Not "do you think it would be good," but "would you be interested in seeing it"

We did posts to gauge interest the first year, before starting the project, but now polls are a thing!

I’m excited for bakugou but it’s kind of subdued. I have faith that his writing will be as good as ever but I’m feeling fatigued by the lesser quality writing in comparison to his own + the todorokis. Do you think all might’s arc can still get a satisfying conclusion?

I think All Might coming in a desperate attempt to put up a gritty fight a la Ch. 1 Deku - as a concept - is fine.

It's the execution that went way overboard. The suit became just so OP needlessly that it called into question why this wasn't part of the original plan and why All Might would sit on something like this. I also personally don't find the "his experience" makes him invincible fighting with multiple features he never used satisfying. I simply don't like the concept of a character getting to outshine with no effort characters who put in the effort. All Might and the suit have no build-up, history, effort that could really make this satisfying.

To me the worst part of the suit is adding all the Class A features which made the fight unnecessarily long and sucked out the tension. Of course All Might won't die until all the quirks are used. Of course, Bakugou will be the last. Of course, he won't kill himself with it. Of course, Bakugou will wake up here.

I'm not sure yet how I feel if Bakugou is left to fight Baby for One (I don't like it) - I think it would have had better energy if he fought the teenage version.

As for All Might's arc -I really loved his scene with Shouto. I'm hoping for something heartfelt like that with Bakugou that hopefully will give some explanations about the suit.

The only upside to the IronSuit plot for me is that it's a proof of concept. It feels like it establishes that Deku would be able to be a hero if he lost OFA in the end. Deku ending quirkless would be my favoured ending, because I think him keeping OFA and staying a demi-god would put hero society back to square one, would leave Deku in All Might's shoes whether he wants it or not and in the end nothing will change. A Deku that can do everything will do everything. Sure, he may not completely disregard the other heroes, but by the sheer magnitude of his power, he'd end up shouldering everything. There is no character arc for Deku that tells us that he'd accept to sit back and rest and take care of himself if he had the power to save everyone.

So for these reasons, I prefer Deku scaled back to a normal level at the end, and I feel like it's been foreshadowed since the 2nd Muscular fight that he'll end up being a tech hero (which for his character makes sense, though I would have preferred him doing it first, rather than again just following in All Might's footsteps).

And this brings me to my last point. I'm pretty pessimistic right now about Hori being able to write a good enough endgame that will make it feel like the new gen surpassed or at least reached All Might's heights. The amount of focus he got here, compared to the rushed or forced moments for the kids I fear won't cut it.

For the most part, the kids are not allowed to be badass, because they are saving and changing hearts which in a battle shonen is just not as satisfying, while All Might, other old pros (like Endeavor) and ex-villains get the hype fight moments.

So I don't know - maybe Bakugou will get the same hype as he has no villain to save, but I fear that the great promise of the manga will not be fulfilled in a credible way. Like Dabi and Toga being saved should get a better pay off in order to justify the effort put into it.

Hori simply just didn't manage to make the "saving" feel cool enough, while he over-glorified All Might's and Endeavor's old way of just beating the shit out of villains. At least that's how I feel the fandom response to be right now.

Levi's violent, belligerent actions do not mean that he is a "pessimist". Whenever Levi is violent, it is mostly to save his own life and the lives of others. It is true that his actions would be considered evil, but wouldn't you also choose violence if you were faced with a threat to harm you and your loved ones? Let us not forget that he did it out of necessity and in self-defense, not out of pleasure. His roughness is due to his difficult upbringing. I'm sure even he wouldn't want to be like that. I don't need to talk about his mentality, I don't think he would ever think anything pessimistic or cruel. I won't even say I don't think, he wouldn't think.

So on the contrary, he would be very disturbed if his partner had something evil in him, like if he was cruel, ruthless, deceitful, arrogant, selfishly pessimistic, not caring about other people's feelings, other people's lives, and so on.

So I don't understand why you people insist that he will not be with someone who is very optimistic. I believe he has a weakness for selfless, thoughtful people, people who have a purity of goodness in them and he will be drawn to them. Just like himself. I think he would admire people who have these qualities intact in this cruel world.

It's not for nothing that we say he is the most emotional person in the series and the heart of Sc he has a big indiscriminate heart.

And I want to say that this discourse of yours disturbs the people who ship Levi with their optimistic, innocent, weak characters/themselves, and their trust is shaken. It's not just you, there are so many such discourses, those who were upset because they believed that Levi would not like them, and they even say that they avoid reading fanfic, Hc, so as not to see discourses that would make them uncomfortable. Whereas hcs and fanfics are supposed to be about comfort and fun.

If I have to express my own opinion, he First of all, I think that the romance will progress depending on the plot and dynamics, regardless of the character of the partner. Levi is too complex a character to be reduced to criteria and rules. He would be with both an average, optimistic civilian and a soldier with a compassionate character with a pure heart who would not spoil his goodness in this cruel world. And more like that. But I don't think that a character like him, who is selfless, compassionate, values life, every life, cares about the dreams and feelings of others, can be with a cruel, arrogant, selfish character who harbors pessimism, who does not care about life and human life.

Anon, do you know what pessimism means?

A pessimist is a person who is inclined to expect poor outcomes. Someone who tends to see things from a glass half empty perspective, if you will. I am a pessimist, i have OCD and severe anxiety, I’ve always been very focused on all the ways that life could go wrong for me, and i worry about those outcomes a lot. Pessimism is not synonymous with Evil or violence, lots of people with depression or people who have been through or seen hard things are inclined to pessimism. The fact that you put pessimistic and cruel in the same sentence is actually wild.

Additionally, i wrote that he is a deeply emotional character who is very much “in his head” meaning he thinks a lot. I even talked about how he has a very high level of emotional maturity.

And, dear anon, that fifth paragraph💀

Did you know that tumblr has over 547 million users? I’m sure that somewhere in there, there are people who write Levi the way you, and apparently everyone you’re speaking on behalf of, want them to write him. I would encourage you to leave my blog and go find those people. Because you’re absolutely right, tumblr, especially the fanfiction community here, is a place for comfort and fun, so doesn’t this mean that those of us who write him like i do deserve to feel those things? It’s not mandatory that you read my content, and to say that my viewpoints make people uncomfortable to the point of not wanting to read fanfiction???? That’s crazy anon, wild, and honestly it’s terribly manipulative. Also i don’t care.

There are cruel and inhumane things happening everywhere, the world has a lot wrong with it at the moment, i am very involved in humanitarianism and activism. I find your passion for writing essays in fanfiction writer’s inboxes to defend a fictional character to be pretty impressive, but you should direct all that fire towards something that actually makes a difference.

“If i have to express my own opinion”

You don’t, actually, it was unwarranted, but regardless:

Sure, that’s definitely some great stuff you have there, and I’m sure people would love it if you wrote your own content surrounding those ideas. And finally, that last sentence…WHAT????

