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theauthor27 · 9 months

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Communion wafers taste, feel, and act like styrofoam btw.

#Ate one sacrilegiously once #That shit was awful #-100/10 would not recommend

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lifelesslino · 7 months

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I finally understand the beauty that follows an intense breakdown!

Let me explain. When I say 'breakdowns', we all know what those are—well, at least the rough outline of what they feel and look like. Thoughts swarming your mind like starved vultures, ripping away at the seal of defenses you plastered over all those "minor" concerns or frustrations, and that single hint of sensitivity you allowed yourself to experience earlier is all it takes to crumble completely. You know, tears rolling down your face, nose watering and reddening, eyes burning, hands shaking violently, knees pulled to your chest, body curled into a ball on the floor—the whole works. (just as a side note: everyone breaks down differently, and my own description is not the sole example of a breakdown in general.)

I'm no stranger to them. In fact, I need them once in while, and I'm a little thankful when it happens. There have even been moments when I've scoured for triggers, either from songs or past memories, just to intentionally push me to tears. To push myself over the edge and free fall, letting my emotions take control and drain me of all that stress and exhaustion from bottling it up. Granted, I've buried that gratitude more often than not as I grow older, and my post breakdown clarity either ranges from "finally, I feel lighter now" to "goddamn it, I should've just sucked it up". But that's not the point of this post, otherwise we'd both be stuck here for hours to the point of insanity. ...okay, maybe we're already there, but that's beside the point. The topic in discussion today is that magical post breakdown beauty, which is something I've read and heard too much. Apparently, following an intense sobbing session, several people—solely online in my own experience, I don't have friends outside of the internet—have described that they looked more beautiful when they checked their appearance in the mirror. Now, to be fair, they're all already absolutely stunning prior to the breakdown, and that's what confused me for months. Whenever I had a breakdown, my nose would grow bigger and redder, and my eyebags felt more defined as the tears rolled down while my cheeks puffed up. Basically, I looked like a goddamn clown. So how were these lovely individuals feeling beautiful after crying their hearts out?

Well, I finally answered my own question myself after having a breakdown (quick, act surprised). It was the usual; a swarm of negative thoughts, a moment of weakness I allowed to slip, I curled up on the floor and cried my heart out, blah blah. After I finished, I stood up and walked to the bathroom, but I paused when I saw myself in the mirror.

And that's when I actually saw it. That post breakdown beauty? It's real.

My eyes still glistened with more unshed tears that I simply was too tired to push out, and it looked like a glossy sheen over my eyeballs as I peered at myself closer in the mirror. For the first time, my nose didn't expand and redden to resemble Rudolph's lost twin, and I think I can chalk that up to only having eaten a little throughout the entire day (little rice for breakfast, small sandwich for lunch, skipped dinner). My cheeks were still warm, but they didn't puff up, and it's the latter that I've always despised. My eyelashes, still a little damp from earlier, now looked more defined as the tear droplets held thinner lashes together to make them appear more thicker.

If this effect—the way that the tears held my lashes together and made them appear thicker and more plentiful—is somehow turned into a mascara brand, I'd be the first customer.

Wait, where was I going with this? Oh right: post breakdown beauty. Well, I'm impressed and here to say I've finally experienced it.

Now, is there some sort of self bias at play here? Obviously, and that much is to be expected. After all, beauty is subjective to the eye of the beholder, and we certainly don't share the same eyes. Was it actual beauty I saw reflected back at me in the mirror, or was it actually a reflection of my growing self acceptance of my appearance? I've gotten better at admiring myself and not bashing myself for certain physical traits like height, but I've similarly gotten worse and become more self-critical and focus on even more minute details. Like, for example, there are still certain facial features like my nose that I despise and can't manipulate—at least, not without surgery or makeup, which is why I'm learning the latter.

Perhaps the most demanding question that arose was this: is this beauty genuinely 'newfound', or has it always stared back at me in that same mirror? Was I too cruel to myself whenever I looked at myself, easily pointing out reasons of disgust that served no justice to the mere concept of 'beauty'?

I suppose either way, the post beauty of a breakdown is ultimately subjective.

It really isn't that interesting, yet it captivates my curiosity anyway.

(just in case anyone is concerned: I'm totally okay.)

