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iilovedrpepper · 19 hours
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Chuuya Nakahara X Reader (NSFW) 🤍
(First time posting on tumblr, using an old fic to figure out how to fully use this app…Also please reboot and like if this is an okay start to this app 😭)
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It's felt like forever since you have last seen your boyfriend. Only being four days and it seemed like an eternity.
You weren’t sure when Chuuya would get back from his mission but you'd at least hope he’d come back with his legs and arms intact.
Usually his missions would take 2 days maximum. Considering his ability, Chuuya would easily take out everyone.
You do recall what had happened the last time you saw him though.
Laying down on the sofa your mind begins to flashback to the memory. It was late at night when he left. You two had just came back from a mindful dinner and went back to his apartment.
There wasnt much you could do but kiss him goodbye and hope for the best outcome. ‘The best outcome’ huh?’
The same words kept repeating over and over in your head. Almost like counting jumping sheep in your sleep, except they wouldnt stop and keep going.
Even if something were to happen to Chuuya, you wouldnt know what you would do. All the money in the world could be yours, but that wouldn’t bring him back…
These horrifying thoughts kept running around in your head, it was too much to control.
That was until you heard a knock on the door.
Immediately jumping off the sofa you walk towards the door in slow careful steps. “Who’s there?” You yelled outloud instead of checking the peephole
“Who do ya’ think?”
Hearing the recognizable voice made your eyes go wide open in joy
“Chuuya!!”
You opened the door seeing his silhouette due to the bright moon starring by the window behind him, but Chuuya didnt come in yet.
While you walked to the kitchen in glee hoping to get him some tea he just stood by the threshold leaning his body over the frame.
“Hey Chuu- Ugh come in.”
Turning around you see him still standing there like a puppet
“Hey Chuu? Everything okay?” You got closer to him seeing his features up close.
Not realizing his dominant presence you tried tugging at his shoulder trying to get him to come in
“You still dont remember?” “Huh? Remember what?”
“Never mind, lets just finish that movie you wanted to watch.” He brushed his shoulder against yours, passing you as he left you standing there with the cup of tea in your hands.
You close the door and headed to the sofa. “What was the movie called again?”
Your boyfriend has asked to which you only responded “ 2 “
“Hey can you go turn the lights off while I make the popcorn?” “Yeah hold on…”
Chuuya used his ability to throw a pillow to the light switch toggling the lights off.
Now the only light source was the dimly lit cityscape outside the big tall windows, or the TV playing the rest of the movie.
As Chuuya searched for the movie on the screen, you could hear how silent it was now. All that could be heard were the popping sounds of the popcorn in the microwave, and maybe the faint sound of cars honking from fifty two floors below.
You were too focused on thinking too much that the sound of the microwave stopping startled you back into reality. Turning your focus to Chuuya who was trying to find the last place you guys had left off.
After placing the popcorn in a bowl you head back over to the couch, sitting right beside Chuuya.
Placing the bowl in the center, just as youre about to grab the folded blanket thats at the other end Chuuya grabs it. “I got it don't worry,” having it fall on top of each other's snuggled bodies.
You try to get comfortable but the gear and equipment your boyfriend has on his waist isnt helping. He notices and takes the guns out of his pocket and places it on the other sofa block beside him.
Getting comfy you two begin to continue watching the movie.
A couple minutes pass and you begin to feel cramped in the current position you were in. “Hold on…” You say as begin to move around. Chuuya only looks at you for a brief moment before pulling the blanket up more.
Stretching your hand out into the air while the other stretches just out, you yawn for quite a moment, until you heard a small yelp from Chuuya’s mouth.
You look over at him with your hands still in place. One hand over his mouth while the other is… trying to move your other hand.
Eyes trailing down to where his other hand was, not realizing what you were doing.
You were accidently brushing up your boyfriends crotch as you were stretching. The silence in the air and the horrid look on your face only made things worse.
Looking up you saw the redness spreading all over your boyfriends face.
It had you thinking, how far could you go with this?
“I’m sorry Chuu…” You lifted yourself up and jumped onto him, hugging him close.
Everything was well until you decided to purposely brush your hips up against him.
Snuggling you face in the crook of his neck and making sure to let out an airy breath, he took notice of it.
He grabbed your shoulders and sure you looked at him. “Dont think I don’t realize what youre doing.”
