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kingofthewilderwest · 7 months

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Given how you mentioned the Disney sequels in my last last question, I'm curious what you think of the sequel trilogy as a whole 4 years later. Also what you make of the rey movie that's suppose to happen?

It's funny timing. I've been watching the Lucas sextilogy and Star Wars meta on YouTube. Particularly, So Uncivilized is a fascinating meta analyst, and I rewatched this tonight:

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As for my thoughts...

When I saw TFA opening night and noticed it rehashed everything and added nothing, I lost investment. By "lose investment," I don't mean I got bitter, unhappy, jaded, cynical, etc. I mean that I was in a fine mood, perfectly chill, had fun, but I no longer carried anticipation or expectations for future projects. I could tell this was not a good foundation and was an omen for future creative issues. Thus, when the second and third movies came out, I didn't feel disappointed, but their content meant I found increasing distance between myself, the characters, and the story. I didn't mind The Rise of Skywalker was bad. I got my recreation's use out of it. The direct relationship I had with it was the time I spent watching it once (1).

But even though I didn't agree with 90% of the trilogy's premises and executions, I made sure to see TLJ and Rise of Skywalker. After all, watching these movies was the door into some of the best media discussions I've had in my life.

I was invited to a winter party with about two dozen attendees. Most ended in the kitchen to debate TLJ, which had just released. We got so animated we had to do the old "pass the ball" trick, where only the person holding the ball could talk. It was one of the most in-depth, eye-opening, fascinating, multi-faceted, engaging media discussions I've had. Everyone had different but extraordinary insight to relay about subversions of expectations, underlying messages, contributions to the franchise, scene composition, editing, dialogue, characterization, symbolism, you name it.

When the final movie came out, conversations again were endlessly fruitful. No matter who I talked to, I could hear something new and enlightening about media through the lens of Rise of Skywalker.

There's nothing I hate about the movies. I don't think about them much. Star Wars to me is pre-Disney reboot. That's the territory my heart cares about. That's the territory that's Real. But I also have fun talking about Kylo Ren or Hux as any Star Wars nerd who likes those characters. I feel no bitter emotions, but positive ones, when anyone brings up TFA and thereafter.

My perspective, several years later, hasn't changed.

Now, I love how meta analysts have enhanced my perspective. I love people pointing out that the original and prequel trilogies introduced a huge number of ship and location designs, whereas the sequel trilogy... didn't. I love So Uncivilized's analysis that each movie in the sequel trilogy was a counter to a counter, until we ended up with a course correction of a course correction of a course correction of a course correction. Or, as he said, this sequel trilogy was intended to keep the franchise alive for another generation, but "to keep a creative work alive, you have to create things, and it's clear looking at this trilogy that nothing was built here."

Fans have endlessly talked about how there was no cohesion between movies in this trilogy and how its characterization and plot were a mess. How the movies were too reliant on old nostalgia. How showboating old characters prevented our new character trio from receiving agency and direction. I don't need to go there.

There's a reason we viewers remember the names of Kylo Ren and Rey and Poe and Finn. In their imperfect appearances, we saw characters that could have enlivened us to the same levels as Luke, Leia, Han, Anakin, Obi-Wan, and Padme. I like Kylo Ren. I like Poe. I like Finn. They are appealing concepts.

But. But. I think the sequel trilogy, and Disney's over-saturation of materials, will fade over time, whereas the original six movies (I said original six, nyeh) WILL stand the test of time as classics. Just because VI-IX have "Episode" to their title doesn't mean they'll get saved from the endless mire Disney has manifested unto itself; nearly all live action materials from the 2010s and 2020s will end in late-Star Wars Disnified goop, to be lost in collective memory over time. That's not intended to be an insult; I just think that one is a short phenomenon that'll fade once contemporary sensations satiate, whereas the others are proven longevity.

There's bias in the sense I haven't watched anything outside of VI-IX and Rogue One. I've never seen The Mandalorian, or Andor, or Ahsoka, or anything else. I haven't felt the need to, so I won't. Heck, I didn't know about this alleged Rey movie thing - your comment is the first I've heard. So I have no perspective there except, "This isn't material I think needs to exist, and I'd rather go back to (and produce things like) the old." Disney's commercialized mania isn't a success to me. No ill feelings, just simple personal disinterest. It's not part of the imagination fuel I use when I fuel my imagination on Star Wars. And the sequel trilogy is something I frankly already forget about when I imagine the vast, captivating, thrilling world of Star Wars.

The legacy of the sequel trilogy isn't its story. Yet. There's real value in the sequel trilogy, and I believe it. It's perfect for analyzing media. It's a perfect medium for discussion. What went right, what didn't go right, what was compelling, what was disappointing, what was misguided, what lost focus, what never had focus, I will always find these movies valuable for that. And the thing is, I think we'll be talking about that for a while yet. Because it's fruitful. It's endlessly interesting.

Whether or not it's good media content in and of itself, it's GOOD CONVERSATION CONTENT.

#long post #Star Wars #analysis #my analysis #non-dragons #I am too tired to tag every single movie and character I discussed #bluestarsaber #good topic

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zintranslations · 3 years

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Kaleidoscope of Death, Extra 3

Kaleidoscope of Death by Xi Zixu Link to Chinese / Novel Updates

Extra: Shameless Couple (2)

Ruan Nanzhu's stint as an actor was purely for fun, so nobody took the matter very seriously. But months later, as Ruan Nanzhu sat around bored at home with nothing to do, he got a call from Zhang Yiqing. The movie was premiering, and Zhang Yiqing sent him two free tickets for him to go have a look.

Tickets in hand, Ruan Nanzhu invited Lin Qiushi to go see the movie together. The two arrived happily at the theater, Lin Qiushi bought a bucket of popcorn, and they sat down in the audience.

The movie was a hundred minutes total; Lin Qiushi didn't have high expectations coming in, but afterwards, he was completely blown away. Though Zhang Yiqing had been an actor and had never gone through an official director’s program, he obviously had quite a lot of talent in the realm of directing. At least, the techniques he used to shoot this wuxia film that Ruan Nanzhu got a cameo in were good enough to provoke cheers and applause.

Ruan Nanzhu, playing the prince in the movie, was also exceptional.

But after they watched it, that was that. Lin Qiushi and Ruan Nanzhu went home without thinking too much on the matter, until the next day when Lin Qiushi opened up his social media and saw that Ruan Nanzhu's character was trending…He didn't understand such things very well. He clicked into the tag and found many people gushing about Ruan Nanzhu's acting and good looks, and asking how come they'd not seen this new actor before. No one thought that this new guy with so few lines would be so eye-catching.

Lin Qiushi woke the bleary-eyed Ruan Nanzhu and pushed the phone in front of his face.

"Nanzhu, are you famous?"

Ruan Nanzhu opened his eyes and peered once at the phone screen before pushing Lin Qiushi down into bed again. He kissed Lin Qiushi's chin and said, "forget about that…"

Lin Qiushi, "oh…"

Ruan Nanzhu had little actual concept of himself going viral, so when he was having lunch with Lin Qiushi one day, he was actually pretty irritated to get Zhang Yiqing's phone call.

"I'm just a minor side character," he said, "why should I go on your publicity tour? What? Blacklist me? Did you take the wrong meds this morning? I'm not even in the industry, blacklist me all you want—"

Lin Qiushi listened at the side and found it funny, but then Zhang Yiqing said something at the end, and Ruan Nanzhu actually stopped refusing. Brows furrowing, he looked up once at Lin Qiushi before agreeing to Zhang Yiqing's request to go on a publicity tour with him and the cast.

After hanging up, Ruan Nanzhu said that Zhang Yiqing wanted him to go do publicity for a bit of time.

