that are just friends with their parents, etc. showed me how different my experience of getting into unis will be and how difficult it's going to be in life.

tfw reality hits you

#dont really know how to tag this #ucas #ucas application #university #sixth form #classism #emotional vulnerability #these tags are so cringe wtf lol #rant #rant post #my post

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euphoricfilter · 7 months

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okay another university update!!! insanity edition ‼️

if you’ve been on my page for a while you might know i moved abroad when i was younger, went to school abroad all that business and recently moved back to the uk— so there’s this guy on my course, and we’ve spoken a couple of times, we sat together today, all cool and fun. i’ll be real i don’t even know his name but he’s super chill

when we were walking out the building i saw shanghai written on his bag. and obviously i’m like ?? but my eyesight is bad so i couldn’t read the rest and there wasn’t like a school logo or anything i could recognize that was big enough

and i didn’t wanna be like ☝️ um question, you didn’t go to school in shanghai right? because what if he didn’t. i would cry. but also if he did that’s actually insane that the both of us went to school there, then both ended up in this kinda unknown? (if you’re not familiar with the uk or this area) city, doing the same course at the same time

like what are the chances?? really low but now i’m not doubting it.

i also had a crazy dream once before i started uni that randomly i’d meet someone that went to the same school as me, just they attended the beijing campus and now i’m getting flashbacks to that dream

#university updates 🌟

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httpiastri · 9 months

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Hello love!

It's been a little while, so first of all-Happy belated birthday! I saw the messages on the day and wanted to write a little something, but then I got so busy 🙈 so I wish you all the best, for all of your wishes to be fulfilled and a great year overall!

I really like the new layout, it seems so calm 🩵

I feel like my life has been so busy lately, I barely had time to catch my breath. But for now, I am incredibly happy to be here and getting to know me again in a completely different environment. My host family is so lovely and last weekend I met some nice au pairs that live really close to me, so now I am not even alone anymore haha!

Being here also means that I am kinda always out and about, so I only watched fp3 yesterday and the start of the f2 race today. It's a shame it got cancelled so soon :( but safety first of course!

I won't be able to watch the F1 race tomorrow, but I am still hoping for some Lando magic. I really want him to win the race, but I also want to be there and watch it live? But it will be Max's win anyways lol!

In the last ask you said you were planning dropping out of uni- I am sorry to hear that, even though its probably for the best if you don't like the subjects. I don't know how people react in your country with news like that, but just remember that it's most important to be happy with what you do! (Who knows? Maybe you want to do a year abroad somewhere as well?)

I will probably catch up on all the writing you uploaded in the last couple of days and go to bed then- I am exhausted 😴

-✨

love! hello!! thank you so much, i hope you get a lovely year too 💘 and thank you! my old theme was so random shssjhs i do enjoy this a bit more !!

aw it makes me so glad to hear that you are happy and that the people around you are good to you. and i love the positive mindset! it must be really challenging but you’re doing so well 🥹 and oooo you met some people!! that’s lovely !!! are they from a lot of different countries or is it all kind of similar? if you get what i mean shsksjs

yeah it must be hard to keep track of all racing when you’re so busy… i was disappointed about them cancelling f2 but i do think it was a good choice, it didn’t seem very safe. it just sucks that they can’t like postpone sessions instead of cancel them :( like i get that it’s because of the schedule on the track but it still sucks! for everyone probably

!! crossing my fingers for lando tomorrow !!!! hoping for maybe a little rain (but not so much that it’s dangerous) for tomorrow’s f2 feature so arthur can get some easy climbing…. pls he deserves some points 🙏🙏🙏

hmm well in my country i guess it’s kinda like… not super weird to not go to uni? or at least it’s common to take a few years off to work and stuff after high school. the good thing about sweden is that school doesn’t cost anything so i have no debts and won’t lose any money for dropping out, which i guess is a big problem for people dropping out in other countries. we even get paid to go to school here, and tbh i was gonna use that money to pay for rent but that’s not happening now…. so well 🫠 but yes thank you, i will try to remember that!! <3

to be honest, i’ve thought a lot about moving to another major city or even going abroad, because recently i feel like this place isn’t for me in some way. i applied (and got accepted) to a school in the second biggest city, but i have too many responsibilities here this year that i just can’t escape from so it just wouldn’t work out 🥲 but i really do think that moving abroad is going to be the goal for me for the future! idk how but im gonna try to make it happen lmao!! i shall take inspiration from your braveness 🥰🤭

