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betterthanbatman1 · 7 months

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As much as I love the detailed pretty art of Jason, I absolutely love it when my fave is drawn like a pencil

#He’s just STAND #Why do I feel like he’s judging me :/#This boy is arms legs and jacket #nothing else #jason todd #red hood #batfamily #batfam #dc #dc comics

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uncanny-tranny · 2 months

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Something I realized (which was obvious to me subconsciously) is that... The family that vehemently didn't accept me when I first came out but now do accept me are still the same family that I am most unwilling to be open about things I feel protective over.

I remember that my dad reacted so poorly, not to my coming out, but to my transition specifically that my therapist was the one to ask if I wanted to put it on my file that I wanted nothing to ever be shared with him about my health after I broke down multiple times due to my anxiety that I would never transition. While there are and were protections for me, I was incredibly fearful at the time because I was a minor, and I was so worried that he would have prevented my transition that I couldn't have said for certain what (if any) lengths he would have gone to to prevent that.

He's grown a lot as a person, and made some commendable strides. But he didn't find out from me when I medically transitioned the second I turned eighteen, and I think that's among the things that truly made him realize the scope of the issue.

I'm not here to guilt trip parents, guardians, or other members responsible for the care of the children or teens or young adults in their care.... but this is a cautionary tale. You aren't saving the people in your care when you do this, you simply reinforce an idea that you will never care for them, never want them as they are, would rather them be shoved away.

When you give people reasons to be secretive, they will behave secretively. When you give people reasons to doubt their safety around you, they will become sneaky, defensive, and withdrawn. When you give people reasons to doubt that you value their life, they will believe that you don't care if they live or not.

#queer #lgbt #lgbtq #ally advice #transphobia #transphobia tw #i always feel the need to preface that i have a rebuilt relationship with my dad specifically...#...but that my experiences with them have served to me in many ways to illustrate... well... what NOT to do if you are in his situation #i do still grieve that my relationship with him looks very scarred and that it took a long time to get to where he is now #but i recognize that in many ways this is a product of the world and culture we live in and that he lived in #in a world he grew up gay was used as a slur. would i expect that trans people would be treated better?#and he was responsible for how he reacted but also... it's nuanced as to why he reacted so poorly #and i want people to AVOID being like he did if they EVER want a decent relationship with the other person #i want this to be a cautionary tale and that my ending is unique. not all of us are even ABLE to repair a relationship that was THAT broken #some of us die trying. some of us never get closure. some of us are in active danger because of those reactions #and that's the more common reality i have found. most other queer people have no-contact with families who pulled the shit my dad had...#...and that's - frankly - a good idea in 99.9% of cases. i will never judge someone for the way they go about dealing with that #i'm just emphasizing that i am unique in the sense that i was able to somewhat repair that

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ribbonpinky-art · 12 days

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sideyshowy bobby

#sideshow bob #robert terwilliger #simpsons fanart #my art #self insert #me #self insert shipping #thedorfmirrin #s/i and fandom blogs may interact lols #i knew he existed as a kid but its one of those situations where i instantly fall for a character many years later-#the moment i look at them again #like with maleficent and ursula :33 #so exactly 1 week ago #i met sideshow bob #how do i even begin?? i cant remember how it even happened- i was looking at someone's tumblr notes bc i like to look at comments sometimes #then i saw someone's username which i liked the ring of #then i saw more images of this guy #and now u know the rest #why is he so cute and funny #the dichotomy of a snooty thespian who loves to play up his villainy (because he cant do ANYTHING without going above and beyond to get the #attention of the whole world #while also having goofy clown tendencies #im head over heels for him #so is my partner mirrin (thanks to meeeee >x3 )#and hes a simpsons character. not at all in a bad way bc i do not ever judge anyone's f/o crushes-#it was just. SOOO unexpected for me bc i tend to not pay attention to that show for personal reasons #just goes to show that theres a character to love for everyone in every piece of media #also this guy made me appreciate the show and its art direction a lil more than before despite my harbored feelings #and some of its silliness like genuinely it can be so funny (when there isnt a fat joke thrown in every 5 seconds anyway..#so everyone winz

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madd-nix · 3 months

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"I feel you, Johanna! I feel you... I was half convinced I'd waken, Satisfied enough to dream you, Happily I was mistaken, Johanna!"

