I cannot get over this Buck/Chris still

Like, look at Chris’ face.

This might just me, but not only does Chris look like he’s about to cry but he also looks so...stoic. Maybe even mad.

And now I’m sitting here thinking that either:

A) Eddie told Chris about Buck’s coma and he’s shown to be calm and almost detached for a good chunk of the episode until he goes to see Buck for himself and he tries to stay strong for Buck (and lowkey Eddie) but ultimately breaks down when he asks him to wake up.

OR

B) Eddie brings Chris to go see Buck and just when they make it to Buck’s room, they overhear Maddie arguing with the Buckleys over them not bothering to go in and see their son and then they start spewing their woe-is-me bullshit excuses and they don’t notice they’re being overheard until Eddie makes their presence known by addressing only Maddie.

The Buckleys remember Eddie and even try introducing themselves formally to Christopher only for the latter to put them on the spot over why they won’t see Buck, much to everyone’s shock. They try to give him some BS kid-gloved excuse and Chris just completely shuts them down, going as far as to completely walk past them to get to Buck (but not before giving his aunt Maddie a hug).

So when he gets inside, he goes to Buck and tells him that he and Eddie aren’t going anywhere so he doesn’t have to worry about being alone. (And then the whole fandom cries.)

(I know, I’m a Buckley-Diaz clown. But I’m a traumatized Buckley-Diaz clown, so let me have this!)

I know that a lot of people want Eddie to the one that wakes up Buck/is the first person Buck sees when he wakes up. But I really want it to be Christopher.

Buck’s journey this season is in part about realizing that family is more than blood. He can be happy without his biological family (except for Maddie). Because I think in the coma something will feel off, even if his parents are acting like they should be. It won’t feel right. They aren’t the family he wants.

Plus, his sperm donor arc - which I really hope somehow ends with that baby being Connor’s not Buck’s - is set up for Buck to come to realize he’s a donor of that baby, not a dad. But in reality, he’s already a dad to Christopher. He may not accept that immediately, but thought will be lingering throughout the rest of the season.

I want Chris to be by Buck’s bedside, to be begging for Buck to wake up. I want Chris’s voice as he tells him that he can’t lose another parent, because Buck is his second dad, to be the voice that pulls Buck back. I want Christopher to be the one that he’s searching for, that missing piece in his dream. Because he’s going to realize just how much that kid - and his dad - mean to him.

I want Buck to wake up while Chris is sobbing into his shoulder/or clutching his hand and tell Chris, “it’s okay buddy, I’m right here.” I want Chris to jump into his arms, and for Buck to wince in pain and not care a bit about that and just wrap his arms around the kid and hold him tighter. I want Chris to cry and tell him he loves him, and did Buck go whisper it back and kiss his forehead and rub his back soothingly.

Then across the room, watching this whole moment unfold, I want there to be Eddie. I want him frozen in the moment - paralleling Carlos in LS when TK was waking up from his coma. I want at that moment for Buck to look to him, see him and smile fondly. “Dad I told you he’d come back to us. Buck would never give up on us.” Buck responds, eyes locked on Eddie, “Never.” At that point I want a few tears to fall down Eddie’s cheek before he surges forward to hug them both at the same time. Then I want the Camera to pan out, a view of their little family as Chris giggles that Eddie is crushing them. Eddie tries to pull away, but Buck pulls them closer, and says, “just a little longer.”

whatever you do, don’t think about eddie going to shannon’s grave to ask her about how to deal with buck.

and then eventually for her permission for buck to become his actual second parent legally. don’t imagine him going, “the way buck treats christopher makes me want to give him the universe because he gives the whole galaxy to chris. you can see it in his eyes when he sees the kid, the way they light up. he basically fought a tsunami for him and he’d do it again. i hope i have your blessing to make him chris’s second dad. i bet you’d adore the way those two cooked together; and also how that in turn makes them bully me about my own cooking.”

DON’T. do not picture any sort of conversation like that at all. for your well being and mental state.

Think of how good and heartfelt and honest a confession from Eddie would be this season.

In 2x01, Eddie is calm and collected. Despite nearly dying, he plays down the traumatic experience him and Buck just shared with a handshake and “You can have my back anyway,” a casual line we don’t understand the importance of until we learn more about Shannon.

In 3x03, Eddie has to make jokes and insult Buck before he can drop “There’s nobody in this world I trust more with my son than you.” He then turns, walking away before he stops to say his final line, “Thank you. For not giving up.” Cut to 3x09, where Eddie argues with Buck over his apology, claiming that everything’s fine. He’s still not being totally honest with Buck about his feelings, even when Buck outright asks him. (“If you’re not gonna be honest with Frank, at least be honest with me.”) 

