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The Rustle of Leaves
Human female x forest guardian
Chapter 5-A Wandering Mind
The week following was a blur for Vanessa. Most weeks were fairly monotonous, going to lectures either as a student or teaching assistant, grading papers, just general college things, but this week was different. Monday was full of excitement, of course everyone was losing their minds over the blatant head wound covered in a bandage, shoulder bandaged, and band aids covering her legs. Her friends were constantly asking if she needed anything, especially one Carter Rosmund aka Cyclops, much to his chagrin. He had made many arguments for other x-men, mostly wolverine, but they always fell on deaf ears. Carter stood at 6 foot 3 and genetics had been kind to him. Sun kissed skin, short brown hair, broad shoulders, and blue eyes. He wasn’t extremely buff but he obviously took care of his body, and others noticed. But he only had eyes for one person.
“Vanessa what happened? You sent that picture then radio silence. Are you alright?” He reached for her face to give it a once over.
Vanessa pulled his hands away, “It looks worse than it actually is. I just fell a bit.”
“Just? And how does one fall a bit?” Carter asked skeptically.
“Well. You know. You slip on an outcropping, tumble a bit, and then pass out for an hour or two.” The last few words lost in a mumble.
“Ness!” Vanessa cringed at the nickname, “Did you go to a hospital? Do you still need to?” Carter was uneasy, “I’m sure Professor X will be fine with us missing class considering the way you look.”
“You worry too much. I was checked over and I’m fine. Now let's go before we are late. I have a reputation to uphold.” And Vanessa marched on ahead of him. She really was fine, all thanks to Ten. Whatever he had done really did take the pain away. The wounds were still healing but they didn’t slow her down. She was lost to her thoughts again. The memory of Ten. The gentleness of his touch. The surprising warmth of him. She could feel that same warmth swim over her and settle in her chest. She could feel his lips ghost over her knuckles again. It all swam through her head, along with the worry. Worry of what was to come, and what she was to give in return.
“Ness you sure you don’t need me to get anything for you? You haven't been able to focus all day, let alone hear anything I’ve said.” Carter had been hovering around any free moment he had since the morning. He offered his arm for her to lean on.
“My legs work just fine. I can get around no problem. I just have a lot on my mind.” Vanessa kept walking towards the library.
“You’re not feeling light headed? Need to lie down or anything?” Carter stopped in front of her looking into her eyes. He started to reach for her face.
“Calm down jeeze. You’re like a helicopter mom. I’m fine, I swear. Don’t you have class?” She swatted his hand away, and kept walking.
Carter checked his watch, she was right, but he didn’t want to go. “If you need anything just ask, got it? Even if it's just to talk.” His tone was serious. Vanessa knew that wasn’t an option. She knew Carter’s intentions were good and that his heart was in the right place but..
How long before an inch becomes a mile? Best to keep distance.
“Okay Dad whatever you say. I’m fine, just go.” Vanessa missed the way he hesitated at her words. Didn’t see the need in his eyes, but the focus of her mind was elsewhere. No matter what she did her mind trailed back to the forest. Everything happened so fast and it was so unclear. The uncertainty made her anxious. Her sleeping was sporadic and her focus nonexistent. Any free time she had was spent pouring through books and various websites looking for any answer to put her at ease. Before she knew it, it was Friday night. She was in her kitchen with Sandy baking. Sandy had decided on berry muffins, mostly because she had a craving for some, but they were also very portable. “I mean who doesn't like muffins? Especially blueberry muffins, ya know? Classic. Delicious. Van, are you even listening?”
Vanessa was pulled from her thoughts as she was taking the last batch out of the oven.”Listening to what? You stuff your face while I do all the work?” Sandy gave an over the top gasp. “I’m sorry Cheeks, I’m just nervous for tomorrow.”
“Nervous for what? Wait. Hold up. Was he hot? The guy that saved you. Need a wing man?” Sandy joked but Vanessa’s stomach turned at her words. She had no idea what would happen once she went back. Her mind had jumped through many hoops during the week, some not so savory.
Vanessa took a deep breath, hoping to stop the incessant spiral of her thoughts, “I promise I don’t need a wing man. Though he was definitely attractive.” Vanessa could not deny that she held a level of attraction for Ten. Even when her thoughts went to unsavory places, she did not always mind. There was also a level of comfort she felt when he held her. She remembered his gentle touch, but also the way he held her. Secure and safe? It only made her nerves spur on.
