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theearlgreymage · 8 months

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Tagging Game!! Bold the Things

Thanks for the tag @ic3-que3n 😘

Rules : Bold the things that apply to you. (I also adjusted the color, but that's just me.)

APPEARANCE

Blonde hair // I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // I have one or more piercings // I have at least one tattoo // I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup // I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look // I prefer Nike to Adidas // I wear baseball hats backwards

ACTIVITIES / INTERESTS

I play a sport (I coach technically?) // I can play an instrument // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami // I prefer movies to TV shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // I enjoy spending time with friends // I travel during work or school breaks (back to my home area, so does that count?) // I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIPS

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year // I have a crush // I have a best friend I’ve known for ten years // My parents are together // I have dated my best friend // I am adopted // My crush has confessed to me // I have a long distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

SEASONAL

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sunrise // I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // The sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching // I have attended a bonfire // I pay close attention to colors // I find mystery in the ocean // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // Autumn is my favorite season

MISC

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote // I like the smell of Sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities // I enjoy Mexican food // I can drive a stick shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed (I did as a child and I LOVED it) // I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least 3 dogs

Hello and Tags to my lovely friends (I swear I'm still alive out here despite my radio silence) - @shrekgogurt @artsyunderstudy @ivelovedhimthroughworse @buffy @upuntil6am @stardustasincocaine @hushed-chorus @aristocratic-otter

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raptorix · 9 days

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Used my Beacon access to buy a ticket for the Live Show next month (Yay!) And also listened to the first 3 episodes of Re-Slayer's Take podcast. :D

Thoughts on Re-Slayer's Take:

Great for newbies who are familiar with but not caught up with all of Critical Role. The GMs spell out more setting unique character descriptions, (What's a Tiefling? What's a Firbolg?) but also reward veterans with references we would know (like Vox Machina's brief run with The Slayer's Take.)

More spoilery thoughts behind the 'Read More'

So this is a far more produced & edited podcast than an actual-play. You're not going to hear out-of-character jokes or discussions about gameplay rules. Fully sound edited & music score.

Did my best to endure the constant squelching noises they used for the Gelatinous Cube encounter in the first episode. Someone recorded extended sessions of playing with slime or slurping on Boba *just* for that foley. DX

As for characters: Good charming cast! They utilize the 'DM PCs & player PCs' play style. One of the DMs plays as Timpani the Firbolg to help guide the story directly, while the other does narration & gameplay, and I think plays as the Goblin sidekick, Poogs.

I think I need to go back and re-listen to the first episode for intros. They don't spell out what classes the characters are playing. D:

I can't for the life of me understand why Farah the half elf (???) uses a gravely voice besides 'She's older.' Guessing from her choice in crossbow she's a ranger, though she might be a blood hunter/ranger build? She's been working as a monster hunter prior to her audition to try and join the Slayer's Take, and seems to be looking for a more consistent employment with them.

Heera Agniheart is possibly an Inquisitor Rogue, since she has a high intelligence & insight ability stats, and used sneak attack and a finesse weapon. Also an ochre yellow tiefling w/ water buffalo style horns. The artwork crops that feature out and I'd love to see a full portrait of that :O

Frog is delightful, and I hope to see more Aeormaton characters in Exandria. To make it easier, lore-wise, she was revived w/ full amnesia & is fully unfamiliar with current day Exandria. But she apparently trained with some Monks first, so gets to be the dodge-tank for the group.

Idrin Shadowstep is a Half Elf/Half Orc (I think of the lineage Matt designated as common in Jrusar) and appears to have a sorcerer lineage of either clockwork soul, or an Exandria-Dunamancy variant of it. He has a special time reversal ability he can use to re-roll his or his party member's failed rolls. Very noble of intentions and the neophyte adventurer.

DM PC Timpani Guff took Matt's Midwestern/Canadian accent he used on Pumat Sol and ran with it. A circle of spores druid who fills in as the party's healer & guide. He's trying to get the Slayer's Take to listen to his observations of an extra-planar force bringing old Slayer's Take monsters back from the dead. But because he's lied about his affiliation with them before, the members wont listen to his warnings. So now he's leading this little adventuring group to investigate this while the Slayer's Take willfully ignores it.

Re-Slayer's Take is a difficult title, IMO. RST might be a good acronym. Maybe shorten it to 'Reslayers'?

It's also all-ages friendly. No curse words!!! Injuries also are not graphic. (PCs get bruises or get knocked out, but nothing deadly.) Stakes are challenging, but like in an action cartoon and not infantilizing. I have listened to another podcast attempt to an all-ages spin-off after the prior story setting was explicit, and they started out with kid-gloves and low stakes that almost put me to sleep. Thankfully Reslayers doesn't go that route. We're playing DnD and we got DnD monsters to fight!

Setting timeline-wise is between The Mighty Nein and Bell's Hells. So maybe if we revisit Issylra in the current campaign, we might see/hear of the Reslayers. We'll have to see later, however, as the Reslayers progress their storyline.

Reblogs with any lore corrections from a re-listen or future Encyclopedia Exandria entries.

#critical role #Re-Slayer's Take

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beebeetheclown · 5 months

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I want to be better at writing how do you think I can get better I need some tips🥴 also how do you get in the mood for writing

Hello anon! Thank you so much for asking your questions💕 but at the same time, why did you decide to ask me? Haha there are way better writers on here that could probably help you more. I shall answer your questions and try my best haha👀

How can you get better:

• Firstly, this will sound super cheesy, but you have to trust in yourself, not be too hard on yourself, and be confident. If you are not confident about what you write, it will make it harder to write. Sometimes it is hard to be confident in ourselves, but you just have to try you best and it gets easier the more you do it.

• Read over what you have written. I know, it can be a total pain to read over your work sometimes haha but whenever I don't go back and read, I spot many mistakes. It's always good to check things over.

• Read lots. It definitely helps me out when I read more. One, it helps me understand things like grammar and punctuation. Two, it also helps me get in the mood to write.

• Take some ideas from some of your favourite movies. I am not saying to steal an idea completely, but maybe if there is a certain scene you like, you can add that idea in your writing but make sure to change it up a little so you are not completely stealing the idea.

• Be unique. I get that it can sometimes be super hard to be creative at times, sometimes even I feel so uncreative and want to poke my brain with a stick to get more ideas lol. But ideas will come eventually. What makes a story good to me is when it is unique and different from others.

How I get in the mood:

• Boredom. Haha it is such a simple answer but it is the truth. Whenever I find myself super bored, I always begin to type.

• Sometimes when I feel myself getting overwhelmed, stressed, or sad about something going on in my personal life, I usually go to my bedroom or somewhere quiet if I can and I begin to write. It takes my mind off of things.

• I seem to get ideas when I am up super late (Don't stay awake late if you are tired, get some sleep please haha) or when I am in the bubble bath. I don't know, that's how I get ideas anyway. Strange but true.

• People are different. Some like listening to music and others don't. I say try listening to music when you write and if it distracts you, turn it off and listen to the quiet (sitting in a quiet place is definitely better in my opinion). I am the type of person to not listen to music when I write. I either have nothing playing or if I have sat in the quiet for too long, I turn on a podcast and only put my phone on the lowest volume just so it's not super distracting, I just turn it on so I can have some background noise.

