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#I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that
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sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive
#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy
#been feeling weird as hell these past few months
#like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days
#or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day
#idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this
#just thinking
#meposting
#I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying
#I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult
#I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad.
#whatever
#I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that
#dissociation
#me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though
#she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety
#and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’
#I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time
#I’m so solid now
#so stuck in the ruts of capitalism
#fuck capitalism
#I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled
#sorry I love talking
#and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn?
#it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing
#I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence.
#like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5.
#overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names.
#can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school
#bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude
#I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time
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