Remember to eat. Sleep well. Take care. Slay, be gay. 🤍

#post breakdown beauty #hestia's rants #it's literally nighttime wth #-100/10 would not recommend

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darth-does-stuff · 2 years

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sometimes i think that i don’t really get dysphoric or have any doubt about my identity with being trans and then i experience nights like last nights and. hoo boy

#it wasn’t even like crushing dysphoria it was just #so much doubt. just so much.#and it wasn’t the kind where i looked in the mirror and i hated how i looked #it was just being so confused about if i was really trans #unease and second guessing myself #and then it translated to my interests and stuff and it was bad #i just felt tired and bored and so lost and it was #bleh #-100/10 would not recommend #we’re doing better tonight though we’re doing better #in the gender sense not physical i have a killer headache and it’s the middle of the night lmao #god thinking about last night and how i felt really is just so tiring #nothing even brought it on there was just sudden doubt. i was overthinking and second guessing #i kept asking myself if i was really trans do you feel that this is right #that fucking shit #and then somehow i don’t know how that translated to my interests???#like one moment im questioning my gender and the next i experience this thing of. not interested in anything #except dimension 20. that interest was still there thank god #but i suddenly didn’t feel like writing or drawing or making sanders sides stuff #i was just. tired and lost and it sucked #well there’s my little rant i’m gonna sleep now lol #tw dysphoria #rant #vent #don’t really know what to tag it as lmao #once again i’m better tonight so dw

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teddybearty · 11 months

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Hi I like the funny frog show 🐸

#amphibia #disney cartoons #anne boonchuy #sprig plantar #polly plantar #hopadiah plantar #hop pop plantar #mayor toadstool #toadie #so ye I binged this show this month #it was really silly and fun and heartwarming and heartbreaking #I love this show very much #100/10 would recommend #teddy's artwork #teddy's art #digital art

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imnothawkdevil · 1 year

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#so i watched the velocipastor #100/10 would recommend #barbie #barbie movie #the velocipastor #velocipastor #the barbie movie #velocibarbstor

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lennadanvers · 5 months

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Actually, Ghost is a pretty decent driver.

It's just that he has too much fun terrorizing the rest of the 141 to let them know.

#simon ghost riley #cod #ghost #besides have you tried joyriding a tank? 100/10 would recommend

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stick-by-me · 13 days

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Me 🐸

(From @jordydrawsmerch and her shop/Etsy!)

More like this from my collection: Stupid Horse (coming soon!)

#stickers #sticker collection #animals #individuals #Fun #Music #It's a reference to the song Frog on the Floor by 100 gecs btw :]#Great song. 15/10 would recommend #Etsy!#Frogs

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littlekinng · 7 months

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how's that for glorious purpose? - unintentionallyangsty - Loki (TV 2021) [Archive of Our Own]

#FIRST FIC IN OVER A YEAR LET'S GO BABEYYYY #i was fully 100% invested and working on an au #and this just sort of happened lmao #very cathartic though very healing #10/10 would recommend #loki fanfiction #loki fanfic #loki series #lokius #lokius fic #lokius fanfic #lokius fanfiction #loki series fic #loki series fanfic #loki and mobius #mobius and loki

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ghostie-jakxy-gray · 1 month

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aight, aside from the fact that 3 houses by Dave Malloy is now gonna Haunt My Waking Thoughts For The Week...

nah, that's it. The only pandemic play I can get behind. Proper amount of drunken revelry, fantastic amount of fairytale allegory, Yes She Does Smoke Weed, vindictive dragon spirits and knockoff tom nooks, cairns of amazon boxes, The Ending, The Set, The Parallels...

and the wolf. Gods help me, but I wanna kiss the wolf on his broken-toothed maw. dance with him. ask him for a metal straw. I'd be a furry for that wolf in his stupid knit sweater.

(And then, the harmonieeeeees my love, they're so perfect and ugly and pretty and the genre shifts and and and)

#I can go on #pleaasee ask me to go on #everybody with the ability to get tickets see this show #Signature does student tix for like 16 bucks seriously #regular tix I think are pretty cheap for theater too #During work breaks my roommates just gonna hear a faint “me and my weed and my currant wine...” humming out of my bed #cast album isn't even on spotify yet I cry #it's so good you guys #it's so so so good like you have to understand #I'm shaking you by the shoulders and staring deep into your eyes with the deranged glint of a starving madman #you want to see this show #you need to see this show #the world around me is breaking and crumbling and burning #and I'm gonna be stumbling through its ashes in a daze thinking about the Fucking Spider Above The Cairn #The pigs will be breaking my and mine's bodies over their knee on the fucking “free speech lawn”#and I'll be in the corner thinking about Mr. Malloy's Use Of Polyphony #100 out of 10 would recommend #it runs through June please support good art #when the world is depressing this is the stuff that makes us remember the light #go see it #Dave Malloy #3 Houses #Three Houses #pandemic fiction #theater #musicals #If I have to start this fandom by myself I Will #“three strangers with their pinkies entwined...”#<3