Anon please explain how you read “He likes someone who is genuine, trustworthy and dependable. Someone who has a strong sense of justice and empathy, who defends and advocates for others when they are unable to defend themselves.” And took from that “cruel, arrogant, and selfish character who harbors pessimism.”

Here’s a short story about something that happened to me last year:

My cat, whom I’ve had for almost nine years, became sick. I took him to the vet and they told me that since triage would take a while due to the amount of people who were there, I could go home and come pick him up when they called me. At the time i was 6 months pregnant and very tired so i went home and cried for several hours, as i was very upset that my cat wasn’t home with me, very upset that he was sick, and I was scared because, as a pessimist, i usually expect the worst outcome. My partner, however is an optimist, and his way of trying to help me was to tell me that everything would go well and that my cat would be fine. But that only served to irritate me, because it was so directly oppositional to my own way of thinking, that it felt like I was being lied to, or given false hope. I would’ve found more comfort in having him sit with me and think over my fears rationally: ex. sure he might be terminally ill, but he also might have just eaten something he shouldn’t have eaten. It turned out that his new wet food wasn’t agreeing with his stomach, so sure, he was fine, but sometimes my worries get in the way of my ability to see that.

A realist is a person who recognizes what is real or possible in a particular situation, and who accepts and deals with things as they really are.

Anyway…do with that what you will, i guess. I normally wouldn’t respond to messages like this but, wow, this was insane and i felt obligated to correct you.

If it's okay to ask, I'm curious what your initial thoughts are on the potential plot for the Insomniac Spidey sequel game! I'm still sorting my thoughts, but one of the things that definitely crossed my mind was how the story trailer reminded me of both TASM films (eg. terminally ill Harry as a major villain, the main villain plot being forcibly 'healing' the world, and we know from the MM post-credits scene that Connors is behind Harry's treatment with the symbiote, etc.), and while the main issue with the eugenics stuff in the TASM films is how it was framed as being both real and good and neither Peter nor the narrative ever challenges it, rather than just the villains being villainous and it could go differently here, I'm really not sure how optimistic to be at this point in speculation - but it's also not an aspect of the trailer I've seen much discussion on either.

having gone over the original game again, (geez I forgot how hard they went on the Spider-Cop bit) I still don't feel as pessimistic on this plot point as others seem to be... yet.

MSM1 had parallels to TASM1 too, without fumbling the ball as hard. Main villain starts as an ally researching limb replacement, partially for themselves; plot turning point is a Oscorp gene-cure-mist being released into the city with terrible results. It helps that Insomniac's medical science is just 50% less bullshit. Devil's Breath names a real genome editing tech (CRISPR by viral vector) and genetic diseases that aren't just disabling, but fatal (cystic fibrosis, Huntington's) as the intended target. There's no TASM-esque twist where victims with improperly edited genes become a ''devolved'' ''lower lifeform'' or turn murderous. They just get sick.

Otto doesn't consider using Devil's Breath on himself. His condition isn't even genetic. Dumb to have to point that out, but TASM Curt compares limb loss to agonizing death by disease (??) and proposes his amputation be "fixed" with genetic modification (???) while Otto's focus is on (embellished) mobility aids. The idea that brain damage from the arms made Otto evil is brought up and then refuted. Martin and Otto have social + financial motivations which overlap with but aren't fully defined by disability. They're well-intentioned extremists: they want to take down a crooked capitalist who's politically untouchable... time to poison random civilians!

Going by these trends: I expect Harry to have a fairly realistic diagnosis and to use real assistive aids alongside any sci-fi treatments (he has a cane for a second in the trailer). I expect that if he did inherit his condition it was from his mother, and the only person who might be weird about that is Norman. Insomniac Harry's previous vision for "healing the world" has been air and water quality, green energy, and wildlife health. If this changes, I expect a more nuanced explanation than "idk he's sick and crazy now".

Will I actually like it? Who knows! (Like MJ was fine. but she's not My MJ.) I'm still crossing my fingers for sentient alien Venom because I think it would make everything more interesting to have Venom the character rather than just the plot device.

I'm truly more worried for Curt--most of the Insomniac plotlines are pulled from modern comics. (For the love of god please let's not do Shed.) But comics Devil's Breath was a poison that killed only certain genetic lineages, and someone made the call to avoid that minefield of weird ideas. So. Hope remains that this will not be the TASM movies' kind of freakshow.

Hello Rainbowsky!!

You get many asks every day. Antis will tell BJYX is not real while sometimes turtles who are confused may give you different reasons why they think BJYX may not be real. And sometimes turtles who leave the fandom give you reasons why they are leaving the fandom. Still, you have 100% faith that BJYX is real. And by your answers I can see that whatever may happen in the fandom you never loose your confidence on BJYX. For this I want to salute you.

I am a person who easily believes in other people’s words. And on top of that I am a pessimist. Thus, this quality of yours really amazes me.

I want to ask how do you keep your confidence so strong?

Hi Anon! 😊

Fake, fan fiction, CPN.

I have to salute you, Anon, because you seem to have picked up on something that maybe not a lot of my readers would necessarily be very conscious of: I'm constantly buried under a pile of other people's doubts, worries and disdain.

I get an extreme volume of nay-saying, questioning, picking apart, attempts to dismantle and debunk, anti messages, hate messages, panic about doubts, grief over theorized breakups, attempted gotcha messages about other CP material that 'proves' they are with someone else, entire lists and catalogs of why people don't believe, etc etc etc. You name it, I see it.

It's funny because I don't think there are many turtles who could read the things that I read every day and still be turtles 😅.

You said of yourself that, "I am a person who easily believes in other people's words." Are you sure it's not, "I am a person who easily believes in other people's negative, cynical words"? Because there are a lot of turtles out there saying positive things, and talking about GG and DD as being in love, etc. and I'm not getting the sense you're deeply attached to their words.

But I can answer your question (and the answer is relevant to that statement of yours) - how do I keep my confidence? Easy:

Everything I believe comes from me, not from other people.

Everything I take in goes through my own internal process of critical thinking, questioning, evaluating, examining, investigation, etc. etc. etc. I think for myself. I make up my own mind based on the evidence I am able to find. I make a genuine, dedicated effort to learn everything I can about a topic and then draw my own conclusions.

This is true of how I decide what is the best brand of pasta, which documentary I want to watch tonight and which mattress will give me the best sleep, every bit as much as how I decide how I feel about capital punishment, who I think will be the best political candidate, and what my spiritual beliefs are.

When you think for yourself, you'll never fall prey to other people's thoughts. You will know where you stand because you arrived at that point through a thorough, rigorous, good-faith process.