So, I saw Sweeney Todd on Broadway almost two weeks ago, and this idea hasn't left my mind since. Just the idea of Ingo as Antony singing to Johanna is really sweet, and the song itself is really pretty! Makes you temporarily forget that the musical is about murder and cannibalism, lol!

#my art #pokemon #sweeney todd #submas #railsandribbonsshipping #ingo #subway boss ingo #subway master nobori #johanna #pokemon johanna #coordinator johanna #lol also i mentioned this at the theater to my gf and since she knows me #she was like 'yeah i had a feeling youd think of that'#lol i am on brand #also the broadway show was really good the opening number gave me chills and the fake blood was impressive!#and no i wont be doing the other songs with pokemon characters cuz i dont know who'd be sweeney aka the demon barber #and spoilers but hes also johanna's birth father #i also dont want to assign any characters to the judge cuz hes awful if you know the musical then you should know why #but anyway at least i finally drew this! i feel so much better now #btw i colored the characters with markers and did the background in watercolor paint

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brionnne · 9 days

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note that i will only ever call mithrun "stupid" jokingly. by "stupid", i only mean "frustrating behavior that i am immensely familar with". seeing him do something that makes me groan aloud, closing my eyes, sighing "stupid (affectionate, mournful)". like when he fucking... his dumbass "i don't want to [use the bathroom] right now, so it's fine." oughh. i know you! i know you! that's not how that works!!! and he's smart!!! he's so smart... but god, god... he's kind of an absent professor. he's kind of a cloudcuckoolander. i love him dearly. he gets called a dummy, a little idiot, and i flick his forehead, a little bonk of hard-heads, like "try again, idiot. that's not how bodies work." and "ooh, 'that's not going to work'. yes it is. shut up, stoopid. stubborn little man, my god." rolling my eyes forever.

#mithrun #i'm not devaluing his intelligence #i feel like both can be true - that someone can be really smart but also take really stupid actions conversely #i fucking KNOW i do all the time #and i don't think there's anything particularly wrong with the word #it's not that his intelligence is compromised in any sense or that i think he's incapable #and it is solely #the fact that he is a stubborn little guy who doesn't listen and just goes 'that won't work' / 'i don't want to' / etc.#like... BUDDY...#buddy BOY #dummy #you are NOT a good judge of this ok?#zip ya lip little man #i know what you are #and i ain't fuckin listening to ya!#god. 'that won't work'. blah blah blah. okay sleepy. see you next panel.#fuckin knew that was going to happen #'i'm not tired' (his body stops working and he doesn't know why)#oh. OH. you're NOT? buddy i KNOW what happened ok? you need some fuckin rest #like - i'm gonna kick your legs out from under you + you're going to fall gently into bed + i tuck you in and smooch you #but i also fucking complain because OF COURSE YOU'RE TIRED ! you bastard ! go sleepy bye #it's his poor decisions and i know why he does them - because he doesn't know - but by god #it's also a little like please... listen to yourself...#on the one hand he doesn't know and never will #on the other hand ... you have been awake for hours and hours without sleep... please get some rest...#but yeah as someone who forgets needs and has little sense of that it is like... objectively a stupid experience #and i don't say that with judgement in my heart but it feels REALLY stupid when your body does something and you don't know why #it's not the disability though that makes me say as much - it is fully the fact that he is SO STUBBORN! SO STUBBORN!!!!#you say you're not tired and fall down? hm? then maybe you are? i know you don't know but whatever. let's get you to bed boy. ok?#caring for him + shaking my head like i get it so much but you gotta sleep! 'this won't work'. ok liar... i already know it will.

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chiptrillino · 11 months

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you guys seem to forget that hakoda is not the only decend dad in the show. no scratch that hakoda isn't even a deacend dad for leaving his kids alone!!!

all of stop being thirsty and appriciate arnook, the mechanist, tyro, gansu and than more!!!