awh, i hope you get some good sleep and dream sweet dreams of our boys!! 😚😚😚

#random but as i was watching the f2 practice yesterday with my dad #they zoomed in on arthur and i went ‘awww sweetie!!’#and my dad asked who it was (despite the fact that they literally put up a name tag 🙄) and i told him that it was lil leclerc #and then my dad proceeded to say that he was cute???#hell yes you’re very right #arthur supremacy #it’s not like i haven’t shown him tons of pics and videos of arthur #like i thought he would recognize him but apparently not 😶#anyways #love hearing from you darling <3 #hope things continue to go okay 🥰#asks!#anon!#✨!

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candygalaxyyy · 1 year

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And since I’m throwing out ideas for gl pairings I need the SIZZY girls to get their own show!

I would personally like to see CiizeJan and JaneAye, but to be honest it could go whichever way and i would be satisfied. I JUST WANT TO SEE MY GIRLS IN MORE LEADING ROLES AND IN A GL, TOGETHER. Someone get me into gmmtv’s A&R because they are really missing out by not giving these girl a show. THEY COULD LITERALLY MAKE A GIRL GROUP GL LIKE COME ONNNN. Or something else, but I don’t want a school/university one because we are already getting 23.5 (plus tu and prim would fit a university concept better). i have an idea and I’ll just use the ‘actresses names + character’ to make it easier.

Okay so here’s my vision. It could be an office romance thing. Not the GAP, CEO x employee kind, but it’s still an office romance just a weaker power dynamic. So Jan’s character/cht (age 28). Is an editor at a fashion house/magazine within a media company, she’s your typical chic, cold and levelheaded fashion girlie. She went to a top university and has a master’s in marketing, media and e-commerce. She’s hard working and competent, and is striving to one day become the editor in chief of their division. Only child. Online shopping and drinking wine are her favorite pass times. Loves jazz and indie music. Hates any form of physical activity, would much rather binge reruns of her favorite lakorn. Never had much interest in dating or romance so her sexuality is ??? to others (family & friends), but she’s lesbian. And the new employee is Ciize. Ciize’s character (age 23) recently graduated and starts out as an assistant editor, who obviously gets paired with Jan cht, because Jan’s previous assistant quit (Jan’s cht was overbearing). Did international economics + a year abroad. She is bubbly, extroverted, creative and competitive. She loves fashion and is always down for adventure. Ex-football athlete (soccer for Americans) when she was in high school. She is always branching out and trying new things, her goal in life is to one day create her own sustainable clothing brand. She’s smart but a little disorganized, but it’s okay because she just started out (she’s a quick learner though). Youngest of 3, older brother and sister. Loves going to the beach. Strong dislike for spicy food, picky eater. She’s pan and has been in one relationship during uni that ended kinda messy. The perfect grumpy x sunshine couple who grow closer as they work together and start secretly dating at work.

So moving on to JaneAye. Jane’s character (age 28) is a curator at an arts and culture museum. She studied either contemporary art or cross cultural management, or both you know double major. Jane’s character is a very expressive person, she loves cats and is an avid movie watcher (she loves horror & sci-fi). Blunt and doesn’t sugarcoat anything, can’t stand passive aggressive people. To her, family and friends are the most important things, oldest of 5. She’s very diligent and loyal, the most dependable person, if you were caught in a difficult situation she’s the one to call. She has her fair share of experience with relationships, most of them ended badly so she’s more cautious but still a hopeless romantic. Loves movie dates (with friends or partner). Not a fan of PDA or skinship. Openly bisexual, came out when she was 18. Aye’s character (age 24) is talkative, intuitive and easygoing, she doesn’t like confrontation but always ends up in such situations. She is an ambivert, she likes to read people’s vibes and energy before getting close to them. She studied communication arts at a well-known university. Loves outdoor activities and enjoys fitness, but also likes some alone time cooking or reading a book. She’s been an athlete since primary (i.e. middle school), she plays for a woman’s football club now. Also an aspiring actress and is a influencer. Coffee lover. Sensitive to others opinions, people pleaser. She is the middle child. Was comphet and in a hetero relationship before, but is now a baby lesbian. Jane’s cht meets Aye’s cht. At a local supermarket where they had an altercation over something. Of course Aye’s cht was being passive aggressive, while Jane’s character was with all the smoke so they naturally don’t like each other. With the bad first impression they keep bumping into each other in undesirable situations, making them dislike each other even more. Until Aye’s cht is selected as an influencer for an event at Jane’s museum and they have to work together. A classic bad first impression, enemies to lovers, and slow burn romance.