I don't know how other people arrive at their ideas, but I get the sense that a LOT of people arrive at their ideas not through the available evidence or a rigorous querying of the subject, but rather through a quick impression of the tone and perceived status of the person speaking to them - and also based on some weird psychosocial calculus about which option it would be more embarrassing to be wrong about.

The thinking seems to go like, "If the person seems really certain of what they're saying, and if I feel socially intimidated by the person and my perception of how authoritative they seem to be (they seem to know more than me), and if I don't want to be seen as someone who would foolishly believe _____ if it turns out to be false, then..." and that's just 5,000 flavors of wrong.

Do your own thinking. No one out there is more qualified than you to evaluate what's best for you to believe and participate in.

Question everyone and everything - including me. Dig into critical thinking, logical fallacies and intellectual self-defense. Learn how to be an independent mind. It will serve you well throughout your life.

As for GG and DD and the fandom (apologies to those who've heard me say this a thousand times): SZD or not shouldn't matter. Just enjoy GG and DD, enjoy their projects, enjoy being a fan and learning more about them, and if SZD comes to you someday that's fine. If it never does, that's fine too.

There is no obligation to believe SZD in order to be a turtle or to enjoy being a fan. In fact, those who get overly invested in whether GG and DD are a real couple only make themselves miserable.

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free ("brief") natal chart reading

hello dear! this is my reading for you, and i hope some things will resonate with you. i see leo qualities in you: you are most likely creative, with a big heart, curious and you may even be a big romantic. people may be very attracted to you and your energy. Sometimes you may feel like an idealist, but you probably strive to be more realistic. i think you have good communication skills. you probably know how to control your emotions and don’t let them control you. however, it is not easy for you to say how you feel and open up to others. you leave a strong impression on others, and they have lots of respect for you when they meet you. you seem responsible and disciplined, and i believe you are. you’re more introverted than an average leo, and you feel lots of emotions despite not being able to express them. you may even appear intimidating to some. you’re lacking air elements in your chart, so you probably attract libra, gemini, and aquarius zodiacs in your life…let them in, and try to learn about the way they communicate and go through life because it could help you evolve as a person. you communicate maturely, people listen to your advice, and you try to be as objective as possible. you can be good with words and are probably considered funny and witty, and you like to discuss deeper topics. perhaps your words can cut deeply sometimes, so watch out for that. you’re good with debates, just try not to use harsh words in your daily life. i’m sorry if i got this wrong, but i feel like you tend to be pessimistic sometimes, more than realistic, and if it’s true, work on a positive mindset. i can see that you want romantic love in your life, and trust that with time you’ll thrive in an amazing relationship, if you aren’t already in one, you need to work on yourself first. you probably desire partners who are full of life and creative, warm-hearted, and those who can show you lots of empathy, understanding, and love. they need to shower you with romance but also have understanding for you when you don’t feel like doing things or expressing them. you probably feel emotionally fulfilled when you have achieved your goals successfully, and when you prove to yourself that you can be ambitious. in a relationship, you are a powerful person…your partner feels your intensity and the strong love you have for them. you have a lot of strength in you love, you can accomplish anything and survive anything that comes your way. life may have given you a lot of challenges. i have a feeling you’re quite rebellious, and make sure to balance that out for times when it’s appropriate. you’ll strive the most in this life if you nurture your sensible and soft side. but also, keep going for the things you want! try to be more positive like i’ve previously mentioned and find a place/people who make you feel like you’re at home. emotions are not for the weak, they guide us towards what does and what does not work for us. you may have some tensions with your current family, either way, they have a strong influence on your life. don’t be afraid to be the center of attention sometimes hun, you deserve to be in the spotlight. i hope i have not offended you at any point since that was not my intention. i’ll be waiting for your feedback, have a nice day <3 

I snapped today. I cried a lot of the day and it made it really hard to do my job. I thought I was doing better mentally but maybe I'm not. My physical health is greatly impacting my state of mind. I had to lock myself in the bathroom for 20 minutes earlier and I got so behind. I also had 32 cases and no one would help me. I am so overwhelmed. I am in a lot of pain and I can't feel my foot.

My feelings are also very hurt and I'm not trying to start any problems but I just want to know what's going on. I can't believe you are making me wait at least another month. I don't know who made the decision that I had to be living at home for like 2 years before I could date anyone. I should be able to make those decisions for myself. I will be 30 this year... I feel like that's what's going on and I'm not happy about it. I feel like I'm being treated like a child. I don't know if anything is ever going to happen at this rate and maybe I'm feeling pessimistic at the moment. I just want to be with the person I love.

I'm not sure if I'm right but I have been lied to so much and I'm sick of it. I don't know what to believe. Healthy relationships aren't built on lies and secrets. Also, if you didn't want to date me right away, you could have just told me to ease my anxiety. Instead I am left in the dark without a plan and very confused. I understand the need to take a break from dating after ending a relationship but 2 years??? What was the purpose of asking me to come in on walk-in days and stuff??? Of course I wanted to see you but I don't get it. I was so anxious every time for nothing and you just wanted to test me. Why did you keep teasing me and saying that something was going to happen??? I feel like I'm playing a game that I will never win. This fucking sucks. I don't know if your social anxiety is really that bad or if you are just making excuses to try to stall and drag this situation out longer than necessary. I have never been so confused in my entire life.

I feel like no one is actually listening to me when I talk about how much pain I'm in and how much I'm suffering. How are you all ok with seeing me like this??? My dad helps me take care of the cats, makes sure I can get to work, and makes me food sometimes. He helps me with a lot of things and I do appreciate that. I wish that he could take my pain away though. I don't want to suffer anymore. I have no quality of life. I need help now. :'(

I miss my mom a lot. I wish she could help me. She used to always be there and take care of me when I was sick. It has been so long since I saw her or talked to her but I can't even try to have a conversation or she will attack me.

It also sucks seeing everyone else living their lives and having fun while I'm trapped in this bubble. I try not to get depressed about it but I'm having a hard time. I want to have fun sometimes too... I need something good to happen to me for real.

I'm not the type of person to hold grudges or anything but it is going to take me a long time to heal from all of this. I hate feeling like this and I am so sad. I wish I could stop crying but I don't think I'm going to stop anytime soon. What did I do that was so bad to deserve this punishment? I was already getting punished for years before all of this started. I guess maybe I deserve it because I'm a terrible person. I can't say that I've never gotten to do fun things but the majority of my life has been hell.

I'm sorry I'm a disappointment. I'm sorry I dropped out of college and I'm not as successful as I should be. I'm sorry I trapped myself in a dead end job. I'm sorry my work isn't good enough for anyone. I don't work hard enough. I'm sorry I am a mess all the time and I can't get my shit together. I feel like I'm so annoying and just a burden to everyone. I'm sorry for asking for help.