#its like all of you only think off dilf as buff headsome midle aged man. but no they have to be dad material #they have to be caring!#they have to be nice to kids and be absolutley devoted to theirs #good listeners #being there for their kids!!!#awsful jokes #teasing them helping them grow #in hakodas defence i do get it why he left! i really do but it feels to me like he ran away form his own grief and failure to protect kya #not able anymore to keep on hearing katara crying herself to sleep #or looking at sokkas face and seeing the memory of kya that lost her radiant smile #bato called him an idiot for leaving (but joined othervise hakoda would die stupidly without his protection)#and kana silently judged him. but he had to do it for himself and hopefully creating egnouth of a difference for a better future #argh... okay fine hakoda is dilf material too but he is not like at the top of the list!!!

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gaytranszoro · 4 months

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sorry okay im rewatching whole cake w a friend and got obsessed with the vinsmokes this time around okay. sorry. however i am a liker of themes and motifs and doomed characters. sorrey.

#i just looovvee the ways the different families this arc are portrayed. big moms as an empire to be expanded.#beges as a loyal bond and structured organization #and ofcourse the vinsmokes as an army bound only by blood and not by love. and a commodity to be used/force to be strengthened #like sure they're all related but like. they do not act like a family even in the slightest. they don't even seem to really like each other #LOL just even w the charlottes you get the feeling they care about each other to an extent (ie katakuri and brulee or chiffon and lola)#but we rarely see any of the vinsmokes hold a conversation with each other let alone act like siblings.#(unless you count them like. abusing sanji as sibling bonding)#which i why i OBSESSSS over when reiju gets hurt you see one of them call out in concern.#n the (admittedly anime only) scene of yonji like helping a little. bear guy get a fruit off a tree. that shit cute as hell.#you get these like. moments of humanity with them that seep through the cracks of the carefully-constructed image of the Evil Germa Army yk #the way all the siblings turned out and the ways they compliment and contrast each other makes me think ab what could have been you know.#iirc reiju wound up how she is because her mother encourgaged her emptions and instilled a sense of humanity in her. proving they are all #capable of having that sense of morality the others just...didnt get it 1) bc sora died when they were so young and #2) bc judge had a VICE GRIP on them.#so they were doomed from the start.#their father wanted a perfect unfeeling obedient army of soldiers and he was going to get it by any means necessary #even if said soldiers are supposed to be his children #i do think the vinsmokes are deeply unforgivable but i also recognize tht like...they were victims of circumstance.#smthn smthn nature vs nurture #in another life i think they would have kicked ass together #idk im fuuucked upp off the green tea rn yk how it goes.....#.txt #idk how to be coherent abt them they just make me feel like pacing around my room with my head in my hands #its been said better by ppl with better grasps on character analysis than me but. abuse victims who suck. and are also assholes.#you mean everything to meeee

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skitskatdacat63 · 4 months

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Every boy king painting is just like: hey guys fo you wanna see the same idea rehashed over and over again?

#and i eat it up every time 🥰#idk ill be like ah i wanna make a new and interesting portrait #and then its just yknow. a portrait.#anyways want to see if i can draw seb w the imperial austrian regalia #i would do the holy roman emperor stuff but hm it is a nightmare #even this im like: catie. why do you want to draw a fuckinf crown. do you know how complicated it is!?!??!?!#its fine ill try and then cry myself to sleep when i realize its too difficulg #also my main takeway from research is that most monarchies have a royal sceptre #so please expect chibi art of seb bonking nando w his sceptre #seb: ah im bored. hey nando wanna play catch w the imperial orb? *doesnt wait for an answer*#my fav characterization of seb in this au is that he is fully aware of fernandos opinion on him #like he knows nando is constantly vigilantly judging him just to prove his own assumptions correct #and seb is like. okay its kinda a forgone conclusion how he feels abt me #so he just constantly acts childish and disrespectful bcs he KNOWS it gets on fernando's nerves so badly #catie.rambling.txt

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age-of-moonknight · 5 months

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Timeless (Vol. 3/2023), #1.