"Go," Lin Qiushi said. "But if you really dislike it, don't force yourself. We lack for nothing."

"Mh." Ruan Nanzhu nodded, taking Lin Qiushi's words to heart.

After that, Lin Qiushi's projects got busy as well, and he didn't have the time to pay attention to developments around Ruan Nanzhu's movie. The point at which he realized Ruan Nanzhu was well and truly famous was when he discovered that a young employee had switched her desktop screensaver to a picture of Ruan Nanzhu. Lin Qiushi had even thought he'd been seeing things at first, pointing at the screensaver and asking the girl, "who's this?"

The girl turned to Lin Qiushi with an expression of excitement and began a fanatic recommendation of Ruan Nanzhu, saying how this was a super popular newcomer named Yu Qiuqiu, and not only was he good looking but is acting was also amazing!

Lin Qiushi, "…" Alright alright, enough already. I know exactly how amazing his acting is.

That night, Lin Qiushi stared thoughtfully at Ruan Nanzhu, who was in his pajamas in the kitchen, watching TV.

Ruan Nanzhu noticed Lin Qiushi's gaze. He turned around to ask, "what is it?"

Lin Qiushi, "Nanzhu…"

Ruan Nanzhu, "hm?"

Lin Qiushi, "are you famous?"

Ruan Nanzhu, "famous? What do you mean?"

Seeing his bewildered expression, Lin Qiushi had no choice but to change his wording: "Is Yu Qiuqiu famous?" And this bastard even debuted with his pseudonym.

Ruan Nanzhu slapped a hand to his thigh. "Yeah! Our Qiuqiu is super famous! Zhang Yiqing recommended me to his friends trying to make me the main character—"

Lin Qiushi, "isn't that a good thing?"

Ruan Nanzhu, "how is it a good thing? If I'm making movies I have to run around all the time. I can't keep you company like that."

Lin Qiushi thought about it.

"But you're just doing it for fun, so you don't have to worry about all that. You don't have to film if you don't want to. If you're tired you can just take a break." Other stars may have burdens, but Ruan Nanzhu didn't.

"Okay then," Ruan Nanzhu agreed. Then he seemed to recall something. "Right. The newcomer from Obsidian came to set a couple of times. I ignored him, but tell Ye Niao that if he keeps coming, I might not be able to handle it."

It took Lin Qiushi a long while to remember the existence of this person—it seemed to be the newcomer coveting Ruan Nanzhu for his good looks, who was under the impression that Lin Qiushi had taken Ruan Nanzhu by force.

He asked, "what do you mean by not being able to handle it?"

Ruan Nanzhu, "I might not be able to handle it and end up decking him, of course."

Lin Qiushi, "…"

The facts were, after being baptized by the doors, their bodies had all become stronger than those of normal people. This was the case for Lin Qiushi. He'd thought at first that he would be around Ruan Nanzhu's level, but then one evening, he’d discovered that he wasn't Ruan Nanzhu's opponent at all. Ruan Nanzhu, who'd wanted to try some fun little technique, restrained Lin Qiushi with ease; a single hand was all it took to pressed both of Lin Qiushi's above their heads. That hand that looked as pale and delicate as jade had felt just like a metal shackle, and no matter how Lin Qiushi struggled, it hadn’t budge an inch.

Also, every time he picked Lin Qiushi up to go wash, Ruan Nanzhu could lift him, a healthy grown adult male, in one arm.

Afterthis discovery, Lin Qiushi had laughed at himself for worrying about Ruan Nanzhu getting mistreated outside—Lin Qiushi counted all of them lucky that Ruan Nanzhu wasn’t mistreating people.

"Don't worry about it." For the above reasons, Lin Qiushi said as much. "If he really annoys you, do what you must."

Ruan Nanzhu nodded.

Just a few days after they'd discussed the matter, Lin Qiushi went to check in on Ruan Nanzhu at work. Ruan Nanzhu was filming a modern movie this time, and played a handsome serial killer in the script. Lin Qiushi thought this character setting rather suited Ruan Nanzhu.

He was waiting on the curbside at first. But then his ears caught onto a strange noise. It sounded like a person…keening. Lin Qiushi heard this, and his brows puckered. He turned and looked into a small, dark alley. The film was being shot in the studio backlot, which was complicated and filled with architecture of various styles. So naturally, there were plenty of out-of-the-way spots that the cameras can't capture.

Just as Lin Qiushi was wondering if he ought to take a look, he heard Ruan Nanzhu's voice.

And Ruan Nanzhu sounded a bit dark, a bit scratchy, when he said, "feels good?"

Lin Qiushi, "…"

He padded silently to the entrance of the alley and saw Ruan Nanzhu standing inside. There was another person kneeling in front of Ruan Nanzhu. Though it was dark enough that Lin Qiushi couldn't really make out the other person's face, the scene before him wasn't anywhere as raunchy as he'd imagined.

That person was lying on the ground like a dead dog. Ruan Nanzhu heard his footsteps and turned around, and when he saw Lin Qiushi, he hung a faint smile up where a cold expression had previously been. His motions were natural as he rolled down his sleeves, approaching Lin Qiushi.

"What brings you here?"

Lin Qiushi glanced at the man hanging on his last breath lying on the floor.

"He's not dead, is he?"

"Of course not, I know when to stop." Ruan Nanzhu came over, seeming like a sweet and adorable big kitty, as if the icy ruthlessness from before had all been an illusion. "We'll call him an ambulance. He'll be fine."

"I…I'm calling the cops…" The person's call from the ground was as faint as a mosquito's. "You…you hit me…"

It was only then that Lin Qiushi identified this person. Wasn't this the newcomer from Obsidian that Ruan Nanzhu had mentioned only a few days ago? Lin Qiushi hadn't expected the guy to still be harassing Ruan Nanzhu, and had apparently pissed Ruan Nanzhu off enough to get beaten up so badly that not even his own mother could recognize him.

Man, how complicated his feelings must have been when a single slap from Ruan Nanzhu, who’d seemed like nothing more than a little white bunny, was enough to take him down.

Lin Qiushi said, "if he still has the strength to threaten us, then we probably don't need to call an ambulance."

Ruan Nanzhu, "no need. I avoided all the vital areas—'tis all just flesh wounds."

Lin Qiushi nodded, fished out his phone, and gave Ye Niao a call. Ye Niao was furious. He said he was on his way and urged Lin Qiushi not to be angry.

After Lin Qiushi hung up he lifted Ruan Nanzhu's hand.

"You're not hurt, are you?"

"I am," Ruan Nanzhu pouted. "Look, it's injured."

Lin Qiushi searched the hand all over at this, and finally found a single patch of broken skin no bigger than his pinky. He looked back at the man beaten to a pulp beside them, then back at the wound on the back of Ruan Nanzhu's hand. Finally, he couldn't hold in his laughter anymore.

"You're so…"

Laughter also surfaced in Ruan Nanzhu's eyes.

Ye Niao came quickly and dragged that person off like he was dragging out the trash. Before he left he even apologized to Lin Qiushi for his poor judgment and for choosing such a person…

Lin Qiushi said, "don't worry about it. Everybody makes mistakes."

The matter pretty much ended there. Lin Qiushi never saw that person again, and no police ever came to bother them. Ye Niao took neat care of the matter.

"They didn't give you a hard time, did they?" This was what Lin Qiushi asked Ruan Nanzhu after they got home.

Ruan Nanzhu, in response, "who's they?"

Lin Qiushi, "the cast and crew, of course."

Ruan Nanzhu slid off in thought. "They think I'm being kept by some heavy hitter, and mess around with the mob…"

Lin Qiushi, "…"

Ruan Nanzhu, "so, they're actually pretty respectful?"