• If you are talking about writing fan fiction and if you are inserting reader into your story, try not to describe the physical things/appearances of the reader. As I read fics with reader as one of the characters, I obviously like to imagine myself haha. So try not to describe things such as hair colour, eye colour etc. because when the reader is in the story, I imagine they picture themselves, their own hair and eye colour and other things of the sort.

I don't know, I hope at least one of these helped you out at least a little. Just don't overthink too hard or be hard on yourself. Also, important note, if you post your writing and don't get feedback, don't let that crush you. Getting no feedback or getting less than you thought does not mean that it is bad. Just keep doing what you do. You write because you enjoy it.

#writing tips #writing #writer #writing ideas #anon asks

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forest-hashira · 20 days

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omg fallon!! i’m so dumb i mean to respond to ur reply but i would love some podcasts recs!! i like listening to scary stories ones (like personal anecdotes / folklore etc) and true crime ! or any just good nonfiction ones! i will say i can’t really get into the ones that are fictional >< ik a lot of people recommend some of the fictional horror ones, which is what i always stumble upon when looking for ghost stories… and then i get bummed they’re not real HHAHA. but if you have any suggestions i’m always open :)

AHAHA no it's ok!!! also i do want to say i saw this like right after you sent it but if this answer isn't up right away it's bc i went overboard with the recs whoops. but i have a friend from college who used to refer to me as "the podcast queen" and also i'm never chill about anything ever so. prepare yourself.

i'm gonna separate these into true crime & not, just for your ease of picking something! i'm also including the app(s) i use to listen to them. these are in no particular order btw

True Crime

Serial - this is probably one that you've heard of/had recommended to you before, but if so there's good reason. i've listened to season one, about adnan sayed, at least a dozen times. i skipped season 2 (about bowe bergdahl), and season 3 (about the justice system of a city in ohio, i believe it's cincinnati?) was lower stakes but still interesting. season 4, about guantanamo bay, is also really good so far. on spotify.

Cold - three seasons, each about a different case of different utah women who went missing and whose body has never been found. i've listened to season 1, about susan powell, probably 6-7 times. i never finished season two, about joyce yost, but as i'm typing this i'm listening to the season 3 finale, about sheree warren. seasons 2 & 3 include descriptions of sexual assaults in varying levels of detail, but the whole show is worth a listen. i love the journalist who narrates it. on amazon music & spotify (s1 & 3)

Beyond All Repair - about sophia johnson, who was accused & convicted of murdering her mother in law when she was 6 months pregnant, pretty much solely on the word of her brother. i won't say anything else so i don't spoil it, but it's a case i never would have heard of without this podcast. on spotify.

Dr. Death - about a spinal surgeon that really should not have been allowed to operate on people. i haven't listened to season two (about a different doctor), but season one is NUTS. another one i've listened to multiple times. on spotify.

Your Own Backyard - about the disappearance of Kristin Smart. the host was born & raised in the same area Kristin was from, and it bothered him that her disappearance was never solved. the show brought the case back into the spotlight and helped get convictions. on spotify.

The Clearing - about a woman who realized later in life that her father was a serial killer while she was a child. another one that's absolutely bonkers and i have listened to multiple times. on spotify.

The Shrink Next Door - same production company as dr. death, about a psychiatrist that completely took over a patient's life & finances, told by the patient after he got out of the situation. you can listen to episode 1 on spotify, but the rest has unfortunately been put behind a paywall 😭

Heaven's Gate - about a cult that committed the largest mass suicide in north america at the time (i believe it was pre-jonestown). on spotify.

Supernatural/Etc.

S-Town - same production company as serial, but only one season. about a small town in alabama and one man who lives there. sort of true crime, kind of not. on spotify.

Let's Get Haunted - they cover true crime occasionally, but mostly do conspiracy theories or stories about ghosts/cryptids/folklore. the hosts are hilarious. this is the podcast that helps me sleep at night and that literally got me through my last two years of uni. there's like. almost 200 episodes so if you want a few specific episode recs lmk i will dm them to you!!! on spotify.

Myths & Legends - the title is pretty self explanatory, but the whole show is about myths, legends, folklore, and fairytales from around the world. it's like if a friend read the story and then recounted it to you in detail, i love it, but i am Very behind. on spotify.

Lore - about various ghost stories & the history behind them, mostly in the usa but from other places too (mostly like. canada & europe from what i remember). i am also years behind on this one but i remember really enjoying it. on spotify.

National Park After Dark - about true crime cases/disasters/supernatural stories in national parks from across the globe. i've only listened to a handful of episodes but it's pretty good! on amazon music & spotify.

ok beyond that what i listen to is either fictional or it's not worth a recommendation AHAHA. sorry if this was overwhelming but i cannot sit in silence and you asked for recs!!! thank u for giving me an excuse to talk about this 💜💜💜

#asks answered #podcasts #podcast recs #fallon's friends #regal rylie #like i said i have no chill!!! anyways if u listen to any of these lmk i'm curious what you think

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guardianreadersofthegalaxy · 9 months

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If I were on the Films To Be Buried With podcast:

What was the first-ever film you saw, or remember seeing? Mulan. I remember the screen being really big, but I think maybe I was just small. I got a happy-meal toy of the fat bloke that would trundle along on wheels if you pulled a string (unlike the character in the film who didn't actually have wheels). And I got the CD-ROM tie-in game, my favourite bit being the level when you pick Mulan's outfit to meet the matchmaker. Then I got older, the toxic masculinity set in, and I felt retrospectively embarrassed for liking something girly.

What was the film that scared you the most? We watched The Mummy one Christmas Eve when I was in primary school as my parents had heard it was a fun family romp. The opening 5 minutes were so fucked up I didn't sleep for a week. I like being scared now though. I love the first part of Ghost Stories, the one with Paul Whitehouse in an asylum at night with his torch flickering out. I remember thinking "I've peaked! I can't physically be more scared than this!"

What was the film that made you cry the most, and are you a cryer? I'm not usually a crier but I like it when it happens. I know it's a cliche but I always cry at Up. Bereavement's my trigger. I always get a bit choked up at Tiny Tim's death in The Muppets' Christmas Carol but last year my wife and watched it shortly after the death of a close friend and we wept buckets.

What is the film that’s made you laugh out loud the most? I recently watched The Man With Two Brains for the first time. I love that kind of silly comedy where ridiculous things happen but the characters take it seriously, no one's rolling their eyes or saying "that just happened". Also RRR is unintentionally hilarious and I love it for that.

What film is underrated but you love it? A Knight's Tale never gets the praise it deserves. It's a fun, sincere, exciting, historical-romantic-comedy about jousting. Everyone in the cast gives it their all, especially Paul Bettany, and the needle drops are sick.

What is the film you once loved but watching it recently you realise it’s not great? I watched Donnie Darko in primary school as a sort of entry-level horror film (in that it had a creepy bunny-man and a few jump-scares) and thought it was really deep all through my teens. It was my favourite film for a long time. But I watched it recently and it's just kind of pretentious, with nothing going for it but great music and good ensemble cast and a lot of teen angst.

What is the film that means the most to you, not because of the film itself, but because of the memories, you have of it? I've got two films I associate with break-ups. I saw 500 Days Of Summer at a time when I was listening to a lot of Los Campesinos and thought it was cool to be cynical about romance. My girlfriend and I broke up the next day. Two years later, I came home after breaking up with my second girlfriend. My dad poured me a whiskey and we watched the 2005 Pride And Prejudice, just cos it was on TV. It's not a great film but it took my mind off the break up.