Writers: Jackson Lanzing and Collin Kelly; Penciler and Inker: Juann Cabal; Colorist: Edgar Delgado; Letterer: Travis Lantham

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Timeless vol. 3 #Timeless 2023 #Timeless #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Power Man #Luke Cage #Khonshu #and this is not a compliment for that blasted overblown seagull but rather Mr. Cabal’s work because despite my dislike of the character #I /do/ really like this «Celestial Khonshu» design as he gets all fancy and tries to recruit his own Silver Surfer #to completely swerve to a more philosophical note #and one that may make more sense when you see exactly what happens to the trash bird (turn back now if uninterested #in discussions of portrayals of G-d in contemporary media…and yes even I’m wondering why I’m doing this #in the tags of a comic book panel post so in general just don’t mind me hahaha):#I get why some people are rankled when characters use language asserting themselves to be G-d #particularly when the authorial intent is clearly to comment on the nature of a singular all-powerful all-loving Ruler and Judge of creatio #and it’s…not always benevolent but perhaps even mocking (it never feels good when people don’t want to discuss/question/#interact in good faith with something that people have devoted their entire lives to but instead just want to jeer.#To reiterate everyone’s definitely entitled to any qualms they might have about belief systems and religious institutions #and how those entities have traditionally treated groups of peoples for example #but a willingness to discuss those legitimate concerns and how to move beyond them just might be more constructive than #making strawmen to mock entire demographics and what’s important to them)#ANYWAY all this to say there are times however where I’ve seen monotheists not even be bothered by attempts at mockery #because those attempts can be flipped around into comments of «gee yeah we sure are lucky that G-d doesn’t have those #human flaws you gave Him in your strawman representation!»#like….Khonshu the absolutely craven despicable manipulative power-grabber committing a little blasphemy here just makes it all the more #satisfying when a singular man blasts a hole through that bird’s bony chest #if you’re anything less than the humanly unobtainable ideal of absolute perfection and declare yourself above all…you’re going down HARD

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weirdfishy · 2 years

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headcanon/AU where morpheus only went and visited hob bc hob dreamed of him — like death convinced him to go see him, but he didn’t know when he should go, and the longer he stewed the more he thought hob was probably done with him. but then hob unknowingly drew morpheus into his dream where they were talking and laughing like proper friends (or, alternatively, hob had morpheus pressed against a wall) so dream was like yay he doesn’t hate me let’s go visit him :)

#inspo’d by umikochannart’s recent instagram post abt these fools #lmao dream being all hop skip happy & like ‘he returns my feelings!!’ only for hob to be The Same & Just Friendly #despite the fact that he Just Had Dream Against A Wall Six Hours Ago #hob doesn’t know his stranger Was Actually There & he kinda brushes over the details of who dream is bc he’s just happy dream is back so is #talking abt the last 133 years as per usual #hob just kinda figured that Dream or Morpheus isn’t the weirdest name he’s heard some of his students names r more bizarre than an old gods #who the hell is he to judge he’s just been uncreative these past centuries next time he has to move he’s gonna name himself after a flower #anyway hob is chattering on & dream is just like. Why is he acting so Normal like he wasn’t kissing me senseless earlier What The Fuck #humans are StrangeTM #dream has to interrupt him and idk maybe he just gets up and kisses him or does the slow thing and #explains to hob who exactly he is and what his powers entail #fishy’s bubbles #dreamling #is there a fic like this in my future? yeah probably #once i get done with whatever i can get done for whumptober. i’ve got two more of the four i wanted to do #The Muse has spoken and when this post hits @ least 177 notes i’ll start writing this

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lanshappycorner · 6 months

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Sometimes I look outside my scope of mutuals and I'm like.....I'm glad I'm not them (whole essay in the tags)