In 4x14, Eddie once again opens with humor but doesn’t rely on it, quickly becoming serious. He’s honest with Buck; however, throughout “I know you wouldn’t” and “But no one will ever fight for my son as hard as you” and “You act like you’re expendable, but you’re wrong,” he’s looking away or down. He’s still unable to be totally vulnerable with Buck about his feelings while making eye contact.

In 5x13, Eddie is in therapy and is finally honest about his fears with Buck: “I’m afraid . . . that I’m never gonna feel normal again,” he says, looking Buck right in the eye.

If Eddie confesses his love to Buck in 6b, he won’t have to hide his feelings through teasing. He won’t have to lie about them or tuck them away in a box. He won’t even have to look away or wait until he’s walking out through the doorway to say his truth. He could just tell Buck he loves him.

oh my god, OH MY GOOOD. We were right? WE WERE RIGHT!?!?? WHAT ELSE ARE WE RIGHT ABOUT?!???? Coma!buck confirmed????!?!? I have so many thoughts but all that’s coming out is OH MY FUCKING GOD

Ok but what if in In Another Life, Buck is with his parents, he’s having a good time, they go along really well and suddenly the news are on and he’s probably still in Hershey and it’s like a major news agency going

“LAFD firefighter hit by a sniper in broad daylight while off duty died today”

(or something)

And Buck is looking at the news and he’s like “no. No. No, I saved him. I saved Eddie.”

And everyone around him is confused, because “who the hell is Eddie?”, and Buck is also confused, because “Eddie is… Eddie is…” and that’s how he wakes up, with Eddie’s name on his lips and their hands holding each other and that’s how Buck figures out what Eddie really means to him.

Poker nights - a 911 Rec List (2/3)

SPOILER ALERT for season 6 episode 13, "Mixed Feelings"

All because a person dropped a set photo, there are (still more!) fics:

"Arm Candy" by @princessfbi (G, 8k) in which Buck acts cool. Totally cool.

"Undercover Husbands" by Im_Basically_Shakespeare (T, 6k) in which they're undercover, they're husbands, but Athena says they're definitely not On A Mission.

"Winners and losers" by Taruolento  | @taruolentoorsomething (T, 4k) in which parents from Christopher's school have a fun poker night.

See also part 1, 3, or check out a 911 masterlist of themed rec lists

Anyway we know Bobby is still wrecked from losing Wendell. As he should be. And he's going to jump straight into investigating his death, and he's probably going to a little intense with it. Right? I mean, this is digging up a lot of his past, a lot of buried feelings. All I'm saying is. After the lightning, Bobby breaks down. Like, full-on sobbing, close to relapsing, needs someone to keep an eye on him breakdown. Because Buck is in a coma, and as much as he doesn't want to admit it, buck is like his kid. And he almost lost him. And that's going to kill him.

I'm just picturing it. In Buck's hospital room, begging him to wake up. Athena tells him maybe they should leave, let one of the other 118 crew see him, and Bobby can't. He can't let him leave, not until he wakes up. He tells her he should've seen it coming, he never should've sent Buck up that ladder. He should have known better than to send Buck up on a ladder during a lightning storm, he lived in the midwest long enough that even if LA doesn't have storms a lot, he knows what happens during them. He tells her he was so focused on Wendell, on getting justice for him, his judgement must've been clouded somehow. And he just...god, he's so pissed, because his poor judgement has once again hurt his family.

Okay so I have not yet watched the new 9-1-1 episode so obviously SPOILERS but you better believe I’m looking at all the spoilers because I literally cannot survive without them but I’ve also seen a lot of posts about how the Buckley parents either won’t visit Buck in the hospital, or they will and they’ll get called out by Eddie for being horrible parents

BUT

I HAVE THOUGHT OF SOMETHING MUCH WORSE AND IDK IF ANYONE ELSE HAS YET BUT IF NOT HERE YOU GO

The Buckley parents do end up visiting Buck in the hospital right? They find out he’s been struck by lightning and doesn’t have a very good chance at surviving because of it. Yes, they’ve been told the next 24hrs are crucial. Yes they’ve been told he’s in a medically induced coma. Yes they’ve been told that it’s now up to him to fight to live. But- they don’t see it that way. They already think of Buck as nothing but spare parts, so why not get some use out of him again by PULLING THE PLUG AND DONATING HIS ORGANS. Because I would not put it past Margaret and Philip to at least bring up the fact that “oh well, he’s gonna die anyway, might as well..” ya know? I don’t think it was ever established who would be Buck’s medical proxy should anything life threatening like that ever happen. Sure, Buck’s been in the hospital before, the fire truck crushing his leg, the tsunami, etc, but he’s never been in a medically induced coma before. And if Buck never changed any of his next of kin, medical care stuff, then by default his parents would be the ones calling the shots. And yeah, pulling the plug is definitely something those two would do- especially Margaret.

