FOUL. JAIL. NOT EVEN SORRY??? HOW DARE U

LOOK, I HAVE AN APOLOGY

MY ART IS STRAIGHT UP TRASH BUT LIKE C'MON

IT LOOKS GOOD

RIGHT

YEAH THIS IS MY APOLOGY UP THERE

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?

A reminder that nobody has gotten close enough to Cater to know about this side of his.

He has always been cheery, so what's there to hide? Right?

Right.

Nobody saw nor knew the way he broke down in his room, he didn't let anybody know about the way he sat on his bed, tears streaming down his face.

It doesn't ever end, does it?

He wants to shout it out loud, describe his problems and yell out the truth, voice shaking in despair while his words was nothing but excruciating detail of the way his heart ached, the way he wished that maybe, maybe someone out there won't judge him for the mess he is, for the mess he always is.

But he can't, because he doesn't want someone to worry, he doesn't want their faces to contort into pity and shock when they see what their upperclassman is underneath that sunshine.

Maybe.. Maybe it could be you.

..But what's the point?

You'll leave this world anyway in the future.

txf + text posts (5/?)

you've got the kind of look in your eyes they could never tell no lie 'cause you feel it too

5 headcanons for an AU where All might deflates in front of the crowd after defeating the sludge villain?

OOOOOOH now that's fun

1- it's quiet, for a moment, as everyone stares and tries to process what they just saw. Izuku, who saw the truth already, still is stunned for a second. And then he realizes everyone else sees too, and his feet move before he can think more about it.

2- Izuku needs everyone to stop looking at All Might as the crowd begins to murmur, shaking itself. Izuku knows that Kacchan is very good at being loud and the center of attention. So, 2+2=4, he gives Bakugou a little push into a hero and a civilian and let's that work out.

3- As the explosion begins, Izuku grabs All Might's hand and runs, down between two buildings that still smell like smoke and sewage. Mt Lady grows for crowd control, and sees where they go- but the look in their eyes makes her turn back to the crowd and block a few civilians from following. She pretends everything is normal, and she's an actress. If that really was All Might- and it had to be, she felt that power- he'll be grateful when she contacts his agency later to demand what happened. If it isn't, then she can point out that letting non-heroes follow a villainous impersonator of that power level would have been disastrous.

4- they go a few buildings further when All Might's feet drag and Izuku's burst of motion slows. He pants, and stops at the street. "Go one way, All Might, sir, I'll tell them you went the other way." He can still hear Kacchan shouting above the other voices, and Mt Lady arguing back, but they don't have a lot of time. "Yeah, no." Toshinori says, and drags Izuku instead into a store, heading for the clearance section and hats.

5- the good news is, most people had put their phones down at this point and weren't filming. The TV cameras had turned away to show the people cheering and the blond victim fine. The bad news is that some people still were filming, and the TV crew went back, catching sight of All Might's skinny back fleeing the scene as the crowd erupted. As Toshinori pays for a change of clothes for both him and Izuku, his phone starts to ring. He mutes it as they change and put on the hats. Izuku asks where they are running too, but Toshinori just goes two buildings down to a ramen shop and sits at a table. He points out that no is going to look for All Might at a restaurant a block from the crime scene, much less expect him to be casually eating there in an Endeavor hoodie and a ball cap. He thinks the bright orange FG jacket izuku is now wearing to hide his school uniform clashes horribly with the lilac beanie, but it works to make the few curls escaping to look less green. As they eat, Toshinori tells Izuku about OfA, and makes his offer. Izuku bursts into tears because he just ruined All Might's secret, revealed it to everyone, he doesn't deserve his quirk, and now that it's in the open All Might can pick someone else, the best choice. Toshinori disagrees, because all Izuku did was inspire him to save that other boy, which was more important. Izuku agrees to be his successor, numbers are exchanged, and after eating Toshinori walks him home just in case- but it seems Izuku wasn't identified, probably because Bakugou could only scream "Deku" when shoved, so Izuku gets a quiet night of pure stress to himself while Toshinori heads to ask Tsukauchi for a ride to Might Tower for a very loud and very long night of pure stress and demanding answers.

obsessed with the damian and bernard dynamic.

trying to look up karna is annoying bc you get 400 articles on why he was a poor misunderstood genius hero who never did anything wrong and 400 articles on why he was a bitter entitled overhyped little man who’s been overly lionized by modern media, and you were just trying to find historical art of him to draw a picture

Ahhhhh! Thank you for answering my question about assassin Rocky! The tips are great! Glad you picked up on the Winter Solider aspect because it is kind of based on that ish. It's like the mind control from the Winter Soldier and the horror movie Get Out. The microchip is triggered by a few words, but unlike the Winter Soldier it's easier to get out of by simple memories of the host's past, seeing someone they know, or if the host fights hard enough. Yes, this means the victims of this are conscious of every murderous action they are doing, but can't do anything about it. They're stuck watching themselves kill people, possibly ones they care about, like a movie. While the microchip is where the mind control comes from, it's mostly for when they break out of the mind control. There's a timer to alert the people in charge of the chip, when the timer runs out, the chip is reset, that's where the trigger words, which are played on a recording, come in. There are many victims of this, but in this idea I have, Rocky is the second one they tried this on.

It's no problem akda;;klsad I love it when people just share story concepts that they have. It's so fun listening or reading them ramble.

Also holy shit. So, Rocky is very aware of what he's doing but can't do much about it until the timer runs out. But then, he could easily slip back into mind control. Gotta love that. Angst is my shit.

I fucking love the inner mechanizations of one's mind.