With his hands still having you by the grasp, he flips you over. Now youre laying down on the long white sofa.
Hands near your shoulders facing Chuuya, he takes advantage and holds the wrists of them. Placing his knee in between your thighs, and bringing his face closer to yours.
But instead of leaning for your lips he leans towards your left ear. “Not being so confident now are we?”
Shaking your head he brings himself back up. “…But its a movie night, so Ill spare you some slack.”
Sitting back up you look over at him who continues to watch the movie while youre still trying to comprehend what just happened. “Chuu… Hey Chuuya.”
“Hm?”
He turns his head over to you.
“…”
“Just this once?”
He sees that look in your eyes. Tilting his face, he only smirks at the remark. Climbing back on top of you he leans his face close again, And leaves a peck on the side of your cheek “Sure thing princess.”
Your lips part ways as he moves his closer to yours. Taking in the soft yet passionate kiss, you could feel his unbearably cold hands slither down your stomach.
He grabs your hips again and presses you close against him.
Wrapping your legs around him his hands move back up and as he still holds the kiss he begins to bring your shirt up, trying to take it off.
You try to help him but his hands only hold yours, “You just relax alright darling?”
He takes your shirt off and then tries to unzip your pants.
As you follow in sync, Chuuya’s breath only gets heavier. He placed his hand in your hair, pulling you closer towards him.
Not even ring bothered that maybe the other sky high buildings across the street could probably see you two messing around.
It was all happening too fast. Chuuya grabbed your thighs and scooted your ody closer to his, while he was kissing and swallowing the loud noises you were already making.
You could feel his throbbing down there, all you had left on was just your bra and your panties. In no time Chuuya instantly pulled down the lace fabric down.
“Tell me when to stop alright princess.” “Mhm..” You could only nod your head in response.
He began to lick the folds, making you squirm underneath. You threw your head back over the pillow your head was resting on, just enjoying the pleasurable sensation that was overcoming you.
Chuuya’s hand were grabbing your thighs spreading them apart. Once he brought his head back up he saw that you were clenching onto any soft part of the sofa, “This wont take a while.” He said as he intertwined one hand with yours whilst the other was still in between your cunt, swirling his finger around in all sorts of directions.
“Chuu~ Ah” Was all that could come out of that nasty mouth of yours. “Say it, go on.”
“Please.”
“Please what?” He continued moving his tongue on your clit while his fingers were brushing up against your entrance “Youre so fucking wet, cmon just say it already.” He cooed at you.
“Please just… do it already…” You lifted your head ‘up’ and your eyes met with the gun that was placed aside on the sofa. Chuuya noticed this and thought maybe you wanted the gun to be inside.
“Oh this old one… If you say so darling.” He leaned his head forward to you again, making your reddened cheeks only burn more. “ But make sure you cum for me.” He whispered softly in your ear.
He clicked on the gun, and placed it near your entrance. As his two fingers, the middle and index were sort of holding the gun in a strange position, he made sure his thumb was still fingering your clit over and over again.
“Chuuya.” “Say what now?” “Ah~”
He loved watching you be a hot mess. It always turned him on, even if it meant he didnt get off. But he would love to see you be high on him.
He placed the tip of the gun closer to your entrance, taunting you with it.
“Ah~ Ah~ Ngh~ Chuuya… AaaA”
Finally after minutes of him sort of circling the gun near your cunt, and him rubbing your clit you finally came.
White and clear fluids were now all over the tip of the gun running down as Chuuya brought the gun up to his face. He licked the liquid that was running down the object “Ya taste good, know that?”
“Oh please.”
You covered your face in embarrassment. This wasnt how this was suppose to go.
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fernfreakingtastic · 2 months
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If you're having a bad day but think you don't deserve someone or even yourself being nice to you:
Shane, even at his lowest, has the farmer want to see him and care about hearing how he's doing. Even when he was at his meanest/lowest points in the game, everyone that collectively put in the effort to see those hearts with him rise up knew what they were walking into. They still came by sometimes every single day they could to give him something they hoped he liked and talked to him to see how he was doing. They genuinely wanted to see him smiling and happy with his aunt and niece and get better. Whether platonically or romantically they care for him
You deserve your own farmer.