What is the sexiest film? I never really found films sexy until I saw Steven Soderbergh's Out Of Sight. George Clooney's a fugitive and Jennifer Lopez is an FBI agent trying to catch him, but they fancy each other so much that they meet up in a hotel to have sex anyway. The music is so frigging good.

What’s a film that isn’t probably supposed to be sexy but you found yourself turned on by? Mind your own business!

[EDIT] There's something about Mrs Tweedy from Chicken Run...

Which film do you most relate to? Eighth Grade. Like Kayla, I was a social pariah for some of my teenage years and it felt like that was just the way it was, I would never have friends. But, like a lot of problems it turned out to just be temporary. If you keep putting yourself out there, stay patient, and don't lose hope, you'll get there in the end.

Which film is the one you’ve watched the most? Probably The Fellowship Of The Ring. I remember my mum walking in on me watching the video going "really Dom?! That's the second time this week!" I'd have friends over and we'd reenact the council of Elrond: "So I'll say 'You have my sword' and then you be Legolas and say 'and you have my bow'..."

What’s the worst film you’ve ever seen? If there's a genre I can't get behind, it's biopics. They often assume you already like the subject so don't bother making them likeable as a character. The worst of all is Good Vibrations. It makes out Terri Hooley to be a smug, cocky prick who everyone's in awe of despite him treating them all like shit. I've rarely wanted to punch a character so hard.

Which film is objectively the greatest ever? It's tough, but I'm gonna go for O Brother Where Art Thou? Great performances, incredible music, hilarious comedy. The use of colour grading revolutionised the post production process. I love how it makes fun of its characters, except when they're singing - that it takes seriously. Even the villainous KKK leader gets a song and, weird as it is to say, that guy can really croon.

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ambroseandmox · 28 days

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Personal stuff under the cut.

So February is always a bad month. Anniversary of some deaths and my dad going to jail; weather here is typically cold and the days are short so I struggle. But March picked up, things were OK, and suddenly I got a new hyperfixation.

That usually happens when my brain goes bad.

Anyway, the Batman hyperfixation kicked in (I've been reading batman off and on my whole life, but I haven't collected comics since I stopped working at a bookstore) and I started getting anxiety attacks. All the time. Work, home. Didn't matter. Some fanfic descriptions also trigger it but I have no idea why. (There’s a Jason Todd-centric one called Something in the Static, I think, which is a non-Robin Jason Lives AU, sounds fantastic, I have it open in a tab,and As soon as I look at it I start shaking. No fucking clue.) I was thinking maybe this is trauma from growing up in a home with an emotionally and verbally abusive dad leaking out by proxy, but if I haven't read the story yet, how come it's hitting like that? Either way, trust me to have an awful, uncontrollable hyperfixation that also presses on all my sharp edges until my psyche bleeds. Very on brand.

Another sign of bad brain is that I started getting fanfic ideas and also the urge to actually write. I haven't written a fic in over 5 years. And I've never written more than 9,000 words.

Except my current story is well over 30K words in only a couple weeks.

I've had some periods of gender dysphoria in the past, but it's been over 5 years since the last bout of really distressing feelings. And they're back now. And more insistent than ever. I've started buying some clothing to try and alleviate it. I also have body dysmorphia, and that's a longstanding issue, and they're feeding into each other. If I wasn't convinced I'd look fatter, I would be booking a haircut for the weekend because I can't look at myself any more. Not that I ever really did, but even reflections in elevators are uncomfortable.

I used fitbit so I can see where the endless anxiety kicked in (April 4). My resting heart rate has spiked up by 7 points and my sleep has dropped to under 4 hours a night. I'm struggling to eat, let alone eat healthily.

I have rolling anxiety attacks all day long, but I can breathe through them. But the only thing I want to do is read fanfic and scroll tumblr, so I've been doing that while on the clock at work and I can't stop. Very fucking poor coping mechanisms that will come back to bite me in the ass and I know it and I can't stop. It does help with the anxiety because the brain shuts off whatever is churning in it. I've tried listening to music and it makes it worse. Podcasts actually seem to work the way a tumblr scroll does but then I risk typing what im hearing and that's also not great.

Anyway, I'm an absolute hot mess right now. I don't have anyone I can vent to about this in real life so I'm putting it here. I have an appointment with my counselor tomorrow night, and I think im going to talk about the gender stuff... I feel like that's probably what's percolating the most because it's the least safe topic for me to talk about. But that's also terrifying for me.

Im married to someone who I've never discussed these feelings with. I've never said the words out loud. And it's beyond scary to contemplate. I don't know what I'm going to do.

#personal #gender identity #gender dysphoria #body dysmorphia #anxiety #genderfluid

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nopethatsnotembarrassing · 1 year

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I don’t have a bias per se, it’s more like a scale from “i happy when I see your face” to “you’re cool but not really my vibe”. Chan, Changbin, Han and Felix are definitely in the first category, Lee know and Seungmin in the latter. Hyunjin and I.N are in the middle.

What got you into kpop? (I have been a kpop fan on and off since like 2010)

I’m pretty new to the markiplier fandom 🙈 After running out of podcasts to listen to I gave the edge of sleep a try and I just loved Mark’s voice. How to marry a voice??? This was my real introduction to him. Which is odd because I watch matpat’s stuff a lot (I know everyone likes to hate on mat but I like his stuff. And I actually met him at vidcon some years ago anyways) I was never into Let’s plays, so gaming yt as a whole went totally over my head. I’m sad that I’m so late to the party. My younger self would have loved Mark too 🥲

Ahh yeah same! That's pretty much how I am to but a lot of people don't accept that as an answer about having a bias lol

See I'm on the opposite end I've been watching Markiplier since like 2014ish cause my friend loved him and I just have watched his stuff ever since! That's a really cool way to have found Mark! He really does have an amazing, inchanting voice (which if I'm honest sometimes i watch him play a game i have 0 interest in just cause i know listening to him is gonna be an experience lol) so I understand why you looked into him and are enjoying the weirdness that you found!

Also I don't care what others say I adore MatPat and the content he makes (and that's awesome that you got to meet him! He's like one of the few YouTubers that genuinely feels like he is

As for how I got into K-pop I just kinda finally dived in after graduating and feeling like I finally had the time to invest in something I knew has its own lexicon of things I would have to learn to understand it and the community! But I had been interested and kinda admiring from afar since like 2016-17ish just kinda afraid since the one person I had experienced that was into k-pop was someone I didn't like and kinda just made me have that mental connection of "people I don't like, like this so I probably won't" but after hearing of a lot more groups other than BTS (who i do enjoy but that's who the person I knew was very into so as i said i assumed i wouldn't like) I put it back into the back burner since I love all kinds of music and realized it's more of an umbrella genre than a specific one. And especially once I learned that dancing was heavily involved since I've always loved watching people dance!