At this, Lin Qiushi didn't know for a moment whether he ought to laugh or cry. Ruan Nanzhu himself was the heaviest hitter—why would he possibly be the kept boy of one? But since he liked to act so much, there was no harm in Lin Qiushi playing along. They still had a long time together, after all. There were plenty of things for them to try.

Ruan Nanzhu scooted close to Lin Qiushi, setting his chin on Lin Qiushi's shoulder and mumbling something about being sleepy. Lin Qiushi stroked his hair like he was petting a giant cat. This animal, when tamed, seemed just like an overgrown kitty, but if you actually pissed him off, he was actually a ruthless beast.

But this was a beast that would never extend its claws at Lin Qiushi, was all.

Translator’s Note:

The term translated as “heavy hitter” here, 大佬, has actually appeared often in the text. It’s a slang term that kind of means “the big guy,” as in the boss, the one with the most experience, etc. RNZ gets called this a lot, especially in the Hako Onna door.

[Extra: Shameless Couple(1)] | [Extra: Twin Lives, Twin Deaths(1)]

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emachinescat · 3 years

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II've decided to watch MacGyver from the beginning (again), and I'm live tweeting the experience with every tweet tagged with #savemacgyver. I thought it would be fun to share my collected thoughts from the episodes on here as well.

My Thoughts on S1E3, "Awl"

You're not only going to make it to 30, Mac, but you're going to make it to season 6. #savemacgyver

I love that Jack's bucket list includes finishing the Harry Potter books. Guess he's not a one-trick pony after all with sci-fi. A healthy blend of science fiction and fantasy is just what the doctor ordered.

Dylan Thomas reference! That poem was written about the poet's own father, and is about how everyone, no matter who they are or what they stand for, fights against death in the end. He's begging his dad to "rage, rage against the dying of the light," to not give in to death so easily, to keep fighting. Just taught this poem, actually, so I'm vibing with this reference super hard. Though to be fair, I'd be vibing with it anyway. Love Dylan Thomas.

Oh my gosh, this is the one with the fire extinguisher and inflatable escape! I'd forgotten which episode that came from, but I see GIFs of it all over Tumblr. Poor Mac especially, that looks like it hurts. Why is Lucas Till so good at being whumped?!

Jack hugging the fire extinguisher: Iconic.

I'll never get tired of seeing that polar bear! Do we know if he has a name?

I cannot get over how small and excited Bozer is, not a care in the world except for his movie. It's exciting to think about what's to come for his character growth, though I do wish he wouldn't have to go through all the things he does. :(

Jack's conversations with his dad at the grave are just everything. And I feel cheated that we haven't gotten to see Mac have the same kind of conversations at Jack's grave (though I firmly believe it's a regular occurrence off-screen).

Seriously, the way he talks to his dad is so familiar, so comfortable, so natural. It's like Daddy Dalton is right there with him and it fills me with so many emotions that I can't even.

The smile on Jack's face and the pride in his voice when he talks about Mac to his dad is the purest thing ever.

Also, that's a big-ass tombstone Jack is leaning against.

"Hi, Mr. Dalton. How's... life?" MAC! 😂

I can't tell you how much I love it when other characters talk about how smart Mac is. "He's a genius..."

First mention of Mac's dad. It's sweet how invested Jack is in Mac rebuilding his relationship with his old man. Also, I really wish we would have gotten a flashback of Jack's dad at some point. He seems like such an amazing man.

"If I could have one more day to sit and talk to my dad instead of that hunk of rock, I'd do anything." Jaaaaaaack 😭😭😭

Good old Ralph Kastrati. Single-handedly the most annoying character in all of cable television. Y'all have no idea what you're getting into with this one, dream team.

PUNCHFACE.

"My mom dated a guy like that once." Ouch. I'm about to start a Riley Zinger Counter for each episode. Her comebacks are 🔥

It's not just his face, Jack. Everything about this dude is punchable. Especially the way he says "yo."

Ewwww tightie whities no thanks imma head hom now byyye

Mac just snatched that can right out of Jack's hand as he was about to take a drink. Classic.

If I didn't hate Ralph before (spoiler: I did), then I extra hate him for the foie gras comment.

Yes, Jack, "asshat" is the perfect descriptor for this guy.

Is Mac seriously about to just make him some noise-canceling headphones? Who am I kidding? Of course he is.

I need more of Mac punching people in the face. For science.

Poor Jack didn't get to punch the punch face.

🎵 Snipers gonna snipe, snipe, snipe, snipe, snipe 🎵

Between the foie gras and the calfskin, they are really making this guy so easy to hate just sayin'.

"As soon as you're done saving his life, I'm gonna kill him, you hear that, smart-ass? I'm already dressed for the funeral." 🤣🤣🤣🤣

"He's g-good. He just... got kinda shot." Is that the medical terminology, Mac?

Jack using country music as a form of torture 🤣

"You're going to be seeing Yelp stars if you don't shut up!"

Have I mentioned how much I love the music in this show?

"I don't wanna die listening to country music!"

I love how bossy and grabby Mac gets when he improvises.

Another belt grab! I can’t get over Jack trying to keep his crazy partner from falling out of the window – it gives me life!

Actually makes me wonder if he does it because Mac’s taken a tumble out of a car window before. *fanfic brain engaged*

“You know how I feel about your puns.” C’mon, Mac, pus are the greatest forms of humor, bar-pun. (Geddit?)

Mc made a C in biology? I’m not buying it.

Dwwwwwww the sounds of the surgery. No thanks.

Though I will say this is one of the coolest (albeit grossest) things Mac’s ever done on this show.

What the heck is with that elevator door? It took a whole 10 years to close! I wouldn’t trust it. (To be fair, I don’t trust any elevator, but that’s neither here nor there.)

Sir Bleeds-a-Lot lol

Riley stepping in and taking charge once again. No idea how these two functioned before she came along.

Some seriously cool MacGyverisms in this episode. The whole process of “killing” Ralph and bringing him back with office supplies is so OG MacGyver and it gives me all the warm fuzzies.

Ralph: “You’re not a scientist, you’re not a doctor. So how the hell do you know all this stuff?” Mac: “...I read a lot of books?” I love Mac so much.

“Now go die.” Lolololol

The moment with Ralph wanting to call his mom and grow the hell up is surprisingly genuine and heartbreaking. Character development for a character in only one episode, hello, is that you?

“He’s dead, but he’ll get better.” MacGyver, 2016

Riley’s comeback about Jack’s plan to take out six guys if Mac takes out two is another winner. (Riley: 2, Jack: 0) Still, I love the whole, “Sure it does [count as a plan]. First, I’ll take two. Then, I’ll take the other four.” This is why Mac is the plan guy, not Jack.

“Or I can take them all out.” Mac’s confidence = 🔥

I might need to start a Mac sass counter too. Jack: “You seriously want me to put this on my face?” Mac: “Only if you like breathing.”

Jack’s left fist getting jealous 🤣

They really liked choking Mac in the early episodes, didn’t they? Not that I’m complaining. Actually, why did that stop? That strangled, panicked cry of “JACK?!” is music to my fanfic writing, hurt/comfort obsessed, whump-loving soul.

That cough - it actually hurts me to hear it! They should have given us some more repercussions or aftercare for Mac breathing in that gas!

Ralph fell asleep. Of course.

“You know, it’s weird. I’m glad he’s alive… but I still want to kill him. 🤣 I’m with Jack on this one!

Ralph: “A fresh start. I could use one of those right?” Riley: “Or a whole new personality.” ZZZING!!! Riley: 1 million, the world: -10

Oh he did not just call Riley “little hottie.” I’m back to wanting to kill him, character development be darned. So diminutive, dehumanizing, and objectifying. This guy has more than won the douchebag lottery. Riley can more than stick up for herself, but still. The way he speaks to her here makes me feel all kinds of gross.