Since no one will help me, I decided that the only way I can help myself right now is to reduce my hours at work. Tomorrow morning I am going to email the director to tell him that I want to cut my hours. I can work 30 hours a week and retain my benefits. I don't know how much it will help at this point but I can't wait around anymore. I desperately need some sort of relief, especially after today. I can't fucking handle it anymore. Everything sucks so bad.

Honestly, I don't want to talk to anyone right now unless they can help me feel better. I'm sorry, I'm not trying to be a bitch. I don't want to annoy everyone with my problems and be a downer. I feel like a broken record since I have the same problems almost every day. It's also going to be very busy the rest of the week so I probably won't have the energy to get on here either. I don't have much else to say. I'm going to force myself to eat something and put ice on my swollen toes. I will probably get ready for bed after that. I'm sorry for being crabby and miserable. I hope that I'm not an emotional wreck tomorrow.

I hope everyone enjoys the rest of the week. Thanks for putting up with me.

✨1.2K Followers Celebration✨ Submission from @naushtheaspiringauthor

— Hello! First of all, congratulations on 1.2k!! I hope you get more recognition as you really deserve it.

and for the celebration, I'd like to do the first option. For this, I'm choosing the grishaverse fandom, and the character I'm choosing is Nikolai Lantsov. The reason why I love him so much, and thinking about him brings me comfort, is because how sweet he is. I feel like he'd be the kind of person who'll take a glance at me, and will immediately know that I'm not okay. He always tries to lighten up the environment. He is the kind of person who's opposite to me in many ways, but he's also someone I'd relate to, on a lot of aspects. There are many more reasons, but If I write more, it's gonna be way too long, so I'll just leave it to this. And I would absolute LOVE to be in a romantic relationship with him if it was possible. I feel like, even a mere sight of him would make my day a thousand times better.

Some things about me. I'm an introvert,and tend to talk less infront of strangers. But when I'm around people I'm close with, I'm really talkative and energetic. I'm kind of a pessimist and I get annoyed and angry pretty easily. I find it very difficult to express my emotions, and it's almost impossible for me to talk about how I feel. I enjoy my own company on most days. I like to write, play the piano, sing, make some art and listen to music. MY favorite artists are Taylor Swift, Lana Del Rey, Olivia Rodrigo, The nbhd and Harry Styles —

hi again!

thank you for participating :)

nikolai is SUCH a sweetheart. very intuitive, can always tell what’s going on. he’d easily be able to tell if there was something wrong. you wouldn’t even need to speak, he’d just know. and he’s quite easy to open up to, it wouldn’t take much for him to know and understand what was bothering you. he’s one of those kinds of people that are a light for everyone else, even when they don’t feel like one themselves. he’s so good at taking care of other people and being a shoulder to cry on, but he doesn’t quite know how to be that for himself. if you could be that person for him, and he able to know when he’s upset just as easily as he knows when you are, it would be such a value to him. anyone who can make his heart less heavy is appreciated by him. anyway, opposites attract, and any quality you find missing in each other, you’d be able to find in the other person. you’d fit right into place.

i think he’d really appreciate an introvert. he certainly isn’t one. he’s royalty and a soldier, he has to be good at talking and persuasion and being comfortable being in front of and commanding a crowd. he values his intelligence and charm, and im sure he appreciates those qualities in other people. but i also think he doesn’t particularly like talking to people. it’s like he’s putting on a performance, and he doesn’t want to perform. he’d know that, around you, that he could just be himself. he wouldn’t have to speak. he’d know you could just sit in comfortably silence. but as you’d get closer to him, you’d open up a lot more. while he wouldn’t want to talk to a crowd, he’d want to talk to you. clever banter is only fun with the other person is just as into it. while he’d get a little annoyed but other talkative people, he’d consider it an endearing quality of yours.

i don’t think nikolai is a pessimist, at least outwardly. a realist, maybe, but he still clings to some promises of hope. they keep him going. you being a pessimist would keep him in check when his thoughts got carried away, and his optimistic thoughts would force you to change your own. you’d balance eachother out with just the right amount of hope and reality.

nikolai is not a naturally angry person. it takes a lot to fluster him, and he doesn’t grow quickly to anger. he’s better at managing those kinds of feelings. but his other feelings, he has a hard time expressing. you two would be in for it trying to dance around what you’re feeling. he’s good with words though, so i think you’d be able to work it out together. you’d have to learn each others signs and tells, and actively work towards better understanding each other. you both feel a lot, and you need an outlet for it.

i think nikolai appreciates the arts, drawing especially. he’s got so many ideas for inventions and things, he needs someone who can sketch them as he plans. you could spend entire days together, ignoring other people and coming up with new ideas for his collection.

also, nikolai would LOVE taylor swift. that man is a mirrorball if i’ve ever seen one, and i just know he’d adore her if he could listen to her. she writes in a way that explains her feelings in such an intricate manner, and i think he’d admire that. he can’t explain his own feelings that well, but her lyrics would help him process. he’d be a swiftie guaranteed.

after a long day, nikolai would be ready to throw himself off of a bridge. hours and hours of boring conversations of politics, trying to appease so many people at once. he’d want nothing more than to see you and sit with you alone, getting his mind off things. he’d find you in your room, where you’d be sitting at the small piano he had brought in. he could feel the weight lifting off his shoulders at the sight of you.

you’d greet him with a smile, patting the spot on the bench next to you. “hello, love. how was your day.”

“mindnumbingly boring. i think i could actually feel parts of my brain dying.”

you’d chuckle, resting your head against his shoulder. “that sounds terrible. do you want to talk about it?”

“no thank you, darling.”

he’d smile down at you, shaking his head. settling in his spot, he’d motion to the piano, resting his fingers on the keys.

“my mother tried teaching me the piano. actually, it was a tutor, but it was on her wishes. i never could master it, much to her displeasure and my annoyance. it was like i was reading way faster than i was able to play. my hands couldn’t keep up.”

you’d nod, your hands brushing his as you ghosted over the keys. “it took me ages to get the coordination right. but i suppose, in your usual fashion, you didn’t have enough patience to keep trying. i’ll bet it’s why you moved on to inventions. at least it was a hobby that would keep your mother off your back.”

“be nice to me!” he’d scold, but he was grinning at your teasing. “i’ve had a long day.”

“as you command, moi tsar,” you’d jest, smiling when he rolled his eyes.

it was his turn to settle his head on your shoulder, taking a long and deep breath. he shut his eyes, savoring the peaceful moment.

“play something for me,” he’d say softly.

you’d nod, pressing a chaste kiss to the top of his head, before turning your attention back to the keys, beginning to play a melody he’d always mentioned liking.

