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I don’t know if I’ll have any new pics anytime soon I’ve gone done fucked my knee ✌🏻😔 I love that for me. I also broke my hot tap in the kitchen 👌🏻fuckin mint

Im have a fucking god awful day

i’ve never written a fic in 3rd person before today and this is so fucking difficult esp when the main character isn’t the reader

ah yes everyone’s favourite game where we try to determine the difference between romantic attraction and platonic attraction + touch starvation

it’s always the throw away classes at uni that come back to bite your ass at the end of the semester

I’m taking a class in uni about thriving on campus. It’s a joke class but it’s about personal growth and making connections. Well I haven’t been able to submit any assignments. Why? This autism rabbit hole. Our final project is a capstone of what we learned about ourselves and it means what we learned in class. While they learned about smart goals, test prep resources, and all that academic stuff, I learned I am autistic. It’s different. It’s always been different. My problems have always been way different from other people. It’s too much.

Two years ago I took a break from uni because I was overwhelmed from the war and my understanding of life was shattered. How long does a NT person process that? It took me a year to allow myself to seek therapy, and then a year to get cleared for continuing education.

Now it’s a third year of bombshell. I can’t follow instructions for a long time interval and I can’t speak up to get help until I realize it’s too late. I can’t plan the future, I don’t save my income like financially literate people. I never got a financial literacy class. If it’s not there it doesn’t exist, if it is there I can use it.

I can’t take care of myself consistently but I can take care of others. When I get somewhat hungry my brain tells me I’m not. I can go a day not eating and I can’t feel the effects until much later when my Brian refuses to thing. I can’t eat on a schedule. It doesn’t work like that. I fucking gained weight and I haven’t been really eating.

I just want to live normally with a hobby as a job. I just want to exist without all this shit around me. Life is not easy but it’s not supposed to be in extreme hard mode.

I’m struggling to stay afloat

I made a golem :)

harrier if you didn’t want this to be romantic why did you wear your most boobylicious shirt ???

The fact that neurotypical and able-bodied people can’t comprehend that disabled people usually don’t like consistently being told “BEING DISABLED IS BAD!!! THE WAY YOU ARE IS FUNDAMENTALLY WRONG!!! YOU NEED TO BE CURED!!!” even in a ‘nice’ or ‘woke’ way shows how little they actually value our agency or even our worth as humans.

No, Stacy, I don’t want people fiddling with eugenics because they’re uncomfortable with me existing, I want you to. You know. Treat me like a person. Have help be there when I need it without treating me like I’m an invalid. Why is that apparently so much more difficult for you than telling me my existence is wrong and spending millions fiddling in a lab for unwanted “cures?” Whatever happened to listening to others and accepting them for who they are? Or do you only see disabled people as the poor, helpless invalids you can “help” cross the street without asking so you can get another Scouts badge?

if you’re a city girl through and through like me when bakugou invites you to go hiking or camping with him he’s the most affectionate before he asks, drowning you in kisses and random gifts on top of the ones he regularly gets you, breakfast in bed the day he’s gonna ask and getting off work early just to pick up your favorite treats at the bakery before they close

he knows you’ll always say yes, it’s just a little added plus since he knows you’ll hate the part with the mosquitoes and the random sounds in the dark when it’s pitch back out and you’re clinging to him inside the tent or the distant howling in the silent night inside the old cottage

i see a lot of talk of fellow adhd and autistic folk feeling like they’re too much for other people but i don’t see a lot of talk about feeling like you’re not enough. low energy adhd and autism where it takes a lot of effort to use words so your way of showing affection is to sit there and vibe in people’s presence but it comes off like you’re not paying attention or it’s not “active” enough to count, or forgetting to reply to DMs (or like i said, Words Hard), and it again comes off as you not caring or ignoring people. it’s really hard to be putting in so much effort to maintain friendships you value only for that effort to not be seen, or to be read as apathy, or for it to be seen but still not be what other people want. even worse when you try and talk more and be more active in a relationship but you end up burning yourself out because you don’t have enough energy to maintain it.

genuinely how i feel sometimes

If every motherfucker is a “people pleaser” why am i not pleased. Why am i displeased. Name 1 person that is pleased with you

It’s “realizing that Will’s struggle in S2 with being infected with a virus that spreads and will kill him quickly (but doctors don’t care) is a metaphor for how gay men were treated during the aids crisis” hours

—right alongside Mike (who comes from a family with a Reagan sign in their front yard + a mom who outwardly supported Margret Thatcher), who sat at his now confirmed gay best friend’s side the entire time he was sick and watched as people were willing to let him die because he was viewed as expendable……and now has an ongoing storyline where

1) his relationship with his girlfriend is falling apart because he doesn’t love her romantically

2) he’s staring longingly and pushing toward the freedom his gay best friend embodies for him, and

3) he cannot bring himself to tell anyone around him something because “what if they don’t like it” + dehumanize him for telling the secret truth he cannot bring himself to externalize, despite now knowing something that scares him about about himself:

(Bonus points for the fact that the first time we see Mike push Will and himself toward a girl is after he watches how people were willing to let his gay best friend (and him, by extension) die should they not confirm to expectations)

bug trolls… i am interested in kankri vantas. if that isn’t too much trouble. your buggy guys are so silly and interesting and i am a fan

here is kankri and his baby brother…. they don’t get along!! i wish they did though id love to see these two go on an adventure together where they look out each other. since kankri is a beforus troll and a vegan, his shell is pretty thin because he’s not getting enough iron. on the other hand, karkat’s shell is heavier then it should be due to stress. thanks for the RQ!! im soooo glad ppl like my sillies :D