He just said “ya heard” unironically. Can we let Jack punch him now, please?

Jack offering to let Ralph keep the cash he lifted if he gets to punch him is great, but even better is Mac and Riley offering to chip in money for The Cause.

Oh, yeah, Bozer was in this episode. I’m excited for when he is utilized more!

Bozer’s monster Mac is nightmare fuel!

“A letter? That you put in the mail? It’s 2016.” Hey, as someone who has an actual, old-school type pen pal, step off, Jack.

Mac: “You just gonna watch?” Jack, offended: “Not anymore.” How is it Jack is like Mac’s dad but they also bicker like 5-year-olds? This relationship is so strange, so wonderful, and the heart of the show in so many ways. I love them.

Mac’s words of wisdom about the nature of life are actually super encouraging and exactly what I needed to hear today.

I’d forgotten how much I love this episode – t’s so fun! Although the Codex storyline in season 4 is probably my favorite plot-wise, coming back to these early episodes is like a breath of fresh air! Excellent, excellent episode with so much to offer!

What are your thoughts on "Awl?" I'd love to discuss! :)

#macgyver #jack dalton #riley davis #wilt bozer #macgyver rewatch #my thoughts #episode review #save macgyver #we can still save our show #emcatreviews #spoilers #s1e3 #awl

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ironmansuuucks · 4 years

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Slowly Save Me

Dewey Finn x Reader

hey guys, this is an anon dewey finn x reader request i have - they reached out to me through messages and asked if i could do this specific request! I will need to put warnings on this one, got some heavier themes

I also won’t be putting my tag list on this just because of the subject matter!

And i also wanna start off by saying that my heart is so full for every single one of you guys. and my messages and inbox are always open if anyone needs to chat or vent or getting anything off their chest. I’m here, and I wanna help in anyway I can if you need it. Lotsa love xxx

WARNINGS: (TW) dealing with sexual abuse

words: 1800

Dewey Finn had been in your life for almost 4 months now. And how much brighter life got in those four months. He was always there when things got a little grey, bringing his light in to disperse the dark. He didn’t know it, and neither did you, but he was slowly saving you.

You guys spent so much time together, whether it be going to concerts, laying watching tv, or rocking out to your favourite music in the car. He was yours, and you were his.

Things had been going well, great even, but there was one thing that wasn’t going so well. The minute things with Dewey got a little intimate, you backed out. Finding excuses;

“uh its getting late, I better go…”

“oh, uh I’m on my period”.

“I’m really tired”.

Sure the cuddles were the best, and his kisses were soft and loving, but the minute his hands headed down, further and further, your body made you stop him. Dewey always took the rejection well, saying he doesn’t mind and he’s happy with cuddles, and he always apologises, but it wasn’t his fault. You felt like maybe he thought it was his fault. But it wasn’t.

You wished to become more intimate with your favourite rockstar, but your body would not let you. It felt as if you were back in that situation and it just. Told. You. No.

But tonight you decided you were gonna tell it yes. You wanted things to progress with Dewey, and you were fed up of being held back. You wanted him to be able to touch you and not be able to flinch, and you wanted to be able to feel confident and unafraid. You were going to try.

And that’s all that can ever be asked of yourself, when you feel ready enough.

So you invited Dewey over, you guys ate pizza and had a few drinks, and watched a movie.

“you sure know the way to my heart my sweets” he would chime, winking at you as he relished in his favourite dish, and his favourite girl.

Cuddled up on the couch, sharing a bottle of wine was comforting, and homely. The room was lit only by the light of the tv, and the warmth of a few candles you had. The darkness was a comforting. You felt happy. Content. And most of all, you felt safe.

Legs entangled in one another as he was pressed up to your back on the couch, his head on your shoulder, fingers tracing little patterns on your hip. No time like the present, right?

You nudged yourself back a little, pressing yourself into him. Dewey caught the drift. He began to leave little kisses on your shoulder, up to your neck. You tried to occupy your mind with the tv, watching closely at the characters interacting with one another. Distracting your mind.

You moved your head back, allowing him further access to your neck. This was fine. This was good. You were good.

Breathing out loudly, admittedly a little shakily, you turned around, laying on your back. You could do this. Reaching up, your hands found his hair as you pulled him into a kiss, your lips moving together, slow and soft. You could feel the hunger in Dewey’s movements. It irked you a little.

But he didn’t know anything. He had no idea what was going on in your head.

You could feel his hand begin to slowly wander further down. You tried to tell your brain to shut up, but the more his hand crept down your head expanded with pain. As if it was swollen; about to burst.

You scrunched up your eyes, trying to push away thoughts and maintain control of your mind and body.

But sometimes you just need to listen to your body.

“no Dewey stop”. You pulled away from the kiss. You whole body frozen. Eyes squeezed shut. Trying your damnest not to cry.

Dewey also froze. He was worried he had done something wrong. Was he pushing you too much? He felt worried. His head was also spinning a little as he noticed how your eyes were squeezed shut, and how frozen your body was.

“y/n.. I’m- I’m sorry, are you okay?”. He was internally panicking.

You shook your head, brining your hands to your face, wanting to hide, turn your back on everything, and the world. You could only focus on Dewey’s hand, still on the waistband of your gym leggings, weighing heavily on your body.

He could hear your muffled sobs through your hands, his heart breaking. He moved his hand, the one that was burning your skin, sitting up a little.

“wh-what’s wrong? Was it me?..” he sounded a worried. This wasn’t what you wanted.

You shook your head. Trying to regain control. You wiped your stinging eyes before you turned around and buried yourself into him. your hands clutching at his t-shirt as your eyes left little wet marks on the fabric.

Dewey’s arms instantly wrapped around you protectively. One hand holding you to him, around your waist, as the other stroked your hair.

His body was comforting. It made you feel safe, like no one could harm you. It was calming. The feeling of his t shirt, his scent, you could hear his breathing and feel his breath on the top of your head. He was helping to ground you.

“I’m, I’m so sorry Dew..” you manage between sobs. You felt a little embarrassed, and ashamed.

Dewey, yeah he wasn’t the smartest guy in the world, but his intuition and heart was all he ever needed. He could guess what was going on with you. Yeah, he didn’t know exactly what, but he could tell by the way your body froze, and the way you sobbed, that someone had hurt you.

“shh, shh it’s okay. You’re okay..” he tried to soothe you, kissing the top of your head a few times as his hand continued to comb through your hair, as the other lightly rubbed your back.

It made him angry to see you like this. He would tackle the world to take away the pain you felt. He wanted to help.

“is there anything I can do to help? Right now?”

You shook your head, tears still rolling down your face. “just hold me… please”.

He pulled you tighter to him. Hearing your muffled cries made him upset, and he thought about how he promised, right here, he would always be here for you, when ever you needed him, as a tear escaped his eye.

Dewey held you until you were settled a little. Until your breathing eventually slowed to a natural pace, and until your eyes felt like they had no more tears left to cry.

The silence and darkness now felt haunting. The tv was down so low that the voices were muffled, and hollow.

Then, it was broke by your pained voice “I’m sorry Dewey.. It’s not your fault”. You looked up at him. Your eyes full of hurt, and pain. His heart felt heavy when he looked down at you. Your sore, red eyes telling all he needed to know. Your flushed cheeks burning red, coated in your tears.

“do you wanna talk about it? Or anything?” Dewey was hesitant. He didn’t want to overstep, or make you feel pressured to discuss. But he wanted to help. How badly he wanted to help take this away.

“I- I don’t know if I can…” your voice hitched.

“I don’t want you to feel pressured to-“ he felt bad, before you cut him off.