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hope you enjoyed this! thank you for the kind words :)

Hello! Could I get a written matchup for stranger things and lotr? I’m an intp with she/her pronouns. Im 20. I’m bi so any gender is fine. For personality I’m creative, introverted, and individualistic. Though I’m introverted, around my friends/when I’m comfortable I can be quite talkative and humorous. However, I definitely treasure my alone time the most. Im a very big homebody and can be very hermit introvert sometimes. As for bad traits, I am sometimes the worst pessimist when it comes to myself. I’ll be fine motivating others but then when it comes to me I live by the “be ready for the worst and you wont be disappointed” As for hobbies escaping to new worlds while reading books/comics, watching movies, and playing rpg video games. My favorite genres are fantasy and sci-fi, though I do love a good classic from time to time. Apart from that, I love working out. My interests on the other hand are art focused. I’m currently in art school working with mostly digital mediums, though I sometimes work with traditional. I love my practice and everything including, game, web and interaction design, video art and visual effects, 3D modeling and character design, and digital illustration. Sometimes I whip out graphite and ink. A list of random likes: coffee, chai tea, dark chocolate, rock/blues/jazz/80s pop/soundtrack music, cafe art shows, arcades, comic book stores, purple, thai/Indian/Chinese food, roller blading to classic rock, quality alone time. A random list of dislikes: people i am unfamiliar with and have to make small talk with, the biting cold, rain, non fiction, staying too close to reality and not being allowed to daydream/imagine/roam freely in my thoughts, physical touch, overly crowded areas. I think that’s it thank you!

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absolutely! (1) here's the lotr one

peregrin took

fool of a took

if im honest i was very much debating if i should’ve paired you up with someone from the hobbit even though the request said lotr reason being is that i think bard the fine bowman would’ve suit ya just fine.

anyways that’s was my little spiel, peregrin fool of a took. both of you share that almost introverted persona though if you ask me pippin does talk quite a lot and i don’t think it’s the beer doing that. when you’re around him he’s a blabbering mess story this story that song time with merry this dancing jig with merry that. you know your typical hobbit things.

one thing is for sure, he’d definitely get groovy to 80’s pop. that man knows his lyrics and dances. it’s only natural for a hobbit to know songs of all sorts anyways.

pip though no matter how much energy he’s got up his bones, he’ll take a moment to settle back down to reality and he’s pretty quick with it i’d say. instant sobriety. he would check up on you from time to time and would ask if you wanted to leave which he wouldn’t mind at all doing.

he’d support you in all your passions and even though you doubt yourself in some ways or another on pip’s radar he’s not letting that slide. he’ll give you words of encouragement and if that doesn’t work he’ll make sure it works. cause he’s a determined fella who just wants what’s best for the ones he loves.

headcanon, pippin definitely plays video games specifically any rpg games. you wouldn’t catch him playing over watch or any cod.

he’s not much of a work out fanatic, but if you want to go on a stroll around middle earth he probably wouldn’t be against it.

he would think your models and visual designs are the coolest thing ever and would constantly ask you how this how that. can this can that.

little headcanon that every morning a fresh cup of nicely brewed chai tea would be up and ready and a nice bark of thinly sliced dark chocolate bits would be sitting on the table ready for you. and i’d say all that was a last minute preparation before pippin would go hopping back to his bed.

Can you tell me maybe your favorite thing/best quality for each of the main Enterprise cast? Thanks! 😊

Hmm, this is a tricky one. I couldn't really pin down just one thing, but I'll tell you what I like about them, sure. Jonathan Archer: Starts off a real pain in the butt, but I think he's the character who grows the most over the course of the 4 seasons and I think that's pretty cool. He starts out quite xenophobic toward Vulcans because he blames them for mothballing his dad's project, but by the end he's come to understand them and appreciate them a lot more. Trip Tucker: His southernisms are great. He establishes movie night on the Enterprise, which is so much fun. He kinda flip flops between being cautiously optimistic and realistically pessimistic, which I like. He can fix anything with a little time and determination. And he rocks a good Hawaiian shirt.

Hoshi Sato: Smart, talented brilliant. Prone to anxiety and not graceful under pressure, but that just makes her extremely relatable. Competent. Kind. Curious. I think she even cooks for the crew once iirc? She's the person on Enterprise I'd most want to befriend. T'Pol: The very much needed logical balance to Archer's messy impulsiveness. Blunt but in a way that's witty and funny. And not afraid to tell the Vulcan High Command to shove it if she thinks they're being unduly prejudiced against humans. Travis Mayweather: A ray of sunshine! He's the perpetual optimist and when he's around the crew is pretty much guaranteed to have fun. Always ready with a great anecdote about his life growing up on a spaceship. And always cracking great jokes. Malcom Reed: Phlox: I know this probably doesn't make any sense, but I kind of think Phlox is the final state of evolution from Quark to Neelix to Phlox. He's clearly designed to be the weird alien with off-putting biology who at the same time somehow gets the most girls (he has three wives!) But one thing that really sets him apart from those two is he completely ditches the sleaze. Somehow, he makes being in a complicated polyamorous marriage look completely ordinary and he's a wholesome, funny uncle-type character.

could i get this for the chronicals of narnia pls? xx and/or harry potter (preferably marauders' era <33)

i'm an enfp and a ravenclaw. my zodiac signs are sagittarius sun, virgo moon and leo rising. i'm 5''3 with auburn curly hair and a petite (i think??) hourglass figure. i have dark bluey/green eyes & freckles all year round<3

i like to dress alt, with maybe a little cottagecore. my go-to outfits are usually things like baggy jeans, tight crop tops & leather jackets. i also like floral dresses & long skirts <3 i have adhd so i can't really wear certain stuff because of sensory issues.

i would describe myself as observant, fun, genuine, intuitive and witty. i'm an introverted extrovert & need a lot of breaks from people. i can be pretty anxious about things most people find ok, but i'd say i'm pretty good at handling those moments. i prefer talking to listening - although i love asking people questions abt themselves & getting to know their dreams. i'd say i'm an idealist but i also have realist aspects & have a pretty sarcastic sense of humour i'm also a massive hopeless romantic and my love language is quality time - and sometimes physical touch.

i like old cities, anything vintage, astrology, reading, spotify playlists, baking, psychology, 90s/2000s romcoms and greek myths. my favourite season is the autumn (although i think my personality has more of a spring vibe) & i love it when it rains. i like 60s-80s music - the beatles, david bowie, Fleetwood mac & a couple of the smiths songs - and my favourite movie is when harry met sally

Oh my god I’m so sorry this took me forever. But thank you so much for the request!

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Chronicles of Narnia

I match you with Edmund Pevensie!

I saw that you said your sense of humor was sarcastic and that sealed the deal for me. He loves your sarcasm, but his siblings get annoyed sometimes at how you and Ed will attack them with sarcasm just for fun. Other than that, your and extroverted introvert? He can relate. I wouldn’t say he’s an extroverted introvert himself, just an introvert. However, he can relate to the needing alone time part, so he’s really understanding when you wanna be alone. I think his love language would be quality time too. In a setting where you two are comfortable and alone so y’all can just talk. Or in a setting where you two are thrilled on a great adventure. Edmund just loves that he’s with you. You mentioned liking Greek mythology, and Edmund strikes me as the guy who had a Greek mythology phase is middle school. I know middle school isn’t a thing in the UK bit shhh. Other than your similarities, your differences also bring the best in each other, I think. You said your an idealist, and I think Edmund is a pessimist. He helps you see reason, and you help him have more open-minded thoughts. You said your personality is like spring, and I think his is like autumn.