Sandy’s eyes sparkled with glee, “Oh shit! Okay Van Van, let's get your man then!” The rest of the night was fueled by Sandy’s determination. Outfit planning, plans to get them alone, any scheme to get him to notice.
The drive the next morning was anything but quiet. While Vanessa could feel the pit of despair in her stomach, Sandy was absolutely jamming!
“Van Van you have to get in the mood! Pump yourself up!” Sandy bobbed her head and shimmied her shoulders. “Come on Van!” Vanessa gave in and danced along with her. Maybe Sandy was right, just have to get in the right mood.
#alexa play all for you by janet jackson#Might try to start posting these on a weekly schedule#I have a bit of buffer now#I'll post maybe something random in the middle of the week#more for me than anything#I kind of like keeping myself on a schedule#writing#monster boyfriend#monster lover#forest monster#monster fucker#monster romance#monster#monster x human
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Hello!
If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?
There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?
OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts
No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:
This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.
Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning
Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.
And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate..
But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!
Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)
This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that
#not art#admin answers#paranatural#pnat#richard spender#pts-fic-notes-and-blog#before i continue on with tag ramble i just want to say tysm for leaving an ask!#none of my friends read this so ive been stewing on these thoughts for some months and i loved finally sharing them#this isn't exactly proof but the hijack possession seemingly being the final nail in the coffin for his and isabel's relationship.#idk it feels significant to me. thats one more tether to support kinda gone. someone who knows him well enough to know he's unwell#he seems not exactly content but fr incapable of not burning bridges as he is now. and considering how rashly he acts he REALLY needs those#to not do stupid shit all the god damn time with no buffer other than Lucifer. who for his measured approach to rick's hotheadedness#has honestly shown himself to be pretty lenient and kinda bad at controlling spender's more (self) destructive tendencies? so he dont count#to be clear i love spender to bits but he is dumb as rocks and has all the self preservation of a fruit fly. it needs to be said#also the lightning man... idk its WEIRD like especially on the reread its the thing that most consistently threatens him! it repeats#sure he gets chewed by a bat and banged up by forge but?? he somehow always comes back to lightning. catnine has it out for him#its something i didnt even really put together until i continued reading the flashback chapter AFTER getting this ask and went OHHHGNHF#which the only reason lightning is such a non issue is lucifer's powers. which belong to his sunglasses and not to the spirit in him#so its not like they can't be taken away he's just got a really good excuse for having those on all the time#TAGS GETTING SO LONG. ANYWAYS. i hope this is comprehensible lol
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Silly sketches I did like a week ago.
Idk but the way they’re framing Dark Cacao rn with the whole “a bunch of people broke in tried to my steal my (fake) treasure and called me a fake immortal” backstory for Mystic Flour combined with the whole yin/yang symbolism in that one frame from the trailer and the fact that she still seems to want what’s best for cookiekind added onto the fact that Dark Choco (a character about second chances and forgiveness) is showing up in BY book 4…. Idk makes me think that maybe she’s getting redeemed or something.
Not a serious theory or anything, I’m totally wrong but it’s fun to think about. The beast updates actually being about the 5 heroes Friendship is Magic-ing their way into helping the beasts like come to terms with their situation and learn to coexist with the two halves of their soul jam.
Maybe that could be what the “Awakened” states are- becoming the whole soul jam light thingy. Or maybe just accepting their place as a half. Like I said, not a serious prediction it’s just fun to think about.