So yeah Long Story Short: I adore music and Dance so once I felt comfortable with learning new things I just dove in and am so glad I did! (And much how you are about Mark I'm kinda sad I didn't do it sooner cause I would've loved it when I was younger! But also like the idea of experiencing Noeasy Era SKZ as it was happening is terrifying especially as someone who has been dying their hair bright orange since like early 2017 and had never seen another human do it)

#i had an ask tag but i forgot it so this is it now #my post #also if you would like a nickname or something anon? so i can tag these with it so you can find them easier if you wanna keep talking!#i mean i don't get messages so its not hard to know its you but i know i post a lot through my queue so #i know its probably hard to to catch when i respond! if not its no big deal i just wanted to offer!#skipping queue #me-owzebub #long post

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maggielindemannsource · 6 months

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Maggie Lindemann: From Social Media Star to a SUCKERPUNCH Album

Read the article here — Listen to the podcast episode here

she always knew that she wanted to be an entertainer when she was very young.

she always listened to a lot of rock music. her parents listened to rock, her brother listened to classic rock and metal, and when she started developing her own music taste, she listened to pop punk a lot. she always knew she wanted to make alternative music. she mentions sleeping with sirens, pierce the veil, secondhand serenade, black veil brides as influences.

she views social media as the modern age ; instead of going out in the streets to give out your mixtape, you have to sell your music through social media. it helps because she can connect more directly to her audience, fans can see things directly from her instead of through a third-party, and also social media offers a bigger reach. streaming through twitch shows her true personality, as well as coming on twitter to talk more spontaneously or posting instagram stories. she also states that social media feels a bit foreign to her now that she's growing older and new generations are coming on social media ; she feels really old with the stuff she sees on tiktok and she does feel a disconnect from social media. she says that the most negative thing about social media is the effect it has on her - she feels a boost of dopamine when she posts a picture, with every like she thinks "they liked it so it means i'm pretty" so she ends up relying a lot on validation from other people and it brings her down. she says she tried to do a grwm but she's not a good story teller and she didn't even know what to say so she ended up not doing it.

the creative process for creating suckerpunch was very fun. she started writing songs very shortly after paranoia, everything felt like it was falling into place very naturally and not forced at all. her life inspired suckerpunch. the name came to her because she felt like punches were thrown at her during the process of creating the record, whether it was a relationship, a friendship... so many things were happening and were unexpected. her favorite track is "novocaine", and she really likes the intro. she doesn't like the more "commercial" songs (like "she knows it"), she prefers the songs that people least expect.

the concert film was filmed in nyc because it was the biggest show of the US leg ; she had label people, friends, family... she had a really cute outfit planned but things didn't go according to plan, so she hates the outfit she has in the video.

deprecating is about being manipulated and made to believe by a friend, trying to make you believe they have your best interest in mind when they really don't. the song is about a particular friendship (not a relationship). she writes her music about her personal experiences and feels it's therapeutic in a way.

she started making music when she was sixteen and at that time, she didn't feel welcomed in the industry and felt like people didn't take her seriously. now, a lot of her peers do message her and she feels welcomed. however, she feels that this industry is very bipolar ; one day they love you and the next they hate you. she feels that women are really dominating the music industry nowadays (especially in hip hop and rap). she feels that the age of pop stars is really coming back (she says that "tate mcrae, i love her, she's so cool, she's giving the britney spears dancing on stage while singing"). she feels a special sense of safety and connection with women.

she thinks that there is more pressure put on women in the industry to look really good, be in shape, have your makeup done perfectly but not too much, make sure your hair looks good...

the recording of her next project is all done. she's been working on music videos, cover art, photoshoots and all the creative stuff. she hopes to be able to perform at festivals in 2024 (so we can hope that her next project will be out during the first semester of 2024). there may be some pop up shows. it's not an album (ep or mixtape?). she prefers to release albums over singles because it gives her a devoted fanbase that really connect with her whole body of work.

maggie's advice for people that want to start in the music industry: "be yourself and do not listen to what anybody says. literally, if you think something is cool and you like it, then it doesn't matter if everyone is telling you that it's not gonna work. really be yourself. there's an audience for everyone. so you might not be these 10 people's cup of tea that you showed the songs to, but maybe there's a hundred people over here and you are their cup of tea. so just be yourself, be authentic. you're never too weird, you're never 'too' anything. just be yourself, there's always gonna be a group of people who appreciate that."

if she could only listen to 3 bands for the rest of her life, it would be radiohead, pink pantheress (or lana del rey) and deftones (the bands she listens to the most as of right now).

her dream collab was with sleeping with sirens and she got to collab with kellin quinn so it was very cool. she would love to collab with bring me the horizon or paramore. but her collabing process is very random so it could be anyone.

#maggielindemannsource #maggie lindemann #updates #interview #suckerpunch #deprecating

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sweetbunnykook · 4 years

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I'm a huge overthinker as well, I find that audio books and podcasts help me a lot.. especially when I'm trying to go to sleep, I would usually put a book i know from cover to cover (so I don't get too excited about the plot lol, something general and fun like harry potter for instance) and use an audio book app that has a timer on it where it would stop playing after 45 minutes or something. When I wake up in the middle of the night I turn it on again because I'm very vulnerable when I'm sleepy and without it I would start thinking about every horrible thing in my life.. I can usually distract myself in the morning with podcasts/music/another book/general life..etc. but when I'm half asleep I have no defenses so I hurry and turn on the app and it lulls me back to sleep again, like a bed time story.. this might be only helpful for me but I hope it helps you/original anon and anyone else who might read it :)

Yes! I love this technique. There are a lot of playlists for classics or other short stories on Spotify! I believe the app also has a timer feature. I also like listening to comforting boyfriend ASMRs which can lull even the noisiest baby to sleep.

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hashtagsmitty · 5 years

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Smitty's Thailand Adventure - Day 1

I'm inspired right now by Uncle Gilly's travel blogs. And since I'm in my hotel room at 11pm Thai time and nowhere near sleep despite being up for some ungodly number of hours, here we go!

Heading into this trip I was super anxious. I haven't gone overseas for 7 years, and I've never travelled alone before. It's not so bad since I'm hanging out with Josh the whole time, but it's still a bit weird. Plus, I don't speak a word of Thai. I'm sure that will be fine, but it's a bit iffy going in.

April and her mum drove me to the airport. We left early to make sure we'd get past any traffic. Plus, last time April and I went anywhere I fucked up the timing and we missed our flight. I guess that was on her mind? Long story short we were at the airport 3 hours early.

I got through security and check in fine. My passport photo is from when I was 21, with a baby face and bad hair. Some beefy security dude pulled me aside to scan my passport manually when the facial recognition shit didn't work. Slight monkas.

I got through fine, bought some Thai Baht and got jibbed on the exchange rate, and then went to the gate. I bought earbuds because I don't own any. It occurred to me later that I'd ordered the entertainment package on the plane which comes with them. It turned out being a good thing, because 3 hours is a long time to listen to airport sounds.

I walked around the terminal to get my bearings, then went to a café thing. It wasn't a real café, but it was close enough to make me comfortable. I got a steak, then sat down and started reading. I'm reading "Growth Mindset", a text about how the way you think about success and achievement is the biggest predictor for future successes and how you deal with failure. It's really interesting, lots of real-world examples, and I'm hyped to try to teach it to my new students.

The steak arrived. I asked for a steak knife and the poor waiter gave me the most embarrassed look. He went to check, then came back and said he wasn't allowed to hand out steak knives in the airport.

Thinking back, of course he wouldn't be, but in the moment it was a weird thing. I guess it felt too much like a real café?

2 hours left. I sat at the gate and read. I had pre-downloaded a whole bunch of Podcasts and music, too, so I was listening to music while I read and swapping to podcasts when I was bored. I kept checking the time because 2 hours is a goddamn long time to wait.