Harry Potter (Marauders era)

I match you with James Potter!

You say that your idealistic and fun, and that describes James very well, I think. Your wit is what draws him to you, I think. He likes someone who bounces off of his sarcasm and jokes really well. I think he’s most definitely an extrovert, so he has trouble understanding how you feel about alone time, but he doesn’t let that stop him from treating your feelings with respect. He wants you to know that you never have to feel bad for requesting alone time. James puts a lot of emphasis on trust in a relationship, so expect to always be asked if everything’s okay or if there’s something you’d like to tell him. Also, he’s a hopeless romantic, just like you. I just know that he is. You talk about having anxiety, and I think that James can’t really relate, but like I said, he values trust. So he wants you to be able to trust that he will do his very best to make sure your calm and comfortable.

I hope you liked the matchup!

hello !! i’m not sure if you have all 12 requests for your match ups but i’d really like one if they are still available !!

i’d like a match up with a haikyuu male if that’s okay.

some physical attributes about me! ∑(ﾟДﾟ)

• i’m afab (assigned female at birth) and my pronouns are she/they. i’m pretty insecure about how i look but i am asian american (chinese) with my black hair down to my back (it’s recently dyed pastel purple underneath). my eyes are a dark brown with eye bags cause i’m often a night owl (my glasses help hide them a bit ;;;) !! i think my most confident feature is my shoulders (i just like how they look)!

• most people like to note how short i am (4’10) and that kind of has lead to me being a bit down about myself from many times others have pointed it out as a flaw.

• i wear glasses cause i’m extremely blind (honestly to the point that the glasses aren’t helping cause i haven’t updated them in..forever) so it’s sometimes easy to catch me squinting because i can’t read-

• i’m pretty casual with my appearance. i don’t really dabble in make up (too confusing) and when i’m lazy, i default to jeans, t-shirt and a jacket (basically comfy attire). i do adore dressing up to impress though! skirts with thigh highs, dresses with sandals and tight-form fitting clothes are my favorites in my explorative wardrobe right now.

personal attributes about me! ( •⌄• ू )✧

• i am a libra (september 25th) and a infp! i can very much seem like a extrovert at times but around strangers, i get very shy and i am a indoors person. my hobbies include gaming, hanging out with my friends, reading manga, sleeping (this sometimes can be my horrible coping mechanism when i’m upset), and scrolling online to adore the arts (writing, illustrations, music, etc.) !! art is often my outlet for expression which is why i love it! my music genre can be very expansive as i am open to many suggestions. my main genre is mostly pop (english, c-pop, j-pop, k-pop, i like them all!), video game soundtracks and some classical music!

• my love language is quality time (second and third is probably physical touch and words of affirmation)! my giving love language however is probably physical touch with how much my friends like to comment about how touchy i am.

• my pet peeves are usually people who are confrontational and arrogant. i also may be a tiny bit germaphobic so i get protective of my personal living space. i am a huge scared-y cat too (a list of my fears are: the dark, heights, spiders, doctors, storms, the horror genre, gore, and jumpscares/loud noises) so i don’t appreciate when people force me into those kinds of things.

• first things i tend to notice is probably how talkative someone is. i often times like to be the jokester in the group, either making myself or someone else into a funny comment or just tell funny stories so i can sense if someone is actively present or not. i also can notice physical boundaries (like how they hug someone) they may have since i am also a very affectionate person.

• my outlook on life is usually optimistic but i can also become heavily pessimistic easily. i struggle with a lot of self esteem issues and can be very quick to self-blame or self-sabotage. i’m a very daydream-y person and love living in my imagination (basically with rose colored glasses-), so i love believing in the good of people. i used to have a philosophy of giving love to everyone but that’s recently changed from some traumatic events i’ve gone through. i still want to be open-minded and care for people whenever i can assist because that’s just where i’ve found myself to be happy and useful. i’m very curious and unaware because i can be a bit ignorant to my surroundings, i’ve been told that it’s allowed many people to make assumptions off of my actions regardless of my intentions.

• lastly !! i love love love romance tropes and some of my top favorites are love at first sight, soulmates, mutual pining, love in school settings, friends to lovers and maybe a bit of enemies to lovers. i’d honestly love and adore the idea of being in love with someone fluffily !! i’d probably fall for someone from just the first few meetings, if they made me laugh, comments on small things that they notice about me or they just have interest in things i like! ( ๑॔˃̶◡ ˂̶๑॓)◞♡

i hope this list did okay in summing me up. if not, you’re always welcome to peek into my dms! thank you so much and i hope you’re doing well! take breaks and drink water whenever you can! - nami ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭*☆

Thank you for Checking the Weather your forecast is...

Daichi Sawamura!

So, It was incredibly hard to decide between this and second place, I genuinely thing that there's an equally matched amount of compatibility, I had my reasons for picking Daichi, but honestly, 2nd place would adore you just as much. Daichi is the strong-willed and rock-solid base of Karasuno. His level-headed plays and easy-going nature lead him to really connect with his teammates and earn their trust. He commands respect, but never abuses his power, proving himself loyal and kind. He's not afraid to keep people in line, yet has enough compassion to not be too harsh with them.

I genuinely think Daichi adores you as a partner. He'd really think you were out of his league, but would still attempt to befriend you. I don't believe he's incredibly talkative, especially while flustered (which he easily gets around you), but he often makes casual conversation. I think you'd begin to notice the small things, like him increasing the font on his notes or moving things to lower shelves intentionally.

I think that Daichi's love language is a mixture of acts of service and quality time. He is very thankful for you, and is a respectful king. I really think that he likes talking with you over a cup of tea or coffee. If you're comfortable with it, he adores giving you forehead kisses, piggyback rides or just pulling you into his arms. I very much imagine it's like the feeling of putting on fluffy socks right out of the dryer when your feet are cold.

In this relationship, I think that Daichi has a gift of grounding and encouraging you. Anytime you begin to spiral, Daichi's right there to help. You also help him with his own struggles, You calm him when he's about ready to snap and bring such a light of passion he never would've thought he deserved his lifetime. he melts if you ever hug him out of the blue. He gets so flustered when you dress up he once ran into the doorway. Sugawara laughed.

I headcanon Daichi's quite protective of you, especaily because of your optimistic nature and kind heart. He doesn't want you to be hurt while you're around him, and I imagine he sends his death-glare if anyone says anything. He protects you from anything you're scared of and if you have to face it, he holds your hand the entire time. he's honestly a sweetheart though and I genuinely believe that he just wants the absolute best for you.  

