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You know I just went around and picked up things that fell out of Dad's van when he was out rambling.
#You can say my ego gets in the way but i#t feels often like an offshoot of my humility#yet you know I am just like....doing things like existing sometimes here and it just....well I don't like being at people's beck and call#mac book....damn nigga#oddly I needed that right then though#sorry for our beautiful reptile eyes#sometimes that spirit if the night fucks with myself but the other side of it is do good#you could call all the chess pieces pawns because it is the game master who is king#so my sez puts women under spells#I don't do it on purpose most of the time#I just want to beach and sir puff a lot#but...yeah like it's important for you and I to hang out as only some kind of bipolar siamese twins would#and on a level like titles and certifications don't amount to much#but like....I did tell you how I would do you if it came down to it#And I think you got off knowing how bad I wanted it yet still on the outside showed a cool control about things#but after a while it became like when you drive and don't really think about it#it's not really Isis it's isis#like..... we've haven't been left alone in a room in years together#this is what I call a loaded opportunity#even the weird pa account is sending caricatures of thr van man#and I will tell you what#that son of a bitch did paint a mickey pitching#and I did pop a minnie after all#....I like the big bows.... they're sexy#do you out everything under bbc with us primarily or bwc#or guy strokes bbc while he watches two women#the butterfly effect#except you didn't like change my history you just pointed out that's you there a bunch#so you know how surreal it is to realize it's you but not just you the insane worker or demure teacher#or post man kidnapper....although I wouod have liked to see you try to hold me prisoner with nothing but you and your....powers
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stop posting random anons and conversations with people idc about that shit post content
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ta daaaa
(….also pls read the tags anon, they’re for you)
#nooo I won’t stop completely i’m sorry#i’m working on a thing rn but can’t work on it bc I don’t have my computer and my only way to further it rn is answering asks and aaaahhh#but also you can block the ‘hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit’ tag if you don’t want to see non-hall of fame posts#and I do have one hhof worthy/legendary post publish every morning#so yeah I get these asks often enough for me to say i’m sorry :/#and like I won’t stop completely#but yeah it’s too many i’m sorry#also I only post like 1% of the asks I get :/#so yeah#also this is the kind of ask that would lower my ego and make my stomach drop to thank you anon lol#*so#hellsite god complex#poof it’s gone#ty anon#ask#the hellsite answers#anonymous#hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit
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the idea 😔 of having a playful rivalry with sero 😔 while sleeping with him 😔 gonna cry
#telling him every time ur gonna make a list of improvements for him#joking u can only sleep with him after someone else has riled you up bc he can’t get u going#(lying)#every time hes saying he forgot how bad sex with u was (HES LYINGGGG)#oh my god the dirty talk#if u moan he accuses you of actually enjoying yourself with a fucking SLY SMILE#and even if u say ur faking for his ego YOU BOTH KNOW#god i just love being mean#but ITS THE WAY U BKTH KNOW UR SO OBSESSED WITH EACH OTHER#anyway#in my mind this only works with sewo my bewoved#「mercury speaks」#「mercury thirsts」#「sero」
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that feeling when you get advice from someone who you know is well-meaning and has good intentions....but it's just the most allistic, neurotypical, and/or abled advice you have ever heard and completely invalidates the point you're trying to make about why you struggle to do the thing in the first place.
they're telling you to "do it in this specific way that is completely opposite of how you physically/mentally work" for example, make eye contact/read people's facial expressions and intentions! but you're autistic. initiate verbal conversation and don't be shy! but you're nonverbal or semispeaking. get out of the house more and participate in these physical activities! but you're physically disabled. Just Be Yourself! but you have DID/OSDD/other personality disorder. etc.