Jan and Jane’s cht are childhood besties, they’re neighbours as their childhood homes are 4 minutes away from each other (walking distance). They have an interesting dynamic, they balance each other out very well. They are kinda like a platonic grumpy x sunshine. They’ve been friends for 20 years and went to the same high school and university. They share the same birth date and year, just different months. Jan’s cht supported and was there for Jane’s cht when she came out to her somewhat conservative parents, she even stayed with Jan’s family for a while. Jane cht is literally the only person who knows that Jan cht is a lesbian. They are platonic soulmates. They both come from a traditional upper-middle class background, Jan cht parents are less conservative and considered more ‘liberal’. Ciize and Aye’s cht were in different high schools and were rivals in the same after-school football club. They stopped being rivals when Ciize’s cht stopped taking football as seriously, so they eventually became casual friends. They went to the same university but were in different faculties and friend groups, so they barely interacted. Ciize’s is from an upper class household. Aye’s cht is from a middle class household. They become closer due to their respective relationships with Jan and Jane’s cht.

I feel like this could be a cute, rom-com fluff series about being a young working woman striving to achieve her hopes and dreams, while navigating friendship and love. Consisting of mild angst and a happy ending. A female studded cast, with little to no male characters that are significant to the romance plot (I could allow 1 (maybe 2 if I’m feeling generous) since gmmtv loves men so much- not including family members or friends). Anyways someone needs to make a novel for them and the people at gmmtv needs to make this happen somehow.

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kissmejusttokiss · 2 years

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Steddie Uni Au master-post:

Disclaimer: this is very much the most self indulgent thing I have ever done (apart from Strangerdale). No substance. Only vibes. original twitter thread can be found here.

A modern day AU where Steve and Robin are exchange students coming for their year abroad at currently-unnamed-generic-almagamation-of-the-best-parts-of-student-life university in the UK. To help them settle in, they are buddied up with Eddie and Nancy, who are American students who are studying full time at the university. No Upside Down. No deaths. Everyone is alive and they are thriving!

The whole thing is basically Steddie, Ronance and Jargyle falling in love and hanging out set to the chaos that is English student life. (Maybe a little angst when the exchange students have to leave but nothing that can’t be resolved.)

Which brings me to, the shenanigans:

Steve dragging Eddie into clubs that he couldn’t have been paid money to go near, let alone into, and Eddie letting him because, frankly, “have you seen his face?!?”

(Which brings me to the inspiration behind this entire thing.) Eddie standing dejected in the middle of the dance-floor while Steve Harrington puts his whole stevussy into Body (Remix) despite knowing, at (a generous) max, 50% of the words. And he’s rolling his eyes and pretending to hate it but he still goes back every. single. week. because Steve asks him to.

(The next day he turns up to the D&D society meeting and one of the other members is like “Eddie, I swear I saw you in Popworld last night?” And he has to lie through his teeth because the alternative is admitting that he’s so gone for Steve that a single eyelash bat is enough to make him walk into hell (and what is Popworld if not hell?)

If you wanted to, you could actually track the progress of their relationship through the many confession posts on the Facebook page submitted about the Yank and his Goth BF throughout the year. Not that either of them have the self-awareness to realise the posts are about them.

And while we’re on the subject of the confession page, we need to talk about the worm incident. (Shout out to @grandmastattoo for bringing this into existence.) One fateful night, Steve tries to impress Eddie by doing the worm in the middle of the dance floor. Eddie, also very drunk at the time, takes this as a challenge and starts doing the worm next to him. They both claim not to remember this but, it’s OK! Robin filmed the whole thing.

The next-day a confession is submitted about the incident and the boys are dubbed “worm wankers.”