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archerofunspeakablelove · 4 months

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Finished Russian Roulette. Feeling sick again

#god the way that White Carnation was almost certainly meant to invoke the scene where he tried to kill himself #especially since it's placed right after it #so it's like. it's like the lesson he's learnt from that pretty much #and if he couldn't save himself #(because really the chances of him dying in that scene was 100% there was just a 1/6 chance he would physically survive)#if he couldn't save himself maybe he can save this woman.#im going to throw up #and the fact that he just. never sees Hunter ever again? kills me #he trusted once and never again. it was better to forget Hunter meant anything to him at all #the fact that he just “Hunter died a long time ago” and that's that?? I'm screaming #he doesn't even care anymore. or maybe he does but he can't afford to #and the fact that White Carnation gets deleted after you read it. what's up with that? maybe he reads it and decides it's not wise to #have proof that his humanity is still there if not intact #I've just been liveblogging myself reading this book tbh #wild ride. 10/10 would not recommend on the basis of the psychological damage it dealt me #russian roulette #alex rider #yassen gregorovich

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aimante · 14 days

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sometimes i miss sharing a room w my sister then i remember this girl sleeptalks

#loulitalks.#this acc traumatised me so bad u guys #i woke up in the middle of the night once when i was like 9 or 10 #and heard this voice talking ab grapes #gen thought there was a demon in the room #woke my mom up and brought her to the room talking ab hearing voices #then she ws like oh thats j ur sister LMAO #i acc dont know if she still does this we haven't shared a room in a while #having a sister w a close age gap is so fun btw 100% would recommend #<- shes younger than me by a year #also my only sibling

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loife1m · 8 months

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um finished reading The Chalice of The Gods.

so, finally, I can do this: *removes filtered tags.

anyway, spoilers down below!

thoughts and reviews:

first off, I cracked up at how casually the team greeted Ganymede??

Like guys. That is a literal god. It doesn’t matter if he’s the god of cups or cupbearers, he’s still a god.

anyway, the implication that Zeus was into guys, mainly over here,

made me search up: is Ganymede a lover of Zeus?

yes, ladies and gentlemen. yes he is.

and the Athena and Percy eye-convo? Absolutely top notch.

I’m talking abt this:

and then this:

ugh, I love it.

and Percy quoting Shakespeare (or SparkNotes, in his words) to Annabeth is something I didn’t know I needed.

I cried. they’ve come so far.

and the Jason page? Cried there too.

JASOOOOOOOOOOON [continues to bawl her eyes out]

anyway, that’s all I have to say. 100/10, Rick you slayed as always. go read the book

#100/10 rating #would definitely recommend #cotg #pjo cotg #the chalice of the gods #rick riordan #percy jackson #pjo

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feral-birb-husband · 1 year

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So silly so goofy

#it’s old but still makes me laugh lmao #like that would also be my reaction if I saw an extinct dragon alive right in front of me #the screenshot was from one persons video on here #idk the name but it’s popular #it’s showing how he emotes throughout the show #100/10 would recommend #tfp #soundwave #humanformers #feral’s funky doodles

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ilikedetectives · 18 days

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The most fun I had platinum-ing a game

#Little Kitty Big City #this game is so cuteeee 100/10 would recommend #colin plays cat game

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alexclaain · 4 months

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Anyone in search for someone to scream about dark heir with, optionally while playing games together haha? 👉👈

#dark heir #dark rise #i am being 100% serious #i feel like im going insane #friendship applications are OPEN #claain rambles #i speak english and german so we could scream in 2 languages abt it even #i promise i am only moderately cringe at all times #i do play overwatch though #but valorant and dead by daylight #which might count as a minus point to some #but i SWEAR 9 out of 10 friends would recommend me

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z-mizcellaneous-z · 1 year

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so i rode around in a shopping cart around my local Walmart with my friends and it got me thinking:

i 100% believe that bakugo has been pushed around in a shopping cart before on a late night snack shopping spree with the rest of the bakusquad i also think he would do what i did, which is go "y'all are so embarassing" and then get yelled at by everyone else because he is this whole 5'7 motherfucker sprawled out in a shopping cart in his pajamas holding onto his spicy ramen like its the answer

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