i'm sorry. I know you're just trying to help. I appreciate it, really. but it's all things i've heard before and none of it helps me specifically. I have tried (maybe even still try out of habit) and learned I can't just do those things. they don't work for me or cause more issues. practice isn't the issue. not everyone can simply willpower through everything. but thanks for trying 😔✊️
#autistic#autism things#autism#actually autistic#adhd#audhd#neurodivergent#disablity#disabled#too tired to tag other thinhs sorry thats all you get#lee rambles#that feeling when you also just have to pretend to accept their advice and move on because people get so upset when you dont take it#i lesrned if i tell people their advice doesnt suit me and my unique circumstances then they feel bad that they didnt help#they want you to do it anyway. even if you cant. pretend you do or say thanks and move on. but it gets annoying hearinf the same stuff#over and over. more expectations on you. more pressure to do things in ways everyone else can but you cannot...#when will the advice be lee shaped? when will it be just for lee and consider all my circumstances?#why is telling the person giving advice their advice wont work fkr me bad? why cant they change their advice to fit the issues i face?#when im asked for advice and someone hits a deadend while working it out i try to help solve that so they can find a way around#but everyone else expects me to grow a bulldozer out of my head and ram the wall down instead of helping me work around it#i crush their fragile ego by saying their advice doesnt work and they get upset instead of adjusting it to help solve the specific problem#its exhausting because they become one of the many problems i have to deal with then 😒#no im not “making excuses/dismissing you/not trying” im trying. your advice sucks try again. and my problems are valid!!!!!! accept it!!!!#anyway. genuinely appreciate people wanting/trying to help but sometimes its such inappropriate advice i dont know how to respond
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Last post before I crash and no-one hears from me until I return from my first final the morrow’s eve (a changed man no doubt) but there’ll never be anything funnier to me than consistently being viewed as a composed and calm saviour by peers while I’m, actively and uncontrollably losing it.
#not said sarcastically or as a vent by the way I genuinely find it so terribly amusing. you think I have it together ? aw <3 you fool.#i’ve been pacing around my room like a starving lion since the past week in whatever free time i’ve had.#and i keep getting people in my messages begging me for last minute help ? which is endearing but. i’m hanging on for dear life myself#helping isn’t foreign to me; i have 4 (?) people in my class who almost exclusively refer to me as ma’am and even refer to me as a teacher.#but helping last minute is so. deeply chaotic.#and I have this issue with me where having others around me makes me immediately drop into a ‘role’ of sorts?#i’ll be freaking out but then someone else starts freaking out around me and my immediate response is to just.#hey. we are going to make it out of this. it’s easy as pie. do you see me worried? no right? <- on the verge of hyperventilating#there’s this one guy in particular who got so excited to find out we have the exact same examination set-up tomorrow.#i gave him like basic pointers and i don’t think i’ve ever been thanked so earnestly and desperately in my life.#i remember during mocks my friends would message me what I wrote in questions and then they’d immediately go oh thank Fuck.#they’d literally just act like they’re absolutely going to pass now just because we had points in common.#as if i’m some sort of fucked up correct answer sheet incarnate.#it’s genuinely really sweet to me though; like i’m not posting this ranting or such.#having so much faith in another to the point that you can put yourself completely at ease says. alot i think.#and i’m glad i can be that person for so many.#and I feel like it helps me in a way too because i become so concerned with others that I forget to drown myself in my worries.#i forget that I’m worried because there are others to care about and console and help. so i suppose they help me in a way as well.#but also who is going to be that person for ME. who is going to console ME. im going fucking neurotic /jest#<- woman with ego issues & control issues who would rather die than accept help.#sigh. oh well. I’m sure we’ll do just fine. cannot wait#🥀🍷 — colloquy.
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Some of those doctors make hating oat milk their entire personality. I hate them. Cannot pretend to find them funny or like i give a shit. Fucking pretentious assholes
#also my colleague (the girl i had my shift with) is the exact opposite of me in all aspects. asked me if I'd ever worked in customer service#because i couldn't care less about being fake friendly to assholes and don't care if they like the service or not#like bitch those people don't have any other choice but drink our fucking coffee it's not like I'm competing with anyone#or like they pay us in any way. i get paid for doing the dumb work i have to do not for stroking some dumb ass doctors' egos#they come out of their rooms once an hour to get coffee and we have the cups on the table and i wouldn't even Think of#HANDING them the cups and smiling sweetly at them and asking 'coffee? tea?? :))'#I'll just assume these grown adults will get their stupid coffee or tea when they want some. it's not like they don't know where it is#(and i AM friendly and smile when someone is coming in our direction but why the fuck do you need to get so disgustingly friendly with them#if someone held up a cup asking if i.want some coffee I'd leave immediately even if i came just for coffee. it's creepy)#anyway. she's nice. I'm not.