Eventually though the time ticked over and the JetStar dudes were calling for business class people. Before I could react, a whole bunch of vultures had lined up. Seriously like 100 people. I joined the line. They started calling for rows 44 to 57. I checked my ticket - row 57. I walked forward hesitantly, to see if I was allowed to cut the line and board. I pussied out and realized that I'd lost my place in line. I did a slow walk of shame to the back of the line. Then the Jetstar dude started walking down the line and calling for those rows. I cut the line and got on the plane. The dude checking tickets looked dead inside.

My seat was in the middle of the last row on the plane. Two old white dudes sat either side of me. Nobody spoke, as is appropriate. The dude to my right was a bit grumpy, and took up our entire overhead bin. I sat down after putting my bag away and started my music back up. While we were waiting for takeoff, I remembered my trip to Italy from when I was 16. I wasn't sitting next to anyone I knew for both of the 26 hour flights, but the in-flight entertainment had Pokemon Pinball, and I played the shit out of it. It sorta became a tradition when I fly, and I redownloaded the rom right before the plane took off.

It was good that I did, because the in-flight entertainment was garbage. I played chess, and the piece of shit computer played the same opening against me twice. The only difference between medium and hard was that it took 2 minutes to decide each move on hard. I played two games then quit.

The flight was boring. At the end, the pilot had to do some stupid holding pattern because the flight was early:

The green circle bit was repeated 5 times. It added like an hour to the flight. It sucked being so close and having to wait so long. Speaking of waiting so long, being at the very end of the plane meant waiting 10 minutes to get off, and then waiting longer while people only grabbed their bags once they were supposed to move. Monsters.

Disembarked, went through immigration with no problems. The dude who waved me through was being so slow with his line. I held my passport open to the photo page when I gave it to him and he closed it when he took it. Awkward.

Customs didn't exist. Just walked straight out.

I met up with Josh. He was on the opposite side of the airport to where I came out. There were stacks of dodgy WiFi networks to sort through to find the one non-dodgy one. I felt like having to fight through 12 phishing networks before I left the airport was a bit much.

Josh and I got Korean chicken at the airport. It was okay, I'm not big on chicken with sauces. Or sauces in general. Or most foods in general. But, I felt like I should just dive in and broaden my comfort zone a bit. It was pretty good chicken. I'm sure it would be better at a non-airport franchise.

We caught a taxi to my hotel. Josh is staying in an AirBNB somewhere else. On the way Josh talked a bit to the taxi driver. She didn't speak any English and he barely speaks Thai, but she got us to our destination fine. It really drove (dwoop) home how foreign this place is, and how screwed I'd be if not for Josh living here. The taxi driver was not great. She was driving in two lanes for most of the trip, and I don't think I heard her indicate. The traffic lights have a dank coloured countdown for how long until the lights change. We need that in Melbourne.

We got dropped off at a skytrain station. It was attached to a huge shopping center like Melbourne Central. It was pretty sweet - I'd like to check it out when I'm less fried.

The streets looked pretty low-tier, but Josh said that it was average for Thailand, and that the closer you are to main roads or train lines, the nicer it is.

I needed toothpaste, and Josh insisted I get a local SIM card, so we went into 7-11. Josh explained that they're actually really cheap and good quality here. While we were sorting out the SIM card, the clerk needed to see my passport and take a photo for me to be able to buy it. It was weird, but everyone acted like it was normal, so whatever. The same thing happened at the hotel. Josh said they send the info to the government, but didn't say why. The clerk called me handsome in Thai as we were leaving. We got some weird salt toothpaste that Josh swore by. He said the first time was meh but the second time is amazing.

I was warned that there would be "massage parlors" on the street my hotel is on. Josh said the girls out the front would go out of their way to make me uncomfortable, and double so if we ignored them. We just stayed in the other side of the road instead.

The hotel is okay. Bed isn't great, but there's air con and a hair dryer. And a bidet, which I'm excited to try.

It feels lonely up here on my own. Like I said, I haven't travelled solo before, so it's a new experience. Bros will get a video tour of the room when I'm awake - it's 4am AUS time and I'm so fried. Gotta avoid that jet lag though, so normal sleep times.

I tried the salt toothpaste. It was okay.

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Last week of 2021

Hey there, I know I said I'll be posting a short story every week. But I don't want to post something unfinished and do it for the sake of posting it. I would instead want something finished and late than have it be unfinished and on time. As much as I want to get into the habit of showing my stories, I don't want to get into the bad habit of putting out unfinished stories. I still have #3 (from the Tower of Notes collection) to refine later.

Anyways, New Year is near! Wow, I can't believe 2021 is already gone so quickly. Though I may not have a lot of stuff to show this year, I'm glad I started showing some stories than wait till I hit my 30's. So whoever is watching my stories (mom, dad, my family, and a few friends across the world), thank you. That's it; I don't want to be too sappy and drag out the whole blog post. I already got enough stuff to talk about in here.

I should have started this a while back, but I didn't know what I wanted to do with this blog yet. I know it's the end of the year, but I wanted to give you guys a taste of what I want to do for this blog. I want to show you how my weekdays go, and I'm here to show you the process of my life. Hopefully, you enjoy learning about a new person's habits/lifestyle.

Monday: I started this writing process on Tuesday, so I don't have anything written for Monday. It's not like I did a whole bunch on that day anyway. I don't even remember what happened on that day, and I think I mostly slept on Monday.

Tuesday: This is where I came up with the idea to show you what I do on my weekdays. By giving you insight into who I am and what I do. From what I've written down for that day, I had a "wicked power nap" that clarified what I needed to write for the short story (That I was working on for this week). While awake, I wrote down how important sleep was, and if I got more sleep, I could solve the world's problems. Then I didn't know how to cook a Hungry-Man meal, and my delusion of solving the world's problems with sleep was gone. From then on, I talked about the upcoming New Year.

Wednesday: I woke up early in the morning. I wrote about how I hated sleeping because my dreams were getting too intense. Which they were; I had some funky dreams. Funny enough, I realize now that I praised sleeping more on Tuesday, and then on Wednesday, I hate it. This example is how you know I am a complex and contradicting individual. I talk about how music helps me calm down (That would be a good topic for a blog post). Then I wrote about how I don't want to go back to sleep, and I binge-watch Mandalorian S2 instead. Which I did; It was a good show. I was still working on the short story to post that day. Then around 12, my brain fried, and I fell back to sleep. I took a 6-hour nap. And the rest of the day was me rambling about having some form of ADHD, my eyes being sore, I need to socialize more, etc. They are all excellent topics for small standalone blog posts, but I think putting them in here would make this post long and unreadable. The last thing I wrote is that I learned a lesson: always have backup stories to post if I can't finish the current short story.

Thursday: I dozed off that day, and I did nothing but binge listen to some podcasts. I finished all of the Dungeons and Daddies series, which is an awesome D&D podcast if you haven't listened to them. Then I work on some notes for three of my big upcoming stories, and I won't tell you what they are; it's a surprise. Then I wrote how I wanted to finish the short story by Friday (sadly, I never did).

Friday: Happy almost New Year! I wrote about how I wanted to post a short story, but my buddy's prompt was too challenging. I'm a newb-level writer, and I'm still learning how to use grammar right. And why I don't know grammar? (because my school didn't teach me) That is another topic for later. Anyways, It wasn't my buddy's fault; I usually have a lot of ideas and directions I want to go into my stories, and two forks in the road are enough for me not to know what to do with the story. I'll tell you this; there was a lot of scrapping and redoing. I am still working on it, so that's all I can say for now. Besides that, I wrote more about my idea of having a backup story to post. Finally, I discuss how I am transferring from Tower of Notes (2021) into Tower of Notes (2022) on my Scrivener Document.