Steve joins one of the sports teams (I know it should be basketball but what if I make it football? What then? Maybe he’s inspired by an American coach who has recently done a similar move as him?!) and despite being twenty, he still has to do the same stupid shit as the freshers. Which leads to a very interesting night where Eddie is relaxing only to be greeted by a very drunk Steve wearing one of the varsity cheerleader’s uniforms and, well, he is well and truly fucked then isn’t he…

(Steve’s heterosexuality is nothing compared to the strength of five cheeky vimtos and the sight of Eddie, drenched in sweat and glowing under the red light as he dances)

Prank #1: Eddie tells Steve, very earnestly, that there is a tradition on campus of saying a prayer to the Stagecoach gods to make guarantee that your bus turns up on time. He always gets him to say it at the perfect time so the bus turns up right after he’s finished. (In reality, Eddie just has the Stagecoach app on his phone.) He manages to keep this up for almost two months before Steve finally gets bus with Robin and Nancy and finds out the truth.

Eddie works at a cafe most afternoons and it just happens to be the one cafe that Steve insists has the best vibes for studying. Despite the fact that whenever he’s there, he gets zero studying done because he’s too busy staring at Eddie. But who can blame him! Eddie always ties his hair up while he’s working it would be a crime not to stare at the tattoo that creeps up the side of his neck and curls behind his ear. Or the stray hairs that fall over his face. Or his body in his uniform…

And here is a list shared to the group chat by Nancy&Robin after a couple of months of these shenanigans:

The gang go to this one bar that has a bucking bronco and the image of Eddie on the back of the bull definitely… does things to Steve.

A fateful night out where Steve is at his absolute sluttiest (affectionate) like he's dancing in away that might be breaking laws about how hot you can be in public and accepting any/all attention that comes his way, just having a Great time. Meanwhile, Eddie is just kind of vibing at the edge of the crowd. That is until the night is drawing to an end and Steve comes storming over pouting about how Eddie hasn't danced with him yet. he's got lipstick smeared all around his mouth, so Eddie makes a joke about it (to hide the fact he's definitely staring at his lips now) and Steve just shrugs, kisses Eddie really messily on the mouth and then says "and now we match can you come and dance with me now?”

and oops, I ended up writing this up

Halloween is a week long event thanks to both Robin and Eddie’s instance with different costumes for every night they go out. There’s a mix of group costumes and couple costumes but, most importantly, one of them involves Eddie wearing red lipstick and getting a little bit of revenge.

The first exam period comes around and the group commandeer one of the big tables at the library and basically move in for forty-eight hours to revise/do coursework. Nancy is in charge of keeping people on track (she’s kind of scary when she wants to be) while Arygle makes it his job to supply snacks and rewards for each time milestone they reach. And, even when one of them finishes, they stay so that no one gets left by themselves.

(They take it turns to have breakdowns as well which is helpful in terms of managing the group)

#Steddie #long post #steddie uni au

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daedalusdavinci · 1 year

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Put “📓” or some other version of a book emoji into my inbox and I’ll explain the plot of a fanfiction that I haven’t written but daydream about.

ive spent a lot of time recently trying to remember the hs fics i always dreamed id write one day, but lost motivation for before i ever could. i feel like i used to have endless inspiration and i guess im hoping reflecting on that will help me reconnect with it now

i think i wanted to write a collegestuck fic, where dave and sollux were roommates and dave had a shitty job at a coffeeshop and that he swore was basically step one to becoming a dj because they had live music sometimes and thats *almost* a club (but he doesnt want to be a dj, bro was a dj, hes studying archaeology and hes never been happier and he spends too many hours bent over textbooks in the library with aradia just because he loves it, its everything he wanted when he was a kid and it feels like freedom in his hands, but jade asks him what he wants to be and he says the sickest dj there is, and college is just to tide him over until then, and john asks him what he wants to be and he says a director, so he can make movies even shittier than johns dumbass favorites, and rose asks him what he wants to be and he says solluxs sugar baby, because if you dont admit you want something its harder for people to take it from you)

i dont know what the ship wouldve been, im sure there were times where i was full on applebee2 to the end and times where it wouldve been dvekat and so on and so forth, but i know that dave moved across several states so he could go to school with his friends and i know that he and sollux were assigned to the same dorm and get along in the way that only two irritating nerdboys confined to one room can (which is to say that theyre besties and also they hate each other), because i feel very passionately about sollux and dave being friends just as much as dave and aradia being friends.