#there's normal people who will get their coffee and maybe ask if the milk in the little jug is cow milk to which I'll happily reply 'yes#:)'. then there's the other people who see the oat milk and make it clear they are the most insufferable people on the planet#(and i pity their patients so much. not much to choose from i guess but if i had that as a doctor I'd happily just die)#like everyone who took oatmilk could do it without making a fuss about the cow milk on the table. the cow milk lovers could never#'the oat milk is in front of the actual milk. this is unacceptable. i hate such healthy bullshit' lol okay#'OAT milk?? I'll leave this to the horses! THANK GOD you have actual milk!'#my favorite was the one who really took personal offense with its sheer presence. as if it had killed half of his patients lmao#'we had 50 patients with xyz problem. ALL of them drink oat milk. they cannot see the connection. it's really unhealthy'#at this point i just said i didn't care and stopped paying attention and he started complaining to his doctor colleague about how#oat milk is advertised to be healthy and how it's actually the opposite and i just find that very funny compared to the first comment#from that one guy who doesn't like such healthy bullshit. you guys need to find a consensus on the oatmilk issue i think. no one takes you#seriously if you contradict yourself like this. also i couldn't care less about the healthiness of the milk alternative of my choice. bitch.#next week I'll end up killing someone. i hope they all die from their cow milk. (but not the ones who took cow milk and didn't say anything#about the oat milk. they can continue living as they didn't annoy me)#void screams#some of these doctors were actually quite nice (most of them even). one even brought an applicant to us telling her to get some coffee#(which we are not allowed to give to applicants. but i don't care. I'd rather they get something than some of the asshole jury members#who hate oat milk (which is not the issue. the issue is them making it everybody else's issue that they don't like oat milk))
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Red (Tayngo's Version)
also my commissions are open haha
#mcyt#hermitcraft#hermitblr#tangotek#the pop star alter ego saga#yeahhhhh betcha didnt expect me to post this now aha#tayngo swift ..... such a shitty pun .....#its barely even a pun what am i on#we have like a really specfic way of saying it in empiressona vc like#we pronounce it like taaaaaaaayn-go . just drag out the first bit for as long as you can before moving on#its so stupid but its also really funny#i actually looked up so many actual tylr swft red era outfits (not tagging cuz even tho i love her music i dont wanna get killed yet)#like all of her red era stage outfits just . screamed tango like . does that make sense#also i literally just put the album title track on loop when i worked on this one no joke#anyways this has been Selenes Bullshit thanks for coming to my ted talk#catgirl supreme
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#am going to exhibit mental illness in the tags as heads up shdhdjfjf also dw none of what I say is#abt or concerns folks here but#yeah. as a tldr very Gabrielcore of me haha but yeah#I wondered for a long time how I could go years without#when a crumb here awakens a voracious hunger in me for affection and approval#and there is simply an element of ego to it - to enjoying the idea that those I admire like what i say#but I think the larger part is simply that I’m myself here#in a way I’m not irl. I’m not…I can’t be vulnerable to people. I can’t let them see me. I don’t want to be rejected I think#but here I am simply. unaware to people who don’t click with me. no one interacts w me unless they’d like to#and there’s a certainty to that which just isn’t quite present irl#so I think the reason I get so easily attached IS because it’s me. because it’s my true self. and I don’t. I don’t know how to not want that#approval and affection beyond just letting the feeling fade with time. beyond removing myself from spaces where it occurs#because it’s not. it’s not fair to foist that onto people who didn’t enter that knowingly. I don’t#I don’t want to be too much. I always feel like I’m too much. too serious too intense feeling too deeply and on and on#I m want to be just enough. not too little or too much.#and yet that’s not healthy nor is honest to those you want to connect w#and people aren’t obligated to connect w you - it’s egotistical to simply think you can correct social step your way into someone’s regard!#but ah I don’t know. it’s been a night. I just wanted to say it plain and honest and finally get it out#but this isn’t like shdhdj asking for pity and such. I’ll be okay it’s all just part of it#vent.txt
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#always a nice way to start the day off#with a massive compliment from complete strangers#i was sitting in the bank drive thru @ the atm#singing along to ‘foolish heart’ by steve perry#after a couple of minutes i heard a car honk its horn in the lane next to me#and the horn honker yells ‘ladies yall can listen to him sing later but im running late for work’#and the two girls in the car that was in the lane next to me flipped off the horn honker guy behind them#and pulled up a little and just started clapping and whistling and waving at me#and kept saying - that was great!#ill tell you what … i got all blushy#ha! yall dont know about my karaoke bar days#yall dont know about luther#me and my luther van dross days (i love ballads you can sing to)#too bad i was running late they were cute girls#anyway - i could start every day with getting my ego stroked at 7am#nice people rock#and it costs zero dollars to be kind#you never know when you might make somebodys day#😊
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DAMN WHAT THE HELL BARIQHRIQRHAUSHASHW !?!?!?!!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!