As much as I would love it to parallel Eddie changing his Will to make Buck Chris’s legal guardian, by Buck making Eddie his medical proxy, let’s all admit that if he were to have changed his next of kin stuff, he would’ve made Maddie his proxy. Because he loves his sister, and he trusts her to make the right decisions, especially when it comes to him and his health because we all know how self destructive Buck can be. Making Maddie in charge puts pressure on her. Of course it would. Why wouldn’t it? That’s her brother after all. The Buckley parents have always been shady and untrustworthy, so trying to pull rank over Maddie and trying to pull the plug on Buck would be how they can finally be rid of the reminder that Daniel didn’t survive and go from there.

Yes of course the 118 would quickly dismiss them. Of course they’d fight for Buck. Buck is family. He’s like a son to Bobby, an annoying little brother to Chim and Hen, and Eddie’s partner/best friend/pseudo parent/legal guardian to Chris. I didn’t mean for this to get long but I literally just thought of it after seeing all the spoilers and was like I h a v e to tell them. So until next week when I can survive off of spoilers again I will be chewing glass, kicking my feet, having multiple heart attacks a day thinking of Eddie finally screaming for Buck instead of vice versa, and giggling like a gremlin unprompted at the most inopportune of times.

So what do we think the casino pic is about if the Wendall story line is solved???? Buddies first date???🤡

So i was just contemplating what might have been different if Buck wasn't a firefighter.

It occured to me that there's the possibility that Chris would still have gone to the pier that day with whoever was babysitting him. And it would have been with someone who wouldn't fight for Eddie's son as much as Buck did. And the end of that day may have had a very different outcome.

“Buck is trying to get to know Natalia better. But every time he tries, there’s an interruption.”

I know everyone is thinking the interruption is Eddie or the universe just having one of its weekly screams.

But what if the interruption is Natalia herself? Because every time Buck tries to talk about himself, she only wants to hear about all of his near death experiences and Buck starts to feel unseen.

Here me out, I’ve got an Eddie dating other people theory here that could end up really good for us. So, if you’re keeping up with 911ls, then you’ll know that Marjan has left the 126 (temporarily) and is taking a road trip. Now according to some other synopses if the show, they’ll focus on her road trip on ls, but it was not ruled out that she could make an appearance on regular 911 in Los Angeles.

What if while Marjan is in LA she either stops by the 118 firehouse or meets them on a call that she has stepped in to help on? Her and Eddie reconnect, and because he’s trying to dip his toe back into the dating pool he asks her out on a date/to dinner. Marjan agrees and they go out. While they at dinner, Eddie is constantly talking about Chris and Buck. Marjan, who saw tbt lightning ordeal in the news asks about Buck and how Eddie was doing with the situation. He does his best to not get emotional about it, but finds a hard time trying to tell her about what he was going through when he wasn’t sure Buck was going to make it. Marjan mentions something similar happening to her friend Carlos when his partner TK - “you remember TK, right?” was in a coma. Eddie shakes off that comment. Not long later Marian asks him?, “So tell me, why are you out on a date with me and not Buck?”

Later, Eddie arrives back home - early - where Buck has been watching Chris. Chris is in his room with talking to his friends. Buck is clearly surprised he’s back so soon, and asks him about the date to which Eddie tells him, “good, but not for the reason you might think.” When asked to clarify, Eddie tells him. “There’s been something I’ve been fighting for a while, and she made me realize that I should probably just embrace it instead.” Instead of elaborating, Eddie kisses Buck right there in the kitchen. To which Buck replies with, “I’m starring to think that you should go out with Marjan more often.” And they kiss again.

how do we know tia pepa doesn’t actually just come in here with a big ol homosexual in love with you best friend behaviour slideshow and presents it to her nephew a little awkwardly but very firmly; alex clairmont and his president mother from red white and royal blue when he came out style, and go “buck is who you’ve been looking for, and have found. now man up and do something about it, i thought you were smarter than this cariño?”

They’re gonna really hurt Eddie aren't they? I mean “you will always be famous and loved”. That’s past tense.  That’s PAST tense!

Umm excuse me?? Excuse👨‍👦!??!? me🛋️!??!??

👼- buck thinking he’s in heaven bc he’s seeing ghost/Daniel

🍻- maybe buck and Daniel getting drinks? Brother bonding time

🛩- idk man probably a call or something

🃏- probably a lead in the case involving gambling/ poker (hence 6x13)

👨‍👦- that is chris and his father your honor, but which one (buck or Eddie) idk

🛋- ok ok realistically it’s probably 1. Someone sleeping on the couch in bucks room or 2. Bucks apartment in his dream has a choice and he’s like “wtf”

But since when are we realistic so obviously it’s Eddie’s couch that buck will be staying on while he recovers bc Eddie is bucks couch and they’re in love, thank you.