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bookshelfpassageway · 27 days

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one of these days i'm writing some kind of essay about lost media and humanity's need to solve loose ends. people only care about it because its lost. people only know its lost because somebody cared about it. it's such an achingly beautiful concept. it's such a horrifying fate. it's about mortality and the traitor that is memory and about love. its about the human spirit and a new kind of folklore. all forms of media preservation are a race against the deprecation and physical decomposition of their storage medium. i hope there's a heaven for art.

#my posts #and i hope warner brothers execs never get to see its warm light #This post has been edited 5 times to add or change its wording. It’s original form is lost now too. Creation is an obligate carnivore #anyway id title it ''the lost the liminal and the scavenger hunt''#anyway im just thinkin thoughts #just watched a video about anime piracy and am feeling some kind of way again #GNU infinity train and every obscure out of print thing #also i just wanna play glyder 2 again you guys...#the other one that destroyed me is jacob geller how can we bear to throw anything away #also apparently people found that 80s song everyone was going insane about? and its the funniest possible ending?#i love how in humanity's indomitable spirit there is also inevitably the indescribably absurd and horny. i would have it no other way.

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godbirdart · 9 months

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"are you a good person" i don't know, am i?? i don't think i get to just Decide that for myself

#thinkin about the time some dude asked me this #and clearly he had never been presented with this third secret option that wasnt a vague yes or no #idk man i am just tryin my best

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edsbacktattoo · 1 year

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I have Gathered some Data

@skysofrey and I recently got into a discussion about names in OFMD. Specifically, how many times does Ed actually call Stede by his name in the show? We could only think of a few examples each and that didn't seem right. And because I'm insane, I decided to rewatch and note down every time a name was used, who used it, and who was being spoken to. Here are my findings!

Before you proceed, please know that this is strictly for fun and because I was curious. There are likely errors in the data (I'm sure I missed some things, I'm just one person.) but! I still think that what's been gathered is very interesting.

Here are some other fun/important/miserable things that I found in my travels:

There is one more time where Stede calls Ed “Edward,” and the only time it isn’t said to him directly. This is when Stede is addressing the petrified orange.

Of the five times that Stede is called “The Gentleman Pirate,” two of them are from Ed.

Ed calls Stede by his name only twelve times in the series. Only two of these instances are spoken to someone else. There are two others when Ed is looking for him at the pier, and therefore spoken to no one.

There are only ten instances of other characters calling Ed something other than his name or “Blackbeard.” Two of these are from Izzy, during the scene in Spanish Jackie’s bar, where he’s informing Stede that Ed would like to meet with him. During this scene, he only uses “my captain” and “my boss.” This is one of the very few times he doesn’t refer to Ed to other people as “Blackbeard” and it’s at the time that is arguably the most important. (He’s an idiot.)

Out of the twenty times that Ed refers to himself, fourteen of those are as “Blackbeard/The Kraken.” He refers to himself with names other than “Ed/Edward” 70% of the time. 50% of the times he refers to himself by his name are during the beach scene in episode nine, and there is only one instance where he uses his name that is not in Stede’s company. ("Actually, I do want to be called 'Ed' from now on.")

Izzy only refers to Ed as "Edward" to other people four times in the show. Two of those times are when he's marooning Stede's crew, and each time he uses his name in that scene, he takes on a mocking tone. Meaning that 50% of every instance he's referred to Ed as "Edward" to other people, he's been mocking his name.

Ed calls Stede "mate" as often as he calls him by his name, but he only calls him "mate" directly.

Stede calls Ed by his name only once more than Izzy does.

80% of the times Ed refers to himself by name happen in episode nine.

#before anyone says anything yes i know i am utterly insane #i am bonkers #but this was a lot of fun!#if anyone would like to see the tally i kept while watching let me know #just so you can see that i didn't pull these numbers out of my ass #also pls be nicey to me about this i am not a science and data guy #i am an english and art major so this is absolutely not my forte #again just for curiosity's sake #i've always been fascinated by the use of names and titles in this show so this is like catnip to me #fascinating and interesting and im rolling around in it #enjoy i guess!!!#ofmd #our flag means death #is this meta?#idk what constitutes as a meta #i'll tag it anyway #ofmd meta #oh we thinkin?#huge thank you to kaitlin for indulging in my nonsense about this program <3

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bunnyhysteria · 29 days

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a few people are bringing up depression in response to my shen yuan post, and while do what you want yes, I feel this does go back to how people don't know how to write disabled characters as another person brought into light. including mental disabilities.