#oh my god. anyways fun thing about college there are so many new ways that it can compliment you?????#anyways got the grade for my english paper back which like 💪💪💪💪 yeah i got the A. 😎😎😎 honestly i didnt i would have been pissed bc#that shit WAS brilliant actually but THEN my professor was like in the comments hey if you wanted you could edit this and submit it to this#fuckin. peer reviewed journal and shit like i thought it was really good“ like SIR?!?!?!?!?!? SIR!?!?!?!?!?!#its an undergrad one obviously but this is insane to me wth#he said submission closes next week but the site says thats when its opening so ill probably wait and#decide over break after talking to my parents#but thats absolutely wild#also the complements thing is crazy#like in hs its me: does smth smart someone: oh thats so smart#but then in COLLEGE i do smth smart and people start asking me to TA and submit to academic publications ahfiahdhahs#wild. anyways i need to turn in this other paper now which is what i was SUPPOSED TO BE DOING before i checked my email. anyways thats wild#i may honestly submit if i can becaused seeing if i could get published would be SICK#and would look fucking awesome on my resume. also bragging rights and the ego boost bc lets be real#esp at 18 thats wild teehee. anyways need to do real work not theoretical work atm so yeah ✌️ bye#blah
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I don’t know what a parasocial relationship is and at this point I’m too afraid to ask.
#I mean I sort of get it#but there is a mental block#it’s not all poisonous I guess!!!! sometimes you love people from afar!!!!! it’s okay!!!!!#reality will let you know when it’s time to let them go#I loved stonefield for YEARS and you know what it’s good they broke up because it got too intense#and I healed and moved on. but also like. love from afar isn’t inherently messed up and twisted#‘why woULd aNYoNe CAre ABouT ceLEBritIEs’#ummm idk because they’re human beings And have you met human beings they can be so funny and fascinating and charming#No amount of fame or ego undoes that and sometimes it just makes it more tragic#and like. I say this as someone who has (largely) moved on from caring about celebrities the way that I used to#because like. I needed to. And I needed to grow up#and learn to love the people in my life the most#and to understand who that was#and that it WASn’t Emma stone#But like. I loved her truly and a part of my heart still does#anyway like. all of our lives/loves need to be purified in the Sacred Heart#that is just how it goes#and that is the only way to never lose them#Cc: that cs lewis quote about how only in loving Him more than them can we love them more than we now do etc. etc.#anyway I can’t remember my point but like oh yeah sometimes you love people from afar and they’re special to you and like THAT’s OKAY#like yeah yeah blah blah equal healthy relationships that go both ways where you are also seen and loved yeah yeah#it just annoys me though#Life is about learning how to love deeply and purely#and you only learn that by loving#Reality will teach you!!! when it’s off balance a little and needs to adjust !!!!!!!!#something will smack you in the face#But the act of love is never wasted#Okay I DO know what a parasocial relationship is (sort of) I just hate the rhetoric#Love the things you love with your WHOLE heart!!!! Give your WHOLE HEART to things!!!!!!!!! Yes it will get broken!!!!!! That’s okay!!!!!!!#Do not choose disdain!!!!!!!! Do not let anyone tell you you can’t love people or things YES YOU CAN
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gays will have silly little dreams where they meet the mechanisms (the actual immortal pirates from space) and get a lil flirty with at least one of them
#i mean tim obv#in my case#i never have dreams where they appear as the real life actors its always as if the immortal pirates were just real#and in like 90% of those dreams theres a vaguely awkwardly flirty vibe between me and tim#like its always kinda. he is this almost inhuman being that also happens to be in a band so hes aware that people will get celebrity crushes#and im the one with a celebrity crush on him#and you could say this has fanfic energy with how im allowed to like flirt w him without being perceived as a stalker type of fan#yknow#its realistic in how this is never taken seriously and im very awkward but its very unrealistic in how its just okay for me to do#and unrealistic in how its reciprocated for shits and giggles and his ego or whatever#i love having gay little dreams#lmao#i mean i guess its pretty tame in my case#like im assuming that aa lot of people have more like. serious dreams? yknow i mean actually dating the celebrity/fictional crushes#and all that#honestly im not sure if ive ever had a dream where i was actually with my celebrity/fictional crush#it always has that lil bit of realism where i know its not possible to be w them and im always almost as shy and awkward and anxious as irl#and honestly i prefer it that way#y'know with the way my brain works#how i often feel like the people i think about can see my thoughts and all that delusional bullshit#so its nice that even in my dreams where i have 0 control over anything i still dont really cross any boundaries#so i dont feel guilty afterwards i dont feel like i violated anyones boundaries#i know that dreams are absolutely not my actual thoughts im just sayin that its good for my paranoid brain#its just that in my dreams the celebrity/character likes me in some way and thats pretty much it#anyway i love making a meme shitpost thing that can be enjoyed by everyone and then in tags i say things that i should only tell a therapist#hhshdjdjshxbsjnd#the mechanisms#bee buzz
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sorry for subjecting my dear beloved mutuals to reading the words and opinions of a bunch of very stupid dudes who don’t know how to read but do know how to talk a lot.