#can you see me struggling with Mystic Flour’s face?#bc an old HC decreed the ancient heroes had to look similar to the previous owners of their SJ#this was like a year before the beasts were shown in game soooo called it#anyway but whatever#also the way she phrased the stealing treasure thing kind of made it sound like SA but like.#they probably didn’t mean it like that#nobody even reads my tags so it’s like. eh#I really just ramble in the tags bc I’m embarrassed about using actual tags for my posts so my rambling really just acts like a buffer#am I repeatedly saying this isn’t serious bc someone vauged my completely joking post where I said Dark Cacao was a bit of an asshole?#because it was a joke. and also in books 13-14 she is an asshole#and in the post I made several other references to headcanons I had like Choco being transgender and DC having autism and also calling her#SHE/HER which she doesn’t use in canon? like I feel like you can tell that I was joking.#I’m not even mad I’m just befuddled#like I like their actual game analysis and respect them as a blogger but like???? why am I catching strays I think the post got like 7 notes#whatever it’s not that serious but like ???? they reblogged my art 5 seconds before posting it did they WANT me to see it??? like?????#anyway nobody asked normal tags now#girlblogging#crk#dark cacao cookie#dark cacao crk#mystic flour cookie#mystic flour crk#teethart#cookie run kingdom#anyway next update MF should tell DC to kill himself
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Gonna put a picture of a bug below the cut. Can anyone identify what type it is so I can tag it in an upcoming gifset? (It will also be tagged with bugs & bugs tw but i also just want to tag whatever type of bug it is)
#bug#bugs#bugs tw#i've had this video to gif for...years now#better late than never‚ right?#also i put my queue on pause so i can get a bit of a buffer period going#so i don't have to gif something every day#but i should be able to resume the queue function shortly
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Day 14! I simplified the metal parts for the sake of time, but I still really like them. I’ll probably keep the plated look even when I have time to add in wires and tubes and stuff
#hermitaday#docm77#hermitcraft#cay’s art#last week was busy and my buffer has almost run out. so this week’s are gonna be a bit rushed#which means more focus on the major design elements and less on making it look how I want#I have more time now though so hopefully by next week I’ll have a decent buffer again
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what they don't tell you about lactose intolerance is that it geTS WORSE why did nobody WARN ME it would GET SO BAD
#get me out of here. get me out of here. get me out of here.#I've been lactose intolerant pretty much my entire life but this past semester it's just been so awful#i go a week without a cheese. wonderful. i take 3 lactaid pills before one (1) slice of pizza. The pills have worked for me before.#Surely the horrors won't prevail AUGHHHHH AUHGHHSHH THE HORRORS!! THE HORRORS!! WHAT'S BECOME OF MY LACTASE#HELLO? ? HELLO!! DIGESTIVE SYSTEM WHERE'S YOUR FEEBLE LACTASE NUMBERS . You and I BOTh know there was a lactase in there at some point.#even if not many. even if only One. you fool. you horrendous beast.#this is disastrous. one (1!!) tiny slice of pizza buffered with THREe lactaid pills. and it's still so over. my tummy ? hurted.#Hurted so bad. and for what#I just want to digest a Lactose is that so bad. Is that so horrible of me. Can I not have a little tiny bit of lactose for me.#Ok i'm done complaining now. I have experienced so many agonies. hell hath no fury etc etc.#clamtalk
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Qi and names
A really, really random thing I've been noticing as I'm doing a second playthrough: Qi almost never calls anyone by just their name. Unless he's talking directly to someone, he almost always uses a title or a stand-in...nickname? Epithet? Not sure what to call it.
[VERY long post below, contains some act 2 and mild act 3 spoilers]
Grace: The frycook
Elsie: The rancher's daughter/ranch girl
[pardon the text mine, i don't have screenshots of some of the act 3 quotes and it's not up on the wiki yet]
Catori: The entrepreneur
Justice: The sheriff
Also combined with Unsuur: The lawmen
Pen: The homunculus man
Yan: "Your director"
X: The bird
Bronco the Kid: "The person seeking Logan"
Pablo: "Our local barber"
Here are the ones with titles:
Trudy: Mayor Trudy (but also sometimes just "Mayor" or even "Trudy")
Fang: Dr. Fang
Nia: Assistant Nia
You/the builder: Earlier in the game/at lower relationship levels, he'll only call you "Builder". But later on, he'll always use your builder's name.
(at Buddy level)
(at Good Friend level)
And last but not least, those who Qi always refers to by name:
Mint (but he also calls him Sleepyhead, of course)
Zeke
Logan
Matilda (though she's only ever referred to once and she's been de facto stripped of her minister title at this point, so I'll gloss over her)
So uh...what's the takeaway? Well, I think it's an insight to Qi's idea of respect. All the people in the first section have nicknames, which are mostly light jabs at their character/job.
Contrast to the people in the second and third sections. If they have an established title of authority, he'll use it. And for those he refers to by name directly, it's someone he personally respects. Think about it:
Trudy is the mayor, the highest authority in town (and also probably singlehandedly responsible for his funding lol)
Qi's no quiet admirer of Fang's work, as shown by their few interactions
He respects Zeke as a fellow man of science, and a very persistent one at that
Nia is part of academia, advised by a reputable professor
Mint is obvious; he's his closest friend
And you! Take another look at his dialogue with you as it progresses through the main quest, especially after you build the mobile suit. He comes to respect you and your work.