#im going to ramble about a very touchy subject here but it pertains to 🐉♠️ which i am very open about shipping #apparently its Problematic or whatever 😭😭???? according to Some People #you know ive been thinking abt this for a while now but people really like spouting rhetoric abt how this or that is problematic without-#-really considering the specifics of why things are bad. things being bad are not the same as things possibly being uncomfortable #like people have an aversion to adult/minor ships or incest ships because these are real and tangible things that happen and are disgusting #i do feel like people have freedom over what they want to consume/create in fiction although those topics are an ick to me and i avoid it #but also you have to understand people dont like it primarily because of the realistic aspect of it and how it connects to reality #not a one to one but because reality already has these preexisting issues we naturally have an aversion to it #you cannot apply the same logic to like a dragon man x human ship because a dragon man is not going to scoop you from the sky #the ramifications of shipping an immortal and human are nonexistant and do not pertain to reality and cannot be judged on the same scale💀#well beside from the logic 🐉 is old in body but his mind develops in the way a fae would. and he is described to be young in fae #so up until now i assumed the normal assumption was to say that he is around ~18 in fae yrs by how he interacts with others in his yr #🐉 is like old in the way where hes lived for a long time and understands the passage of time #but hes processed it through the lens of a young person hence why he can come off as immature despite how old he physically is💀#like are we playing the same game?? if he was a well adjusted fully developed adult with a complete understanding of the world and stuff #like idk trein. none of the events in ch 7 would be happening. its kind of like a huge part of his character that despite his physical age #he IS still learning as he IS still young #i could go into a analysis of his character but thats for another time </33 #anyways i see people . primarily young people. telling their mutuals you can or cant ship this and that #and im like its okay to not like ships if you personally find it uncomfortable but to police ur friends...for ships that arent even 'bad'#its insane to me...how do u live like this?#people really need to start thinking about the nuances and why things are the way they are in regards to fiction #instead of buying into that weird pr*ship/ant*ship thing 😭 ive always hated it its so dumb. my university professors wouldve hated it #theres no nuance like...none. personally i also think its why people have low reading comprehension these days too tbh #life is about looking at various viewpoints and coming up with your own opinion #not 'picking a side'💀 learn to form your own opinions. talk to people around you about it. do not constrict your opinions to black/white #its an extremely dangerous mindset to have even outside of literature and it makes you very susceptible to dangerous ideas/propaganda #anyways what im getting at is learn to have educated discussions with others and come up with your own opinions instead of picking a side #btw there is no right/wrong side in literary discussions. there is no good/bad side either. whatever you come up w someone will disagree #thats why its important to just believe what YOU believe in (and not parrot others💀). and also be open to change

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charlataninred · 7 months

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Killing my father. Btw.

#vent tw #why does he feel the need to question what I’m wearing to work.#yes I’m wearing a button up shirt I specifically bought it bc it has a bunch of pockets BC ITS MADE SPECIFICALLY FOR FORESTRY JOBS #and the pants are ones I wore to work last shift #wtf do you mean ‘they don’t look like work clothes’#and why is it that it feels like whenever you talk to me you’re either mad or judging

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aeroknot · 1 year

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whenever my dad would check in on my dungeons & dragons campaign he would listen with a smile and then unironically say “i think it needs more dragons”

well, dad: we met and made friends with a dragon last session, and he owes us a favor now, so we’ll probably see him again. i miss you. i hope it makes you happy.

#aero is real #dungeons and dragons #d&d #coming up on almost a year now #sometimes i feel like a total stereotype when playing this game. a little embarrassed. but he didn’t ever judge me for it #it surprised me when he even checked in #‘how you doing son?’ but for my PC lol #and despite my stupid hangups:#i CAN truly say that my campaign has been one of only two tethers to my sanity and resolve against the turmoil of my life since his passing #i can’t even express the value in it for me #the comfort #it’s probably why i’ve let go some of my resentment of CR c2’s ending and tried to reconnect to them thru cr c3 #bc i owe it to CR for finding these friends and a new hobby to do whatever it can to heal me no matter how slowly #aero talks in the tags #aero rambles in the tags #aero anecdotes

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stunfiskz · 9 months

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i really do think that the most interesting way for rouxls to become a serious character is for him to keep his incompetence. like. as in he may have weird ass powers but he doesn't really know how to fully use them or even be fully aware of their full extent. i just CANNOT see him as someone with some huge overarching plan- he couldn't even be assed to come up with a real plan with what would happen after he played the houses game against ralsei and kris. he's just. not some sort of mastermind. at least, if he by some miracle he does turn out to actually be, i'll honestly be really disappointed because i feel like this angle is just so much more interesting. hell, you could even tie that in to his desire to serve- just because he may not know how to take advantage of those powers doesn't mean someone else won't, and i feel like the idea of him following along with someone else's plan fits a lot better with what we know about his character. i just really dislike the idea of "rouxls is the knight/gaster/deltarune version of sans" because it all just feels like it's trying to twist his character into some genius with a larger plan when i really just. love his character for being a fucking idiot. yknow.