got sorta fed up with being talked at all the time constantly with no ability to say what i actually think all the time so i actually did it for once until i felt better.
#speaking my mind until i cooled off definitely helps#the internet is one of the easiest places to do that because you can find very loud bad people to yell at and take your frustrations out on#and because their ego is so high and their victim complex is so deep you can practice saying what you feel in a way that makes sense#with another person who does not want to listen to you and is going to offend and upset you while also intentionally ignoring what you said#people do this in real life but once you’ve practiced the confrontation enough times#you can get used to it and respond when it happens irl instead of freezing up and letting these people bully you#it has no real life consequences and it’s easy to walk away when you’re done#and you can work with realizing when and at what point#your anger gets the better of you and you start to get so worked up you can’t respond#you learn how to keep people from trying to use ‘logic’ to silence you#if they can get away with calling what you say stupid after they’ve attempted to provoke an emotional response from you#then they will. and when you’re angry and distressed THEN they’ll try to force their opinion on you#‘insult you. make you feel stupid by provoking an emotional response and cherry picking what you say’#‘only responding to the things that you said they’ve heard before and refusing to acknowledge or discuss anything else’#‘ignore what you’re actually saying because you’re right’#using more insults to provoke you into giving an emotion based response’#‘use that state to make you give an emotion based response and then calling it not factual thus using it as a way to dismiss#‘the thing you’re trying to say that they don’t want to hear.’#they will often interrupt you and if you do the same to them they will accuse you of being disrespectful and unreasonable#i’ve been dealing with that for as long as i can remember but now#i am finally able to#learn how to respond#instead of letting it go on forever#cause now for the first time i have the power to walk away
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So, admissions didn't exactly go the way I wanted - I am excited about the offer I got, and it's a great school that my professor wouldn't have recommended if he didn't think it was a good program. But I applied to a lot of the top-tier "name brand" programs - some of which I was really excited about - and the closest I got to them was one MA admission. And that's a little bit of a hard pill to swallow when you're a privileged fuck who's had your family talking about how you'll do great things your whole life.
Fast forward to today, I'm watching a movie where the main character doesn't get into the top school she applied to and has a hard time with it. Texted my friends to joke that watching this was a bad idea. And I get back "I'm watching [some guy]'s tour of England and he stops in Cambridge. I think it's just now sinking in." Because my friend got into an MPhil at Cambridge.