“no, its not that.. its just.. everyone avoids, the subject.. my family.. they.. they don’t.. they avoid it..” the tears had found their way back to your eyes, filling up instantly.

His heart broke. He was able to piece together what happened. And it made him so angry. He pulled you close to him, kissing your forehead.

His warmth was welcoming. It soothed your soul, and you felt so safe. So comfortable, so accepted by him.

“well, you know I’m here.. and I have ears to listen when ever you need them.. and I have arms here.. and they can hold you when ever you need them also.. and I have this nose, and it loves to do this” he brought his face to yours and nuzzled his nose with yours as he squeezed you lightly, eliciting a little giggle from you, allowing him to see that beautiful smile of yours for a second.

“thank you Dew.. I just… I struggle with certain.. touches..?” your cheeks burned a little as you looked into his eyes, then down, clenching his t shirt a little more, twisting it in your hands.

“I’m sorry y/n..-“ he sounded upset. His voice cracking a little.

Your eyes darted back up to him.

“please don’t be sorry Dew… you didn’t know.. how were you to know? And… and you’ve brought so much light into my life.. and.. you have no idea how thankful I am that you are in my life..” you half smiled up at your caring boy through sniffles. You felt comfortable with Dewey. You knew he really did care about you. And he wasn’t shying away from the subject unlike others. Maybe you could allow yourself to open up to him…

It would be difficult.. but worth it.

His eyes found yours in the dark, shifting from one of your eyes to the next, searching. His had came to your face, his thumb wiping away the stray tear.

“I’m here. I’m here whenever you need me. If you need me to talk, to listen, to stay silent.. to play guitar, to take you to McDonald’s for chicken nuggets.. Whenever, and wherever you need me.. I’ll be with you as soon as. You, are not alone. You are amazing, and so incredibly strong. You are loved, and you are safe. And I love you more than I can say.”

The air was so still. It felt as though it was only you and Dewey in the entire world. As if the rest had frozen. His words spoke from his heart, to yours.

And he kept his word. He always did. And slowly, you got better.

Dewey Finn has been in your life now for 2 and a half years, and how much brighter life has gotten in those 2 and a half years. Things were almost never grey. The darkness had been dispersed, and he may not know it, but he had slowly saved you.

#dewey finn #dewey finn x reader #school of rock the musical #Alex Brightman

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dramallamadingdang · 5 years

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Replies, the God edition.

I promise that I’m not going to talk about this stuff a lot, though now I’m kinda thinking that I do want that sideblog, if only just to get down all my own thoughts in writing, which has always helped me to sort of mentally organize things. But, I did want to reply to a couple replies and also paste in some nonnie replies, so that I can get ‘er all done in one (long, of course *eyeroll*) post. I also apologize for not tagging previous posts as non-sims, for those who block such posts. In my defense, I’d gotten in from a night out and was in that “tired, but not quite tired enough to sleep” place, and in that place I get kind of spacey and careless. So I’ve fixed that.

So, anyway, replies for @snarkysims and @nimitwinklesims as well as two anons who sent me asks are behind the cut...

snarkysims replied to your post “Speaking of religion, I saw in a lot of MTS off-topic discussions that...”

I appreciate you being candidate about your journey. While I do consider myself to still be Christian, much of what you said resonated with me. I appreciate you being open to people regardless their beliefs. Cheers!

Frankly, I’ve never understood not being “open” to people of other beliefs, even when I was very Christian. I mean, that sort of attitude is...Well, not very Christian, is it? Christians are charged with bringing the gospel to the non-believer, and you can’t do that if you can’t meet people where they’re at in order to talk to them. Sure, some brands of Christianity are more isolationist, so as to avoid ungodly influence and whatnot, but as a Christian, I was always of the opinion that doing so was a mark of dangerously weak faith and that it defeated the whole “be in the world but not of the world” thing, not to mention making spreading the gospel that much harder. Our society has just become so polarized and tribal that it’s ridiculous.

Well, in any case, I love people of all kinds, whatever their beliefs about anything, and I have very strong disagreements, including religious ones, with some of my very best friends. I have no truck with the whole “purity test” business, wherein I can’t be friends with, or associate with, or ally with on issues on which we do agree, or have spirited discussions with people who disagree with me in any way. While I do understand the importance of having community with supportive like-minded individuals, what’s the point of always surrounding yourself with people who agree with you in every single particular? Mutual back-patting? Circle jerking? I’ve never understood that, and it’s only gotten worse with the whole “call-out culture” thing. No thanks.

nimitwinklesims replied to your post “Speaking of religion, I saw in a lot of MTS off-topic discussions that...”

For some reason I can't access the entire post when on mobile -- will try laptop later.. curious to read!

It’s probably because it’s freaking long! *laugh* I do go on, I’m afraid. *sigh* But if you still can’t read it, I’d be happy to copypasta it into messages or some other format.

I am so sorry that you were indoctrinated. I had difficulties breaking away even as a non-indoctrinated (self-indoctrinated?) convert. I still sometimes have nightmares about hell and all. So I can’t even imagine what it’s like for people who had this stuff drilled into their brains from birth. I am glad that you had the fortitude to escape. :)

It rather surprised me -- though it probably shouldn’t have -- that the “if Yahweh was proved to be real, I’d believe in him but refuse to worship the f***er” is a common theme among atheists, especially, it seems, among those who had a fervent belief at some point and then deconverted, as opposed to those who were raised secular and/or just never believed. Maybe it’s a reaction to betrayal. I mean, you spend “X” amount of time being spoon-fed carefully-chosen rhetoric and scripture and swallowing the notion that this character is all-loving, that he’s the very embodiment of love, and then when the scales are lifted from your eyes you realize how very wrong that is and, at least in my case, I really felt the weight of the time I had spent (and wasted) thinking that this character was something that he clearly isn’t, by his own words, if you believe in the whole “the Bible is the Word of God(TM)” thing. I was angry. I guess I still am. Not at god, per se -- because I don’t believe that god is real -- but at the people who deliberately misrepresent him in order to make more people believe in him.

I cannot presume to speak for all people for whom speaking in tongues is a thing. And even amongst fundamentalists, it is a not a thing for all of them. A good percentage of fundamentalists are, in fact, very opposed to the concept. It is primarily a thing in charismatic Christianity, which IIRC consists of maybe 400 or 500 million Christians worldwide of various denominations. (As opposed to the 2 billion+ Christians that exists as a whole.) So, it’s not a common thing by any means, on the whole.

And yes, they are babbling random nonsense, and IMO many of them are just faking it and deluding themselves. Why? Because within charismatic churches, speaking in tongues is considered proof of one’s born-again status. Meaning, it’s proof that you’re saved. So there is tons of pressure -- especially among impressionable children -- to do it, with the unspoken admonishment that if you don’t/can’t do it, then maybe you aren’t really saved, and if you aren’t really saved, then you’re destined for hell. So, you get situations like this clip from the Jesus Camp movie.

The other thing is that mass hysteria is a thing. Christianity is generally practiced in a group rather than as a strictly individual activity. We are social and imitative animals. So, if one person starts “feeling the Spirit,” genuinely or otherwise, sure enough other people start thinking “Hey, there must be something to this,” and then they start feeling it, too. If this happens among a large group of people, then it becomes truly awesome, in the original sense of the word rather than the 80s sense of it. And then you end up with things like the Toronto Blessing, and people swearing that they felt and/or were imbued with the Holy Spirit and then felt compelled to do all these crazy-ass things.

So, my own personal opinion is that the whole thing is part being conformist out of fear and part mass hysteria. But, like I said, I don’t really speak for anyone but me. For me personally, I have both faked it and experienced the mass delusion thing. Pentecostal worship services are wild. But, were I to speak in tongues now, it’d definitely be just faking it...but I can fake it really, really well. :)

#snarkysims #nimitwinklesims #replies #non sims

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bassfanimation · 5 years

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Mental illness and media: straight up not having a good time, bro.