And that's it. Sorry if this was too long. I'll try to make it smaller next time. This post is my first time doing one of these blog posts, and I'll try to be better at creating them in the future.

Anyways, Have a great rest of your last day in 2021, and I'll see you next year.

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dr-whoopsie-daisy · 2 years

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I posted 327 times in 2021

205 posts created (63%)

122 posts reblogged (37%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 0.6 posts.

I added 592 tags in 2021

#optometry - 128 posts

#studyblr - 111 posts

#gradblr - 110 posts

#grad school - 93 posts

#optometry school - 80 posts

#national boards - 18 posts

#optomblr - 18 posts

#covid 19 - 15 posts

#pandemic - 12 posts

#vaccine - 7 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#the amount of patients i see with shitty glasses because insurances will fight tooth and nail not to pay out for specialist contact lenses

My Top Posts in 2021

Graduation is today. This shit is wild. Still need to shower and put on a new face but like wow the end of 4 years huh? 8 (7.5) years of college? It's gonna be over just like that and I'm probably never gonna see many of my classmates again? Unless I do national conventions. This happens every year? Who allowed this?

A friend was talking about it and got me in an emotion.

Time to get ready.

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Someone recommend podcasts for me. Like paranormal, true crime (the older the better), comedy. Fun stuff not like... self help meditation or business stonks.

P much I want stories to listen to while I crochet and don't wanna listen to music.

10 notes • Posted 2021-03-28 01:22:29 GMT

Tomorrow starts my last week of clinic in optometry school. Which is wild. Technically my last week of school ever.

Preschool drop-out to graduating with my doctorate.

Life is crazy. ✌️

11 notes • Posted 2021-05-03 00:53:57 GMT

Scared myself with ghost stories again. Time for some puppet history so I can go to sleep and not look dead in therapy tmmr ✌️💋☠️

28 notes • Posted 2021-05-18 06:05:16 GMT

You know what? We give Mr. Darcy and Mr. Collins a lot of (absolutely warranted) shit for their lackluster proposals to Elizabeth.

You know who doesn't get enough shit pies tossed his way? Fuckin' Mr. Rochester from Jane Eyre. He fucking like "you know what would be the Greatest idea? Imma make her think I'm marrying the other girl. Oooo better yet, I'll make her think I'm sending her to Ireland!"

And then!!!! He tells her and lets her openly sob next to him for an indeterminate amount of time, just absolute body wracking sobs, lets her give him a speech about love and equal spirits, and then!!!! Just "sike!" *smooch* "it was you, it's actually you I'm gonna marry, lmao"

Idk what we are supposed to expect from a man who pretend to be a fortune teller to fuck with his party guests but also, my man. Chill.

(so you can absolutely tell which part of the book I've gotten to lmao. Shit gonna hit the fan soon, rip to the chestnut tree xoxoxoxo)

(also this being the 2nd time I've read and watched the movie a bunch, Bronte's phrases and foreshadowing are funny as hell on the re-read, hashtag blessed)

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#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #It would be the jane eyre post

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poetofthedyingstars · 3 years

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Okay, but I imagine this in one of my romance books (or in real life really)

P.S I'm sorry for my grammars, I'm practicing and improving my English skills. Thank you.

“It's a windy day on Sunday and like we planned, we hang out in the park. Sitting on the old wooden bench in the autumn lane— the lane where you can see almost the whole park and the spot where autumn leaves fall when it's the time of the year. We sat there, watching the kids play and the people pass by us.

Usually, when we're together, doing nothing but staring at the world as if we're not part of it, we listen to his playlists. It was okay and I'm glad we almost had the same music taste. Almost.

He asked me, “You like to listen to some music?”

“Yeah, I would love to,” I smiled and said.

“I didn't bring my phone today. Did you bring yours so we can listen to your playlists instead?”

I think I felt the blood rush to my face when he said that. I mean, I like him A LOT but I don't think I'm ready to show him what I listen when I'm in the shower or when I stare at abyss. It's just— music has always been my expression of myself though I never sing myself but sharing him my playlist means I'm sharing a part of me that I'm not sure he's ready to see.

“Are you sure? You're aware I have a weird music taste, right?” I asked, making sure. Hesitation written all over my face.

“And, so? I listen to that Nemo background song all the time and you were okay with it?” he said, completely ignoring my stress over this matter.

I pursued my lips. “Like, are you really really really sure? I need to know cause—”

He cut me off, putting his finger in my lips and shook his head.

“You’re ruining the moment. Let's listen to music already,” he said. My nostrils flared. I'm a little bit annoyed with him but also happy. I'm sure you know why.

So, then, I took out my phone and earphones from my pocket. I never go anywhere without these. They always save me from the harsh words of the people I don't even want to be with.

“I swear to whoever care, if you're one of those guys that doesn't like these artists, let's stop seeing each other,” I frankly said while picking a playlist.

He chuckled lightly. “I’m sure I'm not like them.”

I just glanced at him and shook my head while smiling. I know boys shouldn't be trusted but after going out with him for a long time now, he's really different from the others.

I gave him the other bud of the earphones when I finally picked the perfect playlist for us to listen to today. It's title is “love on a windy day”, I only listen to this when I'm eating and I'm feeling sentimental. It's almost full of soft songs from my favorite artists which include One Direction, Harry Styles, ZAYN, Niall Horan, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson and there's too many of them I can't name.

I put my head on his shoulder while we listen to my playlist. So far, he's okay with it. His head on my head. Eyes closed. Calm. His arms wrapped around my shoulder. I feel loved, actually.

Niall Horan were singing Put A Little Love On Me but I could hear him humming the song. At least, he likes Niall. I let myself to indulge on the moment. This is one of the best

After PALLOM, a song from Zayn called, Let Me plays. I forgot that I'm playing songs from my local source and not on Spotify since I can't afford the premium. The intro of the music was Zayn, walking and getting out of his car. I opened my eyes to peek at him, he ignored it and was still vibing. I sighed in relief and closed my eyes again.

But, then, a part where Zayn were fighting with another guy comes and the sounds were like really creepy. I widened my eyes in terror and looked at him. Confusion and amusement were written in his face as he look to me. Raising an eyebrow and smirking.

But, I didn't do anything. We just stared at each other until the punching sound stops and Zayn sings again. Then, he laughed. I was taken aback when he laughed.

“I’m sorry— the sounds were too funny for me to handle,” he said in between his laughs. I sighed in relief and slap his shoulders.

“Geez, I hate you so much!” I said. The favors are really not with me today. I keep getting embarrassed in front of him. This is too much to take.

I'm about to stop playing my music and ask him to walk instead when he snatched my phone and stopped me.

“Hey!” I exclaimed.

“Don’t stop it. I like your music. Just chill, okay?” he said, softly and smiled at me. I'm falling too hard with his smiles lately.

“Fine,” I said and raised both of my hands as if surrendering myself to him.

“Good,” he said and pull me to lay my head on his shoulder again.

I actually thought my embarrassing encounters stops there. I'm almost drifting to sleep while we're listening to Harry Styles’ Falling but the song ends.

Suddenly, I don't why my shuffled playlist is playing with me, the MP3 I downloaded from Harry Styles’ Dream With Me played.