I love my friend. And obviously I don't want her to suppress her joy about her amazing accomplishment. But goddamn lady, have some tact? 😂
#I'm fine#I'll get over it at some point#and the school i got into is actually a family tradition so that's neat#and i was almost as excited about it as i was about the name brand programs#it's just a bit of a blow to my ego#and the fact that my friend is celebrating getting into one of the best programs on earth is clashing with that#Also can we talk about how people having too much confidence in you can fuck you up too?#like obviously I'm very lucky to have a supportive family#my friend keeps talking about how no one thought she'd amount to much and of course I'm lucky that everyone was convinced i would#but now i haven't really. i have amounted to pretty average.#so instead of focusing on how i got in somewhere and I can spend five years doing what i love#I'm debating going to the MA program that sounds pretty cool but is wicked expensive#and means I'd have to reapply either this year or the year after#because I'm supposed to be perfect#and to be clear i do feel like a heinous and unlikeable snob for feeling this way.#i am aware that whining about getting into a PhD program because it isn't name brand is ridiculous#and god knows i feel bad talking about feeling like I'm worth less#like I'd never ever hold anyone else to this standard because everyone else is an excellent well rounded individual who's amazing#and has so much inherent worth regardless of what any institution says#but you see I am a very boring academia worm who has to be the best#because if someone else is the runner up that means we both have value#if I'm the runner up they have value and I'm utterly worthless#i am in therapy for this for the record#I'm working on it it's just a consistent and known problem with the way my brain works
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sorry bitterness consumes the soul etc etc <33 i will say though. depending on what is going through her head this could all be really fucking cruel lmfao
#like. alright. idk if she Knows i have feelings for her but given the whole blocked stories thing and whatever like. who knows#what bf said. and whether she is or was at any point genuinely confused or something because she does like him but we. hit it off. and it#was all just a Lot. like that doesn’t give the excuse for the times when it felt like she was sorta.. leading me on. yk. though maybe i was#truly delusional and stupid last semester i don’t know. maybe she just also enjoys talking to me on a friendly level and that’s fine and all#but it’d be really weird if she like. also refuses to acknowledge me outside of class? or anything like that..#or like. basically was just using me to stroke her ego in that sense if she does Know. like that would be shitty#would i like to be friends sure do i think this would absolutely crush my soul probably.#and i’d like to say ohh i don’t think she’s doing xy or z but i truly don’t know her. you know. beyond the little bits#of time we’ve had to talk about our lives and whatever#and anyway. it is stupid that i’ve spent so long trying to guess at what’s on her mind cause i’ll never know unless you know.#we’re ever close enough that we can talk about it or. whatever.#so. i definitely think when i see her again i’m going to take any chance i can to say something about last semester. um yk. in a way that#makes sense i’m not just insane. though i do hope that i can subtly make boyfriend seem really paranoid and weird. sorry. lol. but he was!#honestly if i were hitting on her or trying to make a move i’d understand him being like that but i was polite and friendly#so he has no business getting involved in my personal feelings! yeah i#don’t like him yeah i have feelings for his gf but you get what i mean i’m not. Trying to be an asshole here.#do i wish they’d break up? if she’s not happy. but am i going to like literally be a homewrecker? obviously not again who knows#if i even have the sway to. SORRY i’m being soooo insane one thing about me i can talk about a topic#a million times. anyway.#i just hope it’s not insane emotional manipulation or anything on anyones part i don’t know.#we have a really easy banter so i think it’ll be easy enough to talk to her and then hopefully. have a little bit more clarity as to where#we stand. yk.#abby talks#might delete this later if i decide i’m being a little tooooo 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫#i guess what i’m trying to say is. because this isn’t all the clear and obviously it’d be fine if we’re just friends. but the way we#interact is a little. idk. like we tease each other a lot and it’s like girl idk u tho… i’m having fun but huh?
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One thing I've learned is that people need me more than I've needed them.
#They just like to keep me in a state where my mental illnesses are constantly triggered. Once I realise what they are doing#I see them for who they really are. Scared children. Always having to put on a show and play victim.#They want to be right because it feeds their ego. They want to be a victim so that they can always be in the right. Victims can't be wrong#Victims are protected by society. I've never made myself a victim but I do realise when these weak people take advantage.#Good people don't need to prove that they are good. Victims don't need to prove that they are victims.#Evil people don't have the to prove that they are evil. Actions speak for themselves. I am not all bad or all good.#Narcissists hide behind the pain they bring on themselves. People.. at the end of the day want to relive their traumas because-#-its familiar. The people I have been with romantically all have a few things in common. The need to be right and the need to be a victim.#I satisfy that desire in them. They get to say ‘see! look! I've been victimized! I did nothing wrong!!’#I'm done giving that to them in a way they can prove. If they deserve something I will deliver but not in a way that puts me in jeopardy.#Not in a way that lets them talk about how terrible ive been to them. Jokes on them though.. I've convinced everyone that they are crazy.#You brought this on yourself and it will always be your burden to carry because I won't. I am great and everyone sees that.#It's definitely two people to stay in a relationship. It's definitely two people to stay friends. It's definitely two people to fight.#You can't stand that you are not only wrong but you are not the perfect victim you set out to be. Two stories. Hey.. guess what?#Enjoy the trauma and the ‘trauma’. I hope it's all you've every wanted. I hope it helps you sleep at night. I hope all of it was worth it.#d#b#m#k#p#and anyone else who makes this list.#txt
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