Between Endgame, Star Wars and Game of Thrones, I’m very disappointed in how current media displays and discusses mental illness.

Endgame made Thor, who was obviously suffering from major PTSD and depression, into a sad joke. I know, it was somewhat realistic, I will give you that. A coworker told me he liked ‘fat Thor’ because he’s been there. My man...I’m still there, right now, have been since I was about 5. And it wasn’t what they turned him into, it’s how they treated him when he was at this stage. I hated that every single time he was on screen people were laughing at him. :( I had another coworker look me in the face and say, “But lots of people who are depressed are comedians. I mean, you’re hilarious!” I...had no words.

Star Wars is...(wildly gesticulates with my hands). I have never seen such a clear depiction of depression than Luke Skywalker. Even Ahch-To itself was purely a depiction of what most people describe depression as. I took an art class recently and when I tried to paint what depression feels like, my instructor perfectly put into practice what it is. Emptiness. I hated this movie so much because I felt like it was showing me all these terrible things happening to people, through no real fault of their own. Then you have Kylo Ren, who is the embodiment of childhood neglect, another thing I know very well. The fanbase has treated him like a joke, a ‘crybaby’, evil, etc. I just wildly relate, but I’m terrified that I am a joke too, a crybaby, and evil. :(

Then there is Game of Thrones, which has hurt me the most. They made Daenerys into a literal monster. Like moreso than the actual monsters of the whole show. An undead ice demon, who wanted to erase humanity, feels more human than what they have turned this broken girl who has lost everything into. And the fact that they’re using “Oh well her whole family is like this so...you knew she had no hope” as their reasoning. Myself coming from a family with strong genetic dispositions toward addiction, bipolar, depression, ADD, and anxiety, this just isn’t the message I signed up for. That’s fine, I know media doesn’t have to cater to me and my issues, yet I still have such a sour taste in my mouth over this disaster of a character assassination. Like who’s next, me? Is this how others see me, as a monster, because my brain chemistry won’t let me make all the right choices?

I have read people saying “But that’s what makes them interesting! What do you want, boring heroes like Superman or something?” No, Denise, I don’t want boring characters...but is this the only answer? (also Superman is not boring jfc)

The thing is, I do agree with this to an extent. I don’t want characters to be vanilla. I don’t want chipper Beckies and Chads who always make the right choices, who always end up gleaming heroes. I just think there is better ways to handle complicated people. Penny Dreadful handled mental illness stunningly well. Fury Road also displayed remarkable heroism among people who have been hurt about as much as you can hurt anyone. Sherlock of all things, is 4 seasons about two men dealing with trauma, and they did it so beautifully.

I’m just very tired. I’ve suffered with mental problems since my very first memories. Having been in fighting for so long to get it under control, these blows have just come at a bad time. I just wanted to talk about it with someone who might understand. :( Lately, all our media seems to be going the grimdark route. It’s so disappointing when it feels like so much of what you love is saying to you that there is no hope. You’re just going to be someone who is left behind, or you’ll be a horrible monster. (´;︵;`)

EDIT: I apologize greatly for those of you who don’t want to read this kind of stuff. I completely understand. I don’t talk about this that often, but I’m in a very rough patch at the moment. Please block the tag ‘mental illness’ and you won’t have to read anything along these lines. But those of you who don’t block the tag...thank you for being available, to just seeing my words. That goes a longer way than you can know. <3

#mental illness #Game of Thrones #Daenerys Targaryen #GOT #Avengers: Endgame #depression #PTSD #Penny Dreadful #Mmfr #Fury Road #Sherlock #Sherlock also dealt tremendously well with mental illness #that show was mostly about PTSD #I apologize for posting this kind of stuff #Im just not doing well and I need to talk #even if it's to a blue wall #trying the medicine shuffle at the moment #to see what helps #long post

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shadow-djinni · 4 years

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Generalizations in Fandom

Or, some idiot on my dash made an underinformed comment about shipping trends and now I have to go prove them wrong.

I’m a day late with my griping, but much better-researched for it, which means this post (under the cut) is going to be even longer now. Apologies in advance. If you’d like to read my exceedingly long-winded griping, hit the readmore button.

A quick preface–and some background–to my complaining, which will be important going forward. Though I’m by no means a fandom old, nor am I claiming that status, I’ve been in and around fandom for over eight years now, and have been an active content creator for seven and a half. In that timeframe, I’ve been in and out of a wide range of fandoms, all with different fannish climates and behaviors, so I like to think I have a fair bit of experience in these spaces.

So, yesterday, a blog I had been following–which, up until this point, had expressed views on fandom I generally agreed with–made a post complaining about the proliferation of slash fic in fandom. I’m not going to link the post or @ the blogger in question, mostly because I have no intentions of picking a fight with said blogger or with their fans, as I understand they have a relatively large following, but the post was something to the effect of “fandoms always lionize overwhelmingly white noncanon m/m ships at the expense of women and POC”. Now, at a glance, that looks…correct, right? At least considering the fandoms you usually see on Tumblr. But that statement looks…really off to me, given my own lived experience, and the longer I looked the more off it looked, and the more complaints I had with it.

The first problem with this statement, and others like it: there is no such thing as a pan-fandom issue. Statements like these posit that all fandoms, regardless of the source material, always have or develop the issue the poster sees and wishes to discuss. It’s a good way to get attention, but it lacks the nuance to really support itself under scrutiny. The truth of the matter is that the source material a fandom draws for has influence over the sort of fans who are drawn to it and the material they have to work with, which therefore effects the trends in tropes and shipping the fandom in question develops–and while broad similarities may be drawn across multiple fandoms with similar elements to them, no two fandoms develop alike, an effect which is compounded by differences in age, genre, and location of origin of the source material.

For a personal example, I’ve been active in four fandoms I would consider strongly influential in terms of my taste in fiction and my writing ability and style. Without getting overly specific, those fandoms are:

a video game franchise begun in the 80s, which has seen new installments released every 5-10 years

a magical girl manga (and later anime) produced in the early ‘00s, which has not seen new canon since

a popular and ongoing live action American movie series, which began release within the last decade

and, for good or ill, Voltron (an animated cartoon released in summer ‘16, which ran through December ‘18 with an utter shitstorm of a fandom)

If we believe statements such as the one above, one would expect that all four of those fandoms would have exactly the same inter-fandom issues, namely the sidelining of women and characters of color in favor of the white slash pairing of the day–but, having been in these fandoms, that’s true for exactly one of them. I’d give you all three guesses, but let’s face it, the answer is obvious.

It’s the live action American movie series.

In fact, the initial statement is fairly accurate when assessing that work, and other live action American movie series and television shows, and there’s a number of reasons why. American live action media often gives disproportionate representation to white men, particularly when it comes to lead roles, while consigning women and POC to supporting roles. As such, the (white, male) leads garner more development than the support roles, which makes the leads easier and more appealing for fic writers and shippers to work with. Media with black leads, or other leads of color, also often have smaller fandoms overall, and as such don’t make the big, obvious waves large-scale fandoms like…say, Harry Potter or the MCU make on Tumblr.

Canonical (female) love interests are also often sidelined by live action media fandoms, for a number of reasons–namely, in canon they are often granted less screentime, less depth, and less subjectivity than their male castmates, and are frequently treated as objects by the camera. This makes it harder to empathize with them, especially given fandom is majority women who may be rendered too uncomfortable to work with the characters–there’s a good deal of baked-in misogyny that would need to be untangled from the character herself, and in most cases only the most committed of fans are actually going to sit down to do the work.