#not even BEGINNING to touch on the implications of how he treats others if he IS secretly some genius. like i believe rouxls is just. not #emotionally mature. not in the same way someone like sans is. where sans knows how to help the player get along with papyrus rouxls seems #to be really unsure of how to express his care towards lancer- or lack thereof but i tend to lean more towards the he does care angle #judging off of him immediately offering suggestions for helping lancer feel better when he's told he's not feeling well. but like. there is #such a huge difference to me between how i view his treatment of lancer if he IS actually gaster larping as a twink. like why the fuck woul #he be doing that.#anyways get ready for MY ultimate theory: rouxls is gasters illegitimate son thats why hes like that. hes only half skeleton so he speaks #like that as a half inheritance of skeleton fonts.#this is a joke by the way to make it clear.#but yeah i just. i dislike that theory a lot #i feel like it just. doesnt work with what i love about rouxls and what i think are key aspects of his character #txt

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itisaterriblelove · 3 months

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“Where the hell are you? Shit, Sam. This silent treatment bullshit has gone on long enough…I don’t know what I did, all right. Whatever it was, I’m sorry. Okay? Are you listening? I’m sorry. But don’t do this right now. I need you… Sam, call me back. This week has been… I don’t even know. She cheated on me. Tiffany. I caught her half naked with some football prick. He was still fucking inside of her when I walked in. Can you believe that shit? She swears she’s sorry, but I just… What the fuck? Why the hell aren’t you answering? Fuck! I need you tonight, all right? Call me back. I just need to hear your voice.”

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sherlock-is-ace · 6 days

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#not having a great time today after my mom commented on my interests #i'm a person that is interested in shit i don't know this is why i'm very likely to follow disabled youtubers #in my time i have watched molly burke. multiplicityandme and a collection of autistic youtubers (guess why lol)#and my mom made a quite patronizing comment about how i ''take on causes'' by learning about stuff #and/or supporting fun and interesting youtube channels #but anyways it sucks even more because on her comment she made it clear (once again) that she doesn't believe me when i say #i might be autistic. and it fucking sucks!#because when i first talked to her about it even I didn't know much about it. i was just starting to do my research #and i was trying to make sense of things still but she dismissed it #but now that i do know more and things do make more sense #i can't even bring it up because the fact that i have been watching a lot of youtubers talk about autism will make her think #i'm just trying to be like them... which is stupid #but it's also the reason i didn't tell her that my best friend in my teens was trans. because i was trying to figure shit out myself #and telling her he was trans and then a bit later that i am as well was going to make her go ''everyone's trans now blah blah''#and dismiss that as well... but now i'm trapped in the same thing about autism lol #and her stupid loophole of a dismissal isn't just by saying ''no you're not autistic'' it's saying this like ''well MAAAAYBE you COULD be #but that doesn't mean anything and it doesn't matter and why would you want a diagnosis if it's not gonna change anything''#same thing as her whole ''sure you're a man but why do you have to look and act differently? YOU know who YOU are #who cares what others think?'' in a don't transition way #like that's so stupid!#dkfjhkdfhkdfg #i'm angry and i feel trapped #i have figured out a little bit ago that i don't stim near as enough as i need to BECAUSE i live in the same house as her #and the idea of ear defenders and other stuff like that is very appealing but i can't do that while she's around to judge #and IN PUBLIC?! that's unthinkable!!#i still remember the time she threatened with not going out with me (to the supermarket) because I commited the huge crime of #buttoning the top button of my button up shirt....#that's it. that was the whole reason.. she thought i looked ridiculous and she didn't want to be seen with me...#imagine if i wear ear defenders out...#not gonna risk it lol

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