You deserve to treat yourself like how the farmer treats Shane when they're trying to get his heart events
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arolesbianism · 26 days
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Some stuff I've drawn semi recently
#keese draws#oc art#oc#ocs#furry#furry oc#furry art#Ive been going thru it recently but Ill survive#on the bright side the pet sitting job for my aunt is coming up soon#so Ill have a house to myself for a bit at least#Im probably still gonna be fairly offline for the foreseeable future unless I somehow manage to fix my sleep schedule anytime soon#not to say I will be on any sorta complete hiatus or anything just that Im not getting any more active most likely#not that I think anyone rly cares at this point since its been the norm for a while now but yknow#Ill still be around to answer asks and stuff just dont freak out if I take a lil bit to see it 👍#anyways enough of being a downer Im actually pretty happy with these even if theyre mostly just doodles#also I havent posted any art of these guys in a While but say hi to them while you can cause theyre back into the void of my brain now#first is keese (the oc™) second is toon and third is clyve#all from different stories but toon and clyve are both from the magic cat universe#their paths never meet tho the closest connection they have has to go through like 4 characters first#you can also tell theyre from different stories because one is anthro and the other isnt lol#generally speaking I consider anthro designs slightly more canon but both are canon depending on the story#not in a shapeshifting way just in a me being an inconsistent bitch sorta way#but yeah keese the oc is much older than either of those two I just dont talk abt them or their story ever#but hey if any of yall remember suckerz those two are besties#suckerz is sort of younger than the other two and sort of much older than all three#shes a sort of updated version of a reallyyyy old sona sort of character I had in like 6th grade I think#back during my lilo and stitch experiment oc era where I had one that was music themed#I also had a digimon variant of her she was called like beatramon or smth like that#she was basically a hypothetical music mascot and shes kind of still that tbh#if I ever get enough into making music that I start posting shit it will be my music mascot
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sonknuxadow · 11 months
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ok as someone who has read archie And idw i genuinely dont understand where all the lanolin and sally comparisons are coming from. i often see people call lanolin a sally ripoff or say that shes an attempt at replacing sally or just otherwise compare the two and like. yeah they both hang around sonics friends and are leaders of their respective teams but they definitely are not similar enough to justify those comments. i think you guys just cant see a girl sonic character do anything cool without crying that she replaced sally
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bugsmoocher · 6 months
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zevranunderstander · 1 year
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okay time for my daily "i stand with john gaius" post but tamsyn muir did not write a bisexual maori man who was a renowned scientist who had dedicated his life to saving the earth and exposing the schemes of the ultra-rich who was then made out to be a terrorist and global threat when his only goal was to help and who ultimately was brought down by his own character flaws and shortcomings while under immense pressure in a situation where everyone he ever loved was being executed in front of him and seconds before death did something he - to our knowledge - could barely control, just for the entire fanbase to go 'yeah he's like a cartoon villain. he's an irredeemably shitty person and everything he does is inherently evil and manipulative'
#myposts#tlt#im not saying he doesn't have bad character traits#like his clear problem to be seen in a bad light by anyone and the lengths he goes so people cannot judge and blame him#and his frankly a bit creepy tendency to rename people#but can i be so real? i think both of these are PERFECTLY explained by his backstory#i think he genuinely has a tendency to shift the blame away from him himself and thats tbh just how some people are#but. he also was made out to be like... the antichrist by people so i GET how that can increase your desire to be seen in a good light#and i think. of course its weird that he renames people but. he explains his philosophy behind it pretty well with titania and ulysses#like. you dont have to agree w him but if youd resurrect someone and they are very much not the same person they were when they died#would you really be comfortable calling them the same name?#i mean its a pretty philosophical question but i dont think theres a morally wrong answer to it#the fact that he had to rename his friends in the first place bc he altered their personalities so they think they aren't from earth?#now that is pretty fucked up#but first of all its also a bit sexy and second of all like. what do you say to your friends when you make them remember earth like....?#'im soooo sooorry guys i blew up palmet earth and almost all people on it? like#what would you do if this legitimately would have happened to you#also ill be real. the scene where hes like 'pyrrha was saying i was lying and that guys as careful as me don't have accidents like that'#about how he killed those cops#and then at the end of the chapter alecto is like 'did you ever find out what happened with your accident'#and hes like 'come on love. guys as careful as me dont have accidents'#like. when he breaks the entire facade of this super helpless guy whom everything bad ever just happens to on accident#i found that a bit hot. ok. that was very very very fucking sexy of him#the only thing i really cant defend abt him is the imperialism but to me this choice has something from the ending of hunger games you know#oh god i will make a separate post on that i didnt know there is a tag limit VHHDVDHDJDJJ
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cherry-shipping · 1 year
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I HAD A DREAM ABOUT SANS AND PAPYRUS......!!!!!!! i dreamt papyrus got really sick and then sans got even more sick from working himself too hard trying to take care of everything. so i took care of them both and tucked them into bed and read them stories and talked to them and made them food and everything. it was really nice
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shasonii · 2 years
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got anything against trans lesbians Sonadow? like it's technically a form of genderbending but not doubling into sexbending, as the traditional "genderbend" does.