I facepalmed and opened my eyes, again, looking at my partner. He was just smiling as if he's enjoying the podcast or reassuring me that it was fine and I should go back to his arms and sleep.

I ignored the nervousness and embarrassment I'm feeling and put my head on his warm shoulders again.

While indulging the moment and feeling it, ignoring the people around us, he whispered to my other ear where his earphones are supposed to be.

“Next time, instead of listening to guys’ that doesn't know you exist, you can call me and I'll tell you a story.”

I smiled and hugged him tight. It was weird that we were sitting there in the park, looking stupid and sleeping and all but I was happy.

I've never been in love like this before and it's wonderful.”

#writing #music #one direction #harry styles #lovestory #couple #season

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I'm really curious - what did happen exactly? You don't have to post this publicly (Or answer it hehe :'D )and it wont be spoilery for me anyways since i don't listen to podcasts.

//LOUD EXASPERATED SCREAMING//

Sure I could use someone to vent to ahaha. Serious The Black Tapes spoilers under the cut. If you have not yet finished the podcast, do not read.

There is literally no ending. No proper one. Long rant short - they throw a lot at you in the third season that answers no questions, doesn’t really provide you with relevant information, and then they chop off the ending in such a way that it’s not really an end, they just weren’t nice enough to tell you they didn’t have the time or energy to work on it anymore.

So the whole thing about The Black Tapes is the idea that there are demons in the world, being let in piece by piece or glance by glance via musical portals that are back doors into our world. There’s a big to-do about a cult as well, and a corrupt multi-billion dollar corporation that’s helping said cult in creating an end of the world scenario. And in the middle of all this are the main characters Alex Reagan and Richard Strand. Alex being the reporter and Strand being her main informant/topic of conversation for her podcast.

To the podcast’s credit, it’s spooky as hell and has some good pacing and story telling - especially for the first season. The first season is almost perfect. Everything makes sense, all the information they find is strategic and convenient. And it’s scary. Which is great since this is a horror podcast!

Second season still has some really good spooky moments, mostly to do with a dream diary sequence where you the listener get the vibes that perhaps Alex is being haunted by the demons she’s learning about. Like the third season, the second season ends on a cliff hanger, but one that is manageable. It’s a big “oh god! the end of the world is at hand and we probably caused it with our errant journalism!” kind of ending, and honestly I would have rather they just leave everything there than leave it where they did in the third season.

The third season we already knew was going to be the last season because of various tweets from the producers of the podcast and things of the like. Which made it all the more confusing when instead of tying up the loose ends that made sense in the second season, they start adding a ton of new information. All of which was interesting, but to me seemed kind of half-hearted and loosely related. Gone are most of the things that made the first two season scary, both because the listener is getting used to them and because now we have faces and names to put on the monsters. The demons aren’t demons, they’re tricks of the mind, hysteria, and some death cult in Europe. And what’s more, the season isn’t doing what a finale season is supposed to do, and that’s build up the plot.

We’re rocketing towards the climax right? But there’s no suspense or air of finality, which even Alex the main character points out at one point. We’re nearing the end, how come no one here is paranoid and scared and making preparations?

And then in the final episode you find out why – because there is no true ending.

The last episode is a mess. All previous plot points are dropped. You learn some things about Alex and Strand being stalked - which isn’t new information we’ve been told this over and over, we just now have video proof in the form of Alex being filmed in her sleep (supposedly with a demon in the room as well? except we’ve been told again and again through Strand that we as the viewer should be skeptical of these things being laid out before us so it’s hard to really be scared there’s something in the room). All this is supposed to scare the main characters away from a conference in Geneva where, somehow some way, the end of the world is supposed to be ushered in - something we’re told and not shown like the rest of the series. It has to do with an Axis Mundi brought up earlier in the season, but while that one was given a reason this one was literally “Oh the Axis Mundi is in Geneva,” with no other context.

There is also a very last minute love/romance angle added in for this final episode that we saw literally none of previously. For the entire previous seasons, and even the episodes of this season, it’s been made clear to us that while Strand wants Alex to trust him (and vice versa), he’s still very dedicated to his wife who is currently missing, he loves her very much and has even used this podcast to try and regain contact with her somehow. Similarly Alex has shown no interest in Strand outside of (maybe?) respect for him as a friend, and even that she tends to throw away frequently for the sake of her story.

But here in the last episode suddenly one of the producers is asking if Alex is in love with Strand, Strand is inviting her out to dinner and they’re promising to get drunk together, and Alex throws out the “let’s run away together” card. And immediately after? The episode ends. It ends before this conference in Geneva which is supposedly the climax we’ve all been waiting for. It ends right after Alex brings up they could run away together.

So we the listeners are supposed to glean from this that they do in fact run away together and don’t go to Geneva and in a… somewhat back-door fashion that was implied… save the world. Because they’re needed in Geneva to bring about the end of the world or whatever.

And it’s like…. what was the point? What was the point of this story now? Why did the developers choose to do this?

Why add a love angle that didn’t exist until literally the final episode? Why leave literally every loose end undone in the plot? There are missing people, connections that have been implied but never actually made, friends and guests we haven’t talked to in ages, literal demons we’ve discarded as if they never existed in the first place. As if this entire thing were supposed to be two people growing close over mutual fear when the entire series has actually been a bitter old man mourning how crazy his life has become and a reporter falling in way over her head in something that makes her paranoid.

I understand the angle these developers are going for, I really do. All their podcasts they advertise as fact instead of fiction to really immerse the listeners and make us wonder maybe this is real. Which is a fun angle for sure. And like real life unfortunate and unsatisfactory things happen - like the main reporter and informant in an elaborate scheme deciding this isn’t worth it and just checking out to try and find happiness. I understand that’s their angle and they’re trying to make this realistic, because they will lose that realism if they actually force us to confront these forces they’ve cooked up for their story.

Buy as a story? That was terrible! It’s like Aragorn going to face Sauron and when the army gets to the gates he decides meh… I don’t wanna fight this fight, and just runs away. It sucks. It sucks. All this mystery and suspense. All this fear and wondering what’s going to happen - for an ending that basically tells you it doesn’t matter. You don’t even know if the evil exists, because Strand and Alex’s entire rapour is them making cases for and against the paranormal actually happening. All you’re left with is several hours wasted on something that will never have closure. More than that, it’s something that even the developers seemed to have lost the fire for. Tell us Alex and Strand died. Tell us their story was cut short for a reason that isn’t out of character and isn’t pegged on a shitty romance that never existed up until this point. Tell us the bad guys won, or tell us the bad guys never existed, or tell us the good guys found a way to stop them. Don’t give us a bs reason for why you decided to drop your story halfway through! It feels almost like the producers went into the third season having wanted to end it with the second, but choosing to continue it just because it was popular with no real plan of where to go next. Or maybe they had story they wanted to tell but were too spread thin on their other projects to do it well. I honestly don’t know.

sigh

Point being this: I feel like I wasted my time on a podcast that was never intended to be finished. Which would have been fine if I’d gone into it knowing it was never finished. I can never fault a content creator for dropping a project - I do it all the time. What I can fault them for is (what feels like) lying to me and pretending they didn’t. See! We have an ending! Don’t you want to know the mystery ends?

Except the mystery doesn’t end, and not in the fantastical sense where the darkness is always out there and you have to be ready for it. It ends as if it never should have begun in the first place, and in such an underwhelming and abrupt stop that it was almost a waste of time to get excited about it in the first place.