All and all, this is a super wholesome relationship, I have a feeling that Daichi will encourage you to advocate for yourself and set up boundaries, and you'll help him let loose a little. I see many dates, including ice skating and netflix w/ gummy bears. I think he'd love to surprise you, and would always give you his hoodie. He adores you, and will do absolutely anything to make you happy. 

Second: Oikawa would also absolutely adore you, I have a feeling there was a rivalry for a bit. I do think he might get on your nerves with his insensitive comments, arrogant nature (despite being insecure) and busy schedule. It's an extremely close second but He might be a little neglectful, as why I chose Daichi. However, I do think he'd treasure you as a friend, maybe never fully get over it, but he'd also want you to be happy. 

Third: Akaashi, this man. He's attentive, sweet, and would be an excellent pairing for you, I don't think that he'd make any moves though and might struggle to not be harsh. He'd genuinely care about you, and I think you and him would be some really close friends.

(on a side note, I thought it was super cool, I'm an infp too and we have similar outlooks. Even though I considered most of the cast as I always do, I was surprised how much this matchup lined up with previous ones I, myself, have gotten.)

Death Note Matchup: L Lawliet

Warnings: Fluff. 

Anonymous Request: Hi! I was wondering whether I could have a romantic match up with a male death note character? Thanks sm! (This is my first time requesting a match up so sorry if this sucks!)

Personality- To keep this concise, my best qualities are Im hardworking, careful with my decisions, helpful and rational. My worst traits are Im pessimistic, short tempered, very introverted/socially anxious, aloof and I’m very blunt.

Hobbies/likes- music (I play the guitar), baking, perfumes and makeup, fashion, coffee and tea, the rain and chemistry

Dislikes-loud noises, risky/dangerous activities, insects and overly emotional people

Random facts: I have really bad motor skills. As in in really clumsy and I suck at anything that requires precision with my hands.

I have a habit of sounding really unsure when I speak. Like I always say uhh before a sentence.

hope that wasn’t too long! Also please deathtake care and take your time!

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After going through the information given, I believe that you best pair well with L or L Lawliet!

First of all, L thinks that your personality is quite similar to his. While off putting to most individuals, especially when pairing a short temper with pessimism, he finds it refreshing and new. In his line of work, he thinks that people should be more rational, to think through their decisions clearly. Furthermore, a blunt person is more likely to get on his good side because he doesn’t want to spend time on pleasantries or niceties when you could just get to the point. With this sort of personality, you instantly gain both his respect and his interest.

A hard working nature such as yours is also a boon in his favor as well. L didn’t get into his position just by chance. Sure, he had his superior intellect and drive for justice, but he had to work to become as prominent a figure in international law enforcement. Sometimes, if he finds himself in a slump at work, he’ll see your diligence and finds his confidence and vigor renewed. 

You bake? Oh my, prepare to aid Watari in purchasing ingredients to bake more pastries for him. If he finds that your baking is on par or surpassing the baking prowess of his closest confidant, then he will make you his personal baker and relegate Watari to other duties. If there’s one thing you’ll learn about L, it’s that he’s pragmatic (and that his stomach rules over his brain concerning certain matters). 

L doesn’t understand makeup and fashion, but when the two of you become closer, he finds himself tracking what sort of brands you like and what palettes best complement your skin. He won’t say anything, but he’ll place an order for whatever you want and before you know it, you’ll find that someone has delivered some of the best that makeup companies have to offer. 

The same goes for fashion. He normally doesn’t have a preference on what people look or dress like—unless of course he needs to profile suspects—but he can’t deny that certain fabrics, colors, and cuts bring out your beauty. If you find that he’s staring at you more often, don’t be afraid to ask him what he thinks! He’ll more than likely tell you the truth that he finds you attractive in certain outfits. (Hint: This is a cue for you to get as many outfits that follow a similar scheme to get him looking at you more often). 

L knows a lot about the sciences, but sometimes, to humor you and to bond with you more, he might ask you about chemical compounds (or anything chemistry related in general) to get your opinion on things. He’ll mainly ask when he’s in the middle of an investigation and needs someone to take his mind off things if he’s feeling particularly stressed. If you’re really excited about chemistry, he’ll cherish the look of excitement in your eyes and the tone of voice that you use. 

Drag him out into the rain. It’s calm and soothing: the feeling of droplets splashing against his skin is one of L’s favorite sensory experiences. He’s not a romantic—not in the truest sense of the word, anyway—but he might consent to dancing with you. 

L prefers to work in near silent conditions. Unless he’s working with a team of investigators, you won’t have to deal with overly loud noises! If you suffer from sensory issues, L can both relate and help ground you if it negatively affects you. He’s not too prone to physical touch, but he’ll make sure that you’re well taken care of. 

Furthermore, knowing that you don’t like dangerous or risky activities fills L’s heart with relief. He tells himself that you’ll be a liability in the long run, but really, it’s because he wants to make sure that you stay out of harm’s way. You can rest assured that he’ll do anything in his power to give you the most comfortable life untouched by his job. 

L finds your clumsiness and hesitance in speaking somewhat adorable. He doesn’t, at first, but over time, when he grows used to you, he associates it with your character. It truly fits you and makes you unique in his eyes.

Exploring a romantic relationship with L has both its ups and downs. You’ll have to forgo traditional aspects of romance (like hand holding, close physical contact, and loving words), but you know at the end of the day he has your best interests at heart. 

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DEATH NOTE MASTERLIST

what do you think are the most redeeming qualities about human beings? anything you've seen lately that reminds you of said redeeming qualities? and how have you been kind to yourself this week?

While sometimes I can be very jaded and think the worst of people (since I’m both fairly pessimistic and have seen people/patients who need and deserve much more kindness and help than they’ve received), I think that people definitely have the capacity for good. I think a redeeming quality about humans is their ability to show compassion, which to me means thinking of others first and noticing their needs and showing others consideration and empathy

I’ve actually seen a few examples of this lately which has warmed my heart. The first is from my mom. Someone she works with was promised a promotion and took on extra work and responsibilities with that in mind and then ultimately was overlooked (and someone else was promoted). My mom saw that she suddenly took days off and wasn’t acting like herself so when she returned she made an effort to talk talked with her. She sympathized with her and agreed with her about how unfair it was and let her voice her feelings and praised her (both her work ethic and how who she is impacted her daughters) and gave her advise and from what she told me it seemed like her coworker appreciated it all. And I had to commend my mom since this is very much something she would do and doesn’t necessarily appreciate how important it is and how not everyone would take the time to do it

My other example is how much my coworkers help me and notice how I’m feeling and try to make things better. Recently at my job there have been a lot of staffing changes and we really don’t have the support we need (we lost our main doctor and our nurse practitioner about a month apart and our other doctor is only there a few days a week if that so a lot of the time it feels like we’re on our own) so it puts a lot of pressure on me (since I’m the next in command in a sense). There are two medical assistants at the clinic that have been doing so much to help me. There’s one of these MAs in particular that will always take on extra work to try to make things easier for me and she’ll see when I’m getting stressed out and make sure I take a break or she’ll take a walk with me or just pull me away my work so I can have some time to breathe. And it was so sweet because last week I was trying to say thank you and they both said that there was no need to thank them and that they want to help me🥹

In terms of being kind to myself this week (which is the part of your question that I nearly forgot to answer🙈), I let myself indulge in the things I love to eat and tried not to feel guilty about it and just enjoy myself

Radiant Growth: Nurturing positivity for a flourishing life

The term “positivity” describes our inclination to view the world positively. Negativity, on the other hand, is characterized by unpleasant thoughts, feelings, and behaviors. When we are optimistic, we may feel well, think positively, and act positively.

