Not to vent but I think my biggest fear is failure but I’m also like so set up for it. Self sabotage is all I know.

Doodles and Tifa 🤍

I’d like to throw my two cents in on the “Tango dies needlessly curse” subject, and say I disagree. I don’t think it was pointless this time

Is it a trend that he dies in a silly and stupid manner? Yes. Is that the case this time? In a way. Scar just broke the floor from under him and let him drop.

But it was a death borne of revenge for an act of revenge for a violent task. Scar wanted the Heart Foundation dead, and he dedicated himself to making that happen. Are the consequences of the tasks pointless? Especially for Scar, where the tasks he was given left him alone and hated?

Tango also just…knew it was coming. He was a dead man walking, no matter the amount of gifted hearts. He could’ve gone on a rampage, frantically setting traps, rushing in to score kills, never being able to let down his guard because anything could kill him. Or he could do what he did, which was spend time with his allies, goof off with them, and follow the man he knew would kill him. I think he was at peace with it, because any other action would be to live paranoid and violent and reckless, and who wants to go out like that? Best to go out laughing and setting something on fire for the hell of it. Is that choice pointless?

I think the reason trans girl mob goes off so hard is because… the show is inherently about a kid who’s an outcast learning to be his best most happy self. Like people always say be yourself yeah but that usually doesn’t actually mean anything.

Mob psychos thesis statement is you are NOT special, and that is beautiful because it means you can be anything. Just because you’re a good artist and a shit singer doesn’t mean you should do art instead of singing, you should do what makes you happy and strive to be as good at it as you can, because mediocre is an achievement when you aren’t special, it’s about self improvement, not being the best.

And then you get a kid, who’s constantly terrified of his own emotions and how they effect others and is seen as naive, who doesn’t fit the stereotypical masculine world well (weak as hell, cares a lot about emotions, pacifist) and doesn’t fit the stereotypical feminine world well either (reserved usually, in the body improvement club, horrible fashion, not able to read a room) and you say part of being the best, happiest possible version of yourself is realizing your gender, and it’s not a sad thing, and it’s not about anyone else, it’s about being the best you possible.

I don’t think mob in show is trans or would be any better or worse at being a girl than he is at being a boy, because it isn’t about that. It’s about the idea that when people do the things that are important to them without regard for what other people might think and only focus on being who they want to be (not who they think they should be, not on who they are, who they WANT to be, who would be both a good person and make them happy) that that is the best, happiest, most successful version of them. And I think that’s beautiful.

Im going to have to learn new depths of emotional maturity to handle the field school this season tbh

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see i have all these spicy takes in the drafts that i don’t post out of self-restraint but then i see a spicy take that i hate SO MUCH and then i want to post mine out of revenge. it’s a terrible cycle tbh.

i may know it’s healthy to interact with people and be social, but that doesn’t mean i find it easy in any way

for the past, say, three or four years of my nephew’s five year life i’ve been taking care of him pretty regularly. it’s not been entirely fair to either of us but i’ve grown hopelessly attached to the kid and for better or worse i’m in this for the long haul with him. my sister is present, but she’s a bit insane and not exactly as stable as she ought to be for him. a good example of this lies in the fact that i’ve got to go to the first day of kindergarten with him so i can talk to his teacher, because my family is worried that my sister won’t (he’s got a speech impediment she’s done nothing to help him with and i want him to get help before he gets teased for it). anyways the other day i was talking to my friend group and the topic of me not going out because of him came up. they told me he wasn’t my kid and it isn’t my problem. which is true!! he isn’t my kid and it shouldn’t be my problem, and realistically i know i can go out and he’ll be okay, but a part of me aches a little because while that’s true, it’s also true that in many ways he is mine. i couldn’t explain to them in a way that they could understand that he needs me and i know i deserve to live my 20s but here is this little boy who has done nothing wrong and i’ve got to be there for him. even though i dont, even though his mom is there, because she isn’t, not always, and i need him to know he’ll always have someone. i guess it was just kind of frustrating because i couldn’t explain it and they couldn’t understand it and it hurt my feelings a little that they acted as though he was something i could just push aside (even though realistically i could)

And then I finally end it off with some doodles of them… they make me feel things.

Living in a small town for pretty much all your life is like being in a sitcom that’s been going on for way too long

I’m not like an expert on childcare or anything but I am a human person who has been around for over two decades and I have made a couple of interesting observations about kids during my time on this Earth:

If you scream at a small child, they are probably going to either scream back in defiance or start crying out of fear.

If you get rough with a small child and try to physically drag them around, they are probably going to feel trapped (because they are) and instinctively try to escape.

Doing either of these things will scare the child and make them significantly less likely to do as you ask and stay by your side because they don’t want to get screamed at or hit.

Now, this all might seem like common sense to you; and it absolutely is!

SO WHY THE FUCK DO MOTHERS OF TODDLERS AT THE SUPERMARKET KEEP BEHAVING THIS WAY

One of my kiddos said I was like Senshi and AU had to stop and scream because I feel like I’m Chilchuck at best my dudes. Senshi is the goal though.

magical john drag king is exactly what alan moore meant about the ideaspace this absolutely existed in our collective consciousness as a human species

I know it’s just a silly dumb joke but also I get so irrationally irritated every time I see someone make one of the “x jjk character was born to shojo forced to shounen 😔” comments it’s so fucking annoying shut up shut up shut uppppppp

One of the most frustrating and confusing parts of life is when I start to do something for closure and then realizing this closure may do more to harm me than heal me like I hoped it would.