It doesn't really concern me what other people do, and *especially* if a trans lesbian is projecting, who am i to judge it?
Regarding sexbend/genderbend/trans headcanons. It doesn't really matter? Wording it as if changing gender while keeping the "sex" the "same" is better... when the characters' sex is never confirmed either? That implies sonic cant be a trans guy bc of the requirements for him being a trans girl.
Like i get what you mean with the ask but the wording is a little weird
Ofc i have my own opinion abt the whole thing, and as a gay man, personally, its a little weird to me when gay male aligned pairings get turned into lesbians. (Ignoring genderbend/trans stuff) (also it is still only an opinion)
The reasons are this
There already are a lot of female sonic characters, even with extremely similar dynamics. Why go out of your way to "edit" the guys for sapphic indulgence?
This is not something i'm assuming of you or possibly the person reading this, but I've seen women take male pairings and turning them into women in order to "improve" them. (Direct quote) that rubs me the wrong way because it implies gay male love is lesser.
Im not going around and taking sapphic pairings and making them into men either? (And i bet that if i did, id get called a mysoginist) If i see lesbian pairings i like, im fine with engaging with them as they are and appreciating them for being women/girls. Even as a gay man i can appreciate women/girls in love! I don't need them to be men to relate/have deeper connection??
at the end of the day though...... That's just how i feel. It should be seen in context that i personally am also projecting as a gay male aligned trans person. I personally see sonic and shadow as mirror image of my own gay relationship with my partner and thats my angle on it, seeing them as gay trans guys.
I acknowledge and approve of the possibility of trans lesbians seeing themselves in them the same way i do.
And if i see lesbian versions of gay pairings ill blacklist their url so i don't have to see it personally 🤷‍♂️ like ppl just do their things and what i, random internet user, personally like/disliked, should really not matter to them. The same way it doesn't matter to me what they do bc i'll just stay in my lane.
And that also should apply to you. Why would it matter to you what random sonadow blog thinks?,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Open your heart, live and learn
And stuff
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munamania · 2 years
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it’s just i spend so much time sharing little things about myself in the hopes that it sparks a connection with people and also i guess that maybe sometimes people will think of me yk. to feel like i exist outside of my own head. i dont think this is a bad thing it’s just where im at it’s a natural want for connection and it like. works for me. and i also dont think it’s bad to have the friends i do that are like ‘surface level’ yk. i still appreciate them and love them. it’s just, this is where im at, desperately clawing in different spaces in my life to be known even tho it’s embarrassing lol. and it just sucks that i never had to try to with her. not only did we have this extremely insane chemistry right off the bat, she’s someone that in like every way has made it seem like she actively wants to know me. beyond just the polite and whatever kind of level. and it’s like, of course that feels absolutely amazing given ive been pining since day 1 but also i just like her a lot as a person. you know. and it all sucks and makes me wanna combust sometimes that things aren’t the way i’d like them to be between us of course lmfao but i also think she’s an incredible person and she’s managed to make me feel so safe and calm and simultaneously obviously fucking crazy and energized and whatever. u know. whatever my point is here im gonna be done now <3
#jk! it's like. she remembers shit abt me. not only these things that im basically handing to the world around me like hi hey please#think of me. she notices the stuff i dont make a point to point out. stuff that i say really offhandedly or to myself#she remembered what cup i was going to use our first time hanging out she remembered my posters even tho i only showed her my room for like#a second. shes looked up movies i mentioned she. in her also very drunken state. paid attention to the exact cup i was carrying around#that was actually just sweet and smart of her. when we left she was like Um hey. that's not the one u had lol#sometimes she references things i've said and i have to stop myself from going Oh ;-; on the spot#and early on we'd tease each other even though we. didnt really know each other. so it was over the most basic shit and that was#its own thing that felt all <33333 yk. stupid silly goofy#so now. shes not talking to me for whatever reason and i think lied abt why she didnt answer last weekend and it's weird#and it's like. yeah it sucks knowing they're still evidently goin strong. but also im like damn this person that i was prepared to#call a friend and really like. care about at this point. is acting like we're at square 1#and we're not close enough for me to Fully be like Yo dude wtf. but we're definitely beyond the point where it's like#oh this is someone i just hung out with once and we didnt rlly click so im just going to be polite but not engage#if that makes sense. yk.#so monday im gonna try to get some clarity on the whole thing but ig here's me lamenting rn#haha u thought u were getting just a regular non film girl vent post. sike#im not like breaking down over this i promise im just reflecting. and didnt want to get up for my journal. so here's this#film girl saga#long post
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puppysynonym · 2 years
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parents: you should stand up for yourself more!