And that’s my rant on The Black Tapes! XD I really wish I’d just pretended the world ended in season 2 and stopped listening there. Because it really was a good podcast. The developers just proved that even the best story can be ruined by a terrible ending.

#the black tapes #the black tapes spoilers #the black tapes finale #podcast rant #the barking artist

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ierohero · 7 years

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hey maci, if u don't mind, could you please describe what it's like having adhd? (my mother has it and i want to know more about it from someone who Actually Understands)

theres different types and the symptoms vary so ur moms experience might be different but i’ll tell u how it is for me.

1. being bored is literally excruciating. like i’d rather die than have to sit still with nothing to do or have to sit through something that doesn't interest me. if i have plans to go somewhere that i think theres even the possibility of me being bored i have to bring like three possible activities with me before i feel safe enough to go. the “activities” can be super engaging things like my drawing supplies or a book but they can also be super simple like a cool rock i can twiddle with or a necklace i can spin around my finger or my fidget cube which has been a Life Saver. if i don't have any of these little things to do i Aggressively daydream and make up stories in my head to keep myself entertained because its literally painful to be under stimulated.

2. memory? don’t know that bitch. people will say shit to my face and i’ll forget what they said literally as soon as they're done talking if i wasn't concentrating hard enough. if anybody asks me to do shit any farther into the future than five minutes it doesn't get done because i fucking forgot what i was supposed to do. I can't even remember any of the things that i myself want to do,,, i leave myself reminders and then i forget about those reminders. i leave sticky notes in places where ill see them a lot and they promptly become Just Part Of The Scenery. I put something I’m holding down for a single second? It’s fucking gone forever. so often i walk into a room and i forget why i went in there, leave, remember, come back and fucking forget Again. I don't remember any banal details about anybody’s life, even my closest friends,, small talk is like: You’ve Told Me Which Colleges Your Applying To Like Ten Times At This Point But You’re Gonna Have To List Them Again Because Its Not Interesting Enough Information To Hold On To And I Also Only Remember The Names Of Like Two Colleges Anyway. childhood memories? got like maybe two of those that i can call upon at will, otherwise they just Come Back To Me all of a sudden in Excruciating detail prompted by seemingly random things. also i Will Not Eat unless somebody tells me to because i forget thats a thing humans need to do and being hungry does nothing to bring that memory back.

3. focus. man. where the fuck do i start. focusing on things that don't interest me is So Fucking Hard and i have very little control over what I'm even able to focus on. i zone out so easily without realizing, if a conversation or lesson isn't engaging i just have to sit there and grit my teeth and repeatedly catch myself drifting and drag my mind back to the matter at hand over and over again. If i’m trying to read something thats not interesting i have to read the same sentence over literally ten times before i comprehend what its saying and another ten times before i remember what it said. also i will Never voluntarily read a giant block of text with no line breaks because my brain just nopes out if it before i even have a chance to start. I get overwhelmed So Easily because i can’t handle being asked to focus on more than one thing at a time and i can't handle being asked to switch my focus away from something that hasn't been completed yet. this applies to thoughts as well as tasks.

4. on the other hand i have Lazer Focus on the things i am interested in and i can spend ungodly amounts of time on a single thing without getting bored or tired. I spent ten straight hours on a drawing the other day literally without getting out of my chair once. any new interests i pick up become My Love My Life My Heart immediately there is no enjoying things moderately.

5. rejection sensitive dysphoria. if anybody i have even an ounce of respect for expresses even the slightest thing that could be perceived as disappointment in me, I'm fucking garbage and my life is over.

6. tv in the corner of this restaurant? other loud conversation happening near us? music playing that i put on? yeah pal I'm not gonna be able to take in anything anybody says

7. sleep is a bitch cuz if i just lie down and close my eyes I'm too bored to fall asleep, i have to listen to music or a podcast or something to engage my mind enough to stop yelling at me about how underestimated it is and actually let me fall asleep.

theres more but this is all the stuff i can remember right now and can actually be sure (i think) is adhd related and not just other problems that i have. hope this helps and sorry that its so long :)

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hey random question and don't feel obligated to answer, but as someone who is chronically ill and gets stressed out when reading the news about politics in america, do you have any good suggestions on how to cope? I don't want to give up reading the news and being informed but at the same time it definitely takes a toll. thanks!

hi anon. first off, i wish i could give you a hug (if you like hugs). today has been very hard for people like you & i

here are some strategies i use:

news collecting methods! i listen to a funny, mostly upbeat biweekly political podcast (Pod Save America) and follow about 75 journalists on twitter (which tbh i don’t recommend).

podcasts! podcasts are nice because the hosts can explain what’s going on in a way that’s easier to understand and a bit more calming than the dry tones of washington post & the new york times or the dire RED ALERT RED ALERT feel of twitter

read articles that summarize everything. Vox.com does this great “The Most Important Stories of the Week, Explained” feature every sunday or so that summarizes what has been going on

ask a friend need to take a break from everything news related? ask your friend to keep you updated with any Major developments and otherwise chill out

set a time limit! my partner & i have an agreement that we won’t talk about politics after 7:30 pm. we don’t see each other from like 5:30 am - 6:00 pm so that gives us an hour and a half to discuss anything major political, and then we shut up.

practice self care:

get enough sleep. drink enough water. eat enough food. sleep is a natural mood stabilizer and you will be better able to handle any kind of stress if you’re doing these important things. if i don’t get enough sleep my physical and mental health goes out the window so fucking fast. if you can’t sleep because you are too worried, i’d take a time out from any and all news for like 48 hours.

go to therapy? great, talk to your therapist about coping methods. deep breathing (like biofeedback), meditation, mindfulness, exercise - these things get suggested so often for a reason. they can really help some people hang in there.

religious or spiritual? pray for guidance, serenity, and whatever else you need

if you’re able to (and like...we are both chronically ill. so i understand if you can’t), do something that nourishes your soul. get out into nature (or watch nature videos on youtube, whatever you can do). look at art or listen to amazing music.

DISTRACT YOURSELF! scared? read your favorite story. stressed? watch your favorite sitcom. sad? listen to your favorite song. distraction can be used positively

if you’re the creative type, try to write or paint or draw or sing. 1) creating can be cathartic 2) creating can be a great distraction/coping mechanism 3) creating can give you some control over something

if you’re able to (no prob if u aren’t), do something like cleaning or gardening or folding & putting away laundry or unloading the dishwasher in order to feel accomplished and in control. maybe you can only clean for 5 min. that’s ok!

social:

connect with your friends and community so you don’t have to do this alone. talking about the news w/ people you love and trust can really help

remind yourself positive stuff is getting done. i just followed ADAPT (disabled activist group) on facebook and i don’t feel quite as hopeless as before. disabled people are fighters, always have been, and there are people out there protesting for ppl who can’t

get involved in a lowkey way, like calling your reps or faxing them. you can do it like twice a week and then not think about it the rest of the time. do what you can.

misc:

it’s okay to cry. it’s okay to be sad and to have a melt down. crying is a coping strategy for our body to release very powerful emotion. it’s a built in coping mechanism. if you let yourself have a bit of a melt down you might feel better. (also crying is good for ur skin)

pet a dog or a cat. you will feel better.

my happy tag is at your disposal. so is my dog tag, cat tag, animal friendship tag, and horse tag :)

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