Now, mind you, these do not apply to all fandoms. Voltron had some of the same problems with sidelining canonical love interests–but Voltron’s fandom flagships gag were between a half-human character of indeterminate ethnicity and two men of color, one of whom is canonically queer. The magical girl manga fandom I mentioned above, ironically enough, has issues with sidelining a subtextually canonical f/f ship in favor of splitting the pair to put them in het ships. And the video game fandom used to have issues with slash shippers in what was a majority het fandom, and still has lingering issues with slash depending on which corners of fandom you frequent.

And yet, if I were to say “fandom has a problem with ignoring canonical queer subtext” or “fandom has a problem with inordinate aggression towards slash ships”, can you imagine the sort of ridicule I would face? Most people discussing social issues in fannish contexts would look at me as though I’d sprouted a second head, when those issues are in fact present and in need of discussion–just not in the large, obvious fandoms in the Tumblrsphere, which seem to be the only fandoms these people consider deserving of discussion.

My second point can be summed up in a single sentence: it is not the responsibility of fandom to correct the issues present in the source canon.

No canon is perfect. Creators are human, and flawed, and they will inevitably fuck up no matter how well they generally handle things. And while those fuckups do impact the way the fandom creates (see my first point), fandom does not have a duty to fix those fuckups. Fandom is not, and should not be, an activist space–it’s a creative space foremost, and it’s full of people with all sorts of baggage they pack in with them. It’s unfair, and arguably cruel, to force people to engage with aspects of canon they find squicky, or even triggering, to ‘correct’ flaws in canon that your “activism” takes issue with. (note: the link in the paragraph preceding this is mostly talking about shipping activism and while it makes some points about slash I disagree with, it makes plenty of good points about other sorts of fannish activism and the way fans who take their activism too far impact other fans and people unfamiliar with the source media)

And, additionally: unless you’re paying them, fan creators don’t owe you content. Yes, even if they primarily create for that dreaded noncanon m/m ship and you’d rather they make content for your favored f/f ship. Yes, even if your favored ship is actually canon, because there’s absolutely nothing wrong with shipping noncanon ships rather than canon ones–if I kept that mentality I wouldn’t create at all. If you want content, you have to make it yourself, or commission it.

And, my final point: if you don’t enjoy things certain fandoms are doing, learn to use your blacklist and filters.

If, like the op of the post I’m complaining about, you’re tired of the proliferation of slash ships you have ideological disagreements with, blacklist them and the fandoms that produce them! If there are particular common aus in a fandom you hate, figure out the tags and filter those! Particular ‘hot takes’ you’re sick of seeing? Seas of endless shitposts that make you roll your eyes? One particular writer who does a ship you otherwise enjoy in a notably squicky way? Blacklist, filter, and block.

Because I guarantee you, no matter how many angry posts you make about people making content you personally dislike, you won’t make anyone stop producing it.

And you might even piss some of them off.

Now if you’ll all excuse me, I have a non-canon slash fic to work on.

#fannish salt #salt #this is absolutely not something i usually do and i don't intend to repeat the performance #but i was so pissed off yesterday i was literally seeing red #like!!! gods!!!!!!#just because mainstream live action american media franchises dominate tumblr #that doesnt mean issues those fandoms have are applicable to every other fandom everywhere!!!#and if you insist they are youre a fucking idiot and i wont apologise for saying it #like its beyond reductive to pretend theyre universally applicable #and frankly by assuming that worldview you miss a lot of issues actually present in the media in question #like the structural issues in vlds narrative that thoroughly borked their second and third arcs #and caused the surface issues that so much of the fandom fusses about rather than looking a little deeper for the common threads #but thats another post for another day

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hellomrreaper · 6 years

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why I don’t like The Last Jedi (SPOILERS)

this is spoiler filled but i’m on mobile and cant add a cut i’ve tagged as such: I decided to write out the SPOILER FILLED reasons I feel that Rian Johnson wrote and directed the single worst Star Wars film. It’s only been a few hours since I have seen The Last Jedi, but it gave me time to think and process the information I was presented. Let’s start with my initial opinion. Nostalgia and excitement, and my overwhelming emotion seeing Carrie Fisher in glorious IMAX, meant I cried for a good portion of the film as any time I talk about her I seem to get misty eyed. I was so excited to see my hero, General Organa, and the iconic character we, as Star Wars fans know to be the light in the darkness, the beacon of hope for the Jedi and Rebel Alliance, Luke Skywalker. Let’s begin with Luke shall we? Rian Jonhnson killed the Luke Skywalker we know and love and replaced him with a bitter, cynical old man who gave up on the Jedi and the Force and abandoned all hope. Johnson has the GAUL, the AUDACITY to claim that Luke ‘I am not leaving you DARTH VADER’ Skywalker would try to kill his own nephew. I’m sorry? Did we not all see the same Original Trilogy?? Luke proved time and time again he would do anything for his family. Once learning his Aunt and Uncle were in danger, he rushed back to his home to find them burned alive, he was unable to save them but in turn he joined the rebellion. He is known for his kindness, his optimism and his faith and Rian Johnson took every one of the qualities and destroyed them. Now let’s discuss Rey. We left The Force Awakens with Rey extending Luke’s lightsaber back to him in a desperate plea. We began The Last Jedi with Luke TOSSING HIS LIGHTSABER OFF A CLIFF ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? Nah FUCK being flowery with this lets just list shit REY BEING A NOBODY MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE WHEN ALL THE MARKETING FOR THE FORCE AWAKENS POINTED TO HER BEING SOMEONE OF GREAT IMPORTANCE HENSE LUKE’S NARRATION OF THE FORCE BEING STRONG IN HIS FAMILY ARE YOU KIDDING ME WITH THAT REVEAL REY AND KYLO ARE NOT A SHIP ANYONE SHOULD GET BEHIND HE TORTURED KIDNAPED AND BETRAYED HER WHY IS THIS STILL AND ISSUE rey being no one makes no sense still POE LOVES AND RESPECTS LEIA ORGANA WITH HER WHOLE HEART AND SOUL YOU TELL ME AFTEE WATCHING TFA HE IS GOING AGAINST DIRECT ORDERS why is it nothing poe does in the WHOLE FILM makes any goddamn difference to the outcome?? why is it the Shitty side plots that Rian wrote for the poc in this movie sucked?? I WONDER WHY poe and finn are shipped by not just fans but actual members of the cast. i’m not mad they weren’t made canon i’m not stupid, but why tf are gays in space unbelievable but THE SUPREME ‘I CANNOT BE KILLED’ SNOKE WAS LITERALLY NOTHING HE HAD NO IMPACT ON ANYTHING AND HE WAS CUT IN HALF BY WEAK BOY REN FUCK YOU Why, why Rian, did Finn have this story line. You claimed he was a ‘Main Character’ and YET: Nothing he did made any difference to the plot The only women that have known Finn have repeatedly hurt and demeaned him We know NOTHING more about Finn or his past LIKE SERIOUSLY DID WE HAVE TO WATCH THE SAME SWEATY TEENAGE KYLO FLASHBACK WE COULDN’T HAVE ONE MINUTE OF FINN’S HISTORY REALLY??? Finn as shown in TFA has beef with Kylo why was this not addressed POE HAS THE SAME CHARACTER ASSASSINATION WHY DOES RIAN JOHNSON HATE WOMEN AND POC WHY WAS HE ALLOWED TO MAKE THIS IM NOT EVEN FINISHED IM JUST TOO TIRED TO CONTINUE FUCK YOU RUAN JONSON I HATE YOU

#anti rian johnson #star wars the last jedi #the last jedi spoilers #spoilers #fuck rian johnson

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auideas · 7 years

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Ask the Admins 9.0

anon asked: So was AtA skipped on purpose or accident?

