HAPPY 68TH BIRTHDAY STEVE HARRIS (12 March 1956)

he left her?!? absolute fucker. feed him to a demogorgon.

I love that Wayne was there for her, it was a nice twist instead of Eddie being there as you'd expect. Was the shouting outside her room them trying to get in even though they're not technically 'family'? Or maybe Wayne trying to convince Eddie not to hire a hitman? Either would be so satisfying 🖤

Love that they're gonna just leave the madness behind for a while, loved this chapter 🖤🖤

Tw: hospitals, injuries, death, don’t read if you haven’t read the most recent chapter of wasted years

Yep. He sure did. He’s an asshole. The worst of the worst.

The shouting outside of her room was Eddie when he first got there and they told him what happened. They were still working on her and making her comfortable with her injuries (which I’m gonna talk about more in the next chapter) but he was freaking out because they wouldn’t let him in the room to see her.

He called Wayne who of course answered although him and Eddie hadn’t been speaking He decided now was a good time to use some of that money Eddie had given him that he had sworn not to ever touch and immediately got onto a flight to LA although he had never flown before and has a fear of flying.

Wayne and Eddie are the only family she has. I’ve mentioned this before briefly in a previous chapter but readers grandma passed about a month after she left for LA. They are truly all she has.

So, understand

Don’t waste your time

Always searching for those wasted years

Face up, make your stand

And realize you’re living in the golden years

You can only move forward

You start high school. You´re depressed. You have frequently headaches

You start college. You barely remember your high school years. You get your autism late diagnosis. You have migraines

You dropout of college for one semester. You go to doctors. You go back to college. You´re fatigued. You have chronic pain

You apply for changing your course at university. You find a medication that works for you. You jump for the first time in forever. You´re not in pain. You´re not fatigued. You finally feel like you´re your true self. You feel alive again

You look around. Your 7 years younger sister is starting high school. She was a kid just yesterday and now her 15 birthday is in 3 months. Your 10 years younger brother was 6 and now he´s starting middle school. You feel like you didn´t see them growing up. You passed most of your high school years in your bed sleeping. Now your sister is starting high school. How can she be starting high school when she is 7 years younger than you and you were just in high school? It´s been 2 years already since you finished high school. You barely feel any older than when you were 17. You don´t feel any wiser.

You didn´t see your siblings growing up. You were too busy with your bad mental health. You feel bad. You didn´t enjoy your high school years. A small part of you kinda wants to do high school again, this time the right way. You didn´t have the same experiences as your classmates. It´s not fair. You feel like you didn´t have a high school experience. You didn´t even have a teenager experience. It´s not fair

You grief. You grief your teenage years. You grief your high school years. You grief the experiences you never had. You grief not passing more time with your siblings.

You´re feeling better. You can try to make the most of the time you have now. You´re still autistic, there are still experiences you may never have. You can try to make the most of what your abilities allow.

You can´t go back. You can´t have back the wasted years. You can only move forward. You still grief your wasted years. You try to think those years were important in making you the person you are today. You still wish you had a normal adolescence. You still wish you enjoyed all your high school had to give. You still wish you didn´t spend so many time feeling fatigued. You still wish you didn´t spend so many time in phisycal pain. You can only move forward now. You still wish you passed more time with your siblings. You can only move forward now. You wish you spent more time doing your hobbies than in bed napping. You can only move forward now. You don´t even remember when was the last time you touched your viola. You can only move forward now. When was the last time you skated? You can only move forward now. Did you even draw this year? You can only move forward now

You look around. Your sister still admires you. Your brother is proud of you. You feel like you don´t deserve it. You feel like you weren´t a good older sister. They still love you. You have to move forward now. You have to spend more time with them now. You can still watch them growing now, and you will

You lost count of how many doctors appoiments you went this years. You were in pain. You were fatigued. You didn´t went to college the first semester this year. You only went to two classes in college the second semester this year while your peers were having six classes. You´re 21, you still can´t drive. You´re feeling better. You´re not in pain anymore, you´re not fatigued anymore. You´re still autistic. You still need support. You still won´t do everything your peers do. You can only make the most of what you can. You can only move forward

A new year starts soon. You´re gonna start at a new college. You might not take all the classes your peers will take, you might take longer than your peers to graduate. You can only make the most of what your abillities allow

No point in worrying about your lost teenage years. No point in remembering your high school years. No point in thinking about your time in pain. No point in anguishing over the experiences you didn´t have and the things you didn´t do. You can only try to do them now

You can only move forward

Iron Maiden - Wasted Years

I’m cutting the cord

I want said I’ll let you go, so you can be free of me, but today I’m cutting myself free from what never was meant to be

Iron Maiden - Wasted Years (Live from The Book Of Souls World Tour)

Angie/Maddie🦇❥🇮🇹🇬🇧🇺🇸

IRON MAIDEN - WASTED YEARS (1986)

Iron Maiden - Wasted Years

I’m so excited to post the next chapter of Wasted Years. The tour is going to act as a catalyst for some drammaaaaaa.

Iron Maiden - Wasted Years (Official Video)

Very cool acoustic cover of one of my favorite Iron Maiden songs.

Enjoy!

Everyone else has already been burned, swallowed up in matchsticks and flames and dead dreams. I think then, I’m all wasted potential. All missed opportunities and false hope. A girl made up of wet matchsticks. I’m invisible ink; I’m a still and quiet wind chime. Like a clock with no hands I watch, ticking quietly, as nothing changes by my presence.