me: *stands up for myself*
parents:
parents: not like that
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vigil4nted · 2 years
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Just y’know, a full stop reminder here, that if we have a thread you really want continued/responded to like 100% of the time I lose my threads so you’re gonna have to remind me & send it directly to me. Esp bc lately it’s been expresso depresso I’ve lost complete track. Like I don’t just... say this for no reason. I really do need reminders. Talking as a person who can barely remember to take the daily meds I need so like... If you expect me to remember stuff on a hobby when I struggle to remember my own health??? idk man.  I’m just getting that Feeling again that people are getting upset/down on their luck because I’m forgetting things and just... I wanna just remind people that I forget all the time. I literally am going to need reminders bc this is my hobby. ty!!
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nightfallsystem · 18 days
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the cool thing about having a mother is they constantly push you closer to suicide !!
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bmpmp3 · 1 month
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i NEEED to be more annoying about being mixed race in public i keep forgetting how dire it is. sometimes i point out stuff in like visual culture classes about like a magazine cover with a biracial model or something and it blows peoples MINDS because the whole class forgot mixed people were real
#sometimes im like nooooo i shouldnt be too loud about it people find it annoyinggggg sometimes#but then i remember. if i dont. my white peers. i love them i do they're ready to learn and they do a lot of thinking#once you point stuff out. but by god you need to point this stuff out first LOL classmates put a lot of care and thought into all kinds of#issues but HOO baby. race is a BIG blind spot for a lot of em hfkjdjdkfh#i just get surprised is all. i didnt realize how little the average non-mixed-race person thinks about this stuff#i like to call myself whiteboy. because i think thats funny. its my internal monologue. but also i am not actually whiteboy#and i forget the real whiteboys (gender neutral?) dont know much about mixed issues hjskasjfkd#oh speaking of i guess as a quick primer: i should probably mention. i tend to call myself mixed race#just the terminology i grew up with. but in most professional and academic settings i'll use biracial or multiracial where applicable#or when referring to people who are not myself or someone i know prefers the term mixed#i dont know why i like the term mixed. maybe its just easier to say and explain LOL but yeah#not everyone likes the term mixed race so its usually better to call someone biracial or multiracial if you dont know#multiracial identities are vast and can be vastly different. one persons experience is much different from anothers#my experience is different from my older brothers and we have the same parents and look pretty alike#and our experiences are different from like. my biracial cousin who grew up in the US#and all of us have different experiences than the only other multiracial classmate ive had in years#really the best thing is to read stuff written by multiracial people. books articles blogs. watch video content#theres a lot to learn constantly even if youre multiracial yourself! lots of people on this earth. but it can be fun!#interesting and fun to connect with others by listening to their stories and experiences!