HA (by accident but don’t tell anyone).

anon asked: Is ask the admins replacing the quotes for today?

We will be doing all the things today - hold tight for some quotes later!

anon asked: Before I forget, are you going to change the MASTERLIST OF TAGS to have the assistant admins on there too (since you have yourselves and the previous admins)?

Yup! We’re still in the process of updating the blog to accommodate for the additional admins. We’re hoping to be finished in the next week or so.

anon asked: Don't watch "A Dog's Purpose"!! Unless you're okay with a terrified dog being forced/pushed into rushing water just to film a scene when a CGI would have sufficed.

Chamomile: eyerooooooll

M: God dangit.

Syren: Yooo I saw that video! I actually discussed it in a round at my last speech meet. It's sick, they won't be getting my support.

Jynn: See: Admin Chamomiles response. In any case I am too Tired(TM) to get into all that and too broke to see any movie in theaters anyways.

Vox: Man, I know I trusted Rotten Tomatoes for a reason.

anon asked: I recently started a fandom specific prompt blog and I have no idea how to get it out there?? I'm tagging all the posts but I don't think anyone's seen them. XD what do I do? Thanks in advance!

Chamomile: okay so what you need to do is get a really popular post to blow up, then let people find the blog. It takes a lot of grinding and luck, but don’t give up!

M: Yup that happened with us here; we had a couple posts that got wildly popular, and people have been finding the blog ever since (namely that one Never Book quote everyone loves so much). Some advice I’d give is to be consistent, be involved in the writing community, and don’t give up - this stuff takes a chunk out of your life, but we love helping you all out!

anon asked: WOULD YOU RATHER: get paid a penny to talk about what you're thinking of, or pay two pennies to say your opinions? -- penny for your thoughts vs put my two cents in

Chamomile: I’ll take the single penny.

M: I’ll be the person who listens to two people then gives those people their pennies back so I can tell them what I think of their thoughts. Poor man’s capitalism.

Syren: I'd probs just say what I want to say, no money involved. Unless they needed it.

Jynn: One cent, I need the cash.

Vox: As a business major I need to say penny for your thoughts. (As resident busybody and IRL mom friend….)

anon asked: Which would you (admins and assistants) rather be? A king/queen, lord/lady, duke/duchess, emperor/empress, or pharaoh?

Chamomile: I answered this in another ask and said I wanted to be a Queen but...make me a Lord instead.

M: I’d be good with anything, but I feel like being the legitimate King would be far too much pressure - I’m going to go with Prince, Duke, or Lord.

Syren: Make me an empress, I'll be the coolest one since Kuzco.

Jynn: Hmmm whichever one has the lowest responsibility to money ratio. I have zero experience doing any of those things but I like being rich.

Vox: I’d say pharaoh, but like... old timey era sort of pharaoh. 10/10 would gladly deal with Egyptian heat to lazily lounge around while half-naked people cater to my whims.

anon asked: PlayStation or XBox?

Chamomile: XBOX

M: I gotta say Playstation only because I grew up with a Playstation 2, not an Xbox :b

Syren: Xbox, cause I've never played a PS woops

Jynn: I don’t play video games but I wouldn’t pass up a good ol PS2.

Vox: PS all the way.

anon asked: reason(s) for chosen usenames? (e.g. is it your favorite type of tea? is it your favorite letter?)

Chamomile: It’s a super cryptic homestuck reference that literally 0.2% of the fans would recognize.

M: Lol my name is Em y’all

Syren: My real name is Camryn, and I think Syren sounds like Siren- one of my favorite mythical creatures

Jynn: It’s part of my regular screen name which is JynniSlorg. A mishmash of stuff I can’t even remember but that must have made some semblance of sense back when I was 14.

Vox: It’s when you typerventilate but with a latin twist. Even though ‘vox’ technically means voice. Typervoxilations sounds a lot cooler than typerecfuntilations. (Especially when you’re immature and read things quickly like me and typerecfuntilations starts to look like ‘erectile dysfunction’).

anon asked: Do yo know where this is from: "Rabbits die of loneliness, you know!" [This quotes means a lot to me]

Chamomile: No idea, but I have an unknown quote too! “Rain on a sunny day means a fox’s wedding”.

M: It reminds me of the Velveteen Rabbit, but I’m not really sure!

Syren: My first guess would be ‘Of Mice and Men’ by Steinbeck, but I don't think that's how the quote in that book goes…

Jynn: No but it’s probably either classic literature or anime.

Vox: When I see ‘rabbits’ I automatically think Zootopia, but I’ve never seen so I have no clue!

anon asked: Hey, if we start trying to ship the aa with the admins, can we call M and Vox "Pixilation"?

M: Pftttt for sure - the more ships, the merrier!

Vox: (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧ WHAT A CUTE SHIP NAME, I’M HONORED FRIEND.

anon asked: Without looking it up, do you know what this is from?: "I'm a bad dream. I'm a rad scene. I'm a tad mean. But I'm not afraid to take you out."

Chamomile: Is this a Franz Ferdinanz song?

M: Eyyyyyy that’s RWBY - found it on YouTube a while ago and I was pleasantly surprised

Syren: No clue. And I think Chamomile’s thinking of the song ‘Take *Me* Out’ ;)

Jynn: RWBY right? I’m p sure it’s a Jeff Williams song.

Vox: Nope! (❁´◡`❁)

anon asked: Have you ever written a character with a physical disability? If yes, what was the hardest thing about writing the character?

Chamomile: Yep! Prosthetics, wheelchairs, and canes on multiple occasions. Hearing aids a handful of times, and a whole lot of glasses. I guess the hardest thing is just adjusting to a new character’s quirks? Changing how a character gestures and responds to other characters.

M: Yes I have, and it was difficult to do, but I wrote about someone I know who has cerebral palsy, and because I know them so well, I understand their daily struggle and can write about it fairly well. I think the most difficult part was acknowledging that I don’t really know everything about the disability and had to do a lot of research before taking it from their point of view.

Syren: I'm actually writing a character right now that has Chiari Malformation and Syringomyelia, cause I have them and never hear about anyone else having them (even though they're kinda common), so I thought it'd be interesting! Hardest thing is probably fitting my symptoms into another person.

Jynn: Yep! I don’t know if I’d say hardest but I always try to do a lot of research into how certain things will affect the small everyday parts of life. My brother and his friends have really helped me become better at that since they’re most all amputees and I have quite a few amputee characters. It’s just v important to look at real life people to see the details people could miss about how certain things affect people's lives.

Vox: Of course! I wrote for Bucky Barnes once, and to be fair, the work was more focused on the mental more than the physical, but there was a fair amount of how much of what Hydra did to him (especially the metal bits), and I had a character once who was completely blind. The hardest part of writing it was the fact that I’ve never been in the shoes of either but I have to find a way to, especially with the kind of writing I do.

anon asked: Do you have any AU’s that you’ve always wanted to post but never have?

Chamomile: Sooooo many. I wanted to do an AU where Character A is an immortal who has to “trade” a part of themself every time they come back to life (ex: in one regeneration they don’t have their right arm, in another regeneration they have both arms but no voice, etc.)

M: I have a lot of 3 a.m. AU’s that never actually make it into the drafts and just sit in my notes for a while - one of the more infamous ones that has been in the drafts for months now is the truffle mushroom one. I’ll say no more.

Syren: I haven't given up on any of my au ideas yet, but I've definitely got quite the list of one's to write.

Jynn: Hmmm I don’t have any in mind that I don’t plan to post in the future.

Vox: See: AA C-Ryn. Every now and then I go back to tweak em but eventually, they’ll be beautiful potatoes I can dig out of my google docs and present to the world.

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