The Influence of Good Attitude

Improved mental and physical health can result from positivity. For instance, we may protect ourselves from the negative consequences of stress by engaging in self-directed positive thinking. Thus, for example, work on developing your self-compassion abilities and practice being kind to yourself.

Positive thinking with an eye toward the future may also be quite effective. For instance, optimism can result in improved social interactions and stress management skills.

Positive Emotional Examples

Here are some illustrations to assist you in utilizing positivity’s power in your life.

Self-centered optimism: “I’m a decent person.”

Positive thinking focused on others: “My friends aren’t perfect, but they support me when I need them.”

Expressing gratitude: “My wonderful husband is a blessing.”

focusing on the good: “That movie was awesome.”

Savouring: “I felt so connected and at ease during that trip last year.”

Future-focused optimism: “This year’s ‘Friendsgiving’ with my friends is something I’m looking forward to.”

Positive Thinking and Mental Training

Studies have indicated that we may enhance our cognitive abilities in ways that promote happiness. good results can be achieved, for instance, via computerized training that encourages individuals to choose the good above the bad.

The Influence of Positive Activities

These are some exercises that can help you become more optimistic.

1. Compose a letter of self-compassion.

Positivity may be found, expressed, and received more easily when you are at ease and compassionate towards yourself. Try composing a self-compassion letter to yourself to increase your level of self-compassion. You give yourself a break for everything you may have been criticizing yourself for in this letter by being kind to yourself.

2. Apply constructive self-evaluation

An emotion-regulation technique called positive reappraisal is attempting to reinterpret the circumstances to identify their positive aspects and lessen our negative feelings.

3. Show appreciation

Keeping gratitude lists and journals is a fantastic method to cultivate optimism. To increase your appreciation, just make an effort to think of something for which you are thankful every day or every few days.

4. Take up a positive thought meditation.

The practice of mindfulness meditation is quite common nowadays. What about mindfulness meditations, though? These can lift your spirits and help you concentrate on the good things in life. Many of these meditations are available on YouTube.

When Optimism Could Backfire

As often happens, pressuring someone to be positive might backfire. For instance, encouraging positivity in pessimists might exacerbate their anxiety levels in addition to impairing their performance. We may turn to anxiety and other unfavorable results as support. Furthermore, emotional avoidance through repression and other means is detrimental to one’s well-being. It’s acceptable if positivism doesn’t seem right for you or in a certain circumstance.

How to Increase Happiness’s Power

Sometimes all we need to do is clear our brains and prepare to think in more optimistic ways. Consider the following questions for yourself:

What strengths do you possess?

Which qualities do you possess?

For what do you feel thankful?

What can you make sure you have something to look forward to, or what do you have to look forward to)?

In conclusion: Harnessing the Power of Hope

You can create more optimism if that’s what you desire. However, be careful not to push positively when it doesn’t feel appropriate.

You can become happier the more you practice positive thinking techniques.

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And I thought I didn't need this anymore

I suppose dark thoughts never go away, ha.

Recently it's about the husband whom I mentioned previously that I love very much. I still do, but many of our conversations has me overanalyzing everything and doubting whether he reciprocates those feelings.

I've written this down in my physical journal, but I suppose I want to put it together with my other dark and negative thoughts, lawl.

So I had asked him many dumb questions (not sure why I choose to because knowing him, he'll give me too hetero-male of an answer), and of course had not gotten the responses that I was expecting, or wanting.

Why did you decide to marry me? - Because you don't try to control me, you let me do my own thing. (To which I responded with: couldn't ANYone do that? What's so special about me then?) He maintains that it's not easy for most women to not control as much as I don't. Fine. The answer I was looking for was probably some "good" quality about me, but I suppose those aren't necessarily important for him.

Don't you think that we have a good relationship? - Well, I wouldn't say we do, relationships ebb and flow, you can be good one day and not so good the other. (This question was asked on a particular "good" day (for me), and I wanted him to just say, "yes".)

All of this is to say, he is a tad bit too pragmatic/rational for those "romantic" moments that I was looking for. But really, he is never actively romantic. I mean, I don't need those moments a lot, but he sure as hell won't feed them to me even if I make it obvious.

The last couple of nights, I've been trying to avoid physical contact with him. Usually when he says he's gonna turn the lights off to go to sleep, I would lean over and hold him for a couple of minutes (he "can't sleep" when I'm holding him), and then I'll let go and go back to reading my webtoons. But I refrained. I'm not sure if he noticed, since I do it EVERY night. Or at least I had been doing it every night for the last couple of months that I've been funemployed. I suppose there were a couple of times when I had been a tiny bit upset with him and also didn't, but it's never been two nights in a row.

Is it such a big deal? you may ask. Well, it isn't. All the times when you're being irrationally upset about your better half, it's usually over something really silly. But alas, my feelings are mine and I happen to feel this way right now.

Being the negative and pessimistic me, of course I went off on a tangent and started thinking about shit like, "why would he want to marry me anyway, I'm nothing special, might as well just get a divorce right now". But it actually did get me to start thinking back about when we decided to get married, and I honestly can't remember why. I was anti-marriage for 30+ years, and all of a sudden I met "the one" and then I decided to marry him. But now I can't remember how I came to that conclusion. Like, was it absolutely necessary for us to get married? Or were we just pressured into it because his dad passed away? I mean, I don't remember anyone (at least not my parents) telling me that I better get married right away or anything. It's weird. I mean, obviously I "love" him. But love is never the right reason to get married in my opinion. There must've been something else that prompted this decision making process.

Anyway, I don't regret marrying him, of course, but I just can't seem to figure out why I decided to in the first place. What's in it for him, anyway. Sure, he got to move into a pretty nice apartment, but is it worth all the trouble of having to deal with me and my family and everything else? I have no idea. Anyway, it's been two days and I suppose I'm still not over it. Like, I'm probably gonna be awkward in front of him again tonight. Meh.