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clovernment · 4 months
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it's genuinely frightening me how terrible my attitude has become when it comes to studying, like idgaf that i have a huge super important super difficult exam tomorrow in less than 12 hours and i cant be bothered to revise anything because ik so damn bored out of my mind ive tried washing my face walking around a bit, distracting myself for a bit to get back to studying but i cant bring myself to even look at it or even go through the topics in my head
#what is it called when your lack of care is alarming to yourself#i mean i know anxiety and i know the nausea and violent acidity that comes with it#and there is none of it right now#i feel so extremely understimulated i might cry i cant even sleep#and because none of this actually affects my scores in a “big way” no one is going to say i have a problem#which means i am never getting that adhd diagnosis#bc whatever i have clearly isnt impacting my life in a “significant” way#i feel like i need to beat my head against a wall to stir myself into action but im here trying to sleep unsuccessfully#i will have wasted time and ill regret it probably but most of all i hate everything about myself right now#and this sucks in extreme ways because i dont hate the subject i dont hate studying i hate the situation right now i hate exams#i hate that this is my last major exam i have no possible way to improve my performance#i hate that i sound like im making excuses#i hate that im honestly never getting that diagnosis#most of all i hate that im gonna be fumbling tomorrow and something is going to be just out of my minds reach#and if i was on some sort of medication that stopped me from becoming a literal zombie i wouldve studied better and id have remembered#i fucking hate that marks dont really matter to me much especially in my field#i hate the absolute helpless feeling i have right now#and the helplessness i will have in the exam hall tomorrow#it isn't so bad as it was a few years ago but my own behaviour has gotten rotten more and more and i honestly couldn't hate myself anymore
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winterskyfirefly · 5 months
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#fuckin christ im doin bad tonight#where i went for drinks tonight is one of the last places i went with my mother#she couldn't get up the six steps#she collapsed and had to sit until someone helped her inside#we drank and she fell going down the steps and wet herself and i sat there comforting her and telling her there was no shame and i loved he#and i was angry and furious at the last fourteen years of her suffering and having to care for her more and more because she couldn't#she inhaled chlorine gas in an accident cleaning our pool 14 years ago called 911 and then passed out and then basically ... was in a coma#she was unconscious for fucking however knows i forget i dont want to remember but she lost all muscle use and had to relearn ... everythin#her lungs were shot and she was forever weak and she was in the hospital from simple colds but she would be intubated and afraid#she had oxygen 24/7 and a walker and she fell a lot and she couldn't lift a gallon of milk she couldn't open cans of vegetables or sodas#for years taking meds and getting sicker weaker and then she died maybe three months after this trip to this place tonight#i watched as she got sicker and i took more care of her and wondered if i'd ever have a life and now i still wonder if i'll ever have a lif#she loved me but she'd say she hated me when i could open the cans she needed opened or could pick up something#i carried her oxygen everywhere and waited for her and picked her up and cleaned her up when she fell#when she fell out of bed after drinking and cracked her skin and it bled (the meds made her more prone to this) and i would pick her up#except when i couldnt and she couldn't help and she'd tell me to leave her on the floor and i couldn't so she would call for my stepfather#and he would come upstairs and scream at her and pick her up#then whenever she fell after for months he'd hear and come storming to scream and i'd hear#i took care of her i cleaned her up when she fell and was bloody i washed her sheets i told her i loved her i was patient#i took photos of her bloody head where the temple was cut when she slammed her head into her dresser#she said shed quit drinking never did she never got better#i knew she wouldn't but i wish it was different and i wish she couldn't have had better and more#i wish she didn't have the last 14 years of her life become less and less and less and she was a wonderful person who deserved better#and it hurts tonight
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truckstoptigers · 6 months
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why can't i have a dad that's nice to me
#they hurt me in different ways but they both hurt me#my stepfather continues to do/say things that hurt me & im essentially not allowed to call him out#it gets absolutely nowhere bc he doesnt care to listen. he also sometimes intentionally triggers me#(obviously talking abt car-related topics is very difficult for me but hell bring that stuff up on purpose bc#'you need to know whats going on in the world!! you cant just keep your head in the sand!!' like shut the entire fuck up.#you dont get to trigger me KNOWING YOURE DOING IT and then expect me to be cool#and you ESPECIALLY do not get to be pissed AT ME when i have a panic attack as a result#my life would improve dramatically w/out him in it & that kills me. two dads & neither of them are decent.#but i think what kills me abt my stepdad was that he DID love me & cared abt my interests. he tried to get to know me. he was kind.#i had a good dad. and all of a sudden he became not even a shell of that person. that person simply did not exist anymore.#i hate it. i hate HIM. but it wasnt always that way and it hurts to remember that.#trauma vent#actuallyabused#actuallytraumatized#hes a big part of why i basically feel guilty for existing as a human being w needs#and a big part of why my self-directed internalized ableism is so bad. im working to improve that though. its just rlly hard#esp since i still live w him#oh also a fix for a typo up there: i am sensitive to CSA-RELATED topics not car-related topics lmfao#although his driving does scare me lol!!!#milo murmurs
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