Him being the second would be phenomenal for so much trauma and not knowing how to deal with it while being so utterly exhausted from fighting it. Like, the first probably didn't know how to cope either. If the first is even still alive.

I would love to know more of why Rocky was chosen and by whom. Are there specific qualifications? Or is it random? Why Rocky of all people? What exactly is the group behind this trying to achieve? What about the people after Rocky? Are they observing one person at a time? Or are they observing a small group?

And what happened to the first? Who was the first?

This is such an amazing concept! I'm like really compelled to read this even though it's just a concept aklda'al;adkdsddjfj This is so fucking cool!! And thank you for sharing this! I love reading about it!!

”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”

Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.

Tumblr sorta needs a 'Mute' feature in my opinion. Like what if I don't want to block this user, what if I don't want to become enemies and in some days I'd like to interact. But also most of the time seeing how they avidly encourage everyone else whereas I get the passive-aggressive 'oh yeah very uhh... interesting... (please leave me alone I don't like your art lol)' makes me want to unfollow every single fan of these characters and never draw them again.

I remember two years ago the exact same thing happened when someone liked the same character and the same ship and I swear I was the only person in the fandom they bluntly left out and could not spare a single good word for. I can't even blame this on my art being "ugly" because this type of user always aggressively praises all art styles and all levels of skill, it feels more like 'a personal thing except we never fought a single time'. And now my toxic trait of needing approval from [cool person name] is back to haunt me years later! Add the unability to "abandon" this character/ship/whatever despite wanting to after facing so much unspoken passive spite, because I am a contrarian and the best way to trap me into doing something is to try to exclude me from it. I didn't face attempts to very aggressively bully me out of the yard/class/community/etc, sometimes with physical violence included, only to let something mid like passive aggression online finally do it.

I am really stupid and naive person despite my age, but in like 5% of the cases I will still understand the hint and understand what is going on. Yet I have to pretend to be clueless even in rare situations when I know someone hates me, because since they never admitted it, quitting will be perceived as me being "paranoid". But dear goooood, it hurts sometimes. I hope that one day I will be numbed to being treated as a tumor on an otherwise healthy body of society that someone is dying to amputate- and always a person whose approval I want, of all people. Knowing that this day will come is one of the things that keep me going as both a person and a creator. Things like viruses and diseases still try their best to persist, so even if I am actually one, I should persist. It doesn't matter whether I actually rot everything around me or this is just my self-depreciating delusion upon focusing on people that mistreated me and not people that loved me. What matters is persisting, I just still feel angry that it hurts. I can't respond spite with spite or passive aggression with passive aggression, I can't do the 'smug asshole' when I become aware that someone tries to starve me until I "die". I can just fall over and cry about it like a kicked dog, despite being so old, especially when it is a person I didn't have anything against.

And really.. It is as simple as turning the internet off, so I don't see The Person and can focus on doing stuff that I like, as if they never existed and can't crash my self-esteem. It is just annoying to keep doing this, a feature to not see them unless I am in the mood would be better. Like.. blocking is not an option. Not only it implies being enemies which is not my intention, but also it will be like an "evidence" that I was "crazy". They didn't do anything, right? Well, they know what they did, but it was never verbal, so it is my fault I "imagined things", right?

Fuck that reptile so much I genuinely hope he suffers but Gul Dukat got me giggling and kicking my feet. Like don't get it twisted, he sucks! He deserves to rot in hell! But if he came up to me and was said "go in that kitchen and make me a sandwich" I wouldn't hesitate to do so

vod over. ccbbh is trying to kill us all

my mom just learned my dad beat me as a kid girl did you think i was just like that for fun

exene talking about the state of the world. the good stuff starts at eight minutes. or you can just read the transcript complete with the usual errors that accompany robot transcribed speech (the irony of which is not lost on me). maybe it's not about transhumanism and living forever (or maybe it is who knows), but there's definitely an agenda of surveillance and control at work which is designed to keep the powerful in power. cash rules everything around me and you will own nothing etc. the future is worse.

What do you think tazmuir is implying about Augustine

Fratricide :(

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - for Balthazar?

Sorry for the waaaiiit! Since I did the other one in character, this one wound up like that too...

[prompt list]

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?

“The worst thing? Hm. Probably that I was losing some especially long game against a particular irksome gloating rival. If it felt true, well, that would certainly inspire some feelings.”

He puts up a slender finger. “Anger, for one.” Then a second. “And frustration- where could I have gone wrong? How could I have been so blind?” And a third. “And despair.”

“I’ve known that feeling before- you sink into it like nothing else. It makes you absolutely sick. Have you ever felt that? The shaking sense where you can’t tell if you’re about to throw yourself at someone, or collapse and vomit? Or perhaps do both at once, somehow, but either way you find yourself paralyzed. I’d say that’s what it feels like to be at one’s lowest.”

“People imagine that what makes words hurt is that they are cruel, insulting. I don’t believe that’s true. It’s not enough to simply be nasty. For my part, I’ve heard all manner of terrible things from people over the years- enemies, lovers, friends- more than enough to say once you get through the shock, little of it hurts. It may vex or enrage, or yes, even insult, but it doesn’t hurt. It doesn’t become the worst thing said to you even if it’s the worst said of you.

“What makes something hurt is that it makes one doubt oneself, or that it contains a spark of a truth so inarguable it strikes one dumb. It doesn’t have to be true itself, of course. But if you can graze that target you’ll draw blood all the same. Perhaps because of that it hurts more to be told what you are than what you aren’t- the thing you are is already there, isn’t it?

“And everyone has something they fear being that deep down they’re sure they’ve already become.”

“Not all those who wander are lost” yeah? And what else? Finish the quote you fucking coward