Logan is an interesting exception, but I picked the above quote for a reason. I think he knows straight off the bat that the Logan situation is more complicated than other people say, and he sympathizes with him a little bit (even though he'll promptly hole himself up again and keep working after any Logan event happens).
I made another very long post a while back that touched on why Qi insists on being called "Director" all the time, and I think that's only compounded by this. It's a golden rule type situation, yk? You respect his titles, work, and time, and he'll do the same to you.
ETA: you could also interpret this as Qi viewing people as their occupations first. He's not the most sociable person in town, and he'd like to keep it that way (maybe). So he keeps a veneer of over-professionalism on by default.
#i wrote this instead of doing my stats hw#on this episode of 'shady talks about qi for way too long'...#a dissertation!!#semi-relevant tangent: i also have a very obscure hc that qi only ever goes by his last name#heng is technically his first name but its nowhere to be found in the english version probably for localization reasons#so this is my in universe explanation as to why#he just felt more comfortable with using his last name#and he probably uses it as a bit of a social buffer#and 'director qi' sounds way more authoritative than 'director heng'#okay ill go to bed now#thank you for indulging in my blorbo thoughts once more#my time at sandrock#mtas qi#other shady business#long post
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HOLY SHIT THIS EP WAS INSANE
#am i just easy to please or r they just coming out swinging this season#put this on streaming NOW i need to collect more screenshots#the way boblin immediately knew rudy was lying and how louise went with him ouughh the belchers care abt this boy so much#good bits in there too. “food? question mark?” personal fav#also i love how they continued w rudy liking magic!! iirc that was introduced in apple gore-chard? i love continuity in my episodic shows#shoutout to the piracy site i used for buffering a bunch and messing up like 80% of my screenshots. can't have shit in this house#bob's burgers#bb spoilers#rambles
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top ten things i didnt think could happen during the aoki/bodyguard segment Aoki Actually Attacks
#snap chats#ignore the fact joon-gi's having the worst time ever ok sacrifices had to be made#GOD FINALLY I GOT THESE STUPID GIFS#the funniest bit is that aoki primarily targeted eri i just didnt wanna show her gettin dogged on twice#like father like son why the fuck do they both have problems with eri ☠️☠️#BUT YEAH NO I DIDNT. I NEVER SAW HIM USE HIS GUN OR ATTACK UNTIL LAST WEEK#AND I NEVER SAW ANYONE ELSE TALK BOUT IT AND WE ALL KEPT JOKIN AOKI NEVER USES THE GUN#BUT NO HE DOES my hypothesis. right.#is that he'll only do these things when he has some bodyguards left#'snap the fuck is that top gif then' LISTEN i had JUST gotten rid of a guard before his turn#idk maybe he needs a buffer turn to use guard order idk#but i kept him alone for a solid ten turns and he just kept using guard order#thing is his goons are so easy to take out with essence of rose typhoon or something similar he's always in need of guards#this fight just goes by so fast you never expect him to use either of these- which what makes his empty gun in the followin scene hilarious#hence. why ive never seen it lmao#i can die happy now. im not crazy. im crazy but im not lying#this was so unnecessary LMAO#genuinely insane i can just upload homegrown y7 gifs and videos... wild...#unrelated to these. ive decided tendo is no longer scary ive got the timing down everyone <- two people died during the tendo fight#LISTEN FOR THE MOST PART I GOT IT I JUST FUMBLED AT THE WORST TIME LMAO its all good#at this point im more afraid of the arminator fight since that shit just hates me and kills my millenium runs more than tendo#ok bye im practicing more before my friend hangs out with me
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So that's... the power of Luocha e1... I get it now. I am now a lil less salty from losing my 75/25.
