The psychic damage you take when you remember that people you know IRL follow your instagram because an old co-worker liked the shippy fanart you posted.

i've been so fucked up for months i haven't been able to go downtown to pick up my work from last spring from my school's textile studio and they always have a cutoff date like if you don't pick up your old work by x date they toss it and they're pretty strict about that unless you arrange with the studio tech beforehand, and the studio tech doesn't like most people she's pretty curt with most students. not rude but just keeps things professional and a bit distant, a very serious person. but i know she grew to like me over the past few years/warmed up to me a lot and we'd chat a lot about different textile things and she would say really kind things to me a lot which felt rare and special, and she let me have special treatment with some of the equipment because she trusted me to use it properly. and i haven't seen her in nearly a year and i expected her to have tossed my work out when i didn't come to pick it up last fall and emailed her to explain why and dropped off the face of the earth, i made my peace with losing that work and accepted it, it is what it is, i will survive, etc.

but she emailed me earlier this week and said she didn't have the heart to toss my work and has kept it safe in her office for me if i'm ever able to come pick it up and if not she's going to keep it as an example piece to show other students when teaching weaving because it's too lovely to get rid of and my heart swelled like 10 times its size bc she didn't have to do that and it meant so much to me that even a year from seeing her last she was still thinking about me and being kind to me. and i emailed her back and picked it up today and saw her and we chatted for a bit and it was so nice. I love her I miss my school's textile studio and weaving in there and talking craft with her... sigh

Hey I have started seeing a lot of your stuff being reuploaded on pinterest. I am not sure if you are ok with that but I just wanted to make sure you were aware if you are not!

I have links I can send over but tumblr won't let me send them over asks :/

You can also just search "canis albus" on pinterest and a bunch of stuff comes up

I don't endorse my art being reuploaded on pinterest without my awareness and consent, but the unfortunate reality is that there's very little I can do to stop people from doing that. I know a lot of artists have a similar sort of antagonistic relationship with the site purely because it's so full of stolen, unsourced and uncredited art. I could spend my days going through pinterest and reporting my pieces for removal, and it wouldn't be enough and I'd never have time to do anything else. It's kind of a pick your fights situation and I know I can't win that one.

It was very thoughtful of you to let me know regardless, thank you!

yeah the past was honestly the best, but my best is what comes next

Ash with Jordan Greenwald on IG

my sister just saw vaguely erotic ultrakill fanart i put on my instagram story can someone ultrakill me

Chip, sorry for asking, but aren't you from Europe? Tumblr says you posted some minutes ago, isn't it awfully late there? Are you okay??

you see... as i write my reply its 15:00 pm. but i am scheduling this post for 17:00 pm because i am a coward :') i rarely instantly do post something at the moment. all my post are sceduled. and for some reason i seteled on scheduling most my works in the middle of the night when i know i am asleep. (hopefully) or after work hours because idk honestly...

thank you for your concern anon! vary sweet of you

*skitters up to you on all fours with a bunch of drawings in my mouth* *drops them at your feet* *skitters away*

enjoy some schizophrenia / psychosis / mental health-based humor.

ast_jinjin: 8th anniversary💜🌙

HBD ASTRO&AROHA😍

it is so much easier to be a pacifist when you're not in any danger.

I honestly don’t for one second believe that lucius is dead. Like not even in the slightest

The Madwoman

Aesthetic wrapper, 2020

Original gothic-inspired design , styled here with bra by Karolina Laskowska

Upholstery damask, silk ribbon, petersham ribbon, silk/steel yarn

Hey, I saw your profile in my IG recommendations and I just wanted to say that I love your art and the memes you put in your posts are so fucking funny!! 😭

anyways have a nice day:D

AHH OUUAAHH TYSM!!! 💥💥💥🎉💕

YOU HAVE A NICE DAY TOO!!!!!!!

i don’t have a caption for this 👍 i love libby and i love clover what more can i say <3

its so weird thinking about childhood best friends you don't know anymore. like. the girl and her siblings who lived next door for year, who I used to considered my sister, who now looking back on it was probably my first crush ever, who swore we would grow up together, who was only 'visiting' her family for a month, turns out her parents lied to us, I never saw her again. the girls I went to summer to summer camp with every year and now I can barely remember there faces.

like. how are they doing?

I still can't conceptualize that these people who mattered *so* much to me are just... gone... chances are that I will never see them again, especially my best friend who's back in Pakistan, and even if I did, so much time has passed that I would most likely not recognize them even if I did see them.

I <3 older trans people I wish I could know more in real life