mayb now I'm projectin on this one, but seein the absolute cluster fuck of shen yuan, it feels strange to go "it's depression!". I see narcissistic personality disorder, other cluster b traits, I see autism, mayb even ocd. he's a paranoid, hot head mess whose constantly calculating every moment. but people don't really know how to contextualize mental illness, especially not the "scary" ones, even if they have mental illness themselves. just slap on depression and anxiety as a bandaid and don't talk about the rest! it's not that people don't want to go further (or at least I have some faith), I just think our current society has not prepared people to step out of the "nice" mental disorders.

so I don't fault anyone who reduces his nonsense into the socially acceptable depression, but I can't act like that it doesn't make me uncomfortable. but also not uncomfortable enough to directly respond to strangers on the interwebs HSKDHDH.

but I also did want to talk about the depression to slob pipeline as well because that's I suppose the part that gets me. he's unwell, so he's a slob and a disgustin mess. a statement that could be made about someone who has depression, but I have a hard time applying the "he" to shen yuan in this case. I'm personally under the "I care so much about my image that I feel like I'm gonna rot from the inside out" type, and my response has been to hyper clean. clean and clean until I can't clean anymore and so I'm stressed that I can't make my space (and by extension myself) better in a small matter of time. I was once a slob in the past as a teen, but I'm immensely embarassed by it. I'm vain, so I take photos of myself with my backdrop being my room, and I will loose my marbles if someone looks down on me because I threw my pjamas onto my bed while gettin changed. no one but me and my family enter my room. no one else even enters the house.

*picks up shen yuan by the scruff of the neck* yer telling me this rich pretty boy obsessed with tryin to get people to take him seriously wouldn't have an instagram or whatever the equivalent would be?? honestly I feel like it would be expected of him, and he might also flaunt his wealth (that he didn't earn) to try to feel better. if you couldn't tell I'm tryin to shove a superiority/inferiority complex onto him over his status. that's just cause I think it'd be funny I don't have any text evidence off the top of my head for that lmao.

ultimately with all this, I just want something different. I want people to step back and look at shen yuan for who he is and then extrapolate out from that and into how they want to play with his character. I don't know how, with all these complex thought processes and characterizations of binghe, we have landed with a very 2d, copy paste version of shen yuan every time. maybe I just need to dig more into shen yuan fan creations, but I have yet found one to step out of the invented fanon version mold or their small variations. and its quite strange to me given how divorced fanon shen yuan is from canon shen yuan. I suppose I'm not used to a fandom with a character so warped away from canon well accepted. dare I say, ooc.

#svsss #shen yuan #text #mine #shout out to my first therapist who looked at my cluster b clusterfuck and went 'yea that's just depression and anxiety'#mam I have psychosis.#also now I'm briefly thinkin of shen jiu and shen yuan in a blender known as DID. I wonder if that's been done.#I feel like its has to have been???#I'll look it up on ao3 later. mayb. if I feel like it. I will most likely forgor since I'm not that invested in the idea #also shen yuan doesn't have to be my flavour of mental ill that's not the point of the post. I am sharin my experiences as an example of how #he might be instead or just in general mental illness that doesn't fit the mold of 'nice' mental ills #binghe has bpd though I'll say that. the fear of abandonment is strong with this one #strangely im gonna make a wild claim for a character I relate to but I don't see shen yuan as a bpd bitch #that's a new one in my books. usually every character I relate to I slap bpd on like it's flex tape #but it's just not a part of how I interpret his character and I'm not gonna pretzel him into how I am just because #if I'm gonna project I'm gonna use text based sources to at least say that it could be in chatacter #cause do what you want with characters but at some point of pretzeling yer just slapping a canon name onto an oc #and I'm not clickin on a shen yuan fic to read about your oc. like I'm sorry but I'm just not

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bloo-the-dragon · 8 months

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*holds nebula like hamborger* what am i to do with you.

#bloo talks #nebula #i'm speaking specifically of the cryptid one not the mer one here #it's 3am and i'm having thoughts about him #the lore i'd made for him long ago while was a lot of fun to mess around with at the time just gives me a headache now #i made it all so needlessly complicated jgkfg #making him a mer helped fix/retcon that and i'd almost abandoned his original design to just stick to the mer version #but drawing him again recently has re-ignited my love for the old design #and now i'm thinkin 'well frick what am i gonna do with him now'#because while i'm keeping his design his og lore has been mostly retconned now #as for what he is well he's no longer a robot but a full blown actual shapeshifting cryptid like Bloodmoon #which is funny for sun and moon given his look #They'd be like: 'if we had a nickle for everytime some fae/cryptid changed to look like us we'd have two nickles #which isn't a lot but it's weird that it's happened twice'#something something celestial themes and faerie folk being attuned to them kinda deal i guess #either way i'm going to bed

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rainymoodlet · 10 months

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Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

[Ep. Eleven] A Colorful Day

I know they'll come for me, if I need, if I need... For I see the love in you; it feeds me, it feeds me.