#aria rants#was doing the new world 9 of su without geppie (very nervously too cuz im not used to not having a shielder)#but am like. well i have luocha e2 so maaaaaybe itll be fine? still nervous cuz the last boss of world 9 is the smth unto death#and i just KNOW im gonna have a hard time with that thing. well... turns out i didnt... luocha e1 is so good actually#i had ratio. himeko. bronya (oh yea and her lc i got FROM THE 75/25 LOST. i think that contributed too actually). and luocha#my ratio is decently built but still weaker than my argenti thats so far my strongest in su (esp g&g with the erudition path)#took elation path. got to the last boss with pretty okay blessings. it didnt stand a chance... it didnt actually get much of a turn...#first time i got to do that with an su boss ngl! i never got to kill em fast enough but i managed now! yippee!!! maybe losing that#75/25 wasnt so bad after all. my bronya is stronger with her buffs (i dont... i dont have any other buffer than her...) and my#luocha can finally give buffs AND shield! my team is looking pretty good. (yea since my luck is bad i couldnt get ruan mei and sparkle)#i think ratio's banner was during ruan mei's banner? and i had to get his lc (i needed him to be strong for imaginary dps)#and i couldnt try for sparkle much cuz i was planning on going for aven (which as you can see. my plans went terribly with luocha rerun)#im still gonna try for aven cuz i need another shielder than geppie and aven's kit seems to be the right fit for my ratio#back to the saving board...... hsr rng i hate you but also i cant hate you enough cuz tbf my team DID get stronger a bit...
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18 + swaymark!!
oooo thank you!!
#18 - pleaser, wallows + swaymark
okay i know they are canonically obsessed with each other but. the song is in some ways about feeling like you’re failing in your relationship and being not quite as obsessed with them as they maybe are with you, and in this video of them talking about being a tandem, there is the slightest pause before swayman answers “do you miss him?” that makes me want to probe a wound. we’re not talking irl reasons of how that’s an absurd question (how do you miss him. you’re coworkers you’re seeing each other all the time) we’re talking that maybe this whole goalies-in-love thing got blown out of proportion and now swayman’s having to buy into the bit too hard. linus loves it & everyone’s asking about their bromance & how they love each other so much and the thing is—linus is safe. he’s got a wife and plausible deniability and jeremy? jeremy is gay. sure, he can crack jokes and people-please but the more people ask the more they're going to find out until maybe they find out something jeremy doesn't want them to know. and the longer this goes on, the more jeremy has to sit at linus' dinner table with linus and his beautiful wife and pretend like he isn't a little bit in love with him. and you know what? the longer it goes on and linus doesn't dial it down jeremy does stop being in love with him, because it just feels cruel, until he finally is done enough that he stops biting his tongue and ruins the moment.
#…this so is not a five sentence summary but ALSO this manages to perfectly align with something i was obsessed with (that media video)#like yeah is that pause reasonably a buffering time to a weird question? yes!!! do i want to read into it & make swayman a bit uncomfortabl#also yes!!! sorry i decided to give them tragique but they were assigned by spotify. the other option for this song was an ED fix-it fic#about healthy sex and learning that it can be a part of a normal relationship!! sex is weird and fucked up!! but like. that’s just because#i have always interpreted this song as a) unrequited best friend love & you’re worried you’re gonna fuck it up b) virgin who doesn’t know#what sex is and is scared to tell anyone and then option c) people pleaser keeps going along with it but can’t anymore#also OBVIOUSLY they end up fine. whether that ends up being jeremy finally telling linus (oblivious) i don’t want to do this with you#i need to get over you & them creating a platonic space & sway ends up with someone else OR linus has the oh. true. i simply never#considered that i could be gay for you option OR the one i have just invented but is now my favorite because i love a good polycule is that#linus & his wife simply add jeremy to their relationship. and then this song becomes jeremy scared to have sex with linus’ wife at first lo#liv in the replies#the interviews in that video doing the lord’s work fr but also that ‘do you not miss him’ feels SO uncomfortable. say no! but then he leans#in with the dirty jokes comment & i know i’ve made like eight variations already (sorry. that’s how my brain works) but it is soooo fun#to me personally if they are broken up but now have to act nice & keep doing all these rituals & sell us on the narrative & they’re just#trying to see who’s going to crack first. needle each other into laughing or getting irritated enough it shows through & the other one wins#do even more aggressive hug rituals!! get a medical warning from the athletic training staff!!!
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Uh well, gotta break up the next chapter of Casting Shadows into two chapters because it's almost twice as long as every other chapter....
#octopath nonsense#tales of bad0mens writes#I hadn't expected it to end up as long as it did but WELL I'm not complaining#now it means I have a bit of a buffer to work on other things and hammer out details
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hi! I just binge-read all of the bright side in a few days (thank you, obscure webcomic tournament) and just had to come here and say how good it is. truly wonderful. recommending it it all my friends. I hope you enjoy making it as much as I enjoyed reading it. anyway thank you for bringing so much joy to my life lately, it means a lot.
