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smth different from my usual- i was taught this when i went to PT a couple years ago and i've never seen anything about it online. obligatory disclaimer i'm not in any way a medical professional and this wont cure your headaches, but they make mine a decent chunk more tolerable and sometimes that's all you can ask for

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sorry it just pisses me off endlessly how carelessly my mom will spend money on herself but god forbid i ask for. Sunglasses. a new pair of sunglasses. that aren't mom-core from the fucking 2000s that have been sitting in our kitchen junk drawer for years and years. i get a "well if you don't care how they look [in reference to me saying i didn't really care about TRYING THEM ON FIRST because the shape of them isn't a concern of mine] i would prefer you just use them from the drawer"

like i'm going to 1) explode, and 2) cry .

It’s an excellent day to hang your Whumpee upside down by their feet.

Anyone else's body feel bad?

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Was anyone going to tell me having nightmares most nights to the point of insomnia was an actual medical concern or was I just supposed to google that at 6am?

ok as an artist i personally find traditional painting to be. really really annoying. like. i do not have the patience for it and i just find it to be really frustrating to set up and actually do and i end up not liking the results. i find that there's little room for mistakes and trying to fix them usually ends up with me making 50 other ones, paints can be so inconsistent and having to rely on availability and certain brands to continue making the paint is really inconvenient, not to mention expensive. spending a bunch of time trying to mix the right shade of paint, only for it to go down a completely different shade of colour and not being able to do anything about it is so frustrating as someone who likes consistency and having things just, y'know, not change colour as soon as it dries. plus, they all use different chemicals and can go off really easily or change textures and i am just not ok with having all my materials having an expiration date like food. lead and graphite pencils just don't do that and they can last for years, they're more reliable. every paint is drastically different and trying to find the right one is not only time consuming but, again, expensive, and i don't even see the point in experimenting when most of my materials end up not even getting used if i don't like using them. plus, i'm just.... really impatient. waiting for paint to dry sucks and is why i much prefer digital or just drawing something because i don't need to wait for anything, it just works. and then when i do want to take my time and work slowly for a better result, it dries too fast. it's kinda hellish trying to balance that time, especially considering how inconsistent paints are.

i like to use guidelines when doing art and i find painting straight onto a canvas to be really tricky because there's a lack of direction for me to actually paint. i'm at a complete loss at what to do when i pick up a brush because i can't map it out first without risking screwing up the paint. there's just so many things to keep track of and so much wet paint to avoid and i just do not have the mind for it. putting colours on a canvas and praying that it works just isn't it for me and requires a discipline that i just don't wanna involve myself with. painting is also just like... really exhausting and kinda painful. i got some pretty bad back issues and my arms tire and get sore easily and quickly when i'm standing in front of a canvas. it's a really physical activity for me and i just don't find something to be very fun to do at all when it's physically hurting me. i know drawing on a canvas has this issue too, which is why i prefer sketchbooks. sitting down and drawing something that doesn't break my entire spine every time i do it is much more preferrable than questioning if i should go to the doctor every time i make a brushstroke, lol

that's not to say that there's nothing i like about painting though! i can paint simple little things, and i like doing that. i like mixing colours with a palette knife and i find it fun and even a little relaxing. i painted some cute little chibi cardboard cutouts of the mario brothers one time and i found that to be really fun and i think i'd like to do that again! but apart from that, i just do not have the patience for it. i love the look of traditional paintings and i find many to be really beautiful, but i could never get into actually doing it myself because i hate the process. i'm content with just sketching and doing digital stuff because that's more fun to me and less stressful of a process to do. it's fun, it allows for more mistakes, it's easier to build up layers of shading and lines, not to mention using building up a figure with guidelines is super helpful with visualising what i want it to look like, and i can just erase something if i don't want it there or want to change something. it just makes sense to me.

tl;dr i dont like painting because it's inconsistent, expensive, time-consuming, directionless, frustrating and it makes my back hurt really bad. i'll just stick to drawing stuff :)

I really went "Ah, Chikao and Tongbi don't do any kind of opposite swap like Wukong and Macaque do" as I was adding a song to Tongbi's playlist, then stopped and looked at the song and went "Oh. Wait."

got like 4 hours of sleep again. and my nephew is staying here tonight soo I can't even have a nap later. and he usually wants to stay up pretty late. so it will be a bad day, probably

Fuck the American healthcare system. I'm so sick of dealing with it. If I hear one more, "Oh you're young! Clearly nothing is wrong! You can tough it out!" I might punch someone

New Years eve may be sucking but at least I still got her

(I'm gonna rant in the tags)

I just went five whole days without a headache! That should not impress me.

so interesting to see people’s takes on headaches versus stomach aches because like, stomach aches are normal. worst thing that’s gonna happen is severe cramping, nausea and heat flashes. all very short-term and the stomach ache itself doesn’t usually last too long. whereas headaches? make it hard to think, to reason, to understand what’s going on. makes me more irritable than other types of pain because i struggle with brain fog anyways and headaches compound that. can last all day, and i can never pinpoint WHY i have one, while with stomach aches i’ve gotten pretty good at telling when i’m gonna have one and making sure i only have one while at home and not going out for a bit

all this to say stomach ache sweep idk how y’all handle headaches in a regular basis

just had a migraine aura??????