i think it would be funny if eridan was studying abroad and was one of those annoying europeans that cant go ten seconds without shitting on america (why are you here then, karkat asks him every ten seconds) and was generally just. literally so insufferable but also had no real idea what he wanted to do w his life so he was just majoring in business even tho he hated it (he switches to history, eventually, and is much happier for it), and i think he studies at daves coffeeshop and gets the kind of coffee that makes dave think hes a pretentious hipster (he is), only he doesnt actually do a lot of studying at all and spends most of his time checking out dave bc hes stupid, and instead of flirting with him he insults him constantly, bc hes stupid. dave literally hates him.

on the side i think id want to spend some time exploring dave reconnecting with rose as long lost siblings and john and jade navigating that weird space of "okay ive known you online forever but this is what knowing you in real life is like huh". i think id go jadrose for this au and emphasize jade having a very complicated relationship with romance bc who am i if i dont make someone aspec. john burns out bad towards the end of their first year and is in his depression era

but yeah. all that, i guess. i came up w a lot of ideas for college aus when i was finishing up community college bc i was so excited to get out and go to uni and so theres a lot of like, idea scraps floating around and maybe someday id like to do something with that, especially now that ive gone to uni and know what its actually like

#roomfulloferidans #asks #my fics #ig #itd probably be erdave bc ofc it would be bc theyre sooo funny #but mostly its about dave to me bc everything is about dave to me bc hes my little guy

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rhaenyras · 7 months

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I recently decided to move abroad after finishing uni because I realized my country doesn’t have much to offer sadly. I am Bulgarian so I have the privilege of race + EU passport when moving abroad but I also am aware of the fact that I will be seen as an “undesirable” immigrant in comparison to say Germans or Swiss to some Westerners. I know this may seem silly but I would really like to ask for some input as to how to decide where to move to? The obvious choice for me seems like UK/Ireland since I don’t know any languages apart from my own and English, but I also heard you can find jobs easily with just English in countries like Netherlands or Belgium. On the other hand I have always been very drawn to Latin America, I know some basic Spanish and feel like I could learn it quickly, but the idea of moving there is obviously crazy but then again I wonder if it’s like, now or never you know? The amount I have saved up would allow me to live longer and more comfortably in a country like Colombia (which is my number one choice for South America) than in Netherlands or Ireland although the plane ticket would be much more expensive. I guess I just wanted to ask if you have any advice on how to choose these thinngs? Like which factors to consider etc <3 Thank you

oh my, what a dilemma you're facing! honestly, i may have moved out of my country but there was no other choice for me if not germany, since german is the only language i can confidently speak apart from italian (useless considering that was the very country i was leaving) and english, but again, after brexit, the uk has become off limits. so it was germany for me because of the language, most definitely, but also because the job market is stellar and they have a minimum wage (as opposed to italy lol) and the civil rights agenda is a lot more advanced than the country's i left. i know that latin america is absolutely breathtaking under so many aspects and the living costs are pretty affordable but are you so sure that you're gonna find better working and living conditions there compared to the ones in your country? plus, your EU passport isn't gonna be very helpful considering you're leaving europe and will probably need to file a whole lot of paperwork and visa applications in order to stay there legally. i know the immigration laws there are a lot more liberal than europe's but idk. it's still too far away to actually be sure of what to expect. not to mention all the money you'll have to waste on endless overseas flights, of course. those are pricey everywhere in the world. so I'd rule that one out, if i were you, personally.

second, germany was a good choice for me because there's a large community of italians living here, so i knew that it would be easier for my monolingual husband to get a job and some basic directions even without speaking a word of german (or english), as there are so many italian-run businesses around here. connecting with a community of fellow countrymen and -women might truly help with starting off in the new country, and also with the entire integration process.

if you wanna avoid germany because of the language barrier, i believe belgium, the netherlands, denmark, sweden etc. are where it's at right now. the climate is cold and the food is worse but the residents will use english almost interchangeably with their own native language, which is something that cannot be said of germany, at least not for the northern area where i live. the quality of life is the highest in those countries and they're still relatively close to the rest of europe, so it won't be such a drastic change of scenery that'll leave you totally isolated from your family and loved ones back in bulgaria. i know the cost of life is higher but so are the paychecks. if i were you, that's where I'd go. and don't be too selfconscious about being a foreigner in a new country. most of these countries I've named are pretty multicultural and open to diversity, so I don't see why you won't fit in right away 💖🙏🏻 good luck with your future, whatever your choice will be

#ask #anon #anonymous

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