Omg!!!!! This is so lovely!!!!! I'm so so glad!!! Yes I do love to make it, it continues to be my most powerful brain worms, really anybody enjoying reading it is just a big bonus 😆 but for real this message brings me huge huge joy and means a lot also, really touched that you sent this! Thank you!! I hope you (and any of your friends, wah) continue to enjoy!! ;_;
#...also touched that someone submitted it to that tournament! and by their summary asjfk#I missed the deadline to submit it myself and it fully didn't occur to me than anyone else would ;_; tysm#on the other hand now I'm like competitive and like I hope NOONE reads my comic so it can WIN HAHAHA#but I do want people to read and enjoy it lol. inside there are 2 wolves#there's a song called 'death and the maiden' by the verlaines and the opening goes 'youre just too too obscure for me' so. There's that too#BTW if you're wondering when the next update will go up:#I don't know#due to reasons chapter 54 has been a lot easier to draw than chapter 53#I've never drawn chapters out of order before. Pros and cons#at least when I finally finish chapter 53 the next chapter can just go immediately#and then I'll have a much bigger buffer than ever before in my life#but ... for now ...... a bit stuck on some stuff#lost in the weeds again. You could say.#It's fun but that's one of the problems kinda.
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page 12: congratulations yellow you made them anxious
#memory wipe round#among us#among us comic#artists on tumblr#among us ocs#psii.txt#my art#my ocs#Rösz#Citrom#Remora#I finished this page early for once wahoo#maybe I can actually start building up a bit more buffer now#also I'm rly happy with the backgrounds on this one#well. where there is backgrounds#btw citrom can't walk and form sentences at the same time#so they have to stop walking in order to speak in full sentences
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oaughhhh. everything is stagnant again
#i have. yoo many things to do it is very overwhelming#i cant even make a list like i usually would bc its just. Too Much#head in hands. i need to make phonecalls. everything else will feel like procrastinating until i make those phonecalls#but i cant make those phonecalls until noon#and im. anxious. i dknt like phones#uhhhgggghhh#and its for my new job and ive never done this before so idk what to SAY because i dont really get formal training its kinda just#'heres what you do go do it' and i dont function well with that#hhhrhhghghh i need a script#and like. i kinda wrote myself one but i dont know if itll work or not because AGAIN. never done this before#and i have therapy tomorrow and i dont want to go to that either. uhhhhhvhvhv#i wanna skip the oh god new thing anxiety and just get to the stage where im comfortable. hate this#plus i have a bunch of personal shit i wanna get done. plus i have SO much fuckjng art to catch up on#i wanna build like. a bit of a buffer for art so i can stagger posting for it so im not just gone for months at a time#and i wanna get my page ready for artfight bc its only like a month away now#and#ughhhhhghgh#i also wanna like. relax and read my book and shit like that bit thats not PRODUCTIVE#so instead i am paralyzed to sit here in anxious suffering until my phonecalls
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Currently still having to rest my hand from the artparty-notetaking combo strain injury, but a guildie has me buzzing in place wanting to play eso again
#the thing with eso and gw2 that make them unplayable when strained (and contributors to it sometimes) is that#i am left handed so my tendons are weaving together into a meaty yarn when i balance wasd with a 1thru0 combat keybinds (plus-#-tab and tilde for targeting and weapon swapping as well as f1+ skills#i have given dodge and 6-0 and special action key and autorun and mounting all mouse keybinds as well to buffer#but it still adds up since my left is doing the brunt of the work strafing and backpedaling and weapon skill hitting#and the desks in school are abysmal by which i mean only one of my classes isnt in an auditorium with a fold-over desk the size of my hand#and the remaining class has desk space that barely holds a notebook#which all put my arm in weird positions that force me to twist my wrist when writing#i now have a cheapass school laptop that is thankfully working quite well so far and has feather-light keys which reduce strain quite a bit#but im still not out of the woods lmao#catch me playing skyrim while i study bc its the lowest strain game i have and i need recreation to not go insane#anyways goodnight wish me luck on my calc quiz. professor and ta were unclear so idk if it's tomorrow or friday or if i have one on both#OH and one more thing. if any of you need a vamp or wolf bite in eso hmu i have multiple chompers of each and it only takes me a second
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