EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) — “and i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldn’t be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn’t be forevermore.”

my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽

Considering going to Japan Weekend as Ianthe

Also damn this skeleton bracelet leaves traces

No frame will haunt me more than this.

Seeing Hannibal this fucking broken... Will Graham you’re a sick bastard.

also,, something about Bakugo nearly getting crushed to death by millions of hands,, when one of his biggest regrets was never taking one…

Can't believe Scar saw a rapidly approaching, dishevled mumbo and went "he's so cute." I need to run unorthodox experiments on them.

IKR SAME OMG

They’re literally perfect for each other <- delusional

But seriously they have so much lore together in my silly brain and the few interactions they do have (WHICH HAS BEEN INCREASING A LOT LATELY MAY I ADD) has been FUELING the fire rapidly and gods gods GODS do I have many thoughts about them

It’s ur day

Do I even need to provide an explanation here

i’ve been at the emergency vet for 3hrs and it’s a 1hr drive here and back and it’s 5am now and i’m so fucking tired omfg there’s no way i’m gonna be able to sleep for work today 😭

sometimes I really think about how john died and how he really didn’t deserve it

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

idk how i feel about 2012 tmnt because I love it don’t get me wrong but……eh

somethings just coudve been done better

the characters definitely coudve been done better

the relationships……..yea

what I will say tho is

characters

2012 April isn’t bad but she’s so much and so little of a character that she just comes off bland

Donnie…..honestly he’s not bad but the crush definitely ruins him a bit

raph I don’t hate at all and if you do……..you clearly don’t understand people with anger problems

Mikey is an idiot and pretty gullible sometimes and honestly I’m upset they didn’t try and help or at least teach him better cause wtf

Leo is babygirl prove me wrong

Casey……eh in my opinion he’s just bland most of the time

karai is a dumb b-tch with massive issues that just make her come off as a d-ck prove me wrong

karai lesbian confirmed?

splinter is alright do I think he could’ve been better in the teacher and dad department yes do I think he did well for his situation and circumstances yes does that make up for his sh-tty character handlement……no.

the relationships…..loooord these bastards…..here we go

the implied ship material in the show ruined the way people saw leo and karai’s relationship and I am so mad

again I hate love triangles and this f-cking thing (April x Donnie vs April x Casey)is so annoying f-ck off no one cares anymore pls just move on good god you ruin whatever character you have for a love triangle you won’t let die Jesus Christ

raph and Mona are the only saving grace when it comes to actual canon ships in this show prove me wrong I dare you they are adorable

back from good ol’ WY. here’s some pictures from my travels :)

It really irks me the way so many people are leaving after a few songs. They’re literally just filming themselves there because it’s the event to be at, then leave.

Today was rough but it was nice seeing all of my fav cousins (it’s been so long lol) and stuff man.

These lyrics, from the antlers songs “Kettering” and “Sylvia”. Fucking hit me so hard. The entire album hits me so fucking hard. (Aside from the bits where the whole. Toxic Relationship / Domestic abuse metaphor thing is rlly obvious. Because fucking. I CANT relate to being happy she’s gone. Sure taking care of her was difficult and stressful. And drained out so much of me. BUT I STILL. I wish so fucking badly she was still alive. If she survived. We could have set something up. Gotten her in physical therapy or hired a qualified live in caretaker. It would have been. Things would have been better then they’d been. If she lived. I wouldn’t have been crushed under that stress.. so. Yeah the whole hospice album rlly fucking hurts to listen to. (Mostly Kettering, Sylvia, Shiva and Epilogue) But. Certain things are jarringly unrelatable lol.)

But yeah. These two lyrics. At the end. I was basically the only person she could stand. But she would still get upset with me. And the feeling. The crushing feeling of hopelessness and failure when I couldn’t do the shit she wanted me to do. When I couldn’t lift her up. When I couldn’t make it better. It was terrible. And in the hospital. The last time I fucking spoke to her. All I could do was stand there pathetically. And do NOTHING to help her. And say I was fucking “sorry”. I could barely understand most of the things she said. And I could barely do anything to help her. So most of our conversation was me saying sorry till she fucking told me to get out and send in my aunt. And it’s like… the next time I went to go see her. When she died about 5 minutes after we got to the hospital. I managed to say some nice words to her fucking corpse. That made me feel a little better at the time. But looking back on it just feels fucking pathetic. Why couldn’t you say anything of substance to her when she was still alive!!!! Why were you so petrified and scared of being not enough that you couldn’t even TRY to have a conversation? Why why why?!?! What’s your fucking problem!?!?!