Daniel keeps utterly surprising me! But it was there in black and white autonomy: Suraj won the show's third First Kiss! Congratulations to @gothoffspring and her lovely botanical boyyy 🥹

[ Part 2/2 ] 🌹

#god i am so sorry posts have been all over the place these past two days!!! i just paid rent and almost dryheaved lmfaooo #ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 bachelor challenge #;kmik #sim: daniel #suraj kennedy by gothoffspring #||#i don't think i've mentioned this but the songs i've linked #are the songs i listened to while editing their pictures dfkhds #josiah deserved a song dammit but u kno #dreamy kiss caps bwah #these two have some of my utter favorite caps omg the extras??? are just... shoujo quality mwah #i did NOT expect this!! their romance bar was on the wiggly whirly the entire date! (their friendship bar was scootin up just fine) but #out of absolute nowhere #dan was just fucking talking to the guy #and the next time i clicked on suraj it was right there: first kiss. and i said - okay dan if you're thinkin I Want To Kiss Him while #he's talking then you're goddamn gonna #but bwuh omg the song is really good for them in its own haunting way #there's a schism between these two that's so fascinating...#like suraj is nervous around dan but dan is also nervous around suraj??? i feel like neither of them have found a rhythm comfortably with #each other but like... not in a bad way???#they're drifting closer and closer together in the effort to meet in the middle and its SO INTRIGUINGGG #BUT GODDD ISNT SURAJ FUCKING STUNNINGGGG #LOOK AT THAT MAN'S FACE #LOOK AT HIS EYELASHES LOOK AT HIS GENTLY PARTED LIPS #THERE'S A REASON DAN'S FACE IS BARELY IN THESE SDJKHFSJH #so dreamy... fwah i just adore it

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stonerzelda · 8 months

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when god was making me with his little plasticene clay he said wat if i gave this one unbridled rage in the form of moral justice values but also made them spineless as all hell wouldnt that be funny

#just been thinkin abt how goddamn hypocritical i always end up being and how much i piss myself off by being unable to stand my ground #on shit yet even when i do i always end up feeling guilty as hell. why am i a people pleaser at the expense of myself and others <3 #anyway there is no winning

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picklesinabottle · 9 months

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obsessing about michael holing up in a body that is not his own in a dark church and dean folding in on himself every time and neither of them doing anything until prompted with a way for revenge or to get them back

#when sam shuts down in mystery spot about dean its an immediate 'im going to find the trickster and gut him and I'll kill anything along the #way that i have to' and dean does this about him and everyone else who dies #but when cas dies dean just stops #one of these things is not platonic and im not talking about w*ncest #LOOK AT THEM IT'S THE SAME THING #thinkin thoughts during my weekly 3x11 watch #im probably being incoherent but hopefully at least the main post makes sense #ahhhhhhhhhhhhh #my friend is only on s5 so i cant tell her any of this but its been RATTLING AROUND IN MY BRAIN ALL DAY AND I MUST GET IT OUT #spn watch #supernatural #spn #midam #michael spn #adam milligan #destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #i am oh so very normal #srry i get the vibe that midam girlies dont like when people talk about midam and destiel in the same sentence but it's my post #i can do what i want please don't be mad

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claudia-kishi · 2 years

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elementary is about love.

sherlock holmes knows about love. he knows it exists... to a point. is love a human construct? he doesn’t believe it, but he knows he’s felt it. with irene. with his mom. he knows it exists, but is it real?

joan watson knows about love. she sees it as what’s considered normal. she can recognize it between other people. jamie’s weakness? that she loved sherlock, and joan exploited that. but love for joan? she’s tried it. she’s been engaged. she’s dated. she’s been with a number of guys (who all sucked btw ew). and she thinks she’s trying to find the One. only for her to find someone who checks every single box of hers and to realize. she doesn’t want it, and so she wonders, what do i want? maybe this kind of love isn’t what she wants at all.

by the end, they both know about love. love for each other, love for their work, and love for the work they are able to do together. and they don’t need anything or anybody else. they’d do anything for each other (including murder btw <3), and they will always be part of each other’s lives no matter how far the universe dares to part them.

#hmmmmmmmmmnggggggggggggggg #me constantly thinkin #about them and how elementary truly turned the concept of love on its head and said #they're love. yeah #and it's just. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhHHHh #ok i'm done :)#am i idk. i miss them #also this doesn't make sense #i am like half concussed i feel like bc i banged my head on my door frame and words haven't been able to come out as normally #as they should so like fun stuff lol hi ok bye

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seancefemme · 2 years

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Dream Girl Evil

#can’t sleep again….thinking about her #Elektra natchios #daredevil #daredevil fanart #I was catching up on new music and!!!! it’s her song!!!!#YOU LIKE ME BETTER IN YOUR HEAD / AT LEAST YOULL SANCTIFY ME WHEN IM DEAD / I AM NO ONES MORAL COMPASS #god it’s been months and I still wanna curl up and scream and throw up and sob when I think of her #she makes me insane fr #I’m cursed though cause she’s one of my favourite characters ever and I cannot draw her!!!!!$!#I sketch her SO much but I feel I can’t never fully capture her likeness it makes me want to bite chomp kill #anyways I feel like I’m overrendering a bunch of my art lately so I’m throwing this here quickly so I feel better sharing ugly art #constantly oscillating between NO ONE CAN KNOW I MAKE UGLY ART and hey who’s up and wants to see my silly little art :p #I also just can’t finish anything lately…I get bored or I get a better idea and my daredevil art graveyard is already piling up 😔#always thinkin about her in Matt’s apartment wearing his shirt and covered in blood *sighs dreamily*#mine

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aria0fgold · 1 month

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Thinkin bout my isat au now, I don't have much of an idea on it cuz tbf I barely changed anything other than well-- Odile is in pain now. Just thinking more bout scenarios that'd differ during the uhh... new loop+?????? How'd I even go about calling that new set of loops now?

Just that the most visible change would be on Odile who's now waaay more tired looking and a lil more slower than usual. So in a way her battle style becomes a lil bit like a glass cannon in that she hits HARD but takes time for her to get a hit in now. And as the loops go on, she becomes weaker on the defense department so she truly be a glass cannon. Odile also doesn't "level up" in this au too since she had already maxed her experience out, it's just that she's also slowly dying so to be fair-- Her exp is fine but her hp isn't and her lvl is being treated like a timer of her slowly approaching doom. So even if her levels lower, it won't really affect her experience and the spells she had already unlocked. To the Universe, she's still as experienced as a lvl 99 person, it's just that now she's becoming as fragile as someone lower leveled.

She retains her more powerful spells but using those spells would backfire on her and result in a recoil that ALSO hurts her, not as much as she damages the enemies, but a significant of her hp gets taken away still.

#aria rants #isat spoilers #isat au #edit: okay its all cleaned up now. everyone can look. this is why i should save to drafts first than posting immediately...#also am thinkin bout the moral dilemma with the friends now esp with mira as mira doesnt rlly Like knowing bout the previous miras #so when they eventually remember the previous loop. then i think she'd end up with a reaaaally confusing problem of #''i know what happened in the previous didnt happen now and i know you felt bad about it and i know i shouldnt be mad #about it either since im different than that mira but i also just cant help but feel hurt by it anyway but i KNOW I SHOULDNT--''#i think everyone would have a moment of confusion on How to take in the previous loop esp with the events that happened #during act 5. everyone is hurt. but they also shouldnt be hurt cuz that event technically Didnt happen in this timeline now #but they Remember it. they remember it happened. they remember how it felt. they remember how hurtful odile's words were #they remember but they shouldnt remember it. they understand odile but they also just cant help but be hurt by it anyway #and they Dont Know what to do with that now. they remember that loop and yet now theyre in a different loop #its in a past that never exists now but They Remember and they dont know what to do about it now #just yaknow-- the dilemma of remembering a past that doesnt exist and remembering the feelings of a past thats been overwritten #cuz frankly-- how Do you tackle that dilemma? you try to address it and it feels off. you try to understand it and it still hurts #and you cant dwell on it rn either cuz other than the life and death situation of the king freezing vaugarde in time. theres odile #whose life is slowly withering away like a flower in a vase with a water that has long dried up and its now at the mercy of wilting #of gems and pages au #ogap au

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edsbacktattoo · 2 years

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now we all know the ‘his name is Ed’ scene is important for like an unlimited number of reasons BUT i think my absolute favourite thing about it is the exact phrasing of it. like it’s one sentence, but the choice of words is so important. and the best part about it is the name that Stede chooses to use.

He doesn’t call him Blackbeard. He doesn’t even call him Edward, ‘cause that’s not who he is to Stede.

His name is Ed. he chose to use the name that Ed gave to Stede the moment he woke up. he chose to use the name that Stede knows him by, not the name the entire world knows him by. because who gives a shit about the rest of the world?

Not Blackbeard. Not Edward. Not Blackie or The Kraken or whatever else. Stede’s in love with him and it’s as simple as saying his name. and his name is Ed.

#i am not the first person to say this and i be knowin #but my GOD #that scene is just everything to me #and i love that the name stays the same.#through it all #through everything #he’s still ed. he’s always been ed #god life’s relentless #ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #edward teach #gentlebeard #oh we thinkin?

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quirkle2 · 2 years

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